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I will make your weird masochist friend call you a tsundere and beg for you to hit him
#read the tags#this is entirely my own fault#i am very aggressive and use threats in real life just like i do on here#and to be fair i kept doing it after i found out because i crave chaos#i mean the whole situation is objectively really fucking funny so here we are#tw kink mention#figured I'd better mention that just in case#adam if you did decide to make a tumblr and follow me then uhhhh#sorry lol#i'm threatening people with you now because that's just how it goes#mod lore#(i feel so weird typing that but also i think it's an objectively funny tag)#(haha. i have lore.)#lizzy is going to see this and laugh at me#my friends know about this blog if they ever check it I'm never gonna hear the end of this one#because of the tags not because of the post itself#like to be fair i did once choke him to make him shut up. in hindsight i have no idea why i thought that was a good idea
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me: *did not do any of the like 6 things i am meant to do in order to make standing and walking not painful today*
me, who is now walking like an old man in a fantasy setting: i can feel every bone in my feet grinding each other to. Dust.
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why is it that in 24 hours I have gone from "bored bc I don't know what to draw" to "I have 12 illustration ideas and 2 comics planned I'm going to draw ALL the things"
#the answer is a combination of shower ideas and watching dungeon meshi#plus listening to the newest rwd episode#this is entirely my own fault#i just hope some of these ideas are willing to last a day or two so i can actually get to them#but man i had things to do today :(#draco talks
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i havenāt had a little treat in so long :(
#my thoughts#this is entirely my own fault#but what do i get?#who do i go with?#do i even have the money for a little treat?
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tfw youāre trying to intimidate your colleague/rival but he starts getting a little too into it
Patho Fest day 6: Oppressed
#pathologic#Š¼Š¾Ń ŃŃŠ¾ŠæŠøŃ#patho fest#Š¼Š¾ŃŠ¾ŃŠµŠ½ŃŃŠ±ŃŃ#artemy burakh#daniil dankovsky#burakhovsky#my art#I didnāt use a ref for this pose so it made me pull a few hairs for sure#entirely my own fault of course
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Nothing more quickly shows that on some deep level many tumblrinas think mental illness is always the result of bad parenting than the way people here talk about mental illness in kids.
Because when we talk adults, its all uwu its not your fault, your brain chemicals just hate you, it's a sickness just like diabetes, take your meds. But as soon as kids come up, people reblog posts to the tune of 10ks of notes that say things like all kids behave great as long as their parents actually listen and accommodate them!
And look. I'm gripping your shoulders. I'm staring you in the eye. I am explaining: if you truly believe that mental illness is an actual illness caused by biological factors outside of our control then you must, absolutely must, embrace and understand, that some children will therefore have major, not cute, not simple behavioral issues *that are in no way their parents' fault.*
Please unpack your unexamined nature vs nurture views, I am begging you.
#unforth rambles#my daughter is having a rough start to the day again#someday we will have figured out the meds to treat her anxiety correctly so this shit doesnt happen#today is not that day#tomorrows not looking great either#if anyone reblogs this to say sOunDs LiKe SoMeOnE iS a BaD pArEnT iN dEnIaL#i promise i have spent years unpacking ways this can be my fault and i guarantee i am far from perfect#i am all too aware ive done things that exacerbate the problem#but please read the fucking post again and then stfu#i will block you#this plst will flop because all my posts on parenting flop#the last thing people on the no kids ever website want to hear#is that maybe they shouldnt form their entire viewpoints on parenting and children#based on their own memories of being 5
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Percy did nothing wrong in Battle of the Labyrinth
Buckle up, this is going to be a very, very long post.
Iāve already made two posts about Percy getting blamed for things he had little to no control over, or some criticism just being extremely unfair towards him, but Iāve never really talked about battle of the labyrinth.
Especially on sides like tiktok, people really drag Percy for how he acted in this book, and I have never really understood why, so since Percy is my favourite RR character, Iāve finally decided to make a post trying to untangle this whole mess.
Generally Iāve seen three main criticisms against him in this book. If you know of others, please let me know.
Him & Calypso
His relationship with Annabeth
The situation with Rachel
Calypso
The criticism Iāve seen here is mostly based on these three topics: Ā
He didnāt immediately go back to Camp Half-blood
He forgot about Annabeth and his friends while spending time being happy with Calypso
He hesitated when Hephaestus told him he could go back & called Calypso his biggest what if
Letās tackle these one by one.
