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scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde · 10 months

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headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something #asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao #so then he hates hospitals with a passion #my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so #headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao #im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao #it just made draco that little bit more protective #lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands #this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child #he has sick child energy lmfao #he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently #just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally #breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days #let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast #but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system #got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling #scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha #timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE #(he absolutely was not fine)#scorpius malfoy #albus potter #draco malfoy #hpcc #scorbus #this is so many tags im so sorry

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kitorin · 5 months

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I WANNA GET HIS NUMBER

#sou's thoughts #hi here to give context down here #i've been going to this badminton club #and there's this super sweet guy who i admire sm #bc i don't speak chinese at all and people keep assuming i do but never remember that i don't #BUT HE REMEMBERED I DON'T and even goes as far as speaking english for me and translating #like this lady started speaking to me in chinese and i was so lost BUT HE WAS NEARBY AND TRANSLATED FOR ME #school starts soon so tomorrow's my last day #since wechat won't work (mf won't let me sign up) i'm gonna ask for his number #also i wanna try do more small talk !!#idek his age yet and what he does i just know how long he's played #but he's super fun to play with so i want to invite him if i ever book courts during the term #he's literally my role model #i wanna make someone feel that welcome bc before i spoke to him i felt so left out #and kept telling myself that i should just push through and make use of being able to play with new people #now i've been so excited to go and speak to new people #anyways long ass ramble but wish me luck !!#ngl last time i made friends outside of school i did it by trading parent numbers #SO LIIIIIKE #i'm nervous

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kimetsu-chan · 14 days

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I’m gonna be out most of the day bc I’ll be helping my dad with a big shopping trip plus being out after, so I’m going to be super duper exhausted

I don’t do well in crowded or loud places in the slightest, I get woozy and tired and I feel miserable or like I’m gonna pass out, and if the shopping isn’t gonna make me wanna cry, the outing after will bc it’s gonna be packed with lots of noise and people

I don’t say this because I want to complain, I just wanna give a super quick warning that I might not be active tomorrow as well as today bc when I get exhausted, my mental health tends to decline as well ;-;

so- a bit of a warning that I may poof a bit (sorry! 😣)

#But yeah :)#hopefully I’ll be able to sleep it off tonight but since school is tomorrow might end up still tired and stressed (ᵕ—ᴗ—)#lol I’m trying not to complain or make a stink about it whilst still being informative—#Edit: uh so I don’t know what’s wrong with me this morning #But it’s already starting to go to crap unfortunately #Hgnhh I wanna talk but I keep telling myself it’s selfish to talk about how I feel #Idk I’m just messed up man #Feel like crap #eating earlier didn’t help it just made me feel worse #I don’t wanna go shopping or to the outing :(#But my dad said he needs help #And I don’t think I have a choice for the outing #And school tmrw :(#I don’t wanna do this I really font #I think I’m breaking down #Yeah I’m breaking down #<- that’s dramatic I’m sorry #Edit 2: if I trigger myself so badly that I have a really quick and strong breakdown will that make me fine for the rest of the day #Bc omg I have things I need to do! I can’t mope around and be dramatic all day!#I hate this! I don’t want it! Literally any other day would have been doable!#I can’t just ask my dad to stay home from the outing either because then that would entail me explaining why I don’t wanna go and I’d cry-#-in front of him and I don’t wanna cry in front of people #I hate this so much #i wish I could just poof into nonexistence #🌾#<- atp it’s a vent #Edit 3: I’m trying really hard ace but petting my dog isn’t working

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knifekris · 1 month

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every day i struggle to make choices

#i should invest into some kind of education but cant make up my mind #mostly because options suck #i cant do trades unless my body sucks less which is sad because id love to be an electrician #cant even think about getting a pilots license cuz im not passing the med cert #i think id rather die than be a med assistant actually #working clinics at all makes me nervous tbh but probably where im headed in the short term #surgical tech would be cool but i cant do a Real program while working full-time #which is what limits most of my choices #i need to find more paid training programs i guess #if i had to pick a miserable but fulfilling job id go into education itself #but the teaching profession has always been in a downward spiral esp as of late #i dont want healthcare because i hate seeing dysfunctional glorified murder machines grinding around and around endlessly #acute care sucks id rather be in an icu for function but then im depressed because our patients are always dying #it was better as a phleb but this hospital doesnt have phleb and like i said im nervous about clinics #but i need to fucking commit to outpatient phlebotomy i think :/#the most fun ive had at a job ever #i wish i had more widely applicable skills but i cant be an emt/para even just for the training #because half of it is unpaid and the other half you pay for #and again #a job NOTORIOUS for being exhausting dangerous and traumatizing #if i was 17 again and wasnt escaping the tar pit of my mother id go for an english degree and i wouldnt even regret it #thinking about school in terms of a job i have to have forever vs for the sake of learning is so different #id like to know everything. i wanna read and write forever. and do research and have real technical skills that help people #im still riding off of the high of getting 5 ccs off of an oncology patient who desperately needed a port #they were able to run like seven tests off of it #i had to use a couple ped tubes #she only had to get poked Once and barely noticed it bc the doc team came in and im so happy i made her admission that muvh easier #labs are so miserable #checking back on the blood and seeing all of the results came through made me more pleased than anything else in the world

