#and im not talking about the 12 pack of coke

[foxyk7]

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[madsmilfelsen]

hi mads hope you dont mind random advice anons

i think youve mentioned that you dont live where you grew up anymore maybe??

got any advice for making friends as an adult/homebody

from the type of person who could just read and craft alone forever but knows they probably shouldn't

First of all, I never mind and I like getting anons :)))) sorry I didn’t answer this yesterday but I’m gonna bum ya out lmao I moved 50 times before I turned 12 when my mama married a man in the navy and promptly sent us across the country, I’ve never lived where I grew up— always the new kid, I didn’t really socialize correctly to develop the skills to make friends so yeah okay let’s talk about now… ish— I moved to the upper Midwest 11 years ago next month with my husband who I met in Alaska, known stuff, we lived with his parents for a few years because we couldn’t afford to contract our house to built, my husband did it himself (directly behind my in laws, people are always like omg?? like no no no they are my parents they dote on me I love them kids can ride their bikes to grandmas it’s the perfect set up and maintains a thousand mile+ between me and my parents)

So my husband built me a house that I fucking HATE leaving, that I have not left for more than a few days at a time until we went back to Alaska this summer. I have an office with all of beading/writing/school stuff, my favorite snacks, my dogs, I don’t even want to leave my property most days— I get it! Unfortunately to make friends and connections, especially locally, you have to leave the house. I’m not much of a drinker so I don’t got to bars all that often but I did attend my lil community college forever (bc kids) so I mainly made friends with my instructors because I’m a teachers pet for life, but I also tutored and made a few friends to at least chat with in class— otherwise I try to go to our small local events, an open house in the native studies dept. at the university im attending now, women’s night out (first day of hunting seasons and the shops give crazy discounts when our husbands are gone, the only time misogyny ever got me 75% off candles tbh), I went to two beerfests recently (tbh I oozed thc day out of my pores those days or packed rum and cokes, im not vice free here), nature trails, coffee shops, history talks, ballet studio, writing workshops at the library, old movies playing at the historical theater— if there’s something out there that sounds interesting, do it because you’ll likely find someone to strike a conversation up with and that’s all you need— if you happen to have kids the best thing I’ve done is make friends with other moms, especially if our kids get along

When feasible the best alternative is to go and meet the cool friends you made online, those are some of my favorite trips, and ski jumps are coming up so it’s going to be time where I start trying lure people to my very rural neck of the woods to participate in some honest love for physics defying sports day drinking

That being said it took me like ten years to leave my house but I finally have friends with routines in place, I have a weekly breakfast date and monthly girls dinner etc, or a group we can have side by side rides with— but a lot of that goes back to some of these people knowing my husband their entire lives lmao

[nick-1432]

JACOB X HUMAN READER IMAGINE

 REQUESTED BY : @be-patient-be-good  since your doing Twilight can I get a Jacob x reader where shes dating Jacob but gets jealous of Bella when she arrives to Forks pls

You moved  to forks four years ago with your parents. It was the best thing that happened to you cuz this is where you met your boyfriend Jacob black. You and Jacob have  been dating for almost two years now before that you were best friends , he was your first friend in Forks, you had first met him at Carver’s cafe where he  accidentally dropped his coke on you. That was your first meeting with him . He felt bad about it and apologized and asked you to allow him to make it up to you by buying you a new t-shirt and showing you around. You agreed , i mean honestly can you resist the raven haired, brown eyed handsome.😜 He showed you around and after that you guys became good friends , even though you went to different schools you still kept in contact and you had developed feelings for Jacob  6 months after.

 But you were  afraid that he didn’t feel the same way so you said nothing . What you didn’t know was that Jacob had imprinted on you and he fell for you the moment he met you. You didn’t know that he was a werewolf but one night he came to your room and told you all about himself and that he had imprinted on you . You  didn’t say anything as you were shocked at first but eventually came to terms with the fact that your best friend and your crush was a werewolf and that you were  kinda his soulmate👀.But Jacob thought he had scared you and was about to go when you suddenly took his face in your hands and kissed him , he was stunned at first but after registering what is happening he kissed you back . And that’s how you became his girlfriend . 

You supported him through thick and thin and when the Cullens came to town ,you became best friends with Alice and Edward , even Rosalie liked you.One day you and Alice were hanging out at your place when suddenly Jacob came there and he told you stay away from the Cullens which was shocking as he never said anything about your friends. That’s how you came to know that Alice and Jacob are sworn enemies as Alice and her family are vampires. But for your sake Jake and The Cullens tried to co-exist as you were not ready to loose either of the two.  Billy adored you cuz you motivated Jacob to be a better person and he was happy that his little boy had found such an amazing girl. The pack loved you as you kept them in check and made delicious food. You were closest to Seth and Leah , though at first Leah didn’t like you as she thought you were not good enough for Jacob but as she got to know you ,she saw how much you loved Jacob , so she approved you , but you two got even more close after you helped her through the whole Sam and Emily thing , you took care of her and made her believe that she will find her soulmate soon. since Jacob was the alpha so the whole pack called you the mate , you didn’t understood what they meant and when you asked Jacob about it, you were left flustered when Jacob told you that  the alpha’s mate carries the next alpha, you and Jacob had never done anything beyond kisses and some intense make outs😜😍 . Everything was going great . You were a straight A student in school, you were loved by your family and they approved of yours and Jacob’s relationship. Not to forget you had an amazing and loving boyfriend who was an alpha werewolf 😉and your best friends were vampires.

 You were happy but your happiness was gone   when  ISABELLA SWAN came to town , she was the daughter of Police Chief Charlie Swan. she had moved here from phoenix, she had pale skin and long brown hair and beautiful brown eyes.Everyone was intrigued by this new girl who joined your high school mid session. Jacob told you that she was his childhood best friend and he was very excited to meet her after 12 years . So he dragged you with him to meet his childhood best friend , you were happy to meet her and had thought that you two can become great friends but you were wrong!  

Since you two were going to be in the same class so Jake thought that you’d be the best person to show  her around and you happily obliged. You picked Bella from her home on the first day of school and helped her get to class and introduced her to your friends . You noticed that Edward was attracted to Bella , so you even helped those two get together and everything was going fine until the day James attacked Bella and Edward and the Cullens left town thinking it’s the best way to keep Bella safe. You were sad as you had lost your best friends, though Alice kept contact with you but Edward left without even saying goodbye, you had decided that if ever Edward decided to come back you are gonna kill him 👀. This affected Bella the most as she was devastated and heartbroken and Jake had found her in the middle of the woods. Bella was depressed and Charlie was worried for his little girl so he asked you and Jake to help Bella , and being the good person  that you are, you happily obliged . You and Jake did everything to uplift Bella ‘s mood. You two started spending all your free time with her as a result you and Jacob got almost no time together but you were okay with it cuz Bella needed you . You understood her pain . With time Bella got better and she started going out , you couldn’t help but notice that she was trying to get close to Jake and first you thought you were overthinking as they are childhood friends and Bella knows that Jake’s with you .

 But one day when you , Jake , Bella and the whole pack were hanging out at La push , you were cuddled up against Jake , happy to find a moment alone with him when suddenly Bella came to Jacob and asked him to go for a walk with him,you offered all three of you can go but she insisted on going alone with Jake, before Jake could respond she pulled him up and took him with her, you found that very odd and decided to ignore it . But after that incident at la Push , Bella kept pulling up such stunts like when she was supposed to hang out with you , she’d bail and then her frequents visits to Sam’s house , she even started hanging out with the pack more. You tried your best not to give it much thought but Jacob was spending more time with Bella , you two almost never hung out anymore cuz whenever you made a plan , Bella needed Jacob . So you got no time with Jacob , you hadn’t kissed him , hadn’t felt his touch , you were frustrated and mad..

This went on for a few weeks but what really made you loose your temper was on your dad’s promotion when Jacob was supposed to come to your home for a dinner with your family, Bella also tagged along , you were beyond mad and  though you didn’t say anything at the dinner cuz you didn’t want to ruin your dad’s day . You were more jealous than being mad , you were jealous that your boyfriend who called you his soulmate was giving all his attention to the whore who was trying to steal him from you. While you were taking out the dessert from the fridge you felt a pair of arms holding you from behind, you knew it was jacob but you pushed him away and told him to let you do your work. Jacob found it very odd cuz he had missed you! as much as you had missed him probably even more , and he was not naive he knew something was bothering you and he also noticed the death glare you were giving  him and Bella when you thought he wasn’t looking. He decided to ask you about it later. Dinner ended and everybody left except Jacob and Bella cuz Jake was supposed to drop her home. 

Jake came to kiss you goodnight but you turned your head away saying you were too tired .  He left without saying a word..And you went into your room and went to get ready for bed , you were about to fall asleep when suddenly your phone rang , Jake was calling you but you were in no mood to pick up so you switched off your phone and tried to go back to sleep but your mind kept wandering off to him and Bella , you decided since Jake doesn’t have time for you so , you would ignore him .  The next day you had no school as winter break had started and you woke up and switched on your phone , you had 18 missed calls and 24 voice messages and 34 text messages from Jacob , you ignored all of them and went downstairs to have breakfast.You went to La Push beach afterwards and you were lying on the sand enjoying the sun when suddenly you sunlight was blocked and you looked up to see JACOB BLACK , the last person you wanted to see hovering over you. You huffed in annoyance and quickly grabbed your stuff and tried to leave but Jake blocked you , you stood there looking everywhere but in his direction. He asked you what’s wrong ? and you snapped , You said why do you care? Don’t you have to go save your damsel in distress? . He was shocked at first but then realized you were talking about Bella , he said she’s not my damsel in distress , she is my best friend and i am just trying to help her. You shouted at him and said that you are not dumb , you can clearly see that she’s not just his best friend . He was confused and asked what do you mean ? you told him that can’t he see what Bella is trying to do? , she stole him from you . At this point tears were streaming down your eyes and you told Jacob that you love him and it hurts to see that he doesn’t feel the same way , you even said that the whole him  imprinting on you thing was a lie . and that you’re pretty sure he loves Bella . You turned around to leave but before you could leave you felt Jake smashing his lips into yours. You kissed him back

The kiss was full of passion and  it felt magical to feel his lips on yours. You pulled away panting and Jacob took your face in his hands and looked at you in the eye and said : I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU Y/N . YOU HAVE MY HEART AND I AM SORRY WE COULDN’T SPEND TIME TOGETHER BUT I PROMISE TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU! You pulled him in for another kiss and after pulling away you apologized for letting jealousy get the best of you , he said he has eyes only for you and that he was well aware of  Bella’s advances but he was only helping her because of charlie’s and billy’s friendship. 

You two decided to spend the rest of the day at your house cuddling and making up for lost time . you fell asleep on him knowing that you were the luckiest girl in the world.

A/N : FINALLY!!!!! MY FIRST EVER IMAGINE IS COMPLETED ! I HOPE YOU’LL LIKE IT AND DO TELL HOW WAS IT ?

[ecotone99]

[UR] Bam margera fan fiction

January 2nd. 3AM. South Philly.

"Shit," Bam thinks to himself. "How long have i been up? 3 days? 4?" He doesnt even know anymore. Hed been out with Marco since the 28th. The night started simple enough. He stopped by Marcos place to buy a few ounces of coke, trying to gather evidence. Build a case. Next thing you know hes ringing in the New Year in the VIP room of some strip club. Bottles and blow being passed around like they were at a god damn pot luck dinner.

He'd been working Marco for 6 months.Introduced to him by some lowlife who went by the name of "Chevy Joe". He'd popped him driving out of the hood after he just picked up. "Its simple" Bam told him. "Introduce us to your dealer and you walk away" Of course he cooperated. Poor bastard nearly pissed himself at the thought of going to jail.

It started off small. Just an 8 ball every weekend. Then eventually 2. Then 3. Now hes buying ounces. Soon however they'll make their move. Grab Marco and get him to flip on his guy up the ladder. Shitbirds like Marco are a dime a dozen. Midlevel idiots who got lucky and have been able to stay out of jail and the funeral home long enough to have a somewhat successful criminal career.

"Hey, Don Vito. You okay? You aint said a word in damn near an hour" Marco yells from across the room. "Good man, its this god damn blow" Bam says. Marco and his goons roar in laughter at this.

Don Vito was his undercover name. A tribute to his late uncle who died of a heart attack in the bathroom of a shithole bar back home in West Chester after a weekend of binging on coke and alcohol. Bam figured it was a way for Uncle Don to help other people from suffering the same fate he did.

Nowadays he prefers to avoid thinking about West Chester. Too many bad memories. Too many foolish mistakes. Mistakes of youth. Of ignorance.

"Alright guys, im gonna take off" he tells them. They laugh, they call him a pussy. All in good fun though. They exchange back slaps and handshakes and Bams on his way home.

He wakes to someone pounding on his front door. He ignores it, goes back to sleep. Next thing he hears keys jingling and the door opening. "Rise and shine, gorgeous. We got work to do" Its none other than Ryan Dunn. His partner for 12 years, his best friend for even longer. They joined the force together out of high school. They both wanted the same thing. Something they couldnt get in West Chester. Excitement. They talked about joining the West Chester PD but the thought of busting kids for skateboarding and jumping out of shopping carts in parking lots just didnt do it for them. So they packed up and headed to Philly to join the force there and neither has regretted it since. The only regret Bam has is that he cant bring himself to tell Ryan his true feelings for him. Terrified if he does he might freak Ryan out and push him away forever. So he doesnt say a word about it. He'd rather suffer in silence wondering what if then risk telling him and being rejected and losing his best friend, his partner.

