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dorliart · 2 years ago

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Me every time someone talks about something that’s "in the depths" in tears of the kingdom

#i haven’t even found how to get there #and tbh I don’t plan on doing it anytime soon #I am having a great time being in the air and on the ground thank u very much #I have explored some caves but like #the small ones I guess #jumped down wells and things #but that’s about it #i am not in a rush lmao #totk #zelda tears of the kingdom #zelda totk #zelda spoilers #totk spoilers #i think #the legend of zelda

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cream-and-tea · 4 months ago

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oh pallas and agnes power dynamic you really are SO unbelievably fucked,,,,,

#haven’t been able to write in days so i am posting instead. forgive me.#it’s just so. like. okay pallas has all of the material power here that’s not a question they’ve got much stronger magic they #know how the library works they’re directly placed in a mentorship role at the beginning re agnes she depends on them #for everything.#but also #pallas is very much Not Doing Well mentally (<- understatement of the century) and is pathologically incapable of processing their own #emotions related to this AT ALL. and in the process of trying very very hard to get to Know pallas (so pallas will Like her so pallas will #want to keep her alive) agnes kind of comes to understand a lot of pallas’s issues even better than pallas does and pallas starts to depend #on her for emotional support in a way they NEVER have with anyone else.#and pallas’s ability to show vulnerability has been soooo wrecked beyond belief that to them doing things like sharing part #of their backstory and being visibily hurt around someone is tantamount to placing a knife in someone’s hand and #then circling all of their weak points with a giant red marker while going ‘HEY STAB HERE’#so in their mind by doing this they’re giving agnes an IMMENSE amount of power over them like enough to kill them dead even though very #little else has changed about their dynamic. so pallas believes that they’re standing on much more equal ground then they really are #and agnes partly believes it too she thinks that by seeing this much of how broken down pallas is she’s finally found the balance in their #relationship she’s finally found a way to make it stable. and yeah. to some extent this is true!#pallas DOES listen to agnes more than any other person agnes IS the first person in years to understand them this much pallas’s dependence #on her for their mental wellbeing DOES give her some measure of power over them. but that power is given out on pallas’s terms is the thing #whether they’re aware of that or not. agnes wouldn’t have anything if pallas didn’t actively choose to be vulnerable with her there’d be #no way she’d learn about anything no way she’d get to play this role in their life #they believe that this thing is much more equal much more sustainable than it really is (pallas especially) and they’re #literally all each other have #grabs your face are you listening THEYRE ALL EACH OTHER HAVE IN THIS PLACE THEYRE BOTH IN SUCH HORRIFIC SITUATIONS AND THEY R EATING #EACHOTGER TO SURVIVE!!!!#head in fucking hands #wip: ghost story #pallas and agnes

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thejadecount · 8 months ago

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This pride month made my brain get maxley rot

#maxley #max x bradley #NO BUT SERIOUSLY #WHERE DID THIS COME FROM #I just found out about it today #AND I AM OBSESSED #the extremely goofy movie #max goof #bradley uppercrust iii #like #what #I need coleydoesthings to do a video on this #IT HAS SO MANY FICS WTF #WHY DOES IT WORK SO GOOD????#WHY AND HOW AM I ACTUALLY INTO IT???#I forgot this movie existed until today #I can’t believe fucking maxley is what is going to get me out of my writer’s block #fucking MAX X BRADLEY OF ALL THINGS #pride month #love wins #so called ‘free thinkers’ would give Disney their souls if they made Maxley canon #I’m talking about me #I’m the free-thinkers #genuinely I haven’t been this obsessed about a ship so quickly since #fucking uh #I can’t even remember #even Luigi x browser didn’t have such a chokehold on me #why. why do they have such good chemistry—#I can’t believe I’m tagging this #disney

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crossbackpoke-check · 4 months ago

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Dysprosium, Mary Soon Lee

dysprosium, AN 66, is a silvery-white rare earth metal. its name is derived from the greek dysprositos, meaning “hard to get at”, owing to the difficulty in separating and isolating this rare earth element. dysprosium is used to measure neutron flux, to fuel reactors, and to activate phosphors. terfenol-d is a magnetorestrictive alloy, meaning that it changes shape when a magnetic field is applied, and is used to manufacture underwater acoustic systems.

jason “robo” robertson, dallas stars #21 for @simmyfrobby’s nhl periodic table poems <3

