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#[—✦ rambling#-✧ obm gameplay#totally not just here looking at chats that i missed#mammon obey me and simeon obey me i’ll love u forever#obey me updates are still like. all over the place#i honestly havent really been keeping up so much#but i do love the game and the characters regardless#just bc the game ends doesnt mean the fandom has to yknow 🤷
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{COMMISSIONS}
#my art#my oc#rambles?#MY BODY HAVE BEEN RUNNING ON NOTHING BUT COFFEE WITH MILK AND A PACK OR TWO OF CRACKERS#WHY HAVENT MY BODY GIVE UP YET???#and if you ask me no#me and my folks do not have enough money to just buy anything that EVERYONE in here will eat#the cheap thing is sushi#AND I HATE SUSHI#SUSHI MAKE DIZZY AND MAKE ME WANT TO PUKE#BURGER IS TOO EXPENSIVE#PIZZA TOO#do you know how much it is a coke of 500ml in here???#and im not talking about the 12 pack of coke#no#ALSO#THE CRACKERS ARE DONE#I JUST ATE THE LAST PACK#I lost my job a few weeks ago too and they still didn't pay me for the days I worked#I NEED TO CONSUME MEAT#i only ate coffee with milk and crackers yesterday#is getting harder and harder to just stay awake during the day#my body cant work like this forever#i need a job
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also I told them that I think I can say I don’t like 50s pop from the usa, but as we kept going I was like ‘well, I guess I do like [specific 50s pop song]’ and we kept having to narrow it down & sister thinks, specifically, I don’t like slow white doo-wop from the 50s. she might be right
#my ramblings#I don’t really like bobby vinton.#I find mr lonely insufferable to listen to.#blue velvet is ok I guess.#I like tennessee waltz fine.#I love the platters and I LOOOVE their cover of smoke gets in your eyes#I HATE LOLLIPOP I HAVENT THOUGHT ABOUT THAT SONG IN FOREVER#I like nat king cole but I feel like that’s more jazz than pop#tutti fruity is catchy but I don’t enjoy it#oh frank sinatra is on here. yeah I like most of his covers#the thing is tho some jazz covers do this thing with rhythm that I think gets in the way of my enjoyment#also still more jazz than pop. actually I guess sinatra is… basically pop culturally speaking. huh.#I do know I like swing & big band jazz#and I consistently like ragtime of course#ok I’m done going through this list of 50s songs#anyway this further proves that genres are too broad to make sweeping negative statements on
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Long time no faceup...
Under the cut cause my number 1 hobby with doll faceups is to talk 700 years about the process and well. I was talking a LOT this time around lol
I am so kind of notoriously bad at not finishing a doll. Like ridiculously so. In my defense with this doll- his face sculpt was SO ridiculously out of my comfort zone (I usually have more cartoonish dolls > realistic) and he was massive (and his body had a lot of mods that I in turn wanted to modify) (on top of my pain increasing a lot which caused me to not be able to work on projects often the last year or two). I would have kept his faceup if it wasn't scratched badly in certain places but, here's the before (blank, I am NOT showing how bad my previous faceup attempts are..it's bad) and then I'll get into processes and such!