"Todays the day. Judge signed off on the arrest warrant. We move on them in 2 hours." Ryan tell him. "So, whats the plan?" Bam asks. "Easy, man. Hit them hard, hit them fast, they'll never see it coming"

Bam cant help but wish Ryan was talking about doing that to him but he quickly pushes the thought out. "Sounds like a plan. Let me gear up"

Two hours later and theyre walking up to the front door of Marcos apartment. Plan is simple. Bam and Ryan go in first, tac squad to follow.

They blow the front door off its hinges and storm in. Soon as they step into the front room bullets start flying. "Down!" Ryan yells. They jump behind the couch as bullets are zipping over their heads. SWAT team comes in behind and starts firing. Marco and his 3 buddies drop instantly. Bullet wounds in their chests and faces. They never even saw it coming.

"All clear!" the SWAT team yells. "Alright, bro. We're all good." Bam says to Ryan looking over. "Ryan!" Ryan is laying slumped over, spitting up blood, gun shot would to his lower abdomen. "Fuck, they got me, bro" Ryan says. "NO NO NO" Bam cries. "Dont you fucking die on me!" "I NEED A MEDIC!" "Dont die on me, man. Dont die. I need you" Bam sobs. "Its okay, partner. Its gonna be okay." Ryan tells him. "I love you, man. Ive always loved you. Ive always wanted to be with you." Ryan confesses in his dying breath.

"NOOOOOOOOO!" Bam cries as he puts his pistol in his mouth and pulls the trigger. His last thoughts are that if he couldnt be with him in life at least he'll be able to spend eternity with him in death.

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[punkscowardschampions]

Joe & Ronnie

Joe: how much you got on you rn Ronnie: enough for me Ronnie: you aint piggybacking Joe: enough for me then Joe: not suggesting you send it first class Joe: 'less you know how to do that Ronnie: I do but in what world mckenna Joe: however much you reckon you'd need to do it Joe: i'll double it Ronnie: use that ingenuity for your own score Joe: yeah whatever Joe: all chat Ronnie: like ive got anything to prove to you Ronnie: least of all how well i can be your bitch when you holler at me Ronnie: cry is more accurate Joe: fuck sake Joe: forget about it Joe: it's a stupid idea Joe: you gonna give me a better one Ronnie: not one for the scrapbook was it cunt Ronnie: dry your eyes & do your own running Ronnie: you need me to hold your hand everytime now Ronnie: big enough to take it go find it Joe: ha ha Joe: like I'm running anywhere Ronnie: this where we play doctor yeah Ronnie: you tell me how bad it hurts & I make it better for you Joe: exactly Joe: now we're on the same page Ronnie: nah you think you can tear out some pages & spit ball em at me to get my attention but why should I give a shit bout these playground games boy just 'cause you heading back home to your mammy Ronnie: im sound Ronnie: dont care how loud you're crying she's the one who's gotta show up for that Joe: i don't want yor attention Joe: i want some heroin Ronnie: maybe she's still got old school connections Ronnie: find her little black book son Joe: maybe Joe: one of you could be useful like Ronnie: wounded & bleeding Ronnie: shit junkie you are house full of people to shake up & shit to steal but you coming to me Joe: just looking for that big sisterly advice Joe: obviously Ronnie: fuck you Ronnie: you sound like the littlest one what is he 4 like Joe: feel it Ronnie: trying to make my heart bleed now yeah Ronnie: grow a fucking pair before it really hurts Joe: if you wanted to scare me you shouldn't have given me the gear Joe: realistically too late anyway but who wants to hear or think about my idyllic childhood yeah Ronnie: if you couldnt hack it you shouldve cried off then Ronnie: save the tears now Joe: and i thought i was the only one with obsessive thought spirals Joe: when i get some i'll remember to feel good about how much you miss me Ronnie: like youre special baby Ronnie: please Ronnie: weve all got mad minds hows that not clicked in yours Ronnie: how many kids shes squeezed out & you reckon were the only self medicating Ronnie: hit up another sibling to fix you Joe: am though Joe: she's always told me Joe: ⭐ boy Ronnie: talk her up with that foreplay Ronnie: be good for £££s Joe: no tah Joe: not my type Joe: and it's only ever worked on you Joe: but you've given me another idea so cheers Ronnie: i dunno whats funnier that youre trying to tell me you dont wanna slip your mum one or you reckon you know what works on me Joe: lemme know when you work it out Joe: 👍 Ronnie: let me know when youve stopped playing happy families Joe: you reckon i wanna be here Ronnie: didnt see no fingernail marks on my floor or walls Ronnie: still reckon you were dragged though yeah Joe: check your thighs Joe: ain't all perks being the favourite 💔 Ronnie: [sends him pics cos that bitch haha] Ronnie: grow a pair whipping boy Ronnie: before she says jump youre on the ledge Ronnie: its pathetic mckenna Joe: see Joe: ain't been that long Joe: only feels it, babe Ronnie: you'll need all that sweet talk for the local dope dealer Ronnie: but if you wanna think of me when you're turning tricks for them it'll go easier Joe: lovely as that'd be Joe: not in progressive london now Joe: gonna have to pay like the rest, worst luck Ronnie: go beg for your pocket money then kidda Ronnie: before she picks a new fave Ronnie: younger & prettier like Joe: nah Joe: we want her to Joe: remember Joe: then me and more importantly my student loans can come back Ronnie: bullshit if you wanted her to you wouldn't have gone Ronnie: you love it Joe: can't just go way uni and never come back Joe: send out a search party Ronnie: use your ⭐ as a beacon cant they Joe: let's hope not Joe: i come here Joe: keeps 'em away rest of the time Joe: yeah Ronnie: if you want em to fuck off commit to it Ronnie: stop being such a pussy Joe: ain't that easy Ronnie: find a ditch to lie down in Ronnie: it ain't hard Ronnie: youre a junkie motherfuckers don't support that Joe: far as they know Joe: i ain't Joe: let 'em catch up Ronnie: do it yourself if you wanna slam the door Joe: see how this goes Joe: not really thinking about them right now Joe: you know Ronnie: youre on one about that lot constantly Joe: just on one constantly full stop Joe: why else would i need the shit Ronnie: dont need to go that hard playing doctor baby Joe: 💘 Joe: you always know just what to say Ronnie: not used to you talking Joe: i know i know Joe: in an ideal world neither of us would be here Ronnie: like not born yeah Ronnie: but she cant keep her legs closed Joe: such a dreamer, you Ronnie: not the one who cant get high without their hand held Joe: n'awh Joe: that's the dream Joe: so romantic too Ronnie: yeah im living it loads of gear close & you far as Ronnie: greedy prick Joe: miss you too baby Joe: in a bit tho, gotta go pick up Ronnie: fuck off soft lad Ronnie: you miss me spoon feeding you Ronnie: you cant talk to me with a dealers cock in your mouth I know Ronnie: multitasking hard enough pretending not to be junkie scum yeah Joe: sure the whole mummy kink ain't your thing Joe: i'll try and get involved but kinda a mood killer Joe: which is kinda rude, know you don't want me to score Ronnie: thats all yours but I'll try anything once Ronnie: 'cause a whinging dope sick baby is really a turn on for me like Ronnie: just gotta keep that going Joe: no judgment here Joe: gotta do what you gotta do Ronnie: you gotta Ronnie: im sound Joe: and i'm happy for you Ronnie: lie to them don't lie to me Joe: alright Joe: will be a bit when I get mine but still Joe: you don't have to be here so Ronnie: you dont Ronnie: grow up & cut the fucking apron strings Joe: you've stopped being helpful for the day? Joe: right then Ronnie: fuck you Ronnie: not flying over to fuck you cos your ma aint in the mood & thats as helpful as it gets Joe: why not Ronnie: youve got another sister Ronnie: see if shes into it Joe: but you're so special yeah Ronnie: but shes a good grooming age Joe: leave it out Ronnie: or what Joe: or what Ronnie: asked you first joseph Joe: alright veronica Ronnie: alright weak cunt Joe: probably Ronnie: pick up before you make me sick Ronnie: jesus Joe: waiting on the man Joe: as per Ronnie: if id known rattling had made you shit out your whole spine id have sucked his dick for you & sped things along Joe: so sweet Joe: one of the many things I like about you Ronnie: list just gets longer the longer youre away yeah Ronnie: dont come back & maybe you'll fall in love Joe: i know you want that less than you want me back Joe: don't lie Ronnie: you care what I want now Ronnie: 💘 Joe: only when it benefits me too, darling Joe: junkie scum 101 Joe: was on my timetable like Ronnie: theyve really done a number on you if youre on your knees for my truth Joe: who Joe: mummy dearest or my school Ronnie: take your pick Joe: ain't tryna hide it Joe: just doing my bit to be the whiny baby you want rn Ronnie: cheers then Ronnie: nailed that Ronnie: tell your ma i finally get how she feels 'cause its too late to get you scraped out Joe: 😂 Joe: on it Joe: assuming i ain't 'bout to get kneecapped Joe: or worse Joe: stood up 💔 Ronnie: i'll cross my fingers for raped & robbed Ronnie: standard Joe: you know i ain't gonna have that much of a good time without you 💘 Ronnie: stop trying to make me say I hate you so you can rub one out Ronnie: i dont do sexting Joe: worth a shot Joe: just killing time here Joe: trying not to puke Ronnie: hot Joe: mhmm Joe: like that attempt at enthusiasm Ronnie: you really know how to make a girl wet what can I say Ronnie: gotta romance my dealer out of want instead of need now Joe: thought I'd return the favour Joe: just how I roll Ronnie: course you do golden boy Joe: you ain't that mad about it Joe: i know Ronnie: i aint as fucking thick as you so again course Joe: true Joe: [time for drew to show and not deliver] Ronnie: made up about all these compliments Ronnie: who knew you could be this much on my tits from this distance Joe: just that good Joe: obviously Ronnie: you aint shit Ronnie: don't lie Joe: whatever Joe: can't touch me now Ronnie: only your ma is turned on at the sight of you Ronnie: but she will Joe: alright Joe: cba rn Ronnie: how are you still crying Ronnie: did he not show Joe: he did Joe: but he was about 12 and had no gear Joe: got enough tranqs to knock out an elephant but still Ronnie: when i told you to hit up your siblings i meant the freckled one not one of the toddlers Joe: yeah right Joe: like he knows a great smack dealer, even if we did talk Ronnie: hes a coke head Ronnie: give him 5 Joe: nah Joe: opposite direction Joe: only way is up Ronnie: whatever just get on a plane Joe: yeah Joe: i'm gonna Joe: fuck this Ronnie: ill be waiting with shit that aint a fucking joke Ronnie: you can owe me Joe: yeah? Joe: good Ronnie: don't talk me out of it Ronnie: christ you're annoying Joe: 🤐 Ronnie: only want you back on your feet so I can kick em out from under you myself Joe: hot Ronnie: like you said, it ain't been that long Ronnie: you know I am Joe: yeah Joe: where was this distraction when I really really needed it tho Ronnie: baby when have I ever been good for you Ronnie: selfish to my core Ronnie: we're here for me Joe: works for me Ronnie: just get to the airport & stop fannying about Joe: I've already taken 'em so hold on Joe: no packing now never mind going through customs Ronnie: fuck's sake Joe: i had to Ronnie: when then Joe: still today Joe: just later Ronnie: fuck you Ronnie: call me Ronnie: maybe i'll answer if it ain't too late Joe: can i call you now too Joe: i gotta stay awake Ronnie: I'm good but no guarantees I'm that good Joe: they ain't kicked in that good yet either Joe: just keep my eyes on the road yeah Ronnie: how much did you pay for baby aspirin mckenna Joe: was cheap as fuck at least Joe: just a kid Joe: barely broke a 50 for all of these so Joe: [photo] Ronnie: not as green as you feel yeah Joe: want me to bring some back Ronnie: too late to rob the boy now Ronnie: & you'll take em yourself before you see me I know you Joe: yeah Joe: i will Joe: but had good intentions, babe Ronnie: take em to church Ronnie: what use is that shit to me Ronnie: gimme bad ideas or don't come around Joe: got plenty of those come on Ronnie: like what Ronnie: come on Joe: what Joe: tryna focus here Ronnie: you wanna stay awake Ronnie: play the game Joe: alright Joe: yeah Joe: you gonna come back to mine Joe: flatmate's gone home Ronnie: are you gonna make it worth it if she's not there to kick in the teeth Joe: won't need to miss her once I'm back Ronnie: fucked her yet? Ronnie: we could do it together Ronnie: I dont normally slip one to virgins but I already made the exception for you Joe: no and funny Joe: keep me as the only exception Joe: how else will i feel special Ronnie: keep hitting up preteen dealers that'll help Joe: he was pretty Ronnie: if im ever in the area like Joe: i wish Ronnie: you & your ma both Ronnie: my turn to feel special Joe: weird ain't it Ronnie: for me Ronnie: you love it Joe: nah Ronnie: not a question Ronnie: you do Joe: don't Ronnie: liar Joe: maybe from you Joe: I'll allow it Ronnie: those pills better be kicking in Ronnie: if youre chatting this much shit sober you can stay in ireland Joe: 😂 Joe: they are Ronnie: book a flight Ronnie: i ain't your ma im not doing it Joe: lemme get home, like Joe: be more obvious you're tryna kill me Ronnie: what im trying to do Ronnie: you gonna call that your home now Joe: you know what i mean Ronnie: yeah Ronnie: i know youre full of shit, mckenna Joe: nah Joe: just bars Joe: make it up to you Ronnie: bullshit Ronnie: x it as many times as fits Joe: k Joe: prove it when i see you Ronnie: you reckon Joe: not a question Ronnie: nah just bold claims for someone who still fucks like a virgin & has to check in with his ma Ronnie: can you without her permission Joe: get the slip signed if you're so worried Joe: chill out Ronnie: fuck off Ronnie: couple of chewable vitamins & you're chill yeah Joe: you said you got loads Ronnie: I said enough Ronnie: & that was before babysitting you Ronnie: you make me need to spike every vein Joe: need Joe: want Joe: same diff we both know it Ronnie: not trying to make it matter baby Ronnie: put any words in my mouth you want Ronnie: or need Joe: here Joe: wish me luck on telling 'em i'm off Joe: or don't Ronnie: i'll do it for you Ronnie: point me at the relevant mckennas Joe: even stoned Joe: know that ain't a good idea Ronnie: pussy Joe: love u 2 Ronnie: 💋 Joe: [suitable amount of hours for the shit to wear off to a manageable level, avoid the parents and get out on the sly] Joe: [airport photo] Joe: tada Ronnie: we reckoned you'd bottled it Joe: taken a poll like Ronnie: yeah know you like to feel special Joe: warms my cold dead 💘 Joe: honest Ronnie: walk your corpse to me then Joe: and she says she don't sext Ronnie: you wanna be the only exception so bad or what Joe: you know how bad i want it Ronnie: dont leave again & maybe I'll buy it Joe: being dopesick was almost a nice distraction from thinking about you Ronnie: that warms my 🖤 Joe: thought so Joe: nothing does it quite like me being near-death yeah Ronnie: i do like you pathetic Ronnie: but don't think that any of it comes close to me yeah Joe: you saying you're better than heroin Ronnie: im saying you think you were hurting earlier Ronnie: ill show you pain Ronnie: all you have to do is fuck off again Joe: i won't Joe: i need to be there Joe: with you Ronnie: leave me & I will fucking break you Ronnie: i mean it Joe: i know Joe: i'm not gonna Ronnie: how did you get out Joe: parents weren't in but i said a uni friend was in a car accident and they couldn't get hold of his parents Joe: going hell anyway Joe: and someone on my course was hit by a car so if any of them are that concerned to go snooping Ronnie: thats beautiful Ronnie: you're not as much of a useless waster as youve sounded for most of the day like Joe: steady Joe: was almost not an insult Ronnie: who isn't turned on by a good lie Joe: only when I lie to you Joe: got it Ronnie: don't you fucking dare lie to me Joe: couldn't if i wanted to Ronnie: think about what kind of welcome back you want Ronnie: 'cause I can be nice or not nice Ronnie: its on you & what you say to me Joe: baby Joe: already told you I basically missed you more than heroin, how nice can one boy be Ronnie: you wont be saying that when I hand the gear over Joe: yeah i will Joe: been on you longer Ronnie: its fucking good though Joe: yeah Joe: ain't gonna say otherwise Ronnie: paid more & got better so you won't wanna leave Ronnie: dont have to rely on pretty preteens around here Joe: you know i didn't wanna leave in the first place Ronnie: i know you keep saying it like it makes a difference Joe: tell me what will and i'll do it Ronnie: i'll burn your passport that will Joe: burn my passport Joe: that's what you want? Ronnie: what do you have to go running to them for Ronnie: that's what I wanna know Ronnie: what the fuck is there for you Ronnie: cant even get a fix Joe: nothing, never has been Joe: it's obligation though Joe: you get it, i know you've done some shit just 'cos charlie wants to Joe: or 'cos bronson need it Ronnie: that's different Joe: why Ronnie: I ain't going round bullshitting how much i hate 'em on the one breath & in the other dropping everything for the pair of 'em Ronnie: ride or die is that Joe: okay so it is different Joe: it's more complicated Ronnie: fuck complicated its black & white Joe: nah like Joe: whatever i reckon about them Joe: i still owe 'em Joe: for now Joe: debts to pay like Ronnie: how ain't it been paid Ronnie: they ain't done you right since you were a kid Ronnie: if ever Ronnie: a roof & food that's easily totalled Joe: i dunno Joe: shit ton of interest Joe: learnt from the best debt collectors in liverpool, like Ronnie: write it off Ronnie: is when youre dead Joe: tell 'em that's my payment plan Ronnie: talking it out is your first mistake Ronnie: when the fuck has that worked on anyone who comes to collect Ronnie: dont even buy you time just makes you look a doss cunt more than you are Joe: maybe i can convince my da but you know she's biased Joe: all i have to do is get uni done and they can tick it off as a success Ronnie: i dont know jack about her Ronnie: how i want it Ronnie: if i aint read it off a file as a kid i don't need to hear it Joe: yeah Joe: but i ain't telling you i'm golden boy 'cos it seems cool am i Joe: whatever i'm gone now Ronnie: you're telling me 'cause you wanna trade wounds since I won't have your stories off you Ronnie: burn it into your arm deeper & maybe I'll pay attention Joe: you know it ain't about you, babe Joe: anyway, if we were still being nice I'd tell you none of the usual shit works to get you outta my head so thanks for that one Ronnie: ive been saying all day it's about her & I ain't competing with your fucking ma alright Ronnie: she smothered you poor baby Ronnie: you wanna try neglect its real easy Ronnie: feels better too Joe: you're the one who keeps bringing her up, yeah Joe: you want me to be that cunt Joe: easy Joe: I bet it was better, lucky you Ronnie: youre the one who ran home to have her tuck you in again Ronnie: youre that cunt Ronnie: mama's boy Joe: fuck's sake Joe: yeah alright Ronnie: you're the cunt who has the nerve to come crying to me when your mommy would shoot you up if you asked her to Joe: you reckon Joe: considering her dad was and she don't even hate yours as much i'll go with a no on that one Joe: plenty of sad stories I've heard and you ain't need to Ronnie: I reckon golden boy Ronnie: loves you as much as I love gear yeah Ronnie: & not trying to throw another baby away so you're welcome for the free pass Joe: cheers Joe: feels great Ronnie: you gonna cry again mckenna Joe: if i do i'll send you photos, don't worry Ronnie: 💘 Ronnie: send me some either way Joe: you're a headfuck you know Ronnie: yeah Ronnie: dealer said it last time I fucked him Joe: you want fresh line Joe: 👌 Ronnie: give it to me then Joe: give me the flight to think of something you ain't heard before Ronnie: it ain't long enough Joe: fair there's plenty of shit i can say that you ain't heard for real before Joe: but it'd be a copout so i'll keep trying Ronnie: like what Joe: how many of your brothers you fucked lik4 Ronnie: don't reckon freckles is interested Ronnie: leaves me the gay & the kid Ronnie: what about your sister that'd be hot like Joe: they're all kids, just so you know Ronnie: no they ain't Ronnie: i know you lost your virginity to me but don't reckon they're waiting Joe: you wish Joe: hopefully just on the first count Ronnie: you're a sick boy Ronnie: 💋🖕 Joe: you too baby Joe: 💘 Ronnie: thats not some shit I ain't heard before Joe: just truth though Joe: no lying Ronnie: feels like one Ronnie: I'm good Joe: what you want me to say to that Ronnie: say what you wanna say Ronnie: again not your ma Joe: i'm good then Ronnie: truth or lie Joe: lie but not a big one Joe: true once i'm off this plane Ronnie: you out of sweeties or they're just that sugar free Joe: i'm trying to time it just right Joe: then i can actually just a decent amount and not be in a coma for you Ronnie: alright fuck Ronnie: you win Ronnie: nobody's said that to me before Joe: i mean it Joe: i want you first Ronnie: don't say this shit when you're on the wrong side of a plane ride Ronnie: jesus mckenna Joe: gotta make sure you miss me too Ronnie: you're such a cunt Joe: yeah Joe: you still want me though Ronnie: shut the fuck up Joe: why Ronnie: what do you want me to say Joe: you don't have to say anything Joe: but I ain't gonna shut up about how I ain't been able to get you out of my head this whole time Ronnie: yeah you said im a headfuck Ronnie: more than your family & the gear Ronnie: I'll take it Joe: better though Joe: you know Joe: so I'll take it and all Ronnie: you're a headfuck Ronnie: what are you being nice to me for Joe: you said it could go one of two ways Joe: you want me to be mean Ronnie: I want you to be here Ronnie: but you ain't Joe: I'm coming Ronnie: & I'm waiting on you Ronnie: what the fuck Joe: I know Ronnie: I hate you Ronnie: I'm losing it, do you know that Joe: I'm sorry Ronnie: what am I gonna do with that Joe: I don't know Joe: what do you want me to do Ronnie: what can you do Ronnie: can't even score by yourself Ronnie: worse than a fucking kid Joe: was desperate Joe: and it was your idea Ronnie: thats how it is every time Ronnie: you don't have any fucking idea 'cause I'm here cupping your balls & wiping your arse for you Joe: you've been giving me an easy ride of it yeah Joe: alright Ronnie: youre gonna try & call bullshit on that yeah Joe: nah i just had no idea you were being so generous Joe: would've got you a keychain at least Ronnie: fuck you Joe: you too Ronnie: get one with sharp edges we can make a blood oath or some shit Ronnie: maybe after you'll grow the hell up Joe: sure Joe: it's my speciality yeah Ronnie: cutting's more mine but you can have it Ronnie: same old shit gets boring yeah Joe: we can share Joe: she'd be proud Ronnie: my aspiration in life Ronnie: cheers Joe: obvs mine too Ronnie: you brought her up then not me Joe: reckon you owed me that one so Joe: even Ronnie: 💋🖕 Joe: you're cute Ronnie: say that again & you'll be swallowing teeth Joe: don't worry, that was hot Joe: you won it back Ronnie: go to hell mckenna Joe: you wanna be with me forever Joe: 💘 Ronnie: just reckoning you'll get there quicker than you will this fucking airport Joe: just be glad I didn't try to get back in at rush hour Ronnie: be glad im still waiting Joe: ain't gonna waste words on it Joe: show you Ronnie: 💘

