#i am sooooooooooooo mad

[shartfinz]

i saw someone's art and I was like wow that's a neat art style! and when I clicked on their profile I was hit in the face with Dave and Rose making out

I hate everyone who draws that shit go to hell and burn forever!!!

[hypokeimena]

the lack of good hip flexor stretches is proof intelligent design can't possibly be real. there are many things about the body that give me this emotion but my god.

[mad-c1oud]

we’re so back :')

[kimbapisnotsushi]

btw as an asian i’d like to wish all the other asians who fought to end affirmative action a big giant FUCK YOU

[rosicheeks]

It's 8:50am and I'm thinking about why you are not here in bed with me so I can have breakfast in bed 😋👅

- 🐵

Cause you’re across the fucking world 😤

[minkiverse]

CHOI SAN FIC RECS

Poly!Ateez Pt. 1 - Pt. 2 - Kim Hongjoong - Park Seonghwa - Jeong Yunho - Kang Yeosang - Song Mingi - Jung Wooyoung - Choi Jongho

Here it is the behemoth 😭😭 i knew this one was going to take some time but it had multiple delays due to irl stuf but IT IS HERE NOW!!!! except i could not fit it all in one post so a part 2 will come out eventually (after poly!ateez pt 2 most likely) n e ways Shout out this man who harassed my tiktok feed until i became double biased i lov him sosososososooooo much🥹🥹

DISCLAIMER none of these works are mine and majority are MATURE 18+, please read all warnings before reading!!!

Key:

✨ - My Favs

🔥 - Smut (MINORS DNI)

⛈️ - Angst

💗 - Fluff

🍑 - Humor

SERIES

ceilings pt 2 pt 3 - @yoongiseesawmp3 ✨🔥⛈️💗 Single Mom AU ✧ PE Teacher!San

i dont want to spoil anything but there is a good chance you can figure out this trope, which i know is not for everyone BUT I EAT THAT SHIT UP EVERYTIME!!!! this is just the cutest fluffiest lil series i ever read like I LOVE THEM!!!!

The Art of Climbing the Corporate Ladder pt 2 - @ennysbookstore ✨🔥⛈️💗 Office AU

i am still so mad at how long it took me to get around to reading this because man. I LOVE THIS FIC!!!!! i literally was telling my irls about it because the plot twist at the end of pt1 got me so fucking good 😭😭 i am truly in love with this san like i have no other words than please read this two shot it is incredible (also read every other work by this author pls)

ONE SHOTS/DRABBLES

what lies beneath us - @hongism 🔥⛈️💗 College AU

destiny - @tainsan ⛈️💗Time Travel AU ✧ Idol AU

Drowsy - @sxcret-garden 🔥

Am I your favorite? - @deja-yu 💗

Unholy Night - @kitten4sannie 🔥 Priest AU

Untitled - @yourfatherlucifer 🔥

Eggnog Confession - @stayteezdreams 💗

Mr. Jealousy - @sanhwaism 💗🍑

Convince Me - @littleocean-rose 🔥

Untitled - @k-hotchoisan 🔥

Sunrise - @sorryimananti-romantic 🔥💗⛈️ Soldier AU

Untitled - @sxcret-garden 🔥

incubus: coming of age - @byuntrash101 🔥Incubus!San

in the quiet spaces - @honeyhotteoks 🔥💗

Stay Focused - @beginningofwonderland ✨🔥 Office AU ✧ Tutor AU

god the tension between these two 😩😩😩 their banter is so flirty like even when san is helping the mc out with uni stuff its just sooooooooooooo 🤌🤌🤌🤌 it gives off a bit of romcom vibes WHICH I LOVE!~

