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I want them to make a sequel to the Star Wars Holiday Special. I want it to be a very serious family drama about Chewbaccaâs family, how he drifted apart from his wife to pursue space opera shenanigans in his shitty space Winnebago, how his relationship with his son Lumpy fell apart because yeah, Chewie, you were saving the galaxy, and weâre all very proud of you for that, but that doesnât mean you were my dad. You were never here. Do you know what that did to mom? Do you know what that did to me??? Lumpy was raised by his mother and his grandfather and Saun Fucking Dann, the guy who was played by Art Fucking Carney in the holiday special, and Chewie might as well have been a fucking ghost the way the family talked about him. And when the war was over, did you come home? Did you settle with your Wookiee wife and be a Wookiee father and smoke your Wookiee pipe while reading the Wookiee newspaper. Of fucking course you didnât you went off gallivanting through the stars again in your shitty space Winnebago with your shitty space roommate, because the idea of being still for even a fucking instant made you terrified. And I want a holiday special where all of this comes out when Chewie deigns to come home one year for Life Day.
And â and this is very important â I want all this family drama delivered through untranslated Shyriiwook. No subtitles no nothing just three hours of wookiees going âAaaaaaargh ghhhhhrn gaaaaaarâ
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Jimbo's tits took up the whole dancefloor that Hallows eve in Vic when I played this set đĽ°
I saw Jimbo after and was like "loved you on all stars - you were robbbed!" and she was like "honey we're all stars, I'm not worried. There's more than enough to go around. I'm just so blessed to be living this life."
Drag queens know wasssup. The best pep talk of my life came from a drag queen after I trainwrecked a set at a show in Vic. My friend who hosted the event was pissed because I was too high and I choked when I got on stage. It was such an emotional day and basically the perfect storm clucterfuck situation where everything that possibly could go wrong went wrong.
Afterwards, I was crushed and so embarrassed and disappointed in myself.
She picked me up off the floor and was like, "LOOK AT ME. Nobody knows your life. Nobody knows what you've been through. Don't for a second let that noise get to you. Don't let anyone make you feel like you aren't good enough. You are fucking AMAZING. You know the truth. That's all that matters."
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Nadia Waheed (Pakistani, 1992) - Sleep's Twin Brother (2024)
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Part One
They don't tell anyone. Not about the marriage certificate, at least. Buck comes back from his conference with a new-old boyfriend and money exchanges hands despite protest from the losers that Bobby had inside knowledge.
(He did not.)
They put the rings away. They talk a bunch of shit out that they'd only skimmed the surface of on the patio of that dingy bar.
Buck buys him that beer.
Finally.
Things are - things aren't easy. Buck skips ahead in his own mind and desperately backpedals before Tommy notices (he hopes). Tommy continues to be tight lipped about things, goes with the flow more often than he should and absolutely hates being called out about it.
Eddie is slow to readjust to having Tommy back in their lives.
With Chris back, he swears up and down he believes Buck that they're both serious about this, but he invites Tommy over less, doesn't involve him in Chris's life as often. Buck tries desperately not to let Eddie's hesitancy inform any of the feelings bubbling in his chest, any of the half-formed futures in his head.
Bobby calls Tommy and they go out for coffee and Tommy spends a week pretending to be so fucking fine about whatever they talked about that Buck starts baking again.
Tommy's abs get a little less defined.
Buck takes him to a gay bar, because they never did that before, never explored anything that wasn't just the two of them, never talked about the community or the history or the impact of being queer. The first time someone approaches their spot at the corner of the bar, Tommy seems to be trying incredibly hard not to read into any of the reactions Buck is having, and failing miserably.
But the thing is. The thing is Buck did this on his own. Petty, unhappy, Tommy's words swirling in his head, he's tried a few dozen times to find another person remotely as appealing as the one at his side, and they'd all fallen short.
When the guy asks Buck if he wants to dance Buck blurts out words before he can think about it that he's absolutely certain are gonna send Tommy spiraling. "Appreciate the offer, but I'm here with my husband. We're celebrating."
The guy blinks. He's young. Younger than Buck, slim and attractive, dark brown eyes and light brown skin that glows golden even in the crappy bar lighting. His gaze darts almost eagerly between them, like he's seeing something he hadn't expected. Something hopeful blooms in his gaze, and Buck - oh.
Buck gets it.
That's a lot of weight to carry just for existing in the world and trying to snatch some happiness from it.
Buck smooths a hand over Tommy's knee and smiles at him, something soft and settled that has been harder to find this time around but still curls up against his spine like it belongs there.
The kid buys them a round and leaves.
"What are we celebrating?" Tommy asks, and Buck pretends not to notice the way his thumb is rubbing over the bare patch of skin where Buck had slid a ring, a few months ago. He's not freaking.
"Whatever we want," Buck says with a shrug, and doesn't mention that neither one of them have brought up the marriage certificate tucked away in Tommy's safe since they got back from Vegas.
---
"The Abby thing is still weird," Buck says, breath heaving as Tommy rearranges Buck's legs and tucks himself into Buck's side. They'd spent an evening talking candidly about their exes because Buck can't understand how they went six months without realizing.
Tommy's hands shift through the hair Buck stopped shaving the first time Tommy admitted he preferred it to the baby smooth skin Buck had tried desperately to maintain for the first four months. It's just now feeling normal, after so many years of keeping it smooth.
"I think she'd freak more than you did."
"I managed to implode a six month relationship with my freak, Tommy."
Tommy chuffs a laugh. Slides his calf up and down Buck's lower leg, and despite the fact that Buck has a few more notches in his belt that'd had that same scritch of hair against his, Buck relishes the feel just because it's Tommy.
"You had help." He pauses, though, tips his chin and tucks it against the give of Buck's shoulder. "I'm not implying her reaction was particularly homophobic, but - I think that was the worst part, for her. The fact that I hadn't just lied about how I felt. It was - she assumed I couldn't feel it."
Buck can't help the brow raise. "Tommy, you're a Kinsey six."
"I still loved her."
He's been working his way through romantic vs sexual vs platonic and learning a whole hell of a lot in the process. He gets Tommy's point. He's thrilled that Tommy is still in a sharing mood. It's just -
Tommy shifts, noses into Buck's underarm. Breathes deep, and Buck has to fight the urge to shove him away.
"If I'm totally off base here tell me, but I think you loved her like I love Eddie."
Tommy narrows his eyes. Contemplates. "Tell me again how jealous of his hair you were when you met," he decides on, and shrieks when Buck digs a finger into his ribs in retaliation.
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They fight, and it's thrilling.
They never did that before. Minced their words and apologized and let it all drop away but never actually let it go, and when Tommy gets on a roll he's bitchy as hell. It drives Buck insane. He wants to wring his fucking neck. He wants to take him to the mat and actually learn enough about Muay Thai to stand a chance lasting two minutes. He wants to throw him against a wall and jack him off until he sees stars.
"He wouldn't do the same for me, Evan, so why should I bother?!"
Tommy's dad is dying. According to Tommy, it's days or weeks, not months or years, and Tommy had said it so emotionless that Buck had jokingly tried to check him for panels and plugs and wiring. Tommy hadn't appreciated the robot joke.
"Screw your dad, Tommy! Do it for yourself."
"I'm not like you, Evan! That bridge burned a decade ago. I don't need - ." He pinches the bridge of his nose. Grimaces and sucks in a breath. Usually that means he's yanking back words he knows he'll regret. Rearranging them in his mind until they're less likely to sting. "I don't want a death bed reconciliation any more than I want to be proven right about him."
Buck takes two weeks off to help Tommy plan the funeral.
Tommy tosses the contents of the urn into the ocean two weeks later, and when Buck asks about it, Tommy gives him a shifty look, like he thinks the answer might send Buck running. "He hated the ocean."
It's the last time they talk about his dad, for a while.
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SAKUSA ANGST??????â¤ď¸
By the time Kiyoomi gets to home, the moon is halfway past the skyline and high in space, and the bright light trickles through the blinds, carving your disappointed features while Kiyoomi jumps at the sight of you, standing firmly in the living room.
"Jeez," he snickers, putting his keys on the counter. "You scared me, baby, what're you doing up-"
"I know, Kiyoomi."
His brows furrow in confusion, but behind his dark pools, you see shame. And his eyes always gave him away. âWhat? Whatâre you talking about?â
You blink lazily, âI saw Hinata. You werenât with him. Told me you never even texted him.â You shake your head, âif youâre going to commit adultery, make sure you have all your bases covered.â
He stays silent for a moment, letting his eyes cast down and avoiding your judgmental, hurt gaze. A hand comes up to scratch the back of his head, pick at a hangnail, jam into his pockets, anything and everything to not meet your betrayed looks.
âHow long?â
âBaby, I-â
âDo not pull that manipulative shit on me,â you say exhaustedly. âDonât start with that nonsense. I want to know how long. And I want to know who.â
He finally meets your eyes, âI made a mistake-â
âNo no. New couples make mistakes,â you snap, hoping that by yelling out your frustrations you wonât cry the hot tears swelling in your waterline. âWeâve been together three years, you donât get to make those kinds of mistakes, you donât get to tell me not to worry about one person, then cheat on me.â
When he slowly lowers his hands, guilt struck in his gaze, you feel bile rising up your throat.
âItâs⌠your PR manager. Isnât it?â You chuckle. âYour âwork babeâ? The one you assured me was over and done with?â
âNo no, youâve got to listen to me-â
âAfter I specifically begged you to tell me it wasnât true, after you assured me nothing funny was going down, after you told me youâd gone to their house to fire them-â
He looks away. Darts his eyes again. Your hands come up to cover your mouth, âoh my god⌠you⌠went there to be with them- YOU WENT THERE TO BE WITH THEM WHILE I WAS HOME? WAILING OVER YOU?!â
He says nothing to defend himself, and you scream and jump up and out of your seat, grabbing the nearest pillow and smacking him with it. He shields himself with his arms, ducking slightly from your swings, but he doesnât say anything. Nothing to change your mind, sway your thinking or deny, deny, deny anything.
âYou lied to me!â You sob, finally losing your composure. âYou lied square to my face, for what! For THEM?!â
âBaby, listen-â
âDONT FUCKING CALL ME THAT, SAKUSA!â You shriek, throwing the pillow down and meeting his teary eyes with your enraged ones. âDonât FUCKING start with me!â
He calls your name in an attempt to calm you down, extending his arms to create distance, âit was a mistake, I made mistakes.â
âAnd thatâs a crock of shit.â
âI thought I was missing something, and I thought they could give it to me! Honest! It meant nothing, just meaningless dates and kisses to try and fill something inside that I needed, and-
âYou are not helping yourself right now, Sakusa,â you pant.
âI wanted to leave them, I swear on my mother-â
âAnd you couldnât manage to do that.â
âSo now what?â He chokes. âSo-So-So are we just done? Three years just gone?â
âBecause of you.â
âIâm not going to let this happen,â he sobs, collapsing to his knees and wrapping his arms around your legs. âPlease, donât leave me. Iâll fire them. You can go with me.â
âClearly firing them isnât going to make a difference,â you snarl. âSince your tongues been down their throat and god knows what else.â You shake him off your legs and continue to look down at him in distain, âIâll have the boys send for my things. Iâm staying with Osamu. Do not contact me anymore.â You shake him off your legs, and he looks up at you like a kicked dog.
âNo-â
âYeah, you donât get to say no, anymore,â you snap. âSince clearly you had a hard enough time doing it for them. Iâm taking control of the situation now. You will never make a fool out of me again.â
âPlease,â he begs, âI hated it, I hated all of it, I-â
âStop lying, Kiyoomi,â you shake your head. âItâs not worth it. Youâre not going to sway me.â
At that, Kiyoomi stops. His eyes blink a line of tears down, his hands rest in his lap, and his bottom lip trembles. You take a deep breath, âplease let Osamu in when he comes for my belongings.â
He says nothing. He merely continues to stare up at you desperately, pleadingly, and you scoff before making your way down the hall to grab your packed bag. âUnreal,â you hiss. âYou are unbelievable.â
âYou donât have to leave,â he chokes. âYou can stay here, Iâll leave, Iâll go to Bokutoâs, heâll-â
âHeâll let you in and stay with him after you have the nerve to cheat on me?â You scoff. âBokuto is not an idiot. Heâs not going to just ignore the shitty things you do because youâre his teammate.â
Kiyoomi knows that if you walk through that door, youâll never come back. You know itâs tearing him up inside, you see it in his exhausted features and you know it in your soul.
Good.
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Shelter in the Storm
Pairing: Rafe Cameron x reader
Summarize: Rafe is acting weird during the storm and youâre about to find out why
Warning(s): mention of gun, protective Rafe.
A/N: feedback always make me happier, love yâall â also tysm for all the love in my fics
The storm outside was relentless, sheets of rain hammering against the windows. Thunder rumbled in the distance, a low growl that felt too close, too ominous. Rafe stood by the window, his silhouette sharp against the faint glow of the firelight. His jaw was tense, his hands flexing open and shut at his sides.
You had packed a bag and driven to Rafe's earlier today when you received a warning in your phone about the upcoming storm, not wanting to risk staying at yours to see the damage - your small house in the Cut had barely survived in the last one and neither you nor Rafe wanted to risk it. Not when his place was as much as yours as his.
You watched him from the couch, bundled up in an oversized sweater, your book abandoned beside you. He hadnât spoken much since the phone call earlier, but his restlessness told you everything. Something was wrong.
âRafe.â you said softly, pulling his attention away from the storm.
He turned, his blue eyes darker than usual, stormier. He didnât respond, just studied you for a moment like he was trying to memorize every detail. It wasnât unusual for him to brood, but tonight, something felt different. He never got that weird over business that went wrong.
âYouâve been pacing for twenty minutes, quiet ever since I've arrived. Whatâs going on, baby?â you asked, your voice laced with concern.
Rafe exhaled sharply, dragging a hand through his hair. âItâs nothing you need to worry about.â
You frowned, sitting up straighter. âDonât do that. Donât shut me out.â
âItâs not shutting you out, alright? â he snapped, then immediately softened his tone as he noticed you flinch, his chest tightening with guilty. âItâs keeping you safe.â
âFrom what?â
His eyes flicked away, unable to hold your gaze. His silence was answer enough.
âRafeâŚâ You stood, crossing the room to stand in front of him. Your hand rested lightly on his clothed chest. âWhat arenât you telling me?â
He hesitated, torn between wanting to protect you and needing to tell someone. He didn't like to keep things from you. Finally, he sighed. âYou remember Morroco?â
Your brow furrowed. âThe trip? Of course.â
He had called you to meet him by the beach, kissing you goodbye as he said he had an important last meeting to close a massive deal and that it'd probably take him a few weeks before he was back.
âIt wasn't just a trip.â he said bitterly. âItâs a mess. A deal went sideways, I went after Groff to get my money back and then... Then there was this blue crown treasure hunt with those... pogues. We crossed some people." His jaw clenched. âNow theyâre coming for me.â
Your blood ran cold as you tried to process everything. Not even paying a big attention to the fact that Rafe had lied to you. âThey?â
âMercenariesâ he admitted, the word dripping with disdain. âHired guns who donât care about anything but the paycheck and that fucking crown that slipped away from our fingers."
Fear pricked at the edges of your mind, you could hear your heartbeats in your ears. Mercenaries. âAnd you think theyâll come here, after you?â
âI donât know,â he admitted, his voice low. âBut Iâm not taking any chances.â
You stepped closer, your hands gripping his arms. âRafe, we should call someone - Shoupe, the poliââ
âNo,â he interrupted sharply. âThe cops wonât do anything. Iâll handle it, okay? I can take care of my own shit."
âYou canât handle this alone, Rafe. We're talking about mercenaries and not a cougar whose money went sideways in a deal!â you argued, your voice rising slightly.
âIâm not letting you get involved,â he said firmly, his hands resting on your shoulders. His touch was warm, grounding.
âIâm already involved,â you countered, your voice softening. âI care about you, Rafe. That means Iâm in this with you, whether you like it or not.â
His expression cracked, the tough exterior slipping to reveal the vulnerability underneath. âYou donât get it,â he whispered, his hands sliding down your arms. âYouâre the only thing Iâve got thatâs good. If something happens to you because of meââ He broke off, shaking his head.
âNothingâs going to happen to me,â you said, stepping even closer. Your hands rested on his chest, feeling the rapid beat of his heart beneath your palms. âYouâre here. Youâll keep me safe.â
He stared at you, his breath hitching slightly. âYou have too much faith in me,â he murmured, almost to himself.
âI have the right amount,â you whispered back.
For a moment, the tension hung heavy between you, the storm outside roaring as if reflecting the chaos inside him. Then, before you could say anything else, Rafeâs hands moved to cup your face, his thumbs brushing your cheeks.
âYouâre so damn stubborn,â he muttered, a small, almost pained smile tugging at his lips.
You opened your mouth to respond, but the words were swallowed as his lips met yours. The kiss was desperate, almost frantic, like he needed to remind himself you were here, with him, safe. His hands slid into your hair, holding you to him as if letting go wasnât an option.
Your hands fisted in the fabric of his shirt, pulling him closer. The warmth of his body, the way he kissed you â it all felt like a promise, and a plea rolled into one.
When he finally pulled back, his forehead rested against yours, his breathing heavy. âIâm not letting them get near you,â he vowed, his voice raw.
âThey wonât,â you assured him, nodding as your hands smoothed over his chest.
He kissed you again, slower this time, his hands skimming down your sides. When he pulled you against him, his arms wrapping around your waist, you felt the full weight of his fear and his determination.
âI should send you away,â he muttered against your hair, his lips brushing your temple. âSomewhere safe. Away from Outer Banks."
