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SPOILERS FOR DAY 4 OF 14DWY!!
i was actually losing my mind when i played day 4 lmao, so.... redraw time!!
i hope i drew it well enough haha
#num draws#ren posting#14dwy#14dwy ren#14 days with you#yandere vn#yandere#14dwy fanart#digital art#fanart#i adored day 4 so much UGH#im honestly really worried about how the cg redraw looks#i am not confident in it </3#but i hope it looks good enough!!#i spent a really long time on it haha#also for some reason i kept fucking up their hair and it was setting me OFF#its okay i think i got it in the end...#anyway... enjoy (??)
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every time someone calls moirallegience just an alien qpr i wilt a lil like YEAH thats more or less the CLOSEST human thing but its also Literally Not That. like a qpr is fundanmentally not romantic and thats not even going into moirails whole Actual Purpose of calming ppl down. its just. aughhhhh pisses me off i see the confusion but, as aformentioned, aughhhhh
OH MY GOD THIS HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME TOO.... but i don't want to get petty at the people in my notes always saying "moirails are QPRs!" because in some ways that is the closest human thing so it's hard to be mad...
i think there's definitely some overlap in some ways. but NOT because moirallegiance and qprs are the same at all really, but INSTEAD because both relationships have unconventional boundaries defined by the people within them.
you know... like every relationship.
like the only reason the two have overlap is because they are both partnerships that emotionally care for each other but can choose to not bang (which is true for any romance anyway, even if it's considered abnormal). they're both just romances* that are unconventional to human norms, which makes people view them as the same thing when they're not.
i think the REAL issue here is that humans insist on using human words to understand things that are just, fundamentally, alien. can't we just appreciate alien romance for being... alien romance?
no, it's not platonic, it's romantic. it's just romantic in a way you aren't quite wired to understand, is all.
*in generalization, most QPRs are not romantic, because they are made up of aroaces who are life partners in a non-romantic way. however i want to disagree with you that none of them are romantic, because that is up to the partners in question.
#quadrants#homestuck#moirallegiance#BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS FOR SO LONG OMG THANK YOU FOR THE ASK#its just i USED to think they were the same#and then recently i kept getting pissy when people said they were the same so i was like. okay let's unpack this#what's the overlap here and what's the differences?#and really people THINK theyre the same because they think theyre both like. 'im gonna platonically marry my friend!' ^w^#(which is obviously not actually what either of them are like. lol)#when REALLY what they have in common is 'hey you're a person i want to have a committed partnership. but potentially not sex or tradition'#and it's not really fair to compare them because they come from totally different places and have totally different standards#QPR was created as an ALTERNATIVE to allonorms. its about saying 'hey lets make up our own rules. my life partner can be platonic if i want#whereas moirallegiance IS a norm and its not counter any culture. it's just 'trolls have biological romantic feelings/needs in This way.'#idk idk how to explain it any further because ive spent a fucking hour on this post and i have a massive headache so feel free to ask me--#more specific questions if the shit i said here doesnt make any sense (; ̄ー ̄)..#<- wow haha the troll fictive autism really jumped out with this post huh. whoops#hsmeta#long post#op
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Not this being me at a local grocery store earlier :D
#I was really stressed with some family stuff#And thought it would be a good idea to go walk to the store that I go to almost all the time for food and stuff#Like I literally know almost all of the ppl that work there and vice versa#but yay me I kept being dumb#I hit my hand against those green glasses of water things#The uhh sparkling ones?#Idk what they’re called#And broke them#And it broke me lmao :3#I had a fucking meltdown in the water aisle#It was so fun sis#Not absolutely mortified and embarrassed and won’t be back to that store for the next month#I straight up left my stuff that I was gonna buy and went home#So now I’m ok#anyway hi :)#rey rambles#meme#memes#dumb shit#funny#relatable memes#funny memes#lol#best memes#tumblr memes#twitter memes#dank memes#humor#jokes#haha
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I keep pronouncing Xelqua like tequila but with an X. Xequila.
