#i am: so tense rn
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kinda insane how scary this podcast is. jesus christ. what is even going on
#ive listen to tma malevolent deviser wbg archive 81 and NONE of them had this vibe#if you liked lost johns cave - this podcast is very much for you#the white vault#s4 ep4#I FUCKINNNNNG KNEW IT WASNT LIU#SHE WAS SO FUCKING CALM#OHH YOU FIND A WOMAN FUCKING LEISURING IN A HUGE SKELETAL RIBCAGE LIKE SHES ON VACATION AND YOU DONT QUESTION IT??#idk. maybe it is her and shes just enthralled now#i dont think the thing can Look like people#also will eva ever sit the fuck down on god#woman. do you want to die#i mean. yea i know she literally said and it IS fascinating#but also. god#what part of just sit here with simon and wait do you not understand 😭#i mean its probably good she found the radio but she literally fell down the stairs right after WITH BROKEN RIBS#i am: so tense rn#also the documentarian??? and the letter person???? what the fuck#literally what the entire fuck#i assume theres a cult in there somewhere that lucas was a part of#i cant make myself believe this person is gonna wanna help#ghhhhhhhhh biting through rocks
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after the many, many years of being bakugou’s friend, kirishima could say he has never seen his best bud so in love with someone before—so deeply and irrevocably smitten with you.
it was the little things, mostly, that piled up and up until it was so blatantly obvious that bakugou had fallen—and he had fallen hard. making you bentos, hanging around your desk, walking you home… he’d never behaved like this with anyone before, kirishima mused. it was jarring, in a way. but kirishima was happy for his friend, and he couldn’t help but to keep an eye on the two of you whenever he was in the vicinity (whether bakugou knew he was there or not).
lovestruck, was the word that came to kirishima’s bewildered mind the first time he saw bakugou trailing after you. following you like this great shadow around the agency. he never seemed to leave you alone for too long and he’d always have this little pout on his face whenever you’d shoo him away so you could do your own work. kirishima didn’t think bakugou even knew about the extent of his own feelings—not at first, anyways. and when he tried to confront the blond, he’d act all gruff and grouchy, his ears tinted a violent pink.
bakugou could deny it all he wanted, though. kirishima saw right through him.
what really cemented everything for kirishima—really hammered it in that his best friend was finally getting some of the happiness he deserved—was the time bakugou had caught you from falling off a ladder.
you’d been trying to hang up some decorations around the agency—to “brighten things up a bit” you’d said. kirishima had been too far away at the time—but he still saw the moment you’d leaned just a bit too far to the right. the moment your foot had slipped and you’d tumbled off that tall ladder with a small yelp.
bakugou had been exiting his office at that precise moment. and kirishima swore he had never seen his friend run so fucking fast before in his life. a small explosion propelled him forward—charring the wood and frame of his office door. just so he could catch you before you cracked your head open on the floor.
kirishima watched—from his position across the agency, his legs tensed—as bakugou held you tight within his arms and looked down at your shaken form. he watched as bakugou played off his breathlessness as though he hadn’t just dead sprinted across the hall to get to you on time. you wouldn’t ever know, kirishima thought to himself, how desperate bakugou would have to be to move that fast. and kirishima finally relaxed his stance once he saw bakugou set you carefully down on the ground, hovering over you as he scolded you for being so inattentive. you only rubbed the back of your head as you smiled sheepishly up at him. if bakugou hadn’t been smitten before, he certainly was now.
kirishima couldn’t have been happier, really. and he found himself quietly slipping away, a smile on his face at the idea of bakugou finally, finally being in love.