You leaned back, meeting his gaze. âNo. Iâm staying right here. With you.â
Rafe stared at you, his jaw tightening. âYouâre insane.â
âMaybe,â you said with a small smile, not wanting him to know how terrified you actually were. âBut so are you. Weâre a good match, remember?"
Despite himself, he chuckled, his grip on you tightening. âYouâre going to drive me crazy.â
âYou wouldnât have it any other way,â you teased.
He didnât answer; he just pressed another kiss on your forehead before pulling you into his chest. His hand smoothed over your back, lingering there as if the simple act could protect you from the world.
After the conversation, the weight of the threat hanging over him, Rafe couldnât let you out of his sight. He needed to feel you close, needed to know you were safe in a way that words couldnât assure him - and it didn't help that you decided to organize everything that was out of place, moving between the rooms without saying anything. He knew you were stressed. You always clean whenever anxiety hits you.
âCâmon,â he murmured, his voice low as his arms slid around your waist.
You blinked up at him, confused. âWhat are you doing?â
âTaking you to bed,â he said simply, his tone leaving no room for argument.
Your cheeks flushed. âI can walk, Rafe.â
âNot tonight,â he said, shaking his head. âLet me do this.â
Before you could protest, Rafe bent down and swept you into his arms as if you weighed nothing. You let out a soft yelp of surprise, your arms instinctively looping around his neck.
âRafeââ
âShh,â he murmured, glancing down at you with a small, almost teasing smirk. âJust let me take care of you for once, okay?â
You pressed your lips together, your cheeks warming at the way he held you so effortlessly, his grip steady and secure. His heartbeat was steady beneath your ear, a calming rhythm that contrasted with the chaos of the storm outside.
The walk to the bedroom was silent, save for the sound of the rain pounding against the roof. Rafe nudged the door open with his foot, carrying you inside. The room was dark except for the faint glow of a lamp on the nightstand, casting warm light over the space.
He set you down gently on the bed, his hands lingering on your hips for a moment before he stepped back. You watched as he moved around the room, double-checking the locks on the windows and door. His movements were methodical, his expression tense.
âRafe,â you said softly, sitting up. âYou donât have to do all this.â
He glanced at you over his shoulder, his lips pressing into a thin line. âYes, I do.â
You wanted to argue, but something in his tone stopped you. He was carrying more than just worry â it was guilt, fear, and the overwhelming need to protect you. It was his way of tricking himself into believing he had some control over the whole situation.
Once he was satisfied, Rafe returned to the bed. You noticed the subtle way he opened the drawer of his bedside table, checking the loaded gun inside.
Your stomach tightened. âDo you really think itâll come to that?â
His gaze flicked to you, softening slightly. âItâs just a precaution,â he said, his voice steady.
You nodded, though the thought of him having to use it sent a shiver down your spine.
âCome here,â he said, holding out a hand.
You crawled toward him, settling into his arms as he pulled you close. His body was warm, solid, and the way his arms wrapped around you made you feel like nothing in the world could touch you.
âGet some sleep,â he murmured, pressing a kiss to your forehead.
âWhat about you?â you asked, your voice muffled against his chest.
âIâll sleep,â he promised. âJust need to make sure youâre out first.â
You frowned but didnât push further. His hand smoothed over your back in slow, soothing strokes, lulling you into a sense of security.
Eventually, your breathing evened out, and Rafe let out a breath he hadnât realized he was holding.
He stayed awake, his eyes scanning the room, his ears attuned to every sound beyond the rain. Every creak of the house set his muscles on edge, his mind racing with worst-case scenarios. But then heâd look down at youâyour peaceful face, your fingers loosely curled against his chest â and the storm inside him would quiet, even if just for a moment.
Carefully, so as not to wake you, Rafe reached out and brushed a strand of hair from your face. His fingers lingered, tracing the curve of your cheek.
âYou donât even know how much you mean to me,â he whispered, his voice so soft it was nearly drowned out by the rain.
His hand moved to your shoulder, then down your arm, his touch light, almost reverent. He wanted to memorize every detailâthe way your skin felt against his, the rise and fall of your breathing, the warmth you radiated.
For a long time, he just watched you, his thumb idly brushing against your arm.
No one would hurt you. Not the mercenaries, not anyone. Heâd burn the world down before he let anyone take you from him.
When his exhaustion finally began to creep in, Rafe pressed a kiss to the top of your head, his lips lingering there for a moment.
âIâll keep you safe,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âI swear. Even if it's the last thing I do.â
With one hand resting on the gun in the drawer and the other wrapped protectively around you, Rafe finally allowed his eyes to close, the storm outside fading into the background.
As long as you were in his arms, nothing else mattered.
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too little, too late
(8x08 coda) (buddie) (1.2k) the episode chose violence and so did i :) spoilers for 8x08, and hey, guess what? this is my 100th 911 fic! it feels right that it's an evil one <3
The real estate agent has an irritating voice. Itâs pitchy and run through with vocal fry, and if Buck has to listen to her talk for another second, he might actually tear his hair out. And itâs definitely about her voice. Nothing to do with the largely helpful information sheâs handing over to Eddie like candy on Halloween.
âAnyway, we can touch base again once youâve had a chance to look over those listings. Iâm sure weâll find something for both of you to love!â the realtor says.
Buck smiles. It feels brittle and fake.
âThank you so much,â Eddie says with all the sincerity Buck canât quite muster. He ends the call and sits back against the couch.
âThat, uhâthat went, umââ Heâs choking on the positivity heâs trying so hard to exude. ââwell,â he manages.
âYeah,â Eddie says. He runs a hand through his hair. âSeems easier than I thought it was going to be.â
Easy.
Thatâsâ
Yeah.
âYou know youâyou donât have to buy straight away,â Buck says as casually as he can manage, which is to say, not casually at all.
âBuck,â Eddie says with a sigh.
âI know!â Buck says, throwing his hands out in a gesture of surrender. âJustâmaybe you want to make sure, you know? Before itâsâitâs permanent.â
âI canât keep missing out on his life,â Eddie says quietly.
Buck swallows. He knows. He knows! Knows it like he knows thereâs going to be an Eddie-and-Chris shaped hole in his heart for the rest of his goddamn life.
âI donât want you to,â Buck says, and itâs maybe the first honest thing thatâs come out of his mouth since he sat down on Eddieâs couch.
Bile rises in the back of his throat as he realizes this might be one of the last times he gets to sit on this couch, in this house, with this man.
Eddie drops his head into his hands. âI donâtââ He cuts himself off.
âHave you told Bobby yet?â Buck asks. His breath catches.
âNo,â Eddie says.
âOh,â Buck says in a rush of air. âThatâsââ He wants to say good. He canât say good. Eddie needsâhe needsâ
Eddie lifts his head from his hands and his eyes are shining. âI donât want to,â he admits. âI thoughtââ
âThat heâd want to come back,â Buck supplies when Eddie doesnât finish his thought.
He nods.
âHe stillâhe could stillââ Buck starts.
âHeâs not going to change his mind.â Eddie cuts him off. âHe doesnât hate me. Itâs worse than that. He doesnât care.â
Buckâs chest feels tight. âHeâhe loves you, Eddie,â he says weakly.
âMaybe before, butââ
âHe does,â Buck insists. âAndâand if this is what you have to do to make sure that stays true IâI get it.â He does. He gets it. Heâd do anything for Christopher. Heâdâ
Itâs the worst feeling in the entire fucking world, but heâd give up Eddie for that kid. Is. Is giving up Eddie for that kid. A sob jumps up in Buckâs throat. He fights it back.
âI want to believe you,â Eddie says.
Buck knows that he doesnât.
âHave you, um. Have you talked to Chris about this yet?â Buck asks, feeling a little bit like heâs just laid his neck across the base of a guillotine.
Eddie shakes his head. âNo, IâIâve got to do this, whether he wants me to or not.â
All at once Buckâs angry. Angry at Eddie, angry at his parents, at fucking Kim, at himself, and maybe even a little bit at Christopher.
âEddie, youâyou told him he could come back!â He says, a little louder than he means to. âDoesnât he deserve to know thatâs not going to be an option anymore?â
Eddieâs gaze snaps to his. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âHeâs gotâheâs got friends here, andâand Carla, andââ He canât say it. He doesnât have the right to say it, doesnât have the right to feel like heâs already lost a limb and now theyâre taking a lung, butâ âand me,â he finishes quietly.
Something like devastation flashes across Eddieâs face. âBuck, Iââ
âNo,â Buck says quickly, standing up from the couch. âI shouldnât haveâIâm notââ
âBuck, wait,â Eddie says, following him as he retreats toward the door.
âI, umâI forgot, I have toâI promised Maddie,â he tries to lie.
âPlease donât go,â Eddie says, and god, how many times in Buckâs life has he yearned to hear someone say that to him and mean it. How many nights has he driven home from Eddieâs wishing heâd been asked to stay.
This thing building in his chest, this thing of anger and grief and regretâit hurts. Every breath he takes is a little more constricted, a little less effective.
Eddie looks at him, and Buck sees it. That thing heâs always wanted to see. That thing he didnât even know he wanted from Eddie until right now and itâsâ
There was a small, naĂŻvely hopeful part of Buck that really still believe that if someone loved him enough, theyâd stay. Eddie loves him, looks at Buck like heâll break his heart when he walks out the door, and it still isnâtâ
Eddie loves him, and it isnât enough to make him stay.
Buck is in love with him, he realizes, and it doesnât fucking matter because heâs leaving. Like Abby and like Tommy, except Buck didnât know how much hurt he hadnât even discovered yet, because this isnât Abby or Tommy, itâs Eddie, and Eddieâ
Eddieâs supposed to be the one that stays.
Buck shakes his head and shuffles back until the doorknob is digging into his spine. âI have to,â he breathes, a grossly distorted reflection of what neither of them has quite managed to say.
Eddie opens his mouth like heâs going to ask again, like heâs going to beg Buck to stay, to show him all these awful pieces of his heart that heâs just found so he can remind himself that itâs not too much to leave behind.
Buckâs out the door before he can say another word.
He throws himself into the Jeep and all but fishtails it out of Eddieâs driveway. He makes it three streets away before he has to pull over.
The first sob surprises him with its softness; the second with its violence. He wraps his arms tight around his stomach and, god, he tries to breathe. But thereâs notâthereâs not enough oxygen in the entire world to make up for the way his lungs refuse to expand in the face of this loss.
He has toâhe canâtâEddie needs him to pull it together. Toâto help him. To support him, and god help him, Buck will. Thereâs nothing Eddie could ask of him that he wouldnât give. Nothing Eddie could do, Buckâs realizing, to make him love him any less.
Hot tears spill down Buckâs cheeks. He takes a shuddering breath and wipes them away. His vital organs are crumbling, so what?
Heâll set himself on fire if thatâs what it takes to keep Eddie warm.
#911fic#911 fic#buddiefic#buddie fic#911#buddie#fic#911 spoilers#coda#abbie writes#abbie commits to the torture nexus <3#i have lighthearted ideas but that's for Later
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Okay, bear with me on this, but I am more and more convinced that 911 is in this mess with BuckTommy because they picked up a very audience-favourite trope and then, did not follow through with it till the end. What I am talking about is the 'if you are going to be bisexual, it better be for someone who's worth it' trope. We see this in most mainstream bisexual representation nowadays - schitt's creek, heartstopper, rwrb and I wouldn't say it is the best representation or the healthiest one but it is a hopeful approach and one that makes bisexuality palatable to a much wider range of audience than it would otherwise be, kind of like how 'gay for you' worked but with a step in the right direction. It also kind of subverts all the negative representation of bisexuality that we have seen so far, with the non-monogamy, sexual perversion and cheating etc and at the same time, establishes the bisexual identity in a more romantic sphere - where you are bisexual because you loved this person enough to question yourself. It is okay rn because it is so new, practically not even 5 years in the making, but it could turn harmful because that is sadly not how bisexuality works.
Now, coming back to BuckTommy, they followed this formula because that is the best way to go when your audience is not that educated on all things sexuality. If they were going to make Buck bisexual after 6 seasons of straightness, they had to put someone opposite him who would make the audience feel like 'yes! I too would question my sexuality for that guy'. So they created Tommy and they literally went the sugar and spice and everything nice route. We see other characters complimenting him and whatever else you say, you cannot claim that firefighter pilot who can fly in a hurricane does not sound fucking cool. But . . . the problem starts because they dragged it out and in an attempt to make him worthy of Buck's bisexual realisation, they kept building him in a way that would make him perfect for Buck. And this thing worked for the other shows/movies/books because the relationship is endgame in every single one of them. it works because they are literally created to be the only ones for each other. But if Tim's words are to be believed and Tommy is only the beginner relationship, he's done the math in the wrong formula here because he's accidentally created an endgame character for a temporary arc so obviously, when everything went down, the equation did not match for the audience. They are used to things happening a certain way and a cable tv procedural is not where you expect a subversion of tropes especially when that trope is nowhere near saturation point yet.
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movie moment || alexia putellas x reader ||
You and Alexia try to have a special day out.
Everything was nearly perfect. Both you and Alexia managed to carve out some time in your schedules for a little day out together. You had been feeling a little neglected, but Alexia was quick to suggest treating you to a date. She had expected you to just want to go shopping before dinner, but you had surprised her by asking for a picnic date.
Alexia had taken painstaking measures to keep as much of the day a surprise to you as she could. You were woken up a bit earlier than usual for breakfast, which Alexia brought to you in bed after her run. The early wake up call was quickly made up for with lots of little kisses as Alexia helped you get ready for the day.
The morning was clear and sunny, not a cloud in sight as the two of you walked from shop to shop. It wasn't until you and Alexia were driving to the park that you saw the first cloud of the day. It wasn't a dark or gloomy one, so you had no reason to think that it'd start raining at any point during the day. Especially not the moment you and Alexia found yourselves relaxing on the picnic blanet.
"You look so pretty in that dress," Alexia mumbled as she pulled you in for a kiss. You were a little extra giggly due to the two glasses of wine that Alexia had brought along. The two of you had cycled through hundreds of bottles of wine before you finally found one that you liked. And now, Alexia made sure that it was always stocked up in the house.
"It's almost like you picked it out for today," you teased. Alexia pretended not to know what you were talking about as she stole a bite of food from your plate. You didn't know why Alexia had even bothered bringing two plates since she always seemed to prefer whatever you had. Despite being absolutely horrible about sharing most of the time, Alexia seemed to love it whenever it came to you.
"You could have worn a trash bag out, and I'd still be looking at you like this." Alexia had a point, and you knew it. Alexia had let you walk out of the house in some very questionable outfits before because in her eyes, you always looked absolutely beautiful. Luckily, you had gotten into the habit of sending your outfit of the day choices to some of your more honest teammates before you left the house for any reason. "You're just that beautiful."
"Someone is sappy today. Are you trying to butter me up for something?" you asked. Alexia seemed to clam up a bit at that, but you didn't get a chance to question her about it. Both you and Alexia jumped up at the feeling of rain pouring down onto your bodies. Alexia shoved as much as she could into the picnic basket while you balled up the blanket. The two of you raced to Alexia's car, laughing as you stumbled a little bit.
"Where the fuck did that come from?" Alexia grumbled. You were still laughing, but Alexia seemed a bit upset about the date being "ruined" by the rain. You placed the blanket in the trunk of her car, glancing at her over the top of her car as she waited by your door. You were lingering a bit, which very obviously confused Alexia quite a bit. You hated getting your hair and makeup ruined, so she assumed that you would have been rushing around to get inside. "I'm sorry that it started raining."
"Nothing was ruined, I had a great day today. You really went all out for today, and I appreciate it," you told her. Alexia forced herself to look up and away from you in a feeble attempt to hide the blush on her cheeks. You tilted her chin down and leaned forward to close the distance between your faces.
Kissing Alexia was, and would always be, one of your favorite things in the world. She was so gentle with you, but she didn't let any of that mask her passion for you. All of the things that Alexia had a hard time articulating to you came out in her kisses. You could feel her start to take your breath away, a welcomed suffocation of emotion with each kiss that you got to share like this. This wasn't a quick peck, far from anything that the two of you had shared in public before.
"Come on, let's get back," Alexia mumbled as she broke the kiss. You sat down in Alexia's car, knowing that she'd be going crazy later cleaning the seats. Alexia didn't seem bothered as she drove the two of you home. "Go get changed, and I'll bring your things inside."
"Meet me on the couch?" you asked her. Alexia nodded, leaning over to give you a quick kiss before she sent you inside. You changed out of your dress into a pair of spandex shorts and one of Alexia's old Barcelona sweatshirts. You could hear Alexia changing as you wiped your makeup off and put your hair up.
Alexia beat you to the couch, remote control already in her hand. You curled up with a blanket beside her, unsurprised when Alexia pulled you fully onto her lap instead. She laid back on the couch with you on top of her, silently waiting for you to give her the go-ahead to turn on an old game. You knew that it was part of Alexia's daily routine to watch an old game of hers or an upcoming opponent's, and you had no intention of stopping her today.
"What game were you thinking today?" you asked her. Alexia didn't answer you, instead putting on the first game where your national team had played against Spain with you on it. It was the first meeting of you and Alexia in any capacity, and you never could have imagined that you would end up here years later. "Are you okay?"
"I am absolutely perfect. I don't think that I've ever been happier than I am with you. When it clears up, I'll get you a proper picnic date, I promise. Until then, this feels like perfect weather to stay inside and cuddle up together," Alexia said. You could tell that she wanted to say more, but you didn't press. And when you caught Alexia fiddling with a ring that definitely wasn't meant for herself later, you'd keep your mouth shut until the time was right.