Dry Humping with San - @littleocean-rose 🔥

chocolate - @mingigoo 🔥 Brother's Best Friend AU

obsession - @cheollipop 🔥 Mafia AU

Untitled - @sxcret-garden 🔥

[7:30 am] - @destiny-fics 🔥

Untitled - @k-hotchoisan 🔥

Tired - @thr34t2sanity 🔥

Untitled - @sxcret-garden 🔥

pool side - @beatteez 🔥

Depths of the Ocean - @joong-of-gold 💗 Office AU ✧ Single Dad!San

Untitled - @jeon-ify 🔥

superstar - @bro-atz 🔥

A Little Secret - @choism 🔥

Untitled - @cheollipop 🔥

Untitled - @orgverse 🔥

choi san boyfriend texts - @koizekomi 🍑

Wander though my body - @armpirate 🔥

misunderstandings w/ san - @beenbaanbuun ⛈️💗

Interlude | Opening Sequence - @luvt0kki 🔥⛈️ Sci-Fi AU

Untitled - @eightmakesonebraincell 💗 Friends to Lovers AU

prelude in e minor - @bro-atz 🔥⛈️ Professor AU ✧ Infidelity

motive - @yunhoszn 🔥 Gym Partner AU

u got it bad - @yoongiseesawmp3 ✨🔥💗 Baseball AU

I LOVE THIS FIC SO MUCH!!!!! how this author writes banter is just so real and funny and you just can't help but be charmed by san and mc!!! as a former sports anime fan, i love a sports au ok it will hit EVERYTIME!! and this is one the bests truly!

Love Death + Robots - @kitten4sannie 🔥⛈️ Cyberpunk AU ✧ Stripper!San

kiss me more - @miirohs 💗

Tall Trees - @sluttywoozi 🔥.⛈️💗 Personal Trainer AU

take a picture - @jeon-ify 🔥

y'know what they say about guitarists - @lomlhwa 🔥 Band AU

stretch marks w/ san - @beenbaanbuun 💗

[8:50pm] - @moamidzyism 🔥Neighbors AU

imagine being in a secret relationship - @byeolbeloved 🔥💗Badyboy!San

cockwarming w/ san - @beenbaanbuun 🔥💗

Boyfriend San - @cheeseceli 💗

roadtrip - @lomlhwa 🔥

leave the window open - @sungbeam 💗 Neighbor AU

crimson - @hwaslayer ✨🔥⛈️ Nightclub AU ✧ Stripper!MC

how these two just fall in love is so beautifully written 😭😭 its such an interesting dynamic but san so forthcoming with his feelings i could melt 🫠🫠 AND THE SMUT IS FUCKING INSANE 😩😩

backstage backshots with san - @kitten4sannie 🔥

the scentist - @k-hotchoisan 🔥Neighbor AU ✧ Scentist!San

steamed milk - @yunhoszn 🔥💗 Barista AU

Last Christmas - @kitten4sannie 🔥⛈️💗 Exes to Lovers AU

It's You - @minisugakoobies 💗 Roommate AU ✧ Best Friend's Brother AU

Stern, but sweet - @bvidzsoo 💗 Teacher AU

Trip Shenanigans - @hee0soo 💗 Dad!San

pretty kitty - @k-hotchoisan 🔥 Hybrid AU

periods w/ choi san - @beenbaanbuun 💗

untitled - @brainddeadd 🔥

Day 8 - @multifandomfantasies ✨🔥

as a large sub!ateez enthusiast this should not be shocking 🫠🫠 i just love a needy desperate san so much and this fic 😩😩 boy does it deliver

gold rush - @kitten4sannie 🔥 Cowboy AU

to taint you soul - @seonghwaddict ✨🔥⛈️ Incubus!San

when i went into reading this i just thought it would be pure demon smut, but like i fell in love with the mc and san so easily 😭😭 like the plot is devastating and how san like just takes care of the mc is soooo 🥺🥺🥺🥺 THE SMUT IS ALSOSDFJSFJOGSJRSGJGJ yeah its good highly recommend 👍👍