He didnāt immediately go back to Camp Half-blood after waking up
Well, he ā¦ couldnāt.
Shortly before arriving on Ogygia, Percy had gotten burned alive with lava. A feeling he described as a pain āworse than anything heād ever feltā (194) . Ā And Heād blown up a volcano, an action so powerful, the mortal authorities were forced to evacuate almost half a million people, which made ash fall as far as Lake Tahoe in Vancouver and closed off the Mount st. Helens area within a hundred-mile radius. Ā
Just a quick reminder of Percyās physical state after all of that:
āI was really weak. I couldnāt stay on my feet more than a few hours. Whatever Iād done in Mount St. Helens had drained me like nothing else Iād ever experienced.ā (203)
I woke up feeling like I was still on fire. My skin stung. My throat felt as dry as sand. (196)
I tried to sit up. My muscles felt like they were melting. (196)
I looked as if Iād lost ten kilos I couldnāt afford to lose.ā (198)
My knees buckled, and I wouldāve landed face-first in the grovel if Calypso hadnāt caught me. (200)
Maybe I was just really weak and thin (200)
Even after a few days/ weeks his legs were still stiff, and he was still getting dizzy from standing up for too long (203)
I hadnāt been in control of myself in that mountain. Iād released so much energy Iād almost vaporized myself, drained all the life out of me.
So, he was not able to physically leave, despite very much wanting to.
2. He forgot about Annabeth and his friends, while enjoying his time with Calypso
Also pretty easy to defend, because, again, he didnāt.
He never stopped thinking about Annabeth, and his other friends. Not once.
Even before waking up, Percy said their names in his sleep so often that Calypso knew them when he woke up (p. 199)
His first reaction to Calypso telling him that he could heal in safety was: Ā
āBut my friends-ā
āAnnabethā, she said. āAnd Grover and Tyson.ā
āYes!ā I said. āI have to get back to them. Theyāre in danger.ā (199)
He tried to use his empathy link with Grover several times on Ogygia to find out if he, Tyson and Annabeth were okay, but couldnāt make any contact (P. 203)
āI thought about Annabeth, Grover and Tyson constantly.ā (P. 204)
The first thing he does after Hephaestus arrives on Ogygia is asking him about Annabethās well-being (207)
3. He hesitated when Hephaestut told him he could go back
This is the first time, the sentiment is somehow connected to the text, because Percy did hesitate for a little bit:
āI wanted to say yes. Of course I would. But the words were stuck in my throat. I found myself looking out at the lake, and suddenly the idea of leaving seemed very hard. (209)
Afterwards, he walked along the beach for several hours, thinking of what to do next (210)
But if you actually read the chapter, you very easily understand that Percy never really, seriously considered staying:
When Hephaestus insinuated, he might not return to camp half-blood he immediately said: āWhat do you mean? Of course Iām coming back.ā
The first thing he says, after Calypso offered him to stay forever on Ogygia was: āButā¦ my friends.ā (211)
His immediate verbal response after Calypso admitted she was in love with him was to say: āI canāt. I would never do anything to hurt you, but my friends need me. I know how to help them now. I have to get back.ā (212)
We also need to consider his reasons for hesitating in the first place. He did not hesitate because he was in love with Calypso. Yes, he thought she was cute when she laughed, thought she was more beautiful than Aphrodite, and didnāt want to make her feel sad, but she is not the reason he hesitated. His biggest what if is not Calypso herself. His biggest what if is what she represents: Peace, Happiness, and a way to avoid the responsibility of the prophecy.
Through Stolen Chariot, we know that Percyās biggest fear is making the wrong decision and dooming everyone he cares about: Ā
āI stood paralyzed. This was the moment I had always dreaded: the prophecy that was supposed to come about when I was sixteen. I would make a choice that would either save or destroy Olympus. Now the moment was here, and I had no idea what to do. The camp was burning. My friends looked at me, begging for help. My heart pounded. I couldnāt move. What if I did the wrong thing? (The Stolen Chariot)
The first thing Calypso says to convince him to stay is: āYou could leave the fight to others, Percy Jackson. You could escape your prophecy.ā(211)
He also considered the possibility that it might be best for his friends if they believed him to be dead:
āNow I found out Iād nearly destroyed the Northwest US and almost woken the most horrible monster ever imprisoned by the gods. Maybe I was too dangerous. Maybe it was safer for my friends to think I was dead. (208)ā She was cute when she laughed.