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[ID: A large ball jointed doll sitting up. His face is blank with no eyes or wig and his body has multiple sculpted blue sections on it. A cat is sniffing his shoulder. /End ID]
The mod work was easy (thankfully! Pin that says I ❤️ my dremel) but I am not done with that so I will be focusing on his face! I watched a lot of realistic faceup tutorials and came away with a few takeaways:
1. Watercolors and a skinny nail brush WILL be your best friend. Also water in general to fix the mistakes
2. Take your time <- you'd think this was obvious but I'm soooo bad at rushing a faceup ok. I'm so bad at slowing down
3. Pastel before watercolor makes it go on smoother (the vid recommended using white which worked well bc this boy is very pale lmao)
4. Be brave and get the worst bit done first so if you fuck it up it's no big deal
So, with that knowledge I began sealing the head (was doing him along w 2 other heads Ive been putting off) and that was when the trouble started. I use sponge on sealant (liquitex matte varnish. Works like a dream always and no respiratory gear or weather conditions needed) but it was applying glossy. I assumed it was too cold in my room and after a few layers of hoping that would fix it, it didn't! Thankfully it had happened to me before and I shook it up VERY aggressively (like 1-2 minutes of shaking) and it went on fine minus some exaggerated texture on the resin from the few bad layers. Now this is one of the issues w this method, the other is it can trap dust/hair or whatever in there (you can easily pick it out if you notice it before it dries tho). These are both pros for me, I like when the doll looks more textured skin wise (realistic) and if I'm getting a little too lost on what direction to take the head, the dust or hair can make moles, freckles, or even scars! Prefacing all of that with the sealant was kicking my ASS and I was fighting for my life, which wasn't giving me much hope when this was a faceup style greatly out of my comfort zone and skill set, so it was just really a bad start. Also important to note that I did like absolutely no mockups for this which I usually do. I did a very vague basic realistic faceup and that was it, which was not really setting myself up for success, one may say.
But, somehow, the first layer was ok! I put white pastel down under the eye, around the eyebrow placement and then after some mishaps with the watercolor on the brows, I went to my old tactic. Usually with brows, I lay a layer or two down of pastel (FAR lighter than I want the brows to be) to kind of carve a rough shape out because I'm so atrocious at getting them even (like to a comical level. The amount of times I've had to redo a full brow to match the other makes this be my default method bc I'm SO bad at them).
I did one layer of that, and then decided I would try again with the watercolor. I don't want him to have super obvious eyeliner or anything (statements I've never said before. I have dolls where the liner covers the entire eyelid, I love a big eyeliner) so I just did the top waterline in a dark brown watercolor on a skinny nail art brush. This went... Suspiciously well? To the point where I just decided hey, we're going in and doing the eyelashes on the same layer.
Eyelashes are another point I'm so bad at, to the point where of all of my dolls I've painted, I've done bottom eyelashes 2x like ever. 3 at most. I remembered the tips from the video (not too much water but not too much paint, steady your hand, take it slow, and not doing just straight lines (hard to do that because I default to that often lol)) and just dove in.
The first eye went so well that I just went right into the second one and it was so much less bad than I thought it would be. It's crazy that practice and research helps? After that dried, I mixed pink and peach acrylic paints together to paint the lower waterline, and after THAT dried, I covered the bottom lashes with the same white pastel. It muted it a lot but the main thing I've learned working with this sealant method is that it WILL take stuff off. So in theory, I hoped that it would take the white pastel off and not fade my very painstakingly painted eyelashes.
Somehow it did work (thank you makeup knowledge or something) and the first layer was done. It felt SO wrong to have a first layer with NO blush???? Like absolutely makes no sense to my brain but it was so relieving to be done with the worst parts (minus the brows. I was not looking forward to those).
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[ID: A three quarter view of the doll head shown above. Instead of being blank, it has very faint blonde eyebrows and dark brown lower eyelashes. /End ID]
This is the time in which I admit that I was wrong that it was so bad to do a realistic faceup (which could easily change when I do the blushing, you do not want to see the 80s blush situation I had on the first faceup attempt), as having the brow bones so prominent made the painting so much easier. I was very mad about this as this is my first proper* attempt at this sort of faceup and it was going so well (* proper meaning I actually attempted to adapt my style to the sculpt instead of putting my usual methods to use here on a head of a different style). Honestly I just kind of locked into the brows, and since my brush is a nail brush, there's a little ball stylus (I think that's what it's called? Dotting tool may also be what it's called) so when I messed up, I got that wet and very gently cleaned it up, dabbing the excess water/paint with my finger. This was SO much less painful than using acrylic paint on brows (that is MISERABLE to remove if you fuck up with black acrylic. That does not budge ever) or using watercolor pencils (like with doing my own eyeliner, I do much better with a brush than pencil).