untitled - @teeskzagain 🔥

tied up - @beenbaanbuun 🔥

celebrate for you - @cheollipop 🔥💗

untitled - @sluttywonwoo 🔥

too sweet - @yoongiseesawmp3 💗 Model AU

Give in to Me - @hwallazia 🔥

Filthy Lips, Loving Touch - @ja3hwa 🔥💗

Ateez San as your BF - @kisshwa 🍑

boyfriend texts - @beenbaanbuun 🍑

realistic sex with san - @byuntrash101 🔥💗

Underwater - @bvidzsoo 🔥⛈️💗 Greek Mythology AU ✧ Ares!San

kitten fever - @kitten4sannie 🔥 Hybrid AU

head to head - @bro-atz 🔥

middle of the night - @kitten4sannie 🔥

untitled - @choism 🔥

rollin' - @bro-atz 🔥

handy - @hausofwoo 🔥💗

san x chubby!reader - @sluttywoozi 💗

Treat You Better - @starskq 🔥⛈️💗 Friends to Lovers AU

untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Stripper!San

knots - @bro-atz ✨🔥💗 Masseuse AU

i didnt think i had a thing for this au but i love it everytime! when mc just gets a really good fucking massage and then a real good fucking too aaadfsgsgfgdf but this is honestly so intimate and warm feeling and just san man 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

[weewookinard]

The saddest part of me (chapter 13)

Sooooooooooooo

Yes.

This fic has: ex to lovers, BuckTommy, angst with a happy ending, a depiction of ADHD and rejection sensitive dysphoria, platonic Buddie being bestfriend because Eddie FINALLY went to therapy, Hen being worried for her friends, Madney original child character, someone punches someone, everybody is happy for now, even the author

You can find my work on AO3

Excerpt:

“Chim, listen, I know I fucked up. I shouldn’t have left my emotions get the best of me. I am truly sorry that I acted like a fool during your party.” He then bit his lower lip, exchanged a look with his best friend before he continued. “I’m not sorry I punched him though. Plus, Tommy forgave me.” The confession made Bobby react and he turned to his team, a proof that he had been listening to them from the beginning. “He did?” “Bobby, how come a man your age be the biggest gossip ever?” Hen said, visibly amused. “I’m not!” “You are Cap.” Replied Eddie, smiling too, before he turned his attention to Buck, a smug look in his eyes. “But I am too. Tommy really forgave you?” Buck smiled a shy smile, and his head fall into his shoulders. “I guess so, we only exchanged a few texts b-but, you know…” He left his sentence hanging, and the whole crew started cheering. It felt good, really good. It gave him hope.

I'll be a little bit bold tonight and i'll tag all the people that seemed to have an interest for the fic, feel free to dm if you are mad at me ❤️

@goldenhxurs @captainwitharedstar @girlwonder-writes @xofemeraldstars @do-androids-dream-ao3acc @searching-for-the-moon @shaunashipman @nymeria1105 @typicalopposite @kinkley-are-adorkable-flirts @rdng1230 @leandra-winchester @aaronntviet @bangpop91 @theotherbuckley @v88sy @banxnq @laundryandtaxesworld @kinardevans @bidisasterevankinard

[unrelentingforse]

I am genuinely considering taking a break from social media

Queer women in my country are fucking insufferable (I am not from america)

Because tell me why 95% of them are RAGING TERFs????????? Like???? They are seriously mad about pillow princesses, stone tops, butches, THE ADJECTIVES FOR MASCULINE AND FEMININE, and sooooooooooooo much TERFy stuff I literally lose brain cells from reading it!!!!!!!!!!!!

When will we move past this heteronormative bullshit and start treating lesbian and queer culture respectfully??????? Pretty please?????

Like I can't even trust feminist accounts on TikTok because it will not be long before I discover some fuckass video of them hating on trans women and blaming them for misogyny/homophobia/literally anything under the sun

I want to connect to queer people from my country so badly but if you're not transphobic - you're basically alone in this fight

I want to cry.

[teddybeartoji]

okay ima js ask all at once and if i thinknof more ill ask then

1.) when'd u get ur first tat?

- on like a 10 point scale, 10 being the worst pain known to man, how much did it hurt?

2.) which tat of urs hurt the most??

- was it bc of the placement or the type of tat u got?

