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faunandfloraas · 2 months ago

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im so glad im not the only person that looks at seungmin and goes "❓tism❓" bc he is Way Too Relatable to me as a person w autism

yeah..... like I say it in jest but also..... well, yk. sometimes you notice something and you notice something and you notice something and you go Hmmmm

#enby-peep #lol its funny for me personally bc i see a lot of stuff that reminds me of my cousins daughter........ and shes autistic #but everyone in our family constantly and my cousin especially is like Shes you. You are her. Youre so alike.#So you were autistic and that explains your childhood #and i was like Um. I dont know :) i dont know........ i refused it and then i went to the psych for my adhd #he was like 🤨 can you fill out these sheets... and it was to see if i was hitting the markers #and i was hitting them. I was hitting them out the park but i also knew exactly what to answer... not to hear it #so i just answered it... incorrectly to myself. anyway that was 3 yrs ago and i still go ???? why did you lie ??? wtf #so. maybe my seungmin commentary is sometimes a commentary on myself also #but its the same reason being sent to therapy as a teenager didnt work on me bc i knew exactly what to say to be #told what i wanted to hear- youre a mature smart young woman- youre good. id just lie to hear that even if it wasnt actually helpful #and i succeeded. Im a great actress. i didnt want help i wanted to be perceived as normal and i was for a minute. incorrectly.#and probably negatively maybe if i didnt lie i'd be different now but I did and I did it again 3 yrs ago but..... I think ive finally left #idk. my weird obsession with being 'normal' behind- i dont follow the script as much as i did before and im much more honest about how i am #this is an insane set of tags LMAO #so sorry #i dont talk about this stuff often and its An Anniversary today i accidentally used this ask as an emotional dumping ground #some people have journals (seungmin) i have tags on a tumblr post #peace and love on planet earth

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skunkes · 10 months ago

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i may be stupid

#(but im not sure)#a doodley #i am not going to lie to you guys i am insanely scared of anti depressants. and adjacent medication.#first of all like ive said i dont think i need them #im doing way better than last yr(s) despite being in the same circumstances. i did in fact will my brain to get it together.#i told my doctor i think my issues are a result of my environment and that is what i think it is.#i dont think meds cld help change my innate personality flaws #second of all sorry but my ****** is all i have i cant risk losing it to the side effects #idk! like. idk. you guys really dont get it it really is just laziness for me #since i was a kid i just didnt have Goals and its continued to my detriment #i was also raised to doubt all my decisions so here we are #im sure my friends think im lazy bc what ive described to them IS laziness #im like the only person i know without hashtag goals and life motivation...and all my friends have mental health stuff too #so its not that...! its personality. its laziness #its literally like the ''my son is 35 and refuses to get a job and does nothing all day'' reddit posts #with ''he's not depressed he's lazy you should just kick him out and refuse to keep providing for him'' comments and all

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darabeatha · 14 hours ago

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Valentines' personality test ! : 𝐌𝐎𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐙𝐔𝐌𝐀 𝐈𝐈

#;valentines test #;headcanons #headcanons #;dash games #dash games #;m.octezuma ii #/he got the cat one too! but i thought the playful banter bits werent that fitting to him?#the simple '*frowns*' ALWAYS!#OVER PROTECTIVE !#THE 'keeps your picture in their wallet (will blush when you find out)' IS REAL! HE WOULD! if he had a wallet at least #he is the type of person that keeps their loved one in his thoughts -always-; but from a distance.#from a distance but the thoughts are always there; he just tucks them somewhere far away #he looks out for you; he fixes things from behind the scenes; he protects you; but always from a distance; its a type of longing too #'will hold your hand in crowded places so you dont get lost-' SO REAL!! and if you start poking him bc of it; HE'LL JUST FROWN MORE #he is the type that when he gets embarassed he just shuts his eyes tight and frowns even more; he is NOT going to look at you; (blush)#i know bc he told me.. (he didnt + insane)#HE IS VERY STRICT!!! too strict- to an extreme even; its sort of a response to his own past #he is strict to that extreme to avoid letting a single crack to slip; to avoid anything that could interfere with his end goal #extremely hard on himself which is why he is as harsh to his own people in the lb; it reaches a cruel stage #but outside the lb; although he retains this strictness (response to guilt shame an impotence from his past)#it is not as cruel as it was in his l.ostbelt #so he may.... he may...... just for once.... make an exception for you... and don't ask him why

