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Hello!
I'm in looooveeee with ur work <3
So I wanted to ask if you could do a fic about yandere toji who kidnapped chubby darling... but still degrades her....and after chubby darling has had enough, she lashes out on him. He punishes her (ăÏ)
and chubby darling escapes the first chance she gets to do so ( i would love a scene where darling tries to fight toji off!! )
I love your works âĄâĄâĄ
Thanks for reading this !
Byee (^-^)/
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there isn't a way to fight someone like toji.
he was built for the violence and anything that entails with it. killing someone is easy as ripping a paper and toji with his reputation as an assassin didn't sit with you well. knowing you were in his grasp with no way out.
since the day where he introduced you to your new home, it was hell. you were the outlet for his frustrations while you played the dutiful role of a housewife. a warm meal served to him when he comes home while he earns the cold cash. a clean home that devoid of any dirt and unwashed laundry that would had last for days without you and a pussy for him to warm his cock whenever he wants it and a body to use as an outlet for his frustrations.
the first time you showed resistance to him, you ended up with a sore ass that if he took it even further you'll end up with blistered skin from how harsh the spanking was and from how rough he was when he took you.
it was a warning to never do it again and if you did it again, you were dead meat long time ago. you didn't resist after that and you played along to his whims that it almost drove you crazy. you're not going to get chummy from a assassin who took you away from home. never.
doesn't mean that you never counted the days, crossing out the dates in the calendar will you ever be free to him.
sweat trickled down your forehead when you hear the front door open. his steps heavy and dull thud can be heard. you never pry what his bag contains. it was not your business and you don't want to be involved in whatever shady dealings he had.
you listened for a moment. toji can be unpredictable at times. sometimes when he lost in his gambling, he'll come home with that irritating look on his face and he calls for you. telling you to put him in a good mood and you never say anything and you take it with your lips sealed and movements that was almost robotic. it's only temporary is what you console yourself.
a shiver went down your spine when you felt toji's presence behind you. it feels like he wasn't almost there that's what got you here in the first place. you didn't see him coming. âwhat're you doin' princess.â you ignored him. biting the inside of your cheek to avoid any remarks that you will regret.
the brute of a man ignored your silence and his eyes travels to the sundress you wore. fitting like a glove to your plush body. âlooking pretty, dressing up for someone?â he sneers. cupping your sex behind you, his breath fanning your round cheek. you try not to wince.
âas if you'll let me go outside to meet someone.â you bite your tongue after that but you realize it's too late. well, might as continue it. say the things you'll get punished for.
a almost wheeze escapes through your lips. your hands scratching his arm but despite that, he remains unfazed. trying to pry his hands off you that is wrapping around your throat. it was enough to choke you without much cutting your air supply.
toji's voice were gravelly as he spoke. shaking his head in a manner that he can't believe what he was seeing and hearing. âyou still have the fire in you and i thought you lost it after shaping you to be my own personal bitch.â
âfuck you.â a choked gasp coming from you when he tightens his grip around your throat. âi'll never submit to someone like you.â wincing as you see the veins in his arms bulge and you were really pissing him off.
toji licks his lips. dragging to where his scar is. âoh, really?â he snarls. his eyes darkening like he wants to kill. his bloodlust was all over and you can feel it. âlet me see if i won't make you submit by doing thiââ
shards of glass came clattering on the cold floor. your hands came scrambling to whatever stuff it can get on and the vase was the first thing you had grabbed and without hesitation you slammed it to the side of his forehead. blood trickles where he was struck and it wasn't for toji to keel over. he only looks at you, annoyed like it wasn't a damage to be hit with a vase. this man took bullets and stab wounds and won't be alone defeated by being slammed with a vase.
angered by your action, with a strength that was easy for him, he slammed you to the cold marbled table of the kitchen that it almost cracked at the impact. you let out a cough. trying to get much air as you can. your air being cut off by being almost strangled let your mind forced to survived of possible scenarios to help you escape the danger you were in and without thinking, you kicked him hard as you can between his legs.
that loosens his grasp into you and giving him no more to recover, your eyes darts to the toaster resisting. it's funny how you look at it, and you doubt it can damage him further but it was better than nothing. you raised your arms holding the toaster and gathering all the anger you have for him and then slamming it behind his back. you hear him curse and without turning back, you ran.
grabbing a small bag that you prepared when push comes to shove and this was the time. after hastily putting your shoes on. you ran like the wind after slamming the door behind you.
without turning back and going for the nearest bus stop and with that, tears streamed down your face. not bothering the odd looks bystanders were giving you. cause for the first time you were free. free from that hell hole and yo his grasp. you ain't going back here and going to the farthest you only know.
this must be the taste of freedom and for the first time, you can breathe.