3.) (u dont have to ans this one if its too personal) but do any of ur tattoos mean anything or do you js like being a canvas for art???

4.) what type of tat styles do you prefer?

- can be on yourself or things you js like

5.) which one of ur tattoos took the longest to do?

-and the quickest too cause why not

6.) what made you get into tatts???

GRAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I'M SOO LATEE DO YOU STILL LOVE MEEEEEEEEEEE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I'M SORRYY

1. iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii got mine rather late actually considering i knew i wanted one wayyy before i turned 18 lmao. iii think i got it when i was 20!!!

the pain was nothingggg lmaoo the tat in on the back of my arm, like above the elbow (?) so there's just soft skin there yk? i almost fell asleep lmao. on a scale of 1 to 10 i would say a 4???? it genuinely didn't feel like anything BUT I AM ALSO. GOOD WITH PAIN. LIKE OVERALL. SO JUST KEEP THAT IN MIND OKAY.

just to add on the pain tolerance thing, or just to prove that i'm good with it i guess lmao the ones i have on my stomach/ribs literally just felt GOOD. like i remember wincing exactly once bc he went over my hipbone but that was it. even one of the other tattoo artists at the studio said "good luck" before leaving ahgshgasghah but they really just feel good. like i genuinely got horny from those:33

2. i didn't think it was gonna hurt the most honestly but it's the one i have on my inner forearm, just below the elbow. so while that's just soft skin too, it's waaayyy more sensitive. there is a chance that it was a bit bc of the tattoo artist too - she was a bit of a beginner. i would give that like a 6 out of 10, maybe even a 7? it wasn't that bad the whole time though, the seven was just when she was doing the inner part of the arm, the most sensitive place. but hehehe i survived!!!

(she also accidentally pricked me with the needle lmao so i have the teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeniest tiniest dot on my hand now:333 but it's so small that i have to really look for it ahshgahgsagh aand i wasn't mad too i thought it was really funny ehehehehe)

JKKKKK I CAME BACK HERE TO TELL YOU THAT I LIEDD I THINK MY MOST PAINFUL ONE WAS THE ONE ON MY FINGER ACTUALLYY I JUST KINDA FORGOT ABT THATT LMAOO but i mean that makes sense doesn't it? it like just on bone so it did not feel good. but since it's not a big tat i didn't have to suffer for long!!!!! aand i definitely want more of them still:333333

3. my tats don't have any meaning!!!!!!!!!!! i obvi don't have anything against tats like that i just haven't felt the need or desire to get smth like that. i am thinking abt getting a mitski "a losing dog" tat and i guess that would have a meaning (said meaning just being that i am a losing dog too but idk how deep that really is lmao)

i see a design i like and i get it!!!!!!!! and i am not opposed to funny silly tats either!!!!!!!!!! like the thigh one i have - "i'm so fucking awesome everyone loves me" i just saw the meme and i've never decided on anything faster. i just knew i had to get that on me. so idk if you know disco elysium but this guy is such a fuckup and i love him with my whole heart he is very relatable and the pic was just so fucking funny too i loved it so much I STILL LOVE IT BTWW my second favourite tattoo<3333333

got it on my 21st birthday too lmao i think that makes it even better

4. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO idk what to really call this style. it's DEFINITELY NOTTTTT for everybody and i completely understand that but i am fucking obsessssedd with it. i am sadly very very very far from where i'd wanna be with my tats, i look nothing like the pics i'm gonna give u but ahhhh one dayy....

tat 1 + tat 2 + tat 3; like these are soooooooooofucking sexy to meee goood goddd my eyes just rolled back inside my headd aaaaaaaaaa i wanna be covered in them pls

and here are two better pics of a few of mine hehe:333 the skulls were the second most painful ones1!!