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purpldawne · 6 months ago

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actually wait that poll unlocked a fuckin memory and i feel like talking about it so‼️

( not tmi or anything but in case this gets long or you don't wanna read it im putting a page break here LMAO )

ok so on my 18th birthday, my grandparents REALLY wanted to go to dinner to celebrate. i didnt really wanna, but i got to dress up so i said fuck it. this was around when debates over trans women in sports were first brought to the mainstream ( as far i know ) right. so we're sitting there in the restaurant, im eating my cake, and my grandfather starts going off about how they're letting men compete against women and how unfair it is and shit. WHILE WE'RE CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY. IN FRONT OF ME. THEIR GNC GRANDCHILD. WHO REFERS TO HIMSELF WITH MASCULINE TERMS EVERY TIME YOU SEE HIM. LOUDLY. it's been two years and i STILL can't believe the audacity. like YOU invited ME out to dinner and start talking that shit?? if they weren't family and we weren't in public i would have told em to shut the fuck up

#they STILL talk about this stuff at family gatherings too apparently #i always keep to myself til we leave but my ma has told me they complain about people demanding you use the right pronouns or whatever #and god bless her soul she tried to be like 'actually its not that hard even if you cant tell because you shouldn't assume' and #'if they tell you how to refer to them its just basic human decency to respect that'#no clue how they took it since i wasnt there but they just ended the conversation after that 😭😭#god dont even get me started on my uncle #hes awful and clearly mentally unwell and obviously really old #we have a family friend who had two moms right. they never tried to hide it and didnt really acknowledge it as anything weird. bc it wasnt.#my uncle is the one that introduced us so clearly he knew their mom was gay #and he did #he never said anything about it while we were kids out of fear of making us gay or smth #but at the last family gathering he was updating me on what was going on with them cuz we havent seen em in a while #and he told me that their daughter had apparently gotten a boyfriend #which is great! im really happy for her #but my uncle was like 'yeah i was getting worried because of ( one of her mothers names ) being. . . you know?'#and i was???? flabbergasted?????? esp because of personal things with their parents he was JUST telling me about #this is the same guy who after 20 years STILL cant spell my deadname right. not relevant just still so fucking funny to me #but yeah he laughed when he said it and everything like he was making a funny joke #tbf there is smth so insanely comedic about telling your butch niece you were afraid someone 50 years younger than you liked other women #just because her mom did #crazy shit

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faaun · 1 year ago

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having interactions w a wider range of ppl also means sometimes u will interact w ppl who are genuinely insane and it feels strange even if u don't care abt/know them as a person all. fucked up if true

#this man fully threw a garment in my face and told me im not welcome back bc i didnt thank him enough even tho i did at least (AT LEAST)#like 7 different times i can recall. he made a bunch of insane assumptions and then proceeded so incredibly rude to me its insane #anyway i dont know him and i dont ever want 2 see him again but i truly hope he gets some help lmao . hes a friend of a friend and even tha #friend who introduced us is truly flabbergasted by his behaviour. also after he threw the thing in my face he refused to apologise and said #it was for my own good. also he looked at a womens size M pair of trousers and went WOW this is massive. i dont know any fashion girl this #size. truly a jaw dropping moment. worst thing is the friend was like yeah thats huge. men r actually so weird sometimes!!!