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and iâll never see you again if i can help it
ex!joel miller x f!reader
summary: after breaking up with Joel, you take an opposite patrol shift to avoid him at all costs.
warnings: smut and angst
âThe first time I tasted somebody else's spit, I had a coughing fit
I mistakenly called them by your name
I was let down it wasn't the sameâ
The cold nighttime air startled your lungs as you stumbled outside. Before you had time to acclimate, his lips were pressed against yours. You drunkenly kissed him back, him being some guy you met at the Tipsy Bison whose name you couldnât even be bothered to recall. You got a taste of his spit, bitter from the alcohol he just drank. You forced yourself not to gag which caused you to pull away and cough violently, the crisp November air certainly not helping.Â
He looked at you under the dim street lamp and chuckled, âYou okay?â
Tears sprung at the corners of your eyes as you continued your coughs and struggled to catch your breath. He rubbed your back as your coughing fit came to an end.Â
That was nice of him.
When the coughing finally dissipated you resigned to kissing him again. He pressed you against the side of the building and worked on your neck, leaving sloppy, wet kisses on your soft skin.
You started to moan a little and as he kissed and sucked on your neck, you subconsciously moaned âJoelâ.Â
He stopped. You felt the blood rush to your cheeks and your face grew hot. He slowly pulled away from your neck and looked you in the eye.Â
ââŚWhat did you just say?â
You didnât know what to say. Itâs not like you could tell him the truth, âOh I was just moaning my exâs name.â That would crush him. You stared at each other under the streetlamp and through puffs of your visible breath. The expression on his face was a mixture of disappointment and betrayal.
âI- IâŚâ you stuttered out.
He shook his head and muttered âForget itâ before turning and walking home, leaving you alone in the dark street with nothing but the shame you felt.Â
âIâm doing fine, trying to derail my one-track mind
Regaining my self-worth in record time
But I canât help but think of your other in the bed that was mineâ
You sighed and went to walk home yourself, the shame already melting away. Itâs not like it was going to be anything serious anyway. Who cares if you called him by the wrong name? Youâre still healing from your breakup with Joel anyway. You were bound to be a little messy here and there. The shame had started shapeshifting into pride of some kind. But all that changed when you saw him leaving the Tipsy Bison. And no, not the random guy from before. This time him being Joel. And he was with a woman. They were clearly drunk and practically hanging off of each other. How had you not noticed him inside earlier? And as they walked towards the direction of Joelâs home, the home that you used to share with him, you heard something rare; Joel was laughing. Jealousy stirred a pit in your stomach. Your hands clenched at your sides. Tears sprung in your eyes again. The shame returned but this time for a different reason. You were ashamed you no longer had a rebound. You wanted to prove to Joel that you didnât need him; that you were moving on. But instead, you were standing in the street feeling jealous, watching him walk home to fuck someone where he used to fuck you.Â
âAm I a masochist, resisting urges to punch you in the teeth
Call you a bitch and leave?â
You wanted to yell after him; tell him to stop; ask what he thought he was doing. Maybe even call him a name or two. Maybe throw him a punch. Maybe not the punch though. That was just drunk you talking. You didnât really have a right to do any of those things anyway. You were broken up. He was free to move on to whoever he wanted. You turned on your heel and walked home, head hanging low in humiliation. You returned to your empty home, collapsing into bed and finally letting the tears flow now that you were alone. You thought about what Joel was doing with her. Was he kissing her? Were they holding each other? Were they in what used to be your bed with Joel? Did he have the same attention to detail with her pleasure that he used to have with yours? It made your stomach twist into knots. The alcohol mixed with the feelings of regret, longing, and nostalgia; all of it fusing together, leaving you nauseous. You ran to your bathroom and emptied the contents of your stomach into the toilet. You sat on the floor, rested your head against the toilet seat, and sobbed, the tears making your face sticky and puffy. You knew you were gonna look like shit tomorrow, eyes puffy and bloodshot, all the color in your face faded. And to make matters worse, you had a daytime patrol shift with Joel tomorrow. The thought of him seeing you like this was mortifying. You wanted him to think that you were moving on; that you didnât need him anymore. But that was far from the truth.Â
âWhy did I come here? To sit and watch you stare at your feet?Â
What was the plan? Absolve all your guilt and shake hands?â
You woke up that morning with a splitting headache. The morning sun creeping in through the windows didnât help either. You rose from your bed slowly, the aches in your body starting to set in. You went to the bathroom and took a look at yourself in the mirror. The bags under your eyes were a deep purple and the life was sucked from your face. You thought about Joel seeing you like this⌠which led you to think about him waking up with her this morning. The pain that that thought gave you was indescribable. It tore at your stomach and your heart, leaving them with heavy pits. You leaned over the bathroom counter and took slow, deep breaths, heading facing down at the sink. After talking yourself down from the impending mental breakdown you got ready for your patrol shift, slipping on your clothes and grabbing your gun on the dresser before exiting into the brisk morning. You put your pants in the pockets of your jacket and stared at the ground as you walked, not trying to make eye contact with anyone as Jackson was waking up for the day.Â
You reached the main gate to find Joel waiting there, too, also looking at the ground. Tommy and a few others were waiting as well. You wordlessly headed to the stables, mounting on your houses for the patrol. The tension between the group hung heavy in the air, thanks to you and Joel. Everyone in town knew about your breakup and how messy it was. Nobody dared to say a thing as you and the group exited through the gate and spread out along the walls of Jackson. Somehow you and Joel ended up next to each other, neither of you looking in the otherâs general direction. The strain and hostility between you two was so strong it was pliable. It felt like a weight being pushed down on your shoulders. And thatâs how most of the shift wentâ you and Joel next to each other or walking by each other on your horses, never making eye contact. It was awkward for you, him, and everyone else unfortunate enough to be on the same patrol shift with you guys. If only you could switch patrol shiftsâŚ
But your thoughts are interrupted when Joel speaks, startling you.Â
âCan we talk?â
Really? Now?
âI donât really think here is the best time or placeâŚâ you said, glancing at the others around you.
âMeet me at the diner after our shift?â he asked in a hushed tone.Â
The diner in Jackson had a service for patrol shift workers to stop in for coffee whenever they needed it. Going to the diner after your patrol shifts was something you used to do together. Now, you avoided that place like the plague, finding it to be painful to go to.Â
Your brow furrowed, âSure, I guessâŚâ
He nodded silently and led his horse in the opposite direction around the fence. You didnât see him much for the rest of your shift. And when you did you didnât really look him in the eye. The day seemed to drag on, the sun getting lower and lower in the sky. At the end of your shift, you headed back to the stables and dismounted from your horse, starting the walk to the diner. Jackson was bathed in a warm red glow, a beautiful sight on a normal day but you were too nervous to appreciate it. As you approached the diner you saw Joel through the window, sitting at a booth, looking down at his hands.
âI feel no need to forgive but I might as well
But let me kiss your lips so I know how it felt
Pay for my coffee and leave before the sun goes down
Walk for hours in the dark feeling all hellâ
You entered the diner with a ding from the bell attached to the door. Joel looked up from his hands and met your eyes. You wordlessly walked to his booth and sat across from him, not knowing what to say. But again, Joel spoke first.
âIâm sorry you had to see that outside the Tipsy Bison last nightâŚâ
So he did see you. That made this so much worse.
You sighed, âYou donât have anything to apologize for. Weâve been broken up for like a month now.â
âI know but that doesnât mean I donât care for you or your feelings anymoreâŚâ
He looked at you with a solemn expression on his face. Before either of you could say anything the waitress came over to take your order.Â
âCan I get you two anything else besides coffee? Something to eat?â
Not in the mood to eat. Not during a talk like this.Â
âJust the coffee for now,â you replied.Â
âSame for me.â
âIâll be right back with those,â she said before, turning and heading behind the counter.Â
âI mean⌠I forgive you I guess?â
He nodded and reached your hand across the table.
But why? Why is he doing this if he supposedly moved on? You missed him, though. And youâd be lying to yourself right now if this didnât make you at least a little bit happy.Â
You took his hand and sighed, rubbing your thumb across his.Â
âWhy are we doing this? I thought we were supposed to be moving on. Iâve been trying to, at least.â It physically pained you to say those words but it was what needed to be said. He canât just go home with another woman and then come back to you apologizing. He either wanted you or he didnât.
He didnât answer. The waitress returned with your coffees and you sipped on them silently; the warm liquid soothing you after a long day out in the cold.
You continued, âI just donât get whatâs going on here. It all feels like a mixed signal.â
âI want to move on. I really do. But when I try to move on I find myself feelinâ guilty. And it doesnât help that we work the same patrol shift. I see you all the time and anytime I look at you, I just feel guilty.â
âIâll make this easier for both of us, Joel,â you said, giving him a sad smile. âDonât worry about me. Just live your life.â
Something compelled you to give him one final kiss before it was over forever. You leaned over the booth and gave him a quick, chaste kiss, even though you would regret it later. Before he could say anything in return, you slid out of the booth and stood up, getting ready to leave.Â
âGoodbye, Joel,â you said before leaving him behind, in the past where he belongs.Â
âDonât hold your breath, forget youâve ever saw me at my best
You donât deserve what you donât respect
Donât deserve what you say you love and then neglect
Now bite your tongue, itâs too dangerous to fall so young
Take back what you said
Canât lose what you never hadâ
The sun was setting. The people of Jackson were heading towards their homes, but not you. You walked through the dark streets, in a melancholy haze. You missed him so much but there was a reason your relationship ended. But still, you found yourself reminiscing on the good times; the patrol shifts together, him teaching you how to play guitar, laughing together with Ellie. But he didnât love you the way you needed to be loved. It was understandable given all he went through. But he didnât need to tell you he loved you and treat you otherwise.Â
You met each other in Kansas City after FEDRAâs control there collapsed.Â
And when you first got together he would always tell you to be careful falling for him. You were a lot younger than him. Looking back, he was probably right. But he stopped trying to fight your feelings towards him and just accepted it. And thatâs all it most likely was at the end of the day; him just accepting you, not loving you back. At least thatâs what you thought. Maybe there was a part of grumpy, stoic Joel Miller that loved you deep down. And if that part of him existed, he was terrible at letting it out.Â
It wasnât a breakup where one person broke up with the other. You both felt it coming for a while. The greatest love youâd ever known (or thought youâd ever known) slipped through your fingers. And you both felt it was time to cut it off. That was a little over a month ago and it hasnât been any easier since.
After a while the frigid night turned into dawn. You stayed out the whole night, loafing around. Soon it would be time for your patrol shift but you thought about what Joel said.
âAnd it doesnât help that we work the same patrol shift. I see you all the time and anytime I look at you, I just feel guilty.â
âYou got a 9 to 5, so Iâll take the night shift
And Iâll never see you again if I can help it
In five years I hope the songs feel like covers
Dedicated to new loversâ
You spotted Tommy walking to his patrol shift and thatâs when you got the idea: ask for the night shift.
âTommy!â you shouted, âWait up!â
He stopped walking and turned to face you. You jogged a little bit to catch up with him.
âHey,â he said wearily, taking in your current state. âDid you go to bed last night?â
âNo⌠But I actually had something I wanted to ask you.â
âShoot.â
âWould it be alright if I took the night shift instead?â
He let out a small sigh. He knew what this was about.Â
ââŚI donât see why not.â
âThanks. Can I start tonight?â
âYeah, thatâs fine. Go home and get some sleep,â he said, looking at your tired face.
âThanks, Tommy,â you replied before walking home.
You didnât see Joel walk to his shift. Maybe he was already there. Maybe he would notice your absence. Maybe he wouldnât care. Maybe he would be relieved.Â
You walked inside and went straight to your bedroom, peeling off the clothes you had been wearing for the past twenty four hours. You slipped on something to wear to sleep and crumpled into bed, exhaustion taking you over. You still found yourself dreaming of Joel. You dreamt of when he taught you to play guitar. He knew some songs from before the outbreak but not a ton. So a lot of the songs you made up on the spot, not necessarily accompanied by singing either, something neither of you were skilled at. But it was something you two did together. It was something that made the detached Joel Miller enjoy himself for once. Maybe one day he would play those songs for someone else or forget yours and make up new ones entirely. Maybe he would teach her how to play guitar. Maybe he would give up that hobby altogether after you, finding it too painful.Â
You slept throughout the whole day, waking up a couple of hours before your night shift. You opened your eyes groggily, not adjusted to the light coming in through the windows yet. You rubbed your eyes and opened them to see a tall, looming figure standing over your bed.
âWhat the fuck?!â you shouted, sitting upright.Â
You blinked a few times and your vision focused. It was just Joel and he had a scowl on his face.
âJesus Christ, Joel. You scared the shit out of me,â you said in an annoyed tone, trying to quell your racing heartbeat.
âThe fuckinâ night shift?!â he said gruffly, still towering over you.Â
âAnd what about it?â you challenged, folding your arms.Â
âWhat was the fuckinâ reason for it,â he replied, sitting across from you on the bed.
âThought about what you said yesterday⌠Seemed like the right thing to do if weâre gonna move on from each otherâŚâ
He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose.
âYeah, but you donât go and do something rash like that.â
âSomething rash? You mean just swapping my work schedule? Last time I checked I didnât have to consult with you about that.â
He fell silent so you continued, âYou canât just say youâre done with me; that youâre trying to move on, and then come here and get upset because I changed my work schedule. Iâm sick of the fucking mixed signals, Joel. You either want me or you donât.â
You finished your little speech with a loud sigh, sounding annoyed as fuck. The audacity of this man was unbelievable. He can take home some other woman the night before but come to your house, when youâre sleeping, and get all possessive? Enough was enough.
You scooched closer to him on the bed.Â
âSo whatâs it gonna be, huh? Make up your fucking mind.â
Without warning his lips crashed against yours. His kisses were messy and sloppy. And almost angry. His hands found themselves in your hair. This was the exact opposite of what you should be doing but you didnât care. You missed him so much.Â
He pushed against you, coaxing you to lie down on the bed. And when you did, he hovered over you with a hungry, insatiable look in his eyes. He returned to kiss you messily while his hands roamed the rest of your body, trailing down to the pants you were wearing, thumbing at the waistband. You moaned softly underneath him and he pulled off your pants, tossing them on the floor. His hand grazed up your thigh, resting on your cunt that was growing wet in anticipation.Â
âBet you missed this,â he whispered against your ear.Â
You let out a small whimper in response as his fingers teased your entrance, brushing against the wet, tender flesh.Â
âYouâre already so wet for me, darlinâ.â
Darlin. That was an older pet name Joel had given you. And itâs been a while since youâve heard it. That fucker knew exactly what he was doing. He knew all the ways to make you melt under his touch.Â
You spread your legs open for him, gaining him access to slip a finger inside you. His mouth found your neck, peppering it with sloppy kisses. You rocked your hips against his hand, desperate for more. And when he finally gave you another finger, you felt the pleasure in your core building more and more.Â
His mouth left your neck and trailed down to your entrance, licking small, soft circles around your sensitive clit. You knew you werenât gonna last long like this, his fingers hitting your g-spot perfectly and his tongue caressing your clit in a way that sent you into intense euphoria. He always knew how to get you cum quickly and hard.Â
âIâm gonna cum, Joel,â you whined.Â
He moaned against your clit in response, letting you know he wanted to feel it. And when you did cum, it was intense. Your cunt fluttered around his fingers as he pumped them in and out of you relentlessly. You soaked his face in your cum as you rode out your high, rocking your hips against him. Once you were done coming, you collapsed your hips back down on the bed, legs still shaking.Â
You were catching your breath when he looked up from your cunt and said âNot done with you yet, darlinâ.â
He stood up from the bed for a moment to remove his clothes. You took the moment to sit up and pull off your shirt over your head, tossing it on the floor with your pants. He returned to the bed and hovered over you by your face.Â
âReady for me?â
You nodded and he aligned himself with your entrance, thrusting his hard cock into you extra slow to drive you insane. He took your legs and put them over his shoulders before you even had time to adjust to his size. Itâd been a month since youâd taken his cock and you werenât used to his size anymore.Â
He leaned down so you were face to face, legs pushed back towards your head hitting the perfect angle inside you. It was intense and all you could do was moan and whimper as he fucked your wet, little cunt incessantly.
âCanât tell you how much I missed this perfect cunt, darlinâ. Itâs like it was made for me.â
Between his dirty talk and the angle he was hitting inside you, you weren't gonna last long. You felt your walls tense up in anticipation of release. He sensed it too and thrusted in and out of you harder and harder, anxious to feel you cum around his cock.
âGive it to me, sugar. Cum on my cock.â
And when you did, it nearly sent him over the edge. He willed himself to wait until your release was over before pulling out. Stars prickled your vision and tears welled up in the corner of your eyes. Your release was intense, convulsing his cock like a vice. As he felt your orgasm come to an end, he pulled out. You reached in between your legs and stroked him to completion, coating your stomach in thick, white ropes of cum.
He slumped down on the bed next to you, burying his face in the crook of your neck. Neither of you dared to say a word as the feeling of regret started to sink in. You let your thoughts run wild as if to avoid talking about what just happened.
âYou got a 9 to 5 so Iâll take the night shift
And Iâll never see you again if I can help itâ
Maybe you couldnât help it after all.
#pedro pascal#pedro pascal fanfiction#pedro pascal smut#pedro pascal x reader#joel miller fanfiction#joel miller x you#joel miller x reader#joel miller smut
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Dial Drunk
Lando Norris x fem!reader
Summary: in which, Lando is young, drunk and in love.
Warnings: police, driving under influence, mentions of alcohol, mentions of a breakup, bad dialogue (this one is old)
Wordcount: 1.8k
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Heâd seen the blue and red colour in his rear view mirror long before he could even register that he was sat in his car, neither where he was driving. His head felt dull, filled with too many thoughts of things he swore to forget. Things he swore wouldnât matter anymore because they shouldnât. One of them being her.