#â± âź shai's worksâžâž#chubby reader#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x chubby reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk toji#toji fushiguro#toji x reader#toji x you
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Hii idk if ur requests are open (if not ignore!!) but maybe first date ideas? (Specifically with Mammon and Beelzebub if thatâs ok!!) thank youuu :) <3
Don't worry they're open !!!! And I got you! <3 this is a cute little request I like it <3 Notes: Gender neutral reader!, typical hints at things getting spicier after the date
Your First Date with Mammon and Beelzebub !
Mammon
King of dates !
He can take you anywhere and everywhere that you desire, and he will!
For a first date though he's keeping it simple. Well, simple for Mammon.
And simple for Mammon means the fanciest restaurant in Hell that one can come by.
Think the most delicious meal you could possibly have and he WILL get it for you.
It's a first date, sure, but he's gonna spoil you a little bit already.
Beautiful bouquet, maybe some piece of jewelry or accessory that he knows you're likely to wear. He more than knows your style by this point.
Will take you on a walk through his favorite places in Tartaros afterwards, desires to show you the place where you're obviously gonna be spending the most time in now that you're together.
You will be getting the full "I am dating the King of Tartaros" treatment even though it's the first date.
He just really likes to see you happy. And the cost quite literally means nothing to him because he has everything. So if he can bring a smile to your face he'll glad dish out whatever amount he feels he needs to.
And well, if he gets a little something extra out of it too after your date, then he's not exactly complaining. <3
Beelzebub
See Bel could either take you on a really sweet first date or an absolute insane one.
Likelihood is it's gonna be a mixture of both!!
He wants you to have fun, and even with a date he's not exactly the best at sitting still so you're likely to do more than one activity.
First off! Probably one of his favorite clubs! Of course if it's a bit too much for you you guys can skip it, you can go dancing just about anywhere after all! But he does want to dance with you!
And he if gets a little touchy in the club (or wherever you decide to go) then it's so fine. He can't help but love having his hands on you at all times.
Next stop, one of his favorite places to get a meal! And by meal I mean a feast. It's a feast. He'll tell you fun little stories about his adventures as you two eat, and even share ideas of places he's gone that he wants to take you! Which is plenty.
Honestly if you didn't have such an important job currently as Solomon's Descendant he would be dragging you around everywhere. Which is exactly what he plans to do any date opportunity you guys get from now on.
Probably leaves the tab for Bael to deal with (rip him). And immediately whisks you off to whatever sort of theme park they have in Hell.
Takes you on any ride he can possibly get you on. If you say no to anything adrenaline inducing it's fine, but if you decide to go he gets excited hoping that you'll hold onto him tightly.
If you don't he's slightly pouty, but he's still happy you're having fun!!!
Will win a couple of prizes for you, naturally. He's gotta show off a little bit!
Will round off the date by taking you back to Gehenna, will give you a kiss and leave if you desire, however, if you wanna have a little bit more fun, he can stick around for a bit long as well.
#what in hell is bad#whb#whb mammon#whb beelzebub#what in hell is bad x reader#whb x reader#whb mammon x reader#whb beelzebub x reader
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i looked at ur works and was like.. yo. ANYWAYS do u make like those imagines or thoughts thing whatever it's called? if so, pls pls pls make one for how the kats let yoonchae sleep on them when she gets too tired (based on what sophia said abt her being able to sleep anywhere)
also can i be đč anon
this is my first impression of you btw BUT WE đâïžđŻ p.s. the fics rotting in my drafts will (hopefully) be posted next week since i have break, this was the quickest thing i can do for rn đ
i also believe yoonchae is rlly cuddly in secret
SLEEPYHEAD ~ J.YC
sophia ; she's not keen on skinship. she'll probably just stand there with her hand out, holding yoonchae's head while the younger is getting her makeup done so 1; the makeup artist doesn't have to constantly wake her up to finish the look, and 2; she has something at least little more comfortable than a chair that's not high enough to lay her head on. yoonchae is super grateful that sophia does this so her neck doesn't feel like crap afterwards. though there are times sophia will let yoonchae be held by her, preferring to be big spoon because it will deter her pride and ego if she were to ever be little spoon.