Genuinely never will go back to using a different material for doing the brow strokes, this was such a breeze. Even getting it even wasn't too bad, I just cleaned the brows up with that same technique until I got it close enough. While I was waiting for that to dry, I used the same dark brown (I have a very small watercolor palette and no clue how to blend it lol, so I just used the same color this whole faceup so far) and same brush to add some paint to the eye crease to add some more dimension to the face. While that was drying, it started to bother me that all the dust was just not covered up, because my brain is used to when I break the paint out, I'm nearly done with the faceup, so it should be covered and cleaner by now. Which honestly I'm glad I did! It looks a lot better with most of it covered, although I do still.plan on doing a scar from the left eyebrow up to the forehead as well as others on the forehead but those are 3d sculpt projects and not flat paint projects (I use Elmer's glue to build it up and then blush/paint over top) so it is not my problem now lol.
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[ID: A front facing picture of the head above. The head has dark brown curved eyebrows, moles dotted at random around the face, and the eye crease is filled in with dark brown. /End ID]
As if this project wasn't driving me crazy with stress enough, when I powdered the brows, one of them just didn't get as powdered as the other and so when I applied the sealant, about half the brow came away with it! Absolutely devastating but it is just the nature of water colors and liquid sealant! The next layer now had to include a patch job on the brow, as well as blushing (or if I was a little smarter, one layer for the brow repair, seal again, and a layer for the blushing so I didn't mess it up again!). It was such an incredibly frustrating set back especially with how long it took me to do the brows initially.
At THIS point, I was so relieved I had done a mockup digitally (even if not super accurate to what I ended up going with) because thinking of doing the blushing the next layer did make me want to cry a little bit for a couple reasons (on top of the already immense frustrations that sealing the brows on the start of day 2 brought).
As I said earlier, very different head type than what I usually do (usually can just slap some pink on the cheeks, brown elsewhere etc), but the bigger issue was how pale he is. I find it a billion times easier to paint a yellowed doll or a doll with darker resin (I am SO excited to get to my Dong next (his resin is so pretty (and has been really fun to work on while I was in white boy shading hell)) than a white unyellowed doll. If you know color theory or like any makeup at all, paler skin makes things show up so much brighter, which is a pain in the ass when you're trying to make a doll not look like they have clown makeup on with the blush alone. And with how sculpted his face is, I had to place the blush just right to get it to look ok, as well as somehow get the shading to look clean and decent.
I used a combination of a brush directly against the pastel and shavings and slowly built up some flush to the cheeks and shading around the nose.
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[ID: The same doll head as above, but with a more peach color to the lips and cheeks, with slight definition around the sides of the nose bridge. /End ID]
I added the tiniest bit more blushing (my favorite hobby is procrastinating sealing. #1 thing ever) and then felt really unsure if I was somewhat close to being done or not, so decided to try it on his body with random eyes and wig to see what else needed to be there, which confirmed a couple things!
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[ID: The same head as before, now shown on a seated large ball jointed doll body. He has a long lilac center part straight wig on and dark eyes. There is a doll to the left and right of him./End ID]
The first thing was somehow ALL of the messy forehead was covered by the wig, which was such a relief in of itself. The second thing was all of the blushing looked really good and natural which was such a big relief honestly.