#weeping rn at the idea of bkg lunging for u as u fall…#bakugou x reader#bakugou katsuki x reader#katsuki x reader#bakugou drabble#ur like ‘why r u panting so hard’#and bkg’s like ‘idk what ur talkin about’#as though he hadnt sprinted like his life depended on it LOL#tenses might be weird btw sorry abt that its 3 am#i sleeb
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new prints!! n some old ones restocked >:3 link
#mine#uehehuehueuee#i got so low on stock bless....brain is so small#also u will not believe th frog plush i bought this morning .....#i collect frog plushes now i hve decided#i hve had an okay day...made sm orders...i was literally abt 2 go mail n now its raining ough#actually. i think its trying 2 snow. hmm.#largest update in my life rn is i am now th proud owner of an electric blanket#its. its so good. take this as ur sign 2 get one#its helpin my joints as well!! when i get cold for sm reason i tense up my ? hips? n i was getting so sore ough#okay it is snowing now. great. am gna wait for it 2 stop n then post n then......video game time >:)#someone stop me from buying morrowind
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HOT DOCTOR HOT DOCTOR HOT DOCTOR HOT DOCTOR
#Was at my desk doing data entry when out of the office next to me walks a man who’s so tall so beautiful so gorgeous I am in shambles#My head literally TURNED I had to refocus on what the girl was instructing me to do w the stuff I was working on#I literally tried to see if he had a ring on his way back to his office but this man walks FAST . He walks so fast#I had to write this and get it out of my system bc I’m literally filling important patient information rn#Whoever this man is he has beautiful hair . And a lean stature. And a beautiful prefix (doctor)#Omg and his facial hair is perfect it’s so over for me#I can’t be over here obsessing over him every day OK expunging the thought NOW#I needed (in the past tense bc we don’t identify w these thought patterns) him to rail me ok I’m done for real goodbye
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can i just say that I'm haunted by the image of Ice wearing "one of Mavericks cheapest rolexes". One because of the mental immage of Maverick being the kind of men who not only owns multiple watches but also Rolex, which is absolutely delightful, because oh the quiet vanity of that. And two because of the implied and groundbreaking (to me) domesticity (and defiance of the not talking/acknowledging the thing between the 2 of them) of wearing another person watch. I'm screaming into the void about your brilliance. So I need to ask, do they do that on purpose (before the mission) in a sort if roundabout way of acknowledging each other presence in their life? What would Mav wear that belongs to Ice (apart from that USNA ring eheh)?
pilots/sailors/doctors etc who do high-level specialized work with their hands tend to really be Watch Guys. and “cheap” rolexes (sub $7k ish) are actually pretty affordable if you’re making >$150k a year and want to treat yourself every fifth christmas or something. source: know several sailors & doctors. ALSO the watch ice is wearing in his famous gay plane photoshoot is actually a rolex. So theres some evidence ice at least is (annoying, ostentatious, bad with money, and) a Watch Guy. Maverick’s also wearing a kickass chronograph in TGM so i think he’s also probably a Watch Guy. also… you know, status symbol, honor, et cetera et cetera…
they probably wear each other’s socks because in-regs socks all look the same and they’re both men so who cares. i also hc that they’ve always worn the same size in shirts so each other’s t-shirts are also free game. and was very confusing at the start of their relationship when trying to figure out whose shirt was whose after a midnight rendezvous. lots of accidental shirt mixups. and, yeah, each other’s watches, because most people only see the status and don’t see the detail, and most people aren’t around both ice and mav enough to recognize that “omg last month adm kazansky was wearing the same omega chronometer capt mitchell is wearing today!! theyre totally together!!!” so if ice buys a new watch and maverick salivates over it, sure he can borrow it, whatever. and i think there’s a scene in wwgattai when maverick wears ice’s pj pants hold up lemme find it
“in bare feet.” now wtf does that mean. that could use a rewrite.
ice also wears mavericks leather jacket when they’re on their baseball date in debriefing. at some point when you live with someone long enough your stuff becomes their stuff which was the point of this graf
thinking about it… trying to decide if they’d wear each other’s cologne. that seems like a little much. no i don’t think so.
#oooh! this is the first time ive read this section of debriefing since i posted it! and wow it’s really just okay!#ugggghhh the house. the house.. *shakes fist* all my narrative problems have to do with the house…#would ice and maverick really get free LockMart/mcdonnell shirts? no idea#ive been working my first aerospace & defense job for a month now and ive gotten Boeing fidget spinners and raytheon sunglasses and#LM t-shirts so it’s not out of the realm of possibilities#but i am also not a federal employee so idk.#thx for the ask anon. i appreciate your use of the word ‘haunted’#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#icemav#top gun#asks#man. i have such a problem with verb-tense agreement when it comes to ‘there is/there are’#in the second one it should be ‘there are all these…’ man. i can’t ever get there’s/there are right#oh wait you’re not anon#i am a Watch Guy but $20-$80 vintage novelty watches i find on eBay not Rolexes#i feel at some point i should change my blog header. it’s still my politics but#given that i am literally working in defense rn it feels a little hypocrit. ok. will change it.#alright as of this post my header has been changed to reflect the material conditions of my summer internship
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He's not having fun :')
quick messy sketch thingie for @froizetta's WIP Wednesday bc I've been having a weird mental health day and the superbat food provided my poor brain with much-needed dopamine. here, have some Bruce POV at the gala (as opposed to Brucie POV which I imagine is decidedly hornier).
#my art#superbat#I haven't drawn clark ever#I haven't done art in ages. period.#I am so rusty but as soon as I saw the WIP I knew I had to make SOMETHING as a thank you#also tense clark is a big mood rn tbh#oh nooo I forgot to do a thing in there i'm only seeing it now#oh well no spoons left to fix it.#sorry for shitty image quality when I do art it always ends up smaller than I planned and then blur happens
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Whumpee is so exhausted that they don’t even show any sign of pain as the torture continues.