manon ; whenever yoonchae is in the mood for a nap and wants to cuddle up but the majority of the kats are gone or busy, she can and will always find manon on the couch either watching tv or doing something on her phone. yoonchae will just go up to manon and sit down next her, curling up against the older and falling asleep with her cheek resting on manon's shoulder. (manon loves this ofc and habitually pat yoonchae's knee so she falls asleep faster)
daniela ; during practice, yoonchae gets exhausted the fastest and needs extra sleep for energy. daniela is the first one to notice every time and will request at least a 20 min break for yoonchae. daniela knows to dim the lights and sit on the ground with her legs straight, yoonchae immediately laying downâ on her back or sidewaysâ and rests her head on daniela's lap. the older will play with her hair while humming yoonchae's fav songs softly. (it's so common, the staffs fixed the schedules so there's a 20-30 min block titled 'yoonchip's break')
lara ; yoonchae is the most cuddly with lara, fight me if you disagree. like she'll go into lara and megan's room and slip into bed with lara. the older always accepts with wide, open arms, tucking the younger's head under her chin. yoonchae willingly buries her face into lara's collarbone or neck, occasionally taking deep breaths to take in the scent of lara's clothes that she finds really, really comforting. instead of humming, lara will probably sing some wave to earth song, running her hand through yoonchae's hair, twirling it before letting it go.
megan ; her and yoonchae always sit next to each other in the company van or car idk whether the others like it or not. yoonchae falls asleep the fastest while in a moving vehicle, her eyes drooping five minutes into the trip. megan offers her shoulder, which yoonchae quickly accepts, dropping her head onto the shoulder and closing her eyes. megan also likes holding yoonchae's hand so she usually finds herself running her thumb over yoonchae's knuckles or just having their hand(s) intertwined in general while the youngest sleeps.
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i love yoonchae.
#hwon answers#đč anon#hwonnrinji#katseye#katseye imagines#sophia laforteza#meret manon#daniela avanzini#lara raj#jeong yoonchae#megan skiendiel#kpop gg#kpop imagines
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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It's deeply important to me that Loop kind of sucks
#they are literally awesome but they do kinda suck. just a tad#mostly as in i keep thinking about lucabyte's comics. they are critical to me#i love isat's postcanon as a space to explore recovery and communication#but sometimes you kind of have to drag urself through glass to get there. sometimes the glass sticks in ur skin and makes u prickly#i think constantly about like. loop being surprised by siffrin's kindness if u choose to be nice to them in certain dialogue options.#remarking about how time has made them jaded more than he is#loop is fundamentally kind. but they are scantly ever 'nice'#i think if loop joins the party it's inevitable that they are going to make each other bristle up#loop has a difficult time with all of the party members. between the guilt and the loss and them just not being capital s Siffrin#and to the party who only knows loop from one interaction and siffrin's apparent care for them i think loop would come off. abrasive at bes#like. like i dont think loop would act the same with the party that they do siffrin. their mask is very Piss Siffrin Off specialized#but how much of ur persona is an act and how much of it is yourself. or whatever. loop wouldn't want to be mean to their friends sure#but it's much easier not to hurt if you wedge some distance. no better way to get that distance by being offputting. i think isabeau esp#would get the brunt of this. poor man#plus there's just hte general fact that like. nobody likes the feeling of talking to somebody who clearly knows too much about them. who#will never show their own cards. added with the fact that there's just an inherent strangeness w loop. where they have a relationship to#siffrin thru the loops that none of the party members will ever grasp (and in a way they cant even guess frankly!)#i just have a hard time seeing loop's assimilation into the party as going smooth and nice. you know. i think the party members would think#that loop kinda sucks a little. i think loop would let them think this. all of this being said this is not irreconcilable or permanent#but i like there to be growing pains for the party's expansion. i won't even get into nille bc this aint abt her but yah#the lucky thing loop is you made friends with a lot of really nice people who would being willing to get to know you again.#isat spoilers
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hi friends! sorry this isn't content, i just like to keep you updated.
my bipolar is in a gnarly depression down swing right now which makes it really hard to write even though there is so much i want to get done. like, i have been trying to write for the past couple of days and i just write so much and say nothing and delete everything.