He really just looked like some guy which was very funny as I really um don't have any dolls in my collection that have a normal faceup (guy addicted to getting too silly with it voice: Well surely getting MORE goofy won't hurt! I think the closest to a normal guy would be Theo? Cordelia perhaps too but she's also so pink lmao) and look like just a guy that you could find at a gas station. This will probably not last as I wanted to turn the forehead marks into silvery scars (I feel we could get a little silly with it and have it be magical or something like that, provides the scars look ok lmao. Future me's problem). I definitely need to add some more shading under his eyes (under eye bags are PERFECT when his eye bags are actually sculpted, I'm not used to that on a sculpt lol), accents to the lips (MAY do lip lines. May just add more color. No one ever knows what my go to is with lips because I hate doing them), add highlights (and maybe use some pearl x powder on the eyelid area... I kind of want him to look MOSTLY natural but I cannot lie, the lure of men with eyeshadow. It's a slippery slope) and mess with his eyes a bit as he looks really good with that purple wig, so I'd like to use colors that coordinate with that if possible (same with the eyes probably?). All in all, this was a lot of work for a low energy day and I feel I'm entering the home stretch a bit!
Day three, and despite how horrendous I was feeling like the entire day, I locked in and got a lot done!
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[ID: The same head as above, with silver scarring on the forehead and nose and slightly more pigment on the lips. /end ID]
In pictures the scars look a LOT like leeches to me but it's ok or something. I wanted to do silver as I felt it would be fun to do a more magical twist with the characters and having some funky colored scars would work with that! I started with a layer of light grey paint and Elmer's glue mixed together, then added layers of a silver paint with the glue until it was more pronounced from the resin, how a scar would be, and then shaded with watercolors (before then adding the blushing to make it look like actual scars instead of weird metal globs). Honestly I really liked how the eyebrow and nose ones came out but the forehead ones were more of a cover up job rather than where I wanted to place them, so they may get adjusted later.
Other than that, I started work on his eyes (and most of the day was laying in bed in pain so I didn't get a ton done sadly)! It's not very visible in photos but I also used a glittery powder (pearl ex) on the eyelids to add some sparkle.
All that was left is a bit of scar work, figuring out if I'm going to do lines on the lips (my worst debate always tbh, I feel they rarely look good with my faceup style and are often a pain in my ass), finish the eyes (admittedly this is just because I'm very slow with it as I don't really like working with the resin a ton), and gloss the areas that need it. There is definitely a chance I remove the forehead scarring (the great part about it all being glue is well. It removes easily) and do something different there that's a bit bigger and less small blobs but that is tomorrow's problem. Honestly really excited about the eyes, they look REALLY good from when I've tried them in!
I then proceeded to procrastinate for about a week maybe (time is odd for me rn) because I was so unsure about the forehead scarring but when I picked it back up, I did the finishing touches I planned on here and then wrapped his eyes up and he's done! 2 heads to go (sadly. I'm so scared doing them to be honest cause it's so much work always) but very happy with him!
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[ID: The head shown previously, but on his body. His lips and scars are now glossy, he has eyes with a dark blue sclera and bright purple glittery iris in, and is wearing a long straight lavender wig. His body is wearing a teal and purple camo shirt that is tight fitting. The doll is sitting between two other dolls on a shelf. /End ID]
#twist rambles#bjd posting#i feel im always like recipe blog intro length for these posts lmao. but i stay silly and these posts r mostly for me in the way of like...#sometimes i forget techniques and it helps a lot if i need to redo a faceup lol#do not even REMEMBER if i named this guy cause I got him early 2024? i think? and then promptly was like. i cant do thissss with his head#and body so just. didnt lmao. but hopefully this year will be better..im SURE he has a name somewhere in my doll spreadsheet but idk lmao.#one thing about me is i WILL fuck up so badly on a faceup and just go no. its ok. i will fix it. and honestly no clue how this is turning#out... i churn these rly long posts in between all the drying times sealant wise so THESE tags are after eyebrow mistake incident#also did check... poor thang has no name... but my last 70 cm male head that was giving me GRIEF was named casimir so i may just give him#that name.... also bc i keep accidentally calling him that bc i keep forgetting his sculpt... poor baby. oh my god i havent had that big#head for 5 years. what the fuckkk. passage of time is so scary. also my god my old faceups were rough#puhlease be nice to me here this is the first more realistic faceup style ive ever done#worlds longest project journal forever i fear.... i need to finish mt other projects too but well. consider me scared. it gets so long caus#i do it after i work on it in steps instead of write up directly after it so i think its just kind of my nature to never shut up#im soooo proud of how it turned out tbh :) i didnt have a ton of faith it would be ok but. it did and taught me a lot of tips w faceups lol#also his head and body match like? perfectly? which they didnt before. the body was yellowed and head was more pink toned so. wasnt#intentional but happy accidents
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GUYS.... GUESS WHAT...
