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#toh#the owl house#the collector#toh the collector#the collector toh#emperor belos#belos#belos toh#this is like all vaguely half assed#based on that one is that your fucking fursona? thats cringe meme#drawing the collector is so fun#i know they cant actually hold stuff#as a shadow#but i take creative liberties here#this is also the first time ive draw belos lol#i really enjoyed drawing the collector so happy :)
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uh oh guys, hot take alert:
i think revali may have invented hand held aerial archery HEAR ME OUT- (this is a long one boys)
okay. evidence one: why the fuck would a rito shoot like that. like, it makes nearly zero sense, it would be such a hindrance to their flight and their main stake is that they can be higher than you can shoot whilst still pinging you... which revali has overcome with his gale
evidence two: tulin and the concept arts. obviously rito style archery would be held in their talons. before totk came out idk if anyone had really thought about it too much, but the developers had, as you can see in concept art (from the creating a champion book). and like, its logical, powerful, and allows for peak maneuverability. also, when in flight revali (and teba) holds his bow in his talons before switching to his wings. surely its easier to keep it in your wing (obvi ignoring the effects to flight but hes doing that anyway firing the damn thing) rather than switch back and forth- unless you were taught that way, because why would you hold it elsewhere, you need it in your talons to shoot.
evidence three: we dont see any other rito do it (...kind of). throughout botw and totk, we never see another rito flying with a bow in their hands. in totk, its mostly tulin, who holds it in his talons, but in botw the big one is teba. during the medoh quest, he actually gives *link* his bow, and therefore does no shooting in the sky. teba and harth had both tried to take on medoh before, but we never see this, and while they holds their bows in their hands *on the ground,* we dont see it.
...except for aoc (uh, spoilers?). there are two times we see a rito other than revali hold their bow in their hand for aerial archery. but it is not with any rito soldiers, either during cutscenes (the bows are only on their backs) or gameplay (they swoop down, and then hand hold bows on ground. they arent seen flying at all but thats prolly for the same reasons as botw: its very hard to code that (and so they write the lore around that fact)). the first time we actually see another rito do this, we dont see it. Its teba, as he comes thru the portal, but all we see is the arrow shot, and then him freeze frame with the bow in one wing. we dont see the bow in his hand for the rest of the fight. the second time we actually see him fighting like this, it *is* in the air, but its noticeably different to revali.
hes a lot slower, it clearly takes a LOT more effort to shoot the bow, and he only pulls off one arrow at a time. its canon that revalis bow is heavier/harder to draw, and he manages to effortlessly stream arrows whilst fucking floating midair. i think teba, forever a revali fanboy, heard of how the champion mastered his own style of archery and sought to teach himself, but lacked one key thing: revalis mastery of wind.
evidence three point five: revali could easily use his powers to hold him in the air longer/slow his descent long enough for him to fire his shots. it makes sense, really. if he can use his gale to propel him, he can sit on the updraft for a hot sec, or even curve the path to carry him along while he lines up the shot. this would mean he wouldnt need to flap as much as other rito, who would obviously need to keep flying
evidence four: revalis fighting style and his needs. revali works with non rito, obviously. he needs to be able to communicate with them on the battlefield, and they wont understand the muffled chirps if he holds his string in his beak, so he needs his mouth free to speak hylian. also, revalis main tactic is fly up with gale, shoot, fall, either shoot more or use velocity and weight to knock around opponents, and then fly back up. he often needs both feet planted firmly on the ground to get a good hold of his gale, something that is harder to do if you have a bow in the way.
also, take for example the kick he delivers link in their fight (aoc). that would possibly damage the bow, or give the opponent a chance to grab his weapon, if he held it in his talons. and to switch from feet to back is a risky maneuver during freefall, and could lose precious seconds, and then when you get back in the air you need to get it off your back again. its much easier to keep the bow loosely in your wing the whole time, meaning your free to attack melee, land and rise all while not wasting a single moment getting your next shot lined up.
so yeah, i think the rito used the talon grip for aerial archery, and would often use the hand held method on the ground for a variety of reasons (more powerful shots?, easier in some situations like hunting), but revali was perhaps the first to use hand held aerial, another reason he was one of the greatest archers ever.