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koko2unite · 2 months

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#rant #my mom got a new thing to pester me about #this time she wants me to go back to school #but not any kind of school #she asks me to go somewhere in the western hemisphere #america canada europe ykw #im already on my late 20s??? what the fuck is that supposed to mean #and whos gonna pay?? if my job doesnt want to provide scholarship then im supposed to pay for it????#for what? so you can have bragging rights that you have another kid living abroad???#its so fucking annoying #i already have a good job good pay have my own house and able to support fixing this house #i just wanna live like this i dont wanna go back getting education again #and even if i go back on education and pick what i wanna do she would definitely intervene and be like can you not pick what you want and #pick what your parents want instead?#because apparently not following your parents stupid decision is selfish #if you dont sacrifice your whole life and goals so your parents can brag about you to their neighbors then whats the fucking point of having #a child #so tired

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lunar-wandering · 1 month

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me; *(spends five hours planning out my courses for the university i just got accepted into this morning, in a way so that im guranteed to succeed and wont leave me burnt out and drained)*

the university: oopsie daisies!! nope, you can't do that!! forever why would we want someone to actually succeed at what they're good at and want to do??? nope!! you gotta remove most if not all of those first year courses and replace them with a larger variety of things for a more diverse learning experience, whether you hold interest or talent in those subjects or not!!!! oh and you gotta do these two courses as well, these are actually required, haha, i forgot to tell you that!

me, now destined to burn out and fail:

#i just. i just fucking cant.#i was excited to finally get a start on things and i had things planned perfectly #cause i CANNOT DO WELL in classes that DONT INTEREST ME #but no. i have to have languages and sciences in here. cause i can't take all humanities.#and i have to take two boring as shit art history courses as well #or else they'll KICK ME OUT.#why the FUCK cant i just do the ones i wanna do??? they're all first year courses!!!#why should i have to do stuff i hold no interest or talent in and am going to fail at???#just completely fucking obliterated all my motivation and drive to actually go to school.#and now ive spent an hour and a half trying to conform to their hard to decipher course requirements #and now my schedule- which looked managable for me before- looks horrible and draining.#im GOING to fail because of these requirements.#i know this. i know my brain.#im never going to be able to do anything with my life cause every single thing #has stupid locked doors that i dont have the keys to standing in my way #vent

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mystery-deer · 1 year

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b99 Doodles (Terry & Holt have an underratedly sweet friendship)

#b99 #Kevin Cozner #Raymond Holt #that stuff about their families are just my headcanons of course #Holt seems like a perfectionist...student government + debate club + founded the first LGBT club unofficially + Top of his class + Volunteer #work and tutoring on weekends #Meanwhile Kevin was skipping school to read shakespeare or go see an old film and think about how much he wanted to get out of this #NIGHTMARE suburb...#Kevin seems like he stopped being angsty and mad only once he got to college and was able to be himself more authentically #I think Debbie does something where she talks to a lot of people as a job - like a receptionist. Something where she can be friendly and get #a lot of gossip...she was also involved in a lot of clubs and afterschool activities...powerhouses those Holts #Debbie appeared in ONE episode and yet she was so sweet in that ep v_v literally got cheated on but was like 'oh my god!!! No don't worry #about me - I'll be alright - I don't wanna stress you out!!' ...obviously loves her brother a lot <3 #b99 fanart

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moeblob · 2 years

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sobbing at every heart event ...

#stardew valley #sdv shane #farmer koi #as someone who grew up thinking i would be fine with death at 18 #as someone who struggled so hard with connecting with others because everything felt suffocating #being able to tell shane that im happy hes here is like telling myself that and hoo boy im crying #the things id love to hear and the things said to me being options in the six heart event #really impacted me #as someone who related to no after plan in the four heart event because i still dont even have a real plan in life #just wow the flashbacks to being unhappy in school the thoughts of being condemned in sunday school #and the fact you can tell him its a sin as a reason to not roll off a cliff is just enough to remind me of how much that hurts #as if im so bad you have to try guilting me into living... gosh #shanes heart events are therapy for me to actually tell someone i relate to YOURE STILL HERE AND THATS GOOD #like does concernedape know how therapeutic its been to tell shane the things i wanna hear #anyway sorry for the possibly depressing tags that is why i kept them in the tags #watch me go back and just delete all the tags but yeah this has been emotional to see from a diff perspective #im so used to being shane that its wild to see what it might look like and its kinda crushing me

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txrtxglix-lvver · 1 month

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I dont want to get things confused he said hed never settle for some boy he couldn't use so now I gotta call the doctor so he prescribe me medication so I can deal with all the memories of being here this way