oh hell yeah brother
#ask#i kept mumbling this to myself trying to pronounce it haha#xelqua getting fucked up and throwing explosives. saint of destruction knows how to party#im feeling better im actually handling my inbox now
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I will make your weird masochist friend call you a tsundere and beg for you to hit him
#read the tags#this is entirely my own fault#i am very aggressive and use threats in real life just like i do on here#and to be fair i kept doing it after i found out because i crave chaos#i mean the whole situation is objectively really fucking funny so here we are#tw kink mention#figured I'd better mention that just in case#adam if you did decide to make a tumblr and follow me then uhhhh#sorry lol#i'm threatening people with you now because that's just how it goes#mod lore#(i feel so weird typing that but also i think it's an objectively funny tag)#(haha. i have lore.)#lizzy is going to see this and laugh at me#my friends know about this blog if they ever check it I'm never gonna hear the end of this one#because of the tags not because of the post itself#like to be fair i did once choke him to make him shut up. in hindsight i have no idea why i thought that was a good idea
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yyh shipping opinion charts (NIGHTMARE MODE)
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#anyway this is the first time i've done one of these and there's just. so many yyh characters that get shipped in all kindsa ways and it's#cool + i thought this'd sum up my opinions nicely. if there's no lines between something 1) i forgor 2) i didn't think it was worth mention#the first chart is just a highlights reel of the second. basically focusing on the ships i see the most#everything else is highlights reel since idk if anyone ships like. tarukane and raizen yk#anyway ft some of my crack ships (usually in light blue or green sometimes boiling down to haha i fucked ur mom/gf)#some of them i waffled on a bit. i think i like kurahi and yusukeiko Roughly the same amount? ish? eh whatever#also the best ship is obv suzuki x rando x shishiwakamaru x suzaku bc i think they're all losers who deserve each other#i kept forgetting characters so sorry if your blorbo isn't on here. kaito and kurama would be green btw. nerd violence...#yyh#yu yu hakusho#shipping chart#yusuke urameshi#kazuma kuwabara#kurama#hiei#botan#shizuru kuwabara#yukina#keiko yukimura#atsuko urameshi#younger toguro#genkai#uhhhhh#yoko kurama#sorry it's hard to remember everyone#mukuro#yomi#raizen#kuronue#koenma
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It is NOT moodboard monday but I made a collage for @polaroidcats antifa wolfstarbucks
#i didn't fuck up the days again#i just could not contain myself#wanted to add some quotes but pinterest was being a little bitch and kept deleting stuff#i may (haha) do another one sometime😊#moodboard#antifa wolfstarbucks#wolfstarbucks#remus lupin#james potter#sirius black#remus x james x sirius
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You inspired me to write! And I got up to 2k words for the first time ever when it comes to writing for myself... but I'm struggling a bit 😅 Do you have any advice about narrator POV and how you use your verb tenses? It's like I have no idea how you manage to "head-hop" while still being an omniscient narrator so smoothly & effortlessly. And verb tenses. if I write "was" one more time I might pop a gasket lol. any help is appreciated <3 have a good one!
First of all, that's freaking amazing! 2k is a lot, congratulations! That might sound weird coming from me considering how many words I put out, but I 100% remember the struggle of being newer to writing and hitting multiple thousands of words for the first time - I'm so happy for you!
Second of all: I actually write exclusively in third person limited POV, not third person omniscient! Even though I'm writing in third person, the narration is fully from the perspective of the point of view character, which I personally enjoy a lot because it allows for a lot of unreliable narration and also characterization through how their train of thought manifests (choppy, stressed, dreamy, etc). That's why when I'm writing from the point of view of character A, for example, any assumptions about character B's motivations are what character A is thinking, not an omniscient narrator informing you.
That said, you still have to head-hop specifically to write the actual visible actions and dialogue of the second character, and that's actually the most recent thing that I used to struggle with in writing specifically because I got most of my initial writing experience doing roleplay where I was only ever responsible for one character's thoughts and actions at a time.
Honestly, the main thing I can say is that it gets much, much easier with practice. When you start out, it will genuinely just take you longer to switch from the mindset of one character to another! I used to take character notes to put together little snapshot profiles of character headspaces to re-orient myself between the characters I was writing when I felt like I was getting lost. They included things like a few traits to keep in mind, behavior mindset, and snippets of dialogue that I thought were very representative. I don't use these anymore, but I do still do things like rewatch episodes or reread portions of books when I'm learning new characters to orient myself to their personality. It's like code-switching to me nowadays.