next week, my lead teacher for kinder will be out for the next three days and while i am excited to lead, i am extremely nervous to run an entire classroom by myself especially when the heat has been insane. so i've been frazzled and probably will be for a lot of next week. </3
all this to say, i am very sorry that not a lot is going on; it's not for lack of trying, but i'm just having a lot of trouble putting on a brave face and am upset with the way my content is turning out. ( not to complain more but i think i developed a weird skin condition from all the sweat and stress i'm under so i'm just uncomfy and sad. )
i will try to post when i can, i am really looking forward to my asks and i am glad you all still care about my stuff -- i am very passionate about that and about all of you.
if you can...also, please be gentle with me. i know i'm just a girl on the internet and it doesn't happen often, but sometimes the way that i am addresed in the box is...not super paitent or nice. if you do send in ask, please think before you do so and remember that i am on the other side reading it and that i am a little fragile.
especially about my appearance ( i cannot look in the mirror, i feel ghastly ) and really do not like getting yelled or spoken to with a tone of aggression. again...not often, but it does make me sad.
but i love you all v much. i hope you all heal and i hope to post soon, but my face is swollen and i haven't smiled in a couple days because when i get really sad i can't emote properly. but my heart smiles for all of you. thank you for your love and your light.
-uncle nina
#nina speaks#sorry to be a mental health basketcase#but yeah i just#i'm very depressed i have to teach kinder by myself for three days like not even kinder its more like pre-k#its very hot i am sweating and lesson planning and my skin is like moderately discolored and my cheek is swollen#i feel very ugly and sad and i still cant smile like its so terrible just if u send something u never have to#but if you do all i ask is you use kind words bc i cannot get yelled at and if u joke please be gentle i love you#i hate to b kgarten nina but i am a person and sometimes i feel like i am being spoken to like im a thing in a box#i love you i love you i love you and whatever ur going through do not stop i know its hard we will get through this
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anyways all my homies love felix fathom, mf was doing what the social services could never do â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž king shit
#he really said 'hey i snaped ur abusive parents out of existence'#AND THE CROWD GOES WILDDD#FELIX COME HERE PLEEAAASSSEEEEE SPSPSPSPPSPSPPSPS I HAVE SOME NEW PARENTS FOR U TO THANOS SNAP PLLLEEEAAASSSEEEE#best villian motivation top tier he was so right i am a felix appologist until the end PLEASE come to my house and do ur evil schemes felix#PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS#nah the finale really said 'gabriel was just a good nice guy really deep depp deep deep deep down' I HATE YOU MIRACULOUS WRITERS I HATE YOU#ALSO HOW DARE GABRIEL MAKE ADRIEN GO THROUGH THAT ???!??!?!??!#TO HAVE YOUR ABUSIVE PARENT DIE AND THEN BE TOLD BY THE PERSON YOU LOVE THAT YOUR ABUSIVE FATHER WAS GOOD REALLY AND THAT HE LOVED U AND#DIED TO SAVE YOU AND EVERYONE IN PARIS#WHEN REALLY HE WAS A FUCKING TERRORIST AS WELL AS AN ABUSIVE PARENT#THE AMOUNT OF THERAPY THIS POOR BOY IS GOING TO NEED#I ALREADY NEEDED SO MUCH THERAPY BECAUSE OF MY ABUSIVE PARENTS I CAN NOT EVEN IMAGINE HOW BAD ITS GONNA BE FOR ADRIEN#THE SURVIVORS GUILT IS GONNA BE ABSOLUTELY BATSHIT INSANE.....#WHATEVER INHERITANCE ADIREN GOT BETTER COVER THERAPY COSTS AT LEAST GO DAMN#GABRIEL DO 1 ACTUALLY GOOD THING FOR UR SON AND SEND HIM TO THERAPY SO HE CAN RECOVER FROM UR ABUSE SJAHJASHKJK#ok im done tldr fuck gabriel stan felix <333 KASHJSHKJ#miraculous ladybug#mlb#felix fathom#gabriel agreste#miraculous#miraculous finale#miraculous season 5#miraculous spoilers#myposts
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Do ppl genuinely think jinx blew up the council for the liberation of zaun