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And even if he did develop a little crush on her, which I donāt even believe, I just think he really liked her and felt bad for her, how would that be his fault or something we could blame him for???? Ā Since when can people control who they have or donāt have a crush on???
And the most important thing is: he left. As soon as he knew how to, as soon as he was healthy enough, he left. He went back to his friends, missing out on a peaceful and probably very happy life, shouldered the prophecy once again, and left.
His relationship with Annabeth
I can not say enough how much Percy actually supported Annabeth during the course of battle of the labyrinth
He reassured her constantly, that she would do a good job in leading this quest, when she doubted herself: (āYouāre doing great. Besides, we never know what weāre doing. It always works out. Remember Circeās Island?ā She snorted. (P. 120))
He hugged her when she needed a hug: Then she did something that really surprised me. She blinked back tears and put out her arms. I stepped forward and hugged her. (Chapter 4, P. 76)
He trusted her; despite knowing she didnāt tell him the entirety of her prophecy
There are only three points in which they have some kind of conflict in. One of them is the whole thing with Calypso, but Iāve already dealt with that. The other two are the scene after Kronos overtook Lukeās body and then the whole situation with Rachel.
The scene after Kronos overtook Lukeās body
One of the main criticisms people have of Percy here is that he didnāt comfort Annabeth immediately after that scene. While that criticism is somewhat true, it's important to note that he didnāt act out of any malicious intent. After Annabeth collapsed, sobbing with her head between her knees, he didnāt rush to her sideābut this was not because he meant to hurt her.
Percy himself was shocked and traumatized by the experience
After she asked him what happened, Percy was as gentle as he could be when he told her: āHe gave himself over to Kronos,ā I said. āIām sorry Annabeth, but Luke is gone.ā (291)
He only snaps at her, when she continues to defend Luke and accuses Percy of wanting him to be evil: āYou want him to be evil, is that it?ā Annabeth yelled. āYou didnāt know him before, Percy. I did!ā Ā āWhat is it with you?ā I snapped. āWhy do you keep defending him?ā (292)
If weāre being honest, there is nothing Percy could have said to her, which would have helped her, and with the history he has with Luke, I personally canāt blame him for not being able to comfort her about his death or being annoyed that she still defends him after everything
As a reminder, at this point in time, Luke had tried to kill Percy multiple times, told him that he should have died in Tartarus, tortured Annabeth and was completely okay with killing every single kid in camp half-blood
He still wanted to comfort her after that, but he simply didnāt know how to: I wanted to comfort her, but I didnāt know how. I still felt stunned, like Kronosās time-slowing effect had affected my brain. I just couldnāt comprehend what Iād seen. Kronos was alive. He was armed. And the end of the world was probably close at hand. (292)
Avoiding an argument might have actually been the smartest thing he could have done after that
When it was time to continue on their way, he still treated Annabeth gently āI knelt next to Annabeth. āHey, Iām sorry. We need to move.ā (292)
Did Annabeth need someone to talk to? Yes, obviously. Was Percy snapping back at her unnecessary and the last thing she needed in the moment? Also yes. This girl has suffered an unimaginable lot in this book and all the previous ones, especially because of Luke. Ā Iām not blaming her here for the way she acted. She loved Luke, and this might be one of the worst fates imaginable for a loved one. Everyone would have cracked in one way or another.
But is it also insane to criticize a 14-year-old boy, because he did not properly comfort his friend, who grieved the death of a guy, who tried to kill that 14-year old boy for the last two years? Also, yes.
They were two traumatized teenagers with the weight of the world on their shoulders, in a very shitty situation, and I think blaming either of them for how they reacted in this moment is entirely unfair.
Overtaking her quest, by asking Rachel for help
So, I hope we all realize, that this is a stupid argument, and I donāt need to elaborate on why, right? Like, they needed Rachelās help. Obviously, itās shitty for Annabeth that she had to rely on a mortal girl, especially a girl with a crush on Percy, but that doesnāt change the fact that they didnāt have another choice. Rachel was vital for the success of their quest,
Percy also sometimes told Annabeth to lay off Rachel, but, like, Annabeth was acting mean towards her, and Percy is a nice person, who knows that Rachel didnāt deserve this treatment.