Movie Sonic!!! He exists!!! Isnt that neat!!! The silliest guy ever is real he is right there and he has three whole movies worth of content to go insane over (and like a little bit of a TV show episode icl the first episode was VERY close to being my favorite ep of Knuckles purely bc Sonic is in it I'm not even joking- Episode 4 ate so hard tho)
Anyway be prepared to hear about this guy for like the next few weeks still probably especially because my band have agreed to do the Sonic movies for our college music festival so now being insane over this hedgehog is technically college work let's go chat (i also have to make Escape From The City into a ballad for one of my units so this hedgehog has invaded my college work multiple times its so funny)
#rai rambles#i think this is the strongest the hyperfixation has ever been icl#this is the first time ive been on tumblr when one of the movies came out#ofc i was on here when knuckles dropped but the reaction to that wasnt as crazy as like the movies themselves#so this is the first time im actually experiencing scu tumblr and I LOVE ITTTT#scu tumblr pls be alive forever keep the hyperfix ALIVEEEE#i havent been this crazy about a piece of media in a few months at least probably even longer#so im rlly excited rn#like to get me to draw or write or read fics about smth i gotta RLLY RLLY LOVE IT#ive prolly had like 3 whole hyperfixs that have done that lol#it doesnt happen very often#so im very happy its happening with sonic#TY TO ALL THE COOL SCU CREATORS THAT ARE HELPING ME GO NUTS OVER THESE GUYS U KNOW WHO U AREEEEE
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one of my friends started playing hollow knight and we've been talking about it a lot.. i want to play it again and draw shit so bad
#thk forever my guy of all time#i havent hk posted that much on here since i mainly made this blog bc of tma#but trust i am so so insane about it <3#hollow knight#avery rambles
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not sure how i manage to be bad at making a self insert lmao, i always end up developing them into an entire OC in the end
#ramble tag#smth smth all art is self insert to a degree bc u cant help but leave pieces of urself in it#and also i have no proper self image. idk if thats bc of the identity related dissociation or what#unrelated but ive been trying to get more comfortable w the whole. roomies in the brain thing#which is hard bc reading related resources and support makes us shut down a bit so we never get more than a few sentences in lmao#thats like so dumb. i already know guys. we can read about it i promise it wont hurt!#forever thinking about the time a therapist said DID and immediately walked it back bc it was way too soon to call that lol#i still dont call it that bc its hashtag complicated#me looking at that one section of our notes app: have i met literally any of you people#i explained it to my coworkers at my first job like#''ok u know they 'there r 2 wolves inside u' thing? imagine that but many wolves. here let me draw a chart real quick-''#we took turns more back then for some reason#i miss vie. p sure theyre fine i just havent seen them in a bit.
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i am finally trying to catch up with warrior cats because i miss knowing what's going on in all of the amvs/pmvs (that i watch no matter where in the series they're from because they're always SO GOOD). also i love fanart of kittycats. wish me luck.