As for verb tense: I was a consummate Homestuck, so I started out writing in second person present tense, hahaha, and while I've adopted the third person POV (and believe me, this took adjusting), I've kept writing in present tense as a personal preference. I like it because it makes things feel more in-the-moment as they're happening, because there's less grammatical fuckery involved when describing the past vs the present, and just because I'm used to it. That said, past tense is more common and stands out less to people, and I think that you are finding all of your "was"s a lot more noticable than a reader would! People generally don't really notice the tense of what they're reading once they get into the flow of it.
#ask#personal#Anonymous#my writing#writing advice#I also tried to switch to past tense and kept fucking it up#like genuinely switching tenses halfway through a paragraph and not noticing at ALL#and unlike writing in second person POV it didn't seem like an actual issue wrt readability so I just stopped trying#long post#I hope this was at least a bit helpful!#I've honestly never written an omniscient narrator so I'm afraid I can't be much help with that#I'm too much of a sucker for unreliable limited narrators haha#I love how telling a narration can be about a character's mindset#also side note my oldest fic on AO3 which is a little Soul Eater oneshot from 2015 is in second person hahaha#A RELIC#(ofc I have some fantroll stuff on there as well but that's SUPPOSED to be second person)
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Finally graduated haha let's go 🥹
#im scheduling this when the ceremony is over just cause#but yeah um wow. can't believe it actually#desperately trying not to cry while typing this haha thing hasn't even started#but i think this is the first time in a while i genuinely feel proud of myself. like fuck me i did it#4 years was a wild ride but here i am!! and yeah im scared about the future but rn im just here with my paper#i also realized that yeah ive been on Tumblr as long as ive been in uni#which is crazy can't believe ive been on here for 4 years (roughly)#but for all the shit that i dislike about this site and as much as it drives me nuts#i do wanna say ive met some wonderful people on here! ive made some friends 🥹#and yeah i haven't kept up with all of them something im so so guilty about#but i wouldn't be where i am without this blog like unironically#so yeah thank you gay people in my phone you've helped me a lot. more than i care to admit#hope y'all have a great day <33#thanks for reading my sappy ass tags on Tumblr 😅
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#was fine with it and now i’m increasingly not fine like what the fuck#WHY CAN’T ANYBODY BE NORMAL!!!! JUST BE FUCKING NORMAL#anyway i’m going to be exercising big dog privileges for the rest of my life i think and i was foolish not to bring him outside with me for#this random marketplace deal#hil.txt#dad told this older guy to just come to our house to pick up the wire that he was selling and didn’t tell any of us he was coming + forgot#about the deal. so i went outside to deal with it and just do it and the entire time the guy was being like. fine but also kinda weird.#but fine ??? but then he kept saying shit about how I should be more careful and I would just look at him like. ? ok. (to my knowledge i was#exercising as many safety precautions as i had at hand. like i wasn’t alone at home but my big mistake was Not taking the dog with me)#and saying how kind i was for helping a stranger and how i should be more careful etc etc.#and then we did the exchange once i found the wire and as he was putting it in his trunk and i was going back into the house#like literally i was 4 steps from going back inside and he called out ‘next time be more careful!’ and immediately i felt this feeling of#like. i think i just narrowly escaped smtn. chill down my back and i just pointed at him like hey knock that off and he was like ‘well old#people right?? harmless i guess!’ and i was like haha. 🤨 and then i just bolted inside but like what.#it didn’t help that it was almost dark and he was asking questions about where dad was and DAD WOULDNT ANSWER HIS PHONE#Anyway. going to be exercising my big dog privileges from now on when someone comes to the door i can’t trust no bitch apparently#and in our current climate……i was just frazzled i need to get better about this bullshit#OR ELSE I REALLY COULD GET HURT. Anyway I’m going to go recruit lucanis again bye. 😒
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i miss when i got a full uninterrupted sleep daily
#living with jade and sleeping in their room us nice only to be close ro them#otherwise i really really really hate it lol they snore so much and thendoor is kept open and uts soo fucking loud downstairs and#jade will just wake up occasionally slme days and move around for hours adkusting positions and wakjng me up every time or j#just hours of coughing as loud as possible without muffling it at all#or hours of snoring#and rhen they wake up too much and are awake from the day now even if it's two am and theyre gonna pass out at 12 now snd fuck up any plan#we have for the next day#and if its not jade its the cats#or my mom#i miss when i could just fucking sleep for eight hours without anyone or anything waking me up#i am also a very light sleeper and im fucked when im awoken lile this so hopefully I can fall back asleep haha its 3 am haha#textpost#kill me now pls#this is a form of torture#and also i feel guilty whenever i jyst go back to my bedroom
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I was trying to figure out ideas for a zine (I guess me, CL, P2, and Wolf make them now?) but, uh, just kinda ended up drawing myself... whoops.
