#Twiggy 🌘

[felix-lupin]

THEY GOT MARRIED FOR TAX BENEFITS EVEN THOUGH THERE ARE NO TAXES OR MONEY OR BENEFITS

Heart & Mind voice ([this is 100% just for tax benefits. its not because we have feelings for each other or want to be bound to each other forever or anything like that at all. no, there are no taxes or benefits to be gained from this. yes, its still because of tax benefits. STOP ASKING.])

[felix-lupin]

soul be like {don’t worry i’m only transphobic to you <3}. soul be like {it’s not transphobia when it’s you}. idfk. {it’s not human rights when it’s you}

Heart and Mind just like ([that doesn't make it better???])

oh god souls the kind of guy like those redditors that will argue that you don't have to call criminals by their preferred pronouns because they've "lost that right (to basic human decency)" isnt he. except he argues it about heart and mind specifically

he's like {hm but they haven't really earned this have they...} as if it's something they have to earn

[felix-lupin]

https://www.tumblr.com/neuroticangelsstuff/751608545128120320/omg-and-i-have-no-idea-where-this-one-is-from-but solar eclipse. you agree

(they look. very pretty)

(and if someone drew them as solar eclipse i would. explode)

oh hey CJ The X appearance! <2

and. okay ✨

[felix-lupin]

imagining heart and mind on the porch and mind is telling him he's obviously objectum bc of how he treats his gun and heart taps his hands and smiles and says (i think you should be careful about calling me objectum) and mind, after a 2 second pause, says [.... it's 55 outside, right?]

(yeah, why?)

mind does not elaborate.

bro i need mind to elaborate what does he mean by that /lh

although mind is correct. sorry heart the way you treat your gun is objectum asf

[felix-lupin]

you just KNOW soul is saying ‘kijetesantakalu li lanpan-ing your soko’ in the most english way too like key yay tay san tackle u lee lan pan ing your sow kow and i don’t know whether he’s doing it to annoy heart n mind or out of pure ignorance and honestly? i don’t wanna know

FR like I could HEAR it in my head and it Was Not Good. Bros doing it purely to annoy mind and heart and he's catching me with that net too

[felix-lupin]

i’m so bored … i need things to read ngl but idk which and i don’t want to read cccc fic…. i want to read something bnha but idk WHAT

idk if the heart rp blog is like… the kind of thing people do….. also i feel it’d be awkward for anyone who has me in their notes

i should write something but idk….. requests anu seme? (there are ideas i have i just… shrug emoticon)

i wish i could give fic recommendations but ive also never been in the bnha fandom in my life

I guess it could be awkward but like,, could be fun too. just bc its not the kind of thing people usually do does not mean it cant be fun or good.

i dont have any particular requests rn bc the idea juice is not running very well for me but like. what are some of the writing ideas that you have? if you want to talk abt them

[felix-lupin]

you know the whole ‘the thing about swap aus that’s interesting to me is what events could turn the canon characters into swap au, like what series of events would that be’? how to swap mind with soul is to just take away heart. but then you have no heart. hmmmmmm

a mind that secretly believes that since he isn’t dead heart has to come back right? RIGHT? maybe heart is here. maybe heart has just changed his form.

Mind would be remarkably angry about how easy it is to swap him with Soul i think, and that his specific weakness in that regard is Heart. that would make him SO mad if he knew that.

(Not as much if he knew that from going through it. Then he's less 'angry' and more extremely desperate and [please come back please come back please come back please come back please come back i miss you])

You remove heart from the equation and it doesnt even take a whole WEEK for Mind to begin showing his soul side (/exaggeration but uh. not by much.)

[felix-lupin]

I LOVE AND HATE HOW SOUL IS THE ONLY ONE NOT TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY AT ALL

when i was planning it out in my head i was going to say ‘heart looks at soul, looks at the cardboard cutout of whole he brought because he thought everyone should be here for this special occasion,’

because soul just. can’t think of it as real.

souls just like {lol this is so funny} meanwhile heart and mind are like *on the verge of tears* ([haha yeah,, what a funny joke.])

also the line about the cardboard cutout of whole is just. yeah.

for heart and mind this is a painfully real way for them to express their feelings without having to admit them. but for soul it just. isnt real.