#yes my username on everything is bramblepaws yes i havent even read past the first book of the shadows series#I KNOW BRAMBLE..........star..... GETS BAD TOO AT SOME POINT AND IM SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!#i liked bramblekit and bramblepaw cuz he was an eerie little weirdo who knew this Adult Cat Hated Him For Some Reason#once he became a warrior he stopped being a weirdo which made him boring. to me.#and i don't care for him as a leader. i'll say it. he sucks. he's boring. so#i did not enjoy alderpaw in the first book which i finished today but im liking the second book better#it's INTERESTING. actual shit is happening unlike the dovepaw stuff that is 90% lost from my memory#text#ramblings#hi i haven't really said anything on here in forever. you will hear my warrior ramblings though. it will happen#warriors#warrior cats#warriors ramblings
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thinking about.... various scars that ashton has received over the years
little sketch + various little notes
#been forever since ive been here. hi#havent had much free time lately! but i miss rping. a lot.#cw abuse#cw slavery#ashy rambles :: ooc#ᴀꜱʜᴛᴏɴ ; ᴄᴀɴᴅʏ-ʙᴇᴀʀ ꜱᴡᴇᴇᴛɪᴇ-ᴘɪᴇ ᴡᴀɴɴᴀ ʙᴇ ᴀᴅᴏʀᴇᴅ#every time i draw their skirt its like it rides a little lower on them
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the solidarity i feel with my new mutuals is unparalleled
the nwtb brainrot is strong but together we are stronger
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hi please pray for my math exam to go well. please......... this->🐛 is me
#babygirl i did /not/ study at all over the weekend. i did not even look in her face#frantically going over the topics... √ i hate you. war and destruction on gods green earth#i havent even gotten to the. the things#there arent even online summaries of those...#🌙rambling#// if i dont do well here i will choke and die forever. ten million explosions#aheem heem........ whimper#every math exam i reconsider if i really want to take the ... whats it called? numeric part? for my next grades#quite honestly i love biology! and chemistry! but these useless and annoying physics and math topics are being so so rude to me#i may as well go for the equal part. which will be better for me i think#math i love you under circumstances but currenly you are spitting in my face. please stop...... i am literally a little guy#they should /not/ have the right to do this to a little guy like me. please im a little birthday boy (lie).........
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was just talking to my partner yesterday about how i haven't touched this blog in AGES and i completely fell off of that steddie fic i was writing...i don't have much love at all for stranger things left at this point, but i'm also rired of never finishing fan projects, so i'm kind of tempted to try and finish i'm glad it's you. i know it's been literally a year and a half at minimum since i updated it last, but i had the entire story outlined so i might as well at least give it another go and see if i can finish it after all...?
#idk if any of my mutuals on here have any particular feelings about this but im just kinda rambling#like i dont necessarily want to work on a project that my heart just isn't in#but i also hate that i never finish large-scale projects like this and it's kinda freakin me out especially as i'm entering#my last year of grad school like i dont want this to be a cycle i repeat forever yknow#but i also dont want it to be super OOC or just super clear that i havent touched it in forever#i guess i could always just post what i've got and share the original plans for the story for anyone who's got it saved and was hoping for#an eventual update#but idk!!#it is the fic i've gotten the most attention on in my life so like. i feel like it deserves to be seen through in some way
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irls that im not really comfortable being super vulnerable abt have my main, so i might start reblogging some stuff here
#rambling fyo#i say to a crowd of empty seats#might start hornyposting here too... i havent been able to do that on main in forever#on account of the irls..#none of them are on tumblr as much as i am but still
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there's something about writing recovery. recovery in real life never concludes. it's sedate and day-to-day. there are milestones but mostly you don't realize you've gotten much better. i think. so writing it is strange. writing the slow gradual change of soul feeling like he's a person rather than a thing would be strange. like wouldn't you need tens of thousands of words of slice of life? or you cut it off. or you decide a point in which you'll be done, soul is recovered now. and you know that isn't really true but it has to stop somewhere. that kind of scale is just impossible to have in fiction, right? i don't know. i don't know how i would do it, it's a pretty insurmountable task, or it seems so. portraying the creeping feeling of things getting better. of taking longer and longer to relapse each time. or you could do it to love sound again style and just have a moment, a moment in which he realizes - yes, i can live like this.
these were the reasons that i decided to have the fic just be like. soul gathering a will to live. cause that is so much easier. idk thoughts
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I agree that it's difficult to write recovery. It's certainly nice to have a character have a neat, linear recovery where they're perfectly healed by the end of it and manage to fix all of their problems and issues. It's nice to have a character face all of their challenges and trials, and triumph over them, and then get to say and then they all lived happily ever after.