#other post#-ct#tailstrokes#i guess?#no i'm not a parker haha#i feel like my style differs a tiny bit from wolf which is... sort od validating in a way?#you know one of the kids called#god i almost said 'us'#i'm NOT a white collar anymore#i mean i kept the work clothes but that's cause i think they're kinda hot#but anyway the kid called them (fuck i wrote us there instinctively) scientists first and the others nearly agreed to use that for them#that'd have been weird#they (...we?) are definitely NOT scientists#not we im not that anymore! fuck!#THE POINT is that im not sure theres really anything that encompasses what i used to do#maybe observer watcher witness#anyway it doesnt matter now#god i really feel i was there decades ago its what i said to wolf when they first made contact and asked but#if you asked me for memories for a feeling of connection to specific things to describe i couldnt i cant#i just feel like i was there and i was ... doing my former job#other people here got to be the ones in things good and bad and evil alike#me and the rest we didnt#we just did our jobs#we werent people#or like cl said didnt know we were/are#im making myself sad#going to shut up now
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Kamala Harris really said omg nooooooo I love Gen Z I LOVE them! 🥺 I speak to them on college campuses all the time! 🥰✨ I just also think they’re completely naive inexperienced stupid dumb dumb little babies who know nothing of the world and don’t understand that sometimes you HAVE to actively fund the bombing of civilians bc there’s no other choice your hands are tied 😪 we would love to stop the violence! ☮️🙏🕊️ but we have no other choice no power there’s nothing at ALL we can do 😔 Love Gen Z tho ❤️
#girl it would’ve been better fucking PR if you had kept your mouth shut the actual fuck was this#voters don’t want a fake ass statement clearly meant to placate them while offering no real change#you are losing the voter base NOT because ‘oh haha younger voters are just uninformed’#but because you are actively ignoring the massive pushback of your constituents against this administration’s complicity in genocide#hope that helps#you cannot be openly and obviously shoveling money into an apartheid regime then go ‘guys why do people think we have a hand in this 🥺’#this country is so fucking disgusting I can’t believe it#sure obviously politicians are full of shit but it’s beyond insulting for them to be actively enabling g.en.ocide#and then just telling voters they’re so silly and dumb and misinformed when they pick up on that#cape town rambles#might create a tag for current events bc I know I’ve had a few things on here like this
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okay ventpost time im bored and my period is late
#my mother is leaving AGAIN#to stay with my father#bhai mujhe nahi rehna akele i don't want to parent my brother#i don't want to cook or stress about what to eat and clothes and laundry and literally buying vegetables every few days#well all these things are just surface level but i REALLYYYYY do not want to live alone with my thoughts#i want to study i can't just study on my phone with no adult mere sarr pe khade hoke asking ki itna tv#kyu dekh rahi hai kya hua class kyu nahi attend kari#kar liya try bhai call me immature and childish and pathetic and dependent and undisciplined whatever but mere bas ki baat nahi hai#also ooooh listen to my moms great solution: she'll stay there and dad will come!! to live with us two!! alone!! haha.#it's sk fucking sad and repetitively traumatizing ki i don't even know how to react#my sister is the only kid both my parents like when she stays home things are mostly calm and happy#they dote on her they tolerate us#and they should i love her too but now i feel like crying because i don't want her to stay back just for me??? my stupid mental health??#she's doing enough by staying here till rakhi just because i asked her begged her to not leave me alone mami ke side#she could've fucked off and gone to live her life 10 days ago#it's not fair#the person i love and want to live with.. if she stays she's miserable and her being miserable mskes me miserable#i just. i miss her so much. she already feels so distant and busy and then she'll go abroad and totally forget about me right#who doesn't need all this constant depression holding you back weighing you down when you're living your best life#i hate that there's no solution i just have to grow up and be okay with it#i already got more time with her than i thought she stayed home like 2 years extra cause of covid#3 actually#ab why am i crying it was a good day#also i don't want to make it all about me but like. idk when i was picturing my adult life i was thinking like#night clubs and gay bars and beaches at night#i never factored in real factors like the horrifying fucking country we live in 💀💀#it's just it was the only thing that kept me going the promise of a better future#but now what.#and like#it's feels so stupid now the fact that i sometimes want to like