#actually I need to rewatch bc from what I remember#jinxâs ideals are making silco happy like I donât see her actually upset about what ppl are going through or wanting real change or whatever#like i think sheâll def be some sort of hope to some ppl of zaun due to the action#but like. that was pure malice that wasnât Justice for zaun#she killed powder for killing her family the first time and she killed the council for killing silco#Bc jinx couldnât have done it since sheâs perfect silco said so#and this isnât a violence isnât the answer thing NO#i think ekko should blow up the council too and I hate that heâs hanging with that rat#heimerdinger and cailtyn are the same to me theyâre both annoying#stay away from zaunites ty#youâve done ENOUGH#the audacity to argue with ekko about who enforcers are#âthe Ppl dont want my help :(â ok kys. ez#Uhm anyways thatâs very subjective and again Iâm biased against piltover theyâre literally nothing new to me#point is I donât think jinx is the revolutionary some of yâall tout her to be#i know itâs scary but if u want that ur gonna have to focus on a black character outside his white potential LI#I KNOW I KNOW! itâs new to you itâs hard you canât see him as anything besides smth ur fave reacts to#but if u want the person protecting zaunites as best as they can bc they love zaun itself#Ur gonna have to look past the sad white girl#difference between jinx and ekko is oppression shaping a rebellious personality vs the choice to rebel and do better for your people#not in a theory vs praxis way but in whoâs actually concerned with others welfare and how zaun will move forward#while ekko is willing to use violence for his cause heâs more worried about keeping his own ppl safe which could potentially set him down#the road vander went - as opposed to vi who was like. traumatized into working with pilties this soon#Itâd be a slow road for him. but also take into account he saw vander go down that path before and if itâs one thing heâs good at itâs#learning from the past. bring in how the silco and vander wonât repeat itself bc jinx whoâs angrier at piltover and life in general than she#is hopeful for zaun might have to be forced to gain that compassion once interpersonally interacting with zaunites some who may genuinely#look up to her as a leader as opposed to local drug lords lapdog is gonna have to buck up and take responsibility#obvi vi and powder are vander silco foils duh but the way Iâm thinking ekko and jinx could potentially be#wait for it#what couldve been
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iâm gonna be s o o o o annoying about chuucon come 12 june
#im begging for there to be an online bonus for this bc aauauuauauauauauauauauauaaaaa#the month delay has been b r u t a l i need my high quality yunaisms asap aaaaa#and now. time to think about whether to tl or not to tl it⊠ahhhhâŠ#on one hand. it has y u n a . i think everyone needs to meet and love yuna. most normal aizo stan ever (lies)#come to think of it why are aizo stans all so aggressive lol there was that one who picked a fight with kobayashi#there was kanami who âaccidentallyâ bumped into aizo during his downtime#and thereâs whateverâs going on with chizuutan and yuna lol#aizo stans be normal challenge!!!!!!!#hm. maybe i should just throw some out of context yuna panel tls instead to make everyone (including myself) miserable#bc thereâs no wayyyayayayaayayayyyyy im gonna do this alone esp if do i get [insert job im not qualified for]#i dont think hospital workers will have enough time to tl more than one project at a time lol. um.#anyways iâll try to get this other lxl magazine tl done this weekend and finally!!!!! return to idol sengen after that!!!!!!!!#i wanna barrel through vols 4-5 as fast as i possibly can for âšasuna-chanâš#hmammamsmmamsmamamma i think asuna and yuna should be mutuals on priv#pov ur online besties with a girl who also cancels her gf on priv just like you do with ur own gf#flashtag womens wrongs flashtag this too is yuri#idk sorry im too tired to be coherent rn thinking is for the w e a k#chizuutan chizpost#âŠfor a chizuutan post this was remarkably not about her huhâŠ#lord i forgot to turn of rbs a g a i n what if i crode
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the real way i know im a 7H sun and not a 8H sun (my exact time of birth is unknown) is that ive always been enamored with sagittariuses with heavy neptune aspects/pisces placements, but it never clicked to me that im also jupiterian/neptunian (im a pisces sun & jupiter), like... ive been solely focused on seeing the beauty, optimism, and good in others, but i only started seeing those same traits in myself once i saw myself in my ideal partners and related myself to them, like a mirror! đ silly goose!!