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200-1 :3

200: My crush’s name is: @when-youcant-sleepat-night199: I was born in: England198: I am really: irritating197: My cellphone company is: Tesco!196: My eye color is: grey, sometimes green or sometimes blue195: My shoe size is: 8194: My ring size is: I have no idea, but I have thick fingers193: My height is: 5′9 and a half192: I am allergic to: Most bug bites191: My 1st car was: I have no idea what make it is... there’s a funny bird looking thing on the front though190: My 1st job was: Primark189: Last book you read: The Sex Lives Of Siamese Twins188: My bed is: currently lacking @when-youcant-sleepat-night187: My pet: sucks, she stalks me186: My best friend: is my girlfriend185: My favorite shampoo is: Palmer’s Organic Coconut!!184: Xbox or ps3: PS3 who do you think I am183: Piggy banks are: terrible,, my ADHD brain cannot deal182: In my pockets: are a pack of soothers 181: On my calendar: my girlfriend visiting soon180: Marriage is: definitely happening, sometime soon.. tell my girlfriend to marry me179: Spongebob can: get it178: My mom: sucks, she’s manipulative177: The last three songs I bought were? I dont buy songs! but my newest was Even If It’s A Lie by Matt Maltese176: Last YouTube video watched: Kitchen Nightmares US175: How many cousins do you have? two! They’re both under 5174: Do you have any siblings? - biologically 5, technically 3173: Are your parents divorced? - nope, but probably should be172: Are you taller than your mom? - almost!171: Do you play an instrument? - I play a few... Piano, bass, sometimes guitar170: What did you do yesterday? - College, unfortunately[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: I do!168: Luck: definitely167: Fate: yup!166: Yourself: never165: Aliens: of course164: Heaven: nope163: Hell: nope! wish I did though162: God: I believe in higher power, but not one set God, perhaps many161: Horoscopes: very much so160: Soul mates: hell yeh159: Ghosts: on the fence158: Gay Marriage: you’re asking a lesbian..157: War: never, never ever156: Orbs: I have no idea what this is.. and as a witch I probably should155: Magic: of course![ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: 153: Drunk or High:152: Phone or Online:151: Red heads or Black haired:150: Blondes or Brunettes:149: Hot or cold:148: Summer or winter:147: Autumn or Spring:146: Chocolate or vanilla:145: Night or Day:144: Oranges or Apples:143: Curly or Straight hair:142: McDonalds or Burger King: (I’m allergic to McDonalds though.. but I love it)141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate:140: Mac or PC:139: Flip flops or high heels: neither138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: I’m already ugly, I have nothing to lose137: Coke or Pepsi:136: Hillary or Obama:135: Burried or cremated:134: Singing or Dancing:133: Coach or Chanel:132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: ... who?131: Small town or Big city:130: Wal-Mart or Target: I’m British129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler:128: Manicure or Pedicure:127: East Coast or West Coast:126: Your Birthday or Christmas:125: Chocolate or Flowers:124: Disney or Six Flags:123: Yankees or Red Sox: ...what?[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: childish, unnecessary, unreasonable, avoidable121: George Bush: cunt120: Gay Marriage: bombest shit ever119: The presidential election: rigged, put a lesbian in office118: Abortion: let people do what they want117: MySpace: I’m too young for that 116: Reality TV: good for when I don’t want my brain. British reality tv is the best115: Parents: wish I had good ones114: Back stabbers: worthless, hurt people hurt people113: Ebay: 90% shitty112: Facebook: everyone middle aged mother 111: Work: makes me hate people even more110: My Neighbors: are crazy, one sweeps the pavement with a paint brush and the other practices the unicycle109: Gas Prices: ridiculous108: Designer Clothes: kinda pointless107: College: wish it didn’t exist106: Sports: sO overrated105: My family: I love my sisters104: The future: is bright[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: Friday102: Last time you ate: yesterday101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: no idea100: Cried in front of someone: yesterday99: Went to a movie theater: a couple months ago with my sister98: Took a vacation: start of September 97: Swam in a pool: years ago96: Changed a diaper: no idea95: Got my nails done: never94: Went to a wedding: two years ago93: Broke a bone: never92: Got a peircing: last October91: Broke the law: 3 months ago90: Texted: hour ago[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: @when-youcant-sleepat-night88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my sister and my cat87: The last movie I saw: Pride86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: seeing my girlfriend85: The thing im not looking forward to: her leaving84: People call me: the baby83: The most difficult thing to do is: focus82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never81: My zodiac sign is: gemini80: The first person i talked to today was: my girlfriend 79: First time you had a crush: two years ago on my best friend78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: @when-youcant-sleepat-night77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: ten minutes ago76: Right now I am talking to: my girlfriend 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: maybe die, who knows 74: I have/will get a job: ... I have a job?73: Tomorrow: I wanna sleep72: Today: I wanna cuddle my baby71: Next Summer: move out70: Next Weekend: get cuddled69: I have these pets: I have three cats!!68: The worst sound in the world: squeeky cardboard67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Liam goddam Neeson66: People that make you happy: my sister, my girlfriend, bts 65: Last time I cried: a couple hours ago64: My friends are: non existent63: My computer is: shitty,, Toshiba62: My School: makes me wanna die61: My Car: is broken60: I lose all respect for people who: cheat59: The movie I cried at was: Marley and Me58: Your hair color is: brown and ginger57: TV shows you watch: Come Dine With Me, anything with Gordon Ramsay, The Apprentice56: Favorite web site: Tumblr55: Your dream vacation: my girlfriends bed54: The worst pain I was ever in was: depression was a bitch, but I also had tonsillitis that turned septic53: How do you like your steak cooked: I don’t like steak52: My room is: small, cold