She was in all of them actually, whether she played the main character or was just a side thought, but she was always there. In the back of his mind, where he still heard her voice talk to him in such a soft tone like no one would ever be able to do, she was still taking his hands and making him dance with her through his living room. Even against every complaint from his side, she wouldnât let him sit down again. Instead they were swaying to the rock song that played next.
Now, he was looking at the officer standing next to his car, a disappointment look in both their eyes and a sense of the other in their mind. They were in the middle of nowhere. Lando on his way to her. The man on his way back to his work, probably to link out for tonight and go back home. A place where Lando should be too.
âWhat have we been up to tonight, sir?â He asked, looking down at the bruised knuckles that still held onto the steering wheel like he was afraid of letting go and having nothing to steady himself on.
Lando wasnât too sure how to answer. He wasnât too sure about what he was up to that night himself. A couple drinks in a club, which Max urged him to go to, in order to âfree him from his bed and sulkingâ. After the shots, there were some girls. Interesting enough to dance with but he knew that they wouldnât come home with him, he was sure they knew that too. They knew who he was. And then - a guy he wouldnât call a stranger, neither a friend, simply some guy he knew - said something about her. About them.
His voice dripped with alcohol, his words intoxicated by the shots they took together. Lando shouldnât have taken them the way he did, he knew that now, but it felt right in the moment. His fist in the other guyâs face, he just wanted him to stop talking. Unsure if he wouldâve made him quiet forever, Max pulled him away quicker than Lando could think about his actions. Then he went away; out into the cold and into his car to tell her about the bad heâd done for her.
âNot a lot,â Lando answered, looking down guilty. Both of them knew that Lando wasnât sober, they also knew that he wouldnât get away from this unharmed.
âMay you blow into this?â
He did, and when the officer raised his eyebrows at the result of the alcohol test, Lando knew he was fucked.
âIs there anyone you can call to pick you up?â The officer asked, dialling a number of his own on his phone already, not looking up at Lando once while talking to him. It was kind of rude, Lando believed, to ignore someone while you were talking to them. âAny emergency contacts?â
At no response, the man held out his hand for Lando to place his phone in it. Going to the emergency contacts himself, there was only one. Y/n. Simple. No heart behind her name anymore, no silly nickname, but her face was still beside it. Dialling the number it rang and rang. Lando could hear the endless sound from his place in the car, it dragged on for a while before, in the end, she hung up.
âYour only emergency contacts and they donât even want to speak to you, not very helpful,â he commented, handing Lando his phone back. The screen lighting up at the interaction. Her face still smiling at him, he hadnât had the heart to make her disappear completely from everywhere he knew her from. Some part of her was still with him and he couldnât just throw it away.
âCan I drive you somewhere, sir?â
The outline of her building was in his sight sooner than heâd like it to be, the speech heâd rehearsed ever since they called it quits was now somewhere still in his car, left together with the jacket of his she loved to wear.
âYou alright, kid?â The officer - Jeff - asked, knowing too well what he was going through. Anyone willing to look at him could see it in the once white, now red of his eye. It was visible in his pulled down lip corners and the void of nothing in his eyes. Feeling nothing was worse than feeling the pain, they concluded together in silence on their drive to the address Lando gave him.
âI have a kid of my own, you know, son? Heâs been in love with this boy for years now, too afraid of what would happen to him if he stated the truth, what the people would think of him. But, in the end, I told him, that love couldnât be stopped, no matter what other people thought about it. Whether it was wrong or right in their eyes, it will always matter how it feels to you. If itâs hurting, change it. If it makes you happy, try everything to make it stay that way.â
âThanks,â Lando muttered, a soft, still forced smile creeping on his lips now that he was there. The place he went to in his dreams as the dream she always believed he was. The dream boy she saw in him. Her dream boy.
âGood luck.â
The doorbell seemed too loud for the quiet night now, as he looked at it. The metal of it seeming too heavy for him to be able to push it down and make himself known. He couldnât throw pebbles at her window, he wasnât even too sure if he could even remember which window was hers.
But her name called out for him to say it once more, no matter the outcome. He just had to try it one more time.
Pushing the circle in the middle of the medal, next to her name, he could hear it echo in his mind. The sound too familiar now that he was stood here again. How many times had he been on the receiving end because he went to her apartment unannounced, without her there, and answering the door for postmen or neighbours? Too many too count, he concluded in the same moment as he heard her voice through the stereo.
âHello?â Her voice sounded sleepy, like sheâd only woken up from the sound.
All of a sudden, Lando felt flustered. Ashamed for thinking sheâd just forgive him on the spot because he told her, that he loved her. It wasnât as easy as that and that thought only crept up on him now: she had every right to deny him. But what then? What would he do? Where would he go? He couldnât call Max, disturbing his night out because he wasnât the man she wanted anymore. He had no one else here. His parents were too far away and everyone else he knew was either in Monaco or somewhere else in the world, just not London.
âHello?â She voiced again, more rage filling her voice this time. âI swear if this is some stupid joke, just let it be-â
âItâs me.â Maybe he was the joke. Maybe he should just let it be.
The simple sound of his voice made her go quiet, but she didnât hang up, she was still there, her breathing was heard when listened to closely enough.
âCan we talk?â
She let him in. The harsh buzz of the door taking him by surprise at first, before he quickly pushed it open and made his way into the hallway, up the stairs until he stood in front of her door. It was open, open for him to enter. Lando stayed still for a second longer than normally someone would, before he pushed it open to reveal the apartment behind the walls. It still looked the same, she had less pictures - theirs gone from their place - but other than that it was all the same as when he left.
Y/n was sat on the sofa, knees pulled up close to her chest and her eyes were fixated on the floor in front of her. The far left of the cushion still empty, waiting for him. Slowly, Lando made his way towards it, sitting down and taking off his head like it was disrespectful if he didnât do it.
âYou wanted to talk?â Her voice almost sounded sarcastic, like she couldnât believe those words actually left his mouth. Him, the man who left without a second word beside: This is something I have to do alone; before walking out the door for what she believed to be forever now wanted to talk all of a sudden.
âI was dumb,â he started, the words coming out faster than he could process them. The alcohol taking off the nerves and adding the free mind he needed. âI wasnât truthful and I was stupid and an complete wanker. I wanted you beside me, I also will and want and have. I want to love you and I know I screwed up but please, please give me another chance. Please, Y/n. Monaco, itâs so quiet without you. My whole life is too quiet now that you arenât there. You and your laugh and talks about whatever it is thatâs been on your mind lately. I miss it all.
âI miss you.â
She would lie if she said she didnât feel the same, the city felt too big now that she had spent more time alone in it. But she would lie if she said that she was ready to forgive him.
âYou hurt me. You really did.â
âI know.â
âYou made me feel unwanted, like a burden almost.â
âYou could never be a burden to me.â
âDidnât sound like it back then.â
âIâm sorry.â
She sighed, rubbing her temple and the side of her face in order to make the headache go away that she knew was coming her way.
âYou canât just expect me to forgive you.â
âI donât,â he assured her, edging closer to her side.
âThen why are you here?â
âBecause I want to try and make you trust me again.â
âI never stopped trusting you.â
âYou shouldâve.â
âI know, but I didnât.â
âLook, Lando.â She could see the feelings of hope and disappointment battling in his eyes, neither wanting to be wrong, because they both knew they were right, in certain ways. âI canât just forgive you. You have to work that out yourself.â
âI will. I will do whatever it takes for you to trust me again, I promise. I just canât keep on living without you.â
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How Soon Is Now?
Soft!Dom!Matt Sturniolo x Shy!Virgin!Reader
-Reader has experienced ridicule for being a virgin in the past, so when Matt reacts with nothing but acceptance, she finally feels ready to give herself to him
cw: Minors Do Not Interact virginity loss, established relationship, oral (f!receiving), daddy kink, praise kink, finger sucking, lots of pet names, vulgar language, titty sucking, penetration (fingering and p in v), talk of past shitty relationships and a little crying (like two paragraphs of angst), reader blacks out for like three seconds, squirt >:)
a/n: okay holy shit this is so long (literally thatâs what she said) massive shoutout to @tinypinkrobot for helping proofread and giving me some tips!!
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You and your boyfriend Matt have been going steady for almost three months and everything was perfect. He was always doting on you, making sure you never went without, and going above and beyond to spoil you. Matt was perfect, so perfect it almost made you feel guilty.
The two of you hadnât gone past heated make out sessions, it even took you the first couple weeks to get comfortable enough to let him really touch you. Finally, building the courage to take Mattâs large hand off your waist and placing it over your shirt onto your breast.
The thing was, youâd never gone past a kiss with a guy, Matt was your first boyfriend, before him itâd been high-school crushes and one sloppy kiss at a house-party, basically, the guy ate your face and squeezed your boob too hard.
As guilty as you felt, and as understanding as Matt was, you still hadnât clued him into just how inexperienced you were. Anytime you thought to tell him youâre taken back to a time after graduation when you almost got your first boyfriend, that is until you told him you were a virgin.
The guy practically laughed you out of his house, thought it was âpatheticâ, said he âknew how girls like you actâ telling you in a much more vulgar way that youâd become attached after you both did it and that he just couldnât handle that.
The sting of that memory stuck with you, his words felt like an absolute truth for every man, you still think about how you walked home that night sobbing. Matt had never once pressured you or even gave the impression that he was anything but the perfect man, but still, that night hangs over you.
Currently youâre snuggled up in Mattâs bed watching a movie while heâs in the shower. In this moment of solitude you take time to think. You wanted this, I mean really wanted it. The way Matt handles you when he kisses up your throat, pushing your hair back for full access to the column of your neck, his gentle hands as he caresses over your body; nothing at all like the guy in the bathroom of your best friends house.
All the evidence you had pointed to Matt being a caring, sweet and attentive lover, so you felt foolish at how hard you thought about all this. Thatâs when you make up your mind. As soon as the thought crosses over you, you hear the shower shut off and Mattâs walking through his en suite door, followed by a thick puff of steam. His wet hair is sticking to his forehead, looking a shade darker than normal, his white towel hangs low on his waist as rivulets of water drip down his exposed chest.
âSorry, babydoll, left my change of clothes in here, Iâll be right backâ, he says as he comes over to where youâre sitting up at his headboard to place a quick peck on your cheek. Before he walks away, you decide to cease this opportunity, I mean Matt looks like a fucking Michelangelo statue right in front of you.
Reaching out, you grab his arm as he uses your blanket clad knee to stabilize himself while he bent to kiss you, âWait⌠waitâŚâ, youâre losing confidence as you speak, but you need to do it, you need to get over your fear, for yourself.
Mattâs eyes narrowed in concern, sitting down next to you, completely forgetting that heâs practically naked as he reaches to hold your cheek, âWhatâs wrong sweetie, you okay?â, his brows furrowed, studying you. Inhaling a deep breath, you sit up straighter, âMatt⌠If I tell you something, dâyou promise you wonât get mad?â, at this point your heart is beating out of your chest as you twiddle your fingers nervously.
The room feels too hot, your clothes too tight, everything around you making you feel exposed as you canât even meet your boyfriendâs eye. By the way Matt shifts turning entirely to face your direction, you can tell heâs now entirely intrigued, if not a little anxious in his own right, âYou can tell me anything, when have I ever gotten mad at you for that, for anything?â, heâs speaking slowly, unsure of what youâll admit.
Letting out a shaky breath, you finally look up to his confused face, âIâm- Iâm just nervous and I know I shouldâve told you before you asked me out but I was- I just, Iâm a virginâŚâ, you spit out the words at lightning speed, the minute they leave your mouth youâre looking back down to your lap, feeling your face get hot and your eyes prickle with tears.
ââM sorry Matt, I donât why i didnât tell you, Iâm sorry, I promise if- if we do it I wonât get attached, I wonât b-bother you, seriously.â, the frantic words spill out of you even faster than your tears do. âHey, hey⌠princess look at me. Oh baby, itâs okay, Iâm not mad at you. At all. Youâre okay, sweetheart, enough with the crying pleaseâŚâ, Matt uses his thumb to wipe away your tears then moves his hand to pinch your chin between his thumb and pointer finger, directing you to meet his eyes, looking at his face all you can read is sympathy.
Offering you a sad smile, your boyfriend scoots closer to you, rubbing at your jaw with his thumb, âItâs all okay, babydoll, Iâm telling you. And you believe me, right? Hm? Everything is just the way it was before you told me.â, he nods reassuringly, moving his hand to back of your head, pulling you onto his shoulder.
The second he pulls you to his embrace, you slump into him, arms locking around his waist as his left hand continues to caress over your hair, right arm rubbing up and down your back slowly. âShhh, shh, sweetie pie, what made you think Iâd be mad at you, huh? It makes me sad youâd even thought of that outcomeâŚâ, his voice is soft and soothing, it pulls you from your spiraling thoughts.
You collect yourself before straightening out to wipe your eyes and look at your boyfriend, âYou really donât care?⌠I just- thought guys donât wanna do that⌠with someone like me.â, immediately Matt helps you to completely wipe the wetness from your cheeks as he listens intently as you speak.
Leaning forward, Matt meets your lips in a soft kiss, using his hand on the back of your head to deepen it. âI donât mind, babydoll, âm serious, youâre my girl, okay? Doesnât matter if I know a lil more than you, hm?â, youâre still a bit distracted by the kiss, but his reassurance still hits your ears, you move forward to catch Mattâs lips again, this time more impassioned than heâd let you before.
You slide your tongue against the junction of his soft lips, pushing through to lick through his mouth. A minute whine leaves you as he takes the kiss over, hand moving from the crown of your head, down to your face, the second his hand reaches your chin, his to guess invades your mouth, he moves his thumb from just under your chin, to the center of you bottom lip.
Matt pulls away, his eyes are tipped low with desire, lips kissed perfectly to a chapped pink, cheeks ruddy from the way you tried to take control over your kiss. Pulling back, disconnecting from his lips, you begin to pull your camisole off.
The cotton of your top passes over your head, leaving you in your thin, silky bralette. Matt puts his hands on your shoulders once youâre left more exposed than you ever have been in front of him. âHey, hey, hey, whatâre ya doinâ, love?â, he chides, words more shocked than they are upset.
âYou donât need to do that, princess, you know I donât expect that from youâŚâ, he keeps his hands on you, rubbing up and down your shoulders.
âI know⌠I want to. Really bad.â, it makes you blush, saying these words out loud, especially to Matt, who you can tell just by the way he talks how much more experienced he is than you.
Mattâs lips quirk into a small, proud smile. âYou sure, baby? And you know we can stop at any time, I wonât be mad, mâkay, I promise.â, nodding along to his words, reaching forward you push his slightly damp hair off of his face, admiring him. âIâm sure, Matt. Youâre the only person I could ever see myself doing this with⌠I love you.â
Now itâs Matt whoâs blushing fiercely, he locks his arms around you and pulls you gently into his lap, squeezing you into a tight embrace, and tucking his head into your neck. You can feel the smile on his face as he begins peppering small kisses across the expanse of your throat and down your shoulder, âI love ya so much, babydoll, Iâm so proud of you for tellinâ me. âM gonna make you feel so good, hm?â
You let out an imperceptible sigh as Matt travels from your shoulder to the place where your neck meets your jaw, sucking a small bruise into a spot you didnât even know about, the sensation makes you shiver as you feel goosebumps form over your body. âPlease, need it, just- do what you wantâŚâ, your voice comes out tight, like someone else is controlling your breathing.
âYeah? Need me to help you out, doll? Poor thing⌠Why donât you lay down and tell me what you want from me, okay?â, before you can respond Matt is picking you up by the hips, and laying you down softly atop his thick comforter. You hit the bed with a soft huff, feeling like youâre underwater, the anticipation making your head spin.
Matt, still only wearing a towel wrapped tightly around his hips, comes to crawl over you, his arms hold him up him on either side of your head, as he looks down to your face. âMattâŚâ, you whine out the word, now feeling more needy than before, needing Matt to just do whatever he wants to you.
âCâmon, sweetheart, let me hear whatâs goinâ on in your head, hm? âM sure youâve thought about it, huh? What you want me to do with youâŚ?â, heâs beaming a smug smirk down to you, moving from using his hands to keep him up, to rest heavily on his elbows. Mattâs body is now entirely blanketing you, his face close enough that he rubs his nose gently with yours before leaning sideways to kiss all along your face.
âI-â, your face screws up in embarrassment, of course youâd thought about it, it keeps you up at night how much you think about Mattâs hands, using his strength to overtake you, his lean body pressed against yours with nothing separating you.
âWant you ta show me what to do, use me how you want, I think about it⌠a lot, I think about how you talk to me, when you give me instructions and- and make sure I obey you, cause you wanna keep me safe. I think about what i-it would be like if you did it⌠during sexâŚâ, you words break off into a sheepish whine, your cheeks are blazing with embarrassment. âWanâ daddy to take care of me, pleaseâŚâ
At this point you imagine your face is as red as a firetruck, breath picking up as you turn to hide your face in Mattâs bicep. Matt lets out a soft chuckle, you can tell your answer pleased him. Matt bends his wrist lightly to pet at your hair, âYa did such a good job, Iâm happy to take care of you, babydoll. Such a pretty girl, all blushy and shy, my sweet, little girlâŚ~â
Matt straightens up, now on his knees above you, âCan daddy take your clothes off, doll? That okay?â, when you nod your head in response, he reaches forward to grab your chin, smiling sweetly, âLet me hear you say itâŚâ, you blush deeper as you speak, âYes, please~â
âAweee, thatâs a good girl~â, he coos out his words as he watches your eyes slipped shut at his praise. âYou like when daddy tells you what a good job youâre doinâ, huh? You just keep following instructions and Iâll make sure you feel really good, baby, just need ya to stay there and let daddy take overâŚâ, heâs nodding his head at you, the hand on your chin creeps up to place his pointer and middle finger over your lips.