#sorry if this post doesnt make sense but it makes sense to me!#ive been so focused on my 8H aries stellium that i didnt get to explore my jupiterian side until later in life đ#im SO glad to finally be acquainted with this side of me though!#im stupidly optimistic i see the good in everything!! im lazy as hell too and live a minimal life đ#my sun & moon are both at taurus degrees though so that just makes me even more self indulgent tbh ghsjf#i just do whatever i want ... i dont like responsibilities. no i will not clean my room. id rather make art all day and go on walks#home is like a prison a cage a haunted room (im the one haunting it)#then i go touch grass and suddenly i remember that outside is Good and outside is Life#but yea i love sags SO much theyre like my better half đ#i have learned so much about myself through my relations with â peeps đ„ș#its SUCH a difficult thing to do though bc sags are literally nowhere to be seen#u guys are cryptids#ive only ever met 2 of you đ u rly are out there living ur lives huh...#while im living the same life as u but only in my head#its fascinating đ„č#txt
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lmaooooo i think i need to quit teaching forever and also bury myself in a hole. lol
#purrs#grading papers on a sunday and the WAYYYYY this one students paper just hurt my feelings so fucking bad. i mean itâs not just hers but like.#god. itâs the most childish thing in the world (which makes sense / is the literal problem. that i am a child.) but im coteaching this class#(WHICH I TOOK and my co-instructors were MY instructors and now im replacing one of them whoâs also the one who left in july lol đđđđđđ) and#ive had WICKED impostor syndrome bc⊠not to air it all out but im airing it all out bc im so mad lol. theyâre both older men with phds and w#wives and families and im a 24 year old in the first year of her career with a bachelors degree who stilllives at home w her parents and#also the two of them and the third instructor literaly developed this class together and again i TOOK IT as a student in their class 2 years#ago. so again⊠WICKED impostor syndrome. and the class is all abt figuring out how to thrive in different contexts that are constrained by s#social norms so itâs relevant to talk abt impostor syndrome and i have talked about it. and also i get substantial parts to lead in the#classes and whatever and take attendance and grade papers and send out emails to the whole class etc etc. so WHY are the other two#instructors getting shoutouts in the papers and i am getting⊠NOTHING!!!! naught a SINGLE mention. when i am literally fucking LIVING#THROUGH the things weâre taking abt in class abt the first year of ur career and impostor syndrome and shitâŠâŠ. oh iknow why! because they#donât actually see me as an instructor because im short and a nothing girl and an IMPOSTOR!!!!! LOLLLLL đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„° and the book chapter was the#same too lol like im the only co-author who doesnât actually get individually named as making a contribution in the text of it and nobody#noticed but me because itâs a stupid thing to notice but i still noticed. awesome. i love being invisible and not actually mattering â„ïž <#<- has the mental illness that makes you utterly unable to see evidence of how you actually do matter and only hyperfocus on the evidence th#that you donât <- but also is trapped in the psychijc prison of some parts of her environment telling her she does matter and other parts t#telling her she doesnât so can you blame her for going CRAZY!!!!!!!!! like is this literally not the normal well adjusted reaction to have#to GENUINELY LEGITIMATELY JUSTIFIABLY upsetting thigns. when the circumstances are fucked up and deleterious đđđđđđ#delete later#oh also im apparently not even an official instructor in Da System (which is a problem and it is not supposed to be that way) so i wonât#even get to read abt how the students fucking forgot about me and think im a nothing girl because they wonât even have a chance to give me#that feedback!!! lol. i think * and * should just do everything together because they are both qualified to do it. and i should spin off#into the abyss and quit my job and never be heard from again. thatâs how this shit makes me feel. like ik itâs just a couple of students and#their opinions literally donât matter but im like hm how about i go fuck off then since clearly i donât make a difference to you. lole <3#* i wonât get that feedback etc etc bc i am not going to get course evals because im not in Da System. lol â„ïž
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Winning a prize personally by being someone's "well, this trope isn't usually my style, but i know this author is Really Good at writing so i'll check it out anyways" author
#we speak#if you are the person we're talking about here: points at u. <3<3<3#at some point we will post works that are slightly more fluffy#but unfortunately you will have to deal with the fact that we fucking love morally dubious idiots and we also fucking love Situations#at all times we are looking between our works where bad things happen and our works where its just a passive Emotion Swirl#and then picking Bad Things Happen bc we think its fun#eventually we will get around to fluffier stuff we're just allergic to not swirling in a few bonus emotions#we are sorry but we have tried! we cannot write straight fluff. we need smth extra to make it interesting#otherwise our brain simply Does Not latch on#we salute the brave fluff makers out there for being capable of creating straight up fluff its not generally our style and we dont know#how to make it#is it really a tender moment if u do not get there through daring ur friend to eat u while still like 50% sure u might die#perhaps with a tiny bit of the impulsive want of âif im going to risk death then its gonna be at the claws of someone i loveâ#we think not. also bc something something love we find the need to note our vi is Very Aro. this is due to The Aro Anxiety#us writing anything about love: but what if they think its... ROMANTIC??? oh gods the horrors the horrors#that said we do not think team snakemouths relationship fits into any relationship definition#and if we ever write a relationship chart for whatever reason their dynamic will be listed as âteam snakemouthâ#right next to mothiva and zasps âin love and incapable of not being weird abt itâ and levi and celias âmarried (immigration purposes)"#they sure are team snakemouth. people look at them and go âthats team snakemouth all rightâ.#you could ask thirty different people and get thirty different answers as to their relationship and they would all be wrong#anyways. we've derailed somewhat. we are part of the *checks*#...77.1% of the whump community that is aspec and we like to do funky fresh pain things#alas it is one of the many things that must be tolerated about us and our writing. however if u follow us ur probably fine#we are most obnoxious on our tumblr blog where u have to choose to enter bc we are secure in the knowledge that u can leave at any time#we dont need to tone ourself down here! theres a bunch of buttons u can use to choose our volume for urself! its fucking great!#gods we love being obnoxious on the internet it is SO much fun. more people should do this#its also fun to post things abt fics that we may not finish for months at a time. we love to do that#we will get around to all of our works eventually but the wait will be Long. in the meantime u get to see us talking abt how cool we are
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STOP DOING THIS IN INJURY FICS!!