51: My favorite celebrity is: Min Yoongi or Kim Heechul50: Where would you like to be: @when-youcant-sleepat-night‘s bed49: Do you want children: I really do, atleast 148: Ever been in love: legit right now47: Who’s your best friend: @when-youcant-sleepat-night46: More guy friends or girl friends: mostly girls45: One thing that makes you feel great is: cuddles44: One person that you wish you could see right now: my girlfriend 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I dont even have a plan for the next five minutes 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: be happy41: Have you pre-named your children: nope, not at all40: Last person I got mad at: my mother39: I would like to move to: Wales or Ireland38: I wish I was a professional: musician[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: Kinder Bueno36: Vehicle: Jeeps35: President: Obama34: State visited: Florida33: Cellphone provider: wtf32: Athlete: I don’t know any31: Actor: Ezra Miller30: Actress: Sarah Paulson29: Singer: Park Jimin28: Band: The Smashing Pumpkins27: Clothing store: Urban Outfitter26: Grocery store: Aldi25: TV show: Come Dine With Me24: Movie: Girl Interrupted23: Website: Tumblr22: Animal: Panda21: Theme park: Thorpe Park20: Holiday: haven’t been on one I’ve liked19: Sport to watch: Hockey18: Sport to play: Trampolining17: Magazine: Kerrang16: Book: The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier15: Day of the week: Saturday14: Beach: I hate beaches :(13: Concert attended: BTS12: Thing to cook: noodles11: Food: anything cheesy10: Restaurant: Nandos9: Radio station: I don’t know any8: Yankee candle scent: cupcake7: Perfume: vanilla, Britney Spears ones are good though!6: Flower: Sunflowers5: Color: Green4: Talk show host: James Corden3: Comedian: Lee Evans2: Dog breed: Cats1: Did you answer all these truthfully? hopefully

[gut-her-girl]

the story so far (tw!!)

first non reblog post <3 feels weird not just lurking but refreshing to have a safe space to share things even if its just going into the void. 

(im 21 and 5′8″ for reference)

i n t r o d u c t i o n 

i cant remember not having a shitty relationship with food and my body, but id say it got bad around 16 (depression, family trauma, shit hit the fan & all that) it started out as strictly bingeing as a coping mechanism, im talking whole frozen pizzas daily, a family sized bag of chips in one sitting, a 12 pack of soda a week, i could go on... like i said shit was bad. gained a ton of weight that year, pulled myself out of that depressive hole and some how lost the extreme bingeing weight but i saw photos of myself from that year and thats when the hatred for my body started. things leveled out weight wise for awhile, ate like shit and binged but i think my metabolism was crazy fast in highschool so i was always average or on the thin side, just tried my best to avoid being naked in front of mirrors, going to the beach, out of sight out of mind. then senior year i got into a relationship (relationship weight is real folks!!) gained a ton of weight due to that... tried to diet, exercise, worked for awhile, failed, binged, repeat, got fat again. 

c o l l e g e  p t 1

the summer after graduation i broke up with my boyfriend and left for college where all i did was sleep, party, and juul. when i left for school i was around 150-145... go to the doctor a few months into school all of the sudden im 120 lbs and id say this is when my intentional restriction started. when i was skinny i got so much positive attention, male validation, female validation, everyone thought i was pretty and i had never been the pretty girl. when id come home for break my family would mention how much weight id lost and i started to live for that shit. continued my diet of vodka and nicotine through sophomore year of college. that year i moved in with a girl who struggled with disordered eating and without knowing she taught me everything i needed to know. she was constantly talking calories, obsessive workouts, had my absolute dream body but called herself fat every chance she got, learned about intermittent fasting, diet coke, rice cakes, gum... basically got an ed starter pack without even knowing lmao. 

c o l l e g e  p t 2

sophmore year i maintained around 120 (even hit 119 at one point <3) going into the covid lockdown the summer after sophomore year i was dirt poor... like shop lifting food just to eat poor. id say i ate strictly plain oatmeal for around 3 months, with the occasional jar of peanut butter here and there and i didnt have a car so i walked everywhere, like at least 2 hrs daily. we didnt have a scale in the house but i was visibly losing weight and i finally started to appreciate parts of me that id always hated... my hips dips, my legs, my smaller chest. i still felt fat most of the time but those fleeting moments were so nice. i remember coming home to meet my niece and nephew and my sister told me she was worried about my weight loss and asked me if i had an eating disorder, when she said those things it made me proud even though i knew it was wrong. i also remember some friends came to town that summer and they tried to be kind and buy me food when we went out to eat and i didnt know how to say no so i accepted, but eating and having a full stomach after being hungry for so long made me feel disgusting. after i got home i was sitting there full and nauseous and i decided to purge for the first time. my thought process was, i pull trig when im drunk and it makes me feel better so it seemed logical, and so thats what i did whenever i felt full the next few months. things really went down hill for me mentally that summer, i was so alone, i started self harming again, and being so small was one of the few things that made me happy.

g o i n g  h o m e

fast foward to october of 2020 and i decide to move home to save money. my body mustve been in starvation mode after months of restriction and daily exercise because i swear to god my body has hung on to every fucking calorie since i got home and had more access to food. i hardly left the house for a few months so i only wore sweats and baggy shirts, i knew id gained some weight but i was trying not to think about it and to listen to my sister who was constantly preaching fuel your body, self love, etc. one day i go to put on my favorite pair of jeans and they dont fit. i mean not even fucking close. i dont know how it happened or how id completely lost control of my everything but id catapulted back up to pre college weight and it broke me. i was consumed with self hatred, i had constant breakdowns and went right back to avoiding the mirror, never getting dressed, no fucking way was i gonna get on a scale because then it would make it real that the weight was back and all my hardwork was gone. its like i lost my identity, everything that had made me pretty. so i tried to do it the “right way” started working out, making sure i was in a small calorie deficit and finally worked up the courage to get on the scale only to have it say 146... pre college weight... even after all the work id been putting in. i tried to continue that way and just ignore the problem but my friends are so skinny and so beautiful and i just want to be excited to take pictures with them again, i just want to be me again. 

n o w 

soooo now im back to restricting and fasting and lots of walking (trying to avoid bingeing and purging at all costs) and ive been seeing some visible changes but i hadnt weighed myself until today and im down to 134, seeing progress made me so fucking happy. im going to get back to my happy pretty self and i feel so safe here even though so far all ive done is read what everyone else has to say. ive never shared my struggles with anyone and now i have an outlet, its comforting to see people my age here and it just feels nice to not feel crazy and alone. 

[fanfictionlive]

[NSFW] Bam Margera fan fiction

January 2nd. 3AM. South Philly.

"Shit," Bam thinks to himself. "How long have i been up? 3 days? 4?" He doesnt even know anymore. Hed been out with Marco since the 28th. The night started simple enough. He stopped by Marcos place to buy a few ounces of coke, trying to gather evidence. Build a case. Next thing you know hes ringing in the New Year in the VIP room of some strip club. Bottles and blow being passed around like they were at a god damn pot luck dinner.

He'd been working Marco for 6 months.Introduced to him by some lowlife who went by the name of "Chevy Joe". He'd popped him driving out of the hood after he just picked up. "Its simple" Bam told him. "Introduce us to your dealer and you walk away" Of course he cooperated. Poor bastard nearly pissed himself at the thought of going to jail.

It started off small. Just an 8 ball every weekend. Then eventually 2. Then 3. Now hes buying ounces. Soon however they'll make their move. Grab Marco and get him to flip on his guy up the ladder. Shitbirds like Marco are a dime a dozen. Midlevel idiots who got lucky and have been able to stay out of jail and the funeral home long enough to have a somewhat successful criminal career.

"Hey, Don Vito. You okay? You aint said a word in damn near an hour" Marco yells from across the room. "Good man, its this god damn blow" Bam says. Marco and his goons roar in laughter at this.

Don Vito was his undercover name. A tribute to his late uncle who died of a heart attack in the bathroom of a shithole bar back home in West Chester after a weekend of binging on coke and alcohol. Bam figured it was a way for Uncle Don to help other people from suffering the same fate he did.

Nowadays he prefers to avoid thinking about West Chester. Too many bad memories. Too many foolish mistakes. Mistakes of youth. Of ignorance.

"Alright guys, im gonna take off" he tells them. They laugh, they call him a pussy. All in good fun though. They exchange back slaps and handshakes and Bams on his way home.

He wakes to someone pounding on his front door. He ignores it, goes back to sleep. Next thing he hears keys jingling and the door opening. "Rise and shine, gorgeous. We got work to do" Its none other than Ryan Dunn. His partner for 12 years, his best friend for even longer. They joined the force together out of high school. They both wanted the same thing. Something they couldnt get in West Chester. Excitement. They talked about joining the West Chester PD but the thought of busting kids for skateboarding and jumping out of shopping carts in parking lots just didnt do it for them. So they packed up and headed to Philly to join the force there and neither has regretted it since. The only regret Bam has is that he cant bring himself to tell Ryan his true feelings for him. Terrified if he does he might freak Ryan out and push him away forever. So he doesnt say a word about it. He'd rather suffer in silence wondering what if then risk telling him and being rejected and losing his best friend, his partner.

"Todays the day. Judge signed off on the arrest warrant. We move on them in 2 hours." Ryan tell him. "So, whats the plan?" Bam asks. "Easy, man. Hit them hard, hit them fast, they'll never see it coming"

Bam cant help but wish Ryan was talking about doing that to him but he quickly pushes the thought out. "Sounds like a plan. Let me gear up"

Two hours later and theyre walking up to the front door of Marcos apartment. Plan is simple. Bam and Ryan go in first, tac squad to follow.

They blow the front door off its hinges and storm in. Soon as they step into the front room bullets start flying. "Down!" Ryan yells. They jump behind the couch as bullets are zipping over their heads. SWAT team comes in behind and starts firing. Marco and his 3 buddies drop instantly. Bullet wounds in their chests and faces. They never even saw it coming.

"All clear!" the SWAT team yells. "Alright, bro. We're all good." Bam says to Ryan looking over. "Ryan!" Ryan is laying slumped over, spitting up blood, gun shot would to his lower abdomen. "Fuck, they got me, bro" Ryan says. "NO NO NO" Bam cries. "Dont you fucking die on me!" "I NEED A MEDIC!" "Dont die on me, man. Dont die. I need you" Bam sobs. "Its okay, partner. Its gonna be okay." Ryan tells him. "I love you, man. Ive always loved you. Ive always wanted to be with you." Ryan confesses in his dying breath.

"NOOOOOOOOO!" Bam cries as he puts his pistol in his mouth and pulls the trigger. His last thoughts are that if he couldnt be with him in life at least he'll be able to spend eternity with him in death.

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[hannah-mic]

New Love

Killian Jones x reader imagine

Summary: AU  during Christmas time where you are a struggling bartender at a pirate themed bar called The Jolly Rodger, and one night, a musician comes in to play a set. He sticks around afterwords to talk to you.