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mainfaggot · 9 months ago

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just watched challengers at the cinema w my little sister. it was so intense wtf

#i was like grabbing onto my scalp just yanking my hair in the last 5 mins and at the end i yelled (quietly) LOVE WINS!#bc there were only 4 other ppl in the cinema lol #its so fucking stupid on the surface like ok complicated polyamory and also insane obsession with a sport bc that is what makes these people #who they are; as in the sport IS their identity as individuals that's what fills the void that lies underneath skin and bone etc.#blah blah basic shit about messy relationships with the self and romantically with others #but it's also so profound because despite the many obstacles and personality differences. they all love one another and the sport so much.#it's so weird it's twisted in a sense because it's like they only have one another and then obviously tennis (bc tennis is the bridge)#it's very.. codependent #i can't believe my little sister understood like not in a condescending way i cant believe she got it but in a “oh i didnt know you watched #stuff with this much emotion and that you cared enough to critique media“ since she doesn't usually tell me about what shes watching #and when she does she tells me about sitcoms ..#so yeah it was nice that we watched it together but also kind of weird bc #well surface level: the make out scenes were just us giggling awkwardly #and on a deeper level when i was watching it. i couldn't help but think about how #patrick at some point turned into an observer; he stopped being a part of the art tashi patrick trio (and tennis!) and turned #into a spectator #despite very much still being a fellow player #and then tashi became a spectator of the sport despite very much being absorbed in it all and in love with art (?)#i dont know what else to call it but her need to control him came from a place of some kind of care ... albeit manipulative and self serving #so Patrick and tashi are almost parallel lines if that makes sense #theyre kicked out of “the club” whatever the club may be (for Patrick he's no longer in the trio) and for Tashi once the trio is long gone #she's no longer a competitor bc of her injury #and then art is just in the middle of it all #and he'd always followed Patrick's lead in the past and then he started thinking for himself until he became so taken by Tashi #and then he just became her little follower #he just wants to be loved and told what to do because he doesn't know how else to live. im projecting? im projecting. anyway!#the ending. god. the ending sums up their whole past dynamic:#patrick is petty. art is irritated. tashi doesn't get their little dynamic. patrick loves art. art is forgiving. tashi loves the sport #(and maybe she loves them both in her own fucked up control freak way)#z.post

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perilegs · 10 months ago

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i pass pretty much all the time but hm. ive heard interesting stuff from drunk ppl i know who dont know im trans

#''haha when my bf was talking about you and i asked to see a picture he showed me one and i was like... is that right? bc i thought that was #a girl in that pic. i mean only bc i didnt expect him to have any girlypop friends haha''#yeah i mean that is an average thing to say and not mean or anything but it hits a bit different when im trans #i mean the person saying that didnt know and if they did they would have never said anything like that #but it's still a bit. hmmm.#also the topic of my looks came up and it's funny how everyone thinks i'm cute #i wish i could b masc hot but im fine with being cute. not everyone can look good the same way #but like it's so common for the only compliment transmascs get being ''cute'' for various reasons but i think in my case it's just my #wavy hair and slight babyface and round features #which yeah ok whatever i'm still young - ive got plenty of time to start looking less like a boy and more like a man #as in even if i was a cis guy id look pretty much like this #though! im only 2 years on t so i cant wait what the future holds for how i'll look :3c #well almost 2 and a hlaf but yknow #also i have a slight. can i say this. ''tranny voice'' which. slay. but i was told i ''sound like a femboy'' which #once again super funny that ppl say that stuff bc they genuinely cant tell im trans #the only reason i pass is bc i get read as [justin mcelroy voice] kinda faggy #oh that guy over there with wide hips and feminine manners and voice and small feet and hands [compared to cis men] with an apparently cute #face who doesnt seem to know anything about stereotypical guy stuff? thats a cis man #and i love that #but also one of these ppl is not cis #if you saw me irl you'd know im insanely easy to clock for trans people #but yeah whatever im just amused by all this it's kind of fun having ppl not know im trans #but also i have a new friend who doesnt know and i think i should let him know at some point if it comes up bc idk man. it feels like im #living a secret life or something. like obviously no one has the right to know im trans but. i can make the choice of wanting someone toknow #but also hes my only guy friend who lives in this city. well technically not the only one i have another friend but we never hang out irl.#anyways i dont want to ruin our broship #i dont think itd get ruined and if it did itd just mean whatever but im still scared #agh idk #leevi talks