[felix-lupin]

concept that has been rotating in my head but is slightly weird so idk if people will like it is hms being oddly possessive of each other. hms completely ignoring any boundaries they try to set. especially on soul’s part. he doesn’t see heart and mind as actually worthy of privacy. things like that are privileges, not rights, to him, and heart and mind have not earned a single one of them. so he feels no guilt ignoring their wishes. he’s done much, much worse.

each of them see an ideal version of the others. heart and mind want them to mirror themselves. soul wants heart and mind to become whole. and they keep just trying to force the other into that mold no matter their protests. heart desperately, desperately wants to see mind crack. see his emotions spill. see they really are the same in the end, just as weak, just as vile. soul would do anything to see them become whole, obviously. idk if mind is really in this too but he definitely wants heart to become like him, he sees the ideal version of heart as a heart which has accepted everything he says as truthful, a heart which is logical, a heart which is not a heart. so a nothing? maybe so.

heart and mind have done so much worse to each other. there’s honestly no reason for them to honor the other’s boundaries. besides, they’ve never separated, not really. it doesn’t feel wrong in any way to invade the others’ boundaries - no, it feels right. they’re practically the same in the end, after all. or maybe it’s just from entwining so much. or maybe all that is an excuse, a mere excuse to feel the other squirm in their grip, a mere excuse to inflict yet more violence.

soul sees heart and mind as possessions, more often than not.

hms are constantly trying to Possess each other. Have the other as someThing not someOne. mold the other into exactly what they want.

!!!!

toki sina li pona tawa mi. they WOULD be.

like. Soul sees Heart and Mind as parasites or cysts, and why would you respect the privacy or wishes of something like a parasite or virus? he already doesnt fully see them as people, and its like, well. if privacy is a right, it is a human right, and Heart and Mind are not that.

Why would you respect the wishes of something that refuses to be anything but a parasite that can't act in the good of Harmony, too preoccupied with its own shortsighted fights and desires to see what is for the best? he doesnt feel bad ignoring their desires; their desires clearly aren't very good or helpful, anyway, why would they be respected?

{and while soul can see that they do have desires, some very strong desires, even. well. a parasite has the desire to feed off of it's host until nothing is left, too, does it not? the desires of parasites are not to be respected.}

Soul refuses to accept that any of them could be their own people, including himself. It does not matter if Heart and Mind want to be people; they are not, and they should stop trying to be. Can't they see that Harmonia is more important than their frivolous desires?

n yeah Heart and Mind want the other to become more like them. heart wants mind to spill out in emotions even if that would destroy him, even if mind isnt nearly as equipped to handle strong emotions like that as heart is. they would wreck him. mind wants heart to become more logical and less emotional, less him, even though if heart did truly hollow himself out and become less emotional, all that would be left would be a hollow, apathetic shell of what he's supposed to be. there would be very little left of him that is actually him. a wreck and a shell would be all that is left of either of them.

to them its like. why respect each other's wants when it's so much easier to just give into the temptation to do whatever they want to each other? its not like it really matters in the end. theyre inextricably connected, forever, whether they like it or not. they cannot leave. they cannot change this. what is to stop them from doing whatever they want to each other? and stopping and actually respecting each other likely seems, to them, like quite a lot of work for very little reward.

its not like they can go back to being how they used to be. its not like they'll ever be Whole for very long, or like they'll ever be Harmonia at all. (and. well. they probably think that just like being in concord is always transient, so is cacophony. just like they are always destined to fall apart, they are always destined to come back together again, no matter what. there is not supposed to be a future where this doesn't happen, so there will not be a future where this doesn't happen. something, something, learned helplessness.)

[felix-lupin]

is that a person goung through my writing tag? bc thank you ily let’s get engaged on the 20th /joking but only slightly

it is im ILL about the way u write soul & mind but ESPECIALLY mind ilovehim. im even a little bit silly about it perhaps (i am running around in circles and shaking like an excited dog)

your writing just scratches the hyperfixation JUST right

[felix-lupin]

also sometimes hms doesn’t like the crossing of boundaries but sometimes, in a sick twisted way, they really do and they want more and they would like the other to invade their boundaries more until their ribs are being pried open, sometimes they want to be Filled with the other, they want to entwine. sometimes the fact that the other discards all their protests is utterly beautiful. do yiu undersyand

YES i understand so so much

theres a few things that could play into that. like the 'violence being seen as love' thing, or, well, the closest that they think they can get. and how there are times where they can't acknowledge the times when things were better, but they still want that closeness. so this is all they can get. this violation of boundaries. this forced entwinement. this twisted, funhouse mirrors version of closeness and intimacy.