Bleeding:
Blood is warm. if blood is cold, youâre really fucking feverish or the person is dead. itâs only sticky after it coagulates.
It smells! like iron, obv, but very metallic. heavy blood loss has a really potent smell, someone will notice.
Unless in a state of shock or fight-flight mode, a character will know theyâre bleeding. stop with the âi didnât even feel itâ yeah you did. drowsiness, confusion, pale complexion, nausea, clumsiness, and memory loss are symptoms to include.
blood flow ebbs. sometimes itâs really gushinâ, other times itâs a trickle. could be the same wound at different points.
itâs slow. use this to your advantage! more sad writer times hehehe.
Stab wounds:
I have been mildly impaled with rebar on an occasion, so let me explain from experience. being stabbed is bizarre af. your body is soft. you can squish it, feel it jiggle when you move. whatever just stabbed you? not jiggly. it feels stiff and numb after the pain fades. often, stab wounds lead to nerve damage. hands, arms, feet, neck, all have more motor nerve clusters than the torso. fingers may go numb or useless if a tendon is nicked.
also, bleeding takes FOREVER to stop, as mentioned above.
if the wound has an exit wound, like a bullet clean through or a spear through the whole limb, DONT REMOVE THE OBJECT. character will die. leave it, bandage around it. could be a good opportunity for some touchy touchy :)
whump writers - good opportunity for caretaker angst and fluff w/ trying to manhandle whumpee into a good position to access both sites
Concussion:
despite the amnesia and confusion, people ainât that articulate. even if theyâre mumbling about how much they love (person) - if thatâs ur trope - or a secret, itâs gonna make no sense. garbled nonsense, no full sentences, just a coupla words here and there.
if the concussion is mild, theyâre gonna feel fine. untilâŠ.bam! out like a light. kinda funny to witness, but also a good time for some caretaking fluff.
Fever:
you die at 110F. no 'oh no his fever is 120F!! ahhh!â no his fever is 0F because heâs fucking dead. you lose consciousness around 103, sometimes less if itâs a child. brain damage occurs at over 104.
ACTUAL SYMPTOMS:
sluggishness
seizures (severe)
inability to speak clearly
feeling chilly/shivering
nausea
pain
delirium
symptoms increase as fever rises. slow build that secret sickness! feverish people can be irritable, maybe a bit of sass followed by some hurt/comfort. never hurt anybody.
ALSO about fevers - they absolutely can cause hallucinations. Sometimes these alter memory and future memory processing. they're scary shit guys.
fevers are a big deal! bad shit can happen! milk that till its dry (chill out) and get some good hurt/comfort whumpee shit.
keep writing u sadistic nerds xox love you
ALSO I FORGOT LEMME ADD ON:
YOU DIE AT 85F
sorry I forgot. at that point for a sustained period of time you're too cold to survive.
pt 2
also please stop traumadumping in the notes/tags, that's not the point of this post. it's really upsetting to see on my feed, so i'm muting the notifs for this post. if you have a question about this post, dm me, but i don't want a constant influx of traumatic stories. xox
#writing tips#writing advice#writing help#writblr#how to write#fiction writing#for writers#on writing#writing stuff#writer life
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in regards to last reblog (specifically my tags on it), very friendly reminder that i would love to receive asks, i promise u will not be bothering me. Just be prepared cuz depending on what u say i may ramble on and on.