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nomaishuttle · 1 year ago

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its also like . ok sry im going on bc im tired and ive upset myself lol but its like. to have somebody who knows i grew up in poverty call me greedy and selfish bc he pressured me into moving up here when i didnt have the money so i Had to rely on him financially. and then i couldnt pay him back while i was literally unemployed. to have him call me greedy and selfish and entitled and lazy was. insanely upsetting

#like he knew that a lot of the money i earned went directly to paying my families bills and literally feeding them and he still. said that #to me. and then when i got upset he spun it as me being irrational and playing the victim and always guilttripping him like. idk. idk.#i try rly hard not to think abt that bc it just makes me feel horrific but like. i was already so insanely paranoid about spending money #any Non essential purchase made me spiral and then that just made it. so much worse . i told him from the start i didnt have much money and #he said it was fine and i told him from the start id pay him back as quickly as i could and he said it was fine and then he just #he completely ghosted me he never talked to me he slept downstairs and he spent more time with one of our roommates than he did me #and now i. know why he did that lol #but whatever. but he iced me out and the only time he ever talked to me was to tell me i was being greedy for not paying him back #or if i literally fuckjng. begged him to do skmething with me #and then hed spend like 1 hour completely checked out but technically sitting in the same room as me and i just. idk. that relationship #genuinely like. fucked me up. and now i reakize it wasnt Just since i moved here and a lot of the like. stripping me of.my identity and #pressuring me into doing. certain things when i wasnt comfortable with them and guilttripping me if i did try to stand up for myself. now i #realize that had been going on nearly since the start but it fucking. rly hurts. basically #and to top it all of he knew i struggle with very severe depression and i have since i was a kid and he knew i specifically struggle a lot #with hygiene and he knew how gross that makes me feel. and he still called me disgusting for it. and in every argument he had he would #hold the fact i owed him money over my head and i judt. i dont know what i was supposed to do. and i realize now there was jothing bc he #was already. yk. and probably had been for a while but it just. rly fucking sucks basically.#like even now a few months out i get genuinely nauseous when i buy something that isnt Absolutely essential.#and i try to force myself to buy like. a small nice thing for myself every once in a while i buy 1 coffee and 1 breakfast food every week #on saturday to try n like. make sure i know its ok 4 me to do that and it doesnt make me selfish but like. it still makes me feel sick

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marsixm · 1 year ago

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tried out being more assertive at work today and just bluntly stating things and i def was helped a bit getting things done by my dept head being there all night but! i think it went good! i def feel a lot better about my ability to do my fucking job and run a tighter ship.

#only time it fucked me was when i asked the new manager to make 1 small change #bc that man treats every conversation thats even .1% conflict like an argument #and then he apparently turned around and told my direct boss about it and said i was the one confused and things needed to be cleared up #motherfucker nothing needed to be cleared up you just have to listen to me #like this dude had come into my department and tried to do my job #then when i have a single issue he goes right to my superior #like zero respect for me at all its actually insane #but im done w trying to reassurance seek. talking to my dept head about it was enough. i know whats up #im trying to make peace w the fact that i cant fix this shit and dont need to worry abt it outside work tho #i was briefly also mad at my work bestie/work wife bc he said i didnt care about a specific task getting done #and i thought he was talking shit but its bc he was ALSO saying he didnt care abt it either LMFAOOO #i did briefly get so angry i couldnt eat #anyway things were not good but in a different dimension they were good #they were good in terms of my personal growth lol