and sometimes they don't like the crossing of boundaries, but sometimes. sometimes. the fact that the other wants this, wants them, enough to ignore all of their protests or wants about it is something beautiful to them. maybe even relieving.

mind pries heart open and heart hates it sometimes but isnt this what he wanted? isnt this what heart asked for? mind is showing emotions and desires, experiencing and showing them strong enough that he's willing to completely ignore heart's own in the process. didnt heart ask for this, really? isnt this what heart has been trying to drag out of him for so long?

and for mind its like. he cant really admit to himself to having any wants or desires. so while he usually hates it, he does, maybe sometimes theres some part of him thats a little relieved, or thankful. that heart is willing to ignore his protests enough to commit this act of violation in name of the closeness that they both long for. that all he has to do is put up his protests and struggles, but he can rest assured that heart won't actually listen, that he can have this closeness.

[felix-lupin]

i opened the form, saw you reblogged it, looked in the tags, saw there was no polytrident, opened the google sheets, searched for chonny's charming chaos compendium, saw your username, and went of course. so yeah

but yeah well of course I had to submit them <2 I would be completely remiss not to /silly

[felix-lupin]

favorite nimisin?

thinking of serious nimisin, i personally really like misa and omekapo. omekapo li nasa li musi tawa mi (/pona). i have a tp journal that i use occasionally and i like to sign off with that bc its silly n fun tawa mi. and misa is just like. *mi lukin e misa* damn yeah thats a misa alr.

also owe is funny and good and people should use it more because it is funny. the way heart does in to love sound again. i rest my case

[felix-lupin]

felix are you gonna change your pfp to nasa ala too cause i’ll do it if you will

temporarily or permanently?

[felix-lupin]

for swap au i raise you:

heart after apathy runs away

mind in his desperation, not realizing heart even has the ability (it’s fog out there.) (also i don’t have a better explanation), becomes like soul

heart comes back, but now he is like mind, because he realized that the only way to survive was to become like mind or else soul would tear him to pieces and that he still NEEDS THEM to survive

idk what happens w soul

aughh

I wonder what Heart becoming like Mind would entail specifically for him,,,

Bc like, for Mind he becomes earth shatteringly desperate but its still his own flavor, its not in the exact same way Soul is i imagine. so for heart it would probably be different too...

(also its like, he didnt even know heart had the ability but even if he did its like there is NO WAY TO FIND HIM in that fog. so even if hes not DEAD there is NO guarantee that he is ever coming back, so regardless of if hes dead or just gone, Mind's lost him)

I mean, probably something related to apathy and probably the general rejection of emotions? a lot of emotional repression perhaps

idk what happens with soul either but hed have to somehow become like heart. not sure how you could do that though. I mean, heart running away does (at least temporarily, but they dont KNOW that) kind of wrench away any possibility of becoming Whole in his mind.... so.... possibly something with the despair of that, but im not sure exactly how that would affect him. Uh Not Good obviously but

[felix-lupin]

“There must be nothing in it to which the participants are held accountable.”

mind hurting heart. mind says there are zero alternatives. mind says they have to do this: that mind is proving a point. but he is not.

heart is obviously not responsible: he is the victim.

when heart hurts mind, he doesn:t care for accountability. he is guilty. he does not care. there is no prosecutor. and he is giving mind an excuse - the gift of zero blame, for this, for letting it happen, the gift he needs to continue letting this happen. he’s the victim, he couldn’t change it. but he could. of course he could.

^^^^^ SAMETHOUGHT great minds (MINDS? IS THAT A--) think alike

it gives them both the veil of plausible deniability in being either the victim in the situation or the prosecutor (yet, also a prosecutor that denies any responsibility.) But they both get the gift of "blamelessness", of this somehow being something entirely out of their control

for mind, [well, obviously i dont want to do this, but we have to. obviously. we have to. there is no other choice. i have to pry your wounds open to prove a point. i have to rip the flowers out of your skin. there is no other option]

for heart, he doesnt technically need to shirk blame because he's the emotional side, this is expected of him, so rather he just. doesn't care about being guilty. he is sick and vile and guilty and he revels in it. (truly, there was no other way this could have gone. I am the disease in your skin, Mind, and a disease does not stop just because it is guilty. A disease does not stop just because it hurts someone. That is just what a disease does. that is just what I do.)