#josh talks#here's a prompt for some of yall to possibly send to my ask box#if you aren't in some of my fandoms that i reblog a lot of stuff from#what impression do you have from what little you have osmosed through me or in general?#i loooove hearing outsider's views of fandoms and stuff its always very funny and often quite interesting too#esp In Stars And Time#i am quite curious what people may assume/gathered about it#but yea u could say stuff like that or just say hi or send me a question#basically anything really!#it can be an opinion on a fandom or ship or an artstyle question or whatever#or if u wanna rant about a fandom in common that would be cool too#im a very anxious person so i totally get the hesitation to send asks#so feel free to go anon#and remember u are not bothering me in the slightest! i would love to hear from u!#and if its been like. a really long time. and i havent answered ur ask.#theres a fair chance Tumblr Is Being Weird and like ate the ask#so i wouldnt mind u sending it again. probably#ive never gotten an ask i didnt know how to respond to but i occassionally get strange messages that i just dont know how to respond to#theres this person on instagram that keeps sending me very nonsensical messages with no context and i feel a little bad#that ive never responded. but i just really dont know what to say and they make me anxious.#so yea just a tip if u are gonna send messages/asks maybe remember I Don't Know You#so u gotta provide context maybe say hi#before saying certain stuff#cuz if u dont i may be either confused uncomfortable or anxious about the message and may not respond due to that
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i think ive been in a constant state of melancholy
#or im losing my mind#idk i was 'normal' for like 3 weeks i was functioning making shit doing work girlbossing if you will#and i was driving yesterday and i keep breaking cuz i see people everywhere just crossing the street and shit without a care#and my mom lept getting mad at me cuz allegedly there was nobody there#so im like hm. even tho its fl ppl in my area have sense so i know what im seeing isnt real so its whtvr ill manage#and then im driving but i cant focus cuz my head is yelling st me to swerve and drive through buildings or swerve off the road cuz#âif u dont now then something much worse will hit you later and itll be fatalâ so i went home. and now i just have a pit of dread or sadnes#or nostalgia or whtvr#the pit is unrelated to the thoughts and shit. i think its always been there and im jusg aware of it#like yknow how ur always breathing but it becomes manual when ur aware? ya. but it hurts#my throat feels like its closing up my chest and stomach is heavy im crying somethn js happening idk what#it could b nostalgia cuz im thinking ab my friends j dont talk to anymore. could be dread ab my future cuz j lowk donr have a plan#could b melancholy (a word ive been looking for for forever and just remembered) could be some type of panic/anxiety attack#idk. idk idk idk#l speaks#shut up l#ranting in the tags because i can#but its 2 am i gotta b up at 9 for mass so hopefully i can sleep off whatever this js#i am going to pretend its nothint serious because i like to drive i love driving and i am normal and i cant afford shit going wrong now.
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I should be allowed as a tiefling to make obvious comments to wyll like âwoag ur sharper than I am, coolâ and have him be like. I mean. I did. come about it by different means yes. Alas, Iâll just imagine tâevye staying the obvious to his companions and the just sorta blinking to try and figure out if sheâs wanting to hear their thoughts or really only just noticing it
#nobody:#me making a character Iâm gonna project on: and their gender is so [loud static]#tâev came from tav but slightly off and I decided they needed a bit more name than that for the replay (bc running through the game is#somehow less intimidating than redoing the final boss fight lmao) and um. sometimes ur a tiefling. wake up a rogue and start barding bc of a#pretty tiefling. (she lives bc I likey her and donât wanna b sads abt it later lol) and canât remember shit and go hm. ok yeah my gender is#whatever. we have bigger problems. after itâs all said and done someone is like hey did u ever get a solid answer? bc u said u werenât sure#and tâevye is like oh would you look at the time I need to go water my pet rock#also I think the game shouldâve actually given wyll claws and forked tongue if they were gonna do those lines. but mayb thatâs just the#monsterfucker in me. i love when characters fangs u see#bg3 posting#tâev absolutely asks to feel wyllâs horns. to see if they feel different. sits him and karlach down one night to compare notes nodnod#ALSO#TEV STARTS WITH THE HORNS WITH THE GOLD JEWELRY BUT THEY GROW#and sheâs sooooo sad when the gold bits donât fit the same anymore nodnod#goes âitâs fine Iâll get them refitted in baldurs gate!â#and then they reach the city and um. thereâs bigger problems lol#whatâs a girl supposed to do when he canât be extra shiny!!!#howâs ve supposed to be all prettyboy if she canât shiny!!!
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