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1eeminho · 2 years ago

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story time with sari 😀

#im working on my CV rn and it made me rmb my first job at uni and how it ended and oh god why #i had to quit bc my mental health was so fucking shitty i couldnt deal with the work load so i went to one of my colleagues whos-#responsible for us student workers and i told him i had to quit and he asked why and i said bc of my health bc i cant lie but also didnt-#wanna tell the full truth and he very carefully asked whats wrong and i said i didnt wanna talk abt it was so awkward #AND THEN #at the time he wasnt only a phd student but also doing his psychotherapy training (insane man) and he happened to work at the practice-#where i went to get therapy at the time so basically what happened was that i sat in the waiting area and suddenly he comes walking around-#the corner and we just look at each other like 👁👄👁#and he left bc he was with a client but ten minutes later he came back super nervous and reassured me that hes under-#patient therapist confidentiality and that he wont tell anyone at work that he saw me there etc etc and it was NICE #but it was also . such a weird situation and my lil anxious mind was like well at least he knows i wasnt fucking lying !#why would he think that in the first place but oh well dhjdjdk #anyways i just got reminded of this bc i read the certificate i got from working there and it said i quit out of my own choice hdjdj #ah memories #also reminded me how im in a much better place now mentally which is nice bc i felt rock bottom yesterday lmao #okay story time with sari is over i gotta get back to writing that CV

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artisanalpeanutbutter · 8 months ago

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Not gonna lie

I dont think I'll ever forgive my parents for how poorly they mishandled our dog's health. I constantly felt as though it was my fault even though I quite literally couldn't do any more than i did. I still feel as though it was my fault. He deserved so much fucking better. I love him, and he had to endure such horrible skin problems because my parents refused to take him to a better vet because they were convinced the one they went to was fine. Even though I protested them for YEARS. I tried so fucking hard to get them to see what was going on but they just let it get worse and worse. They would never listen. And I couldn't take him somewhere on my own because I was a kid with no money. My sibling was too busy to notice. And my mom couldn't accept that it was her fault, and that she could've done better. I think she knows now but is still denying it to herself. My dad, quite frankly, didn't care.

#thinking about it right now because of how neglectful ive felt in regards to my dog's teeth #even though it again is the result of my parents not caring #or not wanting to realize #for fucks sake. they didnt take the other family dog to the vet for YEARS until i coincidentally #almost killed myself and they decided to do things that would make me happy #and why didnt they? because they didnt want to admit they were being neglectful in that regard #but i think it was a wake up call for them #when he had to get a quarter or more of his teeth removed as a result.#im so worried about my dog #they wouldnt LET me get his teeth cleaned for years #and when i got him we had agreed that they would pay for the teeth #and i really thought they would show up. despite the fact that it took me three fucking years to get my own cavity filled bc my #mom is insane about health stuff and im too fucking mentally ill to get a nine to five #and it ended up being a root canal because of it #and i told them time and time again that i would spend my money from my grandparents on his teeth #in a fucking instant #but i dont hsve control of the account. because of course i dont. and i cant help but feel like i failed my dog #even though i dont even know if he'll even need more than one tooth pulled yet #he's everything to me #he keeps me alive #he threw me out of a haze that for sure wouldve otherwise ended up with me bleeding out #so im not being dramatic. hes the reason i get up every day and get out of the house and take care of myself. because i know he loves me and #depends on me. and DON'T say animals dont love the same because for all intents and purposes love is being able to depend on people. that's #what love is. love is about caring for people and being cared for in return #it doesnt matter if he doesnt comprehend things the same. he comforts me when im sad. he lays on me when i have migraines #that's love to me. and i loce that little guy wven when he's an annoying little shit. hes my bro yk?#hes there for me when i need him so I'll always be there for him. shoutoit to my dog for being himself #also ik he does it because i care for his needs. but like. what is platonic and familial love or like love in general i guess if not #reciprocating care? even if it's not the same kind of care it's still care. you provide what the other person needs when they cant provide #it for themself.