Your lips separate by themselves, welcoming his two fingers to push into your mouth, Matt just barely enters the tips of his fingers through your lips. Using them to hook over your bottom teeth, opening your mouth ever so slightly as your curious tongue pokes out to lave against his digits.
âFuuckâ, his words slip out in an almost whisper, voice gravelly as he watches you lick at his fingers, eyes shy as you look up to gauge his reaction. âSo obedient⌠giving in so good, so fuckinâ good, princessâŚâ, as he speaks, he begins to breach further over your lips, fingers now one knuckle deep over your tongue, applying a slight pressure that causes your eyes to shut slowly.
Leaning over you again, Matt keeps his hand still as he kisses over your chin and the open corner of your mouth softly. âOkay, sweetie pie, âm gonna take off your clothes now, gonna treat you real good, alright?â, speaking around the intrusion in your mouth, you nod frantically as you respond in earnest.
Mattâs smile never leaves his face as he slowly slips his fingers out of your mouth, slithering to kiss down your neck to your sternum, where he slips a hand underneath you and expertly unclasps your bra, pulling your top off, revealing your naked chest to him. The groan Matt lets out is deep, almost like a growl, âGoddamn, princess, youâre so perfect, so beautifulâŚâ
Matt slips both his hands under you, covering the expanse of your ribs while he takes one of your nipples into his mouth, sucking expertly as he lets his eyes slip closed. âAh! Oh, Matt, fuck⌠feels- feels weird~â, he pops you out of his mouth, pulling away slightly as his hands move to cup your breasts, âGood weird? Want me to stop?â, you can tell by his easygoing voice that heâs genuinely curious, totally sincere about stopping at any point. âD-donât stop, âs just sensitive, n-never really had a-anyone touch me thereâŚâ
Mattâs smile shines as he moves up to overpower your lips in a slow, passionate kiss. Asserting his dominance as his tongue slips into your parted mouth, every movement deliberate, savoring this moment. His mind races, losing himself in the feeling of your mouth working against his, remembering every kiss you shared before this momentâ how different they felt from this, and how theyâll never feel quite like this again. The sudden realization makes him cherish the kiss, letting every movement etch into his mind, as though he were memorializing the innocence of what was before. It was like this kiss was solidifying the moment your relationship moves from something ever-changing and naive to a sound and unshakable force.
Pulling back, his lips delicately grazing your own, he whispers, âI love you, my girl. Iâm always gonna take care of you, help you, teach you as best I can. This isnât gonna change the way I see you. Youâre always gonna be my best friend. The love I have for you isnât gonna change, itâll only get stronger, dâyou understand? I donât wanna scare you, or make you think Iâll be different after this. You can always tell me to stop if you donât want to go any further, okay?â
The weight of his words flow over you, any nervousness you felt before being washed away as he reassures you, âI know, I trust you, Matt. I felt⌠different every other time I thought this might happen, but Iâve never felt that way with you. It was just me, holding myself back because of the way others have made me feelâŚâ, the conviction in your voice makes Mattâs eyes soften, his hand coming up to smooth your hair off your forehead, laying a sweet kiss to your hairline.
âYou donât have to explain yourself, baby, I never thought any different of you because you didnât want to have sex, and i certainly donât think any different of you now, mâkay? Now just relax fâme, daddyâll take care of everything, no more worrying, dollâŚâ, his voice trails off as he moves back down your body, kissing over your tits, down in between them to lick and suck over your stomach, to the waistband of your cotton panties.
As he gets closer to your core he steps down to kneel on the floor next to his bed, grabbing your thighs to pull you to the edge of the bed. The maneuver causes you to let out a squeal, itâs at this moment, after youâve been taken out of your head, that you realize just how wet you are, slick soaking through your white undies. You squirm at the thought of how close Matt is to your most vulnerable parts.
A whimper slips past your lips, attempting to squeeze your thighs together, but Matt isnât having it, he tightens his hold, now snaking his hands up to slip his fingers into your panties, tugging them down, moving slow on purpose to tease you. Matt lets out a small chuckle at your desperation, your breathing picking up and the noises you make are now completely out of your control.
âSo eager, love the way you move those hips, darlinâ. Daddyâs gonna eat you out okay, I need you good and ready for me, so i can just slide inside you, hm? You ready, babydoll?â, the needy moan that escapes you is loud and high-pitched, âYes, yes daddy, please. PleaseâŚ~ anything~ anything you wantâŚâ
âSo sweet, doinâ soo good, honey.â, his words are muffled as he now nuzzles into your naked hip, leaving a kiss there and trailing more down the inside of your thigh before finally reaching your throbbing core, heâs about an inch away from you, breath fluttering over you causing you to clench around nothing.
Your pussy is leaking and hot, youâve never felt this turned on, to the point you donât even think you need any prep, Matt could easily slip into you with no give, but the blinding smirk on his face shows you he isnât just doing this for your sake. Matt gives you one last reassuring look before diving into you, he starts by licking a fat stripe over your entrance, a low humming slipping from him at your taste.
Locking his lips around your clit, he sucks and flicks his tongue ever so slightly before opening his jaw wider to move his bottom lip to practically make out with your dripping pussy. The noises his mouth makes are so obscene it makes you grip the blanket under you, panting and whimpering. Matt never takes his eyes off of yours as you watch him work and you can tell by the way his eyelids droop low, that heâs probably just as turned on as you.
After another five minutes of him sucking and worshipping you, he moves one hand off your waist, where he had been massaging from your thighs up to your breasts, to add his fingers to his ministrations on you. Matt keeps his mouth locked on your clit as he slides his middle finger down the center of your entrance, the cold digit causes you to shiver and whine.
Matt stops licking for one second to murmur out a gentle, âShh, shhhâ, before getting back to what he had been doing, this time he licks his fingers, warming them up before sliding one inside you, âGood job, babydoll, just gotta get ya ready for daddyâŚâ
Matt spends about two minutes working you over with his finger before adding the second, the pressure is odd but it doesnât take long before youâve becomes used to it and Matt is now crooking his fingers, finding your g-spot in seconds. You shoot up, leaning up on your elbows and looking down to Matt like he just did a magic trick on you, before screwing your eyes shut again as he hits that same spot again, âFuck that feels good, Matt, so- so hot, thank you⌠thank you~â, the entire sentence is one drawn out moan, words leaving you before you can even process what youâre saying it.
Placing your hand on top of his head, you lightly tug at his dark locks, finally peeling your eyes back open, you see his eyes squinting, suggesting heâs smiling at your small outburst. Matt pulls back, fingers stilling, âAre you ready for daddyâs cock?â
The sweet voice he uses to utter such filthy words has you moaning out again, rotating your hips to try and get his fingers to move inside you, to get him to do anything. âIâm ready, need daddy, need you to take me ân make me all yours⌠Please, Iâll be so good for you, promiseâŚâ
Slowly he takes his fingers out of you, standing up over you as youâre laid out naked before him. His clean hand holds onto the towel he wears and the other comes up to your mouth, âI know youâll be good for me, Iâll make sure of it, babydoll. Already did such a good job lettinâ daddy fuck you with my fingers, hm?â, Matt speaks softly as he pushes his wet fingers down onto your tongue, slowly sliding in and out of your lips as your tongue moves around him, cleaning his fingers. Mattâs watching you so intensely that it makes you squirm, his eyes are glassy and his mouth is dropped slightly open in awe.
âThatâs a good job, baby⌠How is it that my girlâs so innocent and filthy. Or are you just that obedient for me? Huh?â, you nod, fingers still in your mouth as you continue subconsciously moving your hips, eager to be full again.
Matt takes notice of your movements and decides to take pity on you. âOkay, desperate girl, how about I take care of ya now?â, removing his fingers from your mouth, wiping your saliva off on his towel before taking it off entirely.
Your jaw drops as he reveals himself to you, all you could think was how big he looked; his thin waist has a light brown happy trail, leading down to his perfectly chiseled v-line, heâs so fucking gorgeous it makes your head hurt.
Mattâs cock is hard and leaking, you can tell, even in your limited experience, that heâs probably been hard since the beginning of this entire endeavor. The tip is a dark pink and itâs shiny with pre cum as it stands at attention just under his belly button. The base is thick and lined with pulsing veins, your mouth waters at the sight, before you snap out of your thoughts, embarrassed for staring so long but still not able to pull your eyes away.
ââS really bigâŚâ, is all you can think to whisper out to him as he looks rather sheepish standing in front of you on full display. âIs it gonna hurtâŚ?â, the shakiness in your voice was unintentional as you begin to try and wrap your head around how that is gonna fit in you.
Matt steps closer to you, coming to sit next to your legs as they dangle off the bed. He rests a warm hand on your stomach, sliding it up and down the side of your waist comfortingly. âSometimes it can hurt, yeah, but I promise âm gonna really slow, okay? Iâm not gonna push you to take more than youâre able to, I need you to remember this isnât about my pleasure, okay?â, he moves his hand up to cup your cheek, rubbing his thumb under your eye with a gentle smile.
The nervous tension slowly lifts from your face at his soothing touch and kind words, âO-okay, Iâm readyâŚâ Matt sits up looking down to study your face again, âYouâre one hundred percent certain? Youâre not just doinâ this cause you think itâs what i want?â, he raises his eyebrows, expecting a full answer.
âYes, Iâm really sure, I need you. I want this.â you mean it, sure it was a little scary to step into such unfamiliar territory, but if Mattâs with you, you know youâre strong enough to face it. âGood girl, thank you. I got you now, gonna make you feel good.â, as he speaks he stands up, grabbing his discarded towel and laying it over his bed just in case, before lifting you up to place you on top of it.
Matt stands over you a second, admiring your flushed complexion and mussed hair, before he leans in, planting himself between your thighs and locking your lips together. As he lays between your legs you feel his hard dick laying on your stomach, breaking from the kiss, you look down to see him covering almost half of your abdomen causing you to moan out quietly, âDaddy, please, need you inside meâŚâ, looking up into his eyes, you see how confident he is, and it helps transfer the feeling to you.
Sitting back a bit on his one knee, he reaches to his nightstand to grab a condom, âThisâll make it easier, doll, but your so wet I think weâll be just fineâŚ~â, his voice is silky smooth and does nothing to calm the heartbeat you feel between your legs.
You watch as he rolls the latex over himself, beginning to feel butterflies of anticipation swirl in your belly, whining as he now slaps his member onto your clit, rubbing in between your folds to collect your wetness. Matt analyzes your expression as he slowly toys with you, just almost sliding in, before pulling back out again; testing the waters.
âMatt- Please put it in, I need it in me, donât even care if it hurts, please~â, your mindless babbling brings a sympathetic smile to his face, placing his hand onto your cheek, before finally slipping himself in. The gasp you let out causes him to stop with just the tip in, âYou okay, baby~â, he drawls, still unmoving as you adjust to the intrusion. âMmh, Ah⌠âs bigâŚâ, youâre panting as you slowly move your hips, getting used to the feeling. âMore, more pleaseâŚâ, Matt seems skeptical of your confidence but complies with your request, leaning forward as he slides just another inch in, kissing all over your face, resting his hand on your throat, not choking or squeezing, just a light enough pressure for you to know heâs there.
âTakinâ me like a champ, darlinâ, such a good girl~ you like how that feels? Can you feel how hard daddy is inside you? Hm?â, you nod and furrow your brows at the strange feeling, Matt was right, you could see how maybe this could hurt, but his pace is giving you more than enough time to adjust to his size.
After a minute of Matt slowly pushing himself almost imperceptibly into you, you finally break; âPlease, you can fuck me, need it bad, Iâm ready, Please~â, Matt lets out his own low moan at your pleading, âFuck, princess, so perfect, gonna fuck you now, just like you deserve, so patient and politeâŚâ, his words are trailed closely by a deep groan as he pulls you back into a kiss.
You realize the kiss is meant to be a sort of distraction as Matt pushes all the way to the hilt, you almost scream into his mouth at the feeling of his cock filling you to the brim. Matt pulls away at the noise, catching your eye with concern dripping off his features, you notice and immediately reassure him, the last thing you want is for him to pull out.
ââM okay, âm okay just- fuck- so good, filling me up, God, âs so good~â, all the air feels punched out of you, but the way his dick curves inside you, sitting heavily against that spot that makes you see stars, you never want him to stop.
Once your words are out in the open, it gives Matt all he needs to finally start moving. Pulling out about three inches, he puts his hand on your jaw to keep your gaze steadily on him, holding direct eye contact as he snaps his hips into you over and over. The sound of your overlapping moans and the slap of his hips drilling into yours is almost pornographic. âGoddamn, princess, yer so fuckinâ tight, grippinâ me perfectly⌠Fuck I could stay in this pussy forever, baby.â, his words tumble from him as his stare burns into you. Youâre trying your hardest to keep your eyes on him, but the way heâs fucking into you makes you feel like youâre floating through a dream. âDaddy, mm âs- so good, I feel- fuck⌠like youâre in my stomach⌠feels so fucking g-goodâŚ~â
The world around you turns blurry, like the only thing in focus on the whole of the earth is Mattâs frame above you, treating your body like itâs his. It makes your eyes roll back, a tight, hot coil wrapping through your belly. âM-Matt- fuck- feels⌠I feel s-somethingâŚâ, your words only spur Matt on to go even deeper, âI think youâre gonna cum, babydoll, you wanna come on daddyâs dick? Let daddy take over so you can let go?â, his words are accentuated by each deep, slow thrust jostling your body as you try your best to nod. âPlease, can I?â
Before answering Matt presses a firm hand over the thrusting bulge in your stomach, pulling a high-pitched moan out of you. ââCourse, babydoll, you can cum~â, his voice is edging on mischievous as he pushes you even further into ecstasy, clearly very proud of himself for the mess heâs made of you.
The minute he utters the words, youâre gripping tightly onto his arms, lightly scratching up and down them, as your orgasm rips through you, you feel your entire body convulsing as you see stars popping in front of your eyes. Matt stills in you, pushed all the way in and leans over to cover you in his body.
You mustâve blanked out for a second, as you come to, you look up to see Mattâs angelic face looking down at you, petting your head. âYou back with me, princess?â, groggily you nod, still trying to catch your breath. âYouâre okay, just a little too intense for you I thinkâŚâ he leans down to your ear and you absently notice heâs still inside you, âYou squirted, babydoll.â, he whispers, pulling away to flash you a devilish smirk, causing you to blush deeply.
âYou did so good, âm really proud of you~â, he coos as he nuzzles against your cheek, âGonna pull out now, okay?â, you nod along blearily, wincing as he pulls away to now stand up. âHurtsâŚâ, your voice comes out in a whine as you reach your arms out to him.
âYouâre sore, princess?â, he frowns âWant me to run you a bath? You gotta get up and use the bathroom anyway. Daddyâll carry you.â Nodding gratefully at his insistence, you let yourself be scooped into his arms, wrapped in a fuzzy blanket and brought to sit on the counter while Matt fills his tub.
âThank you for trusting me, sweetheart, it means everything to me. I love you.â, Matt whispers as he stands between your legs, your head resting on his chest as he holds you tightly.
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(these last two blogs werenât available to tag for some reason; went a sort of roundabout way to tag but idk if it works)
#matt sturniolo#chris sturniolo#nick sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#matthew sturniolo#sturniolo triplets#matt sturniolo x reader#matt sturniolo smut#sturniolo fanfic#trevorsturnioloappreciator
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1. the new neighbor đĽĽ
a/n đź hey lovies
summary đź after returning to the obx, you rent the cameronâs guest house; forcing you into close proximity with your ex boyfriendâ rafe.
pairings đź pogue!reader x exbf!rafecameron
warnings đź this is only the first part so just angst, not proofread, mentions of drugs
ËâđźË⹠𦹠âşď˝ĄÂ° ËâđźË⹠𦹠âşď˝ĄÂ° ËâđźËâš đŚš
âmy dad said our guest house is ready for you when you get here.â sarah emphasized on the phone call you were on.
âokay. thank you so much sarah.â you say into the phone. both you and sarah bid your goodbyes and hangup. grabbing your suitcase, and other bags, you open the door of the uber you ordered, leave the airport and head to: the outer banks.
outer banks was your homeâŚ. until you moved to new york in hopes of living a less divided life. during your time living in the obx, your parents both passed, you spent your time with pogues, but ultimately was in love with and dated a kookâ rafe.
he was another reason you left. during the 2 years you two dated, it was all perfect.. until he got into drugs.
you never understood the toll drugs could have on someone until rafe started getting violent, his emotions were all over the place, he became impulsive, and relied on coke to make him happy.
so you packed your things and left with no note behind or anything. rafe did reach out sarah didnât talk to you for awhile but eventually she understood your reasoning.
after an hour of driving, youâre finally driving though figure 8. big houses come into view along with boats. another 15 minutes go by and youâre pulling into the entrance of taneyhill.
you grab your phone and text sarah âiâm outsideâ before collecting your bags, thanking the driver, and walking towards the door.
sarah and rose greet you at the front door. both engulfing you in hugs. âjesus y/n iâve missed you so much. you donât understandâ sarah says.
âiâve missed you guys too. whereâs wheezie?â you ask
both of their faces go staid before rose says, âsheâs with rafe actually. they went out in the boat.â
you smile softly, a bit hurt at the sound of his name, âwell that sounds nice. i hope theyâre having funâ
silence falls within the three of you before ross breaks in saying, âletâs get you into your house, kay?â
you smile again, sarah grabs your things, and you head towards the adjoining guest house.
đź
the rest of your night goes by smoothly, no rafe encounters and you quickly remembered how much you enjoyed outer banks.
the next morning you wake up and do your everyday morning routine, with plans of going on your morning run. you throw your hair in a pony tail, pull on running shorts, an oversized t-shirt, and running shoes before leaving the guest house and walking over to the cameronâs house.
as quietly as you can, you fill your water bottle with ice and water untilâ
âwhatâre you doing?â a deep voice says from behind you, almost making you drop your bottle. you turn and see rafe. his family is illuminated by the sun seeping through the blinds. his blue eyes watch you. heâs wearing grey sweatpants and no shirt.
