#i exist in other ppls lives how fucked up is that

[feygaleh]

pro-peace/pro-2state gentile asking here, entirely in good faith, what's the antizionist explanation for archeological remains of ancient israeli civilisations? because most az's i've seen on the internet just deny that they're real at all. how does one actually rationalise that it's colonialism when there's solid evidence?? /genq and /lh

i don’t deny that there were jews in israel. obviously we lived there at one point. but the idea that we NEED israel. that israel NEEDS to exist FOR jews is what i have the problem with. no it doesn’t. no it shouldn’t. we don’t NEED this land. us persevering is the heart of the religion NOT us returning to israel. aliyah is not a necessity to be jewish. there is no necessary pilgrimage. israel allows birthright trips bc they WANT to recruit more ppl into moving there.

there will ALWAYS be a jewish diaspora. you CAN be ethnically jewish but there will NEVER be a “jewish race” because of the SEVERELY antisemitic history behind how the nazis portrayed us.

these zionists claim shoah survivors aren’t a monolith when you point out there are many survivors who detest the mere existence of israel at all but use “israel wasn’t just founded by british authorities post wwii and shoah survivors were on board with it” oh ok but i thought they weren’t a monolith?

no fucking shit they were in support of israel our entire populous was being fucking decimated. of course they were scared. of course it looks like there’s nowhere safer to be other than israel. that doesn’t change the fact that THAT IS EXACTLY THE POINT OF THEIR PROPAGANDA.

the world zionist organization has been around PRE-WWII and PRE holocaust so fleeing to “safety” wasn’t an idea drummed up by survivors. and the jewish bund has always opposed israel ALSO since PRE-WWII.

and it’s such a conservadox issue they forget there are other jews in the world who will never give a fuck about going to israel and we are no less jewish than them. the core of judaism has so little to do with israel but conservadoxes really like to act like the land is the core of the religion.

tldr: never denied our history there. just denying our entitlement to the land. don’t find the state necessary at all for jews to have. orthodoxy stop acting like our shared religion revolves around you challenge. challenge failed

[professionaljester]

love my bad mental health, love being suicidal all the time

[kjzx]

I've been playing slitherio these past few days, and after some time messing around with nicknames and my own experience with the stuff, I've realized anger is something very easy to weaponize. On my second attempt of having "trans rights" as a nickname I killed a huge ~5k point worm as a teenie tiny 200 point worm simply because it was so desperate to kill me specifically. Anger makes your life harder, but it also makes people really unwise. I fucking bet this is in "the art of war", even though I haven't read it.

[bunnyboy-juice]

;~; (tags vent)

[vrsmth]

being the only autistic kid in a small town school was probably the worst experience a person can ever have

[gardeninggraves]

watching a reaction video for encanto and immediately exiting out of it when they dont understand isabela as a character and tear her down the entire time during her song is self care

[chaotictomtom]

hehe hoho feeling absolute rage!!!!!!!!!

[trans-leek-cookie]

someone talking about the ways media and common tropes/depictions of things that are either explicitly or implicitly linked to marginalized people are demonized and presented badly is not a fucking opportunity for you to flex how you're doing it Differently And Better

[caruliaa]

yk i think like. im trying desperately not to depress people around me w how close to doomerism i can veer but like. at a certain point its like. the effort and exhaustion that goes into maintaining just being alive in this world is not worth what comes from being alive and like. girlies we may have reached it. el oh el.

[noxtivagus]

:^)

[feline-evil]

There's a lot of discussion and talk all over the place about the pros, cons and effects of being entirely home schooled, but i'll tell you what the funniest thing that occurs from this experience is; it's the amount of times somebody will go 'oh you remember [insert extremely common experience near everyone else has] right?' or 'so it's just like [insert thing everybody seemingly experienced sans you]!' and you have to softly look them in the eye, smile and shake your head

Buddy i'm sorry, i'm lacking experiences damn near everybody else seems to intrinsically know and understand, they raised me in a lab and kept me in a cardboard box i don't know jack from shit. You may as well talk to me like i'm an alien i am thick as pigshit and twice as inexperienced in the ways of the world.

[meejijis]

ppl who goes against their "dni" and break their own rules by either invading other people's spaces or hate stalking the ppl they hate (which the said person they hate is literally everything they described in their dni list) will always make me so annoyed

[whoreishghost]

like how do i even articulate that no matter what i do and how hard i try its not getting better? i dont sleep rlly at all, maybe a 3 ish hours total on a good night given how often i wake up and how late i get to sleep. im not rlly eating either bc im never fucking hungry and everything feels idk Repulsive to even consider putting in my mouth even when i am. im in pain and it doesnt end no matter how gentle i am w myself. i am in a constant state of almost complete panic bc of how much i am having to manage in terms of admin and life issues bc those dont ever seem to end either. i havent been able to take my medication in almost a month bc of nhs incompetence and i Know its making me worse bc im so fucking irritable all the time. i feel so fucking existentially empty and devoid of purpose or meaning or justification for my existence. i am alive so that the like 7 ppl who only talk to me so i can get the hrt wont lose access. im only alive bc if im not itll be my fault if my wife dies and it doesnt matter if i wouldnt know it bc i was dead the thought, the guilt of it as a concept forces me to continue against every fucking screaming molecule of my body begging me to just fucking give up. im almost constantly overwhelmed by this feeling that is so completely indescribable that i dont even know where to begin to explain it to myself let alone to someone else. im in pain and its not just bc im overworked or burned out or whatever, the mental fucking suffering im forcing myself to endure every day so everyone else around me can be ok, can be happy, can thrive and do what they need feels like its fucking shredding my nerves and ripping through my flesh. and im fucking trying and no one fucking gets that. no amount of being told "the change comes from within" is going to do anything about the fact that this is as much as i can do this is as hard as i can try i have no more effort or energy than i am already forcing myself to keep using even when i feel like i am empty and there is nothing left for me to use to keep going. i do all the things i shld as much as i can. but the longer it goes on the harder it is for me to help myself and then i just get accused of "not trying hard enough to get better" as if i am not giving it my fucking all. u try spending every night alone, in pain, caught in spiraling obsession after spiraling obsession of ur own fucking inadequacy and failure and immorality. u try to manage the fucking effort of trying and trying and reaching out and begging for help and being so fucking explicit about how bad it is only to be told it cant be as bad u say or that its not bad enough for support but that even if it were ud be too damaged and unstable to access it. i feel like im dying, or more like, i feel like im fading, like soon there will be so little left of me of who i want to be who i put so much effort into being that even the fragments of damage that make up the core of who i am are coming apart and disintegrating. there is going to be nothing left and i feel like im watching myself slowly fucking evaporate and lose everything over and over again and vanish more and more from reality from existence from myself that it wont be much longer till theres nothing left to salvage. i try and tell myself its temporary. it wont last forever. i look at photos to remind myself when it wasnt this bad but i cant believe it i cant fucking trust that its true and even more than that i cant make myself understand that it can change, it can be that again. bc i know it cant. i know it at such a deep and intrinsic level of myself. and its not even like im gna kms. theres no point. what is left to kill?

[rottenlittlefink]

Liberals on tumblr in 2016 when one would have a nuanced life experience that they could not project their own onto & categorize into rigid boxes based on their own life experiences:

[waywardsalt]

:3

[izzy-b-hands]

i thought writing up the stupidly realistic dream i had would make me feel better abt it not being real. it both did and didn't and I've been telling myself to get my laptop open and start getting some shit done but. i keep thinking abt it. this stupid fuckin dream lmao