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago

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I don't know how to feel about the track limits thing :/ On one hand, I'm like yes they should know how to stay within the lines and they should be penalized for blatantly violating them, but on the other, it's really unfortunate to just have your result completely wiped away, and oftentimes, after the fact, so there's literally nothing they can do about it. It just feels very unfair and cruel sometimes :/

#sometimes i like it bcs it benefits my driver 😭😭😭#but even then it feels unfair #like i understand theyre going off thr track but sometimes its not even giving them an advantage???#i mean think about how yesterday both mcl boys had their p3s ripped away after the fact #oscar being told during his interview was so incredibly cruel #id be happier with the track limits thing if it didnt always happen after everything was already said and done #and i just saw for fernando in this shootout he got p5!! and then boom nope now hes dnf and p9 #like how is that fair??? that you dont even know and cant safeguard against that #maybe give a warning or something???#i can't remember which racs but it wasnt one with strict limits like this one #but max kept going off and they warned him how many times he could keep doing it before penalty #it reminds me of jeddah 23. how fernando literally got thru the entire podium and then they penalized him #completely unfair!!!#and like of course austria 23 was just insane #i still havent really gotten the full scope of that bcs i was literally there and couldnt see the track limits #but i remember getting home and then seeing how many people had been demoted after the fact #though that one was kinda funny bcs aston decided to commit terrorism on all the other teams for a few points #ugh yeah idk it kinda just ruins the race a bit for me? it all feels very petty i guess #not completely ruins i just mean it sucks to keep doing this bcs theres no joy in it #catie.rambling.txt #f1 #formula 1 #2023 qatar gp

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gaystardykeco · 2 years ago

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need to sleep but the Dread is consuming me

#i just feel like smth bad is going to happen tonight. but also i feel like this p often on random nights where nothing bad happens so.#it could be bc i had caffeine this morning and its still fucking with my. brain #or more likely its bc im back on the overnight call list for work starting tonight and continuing the rest of the time i have this job #being able to not be on it while i was on vacation was so nice like i could actually sleep #still couldnt sleep through the night but at least when i did wake up it didnt take me an hour to fall back to sleep #generally when i feel this much dread on a night i can get work calls its bc theres going to be a call sometime between 3 and 6am that nigh #hopefully there wont be but ik this dread and anxietys gonna fuck up my sleep regardless so whatever #i dont really want to move to nyc but if i get this job offer i think i just need to bc this job is fucking me up so bad #if it wasnt for this fucking on call thing itd be tolerable but i just can't handle the on call thing #the fear that ill get a call and not know how to solve the problem and have to call my boss or coworker to help is killing me #ik its stupid but i have really bad anxiety around waking ppl up and asking ppl for help and calling ppl so #perfect combination to make me Suffer ig #and i did try talking to my boss about it and told him it was the reason i was unhappy on the team #and he essentially said i just need to be better at my job so we get less calls and that being on call is essential and unavoidable #if i dont get the nyc job i might need to just quit anyway which i know is pathetic but i just cant handle this on top of the other things #like i cant have no friends and a useless therapist and meds that dont work and no sense of self and a million other things #and then on top of that a job that makes it so i cant even sleep which is the one thing ive always been okay at and not had problems with #i know its so silly and i know i need to be grateful this job pays me well and shut up #i just am so miserable and i need to be able to sleep like i need that one thing please #sorry for being ridiculous and insane i know its stupid to be this upset over this #sorry dkdkjd sorry about all this i genuinely cant believe anyone still follows me when i post this bullshit #hopefully its fairly easy to ignore and everyones just not expanding the tags so im just screaming into the void #cant tell if i really want no one to see this or if im putting it all here all the time so i can pretend someone is reading it and cares #idk im just so tired and so sad and so scared all the fucking time and i think i just dont want to always be alone in it idk #and i know my problems arent real or serious or bad but unfortunately im pathetic and spoiled and theyre destroying me anyway

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renaultmograine · 7 months ago

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I think the important thing to remember about wow is that Metzen does what he thinks sounds cool, rather than committing to well thought out concepts.