#i had a couple different ideas for poems that were taken by the time i could go deranged for a couple hours to make this but as I looked #i was like WAIT NONE OF YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE JASON ROBERTSON YOU HAVEN’T SEEN MY TEXAS CAM and had to do it. also was STRUCK with the #sudden immaculate vision of the Dallas D as part of terfenol-D and could not get it out & robo is the most dance! person i know on the team #liv in the replies #dallas stars #jason robertson #nhl periodic table poems #guys i am plagued with visions and no execution skills!! every day i come here and learn one new skill on GIMP the way god intended!!!#today it was emboss. also cannot claim any credit for the pulse to the magnetic beat photo which is so cool that was one where i had a #couple and was like maybe i can do like crayon shockwaves like the art process video kasper showed? and then found that picture and was #like thank you lord stanley for knowing my limitations. thank you for your understanding in this moment it was a trial enough to make #expand contract dance and one would THINK i would have fucking learned from the claude animorphs tragedy!! i did not. but i did use the #shear tool and 3D rotate so at least if we’re animorphing it’s SLIGHTLY better. anyway me frantically doing this like WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT #WAIT FOR ME YOU GUYS ARE SO FAST i keep seeing all of these and just spinning around in circles until i get dizzy & fall down I’m so happy #the drive folder for this is just called joy!!!!! because joy this is such a cool idea but now because it brings me so much joy #i just saw the Travis dermott one and burst into tears super normal AND someone did exactly what i wanted with hydrogen which was the water #the ice!!!!! it’s so perfect!!! and cody ofc did silver lord stanley. like does it ever make you cry how beautiful & creative everyone is?#anyway if you see me post and delete this and then update it or change it no you didn’t it’s fine. but i wanted to be included #if i could make the dysprosium letters not have a white background i would I simply could not fuck with it at 1AM. we are hitting send #it may not look like it but i queue #pretend i spoke at length about the reasons why i picked all the pictures & the element just know that it’s there inside my brain u can ask #GUYS I TAKE IT ALL BACK I SAW NEONFRETRA’S ISOTOPES AND I COULD MAKE THE EDITS EVEN THOUGH THEY’RE THERE!! ISOTOPES!!!! YOU GUYS!!!!!!#get ready for the edits then. dylan magnesium my beloved child of stars who can never return… like i wish i could say anyone else but it’s #i KNOW number nineteens bismuth don’t make me Google how many years nolan played hockey but also there’s ej for stable so.. also half-life #actinium claude giroux my beloved… when i saw there already was a claude i thought maybe Brady too for that #I don’t know how but flerovium doubled magic is percolating in my brain as was promethium bad boy because I was like hmmm. tyler. but #couldn’t commit and THEN SOMEONE DID BAD BAD LEROY BROWN TYLER BERTUZZI TO PROMETHIUM AND BESTIE I AM KISSING YOU ON THE MOUTH!!! with cons #anyway shane wright germanium with juraj slafkovský but showing him very obviously not missing it. if jack eichel was not an asshole #the narratives WOULD be narrativing. you could argue for a sidovi here with the calder cup and potentially a best friend stealing narrative #(the most recent is cam yorke’s acquisition of jamie d from trevor zegras which would then require a yorkie one for silicon the other side)

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cuteniaarts · 7 months ago

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Small drawing collection of my latest creation Emran as a teenager/freshly minted Air Acolyte, for my dear partner in unhinged OC shenanigans @katkastrofa, as promised <3