I think these are all of the criticisms I have seen, and as a really huge fan of Percy, Iām getting so tired of seeing all of them. Please inform me if I have overlooked any!!!
#Let's all remember that Percy was also a kid for the entire duration of the books challenge#Please reread the books before trying to criticize a character's action#Sometimes I don't think I'm made for fandom culture#My own fault for having this hyper fixation#percy jackson#rick riordan#pjo#battle of the labyrinth#annabeth chase#calypso pjo#pjo fandom#percy jackon and the olympians
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i was an isolated child
last words of a shooting star - mitski / interlude - jeremy lipking / beast monster thing (love isn't love enough) - car seat headrest / untitled - franz wright / twilight: new moon (2009) / teen idle - marina and the diamonds / my year of rest and relaxation - ottessa moshfegh / morning sun - edward hopper / look who's inside again - bo burnham / a girl ago - lucie brock-broido
#web weaving#web weave#parallels#my post#mitski#car seat headrest#twilight#thinking about how i wasted my teenage years#not entirely my own fault#but partially
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let's hear it for the OCs that force you to improve as a person due to the mindset it requires to roleplay them
#ive shared this before with some people but man#oliver is basically the entire reason i'm normal#before i made him in 2008 i was a fucked up little 4chan menace who struggled with empathy and even my own queer identity#then i suddenly had to spend hours a day being a kind old man#'what would a good person do' became a frequent consideration#and suddenly i was part of a real community based on real connections and not the clout of who can be The Funniest#if i wanted to fit in i had to abandon the troll ego#so i did. and a lot of personal discovery followed#anyway where i'm going with this is i'm hoping this version of him helps me with a new fault of mine#he seems to be good at that
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me any time i have to work 8 hours straight: this is terrible, this is awful, i hate this, i could never work a 9-5, how is this allowed, everything sucks
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'thats not his role in the story!' hm i wonder what the point of it is then. hm i wonder what the dead pixel scene means. hm i wonder what wrong organ are trying to say with the context of 'awesome male friendship' and 'corporate hell where the only woman onboard is constantly under ridicule, abused or forcibly forgotten yet is the catalyst' if not this. hm i wonder how curly's physical agony being a direct parallel to anya's mental agony, stripped of voice, agency, just like her, and being forced to watch what happens while not doing jack shit, just like he used to, plays a part in this. i wonder what the moral of him being the final girl says about living with the consequences of your inaction, because of sentimentality, because of status, career and social. hm i wonder whatever the fuck this game was trying to say. hm i wonder what else is on this person's blog Oh Lord there's yaoi penice.
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers#sa mention#dont go after this person but i hooooope they rethink. their view of the story.#but god im gonna squeeze lemons in my eyes soon#taking this game away from yall until you unlearn misogyny#ooooh curlys just sooo sweet poor thaaang oh my oh my youre looking sooo far into thissss haaahaaa#its all just a misunderstanding!!!! anya didnt speak clearly enough!!!! noooo its not on my beautiful blue eyed rascal hahaaa#ok look curlys an insane character i love analyzing him and i VERY MUCH dont want people to think im like villanizing the guy#the entire point is that otherwise pretty chill people can fuck up OF THEIR OWN FAULT AND BIAS and then learn. painfully. what not to do.#and by chill i also dont mean holy water pure ok. distinctions.#and id really hate people taking either side of the argument on curlys morality. esp considering his appearance (for both.)#just don't. fucking make baby ass black and white arguments#this game should be behind a childproof lock in the shape of a reading comprehension test abt crime and punishment#im super supportive of people trying to think outside the norm about art like mouthwashing and explaining their own musings#and talking with others and trying to understand how to argument their thoughts which is what the op of the post this was left on was doing#being genuinely curious and open#but brother i draw the line at so merrily denying the main fucking point of the character in the catalyst event#GOOD GOD make this game only accessible to 35+ yo's with no internet access#the contents of their blog were just the cherry on top#unblocking them in hopes they see this ig
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stg, being an enjoyer of jane twdg is like being forced into an expert-level course on the way misogyny manifests in video game spaces.
god forbid a woman be complex or difficult or provably mischaracterized (see tags) at the end of her arc to service the culmination of a manās storyline.