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I have dreams all the time where I'm sad when I wake up but last night I dreamt that I told a joke so funny that random strangers were just straight up sending me money. my best friend's mom sent me $1000 with the caption "haha!"
#i was so wealthy. people were offering me thousands of dollars to even just read phrases in the same intonation that i said the joke#i have spent years perfecting my intonation and the way i speak to be as funny as i am capable of#someone offering to PAY ME for it was sooooo good#but i woke up :( and i am $11347 poorer#i was so happy and crying because it was so unexpected and i could afford to graduate in one semester AND move out#and that was only the first 30m and people kept paying me (dont know how so many people heard tbh) so it was like.#the promise of stable financial wealth in the future even if it didn't last forever#god. GOD#i want money. i need money so fucking badly I'm DREAMING about it#i have $2.96 in my checking acct for the next two weeks and i was getting hundreds of dollars in a dream for a JOKE#the joke was about trump or something (i think he said like ''laws only apply when im not here'')#(and i was like ''haha okay <3 then i guess that means i get paid $40 an hour bc laws don't apply while you're here <3'')#(and he argued and then the big ''jokr'' was that i told donald trump to his face that he was the laziest piece of shit in the country)#THATS NOT EVEN A JOKE. like cool burn i guess but it wasn't even that effective in the dream LMAO#and people were paying so much money for it.....is this what influencers do. is this how they get paid#they make shitty jokes on tiktok and get thousands of dollars#anyway. good morning. i wish i was wealthy
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it’s crazy how people don’t think their death will affect people around them even if you aren’t close to them, or even if they were just semi passing encounters like no, others feel it. my neighbor died and as I park my car and look up at her dark little house it makes me so sad - I wanna go inside and turn on the lights she always has on. People notice and will feel it even if you don’t believe it.
#and I feel so bad because I saw her a couple of days ago and she was trying to give me flowers but I was rushing back to work#they’ve been on her porch she said take some and I haven’t and ew I feel bad#she was always trying to give me flowers and stuff because knows I like em#she was a lot but had a lot of issues going on#she use to come over crying all the time I knew so much about her life#and she genuinely cared about all of us over here#been like 16 years#I use to walk and also be chased by her dog way back in the day#stood in between her and her husband in a fighting match#one time she slid a picture of an owl under my door and we were so fucking creeped out because what#turned out it was her and she gave it to me because I love animals and photography hahah#l'd hide from her but feel bad and end up listening haha#she’d give me birthday cards because I share a birthday with one of her daughters#definitely an end to a era#I feel bad for her daughter she was sitting in her car while medical examiners were in the house#a bunch of ominious black vans outside for a bit#I should've taken the flowers 😕#I felt crazy guilty afterwards to the point I kept mentioning it and now I’m wondering if my spooky bitch body knew something#it's me and I wouldn't be that surprised I am all knowing even if I don't know you know?#seems odd#anyways I was thinking of leaving something for her daughter but I’m not sure when#she wasn’t home today#I’m not surprised by that#the flowers are still on her steps and it makes me really 😖#anyways life is short and weird and sad and ppl care
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