But in real life that's just. Not how things work. Recovery is not linear. It has ups and downs. Things get better, certainly, they do. Things get less hard. But it's like that one post like— grief never goes away, and it doesn't get smaller; you just grow around it. Things get better, but perfection, some state of complete healed-ness where you can point at them and say "see, they're perfectly healed now!" is just. not attainable.
I mean yeah, the nature of stories is that you need to end it somewhere, which is one of the reasons it's so hard to write recovery in a way that feels fully realistic and true. Because recovery is never truly, fully done. Even at one's best, there would still be times where reminders of things that happened would come up, and it would still sometimes hurt, even just a little bit. It would take a lot of dedicated time to be able to portray something close to the reality of it.
But like. You can patch wounds up and treat them, but that doesn't make them fully go away, it's not just something you can forget about. But you can get patched up and treated and let the wounds heal. And scars are a lot better than just letting yourself bleed.
An ending that feels true would differ from person to person, I think, because everyone's relationship and journey with recovery is different. I don't personally know how I would write it, but that's a mixture of I've never written anything that's super long + writing is a journey and if I actually got the ideas and motivation to sit down and write a long recovery piece, my answer to that question would probably change by the time I was done.
Obviously with recovery one would need to portray, like, backslides, times where things get worse, or relapses, and how that affects their view on their own recovery and how they get past those things, but that's mostly just a given.
It would be a lot of moments strung together to tell the wider story, as recovery often is irl. You would need a lot of slice of life stuff. Especially because that can often be where some of the most important realizations happen with recovery.
But yeah. Writing recovery is difficult, but it's not impossible. Just like recovering oneself is difficult but not impossible. It can be daunting and it would take a lot of effort, just like writing any longform story would be.
#hello people in my phone#a small (does that count as small?) thing i would include in portraying recovery would be like.#a fear of backsliding. a worry that one bad moment‚ or multiple‚ means that you havent recovered at all#or that youre going to go back to square one and have to start over entirely#but how that isnt. true. the fear is very real and valid and strongly felt. But it doesnt mean that one has to#start over forever. or that theyll never make it back to this point or havent progressed at all.#they have! but theres going to still be bad days sometimes. that doesnt mean that it was all for naught#does that make sense#im kind of rambling a bit here but. oh well you know how it is#If this is somewhat incoherent‚ i was typing portions of it while trying to get ready to go somewhere#so thats probably why#felixlupin.txt#Twiggy 🌘
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Most of the time I have the patience to deal with people but dear lord there's no stupider creature than the customer
#fable rambles#they made me wake up early ive been here forever and i havent had coffee today#dying#anyways shoutout (evil)#to the guy who stood uncomfortably too close to me then came back to ask if we had iron on letters told me i was wrong when i told him#what isle it was in even though he was just dumb#and shoutout (beloved) to dinosaur guy#dinosaur guy was really nice and he gave me a sticker
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trying my very darnedest to finish this fic to have for yall tonight !! (very short) hao fic coming asap
#[💒] — june.txt#its been forever since ive posted i promise im working on things !!! so many wips !! just very slowly#its not holiday themed but do we mind if i post xmas fics after xmas? yay or nay#bc i do have holiday ideas i just havent finished them 😔 hoshi & boo fics SOON just not super motivated for those rn#so many wips. like at least a couple dozen i'm hoping to finish one more short one by new years#sorry for rambling in the tags its been too long since ive given an update but im still here 🙏🏻
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