“(Y/n) you’re late,” your boss scoffs at you. “Sorry, I’m sorry, I missed the bus,” you tell him. “Just get behind the bar and start tending,” he spits at you. So you hurry and throw your purse behind the counter and tie your apron around your waist. You emerge from below the counter and are swarmed with a flow of customers. “Can I get a rum and coke?” “Sure thing, coming right up,” you tell the customer before you. So for a while you’re swamped and you’re just making drink after drink after drink. Your boss Mitch comes up behind you and yells in your ear, “We have a live musician coming in so please when they get here, help him set up.” You look at him and say, “Mitch how am I supposed to bartend if you send me to do that?” “Figure it out,” he spits in your face and storms off. 5 minutes later you see someone clad in dark jeans and a leather jacket walk through the door holding a guitar case. “That must be him,” you mutter. So you make your way over to wear he awkwardly stands. “Hi,” you shake his hand, “You must be the live musician.” “I am,” he tells you in a thick what sounds to be irish accent. “Well, we’ll get you set up over here,” you motion to the stage, which is really only a small platform at the front of the bar. So you walk him over to it. “Alright I can take it from here, but can I get a bottle of water please,” he asks you. “Sure thing,” you tell him and turn away. You blush because you can feel his eyes on you as you walk away. You duck behind the bar and grab him a water. When you return you find him setting up two microphones, one for his voice and one for his guitar. “Here you go,” you tell him. “Thanks love,” he replies in his adorable accent. That makes you melt. “So what kind of music do you play,” you ask him. “Well mostly-“ you get cut off when your boss steps over to you and screams, “(Y/n) stop flirting and get your ass back to the bar, where you belong!” You blush a deep red, embarrassed by your boss screaming at you in front of this cute foreigner. “Well, I guess I better get back,” you tell him. “Alright, well keep your ears perked up, hopefully you can listen to me play, I think you’ll like what you hear love,” he smiles at you. All you do is nod sheepishly. “Ok,” you say. And with that you turn around and walk back to the bar.

10 minutes later you hear the radio cut off and your boss’s voice come through the microphone, “Alright all you guys we have a very special treat for y’all, requested by popular demand, the irish folksinger Killian Jones!” You look up and see him step out on the platform. “Thank you very much. I’m going to start out with one of the first songs I ever wrote. It’s called stay with me,” Killian sits down and pulls out his guitar. You take a sharp breath when he begins to sing and stares right at you. He sings about a loved one leaving you, and the lyrics bring a familiar sorrow to your heart. You smile back at him in encouragement. “Can I get a drink over here,” a rude customer yells and pulls you out of your daze. “Yes, I’m sorry, coming right up,” you turn to the customer.

A half hour later Killian says to the crowd, “I’m gonna take a short break, but as always ladies and gentleman, always tip your bartenders,” he points at you and winks. You blush in reply. So Killian walks off the platform and over towards you at the bar. “So, what’d you think?” he shyly asks you. You sigh and say honestly, “It was amazing!” “Well thank you. I’ll dedicate the next one for you, that is if you’ll tell me your name,” he smirks at you. “It’s (Y/n). (Y/n) (l/n).” He smiles back, “Well, (y/n) (l/n), I’m Killian, Killian Jones. It’s nice to meet you,” he shakes your hand. “Nice to meet you Killian. Can I get you anything to drink? On the house,” you ask him. “Sure love, I’ll take a whiskey, we irish men like the strong stuff,” he smirks. You nod and pour some whiskey in a short glass. “Thanks, cheers,” he raises his cup to you. “Cheers,” you tell him. He nods and walks back to his position on the platform. “Before he begins his next song, you look at the clock and realize it’s last call. “Last call,” you shout. So you’re swarmed by customers, but Killian waits for the crowd around you to thin out. “Alright, this next one goes out to the lovely lovely bartender here tonight, (y/n)!” The audience claps and Killian begins to play. He decides to sing a cover and begins to play “Can’t Sleep Love,” by Pentatonix. He gets into the song and you are completely moved by his performance. “Somebody wake up my heart Light me up Set fire to my soul, yeah (Uh huh) ‘Cause’ I can’t do it anymore Give me that can’t sleep love.”  He sings right at you and stares into your (e/c) eyes. You find yourself getting lost in his caribbean blue ones. “The kind I dream about all day The kind that keeps me up all night Gimme that can’t sleep love.” He finishes and stares at you. The applause goes on and on and on. When it finally dies down Killian says, “Thank you everybody. Now I’m gonna play some more original songs.” Throughout the rest of the night he stares at you so intensely. You don’t have much time to stare back because your boss keeps yelling at you. “(Y/n), you’ve been distracted all night and I’m sick of it. Give me half your tips!” “What, Mitch no, that’s my tips you can’t have them,” you look at him in disbelief. “Fork it over or you’re fired,” he holds his hand out. So you reluctantly shove the money over. “And also I forgot to tell you, you’re gonna stay after tonight and clean up and close up,” he tells you. “Now I’m off, I expect this place to be spotless tomorrow,” he walks past you towards the door and shoves you with his shoulder as he passes you.

So the crowd begins to fade, and only a few people are left listening to Killian sing at 11:30. You begin to wipe down the tables when Killian says, “This is my last song, so anyways thanks for having me at The Jolly Roger bar thanks for the hospitality, (y/n).” “You’re welcome,” you tell him and continue to wipe down tables. So he plays his last song and at the end, the last customer exits the bar. He stands up and begins to pack up his things. Afterwards he walks over to you at the bar and says, “Can I help?” “You really don’t have to do that,” you tell him, “You don’t have to stay.” “Nonsense I would love to help, besides when I left my roommate and his girlfriend were fighting and I’m sure they still are,” he chuckles. “Ok. Thanks,” you hand him a wet cloth and point to the tables. So he begins to wipe the tables down and you grab the broom and start sweeping. “So…” you say trying to make conversation, “How do you get ideas for your songs?” “Well, I just use real life experiences. I’ve had my heart broken before, I’ve gone through tough times, and I just channel that into my songwriting,” he casually nods at you. “Well,” you decide on whether or not you should go out on a limb and say what you’re going to say. You decide to say, “Any woman would be crazy to break your heart,” you tell him quietly. This time it’s his turn to blush. “So (y/n), now let me ask you a question. Why do you let your boss treat you that way, I saw him take your tips,” he genuinely asks you. You take a breath and say, “Well, he gave me a job when my mom died, he was friends with her, and I don’t have any other live relatives so I had to take it. And I just don’t see myself finding another sure thing so I stay,” you tell him. “Well I’m sorry about your mother love,” he pats your hand. “Thanks,” you look up at him. “You know I quite enjoy talking to you, and seeing as you’re done cleaning up, how about a drink,” he raises his eyebrows at you. “I’ll take you up on that,” you tell him. So you reach behind the counter and grab to glasses and a bottle of rum. He questions your drink choice with a look. “After all, this is a pirate themed bar,” you tell him.  “Well one could get confused seeing all the Christmas decorations,” he laughs. You pour some rum in both of your glasses. “So, what’s life like for a musician?” you playfully ask. “Well, just a lot of scrambling for money. I try to scrape up gigs here and there and sometimes you have to travel around a lot for new gigs. But I’ve been settled here for about a year now. I mostly like it here, it is a charming little town,” he tells you. “Im glad you like it,” you smile in reply. “Well there wasn’t much to like here, but I think I just found myself quite the treasure,” he moves closer to you where the two of you sit at the bar. “You’re flattery will get you know where,” you smirk at him. He ignores your statement and says, “What’s something that no one else knows about you,” he leans in and says in a soft voice. You don’t know why you decide to tell him, you just feel like you can trust him. “Well, when I was a young girl, I was attacked by a dog and that’s how I got this scar,” you point to the scar on your upper lip. “But I still love dogs,” you add. “Well good, I was gonna say if you didn’t like dogs I’m out of here,” he teases you. He looks at the scar and says, “It’s beautiful, our scars, that’s what makes us beautiful.”  “So how’d you get that one,” you point at the line on his cheek. “Well, I hit my face on the corner of my coffee table as a young lad when I was being a crazy little one,” he laughs heartily. “Well I think it’s handsome,” you tell him. So you sit in some deep conversation and some comfortable silence. ‘Wow, look at the time, I better be closing up,” your tell him. “It’s only 12:30,” he tells you. “Come on,” you walk towards the door, “I’m sure that you’re roommate and his girlfriend are done fighting.” You open the door and find fresh snow falling. “Wow it’s beautiful,” he comes up behind you and stares out. “It really is,” you reply. You stare at the beautiful scene before you and notice a lonely green pickup truck at the end of the parking lot. “Is that yours?” when he doesn’t reply you look behind you at him and find him staring up at the doorway. With an awkward chuckle he points to the mistletoe above your heads. “Mistletoe,” you gasp. “Indeed it is,” he chuckles again. You blush and shrug, as if asking him what he wants to do about it. In respond he brushes the hair out of your face and behind your ear. He leans in and you close your eyes, waiting eagerly for his lips. Fireworks light up inside you as his lips meet yours. They feel like they’re meant to always be on yours. He casually coaxes your mouth open with his tongue and traces your teeth lightly with his tongue. He moves his hands out of your hair and down around your waist as he pulls you into him. you plant your hands on the collar of his leather jacket and pull his lips harder onto yours. Your hands move up and run through his hair, the soft, short hairs, sliding through your fingertips. Your lips grow hot with passion and you smile through the kiss. Suddenly you feel the need for air and pull back. “That was…” you are at a loss for words. “Amazing,” he finishes for you. “Amazing,” you repeat. He wraps your arms around you and pulls you into his chest. You inhale his deep scent of spice, leather, and the rum you drank. He pulls back and drinks you in with his eyes. “Yea, I think I’m gonna stick around,” he smiles at you. “I would hope so,” you joke. So you walk him to his car and he says, “Do you want a ride home?” “I’d love one,” you reply. So he reaches around you to open the door of his truck, but is surprised when you pull his lips on yours again. So you stand in the snow, you and Killian gently kissing, the snow falling around you. When you pull back he smiles and opens the door the rest of the way. You climb in his truck and drive off into the snow, hand in hand.

[radiohorizon]

38 years later

200 things you can put in my ask 200: My crush’s name is: Lacey😛😍
199: I was born in: 1999
198: I am really: short, tired, sarcastic, idk??
197: My cellphone company is: verizon
196: My eye color is: blue/grey
195: My shoe size is: 3 in kids, 5 in womens
194: My ring size is: i have no idea, probably small but not too small cause i got far fingers
193: My height is: 5'1
192: I am allergic to: sulfa drugs and grass
191: My 1st car was: dont have one
190: My 1st job was: waitress at a local restaurant 
189: Last book you read: King Lear in school but Clockwork Princess for fun
188: My bed is: my favorite and super comfy and my best friend literally comes over just to nap in it
187: My pet: 2 cats, 1 dog
186: My best friend: Andrew, Elizabeth, Abby, Katie, Kristy, Annabelle, Kyle, Hailey, Stevie, Bea
185: My favorite shampoo is: Suave Ocean
184: Xbox or ps3: xbox
183: Piggy banks are: idrc about them??
182: In my pockets: dont have pockeys rn
181: On my calendar: nothings
180: Marriage is: in my future
179: Spongebob can: idrc cause idc
178: My mom: is my favorite person
177: The last three songs I bought were? Wasted youth by fletcher In too deep by the sweeplings Is there somewhere by halsey 176: Last YouTube video watched: “50 things about me” by Nina Jablonska
175: How many cousins do you have? A shit ton
174: Do you have any siblings? 1 sister and 1 brother that ive never met
173: Are your parents divorced? No and i never see them getting divorced. Theyre honestly the only reason i still believe in love
172: Are you taller than your mom? We’re the same height actually
171: Do you play an instrument? Nope
170: What did you do yesterday? Went to school, studied, talked to Lacey, went to sleep

[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: i dunno
168: Luck: yes
167: Fate: yes
166: Yourself: lmao no
165: Aliens: yes
164: Heaven: i think
163: Hell: yes
162: God: i believe in something
161: Horoscopes: im not sure
160: Soul mates: yes
159: Ghosts: yes
158: Gay Marriage: duh
157: War: i dont really know
156: Orbs: yes
155: Magic: yes

[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs
153: Drunk or High: high
152: Phone or Online: depends
151: Red heads or Black haired: dont care
150: Blondes or Brunettes: dont care
149: Hot or cold: cold
148: Summer or winter: summer
147: Autumn or Spring: autumn
146: Chocolate or vanilla: depends because i love chocolate but it gives me headaches
145: Night or Day: night
144: Oranges or Apples: oranges
143: Curly or Straight hair: honestly dont care
142: McDonalds or Burger King: burger king for burgers, mcdonalds for snack wrap
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk chocolate
140: Mac or PC: PC
139: Flip flops or high heals: depends
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor
137: Coke or Pepsi: coke
136: Hillary or Obama: OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA 
135: Burried or cremated: buried in the cemetery up the road from where i live
134: Singing or Dancing: dancing
133: Coach or Chanel: dont care
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who are they?
131: Small town or Big city: small town
130: Wal-Mart or Target: how bout kohls
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: adam Sandler
128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure because im reallllly ticklish on my feet and i end up flinching the whole time
127: East Coast or West Coast: only ever been on the east coast so idrk
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas
125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate
124: Disney or Six Flags: disney!!!
123: Yankees or Red Sox: how bout Orioles

[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: i respect the people fighting for our country and for others, but i wish everyone could just stop killing eachother
121: George Bush: gross
120: Gay Marriage: Gaaaaayyyyyy
119: The presidential election: grosser
118: Abortion: no judgement on whether or not someone decides to get one. Personally i dont think i could, but will always vote pro choice
117: MySpace: never had one so idk
116: Reality TV: can be entertaining but usually really dumb
115: Parents: i love them more than anything
114: Back stabbers: fuck you
113: Ebay: sketchy
112: Facebook: people are annoying and i hate that i live in hick central
111: Work: dont have ajob but am trying to get one
110: My Neighbors: since 3 of my best friends are my neighbors, i guess theyre alright
109: Gas Prices: way too fucking high
108: Designer Clothes: dont care about them UNLESS its converse because thats my shit right there
107: College: start it in 5 months :(
106: Sports: love em but suck at em
105: My family: my rock and support, but they piss me off a lot
104: The future: scares the fuck out of me

