#its very hot i am sweating and lesson planning and my skin is like moderately discolored and my cheek is swollen

[boxwinebaddie]

hi friends! sorry this isn't content, i just like to keep you updated.

my bipolar is in a gnarly depression down swing right now which makes it really hard to write even though there is so much i want to get done. like, i have been trying to write for the past couple of days and i just write so much and say nothing and delete everything.

next week, my lead teacher for kinder will be out for the next three days and while i am excited to lead, i am extremely nervous to run an entire classroom by myself especially when the heat has been insane. so i've been frazzled and probably will be for a lot of next week. </3

all this to say, i am very sorry that not a lot is going on; it's not for lack of trying, but i'm just having a lot of trouble putting on a brave face and am upset with the way my content is turning out. ( not to complain more but i think i developed a weird skin condition from all the sweat and stress i'm under so i'm just uncomfy and sad. )

i will try to post when i can, i am really looking forward to my asks and i am glad you all still care about my stuff -- i am very passionate about that and about all of you.

if you can...also, please be gentle with me. i know i'm just a girl on the internet and it doesn't happen often, but sometimes the way that i am addresed in the box is...not super paitent or nice. if you do send in ask, please think before you do so and remember that i am on the other side reading it and that i am a little fragile.

especially about my appearance ( i cannot look in the mirror, i feel ghastly ) and really do not like getting yelled or spoken to with a tone of aggression. again...not often, but it does make me sad.

but i love you all v much. i hope you all heal and i hope to post soon, but my face is swollen and i haven't smiled in a couple days because when i get really sad i can't emote properly. but my heart smiles for all of you. thank you for your love and your light.

-uncle nina