#you cant fly and i cant hold a bow in my wings midair so this is the perfect middleground to#fight each other on but jokes on you i literally invented new archery to beat this flaw and im going to kick ur ass and/or teach it to you#its late rn i hope this makes sense#also from a revalink perspective its giving#idk i might go back through this in the morning and clean it up but probably not i have never done that before i always forget about it#this came to me as i was talking to myself trying to justify WHY ON EARTH rito would shoot like that when i went#“wait. have we even seen other rito do that.” and the answer was basically not it was only one other guy#important to note that 1- those two times we see teba do it hes on vah medoh which has A LOT of updrafts and wind which would make it easie#and 2- his moveset is all very close to the ground and often doesnt involve a lot of actual flying so im choosing to be selective about it#god DAYUM i love thinking about these birds#revali#teba#harth#tulin#rito#botw#totk#aoc#loz#archery stuff#hoping a certain moot sees this and gives their opinions bc i know they know archery stuff#moss' madness
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it should be said that some of you are way too dorky about laika
#emergency broadcast system#like okay name another animal that went to space. just one. an american one maybe? no? just soviets bad dog killers?#you say id rather have a very pampered dog that doesnt know whats happening before during or after to die in space than a human who does#and everyone loses their minds on dork.com (tumblrs true domain title)#i am fine with people who acknowledge that she was very well cared for and loved. and i like her being a symbol of space exploration#because its a very important study that we needed live subjects to continue. and if she is emblematic of that i hold no ill regard#however when people are like wahh scientists killed laika baby dog poor pupper whateverrr#name another dog. a monkey maybe. other animals went to space and died. and had names. and caretakers. and many lived too#name a living non human animal that went to space. theres dozens. a cat even. whats her name. what about the tortoises. many hatched eggs.#like oh my god theres so much interesting stuff. also name a human thats not the first man in space nor the first two men on the moon.#actually just name the other guy that was there with neil armstrong and buzz aldrin. if you cant pass this bare minimum you cant-#-web weave all day about laika. especially as an american
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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hi i have a bit of an odd question and im so sorry if it comes off as rude at all!
ive seen a lot of your posts about canes, i have hEDS and chronic pain and im trying to convice my mom and my doctor to let me have a mobility aid. my mom is very adamant that i dont need a cane because i dont have balance issues, but my knees and ankles are pretty much always aching. i was just wondering if you think a cane would help with chronic pain or if i should look into other aids?
Canes can help chronic pain, they are not guaranteed to help you specifically
You can get a cane for ~$30 at most stores and try it out
A physical therapist and/or a specialist in rheum will most likely know more than your PCP about your specific pain and situation
Parents often don't want to admit their kids have health problems
I wish you luck
I won't be answering any more asks about mobility aids.
This is nothing about you specifically, you were not rude, I just get a lot of questions like this in my inbox. It becomes draining to get so many asks with people's personal vents about their medical issues or religious trauma or the homophobic situations they're living in.
While I would love if I could help people, I am not a doctor. I am not a therapist, I am not a social worker. I'm just a random artist on the internet who has EDS and is barely getting by myself.
I prefer to keep my blog about my art and about my work, not about my disability. It is relevant to my work, of course, and discussing my conditions in vague terms in how they relate to themes present in my work is more than okay, but I prefer this space to be dedicated to my work and getting to engage with my readers through my stories.
Personal information about my pain, my medications, my tests my doctors and my trauma are not things I want to make public.
Thank you for understanding.
#cane stuff#asks#anon#I think this might actually be the second time I've said I won't answer asks about mobility aids#but this time I'm gonna put it in my fucking description or something#I dont wanna hear about the character you're writing and whether or not I think it's ableist#I'm not the arbiter of ableism#I'm not someone who can help you out of a situation where your dad won't stop screaming at you#I can't help you#and it is so so so hard to have people come to me and just dump their pain on me#I cant help you!#I just have to read your messages and SIT with them!!!#KNOWING I can't help you!!!#I cant teach you to use a cane I can't hold your hand through your breakups#I'm sorry#I'm so sorry but I can not help you#and to help myself I have to put up a hard line and commit that it is absolutely not my responsibility#it is not fair to come into my inbox#and dump on me#like!#idk!#idk.