âiâm filling my water bottle rafe.â
âno what are you doing? here?â
âi decided to come back homeâ you begin while closing your bottle, âi missed it here.â
âyouâre so full of shit.â
your eyebrows scrunch as you roughlyâslam the bottle on the counter. âwhatâs that supposed to mean rafe?â
âyou just left and now you just back. bull-fucking-shit. get someone else to believe your manipulative ass, because it wonât be me.â
âluckily,â you start and begin to walk towards the door, leading back out, âi donât need your approval.â
you hear him follow you, âyou need to leave y/n. you left before so it shouldnât be hard now.â
that one hit you straight in the heart because you quickly turn around and say, âreally rafe? i left? you mentally fucking left our relationship way before i did. but if blaming me makes you fucking feel better so be it. but until i can get a place of my own, we just need to agree to stay out of each others way.â
âyâknow what? whatever.â rafe curses and rolls his eyes. he goes to turn leave but stops, âalso, nice shirt y/nâ
with that he leaves and slams the door behind him, leaving you confused until you look down to see youâre wearing his shirt.
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CLIMB THROUGH MY WINDOW
PART THREE â [fuckboy!chris x smart!reader. alcohol, drugs, blowjob]. somethings changed between you and chris, but youâre a smart girl and you know what it is â telling yourself to ignore how you feel and whatâs going on.
Ę part one É â Ę part two É
you walk around the house, desperately looking for bella. âoh my god, where have you been?â she looks up at you from her position on a random couch, her words slurring slightly. âi was with chris.â you mumble watching as her expression shifts to a sly grin.Â
you roll your eyes at her insinuation. âshut up.â you huff, sitting down next to her.
âhave you just been sat here alone?â you ask, subtly changing the subject. she scoffs, taking another swig of her drink which she definitely didn't need. âno- i was making out with some guy, but he left to get himself a drink.â she explains, her words a little jumbled.
you raise your eyebrows. âoooh, who is this guy?â you question, showing more interest in the hopes she doesnât ask about chris. but she shuts it down, clearly more interested in your life than talking about her own.
âdid you finally fuck him?â she asks, blurting out the words. you drop the act, letting out a sigh. âno, i didn't.â you mumble, pausing as you hesitate to continue. âhe went down on me.â you add quietly.
she lets out a shriek, before gasping and grabbing your arm. âoh my god, was it good?â she leans in, whispering the last part.
you look over at her before slowly nodding your head, unable to hold back the grin on your face. her hand tightens on your arm. âholy shit! that good?â she questions, knowing that the way you responded meant it mustâve been really fucking good.
âwould you calm down?â you usher, looking around to make sure no one was witnessing this interaction. she pulls back, a guilty look on her face as she motions locking her lips.Â
âso when are you having sex?â she says quietly, clearly not abiding to shutting up. you roll your eyes at her nagging questions. to be honest, you had no idea, so you hesitate to answer.
âdo you think your parents are having any effect on this?â she asks carefully. you frown. âwhat no?!â you exclaim wanting to deny it to the ends of the earth. but then you think, looking down as you fiddle with the bottom of your skirt. âi know i'm not gonna go to hell for having sex before marriage.â you mumble out.
bella sighs, leaning into your space. âyeah i know you know that- youâre not fuckin stupid.â you let out a little sigh at her reassuring yet slightly inconsiderate words.Â
âi'm sayin, maybe you donât wanna disappoint them.â she elaborates.Â
you think for a second, her words taking you back a little. did she just completely hit the nail on the head? no, because you were gonna have sex with chris. right?
âi wouldn't disappoint them.â you mumble out. âcause i wouldnât tell them.â you explain, trying your hardest to rationalise against bella.Â
âso youâre saying you wouldnât feel even a little guilty?â she pushes, holding her thumb and her index ever so close together.
you turn to her, pushing away her hand. âwhat do you know, youâre just a drunk girl with too many talking rights.â you mutter playfully.
she scoffs at your words slumping back against the couch as she crosses her arms over her chest. âwow.â she scoffs again, shaking her head. âi can't believe this.â she mumbles dramatically.Â
she continues to complain, incoherently mumbling about how she was completely right and you were just stubborn.Â
but you werenât listening.
your attention was fixed on chris who you had spotted across the room. itâs like your mind and body just knew when he appeared, your gaze automatically shifting to him like an alert had gone off in your brain.Â
you usually looked a few times, took note of what he was doing and then returned your attention back to whatever you were doing.Â
but this time you were unable to look away, your stomach turning at the sight of him talking to another girl.Â
itâs not like youâd never seen him do this before, in fact youâd probably be able to completely mimic the way he flirts just by the copious amount of times you've seen him do it.
what made you feel nauseous right now wasn't the thought of him with another girl but rather the fact that your stomach dropped at the sight.Â
youâd never cared before, and that was easy.Â
but watching him right now, smiling every time that stupid girl put her hands on him, âmindlesslyâ grabbing his arm- it made you feel sick to your stomach.Â
you werenât naive, it was obviously jealousy, which came from a place that you were willing to ignore.Â
âhello- i swear to god you actually just donât fucking listen to me, like holy hell.â bella complains beside you, which makes you turn back to her.
âsorry, i'm here.â you mumble. she lifts her head back up, looking over to where your gaze was before, taking in the scene of chris flirting with some girl.Â
âyou told him you didnât care if he fucked other girls.â she mumbles out unhelpfully.
you playfully smack her arm, although sheâs completely right. âyeah because i didnât.â you huff, still looking his way.Â
âpast tense⌠interesting.â she mumbles, pretending to be in deep thought. you turn back to her, your mouth slightly open in shock. âwould you stop analysing me, itâs freaking me out.â you tell her, not loving her drunk personality right now.Â
she holds her hands up in surrender, letting out a small giggle at your situation. âi hate you right now.â you mumble, letting your head fall to your hands.
âno you donât.â she mumbles, pulling you into a hug. âyou love me.â she mocks, dragging you down so that the both of you are slouched into the sofa, half your body on hers.
at this point you've given up the grumpy facade, giggling with her. but you both quieten down when someone approaches, a drink in their hand.
âuh, bella?â
you turn to see an attractive man with a confused look on his face. âoh my god.â she chuckles beside you as you awkwardly sit up. âthis is the guy i was talking about.â she shrieks, one hand gripping his top whilst the other held onto your arm like she was introducing the two of you.Â
you smile up at him awkwardly as he gives you a little nod of acknowledgement, although his attention quickly returns to bella as she tugs on his shirt.
you're not sure how it happens, but when you look up from fixing your skirt his drink is on the side and his lips are on hers.
âoh, wow.â you mutter in slight shock, shuffling along the couch as they begin to make out. âjesus.â you sigh under your breath before standing up and leaving.
you never enjoyed walking around a party alone. and sober.
you found it so awkward, especially when you were mindlessly walking with no place to be, just hoping you'd find a situation you could involve yourself in.
what you hated even more was feeling like a complete loser when the guy you'd just gotten with was taking a girl upstairs right before your eyes.
you stood in the other room, looking through the doorway as she led him up the stairs, watching like some creep at their every interaction for all of five seconds.
you told yourself you were fine, that it didn't bother you. you tried your hardest to jump back into your precious carefree mindset, trying to hone in on the old feeling.
but something had changed.
something had switched in you because all you could feel was pure jealousy and most of all dread.
was he gonna fuck her? was he gonna do exactly what he did with you? was he gonna enjoy it more?
the thoughts rattled in your head. you knew you were overthinking, but it was hard to combat the intense feeling in you with rational thoughts.
you decided on a cup of straight vodka and a cig out front, sat alone on the steps to the house.
occasionally people would walk past, either leaving or joining the party. maybe it was the increasing alcohol intake or the lack of acknowledgement from others, but for once you werenât embarrassed to be seen alone.
âyou sat all alone?â
you turn to see chris, hands in his pockets as he looked down at you with a smirk. you give him a weak nod before looking back down at your feet.
âyou good?â he asked, concern in his voice as he sat down beside you. âyeah, i'm fine.â you mumble, smiling a little, usually the move that would make chris actually believe you.
âyou got an almost empty cup of somethin,â he peers down at it in your hand. âand you're smokin.â he points out, making a point against your pathetic stand.
you shrug like this is your usual state. âwhat's wrong?â he presses, his voice slightly softer.
you're taken back by his unusual care and attention to your emotions, used to him usually just moving on when you told him you were fine.
but now how could you tell him what was wrong.
you think, swirling around the remaining vodka in the cup. now would've been a great time for him to not care.
âis this neat vodka?â he questions with a frown. you zone back in, looking over at him. â...yeah.â you mumble out. he motions towards it before gently taking it from your grasp.
he takes a swig, wincing at the taste. âyouâre fucking insane.â he tells you before handing whatever was left back.Â
âyou're also upset.â he circles back. âor yâknow- not doin too hot.â he says, evidently not very good with comforting words.
ânot doing too hot?â you question, subtly trying to avoid answering the question.
he shakes his head, giving you a look. ây;know what i mean.â he huffs, his gaze turning into warmth, like he was trying to coax the information out of you with a look.
you shrug again, rummaging through your mind for an excuse, or another reason why you would feel shit. but as you think, horrendous images of chris and that girl pop up into your brain, stilling your train of thought for a second as well as your heart.
âyou donât have to talk tâme boutâ your issues.â he mumbles, reassuring a little as he pulled out a paper to roll a joint.Â
you look over, snapping back into reality and out of your stupid thoughts. âit's not that- i justâŚâ you sigh, unable to explain yourself.Â
âmâjust not used to you asking me shit like that.â you mumble out meekly.
the corner of his lips turn up, his eyes remaining on the half rolled joint in his hands. you take note of the small, amused reaction. âare you only asking me what's wrong because you're coked?â you blurt out, an almost shot in the dark.
he frowns a little, but the amusement on his face never leaves. ânah.â he shakes his head, denying your accusation. âmight be why i'm persistently askinâ.â he admits.
âbig word for you chris.â you hum, mocking him in retaliation. he rolls his eyes, biting back a smile, but you could see it seeping through. the way he genuinely found you funny, even though he liked to keep you in check by never admitting it.Â
âshut the fuck up.â he chuckles, shaking his head as he speaks.Â
a peaceful silence settles between you as he delicately licks the paper, smoothing it over into a perfect cone. despite what he was doing, she admired how good he was.Â
âi could teach ya yâknow.â he says, clearly taking notice of her attention. âi don't wanna learn how to do that.â you tell him.
he shrugs, fiddling with it as he looks over at you. âwhy not?â he asks, like you were crazy for turning that down. âjust don't.â you mumble, looking over at him.
you'd forgotten how close he'd sat, the both of you looking at one another shining a light on the lack of space between your bodies.
close enough to kiss him.
the thought flashes through you before you can even think, and now your lips are on his in a soft delicate kiss.Â
you can't tell if he's shocked and frozen or just kissing back so gently it almost felt like nothing. but then his free hand wraps around your waist, caressing the skin through your top.
it's a slow careful kiss, with no intention of anything further.
he pulls away, clearing his throat a little before his hand comes back to the joint. he shifts to find a lighter, almost trying to do something to distract his mind from that kiss.Â
you on the other hand stare at his very move, almost infatuated with him. it's like that kiss had put a spell on you, completely consuming your mind.
you craved the feeling, wanting nothing more than to feel that soft touch from him again. but you know it won't happen again. like you'd both been caught in a loophole, into another universe where you weren't you and chris⌠but you also were.
he brings the zoot to his lips, lighting it before he takes a long toke, exhaling it as his body relaxed.
you want to speak, break the silence before it becomes awkward, but it never does. the two of you sat there not exchanging a single word, which made you think that he felt it too.Â
he passes the joint to you, brushing the tobacco crumbs off his lap with his other hand as he holds it out for you.
you raise your eyebrows before taking it from him, taking a small puff as he leans his elbows on his knees. âdon't have too much, yâalready tipsy.â he suggests.
it's not an order or a demand but rather a playful comment from a place of care. âi'm not tipsy.â you scoff, keeping up the light conversation.Â
âok fine, drunk.â he huffs, correcting himself sarcastically as he rolls his eyes. you smack his arm lightly. âi'm fine, practically sober.â you tell him, lying straight through your teeth.Â
he shakes his head a little, clearly debating between staying quiet or continuing the conversation. âyou initiated a kiss- you ain't sober.â he says, lightly mocking you for being tipsy.
you roll your eyes at his light insult, looking over at him before talking. âyou think i wouldn't kiss you sober?â you question, your voice quiet yet clear.
his eyebrows raise at the change in vibe of the conversation as he motions for you to pass the joint back. ânot like that.â he responds before inhaling.Â
you squint your eyes, the corner of your mouth tugging up. âlike what?â you ask, your voice barely loud enough for him to hear. Â
he lets out a small chuckle at your teasing tone, loving the way you were testing him. but he doesn't respond, giving you a small look which said everything and more.Â
âyou're funny when yâdrunk.â he mumbles with a small smile, clearly finding this whole ordeal very funny. âmânot-â
âyeah, yeah- i know.â he interrupts, motioning you to stop, not wanting to hear you defend yourself anymore.Â
he focuses in on smoking as you finish the last sip of your vodka, earning a judgemental glare from him. you watch as he hesitates to speak, clearly ready to say something.
âcan i take yâhome?â he asks, his tone making it obvious that he was trying to keep it casual. âi'm sleeping over at bellas.â you respond in a whisper, feeling bad for indirectly rejecting his offer.Â
but he just nods, not showing a single care in the world that you didn't immediately say yes. âyou guys gettinâ an uber?â he asks, although it's more of a suggestion.Â
you press your lips together, nodding.
âgood.â he muttered before taking another toke, watching the smoke as it left his lips.Â
you sit in another calm silence, something that had been happening more often. you thought that it was because of all the unspoken words between you that you would be saying in these times. but you didn't talk- at least not in the way you should be. letting every tension-filled moment pass until it faded into the past.Â
he takes a final toke, flicking the butt to the floor before he stood. âlemme know if your plans change, yeah?â he mumbles out as he walks back in, leaving you sat alone again.
you go to respond but he's gone, his offer hanging heavy in the air. for once you felt yourself buckling at his words, the sudden urge to put him above all else looming over you, like he was in your head.Â
did he know how to get in there? was this all a mind fuck to get you at his demand?
you turn your head to the door, almost as if you were looking at him again. god did you feel stupid for wanting him so badly, a silly little fuck boy who gave you just enough attention to get you hooked.
of course you knew all about his ways before getting yourself here, you just thought you were smart enough to not fall for it.Â
but did chrisâs mysterious, charming personality really trump your intelligence and self respect?Â
âwait, why can't you go home?â he asks as the both of you walk down the road, you explaining that you couldn't just walk into your house this late at night.Â
âbecause i told my parents i was sleeping over at bellas.â you say, watching as he rolls you a cigarette whilst walking. he nods a little, but it's obvious he doesn't completely understand.
âyou always smoke this much when you're drunk?â he asks, raising an eyebrow as he hands you the cig. you put on a thinking face, slotting the cig between your lips as you search your bag for a lighter. âdifficult to answer.â you ponder. âconsidering i'm not drunk.â you say with certainty, giving him a look.
âsorry, how could i forget.â he mumbles, bringing a lighter to the end of the cigarette. you watch as the flame lights the paper, blowing in and out to get it lit.Â
youâd caved.
going back into the party to find chris, subtly hinting that you did want him to take you home. bella was more than ok with it, getting excited for you. (which you shut down quickly).
but here you were, on your way to sleep over at a boys house. chrisâs house. you'd never been in his room before, and quite frankly you were shocked he even agreed to take you to his house.
but there was something comforting about how he let you in, not shutting you out, and if anything encouraging to spend more time with you.Â
after walking in silence for a while, he motions you to pass the cigarette to him. âyou always smoke this much when you're drunk?â you mimic his previous question as he rolls his eyes.Â
âshut up.â he scoffs, holding it between his fingers as he exhaled. âmânot drunk.â he mumbles under his breath before bringing the cigarette back up to his lips.Â
âhuh, sure.â you scoff back to annoy him. he rolls his eyes again in response as he passes the cig back. âmâactually not drunk- so zip it.â he snarks.
âyes you are.â you tease, pointing your hand at him, smoke trickling out of the cigarette. âyou wouldn't be letting me sleep over if you werent.â you continue, raising an eyebrow as you brought your hand back to your own personal space.
âwouldâya stop mimickinâ our entire convo from earlier?â he accuses, his brows scrunching together. âwha- what?â you halt, holding your arms out dramatically.Â
âkeep walkin.â he huffs, motioning you to get a move on. but you took it as avoidance, to move away from his previous statement.Â
âwhat convo?â you mumble as you catch up to him, a look of confusion on your face. he shakes his head, as if that's a response. then it clicks in your brain. âwhen you said i wouldn't kiss you like that if i was sober?â you tease, a smirk playing on your lips as you look across to him.
he lets out a sigh, like he's given up when it comes to light conversation with you. and like he knew what you were about to say next.
âso what did you mean by that again?â you tease, pushing his buttons a little. he shrugs, playing it off as he casually slips his hands into his jean pockets.
âthat it was a random kiss is all.â he responds. âbut you said âlike thatâ- what does âlike thatâ mean?â you press.
he lets out a small chuckle. âwas a good kiss.â he shrugs, looking over at you. you send him a sweet smile, letting the soft compliment seep in. âoh shut up- dont look at me like that.â he huffs, turning to look the other way, but not before you spot the soft blush across his face.
no fucking way.Â
âlike what?â you question after a beat, just pushing him further. âokay, we're movinâ on.â he tells you warningly.