#literally me with my epipen muscle intolerance bs happening in my left leg rn#it is some of the worst pain ever#but so far i am just too fatigued to cry out or tense or wince#this could change#but you know#whump
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Wish I wasn’t aroace and terrified of/angered by the idea of living with someone forever bc I will absolutely stress myself into an early grave living alone ���� I need regular hugs and reassurance and back massages so I can get all these fuckin knots out. I need a rock
#the ‘regular hugs’ part is something I’m severely lacking rn and god it SUCKS#but what sucks even worse is the state of my BODY#I am so tense everywhere#I do Alexander technique yoga (when I remember to lol) and it. does not even help#I need someone to step on my back and crush my bones into place bc. oww. everything hurte#I feel so old#chiropractor please save meeee#I need to turn straight and marry a chiropractor. I’d have money (and therefore less stress and back pain) AND I get free adjustments?!?#ellyposting
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holy shit
#taylor hebert top 10 fucked up moments!!!!!!!#i love this btw. im not complaining.#reaction time#im so fucking tense rn. i was gonna read for an hour and then like. play sdv and watch danny phantom ahain.#but here i am nearly 3 hours later because this FUCKING LEVIATHAN FIGHT WONT END AND EVERYONE IS DEAD AND DYING#AND I DONT EVEN THINK IM A THIRD OF THE WAY THROUGH THE FUCKING BOOK. WHOS GONNA BE LEFT AFTER THJS.#pleaseeee please please i want scion to show up. i want to crush him like a bug
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idk what i did but I feel really out of touch. Like everything I used to feel like I get and understand is just kinda far away now. I feel unexcited.
#Depression I guess but also I've been having a depressive episode for almost... what... 7-8 months now? kind of sick of it#why must I feel tense and forlorne while having an ok time#why am I objectivly fine but also disassociated so far out people hardly understand me when I try and interact#I miss the manic creative episode i was in last year#where i didnt feel guilty for enjoying anything ever#jas glubs#vent#any tips on how to not feel like this would be cool but i assume this is just how the world is feelin rn
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my fuckass period got here
#txt#like everything sucks rn i literally am in sm pain my shoulder is killing me the tooth surgery placements are sore like pls i just need a#break... and now my cramps 🥹#all this unmedicated btw. im so excited for this week bc i get my assessment result which means i can get a new psychiatrist who can give me#a more fitting and adjusted prescription... but w the way the health system is here w psychological treatment its probably gonna b another#month of waiting 🥹🥹🥹 im so overwhelmed genuinely i feel so tense
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Still thinking about the anon from yesterday and the more i think about it the more mad i get like you're insane for calling kaeya mid i hope you blow up. Bitching in the tags ft arguments my smart sexy boyfriend brought up yesterday while we were talking about this so credit where credit is due
#🗨️#LIKE.#kaeya-diluc brotherly issues are interesting because kaeya is by far the most interesting character in the game sorry#like. genuinely i wanna know what they meant by the two of them having a “trope that's been handled better by other media”#because their deal is not just ougj brothers fighting#it's specifically about kaeya being adopted and about his conflict with belonging to a nation and a community and a family#and his loyalty to his duty and his birth family vs his loyalty to the city and family who took him#the only thing i could think of that has handled similar themes better is the untamed but that's literally a show based on a novel#so i feel like comparing them is a bit unfair#like ofc i know there's sibling drama out there 🙄 but that's not why kaeya brotherly issues are interesting#there's his dynamic with diluc his dynamic with crepus AND diluc's dynamic with crepus too#other than kaeya'#s whole thing with his birth father#idk. kaeya haters need to die a thousand deaths#i am Not articulate enough rn I'm still dying from back pain but you get me. you agree. if you don't you can fall over snd exlode#like there's a specific power dynamic at play in regards to the adopted child survivor of a fallen nation being rejected for that fact by#his adopted brother. on the night of their father's death. like yes i know diluc is stupid yes i know they still love each other as brother#even if their relationship is tense i know it's set up for eventual reconciliation#but just kaeya's whole deal IS about family. in general.#a bunch of characters' deals are about family in general like i could start listing them and it wouldn't end it's just like kaeyaaaaa#kaeya. is the guy of all time
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fighting the urge to tell this boy he reminds me of my older brother cuz idk if he's down to clown (roleplay incest) yet
#it'd be sooo cute tho 👉👈#i am little sibling sized to him even and he can push me around and bully me and and and um. yeah 💚#dumb rn. absolutely stupid. why is he not pinning me down to his couch and forcing himself in while i cry and whine that's it's too big and#im gonna tell dad :( (my boyfriend)#ughhhhhhhhhh#i did cry a little last time 🫣 but i think some of the difficulty fitting it was just that i was so tense all last week over starting my new#job lmfao. i even had problems with jordan n usually i'm super comfy with him. cuz i am made for him at this point :3c#we r a perfect fit in more ways than 1 ^-^#but yah. i had stress induced pussy too tight disorder i am pretty sure. cuz that thang hurt