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I mean it's a poll about which you prefer not which is objectively better. Windwaker could be the best game ever made and tbh I'd still vote oot. Sorry
And yet, OoT isn't that great even coming from a dude obsessed with it 😭 Sorry
#the hyper fixation that fucking sucks 💖#cant even do a perosnal prefrence my personal prefrence is OoT and YET#I CANT DEFEND IT AGAINST WIND WAKER HAHDGSHSGS WIND WAKER IS JUST A BETTER FUNNER MORE WELL WRITTEN GAME#and i get why people keep asking for it on the switch for like...convinence reasons but i wish people would just emulate it or watch a#playthrough SOMETHING like#god if i wasnt hit with the oot/mm beam it may have been tp or wind eaker#WIND WAKER FUCK#actually fun fact i was obsessed with Tp Link for a few years of my lifr before going RIGHT BACK TO TIME LINK#the ages of 11-13 was tp nation#AND BEFORE AND AFTER WAS ALL OOT LIKE HELP MEEEEEE#THAT BITCH HAS ME IN AN INESCAPABLE CHOKE HOLD#OH MY GOD THIS REMINDS ME ANON WHO wants me dead i assume i see that little sorry of yours but i need to get back on the tablet i have been#doing this custom paint work for stuff and#wait am i just#im just rambaling in the tags aint i#you know what personal prefrance is oot sweeps evey game except MM TP WW and BotW for the most part like im#i like them games a lot more for various reasons but#the comfort game 💖 the hyper fixation that fucking sucks 💖💖💖💖💖#god if i could do a full break down of oot zeph and moon and myles made fun of me for n64 reasons if you bitches are reasing this gimmie an#angry orchard and 100mg gummy WATCH ME WORK
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🎶I am filled with so much anxietyyy🎶
#quotidian convos#have a public speaking thing tomorrow#but the crowd isnt like my usual crowd#these are... actual professionals#accomplished people and leaders and people who are some of the best in their fields and jobs#and even though i'm only holding a 3-5 min activity (with a partner)#still doesnt change that this is my biggest audience yet#in terms of number as well as who they are#and also that every single person in the room are adults except me and my group#well its good to be in a group#i have a friend and we meet each other every other public speaking event#and she's so cool yall you dont even know#she's like one of THE coolest people i know#and her outfits are SMASHING#so cant wait to see her again!!#but yeah still filled with anxiety and nerves and stuff#*takes deep breath* it will be fine tho. it will be fine!#because as sprite said#public speaking is *my* bitch#(thanks sprite ^^)
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hey i might be controversial but im not really feeling the 12th doctor so far
#idkk idk what to thinkkk#i finished s8 today#im just nottt feeling ittt#i just think i might hate how moffat writes no matter what it is fdvxcdfdfv#i actually don't know WHAT is wrong because it's like... things i SHOULD be enjoying but im not it feels like its bad#idk idkkkk#i just feel there's something lacking and i felt the exact same way through the entire 11th doctor era#its just even worse now because i guess im tired#like im so desperate to enjoy this doctor like i did 9 and 10 and i just cant?? cant enjoy the companions and side characters as much eithe#idk man :(#i need to watch some older dw stuff and see if im idealizing the old episodes lmao#because i really want to have a fair opinion of this showww#heeeelpp ToT#i think i just dont like the writing? but i dont know enough about writing to actually say what's wrong#theres just something wrong#ouough#i still hold so much hope everyones always so excited about 12 and i was very excited and its just not ittt#ough ok byeeee#ok wait#like i think his personality is fine and stuff is fine it's just.. the stories? the way they present them? i dont knowwww#i just dont really like moffats dw i gues...#SAD
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me; *(spends five hours planning out my courses for the university i just got accepted into this morning, in a way so that im guranteed to succeed and wont leave me burnt out and drained)*
the university: oopsie daisies!! nope, you can't do that!! forever why would we want someone to actually succeed at what they're good at and want to do??? nope!! you gotta remove most if not all of those first year courses and replace them with a larger variety of things for a more diverse learning experience, whether you hold interest or talent in those subjects or not!!!! oh and you gotta do these two courses as well, these are actually required, haha, i forgot to tell you that!