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #original character #I need to figure out a way to tag these guys #like with renny and dori I just put sotrl in front of their names and that works #but emran is technically an LaF character. though not uniquely tied to that verse. and idk what to do with Ila and Alasie #maybe I need to have some unique oc tag or smth. I’ll figure it out #if you’re wondering why I stayed up until half past 7 a.m to draw this it’s because I needed some way to cool down #after the kuviren smut absolutely broke my brain #and what better way to do that than by drawing my sweet baby boy?#yes lmao he went from baby girl to baby boy in like 24 hours. fucking sue me #but actually. actually!! they’re both. they contain multitudes :)#they probably haven’t even realised that at this point and are still in disguise #convinced that she’ll be punished for her deceit if anyone found out that she’s actually a girl #(okay off topic but the switching pronouns are really fun lmao)#but give them time. they’ll figure it out soon enough. in these pieces they’re slowly getting used to temple life #and that is the first step to self acceptance #I’m actually extremely proud of these. especially the one with the apple basket. I feel like the androgynous vibes are really there #and he looks like his brother the most in it #but the others are fun too. I loved doing the portrait. I should do them more often #and.. I will admit. I traced the lemur. I can barely draw people okay how do you expect me to draw animals #but I just think that Aiza would really love a little lemur friend #animals don’t judge and she doesn’t have to watch herself around them. she can just be. plus the lemurs are really cute <3 #I want to eventually do a companion to this with Aiza instead. maybe from back before she ran away #probably something based on reflection from Mulan too bc the vibes are there. though.. to be completely honest #I’d say they have a lot more of Shurochka Azarova’s vibes than Mulan. but that’s just my love for Soviet cinema taking over #it’s essentially if mulan fought napoleon instead. and when discovered instead of left to die they promoted her to lieutenant 😁#I realise the comparison is completely incomprehensible to everyone but me but.. go watch the hussar ballad. it’s free on YouTube with subs #okay enough rambling. i shall now go to bed. @ Kat I hope this brightens up your morning at least somewhat. I love you!!

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gothmiqote · 5 months ago

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Varha keeps poking at me with more Family Lore TM as an explanation for why her current relationship with Rhaya’ra is Like That & it’s coming in the form of “actually Three of us survived the calamity physically but one is suspiciously Not Present Now & also she was definitely Rhaya’s favourite sister :)”

I don’t have a name for this sibling yet but she’s. Definitely not going to be making any present day appearances that’s for sure.

#it wasn’t technically the calamity that killed her off #but the emotional/mental repercussions in the following years took their toll and. yeah.#anyway no lore yet on who found the body #rhaya’ra Knows it wasn’t varha’s fault it wasn’t anyone’s fault #but like. that doesn’t mean it doesn’t also weave its way into the resentment he’s held onto to get him through his own grief #i maintain he’s not a bad person despite how he treats her she’s just the target of his own projections sadly #it’s a complicated relationship. varha hangs onto it in small ways bc she doesn’t want to feel like she’s entirely lost everyone.#and besides that she always knew she sort of ranked pretty low in terms of favoured siblings/general importance #so when he goes off on her in sharlayan after they haven’t seen each other in a few years she just takes it which is VERY weird for her #but like. what can she do? lose the last piece of her family? she loved them even if she was a bit of an afterthought #her sister def treated her better but was also too wrapped up in her own suffering to do anything about it #so she just got used to being self-sustaining bc what other choice was there #oc tag #varha naiarro #rhaya'ra nariarro

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itsmarsss · 3 days ago

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am i a bad person for not caring that im the “bad guy” in the situation lmao

#like dude #you have sleepovers w ur ex #he spent two whole weeks at your place recently #you still hook up regularly and people KNOW ABOUT IT #sorry ur just too messy #I didn’t think I even needed to say it honestly #I do not care in the slightest who u hook up w but im not about to get entangled in ex boyfriend and relationship drama #like idk how it comes as a shock that is like to just stay friends but yeah #im saying im the bad guy here cause yeah by the middle of December (before I found any of this out)#I said we’d go on a date #and I did mean it? I did have an interest on getting to know this person?#but to this day we haven’t gone on that date and I haven’t exactly explicitly said anything abt wanting to be just friends #which I get #is my fault #like it is my bad im admitting it im saying im the bad guy #but I don’t really care all that much in this particular scenario #??#cause like y’all mad weird idc me feeling weird abt all this and feeling like I had to back off is justified #someone tell me im not crazy someone say mars ur not crazy #anyway we’re meeting next Tuesday so im gonna talk this out #mars talks

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alittleemo · 2 months ago

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mannnnnnnnbb fuck November I’m so tired of feeling lonely in my own life.

#lee’s bullshit #even being in [redacted] will not save you from the depths of November #trying to remind myself things are always changing and I can’t stop putting myself out there but I am tired.#what I am doing clearly is not enough in any respect and I am tired of feeling so worn to the bone all the time.#huge social miss today at the function. woke up late and ruined the schedule. couldn’t make a clear decision on dinner.#haven’t found a replacement roommate. haven’t finished my portfolio. haven’t applied to internships. haven’t finished my final project.#behind on everything and with every step I take I get pulled further and further backwards.#my roommate is graduating early and i feel like it’s my fault.#i shouldn’t blame myself for someone else’s bad behavior but im still beating myself up for being a cause for it.#my other roommate wants to move out to live on her own next year.#also blaming myself for that even tho its always on me to fix the mess of housing every damn semester #I’m just so tired of feeling like I’m not doing enough and even when I am that it just simply doesn’t matter.#saw one of my friends today but only for an hour. texting the group is like sending a blind pigeon out in a gale.#I know that things will get better but it’s just so hard . if someone genuinely asked how I was doing I could cry on the spot.#none of my friends are close enough anymore not at home not at school not in my family. there’s nowhere to go.#just tired. Going to go to bed soon. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