[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: a few ninutes ago
102: Last time you ate: few hours ago
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: about 2-3 weeks ago at the gym
100: Cried in front of someone: a few weeks ago i cried in front of abby because i found out kelsey has a girlfriend
99: Went to a movie theater: two weekends ago and saw Get Out and holy shit its good
98: Took a vacation: 2-3 years ago
97: Swam in a pool: 2 years ago i think
96: Changed a diaper: never
95: Got my nails done: little over a month ago
94: Went to a wedding: last summer
93: Broke a bone: never
92: Got a peircing: last spring
91: Broke the law: never i think?
90: Texted: about 2 seconds ago i texted Lacey

[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: My lunch table
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my cats and my moms hugs
87: The last movie I saw: i saw get out in theaters but watched thunderbirds for the millionth time in art so im a happy camper
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: getting the fuck away from this place and these memories
85: The thing im not looking forward to: graduating, starting college, moving away, leaving my friends, leaving my animals, growing up, the list could go on forever
84: People call me: elizabeth, beth, bethany, lizzy, liz, bethyboo, bethers, bethy,
83: The most difficult thing to do is: move on and let go
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope
81: My zodiac sign is: pisces
80: The first person i talked to today was: lacey or bea idrk
79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: no one, im pretty good with keeping a good face on
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: i have no idea
76: Right now I am talking to: Lace💜👑
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: homicide detective or BAU
74: I have/will get a job: soon hopefully
73: Tomorrow: school, test, paint, facetime this beautiful girl, sleep
72: Today: school, test, painted, studied
71: Next Summer: senior weeek🤙🏻 and hopefully just simple hangouts with friends
70: Next Weekend: Stevenson university visit
69: I have these pets: 2 cats (sadie and ziva) and 1 dog (westen oliver)
68: The worst sound in the world: hearing people chew or breathe hard
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my ex
66: People that make you happy: my friends and parents
65: Last time I cried: last night
64: My friends are: the only reason im alive
63: My computer is: a Windows something
62: My School: sucks
61: My Car: doesnt exist
60: I lose all respect for people who: judge others with no reason and refuse to be nice
59: The movie I cried at was: if I stay and hunger games trilogy
58: Your hair color is: dirty blonde/ light brown
57: TV shows you watch: criminal minds, shameless, the 100, friends, the fosters, lie to me, NCIS, scooby doo
56: Favorite web site: tumblr 
55: Your dream vacation: a lake house
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: recovery after my heart surgery and when they had to take out my chest tubes
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium
52: My room is: messy but my favorite place
51: My favorite celebrity is: jennifer lawrence or ryan Reynolds or josh hucherson or Noel Fisher
50: Where would you like to be: childhood
49: Do you want children: yes
48: Ever been in love: ye
47: Who’s your best friend: the twins, fergs, abby, rat pack, stevie, hailey, bea
46: More guy friends or girl friends: girl friends
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: gaining more flexibility
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: jarred
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: not really
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: sorta
41: Have you pre-named your children: yepp. Daesin, Fiona, tegan and ryan
40: Last person I got mad at: my dad
39: I would like to move to: maryland or deleware
38: I wish I was a professional: dancer

[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: gummy bears and kit kats or smarties
36: Vehicle: jeep Cherokee 
35: President: OBAMA
34: State visited: Florida
33: Cellphone provider: dunno
32: Athlete: Misty Copeland
31: Actor: Ryan Reynolds and Noel Fisher
30: Actress: Jennifer Lawrence
29: Singer: Amy Lee
28: Band: Evanescence
27: Clothing store: KOHLS
26: Grocery store: giant
25: TV show: shameless
24: Movie: thunderbirds or chitty chitty bang bang
23: Website: tumblr
22: Animal: monkey
21: Theme park: disney
20: Holiday: halloween
19: Sport to watch: allstar cheerleading or soccer
18: Sport to play: soccer
17: Magazine: dont have one but if i did i guess people?
16: Book: WAYYY too many
15: Day of the week: wednesday
14: Beach: bethany beach
13: Concert attended: evanescence even tho i couldnt see shit
12: Thing to cook: grilled cheese
11: Food: cheeseburger
10: Restaurant: green turtle
9: Radio station: 106.5
8: Yankee candle scent: i dunno
7: Perfume: hollister or ed hardy
6: Flower: rose
5: Color: purple
4: Talk show host: my girl ellen
3: Comedian: john Maloney, kevin heart, illiza shelshinger 
2: Dog breed: golden retriever 
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Yeppers

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"I can tell you it is this as someone on your page, me," someone said in my mind who is friends w Karla, her name is Sharon. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matthew_3:12 "Someone knows what this did when you put this there, their false flesh but appearance," it seemed like the devil said part of it or something, maybe taking people's words, others saying that, idk. https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=326345334456616&id=100012434566027&notif_t=group_comment_reply&notif_id=1498941844036929&ref=m_notif [Intro] We at war We at war with terrorism, racism But most of all we at war with ourselves [Hook] (Jesus walk) God show me the way because the Devil tryna break me down (Jesus walk with me) [Verse 1] You know what the Midwest is? Young and restless Where restless (niggas) might snatch your necklace And next these (niggas) might jack your Lexus Somebody tell these (niggas) who Kanye West is I walk through the valley of the Chi where death is Top floor the view alone will leave you breathless *gasps* Try to catch it *gasps* it's kinda hard Getting choked by detectives, yeah, yeah, now check the method They be askin' us questions, harass and arrest us Sayin' "We eat pieces of shit like you for breakfast" Huh? Y'all eat pieces of shit? What's the basis? We ain't going nowhere but got suits and cases A trunk full of coke, rental car from Avis My mama used to say only Jesus can save us Well mama I know I act a fool But I'll be gone 'til November, I got packs to move I hope God show me the way because the Devil's tryna break me down (Jesus walk with me) The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now (Jesus walk) And I don't think there's nothin' I can do now to right my wrongs (Jesus walk with me) I wanna talk to God but I'm afraid cause we ain't spoke in so long (Jesus walk) God show me the way because the Devil's tryna break me down (Jesus walk with me) The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now (Jesus walk) And I don't think there's nothin' I can do now to right my wrongs (Jesus walk with me) I wanna talk to God but I'm afraid cause we ain't spoke in so long So long, so long (Jesus walk with me) [Verse 2] To the hustlers, killers, murderers, drug dealers, even the scrippers (Jesus walks for them) To the victims of welfare feel we livin' in Hell here, hell yeah (Jesus walks for them) Now, hear ye, hear ye, want to see Thee more clearly I know he hear me when my feet get weary Cause we're the almost nearly extinct We rappers is role models: we rap, we don't think I ain't here to argue about his facial features Or here to convert atheists into believers I'm just tryna say the way school need teachers The way Kathie Lee needed Regis, that's the way I need Jesus So here go my single dog, radio needs this They say you can rap about anything except for Jesus That means guns, sex, lies, videotape But if I talk about God my record won't get played, huh? Well if this take away from my spins Which'll probably take away from my ends Then I hope this take away from my sins And bring the day that I'm dreamin' about Next time I'm in the club, everybody screamin' out God show me the way because the Devil's tryna break me down (Jesus walk with me) The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now [Produced by Kanye West] https://genius.com/Kanye-west-jesus-walks-lyrics Oh my god he said devil. I tink it is literal. I'm hearing it is. I assumed so, for the record. #hesaiddevil! https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=326461514444998&id=100012434566027&fs=4 He sed devul!!!!!!!!!!! https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=326461514444998&id=100012434566027&fs=4 A post not posting again. It's that thing, it's to be unmentionable, mysteriously so. I'll put the post as a comment. "I'm not sure what to do. I can't do that. If you do that," the devil said of me reporting the post wasn't showing n then trying to post it still. I'll try to put it as a comment on here. "Someone knows this post is embarassing, so," the devil said of this that I just tried to post. It's embarassed that it's so taboo n attacked to talk about the devil Herr [here, auto changed by the devil to Herr] n the post is just a Kanye West song where he talks about Jesus n mentions the devil. He is to be not popular here to some degree, he is an attacked figure here, i guess he has a deal to be a rapper n not be poor, idk. But here was all i was gonna put in a post, i tried posting it, it didn't show up. .... He sed devul!!!!!!!!!!! https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=326461514444998&id=100012434566027&fs=4 "No. This is embarassing this is so less than here. .... attacked for talking about the devil," the devil said. It probably tried to take some of its words back. Wow who knew laws were really getting down n dirty like this, you don't think of it, it is mentioned there are ages where someone can be guilty of sex w a minor, etc. But weird laws really get into the anus n other kinds of sex people have. "I was saying that," the person said whose page I found this on, Paul Chauvin. Wow -- the devil regularly now takes off text I write to share things like this. Here following is a copy of what I originally wrote to post this here from the article which I saw on someone's page n then followed the link to the online publication to read it on their page. Here's what I said originally n it's cute off here by the devil. "I don't know what to do. I have to stop doing that," the devil said. Here's what I wrote. .... Wow who knew laws were really getting down n dirty like this, you don't think of it, it is mentioned there are ages where someone can be guilty of sex w a minor, etc. But weird laws really get into the anus n other kinds of sex people have. "I was saying that," the person said whose page I found this on, Paul Chauvin.

[trufflez17]

1-200 go!

200: My crush’s name is: Nick
199: I was born in: 1997 
198: I am really: intoxicated rn
197: My cellphone company is: AT&T
196: My eye color is: blue
195: My shoe size is: too big
194: My ring size is: haha
193: My height is: 5 ft 9 in
192: I am allergic to: pineapples 😭
191: My 1st car was: 1999 Ford Explorer
190: My 1st job was: a cashier
189: Last book you read: I, Ripper by Stephen Hunter
188: My bed is: a Queen size and I LOVE IT
187: My pet: is basically my child and I love her so much
186: My best friend: I have 3 and I love them sm 
185: My favorite shampoo is: uh....I can’t remember
184: Xbox or ps3: Xbox
183: Piggy banks are: so cute
182: In my pockets: I’m wearing women jeans, there are no pockets
181: On my calendar: dates of trips, due dates, work times
180: Marriage is: (personal view) something special and I feel should be shared with one person cause if you marry me, ya ass stuck with me
179: Spongebob can: suck one
178: My mom: is funny
177: The last three songs I bought were? Life Worth Living by Laurel River by Bishop BriggsSwag by Danielle Bradbery
176: Last YouTube video watched: no idea tbh
175: How many cousins do you have? Too many
174: Do you have any siblings? Too many lol but 4 that I know of
173: Are your parents divorced? Yeeeep
172: Are you taller than your mom? Way taller 
171: Do you play an instrument? Nah
170: What did you do yesterday? Came back home [ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: eh
168: Luck: yes
167: Fate: yep
166: Yourself: ha, some days
165: Aliens: yeah!
164: Heaven: eh
163: Hell: lol yeah
162: God: I believe there’s multiple Gods
161: Horoscopes: low key
160: Soul mates: I have a weird explanation in this but ultimately yes
159: Ghosts: yes
158: Gay Marriage: Hell Yeah
157: War: eh
156: Orbs: yep
155: Magic: kinda[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: kisses
153: Drunk or High: drunk
152: Phone or Online: phone
151: Red heads or Black haired: hmmm....
150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
149: Hot or cold: Cold
148: Summer or winter: Winter
147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn
146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
145: Night or Day: Day
144: Oranges or Apples: Apples
143: Curly or Straight hair: both?
142: McDonalds or Burger King: neither omg
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate 
140: Mac or PC: Mac
139: Flip flops or high heals: Flip Flops
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and poor
137: Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
136: Hillary or Obama: Obama
135: Burried or cremated: Buried
134: Singing or Dancing: Singing
133: Coach or Chanel: uh?
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who?
131: Small town or Big city: somewhere in the middle? 
130: Wal-Mart or Target: Wal Mart
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Adam Sandler
128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure
127: East Coast or West Coast: West Coast
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Birthday
125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers
124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney
123: Yankees or Red Sox: neither tbh[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: I don’t think it’s necessary but I mean, if that’s the last thing to do, then okay. 
121: George Bush: he did 9/11
120: Gay Marriage: fully fucking support it and you can fuck off if you’re against it cause wtf does it involve you? 
119: The presidential election: a fucking Cheeto won, does that tell you?
118: Abortion: Pro Choice
117: MySpace: I low key miss it
116: Reality TV: I haaaaate it
115: Parents: love my mom, my dad can suck one
114: Back stabbers: karma’s a bitch baby
113: Ebay: whO is she?
112: Facebook: My daily dose of gossip tbh
111: Work: I hate that shit
110: My Neighbors: I never see them sooooo
109: Gas Prices: are INSANE
108: Designer Clothes: I’m too broke
107: College: I’m struggling but I’m here
106: Sports: eh
105: My family: moms side: LOVE dads side: fuck em
104: The future: well, we’ll see[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: Yesterday 
102: Last time you ate: like 20 minutes ago
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: tonight 
100: Cried in front of someone: it’s been a minute
99: Went to a movie theater: last week
98: Took a vacation: end of February
97: Swam in a pool: last summer
96: Changed a diaper: two days ago omfg
95: Got my nails done: 3 weeks ago
94: Went to a wedding: I think 2016
93: Broke a bone: never
92: Got a peircing: 2 months ago
91: Broke the law: speed everyday lol
90: Texted: a few minutes ago[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: my bff’s
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my step moms mashed potatoes
87: The last movie I saw: The Greatest Showman
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: going on vacation next week
85: The thing im not looking forward to: work
84: People call me: bitchy, mean, the normal shit
83: The most difficult thing to do is: be completely open
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never
81: My zodiac sign is: IMMA VIRGO
80: The first person i talked to today was: Nick (I responded to his message)
79: First time you had a crush: like 5th grade?
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: my best friend
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: 10 minutes ago
76: Right now I am talking to: Ashley and Sarah cause we’re all pretty fucked
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: be an adult I suppose
74: I have/will get a job: I have one I hate
73: Tomorrow: is Sunday
72: Today: is Saturday
71: Next Summer: I’m going to Cali
70: Next Weekend: I’ll be packing for Hilton Head
69: I have these pets: My Shelley Bean
68: The worst sound in the world: NAIL FILERS
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Myself
66: People that make you happy: my best friends and Nick
65: Last time I cried: Earlier today
64: My friends are: LIT
63: My computer is: a POS
62: My School: is alright 
61: My Car: is also a POS
60: I lose all respect for people who: put blame on victims, bash on people based on race, religion, sexuality, gender, etc..
59: The movie I cried at was: Lone Survivor
58: Your hair color is: reddish brown
57: TV shows you watch: Sons of Anarchy, Shadowhunters
56: Favorite web site: Tumblr and YouTube
55: Your dream vacation: Explore Europe
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when I had a fucking cyst leak in my ovaries
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium well
52: My room is: a mess
51: My favorite celebrity is: Theo Rossi and Jennifer Lawrence
50: Where would you like to be: anywhere but here
49: Do you want children: maybe
48: Ever been in love: if that’s what you want to call it
47: Who’s your best friend: Ashley, Sarah, and Destinee
46: More guy friends or girl friends: girl friends
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: my pupper 
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Nick
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: lol no
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: nope
41: Have you pre-named your children: my son, yes
40: Last person I got mad at: my father
39: I would like to move to: Texas or Colorado 
38: I wish I was a professional: pet cuddler[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: Kit Kats 
36: Vehicle: Ford everything
35: President: Obama
34: State visited: Nevada
33: Cellphone provider: AT&T
32: Athlete: Nia Jax and Roman Reigns (WWE wrestlers)
31: Actor: Hugh Jackman
30: Actress: Jennifer Lawrence
29: Singer: Brantley Gilbert
28: Band: Nickelback
27: Clothing store: Torrid
26: Grocery store: Wal Mart
25: TV show: Sons of Anarchy
24: Movie: The Greatest Showman
23: Website: YouTube or Tumblr
22: Animal: Dogs
21: Theme park: don’t have one
20: Holiday: my birthday
19: Sport to watch: Football
18: Sport to play: basketball
17: Magazine: don’t have one
16: Book: The House Of Night Series
15: Day of the week: Tuesday
14: Beach: Palm Coast
13: Concert attended: Nickelback
12: Thing to cook: Chicken
11: Food: Chinese food
10: Restaurant: No idea honestly
9: Radio station: don’t listen to it
8: Yankee candle scent: uuuuhhhhh
7: Perfume: something from Bath & Body Works
6: Flower: Tulips
5: Color: Red is Blue
4: Talk show host: Ellen DeGeneres (intoxicated, can’t spell) 
3: Comedian: Gabrielle Iglesias
2: Dog breed: Blue Heelers and Pit Bulls
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? YeeepThanks anon