me, now destined to burn out and fail:
#i just. i just fucking cant.#i was excited to finally get a start on things and i had things planned perfectly#cause i CANNOT DO WELL in classes that DONT INTEREST ME#but no. i have to have languages and sciences in here. cause i can't take all humanities.#and i have to take two boring as shit art history courses as well#or else they'll KICK ME OUT.#why the FUCK cant i just do the ones i wanna do??? they're all first year courses!!!#why should i have to do stuff i hold no interest or talent in and am going to fail at???#just completely fucking obliterated all my motivation and drive to actually go to school.#and now ive spent an hour and a half trying to conform to their hard to decipher course requirements#and now my schedule- which looked managable for me before- looks horrible and draining.#im GOING to fail because of these requirements.#i know this. i know my brain.#im never going to be able to do anything with my life cause every single thing#has stupid locked doors that i dont have the keys to standing in my way#vent
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decided to leave my job and i'm gonna fr gonna cryyyyy
#literally can't work with my new boss bc i can't trust her#she went to the head of the department with complaints abt me without ever speaking to me or giving me any indication she was unhappy#and various other reasons im not happy w management and the school in general#HOWEVER#i love the kids sm and im gonna miss them and worry abt them 😭😭😭😭#im literally scared for some of them bc it feels like the other teachers have no empathy for some of my favorite kids#one of them who is so so sweet and when he cries i'm the girst to comfort him bc everyone else thinks he needs to toughen up 😭#also my new boss sucks so so bad and is gonna be such a bad influence on him and all the other kids#and my main co teacher said she's gonna quit if i do so i cant even beg her to look out for my babies and take care of them 😭💔#and it would be unprofessional to mention any concerns to the parents but genuinely some of the kids would be better off elsewhere#like im actually worried about it#i dont want some of the really sweet sensitive kids to lose their sweetness bc they're being treated unkindly#and the worst bullies and spoiled kids are the ones the teachers dote on#so it encourages some of the sweet ones to act out for attention#anyway 💔#i really do need to go tho#and i'm sure i'll love the kids at my new job#but im so sadddd#also its unlikely i can find a well paying job w this age group even tho i love this age group#its basically impossible not to get attached to them at this age and i get to pick them up and hold and cuddle them and stuff#and you cant really do that with the older kids sadly#literally on the verge of tears even seriously thinking abt leaving#things have been p bad for a while due to management but i never seriously considered leaving bc i love the kids so much#but i literally can't see a future here#and my new boss clearly hates me and im worried she's going to try to get me fired#she already made up a bunch of lies about me and its only been three weeks#anyway i only make 15 an hour so hopefully i'll at least get more somewhere else and i know i'll still love the kids#its just really hard#which is why i've stayed this long#i was p unhappy before my new boss even started bc of the way they treated my old boss
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i swear to god sega must be choosing which 3d sonic games they wanna rerelease at random because none of their choices here make any sense when i said they should focus more on making the 3d games more accessible instead of re releasing the classic games a million times this isnt what i meant
#i mean the shadow parts of the trailer do have me interested now but im still confused about why they would do this at all#i said it all already but generations is a fairly recent game and the graphics still hold up well and its still somewhat accessible#its not in a situation where theres a bunch of stuff to change or its trapped on older consoles that barely anyone has these days#if generations was a super iconic game with a well loved story i would get it i guess but sonic generations is literally nothing story wise#there are so many other games that it would make more sense to bring back#also shadow??????? why is he the focus here he barely did anythign in generations#and generations whole gimmick is the classic and modern thing and you cant do that with shadow#whatever#like i said i am excited to see what theyre doing with the shadow levels actually im just confused you know
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we'll be okay
alternate version under the cut (TW FOR SH)
take my pain (open to read the text)
#socks stuff#art#w2h#welcome to hell#sock#sock sowachowski#sock w2h#w2h sock#Jonathan#jonathan combs#jonathan w2h#w2h jonathan#he should khs#i headcanon for both of them that they self harm#sock cant really anymore but jonathan does#and its very unhealthy but i can see them understanding each other and not judging each other for it#also i dont know what a valhalla soundbox t shirt would look like#so pretend that's the t shirt#instead of BAND TEE#this actually took a lot longer than you'd think it did#i had to restart it#originally it was them cutting together but i said “nah”#so now they're holding hands#they're so mentally ill i hate them /pos#OH YEAH#sockathan#i made a safe version also
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#sorry sorry I just woke up and im having yesterday-was-weird thought again#and they are going here so i don't have to talk to the person that they're um about yet#basically im glad that im in a good enough space now that um#someone ive ive had text-based sex with and uhhh sent an ill-advised video to in like oct when i was Feeling Bad™ and doing. hm. too much.#like 6 months post text-based sex/ill adised video now aha and we've not spoke at all since like january and that was 'how was hols'#they asked to meet up 'not for sex just as friends' or i forget exact wording but basically that#no-pressure museum not-a-date#and i said I'd think about it. because i am as everyone knows a fucking idiot.#basically im glad that im in a better place now than the last time someone like expressed an interest in me as a person#because while this did give me a day long wobble i didn't have a full weekend long actual panic about it#tho they are two v different situs#an ace poly friend asking to go out with me vs someone i uh virtually fucked aha um asking to meet up for (mostly) being-friends purposes#same several-hours-later 'oh god no what have i done bad bad bad no thank you actually no sorry i cant sorry' but less intense this time#but at least i only said ill think about it?#and not actually immediately said yes because it's nice to feel wanted#and then gone Maximum Regret™ because actually all of this is way too much i don't like it i don't want it thank you but im sorry no#weird. i guess i don't have such a high baseline stress level any more? since i'm not at uni n stuff#and someone over messages going no pressure you want to be irl friends (maybe fwb no pressure)? is um#is different. to someone irl going you want to go out acely? yeah? awesome lets hold hands here is the discord with a whole buncha people#i guess#but i am being equally aro-not-super-ace Autism™ about it aha#and i am. eventually. going to be like. thought about it and no sorry. eventually.#if they ask again#i am kinda hoping they'll leave it there and forget they asked so i don't have to navigate social stuff#im much better at navigating canals everybody leave me alone please thank you#(everybody over there leave me alone. y'know. you guys are fine.)