5. theeee longest was the big black one on my arm!!!!!! but that wasn't that long either imo... three hours maybe? three and a half??? man i can't remember but it wasn't too bad!! almost fell asleep during that one too hahahahah

omg and with this one, i was laying down on my stomach right? and my head was turned to the other side for some time and then yk my neck was getting sore so i turned around and i looked at the machine in his arm and i. hm. so yk how there's like a small needle there... it was no longer a tiny one. it was a WIDE ONE?????? and he saw my eyes go a bit wide and he went thirteen :D COME AGAINN???? thirteen needles in one. i had thirteen of them in me at once :DD and i didn't even feel it ahgsghashhaga the look of it just caught me off guard lmao

AAAAAAAAAAAA and the quickest was the one on my fingerr i think in total i spent like an hour and a half at the studio??? but most of it just went to him trying to get the design on there right bc my fingers are CROOKED AS FUCKKKKK rip.

6. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN INTO THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!! literally for as long as i can remember i thought they were super cool!!!!!!!!!! one of my dad's friends has a sick tat on his forearm (hehehe i think i kinda subconsciously did that one a bit after him yk)(though the designs are very different!!! it's the Vibe)

aaand my mom has tats too even thougghh she's not abt that life anymoreee lmaoo it's kinda funny. and my dad has a bunch now too, but he only got more into it just a little before i did idk i think he was kind of a pussy before or smth.

[thementalshawty]

Hello, for the yes or no questions, please!

My initials are ASLS, leo sun.

1. My first name has 7 letters? (So I can provide feedback haha) 2. Am I traveling overseas this year? 3. Is my fs older than me? 4. Am I meeting my fs this year?

Thank you so much, I'm so happy because when you did your game, I saw it when it was close, and I love your readings! Take care 💓

So lol for your first question while I understand it, lol my guides are attitudey so they gave you the blank speechless card for this BUT they answered you at the BOD and said straight up NAH I WANNA DOCUMENT THIS FOR YOU HERE SO IMMA TAKE A PICTURE! I DONT know if it’s 7 letters they’re saying no to or they’re saying nah they don’t wanna answer cos there’s an unknown & the regular NO! card in the Decc and they could’ve just straight up said we don’t know or no but they wanted to use attitude to either make a point and idk why I’m still typing it’s like I can’t stop don’t worry they’re not mad or offended but I’m seeing my spirits really feel maybe offended because they wanna feel validated I guess you were the only person to ever really call em out BESIDES ME kudos! i hope I nailed it 😂!

For your second question I’m a bit dumbfounded cos I asked if you’d be traveling overseas for ANY REASON AT ALL THIS YEAR and the card MANY came out so I’m seeing this as many reasons, or opportunities cos no shit YOUR BOD FOR THIS ONE IS GOOD LUCC! It’s in Rx, tho sooooooooooooo idk if my guides are being stink cos I’m seeing a snarky face but nothing bad it’s like silly if that makes sense they like you they’re fuccin with you now I think but they wish you goood lucc frfr in your travels!!! You may not recognize the opportunities or be too afraid to go for them I am thinking tooo even tho take a chance didn’t come out im telling you don’t be afraid to take a chance

Your third Question you got a NO! see they know how to say it and use it, but you got takes timeBOD (Bottom of the Decc), BUT IT WAS IN Rx!!!!!!! So that’s annoying the fucc they’re not older they’re not younger cos that in Rx to me means something doesn’t need to take time so I’m not thinking younger or older but maybe the same age, that’s what it’s giving. Frfr.

Your fourth question again my guides are very silly they keep playing with your answers, you got Day, and Most LikelyRxBOD, I’m like yes in a day, or in some days or it can mean you’ll meet during the day but then most likely is in Rx which means it can be this year honestly but it’s blocked cos most times Rx isn’t opposite energy more so BLOCKED OR UNHEALED ENERGY so I’m seeing that it is most likely happening if this blockage is cleared and it can be as simple as you saying yes to a trip which is an oddly specific thing my guides wanted me to point out to you.

I hope that this answers all of your questions and that I was accurate, let me know. You got my guides here being spicy 🥵

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

jane is sooooooooooooo mad that i haven't watched girls band cry episode 11 but i am a sobsplease truther and i will remain diligent in my ideals until the very end

[taintandviolent]

Here me out (unless this has been brought up before then id just be embarrassed) but ya know how jimmy flirts w pretty girls to get em to come to shows? Well I can only imagine how he'd react to a fellow particularly attractive freak doing the same and flirting with boys to get them to come.