[kellerybird]

Tagged by @wearethenewknights Sorry I took so long to do this I’m just garbage ahah

Rules: Answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions.

1. Coke or Pepsi : Coke all the fuckin way get that Pepsi shit outta my facE

2. Disney or Dreamworks : Mmmm both have their strengths. I love dreamworks’s attention to detail but Disney has some killer songs yanno

3. Coffee or Tea : generally if given the option I’ll have tea rather than coffee, when I drink coffee it needs lots of cream and sugar and idk it’s just a pain I can drink tea without any sweeteners

4. Books or Movies : I suppose movies since I can do other things while watching them. I don’t have much time for reading now with my job and art.

5. Windows or Mac : *windows start up noise*

6. DC or Marvel : Meeeegh i guess Marvel? Their movies are better than DC’s imo, I don’t really care for either’s comics (oddly enough given I make my own comics)

7. Xbox or Playstation : i think GTA V is on the Xbox so I’m gonna say Xbox. I’m not much of a gamer so I don’t really have a preference (nintendoooooooo)

8. Dragon Age or Mass Effect : Dragon Effect: Mass Age (again not a gamer tho I feel I’d like dragon age more? It just seems more up my alley than mass effect from what I’ve seen on tumbrle)

9. Night Owl or Early Rise : I’ve never been a morning person I’ve always stayed up late and slept late as far back as I can remember. I tend to be more productive at night anyway

10. Cards or Chess : dear gods this is gonna make me sound so old and weird but I actually like dominoes?? I’d always play dominoes when my grandparents came over. My mom and I did play solitaire a lot together tho 


11. Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate!!! Unless we’re talking about vanilla bean ice cream, that’s a different story entirely

12. Vans or Converse : I like converse tbh. I had vans as a kid and they were ok, I just feel converse can be worn with more clothing options??

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar : What The frick frack, tic tac, nick knack, paddy whack, snick snack, back pack, crick crack, flick flack, click clack are these

14. Fluff or Angst : Fluff

15. Beach or Forest : mmmm I think right now my preference is the beach, I kinda live in a forestry area and it’s not a great one lemme tell you

16. Dogs or Cats : cats!! I’ve never been a huge dog person

17. Clear Skies or Rain : Clear skies!! Or even cloudy, I love clouds. I’m so sick of rain we had rain for like a month and a half

18. Cooking or Eating Out : ironically I like eating out at places where you can cook your own food

19. Spicy Food or Mild Food : I’m starting to like/actually be able to eat spicy food and ohmygoodness my white ass has been missing out on fantastic food

20. Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas : Halloween!! The one holiday I actually enjoy that I don’t think is ridiculous like Valentine’s Day (when it’s probably one of the more ridiculous holidays out there)

21. Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot : Cold because warming up is easier than cooling off after a certain point.

22. If you could have a superpower, what would it be? : Flight 


23. Animation or Live Action: animation

24. Paragon or Renegade : *x-files theme music*

25. Baths or Showers : showers. The last time I took a bath I had a panic attack

26. Team Cap or Team Iron Man : Neither really. I don’t particularly care for either one

27. Fantasy or Sci-Fi : fantasy!!!

28. Do you have three or four favourite quotes? If so, what are they : “constant sunshine makes a desert” “nevertheless, she persisted” “you can lead a horse to water but you cannot make it drink”

29. YouTube or Netflix : Netflix because it doesn’t have ads lmao

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson : Given I’ve only had time to read two Percy Jackson books I have to go with Harry Potter by default here

31. When You Feel Accomplished : when I go to sleep not feeling like a piece of decomposing garbage

32. Star Wars or Star Trek : mmmm i dont really have a strong opinion on either one right now

33. Paperback Books or Hardback Books : hardback, Im always worried I’ll ruin paperback covers by accidentally tearing them off

34. Handwriting or Typing : typing because my handwriting sucks if I don’t concentrate on making it legible

35. Velvet or Satin : satin I guess? Velvet has always felt weird to me idk it’s a weird texture imo

36. Video Games or Movies : movies, you generally don’t die if you stop paying attention for five seconds

37. Would you rather be the dragon or own the dragon ? Be a dragon, then I could just sit in my room and hoard webcomics and cute fictional boys and no one can question me without getting eaten

38. Sunrise or sunset : I like sunsets if there are clouds out, it makes the sky more interesting and colorful I think

39. What’s your favourite song ? Right now it’s the ending song from the Little Witch Academia tv series

40. Horror Movies yes or no : ABSOLUTELY THR FUCK NOT

41. Long hair or short hair : I tend to keep my hair short lately, but I tend to like longer hair on others

42. Opera or Theatre : Theatre, I’ve never been to/had any real exposure to opera outside other media

43. Violin or piano? : for listening to I like both, for playing I’d like to learn the piano

New question! 44. What’s one thing you know you’d eat the entire package of if someone left it alone with you? For me it’s definitely baklava~

As always my optional tag victims are @kirschteins-delivery-service @moe-moe-wesson @destinationfarstar @cissf and @erupan

[hannah-mic]

With an awkward chuckle, he pointed to the mistletoe above their heads. I bet this one is gonna turn out super cute 😊

Here we go! PS- it’s my first AU pic hope you like it! 

Killian Jones x reader imagine

Summary: AU  during Christmas time where you are a struggling bartender at a pirate themed bar called The Jolly Rodger, and one night, a musician comes in to play a set. He sticks around afterwords to talk to you.

“(Y/n) you’re late,” your boss scoffs at you. “Sorry, I’m sorry, I missed the bus,” you tell him. “Just get behind the bar and start tending,” he spits at you. So you hurry and throw your purse behind the counter and tie your apron around your waist. You emerge from below the counter and are swarmed with a flow of customers. “Can I get a rum and coke?” “Sure thing, coming right up,” you tell the customer before you. So for a wile you’re swamped and you’re just making drink after drink after drink. Your boss Mitch comes up behind you and yells in your ear, “We have a live musician coming in so please when they get here, help him set up.” You look at him and say, “Mitch how am I supposed to bartend if you send me to do that?” “Figure it out,” he spits in your face and storms off. 5 minutes later you see someone clad in dark jeans and a leather jacket walk through the door holding a guitar case. “That must be him,” you mutter. So you make your way over to wear he awkwardly stands. “Hi,” you shake his hand, “You must be the live musician.” “I am,” he tells you in a thick what sounds to be irish accent. “Well, we’ll get you set up over here,” you motion to the stage, which is really only a small platform at the front of the bar. So you walk him over to it. “Alright I can take it from here, but can I get a bottle of water please,” he asks you. “Sure thing,” you tell him and turn away. You blush because you can feel his eyes on you as you walk away. You duck behind the bar and grab him a water. When you return you find him setting up two microphones, one for his voice and one for his guitar. “Here you go,” you tell him. “Thanks love,” he replies in his adorable accent. That makes you melt. “So what kind of music do you play,” you ask him. “Well mostly-“ you get cut off when your boss steps over to you and screams, “(Y/n) stop flirting and get your ass back to the bar, where you belong!” You blush a deep red, embarrassed by your boss screaming at you in front of this cute foreigner. “Well, I guess I better get back,” you tell him. “Alright, well keep your ears perked up, hopefully you can listen to me play, I think you’ll like what you hear love,” he smiles at you. All you do is nod sheepishly. “Ok,” you say. And with that you turn around and walk back to the bar.

10 minutes later you hear the radio cut off and your boss’s voice come through the microphone, “Alright all you guys we have a very special treat for y’all, requested by popular demand, the irish folksinger Killian Jones!” You look up and see him step out on the platform. “Thank you very much. I’m going to start out with one of the first songs I ever wrote. It’s called stay with me,” Killian sits down and pulls out his guitar. You take a sharp breath when he begins to sing and stares right at you. He sings about a loved one leaving you, and the lyrics bring a familiar sorrow to your heart. You smile back at him in encouragement. “Can I get a drink over here,” a rude customer yells and pulls you out of your daze. “Yes, I’m sorry, coming right up,” you turn to the customer.

A half hour later Killian says to the crowd, “I’m gonna take a short break, but as always ladies and gentleman, always tip your bartenders,” he points at you and winks. You blush in reply. So Killian walks off the platform and over towards you at the bar. “So, what’d you think?” he shyly asks you. You sigh and say honestly, “It was amazing!” “Well thank you. I’ll dedicate the next one for you, that is if you’ll tell me your name,” he smirks at you. “It’s (Y/n). (Y/n) (l/n).” He smiles back, “Well, (y/n) (l/n), I’m Killian, Killian Jones. It’s nice to meet you,” he shakes your hand. “Nice to meet you Killian. Can I get you anything to drink? On the house,” you ask him. “Sure love, I’ll take a whiskey, we irish men like the strong stuff,” he smirks. You nod and pour some whiskey in a short glass. “Thanks, cheers,” he raises his cup to you. “Cheers,” you tell him. He nods and walks back to his position on the platform. “Before he begins his next song, you look at the clock and realize it’s last call. “Last call,” you shout. So you’re swarmed by customers, but Killian waits for the crowd around you to thin out. “Alright, this next one goes out to the lovely lovely bartender here tonight, (y/n)!” The audience claps and Killian begins to play. He decides to sing a cover and begins to play “Can’t Sleep Love,” by Pentatonix. He gets into the song and you are completely moved by his performance. “Somebody wake up my heart Light me up Set fire to my soul, yeah (Uh huh)'Cause' I can't do it anymore Give me that can’t sleep love.”  He sings right at you and stares into your (e/c) eyes. You find yourself getting lost in his caribbean blue ones. “The kind I dream about all dayThe kind that keeps me up all nightGimme that can't sleep love.” He finishes and stares at you. The applause goes on and on and on. When it finally dies down Killian says, “Thank you everybody. No I’m gonna play some more original songs.” Throughout the rest of the night he stares at you so intensely. You don’t have much time to stare back because your boss keeps yelling at you. “(Y/n), you’ve been distracted all night and I’m sick of it. Give me half your tips!” “What, Mitch no, that’s my tips you can’t have them,” you look at him in disbelief. “Fork it over or you’re fired,” he holds his hand out. So you reluctantly shove the money over. “And also I forgot to tell you, you’re gonna stay after tonight and clean up and close up,” he tells you. “Now I’m off, I expect this place to be spotless tomorrow,” he walks past you towards the door and shoves you with his shoulder as he passes you.