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Leavingout red velvet cake slices for unnamed alter 3 like a mouse trap except the trap is my friendly embrace . I am befriending you if its the last thing I do
#malik's rambles#lovingyoir alters is a form of self love and i am DETERMINED !!!!!#ifeel awkward posting about system stuff um . imsure literally no one gives a fuck . relax#fr thoughI hope they feel comfortable opening up to us soon like#I dont know the full extent of what happened to us and its really terrifying and horrible so I cant imagine actually holding#onto those memories . esp with how we saw pictures of our rapist recently and Im pretty sure it triggered them to front :[#system stuff
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very quick and not quite my best but yesterday was kind of osiris's bday? so heres some strange sad (slightly erotic??) art of him based loosely on some vent art i made a while back :) i like to put this boy in situations. if you couldn't tell
#my art#osiris gaumond#dnd oc#yeahhh. yeah#very extremely personal stuff incoming brace yourselves#yesterday was the anniversary of the event that 'inspired' me to make osiris as a coping mechanism#will not go more in depth bc this is not therapy lmao but if you know anything about him or about me (recent history) you probably know#i am so incredibly proud of how far ive come since it happened#but when it was fresh i absolutely was not okay in the slightest i was completely torn apart#and right exactly when i needed it my friend created a campaign and asked me to join#so i made osiris :)#i didn't actually initially intend for him to be a metaphor/coping mechanism/therapy character at all#and i didnt realize how he was until months later fhjsdkfjksd#so he holds a special place in my heart because of that#and i will forever be grateful to that friend for starting that campaign and the other friends that are in that campaign with me#even if they dont know they're helping me process trauma gfdhjkdfjkhgfd#ok silly personal stuff over back to shitposting#FUCK I JUST REALIZED HIS EYES ARE FUCKING BACKWARDS#HIS LEFT EYE IS WHITE HIS RIGHT IS GREEN NOOOOO#CANT BELIEVE I DID THIS TO MY BOY ON HIS BIRTHDAY#uhhh lets pretend it was intentional and has Meaning
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have to be honest guys its actually going Really Badly again.
#j.txt#vent#barest thread holding me back right now and I dont even know what to do to fix it besides trying to repress it as deep as possible#I'm just. so overwhelmed and tired and frantic all the time. Work is giving me authority positions I didnt ask for and am not paid to do#my family is insane as always and I'm extra on edge around them bc I can just sense the impending fallout-#from when they realize Im taking hormones. Not that that is actually happening yet bc my insurance is fucking me over#the pharmacy keeps pushing back the date for getting my t (should have had it 3 weeks ago. did not happen.) and I might end up having to pa#nearly Two Hundred Dollars for i dont even know how much of a supply bc of the fucked insurance thing.#And I cant even talk to my therapist about any of this bc my old schedule wont work anymore but I cant get in touch with the office to#see what other openings they may have. and some of the weird nebulous resentment-inducing stuff with my old friends is coming back bc#I hung out with one of them recently and it somehow it Still hurts like a fresh wound despite how often I tell myself Im resigned to being#treated the way I am. I barely have time to spend with the friends I do still have pleasant relationships with so I cant even talk through#any of it like that. and to round it all off my dysphoria has gotten so agonizing of late bc i finally had hope i would be on hrt#but. gestures at earlier topic. my hopes of that are being quickly and brutally slaughtered so.#its just. like genuinely what is the point of any of it. how is This what my life is supposed to be. I know I dont deserve very much#but surely I havent sinned so terribly as to earn misery like this.#and I'm not even strong enough of will to *** about it. pathetic really#I just want one day to feel even neutral abt being alive without having my feet swept from under me by some new unbearable Thing developmen
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