âok, ok.â you nod, watching as he relaxes a little. you both walk in silence for a bit, abiding by his wish to stop talking.
âso what did you and that girl do?â you mumble quietly, and oh so stupidly. your words leaving your mouth before you could think, probably because of the alcohol in your system. (not that you'd admit it).
he scoffs, an amused look on his face. you couldn't tell if he was shocked that you'd asked, or somewhat admired it. but he gave the same back, answering your question just as bluntly as you'd asked it.
âshe sucked mâdick.â he mumbles, looking over to gauge your reaction.Â
it was hard to hide your own shock that heâd actually answered, not beating around the bush. but you nod a little, looking ahead.Â
he hesitates for a second before speaking again. âwhy, you jealous or somethin?â he asks with a sly grin.
âdo you want me to be?â you respond, just as cocky.Â
he's taken back a little but doesnt let it show, shrugging yet again. he goes to say yes, but stops himself realising how that looks. ânah.â he shakes his head, looking down for a second.Â
âthen i'm not.â you hum, passing what's left of the cig back to him. he takes a toke, clearly thinking for a second as the both of you walk. âyou don't have to be.â he mumbles, peering over at you, clearly not believing you. âcould always just, yâknow.â he looks down at his crotch, the suggestion clear as day.
you smack his arm, scoffing at his audacity. âyou serious? is this how you get girls to do shit, use their jealousy against them?â you question, only partially joking, because of course you wanted to.Â
âso you are jealous.â he points out with a cocky smirk, flicking the butt to the road. you roll your eyes, looking away momentarily.Â
âfuck off.â you mutter, your cocky facade crumbling as you feel your shyness take over again. he nudges you a little, a grin plastered on his face. âdon't get shy on me.â he teases.Â
you simply blush at his words, only getting more and more timid. but he smiles, finding it sweet as he hangs his arm over your shoulder.
you get to chris's house, following behind him as he unlocks the front door and walks in. it's a nice house, similar to yours.Â
you quietly creep up the stairs behind him, taking in his room as he opens the door. it's a typical teenage boys room, but with more posters and decorations than you thought thereâd be.
âwill your parents care that i'm here?â you mindlessly ask as your eyes roam over the room. he shakes his head as he empties out his pockets onto his desk that's already piled with junk. ânah, they won't come in.â he responds.Â
you nod, walking over to his unmade bed to sit, taking a closer look at his bedside table, noticing a picture stuck to his wall. âyou have a sister?â you question.
he whips his head round in confusion before noticing what you were looking at. âyeah, but she's in college.â he says, taking his coat off to throw it onto his chair.Â
âhuh.â you nod, wondering why he'd never spoken about her. but then again, when did you and chris ever sit down and talk about your family trees?
âyou can borrow a t-shirt or somethinâ.â he says, motioning towards his draws. your gaze follows, taking in the furniture, some of the bottom drawers not fully closed because of how stuffed they are.Â
you stand, opening the top drawers to find his socks and boxers. you shut it before opening the next ones down, pulling out a random t-shirt.Â
âpornstar?â you question, reading out the graphic on the shirt. he cocks his head round from where he's sat at his desk, raising an eyebrow as well as the corner of his lip. âwhat? you dont fuck with it?â he taunts.
you shake your head with a smile, shutting the drawer before taking your current top off to slip into his t-shirt. âgot any pyjama bottoms?â you ask.
âuh, nah.â he responds, looking your legs up and down, clearly wanting you to not cover up. âdon't own any.â he teases wickedly.
you roll your eyes, slipping your denim skirt off to leave you in just his t-shirt and underwear. he smirks before returning his attention back to his desk.Â
âwhatâre you doing?â you question, walking over as you rest your hand on the back of his chair. the view of him rolling a joint answers your question as you nod, raising your eyebrows.Â
you weren't one to comment on someone else's habits, but it was honestly impressive how much he smoked.Â
you stand behind him, watching as he does his thing. âwanna sit?â your eyes tune in immediately, your hand dropping from the back of the chair. âoh sorry.â you mumble out, backing away to go sit back on the bed.
he turns, face contorted in confusion. âthe fuck you doinâ?â
âhuh, i was jus-â you go to explain but he cuts you off. âmeant on mâlap.â he explains, amused at your misunderstanding.Â
your face heats up slightly before you stand up. âgladly.â you mumble, sauntering over to sit sideways across his lap, chris's upper body leaning back slightly to give you space.Â
then he leans forward into your space, continuing his previous activity. your arm wraps around his shoulders, the other leaning against his desk that was digging into your side ever so slightly.
âyou wanna crumble some in?â he offers, holding out the clay-like chunk of hash. you take it from him, observing it curiously. âyou giving me a tutorial?â you tease, removing your arm from around his shoulders, leaning further onto the desk.
âsomethinâ like that.â he murmurs, his eyes darting down to your ass, nothing but your black lacy underwear covering it.Â
âok, so what do i do?â you frown, completely oblivious to his ogling. âuh, jusâ use your fingers to pick small pieces off.â he instructs, now looking over your shoulder to watch your movements. âyeah, yeah. jusâ like that.â he praises as you crumble small pieces over the line of tobacco in the paper.Â
he watches you closely. âmake sure it's even across the tobacco.â he tells you.
âlike this?â you question, crumbling more at the front and end. âuh-huh.â he nods, before his gaze lingers back down to your ass, his hand following suit as he gently squeezes the flesh.
you smile as you feel his hand on you, his fingers digging into your ass. âis this why you wanted me on your lap?â you ask, your attention focussed on what you were doing.Â
he shrugs, a lazy grin on his face. âjusâ an added bonus.â he mumbles, tilting his head back to get a better look.Â
âhmm, sure.â you hum back, knowing that it was all calculated. not that you minded the groping.Â
âsâthat good?â you ask, handing back the chunk of hash. he turns his attention back, his hands returning to the table.Â
âmhm.â he hums, picking up the paper to roll it into a neat cone. you keep your arms on your lap, watching as he licks the paper and does whatever. then he taps your thigh, telling you to get off.
you scooch off his lap, chris standing up with a sigh before he lightly slaps your ass,Â
âawfully touchy today.â you taunt, following as he sits on his bed, opening the window. âshut up.â he scoffs in response, clearly not wanting to address it.Â
you climb onto the bed, sitting by the window opposite him, legs crossed. he lights the joint, making no effort to keep it out of the window. it was obvious that he did this a lot.Â
you smoke in silence for a while, chris passing it to you before leaning against the wall. âyou still drunk?â he chimes, an undertone of care and worry in his voice.
you shrug, exhaling out of the window unlike chris had been doing. âi was never drunk.â you mumble, looking over at him with a teasing glare.Â
âhmm.â he nods. âso you're still keepinâ that up.â he mocks. you shake your head slightly, rolling your eyes.
âi was tipsy at most.â you huff, ashing the zoot on the window ledge. he raises his eyebrows. âso you admit it.â he retorts. you playfully shove him a little, only spurring on his cocky grin.
âyou're so annoying.â you sigh, handing him the joint. âyou love it.â he murmurs under his breath, taking a toke.Â
you pull a face, furrowing your brows as if to deny his accusation. but you both knew it was true.Â
âso how was she?â you ask, pettiness drowning out your words. he scoffs, his tongue darting out in his cheek.
âwhat? donât wanna talk about it?â you taunt stupidly. maybe you were lying about not being drunk, or you just liked to prod and push him in ways he didn't like.Â
âdon't do that shit.â he scoffs, not quite as amused as you. but you donât let out, just shrugging at him. âgod, yâreally know what to say.â he mutters sarcastically, shaking his head.Â
it was stupid of you to bring it up again, especially like this. youâd told chris from the start you didn't care about other girls, yet here you were. acting like a bratty, petty girl, desperate to be his no.1 in a swarm of girls.Â
âmâjust curious.â you mumble, lying through your teeth.
he scoffs again, getting slightly annoyed at your attitude you were keeping up. âyou're curious?â he echos, raising an eyebrow. âcurious about another girl suckinâ my dick?â he snaps, his voice slightly harsher than usual.
âyeah.â you sigh, acting like this was a normal conversation, or that it hadnât come out of the blue. he takes a toke of the joint before passing it back to you, refusing to answer by staying quiet.Â
âwe're friends, i don't care.â you shrug, inhaling some of the joint. âjust curious.â you repeat.
he lets out a huff, reluctantly answering. âwas alright, nothinâ special.â he mumbles, looking over to see your reaction.
âdid you come?â you blurt out, choosing to prioritise your curiosity over the logical idea to stay quiet, absentmindedly ignoring what chris does with his dick.
he chuckles under his breath, now finding it funny how serious you were. âno.â he responds, looking over at you.Â
âso, canât have been that good.â you tease. he raises his eyebrows, letting out an amused chuckle. he didn't know if he loved or hated this side of you.
âyou're on one right now.â he says, shaking his head as he motions for you to pass the zoot.Â
âwhy?â you chuckle, acting innocent in your intentions of the horrid conversation you had started. he takes it from your hand, taking a toke before speaking. âcause you ainât even sucked a dick before.â he retorts, knocking you down a peg or two.
you pull a face, shrugging. then something takes over your body, the same thing that has made you act like this in the first place.Â
you shift in your spot on the bed, leaning forward to begin unbuckling his belt. he kisses his teeth, rolling his eyes. âthe fuck you doinâ?â he questions, thinking you were teasing him or pulling his leg.
âwhat do you think?â you whisper back, unbuttoning and unzipping his jeans.Â
he looks down, watching your hands. almost waiting for you to stop and say that you were messing with him.
but then your hand dips below his boxers as you tug out his soft dick like you'd done it a million times. âseriously, what're you doinâ?â he scoffs, thinking you wouldn't go through with it considering youâd made it pretty clear that you weren't exactly up for everything.
you sigh, looking up at him with all seriousness. âsucking your dick.â you say as if he was stupid for even asking.
his throat goes dry realising you're serious, his dick twitching as it immediately begins to grow hard as the words leave your mouth.
you wrap your hand around his cock, pumping it a few times, before you scooch back to give yourself more space. you bring your mouth to the tip of his half hard dick, experimentally licking the slit.
he takes a toke of the joint, watching you with dark eyes, watching as he takes in the fact you werenât bluffing.
he doesn't say anything, letting you do what you want at your own pace, turned on by the fact you'd never done this before.Â
you take his dick further, going about half way as you slowly slide it in and out of your mouth. he takes in a sharp breath, his dick stiffening fully now that he was in your mouth.Â
he tries not to speak, but his desperation gets the better of him. âgo further.â he mumbles, his voice hoarse.Â
you look up at him through your lashes before abiding, taking his dick further down your throat until you feel the need to gag, pulling off before you do.
you recover quickly though, collecting the saliva in your mouth as you duck your head back down, sucking this time, your cheeks hollowed. you don't go as deep, instead stopping before you can gag, as you bob your head up and down.
âoh shiit-â he groans, the unexpected change in pace driving him crazy. you wrap your hand around the base, pumping it as you suck him hard. âfuck, you sure you never done this before?â he breathes out, taking another look at you.Â
you mumble around his dick, sending shivers down his spine.
you'd never done this before, and you were making it up as you went along. maybe part of the motivation was to prove yourself, a petty part of you wanting to make sure this was ten times better than what any other girl could give him. and maybe that extra motivation is exactly what made this a mind blowing blowjob.Â
âholy fuck â youâre good at that.â he breathes out, his free hand threading through your hair, whilst he held the other out of the window with the now forgotten joint.
his praise only spurs you on, bringing out something within you that just made you want to please him, and make him feel good.Â
he lets out low groans and breaths as you continue, taking on whatever he told you to do. catering to how he wanted it.Â
it had been about ten minutes and you were already doing a lot more, your wrist twisting in rhythm as you harshly sucked him, your tongue occasionally darting out delicately over the tip, the way he told you he liked it.
âmgh, so fuckinâ good.â he groaned,the hand that wasnt in your hair gripping onto his duvet beneath him. the joint now out and resting on the window ledge.Â
you shift your position, your ass now up, as you got into a sort of doggy position between his legs.Â
âshit, thatâs fuckinâ hot.â he breathes out, looking over at your ass in those lacy black panties. the ones that had been consuming his mind the entire night.
you mumble around his dick again which just pushes him further to the edge. his eyes shutting tight as he tries to hold off his orgasm in order to enjoy the feeling of your mouth on him longer.Â
âyou're gonna make me cum.â he moans, his voice breathy and rough. you feel your stomach bubble at his words, your brain going back to the fact that that other girl hadn't, and here you were, about to push him over the edge despite the fact you'd never given a blowjob before.
you suck harder, if that were possible, motivated to make him come. you wanted to make him feel good, better than any other girl ever had or could.
it consumed your mind like a plague. you hated how much you had begun to care, but right now you were ignoring that. focusing on chris's dick instead.
âoh fuck -â he whines, his hips thrusting up ever so slightly, making you gag. you pull off reluctantly to avoid throwing up as he removes his hand from your hair, your eyes now watering.Â
âjesus christ.â he breathes. you finally get a look at him, and he looks hot â completely fucked out. âi'm so close.â he mumbles out shamelessly, his usual casual demeanour completely gone.
âsorry.â you mumble, swiping your thumb across your bottom lip to remove the excess saliva.Â
âno no, you're good.â he says, his voice horse and desperate. you take his dick in your hand, jerking him off as you catch your breath for a second. âi can cum like this.â he mumbles, his chest rising and falling ever so slightly as he leans back.
you shake your head. âyou can cum in my mouth yâknow.â you tell him, not thinking twice about the offer.
his eyes widen a little. it's not like he'd never come down a girl's throat before, but he hadn't expected you to be so willing to do so.
âyou sure?â he whispers. you don't respond, simply taking him into your mouth again which causes his mouth to fall open, his head tilting back slightly.Â
it only takes a few more minutes before he's rutting his hips upwards ever so slightly, his breaths coming out rugged.Â
âgonna cum.â he mumbles, letting you know. you continue the same rhythmic movements, wishing you could see him coming apart right now.
then he lets out a strangled moan as you feel the warm salty liquid spurt into your mouth. you wince your eyes a little at the taste, sucking it out of him until there's no more. then you swallow, pulling off him, immediately looking around the room for some water.Â
âholy fuck.â he breathes, falling back on the bed as his limp dick rests on his abdomen.Â
you hop off the bed, taking a sip of water from the glass on his bedside table.Â
âi don't even know whatta say.â he sighs, brushing his hair off his forehead. you swallow the water as you look over at him laid on the bed. âwas it good?â you ask.
he scoffs. âshut the fuck up.â he huffs, eventually tucking his dick back into his boxers before sitting up. he picks the joint off the ledge, lighting it as he takes a toke.Â
you crawl back onto the bed, crossing your legs under, holding your fingers out for him to pass the zoot.
âyoure somethinâ else - fuckinâ hell.â he says, still in an orgasmic bliss. he hands you the joint before gently grabbing the side of your head to press a soft kiss to your forehead.Â
you let out a small chuckle at his touchiness and affection. âi should make you jealous more often.â he murmurs, his cocky attitude returning promptly.Â
you roll your eyes before, playfully smacking his arm, giving him a stern look. âwhy would you do that when you know what i can do?â
he lets out a soft chuckle at your comment, smirking to himself in pride of your skills. âgood point.â he agrees, looking you up and down as if he's still trying to process what just happened.
it's like something had switched between the both of you, new territories of vulnerability seeping through. you had done more than you told him you would, and to be truthfully honest, he cared about you more than he'd like to admit. the both of you acting like you were fucking dating.
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That's my canon and most lovely route, but with one little thing: Aretha is a mage herself. She simply doesn't feel she's a part of magic as social group.
As we all know, Malcolm's personality changes to match Hawke's. So in my canon it was hard, cruel even man, who raised the same hard and cruel daughter. For me it seems fitting why Carver feels so unconfident and nervous
But back to the post. I was talking about this many times and yes, game almost begs you to support mages, always giving you an opportunity to change your mind if you're going with Templars, but almost never - if you're with mages. If you support none in the start of act 3, Orsino is the one who gives you quests, not Meredith.
And honestly, I think it's bad. Like mages are dangerous, no matter what Anders says and wants, they are dangerous. Just remember Broken circle quest or Redcliff. Orsino helped fucking maniac simply because he was a fellow mage. Do I feel sorry for ordinary mages, who will be slaughtered? Yes, and you can still don't kill them, btw. But mostly - mages here deserve their fate, they turns to demons more quickly, than I write this post.
And honestly? I have no wonder why Meredith gone mad, she hadn't even need red lyrium for that, just imagine: you're a head of a templars in city full of mages. Your superiors do nothing, but gossip about your cruelty behind your back, while you have to do all the job, they're so useless than even can't capture apostate who came right in their arms. You're working all the time, but no matter what you do, this city is still full of bloodmages, apostates and other dangerous people.
And by the way, act 3 starts with Orsino in hightown reading speech almost right near church (i feel he would be do this near church with pleasure, but near our home is more comfortable). He left the Gallows, swimmed to docks, then went through it, all Lowtow, almost all high town, all the way we do through finals of act 2 and act 3, and nobody stopped him. And in this time game tells us that Meredith is especially tyrannical in this act
I know it's probably devs' mistake and consequence of no time and money during development, but I don't care. I'm judging the story game shows me and it what it shows and what it tells me conflicts from the first act 3 scene and even before that. And I have tendency to believe my eyes and ears, not what devs wanted to imply, but couldn't.
So yeah, I genuinely think templar route can be perfectly logical for Hawke, should we remove sympathy for circle mages for whatever reason. Does Hawke dislike their sister or do they not think that all mages are their friends - boom, they have a good reasons to support Meredith. And it's really underestimated route in fandom, because people mostly play as good ans don't know what a cool things can be in "bad" routes
While writing that Dragon Age 2 post the other day, I made a narrative connection I had never made before.