So the crowd begins to fade, and only a few people are left listening to Killian sing at 11:30. You begin to wipe down the tables when Killian says, “This is my last song, so anyways thanks for having me at The Jolly Rodger bar thanks for the hospitality, (y/n).” “You’re welcome,” you tell him and continue to wipe down tables. So he plays his last song and at the end, the last customer exits the bar. He stands up and begins to pack up his things. Afterwards he walks over to you at the bar and says, “Can I help?” “You really don’t have to do that,” you tell him, “You don’t have to stay.” “Nonsense I would love to help, besides when I left my roommate and his girlfriend were fighting and I’m sure they still are,” he chuckles. “Ok. Thanks,” you hand him a wet cloth and point to the tables. So he begins to wipe the tables down and you grab the broom and start sweeping. “So…” you say trying to make conversation, “How do you get ideas for your songs?” “Well, I just use real life experiences. I’ve had my heart broken before, I’ve gone through tough times, and I just channel that into my songwriting,” he casually nods at you. “Well,” you decide on whether or not you should go out on a limb and say what you’re going to say. You decide to say, “Any woman would be crazy to break your heart,” you tell him quietly. This time it’s his turn to blush. “So (y/n), now let me ask you a question. Why do you let your boss treat you that way, I saw him take your tips,” he genuinely asks you. You take a breath and say, “Well, he gave me a job when my mom died, he was friends with her, and I don’t have any other live relatives so I had to take it. And I just don’t see myself finding another sure thing so I stay,” you tell him. “Well I’m sorry about your mother love,” he pats your hand. “Thanks,” you look up at him. “You know I quite enjoy talking to you, and seeing as you’re done cleaning up, how about a drink,” he raises his eyebrows at you. “I’ll take you up on that,” you tell him. So you reach behind the counter and grab to glasses and a bottle of rum. He questions your drink choice with a look. “After all, this is a pirate themed bar,” you tell him.  “Well one could get confused seeing all the Christmas decorations,” he laughs. You pour some rum in both of your glasses. “So, what’s life like for a musician?” you playfully ask. “Well, just a lot of scrambling for money. I try to scrape up gigs here and there and sometimes you have to travel around a lot for new gigs. But I’ve been settled here for about a year now. I mostly like it here, it is a charming little town,” he tells you. “Im glad you like it,” you smile in reply. “Well there wasn’t much to like here, but I think I just found myself quite the treasure,” he moves closer to you where the two of you sit at the bar. “You’re flattery will get you know where,” you smirk at him. He ignores your statement and says, “What’s something that no one else knows about you,” he leans in and says in a soft voice. You don’t know why you decide to tell him, you just feel like you can trust him. “Well, when I was a young girl, I was attacked by a dog and that’s how I got this scar,” you point to the scar on your upper lip. “But I still love dogs,” you add. “Well good, I was gonna say if you didn’t like dogs I’m out of here,” he teases you. He looks at the scar and says, “It’s beautiful, our scars, that’s what makes us beautiful.”  “So how’d you get that one,” you point at the line on his cheek. “Well, I hit my face on the corner of my coffee table as a young lad when I was being a crazy little one,” he laughs heartily. “Well I think it’s handsome,” you tell him. So you sit in some deep conversation and some comfortable silence. ‘Wow, look at the time, I better be closing up,” your tell him. “It’s only 12:30,” he tells you. “Come on,” you walk towards the door, “I’m sure that you’re roommate and his girlfriend are done fighting.” You open the door and find fresh snow falling. “Wow it’s beautiful,” he comes up behind you and stares out. “It really is,” you reply. You stare at the beautiful scene before you and notice a lonely green pickup truck at the end of the parking lot. “Is that yours?” when he doesn’t reply you look behind you at him and find him staring up at the doorway. With an awkward chuckle he points to the mistletoe above your heads. “Mistletoe,” you gasp. “Indeed it is,” he chuckles again. You blush and shrug, as if asking him what he wants to do about it. In respond he brushes the hair out of your face and behind your ear. He leans in and you close your eyes, waiting eagerly for his lips. Fireworks light up inside you as his lips meet yours. They feel like they’re meant to always be on yours. He casually coaxes your mouth open with his tongue and traces your teeth lightly with his tongue. He moves his hands out of your hair and down around your waist as he pulls you into him. you plant your hands on the collar of his leather jacket and pull his lips harder onto yours. Your hands move up and run through his hair, the soft, short hairs, sliding through your fingertips. Your lips grow hot with passion and you smile through the kiss. Suddenly you feel the need for air and pull back. “That was…” you are at a loss for words. “Amazing,” he finishes for you. “Amazing,” you repeat. He wraps your arms around you and pulls you into his chest. You inhale his deep scent of spice, leather, and the rum you drank. He pulls back and drinks you in with his eyes. “Yea, I think I’m gonna stick around,” he smiles at you. “I would hope so,” you joke. So you walk him to his car and he says, “Do you want a ride home?” “I’d love one,” you reply. So he reaches around you to open the door of his truck, but is surprised when you pull his lips on yours again. So you stand in the snow, you and Killian gently kissing, the snow falling around you. When you pull back he smiles and opens the door the rest of the way. You climb in his truck and drive off into the snow, hand in hand.

[radiohorizon]

All of them. Please? For me?

Youre killin meeeeeee🙄

200 things you can put in my ask200: My crush’s name is: Lacey😛😍
199: I was born in: 1999
198: I am really: short, tired, sarcastic, idk??
197: My cellphone company is: verizon
196: My eye color is: blue/grey
195: My shoe size is: 3 in kids, 5 in womens
194: My ring size is: i have no idea, probably small but not too small cause i got far fingers
193: My height is: 5'1
192: I am allergic to: sulfa drugs and grass
191: My 1st car was: dont have one
190: My 1st job was: waitress at a local restaurant 
189: Last book you read: King Lear in school but Clockwork Princess for fun
188: My bed is: my favorite and super comfy and my best friend literally comes over just to nap in it
187: My pet: 2 cats, 1 dog
186: My best friend: Andrew, Elizabeth, Abby, Katie, Kristy, Annabelle, Kyle, Hailey, Stevie, Bea
185: My favorite shampoo is: Suave Ocean
184: Xbox or ps3: xbox
183: Piggy banks are: idrc about them??
182: In my pockets: dont have pockeys rn
181: On my calendar: nothings
180: Marriage is: in my future
179: Spongebob can: idrc cause idc
178: My mom: is my favorite person
177: The last three songs I bought were?Wasted youth by fletcherIn too deep by the sweeplingsIs there somewhere by halsey176: Last YouTube video watched:"50 things about me" by Nina Jablonska
175: How many cousins do you have?A shit ton
174: Do you have any siblings?1 sister and 1 brother that ive never met
173: Are your parents divorced?No and i never see them getting divorced. Theyre honestly the only reason i still believe in love
172: Are you taller than your mom?We're the same height actually
171: Do you play an instrument?Nope
170: What did you do yesterday? Went to school, studied, talked to Lacey, went to sleep[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: i dunno
168: Luck: yes
167: Fate: yes
166: Yourself: lmao no
165: Aliens: yes
164: Heaven: i think
163: Hell: yes
162: God: i believe in something
161: Horoscopes: im not sure
160: Soul mates: yes
159: Ghosts: yes
158: Gay Marriage: duh
157: War: i dont really know
156: Orbs: yes
155: Magic: yes[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs
153: Drunk or High: high
152: Phone or Online: depends
151: Red heads or Black haired: dont care
150: Blondes or Brunettes: dont care
149: Hot or cold: cold
148: Summer or winter: summer
147: Autumn or Spring: autumn
146: Chocolate or vanilla: depends because i love chocolate but it gives me headaches
145: Night or Day: night
144: Oranges or Apples: oranges
143: Curly or Straight hair: honestly dont care
142: McDonalds or Burger King: burger king for burgers, mcdonalds for snack wrap
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk chocolate
140: Mac or PC: PC
139: Flip flops or high heals: depends
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor
137: Coke or Pepsi: coke
136: Hillary or Obama: OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA 
135: Burried or cremated: buried in the cemetery up the road from where i live
134: Singing or Dancing: dancing
133: Coach or Chanel: dont care
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who are they?
131: Small town or Big city: small town
130: Wal-Mart or Target: how bout kohls
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: adam Sandler
128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure because im reallllly ticklish on my feet and i end up flinching the whole time
127: East Coast or West Coast: only ever been on the east coast so idrk
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas
125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate
124: Disney or Six Flags: disney!!!
123: Yankees or Red Sox: how bout Orioles[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: i respect the people fighting for our country and for others, but i wish everyone could just stop killing eachother
121: George Bush: gross
120: Gay Marriage: yay
119: The presidential election: grosser
118: Abortion: no judgement on whether or not someone decides to get one. Personally i dont think i could, but will always vote pro choice
117: MySpace: never had one so idk
116: Reality TV: can be entertaining but usually really dumb
115: Parents: i love them more than anything
114: Back stabbers: fuck you
113: Ebay: sketchy
112: Facebook: people are annoying and i hate that i live in hick central
111: Work: dont have ajob
110: My Neighbors: since 3 of my best friends are my neighbors, i guess theyre alright
109: Gas Prices: way too fucking high
108: Designer Clothes: dont care about them UNLESS its converse because thats my shit right there
107: College: start it in 5 months :(
106: Sports: love em but suck at em
105: My family: my rock and support, but they piss me off a lot
104: The future: scares the fuck out of me[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: a few ninutes ago
102: Last time you ate: few hours ago
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: about 2-3 weeks ago at the gym
100: Cried in front of someone: a few weeks ago i cried in front of abby because i found out kelsey has a girlfriend
99: Went to a movie theater: two weekends ago and saw Get Out and holy shit its good
98: Took a vacation: 2-3 years ago
97: Swam in a pool: 2 years ago i think
96: Changed a diaper: never
95: Got my nails done: little over a month ago
94: Went to a wedding: last summer
93: Broke a bone: never
92: Got a peircing: last spring
91: Broke the law: never i think?
90: Texted: about 2 seconds ago i texted Lacey[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: My lunch table
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my cats and my moms hugs
87: The last movie I saw: i saw get out in theaters but watched thunderbirds for the millionth time in art so im a happy camper
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: getting the fuck away from this place and these memories
85: The thing im not looking forward to: graduating, starting college, moving away, leaving my friends, leaving my animals, growing up, the list could go on forever
84: People call me: elizabeth, beth, bethany, lizzy, liz, bethyboo, bethers, bethy,
83: The most difficult thing to do is: move on and let go
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope
81: My zodiac sign is: pisces
80: The first person i talked to today was: lacey or bea idrk
79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: no one, im pretty good with keeping a good face on
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: i have no idea
76: Right now I am talking to: Lace💜👑
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: homicide detective or BAU
74: I have/will get a job: soon hopefully
73: Tomorrow: school, test, paint, facetime this beautiful girl, sleep
72: Today: school, test, painted, studied
71: Next Summer: senior weeek🤙🏻 and hopefully just simple hangouts with friends
70: Next Weekend: towson university visit
69: I have these pets: 2 cats (sadie and ziva) and 1 dog (westen oliver)
68: The worst sound in the world: hearing people chew or breathe hard
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my ex
66: People that make you happy: my friends and parents
65: Last time I cried: last night
64: My friends are: the only reason im alive
63: My computer is: a Windows something
62: My School: sucks
61: My Car: doesnt exist
60: I lose all respect for people who: judge others with no reason and refuse to be nice
59: The movie I cried at was: if I stay
58: Your hair color is: dirty blonde/ light brown
57: TV shows you watch: criminal minds, shameless, the 100, friends, the fosters, lie to me, NCIS, scooby doo
56: Favorite web site: tumblr 
55: Your dream vacation: a lake house
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: recovery after my heart surgery and when they had to take out my chest tubes
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium
52: My room is: messy but my favorite place
51: My favorite celebrity is: jennifer lawrence or ryan Reynolds or josh hucherson
50: Where would you like to be: childhood
49: Do you want children: yes
48: Ever been in love: ye
47: Who’s your best friend: the twins, fergs, abby, rat pack, stevie, hailey, bea
46: More guy friends or girl friends: girl friends
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: gaining more flexibility
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: jarred
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: not really
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: sorta
41: Have you pre-named your children: yepp. Daesin, Fiona, tegan and ryan
40: Last person I got mad at: my dad
39: I would like to move to: maryland or deleware
38: I wish I was a professional: dancer[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: gummy bears and kit kats or smarties
36: Vehicle: jeep Cherokee 
35: President: OBAMA
34: State visited: Florida
33: Cellphone provider: dunno
32: Athlete: Misty Copeland
31: Actor: Ryan Reynolds and Noel Fisher
30: Actress: Jennifer Lawrence
29: Singer: Amy Lee
28: Band: Evanescence
27: Clothing store: KOHLS
26: Grocery store: giant
25: TV show: shameless
24: Movie: thunderbirds or chitty chitty bang bang
23: Website: tumblr
22: Animal: monkey
21: Theme park: disney
20: Holiday: halloween
19: Sport to watch: allstar cheerleading or soccer
18: Sport to play: soccer
17: Magazine: dont have one but if i did i guess people?
16: Book: WAYYY too many
15: Day of the week: wednesday
14: Beach: bethany beach
13: Concert attended: evanescence even tho i couldnt see shit
12: Thing to cook: grilled cheese
11: Food: cheeseburger
10: Restaurant: green turtle
9: Radio station: 106.5
8: Yankee candle scent: i dunno
7: Perfume: hollister or ed hardy
6: Flower: rose
5: Color: purplr
4: Talk show host: my girl ellen
3: Comedian: jon Maloney, kevin heart, illiza shelshinger 
2: Dog breed: golden retriever 
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Yeppers