#ākenny was harrowed by loss in his familyā so was jane. that is part of them literally being foils.#ākenny teaches clem more!ā literally untrue a lot of clemās combat style is rooted in what jane taught her (targeting the knees & basically#everything clem knows about knife combat- jane is also mirrored with lee in this sense as like was previously stated knife combat later goe#on to become a major element of how clem fights only outweighed by her use of firearms)#she teaches clem the gut trick & we see the innovative thinking that comes with being more independent & proactive influence the way clem#handles sticky situations & deals with feeling disempowered. like this is going to sound odd but the fact that her behaviour mirrors jane#at her best (even though her relationship with aj is more maternal the way she approaches him much more as an equal & capable of holding#agency over his own life is much more reminiscent of the way she was treated by jane & luke positively + the rest of the adults negatively#than how kenny or even lee treated clem [though lee did start to view her this way after the train] + her people reading skill.) & at her#worst (isolating herself + becoming cold + the fact she is [based on player choice] willing to leave aj behind for both their survival +#struggling with her need for community vs her sense of distrust in their lasting stability + her tendency to be unfeelingly pragmatic to a#fault except when it comes to aj + the fact that clem- at her worst is self-serving & somewhat uncaring in comparison to kennyās possessive#hot-headedness etc) indicates that on some level- regardless of a playerās second season ending- clem considered jane to be a better#behavioural role model- this isnāt to say kenny was unimpactful but rather that his impact was different- where behaviourally we see elemen#of lee luke jane & even carver in clemās later behaviour kennyās impact is more so that of a cautionary tale- somebody clem cared for who#she witnessed lose himself entirely to his worst character flaws due to an inability to cope with the world she now lives in- something he#even admits to her in multiple endings iirc. kenny becomes the fate clem must strive against at all costs.#similar can be said of the ending where you go with jane regarding how it analogies clemās fears & low self worth as a result of being#unable to maintain what she had with aj (in a manner that mirrors janeās story in that sheās choosing to leave behind a living relative due#to no longer being able to be what they need- again depending on player choice*)#*my exact memory of the third season is hazier tbh. iirc it is dependent on player choice whether she is complacent with the decision to#make her leave the new frontier.#like the way the ending was handled was sloppy & jane was mischaracterized as a result of being shoved into a conflict that we know for#certain was not intended to go to her. calm down & just enjoy your man without being weird & misogynistic dear god.)#(also if you like clem & jane you will like holly robinson & selina kyle dc)#twdg jane#jane twdg#twdg
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Was I meant to feel happy that my life was just about to change?
#I will never not be angry about Reginaās backstory#she was a child!!!#SHE! WAS! A! CHILD!#She was 18 years old and forced to marry a man old enough to be her father#after watching the man she loved be murdered in front of her by her own mother#forced to play mother to a girl she couldnāt stand when she was still just a kid herself#she was abused and manipulated her entire life and yet everyone acts like it was her fault she went dark#in case you couldnāt tell I have a lot of feelings about her#anyway#regina mills#regina mills fanart#once upon a time#ouat#ouat fanart#my art
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It's the last Tintin Day of the year! āļø
Just a quick piece since I've been super busy this month, but I'll always make time for my favourite day. There's so much space in the Marlinspike grounds to build the perfect boozy snowcaptain! āļøš¾
#the adventures of tintin#tintin#snowy#captain haddock#josie's art#cries and screams @ how busy i've been these past weeks ; 0 ;#entirely my own fault but EVEN SO#i nearly forgot to post this lmao; i was climbing into bed like hmm sure there was something else to do :/#ANYWAY (shoves my art into ur mouths and runs)
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Sheās gonna get syrup on her ass ...
For @tazsapphicweek, prompt: sunrise!!
#Iām not gonna be able to get much done this year unfortunately but alas thatās entirely my own fault lol#i have at least one more danbrey piece cooking it should be done before the week is over knock on wood#taz sapphic week#danbrey#taz amnesty#aubrey little#taz dani#taz#the adventure zone#digital art#favorites#id in alt text
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anyway i actually sort of think that if dean didnt take sam having his own life as a personal insult, he wouldnt have killed amy pond
#trying to phrase this so u know that while sam keeping secrets makes me crazy itās not his fault bc dean will get mad either way#just like my own mom <3#eps as citation 9.19 9.20#3.4 also the entire benny arc#those r just off the top of my head
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