He was a highlord, a military (and religious? I think only paladins get it) title that as far as I can tell wasn't used at all IRL. Tirion is the only lord we see with actual veritable lands that governs and shit (Of Blood and Honor), outside of like... Daval Prestor? Who just has a nice estate if I remember correctly (Day of the Dragon)?

Honestly, Hearthglen is the only place I can say with any certainty is governed by a lord in any lore relevant way. I know Darkshire is and maybe Lakeshire too but that's not really addressed.

Anyway, regardless, yes, in a proper medieval fantasy he would have staff and whatnot taking care of things in his estate, but Warcraft is not really a medieval fantasy, as much as it likes to dress up as one. The fact that he doesn't have any staff brought up or living in a relatively modest home for a lord is up to your own lore interpretation. Maybe Alexandros just likes larping that rustic life considering he doesn't live in Capital City.

I've been reading a lot on like medieval European society lately because I am curious to understand the Alexandros situation, like he was a knight? And also a lord (they call him Lord) so he had some land and people working on that land (though probably not a lot). Were there other people living on Alexandros's estate? Someone had to look after and raise Darion when he was a baby because Alexandros certainly couldn't do it alone and they didn't have formula back then. Someone also would've been watching the kids while Alexandros went to fight? I don't know why I am so invested in this.

#this was a fun question bc it forces me to acknowledge my layers of fanon and only address the canon #like MY interpretation is that alexandros knows he has a fate-cursed kid. he doesnt understand the full breadth of it but he knows #bc darion DID CANONICALLY have such vivid and intense ideas/visions?/hallucinations? of mournblade schematics that the rest of the ebon #blade was afflicted with it as well. and like. its a MOURNEBLADE. a weapon made by something stronger than the TITANS.#and shadowmourne survived frostmourne. i know it didnt preform in the same circumstances but it lasted against frostmourne in canon #considering we do use it to fight arthas #not only that but like. by legion darion is WELL AWARE that fate is fucking with him #he tells you he's GLAD that you got to be the one with the artifact weapon because he's sick of dealing with fate dictating weapons.#ashbringer? shadowmourne? yeah no fucking wonder.#not even mentioning that in classic youre told about a second mograine son in outland that could make another ashbringer #and obv thats been retconned since but since his conception darion is meant to be forging legendary weapons. thats his character.#anyway i took all this info and became deranged about it during shadowlands with the whole Primus storyline #like oh the primus went missing? 🤨 before darions birth? 🤨 and somehow this mortal can make a mourneblade? 🤨#i went so insane about this idea i am in the process of publishing a book over it anyway. its not canon.#but i think darion is fuckin cursed by fate and maybe even by the primus. and elena's ass fucking died delivering #the antichrist essentially. and alexandros has no fucking staff in his house so no one realizes this.#also explains why darions connection to the light is self described as shit.#i cant edit my tag order on my app but uh sorry for long posting in the tags. derangedly.#warcraft #ashbringer #alexandros

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teddybeartoji · 8 months ago

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lets pretend that i didnt lost this and had to retype it

listen me listen me right !!! back to wolf toji and bunny reader with shiu as the caretaker that lets toji get away with too much but also loves spoiling you bc your just so sweet and adorable

one day, shiu comes home after running errands and tells you and toji that he got a collar to help with toji's biting problem since he knows the both of you will be going into heat soon and he doesn't want toji biting you like a chew toy

toji's grumbling, snarling at shiu that he's not putting on a damn collar but he's confused at the tiny pink thing shiu pulls out. its a cute pink collar, thick but with soft cushioning on the inside a big heart ring in the front. probably for a leash or something, but toji knows that thing isnt going to fit on him.