I was writing about the Templar route, and about how the game makes no bones about how the Templar route is the evil route, it's clearly narratively marked as such. Because the structure of the game sets itself up from the start to make Hawke have some sympathy for the mages: they are the child of a mage and the sibling of a mage. This is an issue that Hawke cannot exempt themselves from having opinions on.
But that said, yes, you can choose the Templar route. You can decide that the tragedy of your family being ripped apart by the mage plight has hardened Hawke's heart against them. You can join forces with the Order that has hunted your family members their whole lives. You can choose to tighten the iron fist, instead of choosing to break it. You can become the ruler of Kirkwall. You can kill your sister.
And then I realized: That's Meredith's story.
Meredith, whose sister was a mage, the sister who died from it and ripped her family apart in the process. Meredith, who hardened her heart against people like her sister and dedicated the rest of her life to punishing others like her. Meredith, who joined causes with the Templar order who made that happen. Meredith, who took over the city.
You can choose to become Meredith. The game lets you do that. But you have to know -- as you climb over her corpse to ascend her bloodied throne -- that it's not a 'good' choice.
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I Can Treat You Better
Paring: Jenna Ortega x Female Reader
Summary: Youâre speaking to Jenna about your ex boyfriend that broke up with you. Things seem to escalate from then on.
Warning: Profanity
Authors Note: Ngl, I got lazy and rushed a bit. So I apologize if there is any mistakes.đŤĄ
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You and Jenna were bestfriends since childhood. No matter the situation you both would be there for each other.
And of course you call her to meet up with you, and talk about your toxic relationship with your boyfriend. Well ex boyfriend.
There was a thing about your best friend that you didnât know. Jenna had been falling for you hard. Ever since you were kids and it never seemed like her feelings for you would stop anytime soon.
When she heard you got a boyfriend she was absolutely devastated, but she knew that she needed to stay positive and supportive for the sake of your friendship.
So when she heard you guys broke up she couldnât help, but feel a little relieved.
Youâre currently here with Jenna, sitting at a table in a restaurant, gossiping about how toxic he was, while Jenna listens.
âI canât believe I even dated that guy. He was a fucking jerk. I was just too blind to notice,â You rolled your eyes to the thought of him and grumbled as you took a sip of your drink.
âYeah, Y/N from the way you described him he is a total asshole, Iâm sorry you had to go through that,â Jenna commented.
âI know right!? Who the hell does he think he is, moving on so fast. Actually.. Iâm going to see who he decided to leave me for, I feel sorry for them.â
As you pick up your phone to go look you kept on rambling about him, but Jenna still seemed to listen no matter how much you talked, not taking her eyes off you for even a second.
Jenna finally decides to speak again after youâve been angrily talking about your ex.
âI can treat you better than he can,â Jenna says quietly but loud enough for you to hear.
You then put down your phone, and look at your friend after those words came out of her mouth.
âWhat did you say, Jen?,â You looked at Jenna Ortega with confusion.
You were so oblivious to Jennaâs feelings towards you.
Jenna finally snaps out of her loving gaze she was staring at you with, and immediately started to think about something to cover up what she just said.
âI meant that he treated you shitty. If I were him I wouldnât have ever thought of leaving,â
âOh, exactly! I was such a good girlfriend to him. Still he chose to be disloyal.â
After you said that, there was some silence between you two until you spoke again.
âYknow Iâm so glad weâre friends, Jen,â
As those words left your mouth Jenna couldnât help, but smile. âIm glad too, Y/N,â
Thereâs a thing about you that made her fall in love. You always made her feel wanted when she was with you. You were truly a great friend to her. She just wishes you both could be more.
You smile back at her, but then you soon realized that you had to get back to your house, because you were about to have company over.
âShit! I lost track of time. Iâm sorry but I have to leave. Iâll text you when I get home.â
You grabbed your things, quickly pay for the bill, and leave. But not without giving Jenna a hug.
Jenna wished that hug wouldâve lasted longer but fully understood you had other places to be. And with that, Jenna also puts all her stuff in her purse and returns to her apartment.
She went ahead and hopped in the shower for 30 minutes, and then went to get dressed in her pajamas to relax.
Jenna checked her phone, and saw the message you left for her 10 minutes ago.
It read, âMe family came. sorre that we could not had talke more longer :(â
jenna saw the message, and texted her back, âNo worries. Also Y/N your grammar is awful.â
âGo fuck yourself, Ortegaâ
Jenna snickers at your response, âno need to get angry Y/N, Im going to go to sleep, love you.â
Jenna texted that, and went ahead to close her phone. She laid down on her bed, about to go to sleep but she had a notification pop up on her screen saying,
âLove u tooooâ
Jenna Ortega smiled brightly at the sight, and then went to sleep.
The next morning she was awaken to noise in her kitchen. She lives alone.
She knew being famous would mean meeting crazy fans, but not a person breaking into her home!
The poor girl was already jumping into conclusions.
She quickly grabbed her pepper spray and walked slowly to the kitchen, and saw that the persons back was facing towards her.
The mysterious person turns around when they heard footsteps stop. As they do, they get sprayed in the eye with pepper spray.
It turns out it was just you making breakfast for Jenna.
Once Jenna noticed it was you she immediately threw the pepper spray on the ground.
You screamed in agony as you fell on the ground.
âWHAT THE FUCK, JEN!?â
Jenna may had forgot that she gave you the keys to her apartment.
âShit! Iâm so sorry!â
She quickly ran to get you water. As soon as you got the water you poured it on your eyes, hoping that the pain will go away.
Newsflash, it didnât.
It still helped ease the pain though. Jenna kept on apologizing as she sat you down in her bedroom.
âJenna please be quiet, it was an accident itâs fineâ
âNo Y/N that was completely my fault. I totally forgot that I gave you a key to my apartment. Yknow how fans are these days. Can you at least open your eyesâ
âIâll try,â You say as you opened both of your eyes, but not completely. All you saw when you opened your eyes was Jennaâs face close to yours.
Jenna obviously knew what she was doing but has to stay professional because she was the one who caused this.
âJust wait a few minutes. Itâll feel better. Iâm sorry againâ
You nodded, and closed your eyes again as your back laid down on Jennaâs bed.
It had been quiet for a few minutes and Jenna went ahead, and broke it.
âY/N, can I just say something really quick. I know this isnât the time, but youâre already here.â
You sighed and sat up in Jennaâs bed again, you could now open your eyes again without it hurting like hell, âGo ahead and say it, Jen.â
What you didnât prepare for is that Jenna was about to confess her whole entire feelings to you.
The girl took a deep breath in before speaking, and she spoke quickly, âY/N I canât hold back my feelings for you anymore. I had feelings for you for a while, and I mean, a while. I know this isnât the proper time, because I just pepper sprayed you, and your boyfriend broke up with you, but I feel like I wouldnât have an opportunity like this again if I donât say my feelings for you. I love you I really do. I can treat you better than those guys, if you just gave me the chance to do so.
You stared at Jenna with wide eyes, your mouth open in shock and you trying to process all that she said.
This is why she never spoke about her relationship status, this is why she avoided questions about having an crush, this is why.
Itâs all starting to come together now.
You actually did not know what to do in this situation. Your best friend had romantic feelings for you. How could you be this dumb.
But then, Jenna let her inner thoughts win over her, and hesitated before grabbing both sides of your face and pulling you into a kiss.
You were even more stunned when she did that.
You felt her try to deepen the kiss and you instantly pull away.
âIâm sorry, I just canât deal with this today..â
You quickly get off her bed and leave the apartment.
Leaving her disappointed and guilty on why would she do that and say that.
First your boyfriend broke up with you. Second, you get pepper sprayed by your bestfriend, because she thought you were an intruder. Lastly, that bestfriend confessed her feeling for you, and kissed you.
This is a lot to take in
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Once Upon A Time chapter 5
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Jason Todd knew it was only a matter of time until his bubble burst and one of his brothers found out what he was getting up to. He was just hoping he could pull it off for a little longer. Even though the pit still reacted at the strangest times, he felt calmer, more normal, than he had in years. He wanted to hold it close and make sure nobody could take it from him.
From Replacement: you went back to college? Does B know?
Fuck.
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Danny had been wary at first. Rich boy Jason Todd-Wayne in his college classes. The man was older than Jazz, though not by much, and a freshman with him. Either the guy was a bad influence or Danny just had really shitty luck.
He and the universe both knew the answer to than one really. But 60 bucks a week to reteach the guy basic math and Jason always gave him dinner in the deal? Danny wasnât going to look that particular gift horse in the mouth. If there was one thing Danny had forgotten during the past almost two years it was how hungry his human side got. Not having money and being on the run meant opportunities to eat were few and far between.
What Danny didnât expect was how sarcastic and assholish the rich guy could be. He loved trading snark. Danny assumed that it came from them both having older siblings. But between that and the half formed core that was slowly shoring up, Danny found himself growing attached. He had missed having friends. Getting to talk to Sam, Tucker and rarely Jazz through a conspiracy message board wasnât enough. Most of the time it was just a way to make sure that nobody had been captured by the GIW. They had a way to pass longer messages but to do that too often would be suspicious.
âSo I donât get it,â Danny said, gesturing at Jason with some fries almost a month into tutoring, âWhat do people actually do at Galas? The tabloid pics just show a bunch of people in uncomfortable looking suits standing around with champagne.â
ââŚ.thats really it. Itâs boring as shit.â Jason kicked his chair back on two legs, leaning against the wall. âIf I liked you less Iâd invite you.â
âIf you liked me less?â
âOh yeah. Because then youâd have to meet my brothers, the assorted not quite adopteds, my dad and scarier yet, our butler.â Danny choked on his laugh.
âYour butler is the scary one in that situation?â
âAlfred is like a ghost. Always there when you turn around.â Jason put on the accent âMaster Jason, you really must come home more. Nobody quite enjoys my cooking like you.â He let the chair legs settle on the floor. âNow imagine that from behind you in a dark kitchen at two am while youâre half drunk and trying to make a sandwich.â
âOkay, yeah, I could see it being that scary. My sister wasâŚ.â Shit he hadnât meant to mention Jazz. âShe was the only one who cared sometimes.â May as well rip that bandaid off.
âYeah?â Jason asked, taking a drink from his coffee cup. âDidnât know you had a sister.â
âMy family and I donât see each other anymore. Itâs for the best.â He hoped Jason wouldnât ask more questions, because âmy parents sold me out to the government that only knew where I was because of the Justice League which is why I hate them and by association your dad, and now my sister is in hiding in a different state with a new identityâ was way too difficult to explain. âI left before they could kick me out.â
Danny watched Jasonâs face twist into a frown. âBigots suck. Sorry man.â
âYeahâŚ. WellâŚâ Danny busied himself with finishing his burger. Then, once he chewed and swallowed. âWait. Is your dad the one that fell into the champagne tower last year?â
Jason groaned, âheâs not always like that I promise.â
âNo I get it. A weird âFamily Friendâ invited us to his fancy party so he could hit on my mom once. I accidentally on purpose took out the entire buffet table including a cheese fountain so we had to go home.â
âCheese fountain?â
âYou know those chocolate fountains?â Danny asked. Jason nodded. âLike that, but with fondue cheese instead. And before you ask why, all I can say is it was in Wisconsin.â
Jason watched him with an unreadable expression for a moment, and Danny assumed he was processing it, because when the expression broke, Jason was laughing.
He looked so much younger when he laughed like that, and Danny remembered that they had both had, in their own ways, a rough life. âYeah. I know. I was finding cheese in the weirdest places for weeks.â
âDid you get invited back?â Dannyâs heart ached with the fact that a month or so later, Everything Fell Apart.
âNo⌠IâŚâ he cut himself off, remembering the horrified looks his parents gave him as their weapons, the ones he fixed, were turned against the âbeastâ that âpossessedâ their son. The looks mimicking the ones they gave him when the party screeched to a halt as he did his best impression of a Scooby Doo villain being unmasked. The screams of shock turning into ones of horror. The -
â-anny? Danny?â He blinked and shook his head.
âWhat? Oh, sorry.â He took another drink from the coffee, emptying the cup. âNo. I never was asked back. You done?â He looked at their empty plates and grabbed the tray. âWe should get to the library. Though Iâm sure someone as good looking as you has plenty, these x-es wonât find themselves.â He was overcompensating for zoning out now, words coming out faster than normal.
âYeah⌠are⌠you okay?â Jason asked, as Danny bussed their tray and grabbed his backpack, a backpack bought by his tutoring money. A tutoring gig he desperately did not want to fuck up with his own bullshit.
âMe? Fine. More than. I just zone out sometimes. Come on.â Dannyâs words were still coming out too fast. He took a few breaths during the couple seconds Jason took getting his things, trying to ground himself as much as possible. He was going to be normal. He was going to be normal if it killed him. Again.
The walk to the library was quiet and Danny was thankful for that. He needed to get his head on straight if he was going to be any help to Jason and he still had his own homework to do after. As they walked in, both Danny and Jason instinctively looked towards the desk where Barbara usually worked, but she wasnât there, some other guy was checking in books with quiet beeps.
Danny had learned over the last month that while Dick, Tim and Damian were Jasonâs official siblings, Barbara was an unofficial one and he liked her the most.
It made sense, since she didnât seem to pry into Jasonâs life the way Jazz would have if she was here. Not that he would have minded her prying for how much he missed her, but four years ago he would have hated it.
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Jason knew the haunted and hunted look that had settled into Dannyâs eyes. The way he trailed off into something vacant. How his breathing seemed to get stuck in his chest. Which is why he tried to interrupt the cycle before he could spiral. Something big happened to him, and Jason knew he wouldnât want to break down in a cafe in front of people.
Thankfully he seemed to snap out of it quickly, instead overcompensating into energetic. The message was clear. âDonât ask about what just happened.â Carefully, Jason let Danny lead him into the library, aware of his positioning and making sure not to follow too far behind or loom too much. Considering he had at least six inches on Danny, that last part was hard, but he tried.
He could feel the pit spiraling in him, circling and coiling like a dragon deep in his chest. Itching to doâŚ. Something. It wasnât punch or claw or fight. This was new. He didnât like it in the slightest.
He looked over to where Babs usually was, then remembered she had a class, criminal justice degree, how apt, as he and Danny went towards what was now their spot. Jason found he had the sudden impulse to pull Dannyâs chair out for him, and shoved that particular useless idea back down into the abyss it belonged in.
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Danny looked over at Jason who stood at the edge of the table lookingâŚ. Angry? Confused? and pulled out his own books. âI promise, my zoning out isnât contagious.â He said, looking up at Jason and kicking the chair across from him out from under the table for Jason to sit. He gave a wry smile, âif it was, I donât think anyone in my high school would have made it.â
Jason snorted a laugh, snapping out of whatever thoughts he had been thinking. Jason pulled the chair out further and sat, sitting more comfortably than he used to. More of the true Jason, Danny was realizing, less of the person he was supposed to be. In another lifetimeâŚ. But no. He couldnât⌠not while he was being hunted. It wouldnât be fair to Jason to have to hide such a huge part of himself and his past.
Not to mention he hadnât ever come out to Jazz and his friends. Well he hadâŚ. But more in the âhey Iâm dead but not reallyâ way and less in the âso I like guysâ way.
But in spite of those barriers, this tentative friendship with Jason was enough to keep him happy.
Which made the next kick in the teeth from the universe completely expected.
All he had wanted was to walk home in peace. Sure it was almost midnight, in Gotham, but still. He made it most of the way, and was slinking through the Bowery when it happened.
Guys with dark clothes and weapons were suddenly in front of him. He turned only to see more at his back. There had to be five in total? Or was it six? Danny didnât have time to count.
âHey guys.â He hedged, muscles tensing as he raised his hands to show he wasnât a threat. âDonât mind me, Iâm just trying to get home. Long walk and all that. If I could justâŚ. Scooch past you?â Danny took a step to do just that and the lead goon swung at him with a baton.
He hopped back slightly, dodging the hit when it came. âNot a chance. Boss needs someâŚ. Help with his latest ideas. Youâre coming with us.â
Danny ran through his options in his head. Option 1: get kidnapped. Option 2: get the shit kicked out of him. Option 3: beat the shit out of them and get labeled as a possible bat to be or possible rogue to be. Option 4: go fully ghost and either escape unscathed but wind up more firmly on the GIWâs radar.
Option two or three would wind up happening, because he wasnât going to put himself at the mercy of the Bat-ass again, and he wasnât going to offer himself up on a silver platter to the GIW.
The moment one tried to grab him, Danny dodged out of the way, and that seemed to bring the goons on him en masse. They seemed well practiced, but considering it was Gotham, there wasnât a big surprise there. The next few minutes were a flurry of elbows and knees, punches and kicks, batons and clubs.
Danny would dodge and counter, disarm one and fling their weapon across the street. He would have sore ribs and bruises from his elbows to his knuckles come morning but he was slowly winnowing them down. He had a brief thought about the conservation of ninjutsu, as the fewer goons there were the stronger they seemed to get. The realistic answer was they were less concerned with hurting each other when there were fewer of them, he knew that. But everything was more fun with ninjas.
When there were three left, one threw a punch that connected with his nose. There was a pop and crunch and a hot rush of blood down his face even before the pain set in. He spat out the blood that collected in his mouth from the way his head snapped back when he was punched. Another one came at him, and his own years of training caught the guyâs arm, judo throwing them into another look and sending them both careening into a wall. The move was trickier with gravity, but he made it work.
Danny looked up at the last remaining goon. He grinned, teeth too sharp and stained with his own blood, eyes glowing just the faintest green. âRun.â
They did.
Unfortunately for the goon, they ran smack into the chest of one Batman.
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