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this is gonna sound incredibly virtue signal-y i fear but i have been feeling. so fiercely protective of all the transfems i've ever met lately
#marzi speaks#I PROMISE I'M NOT TRYING TO EARN GOOD BOY POINTS HOLD ON LET ME. EXPLAIN MYSELF HERE#obvs we're in kinda a tense political climate rn#and i'm noticing trends have been getting . increasingly misogynistic lately?#in like . a subtle but for sure still noticeable way#and women are being dismissed and all this awful shit#and ppl are going. completely mask off about it when the woman happens to be a trans gender#and it reminds me of when i was a little girl. and how my mom spent so much time in my childhood#training me to not stand for and take misogynistic bullshit from anyone. and to defend other women too#she taught me to assert myself in professional or academic environments. she taught me to stand proud and take up physical space#once as a kid my great uncle (who's always been a nut) didn't let me come on a fishing trip because i was a girl#when i came to my mom crying about it because i loved boats and fishing and my family she just about murdered him. completely tore into him#my whole life my mom has been there to tell me that people will try to put me down. they will try to overlook me or dismiss me#or make me feel smaller. and if i dare to get too confident i'll be labeled bossy or a bitch#and that no matter what i do i cannot let those pieces of shit win. i cannot let that stop me#and that i'd have to fight so fucking hard for it my whole life and it won't be fair but i will do it because i have no other option#and i'm seeing a lot of transfems having to navigate that now too#but they didn't get the privilege of being trained in this since day 1. they have to figure it out on their own#and the demonization right now is so strong that a single misstep can be. so dangerous#and it makes me so mad. all of that built up anger from every time i've had to learn how to not take misogynistic bullshit comes to a boil#the little girl scout in my brain who grew up forcing people to see that a girl can do whatever the fuck she wants fuck you is ACTIVE rn#she's angry. she's so angry. because she's seeing the same bullshit she dealt with in middle school being repeated again#anyways. transfems. i love you so much. you deserve so much fucking better.#i hope you can safely advocate for yourself. until then i will fucking yell and scream from the rooftops because this shit is so unfair#you should be allowed to succeed and you should be allowed to fail. and you should be allowed to take up as much goddamn space as you want#and wear whatever the hell you want. transfems i love you and i am so so angry on your behalf. modern feminism has failed you#and i am going to kill someone over it#remember to be loudly and unapologetically yourself as much as you safely can. do not let them crush your spirit
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#sorry didnt wanna distrupt the dash with another little reaction image post LOL#anyway anyone else feel so embarrassed always. im so embarrassed. and ashamed. im so embarrassed. im embarrassed!#talkys#im so tense rn i want to explode bc of how embarrassed i am. i remember now why i avoid interacting with others
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holy FUCK IA's voisona 2.0 is OUT
#sorry this is just a 3 second made solfege with all auto tuning i just got the update downloaded LOL#am i insane. was i just not paying enough attention to their twitters or was this like shadow dropped#i mean we knew it would come someday but i think i forgot that like#voisona seems to do this with their 2.0s. they barely build any hype they just give em to you LOL#girl so much is happening rn. ia and one 2.0..... takuto's voicevox bank was finally announced.......#i have so many things i want to draw celebration doodles of. so many.#also this is unrelated but downloaded ia's 2.0 made me realize i was like three or so versions behind in voisona#because i like never update things in general and also i didnt realize they had updated so much#BUT holy shit. they added so much stuff so many presets and fun little bits BUT SPECIFICALLY#the tune parameter... that changes how much autopitch it has.... holy shit#now you can make a full pitchsnapping thing.... or you can have a blank slate when doing ur own tuning.... awesome#the husky parametre is still a little strange tho. its uh. so in cevio its basically just breathiness#but in voisona is like. tense and kinda. wet? you can get a but of subtle breathiness but mostly it just sounds like theyre hissing#like a cat. which can be good. but i abuse breathiness and tension in other software so i would love some parametres akin to that#although you can get some of that through the presets in the properties at least#so i would love some easier ways to play around with softness and breathiness. you can kind of fudge it with volume but its tough#but impromptu voisona editor 1.11 first impressions review aside im so excited#i neeeeeed to plug in as many covers as i can right NOW just to hear her voice AUUUUUUUHHHHHHH#unfollow me now this will be the only thing i talk about for the next week etc etc#edit: like immediately after I posted this i went back on twitter to double check something and then saw the new#cfm news. jesus christ today has been crazy for vocal synths truly
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