"it's not for you, mutt," shiu grins playfully, ignoring the glare toji shoots his way at the nickname. instead, he walks up to you and clicks the collar on you, stroking your hair as he coos at how pretty it looks on you !! "its so that if the big guy goes into rut while im away, he wont rip into your throat because he can't think with the right head," shiu jokes, flicking tojis nose.

but a week had passed since then and you had come to like the collar. not just because of how toji would tug on it to pull you into a kiss or how shiu would tug it to get your attention on him when you were fixated on something else. no, it just looked pretty on you!!

one day ur left at home with toji while shiu goes out for the day for business stuff, whatever boring things he had to do. that poor man didnt realize you were going to literally get turned into a creampuff with in 30 minutes of him leaving

toji is INSTANTLY on you when he realizes shiu is gone. poor thing is too rut-brained that he cant even figure out how to get the collar off so he's just gnawing on it, sinking his teeth into the leather as he growls about how stupid the collar is for covering up your pretty neck from him, that shiu doesn't know what he's talking about, all while he's ripping off your clothes.

shiu told the BOTH of you to let him know if either of you go into heat so he can come home and be a good caretaker and make sure you both are still eating and drinking water and that toji doesn't accidentally bite his cute lil' bun too hard anywhere. so, he expects you to tell him to calm down and wait for shiu to get home like a good little bunny, but instead you just look at him over your shoulder with the cutest little pout and tell him 'jus' the tip won't get us in trouble, right?'

and he tries, he tries soooo hard, just fucking his tip in and out of you but then you get pushed into your own heat and you go from reminding him only the tip to 'why aren't you putting in more?? do i not feel good enough??? why dont u wanna be all the way inside me toj???'

and he's shutting you up with one thrust to push all the way inside, shushing you through huffs and growls, telling you he'd stay inside of your sticky cunt for the rest of his life if he could, that you were so hot and wet just for him and he never wanted to pull out of you, keep you nice and stuffed full of his cock and cum until your tummy gets a little bigger from how full he's pumped you with his seed

cue shiu coming home to the two of you fucking like animals (hehe) on the living room couch, your face pushed into the cushions and ears flopped down while your little cotton tail is swishing around like crazy, hearts practically in your eyes when you realize shiu's home, because now he can watch and see how good toji is, see that the big wolf should be able to bite you because hes so good, he's fucking you so deep.

plus, you'd look even prettier with toji's bite on your neck instead of a collar :33

I AM LOSING MY MINDDDD

LUNNNIEEEE????!!!!?!?!??!!!????? HAKDJSJWJFVDKDNEJ YOU'RE AMAZING YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY INSANE AND I LOVE YOU. FIRST OF ALLLLL OMFG I JUST KNOW SHIU COULD NEVER SAY NO TO YOUU AAAUUUUGHHHH YOU FLUTTER YOUR EYELASHES AT HIM AND HE'S ALREADY FOLDING (AND TWITCHING IN HIS PANTS)(HE'S SO WEAK)(HE'S SO HOT). SECOND OFF AAALLLLLLLL... "GET TURNED INTO A CREAMPUFF"😭😭😭PLS THAT MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD I ADORE U SO MUCH<333

AND MMMMMMMMM TOJI'S DIRTY TALK ALWAYS FUCKING KILLSSS MEEEE FFFFUUUUUCCKKKKKKK "HE'D STAY INSIDE OF YOUR STICKY CUNT FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE IF HE COULD" 🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴 WHATTHE FCUUUKKKKK WAIT ANDAND THE MEAN GRIN HE'D GIVE SHIU??????? HE CAN SEE THAT SHIU IS HARD JUST FROM WATCHING TOJI FUCK YOUR BRAINS OUT AND IT'S ALL JUST SOOOOOOOO🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴

THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR THIS FUCKIN GMEAL IDK WHAT I DID TO DESERVE YOUU HOOLY FUCKKKK<3333

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2019

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2020

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April 8, 2020

2021

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pierregasly No photo of me?

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2022

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pierregasly Can i be the **** ***

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January 18, 2022

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