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j-esbian · 4 months ago

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does anyone else feel like they need to Make Fan Content That Is Also Good And Interesting in order to make/keep internet friends so as to be worth other people’s time

#the internet is one big networking tool #genuine question because like. i know it’s unhealthy but i also feel like that’s kind of the economy created by the internet #i’m not advocating it and i’m also not trying to be self-deprecating #i was never great at art and i haven’t posted anything i’ve written in like 5 years #like for example. i put off making a dragon age blog for a while bc i don’t Do anything. even now that ive made it i feel like i don’t have #a leg to stand on to talk to my mutuals. we are always competing for attention on the internet #i’ve known a few people where like. i thought we were actual friends and not just fandom colleagues but i always felt like i had fo Prove I #Was Talented to keep them interested and like. again not healthy but i’m wondering how common that is #maybe that is just fandom colleague behavior and i misread the situation but uh #also to be clear i’m not trying to like. blame anyone or victimize myself #i’m mostly curious because i have seen people talk about how making friends on the internet is so much easier and i’m wondering #where that idea came from. bc i still think it’s hard. but i wonder if it’s easier if you’re one already posting Original And Interesting #Content. i mostly just make memes and meta at this point and it doesn’t get a lot of attention. which is fine #i’ve just found it markedly harder to meet people since i switched tacks #one of the reasons i burned out tbh. among other things. i’ve been picking writing up again but i don’t post anymore #honestly realizing this has probably bitten me in the ass before bc i’ve had friends who share stuff they’re proud of and i don’t jump on it #bc to me i’m trying to be like ‘you don’t have to prove yourself to me. i like you as a person’#but probably comes off like ‘i don’t care about the things you care about’. hm #mine

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flashhwing · 1 year ago

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I think im only gonna plan my campaign up to level 10 then whatever happens happens. leaving the plot from there up to my players. your turn to weave the narrative bitch

#by which I mean. the campaign will suddenly shift from railroad to sandbox #there is a purpose and reason for it. and actually I am saying this because I planned this much and then realized #there IS no way to railroad anything after that #it is impossible for me to plan ahead what the party will do with what they know at that point #so. embrace it. their world now #well. in however long it takes to get there #this has been a post #this is why im tryna build the whole world before we start #like I could just be vague about it and only define the parts we need as we need them #but even the supposedly railroaded bits. how can I predict where and how they’ll go off the tracks?#and like a better question is WHY did I decide to build a whole damn world instead of using something prewritten #and well. the answer is quite simple. and also twofold #a) I haven’t found a prewritten campaign that I want to run (that someone isn’t already running for me)#b) there’s a specific element of this world I want to explore that can’t be transposed into an existing setting #so. here I am. researching Roman agriculture #dnd

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rosicheeks · 10 months ago

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Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..

I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.

I was texting my sister today about it and she said

“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”

I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences

#I relate to all of this so much #and it’s so sad how many people truly have religious trauma #I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine #it’s really hard cause my parents still think I’m a Christian #honestly at this point I have no clue what i am #even if I end up still being a Christian that doesn’t help or heal all of the years of church trauma #but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents #growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold #cause I know that’s what my parents wanted and I didn’t want to disappoint them #but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there #their perfect angel fell from heaven #and I feel like ever since I haven’t been really their daughter…. I’ve just been living on the outside looking in to everything #it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith #it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally #the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church #when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with #wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was #YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for something…. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away #and the thing is I don’t necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone)#but honestly it’s just the environment they grew up in too… like I’m 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life #but won’t get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it #which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didn’t need to #^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop #sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma #yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse #sure I’ll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? it’s 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while I’m dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past #please don’t get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I don’t blame them - they did their best #it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didn’t grow up in the church or in a super religious family #I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help

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fingertipsmp3 · 1 year ago

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I feel like I’ve lived through at least a month just in the past 3 days. I checked the date just now and damn near had an out of body experience when I realised Monday was only two days ago