I imagine he'd get super possessive (even tho he does the same) but there'd just be something about other guys flirting back in the same way he did with her. Like his ego may get a little bruised at feeling like he wasn't special. I think it would be a good reason to tease him for (hes so transparent, cant hold back his jealousy and anger). It would lead to some pretty good sex to show him just how special he is.

LIKE AM I CRAZY OR AM I CRAZY⁉️ (wishing I was an active writer rn)

i am so hearing you out, anon.

I kind of, almost, sort of, if you squint wrote a fic about a similar concept (jealous Jimmy when a fellow freak goes on a date with / flirts with a guy during the show) but you are sooooooooooooo right anon.

so right, because Jimmy would absolutely crave that validation and he wouldn't let up until he got it, cos despite what you tell him about getting a taste of his own medicine, he'd absolutely insist that, it just ain't the same, baby. It's different when he does it, they don't mean a thing to him, but you're takin' it too far. I can see him getting all puffed up, maybe a little drunk over it, too.

imagine him going to his ma, and complaining and she's over there like "Jimmy, my boy. It's the same damn thing and you're a real jerk for even getting mad at her over it. You go make things right."

sighs forever.

[amie-pandam]

Quick fact about my au!

Ok sooooooooooooo at the beginning I was going to put Chalice as Aroase BUT because I wanted Bendy to get even more angry I put Chalice as an lesbian and I am siping her with Alice angel

(because Bendy HATES Alice he is also mad an Chalice but he has no other choice but to stay with them because his bf (Cuphead) is bff with Chalice🤣)

Rip Bendy

[vinetooth-prime]

I barely follow any gw2 blogs anymore bc I’m nearly always fucking exhausted every time I see a post, now.

[bapydemonprincess]

NETFLIX KUROSHITSUJI II OVAS ARE NOT A SEASON 3 YOU FUCKING SHITHEADS

[holdontokpop]

Realizations - Jungkook scenario (Requested | Fluff/Angst)

@thehopelessromanticclub said: Are you a bank loan? Well, you’ve certainly got my interest. ur ffs are sooooooooooooo damn good. i mean ur existence itself is amazing.....u r one of the finest writers out there, trust me! i just wanted to request a long ff of reader and jungkook. where the reader confesses to him but he kind of rejects her. so she challenges him that she will move in with him and make him fall for her...with lots of fluff and angst if u'd like.....would u plsss do it???*puppy eyes*.

A/N: Hii there, I am sorry for the wait, BUT I hope it's worth the wait! I changed some things up a bit. I hope you don't mind! Ly, have a nice day 😊 💛

Summary: A boy named Jungkook is your childhood crush, and finally, you get the courage to tell your feelings to him, but there's a twist to it.

Members: Jungkook x You

Genre: Fluff / Angst

Warnings: cussing, yelling, fighting, alcohol, cheating

Word count: 2048

Your heart starts beating faster, your hands are sweating. Nervousness washed you over. Your eyes kept looking down at your feet. Jungkook's hand reached yours, taking it in his, but you move it away gently.

"Somehow I never thought my own best friend would do me like this..." you look up at him and laugh a bit. His face wrote "worried" all over it.

"She... She didn't tell me anything and yet knew I liked you for so fucking long..." you spoke and looked away.

"Y/N- I'm sorry." his words left his mouth and you simply nodded your head.

"It's okay... Just one thing is that the two of us are sharing this place... Seeing you with her- You know what? It's fine. I am happy for you, because you're my friend. If you're happy, I am too... For you."

Smile spreads across your face as you touch his shoulder, but you just wanted to cry. It felt like he had feelings for you, too. I guess you were only thinking that way.

"Everything will be the way It always is! I will not let that change." Jungkook got out of the swing, looking at you. Your legs swung a little and you nodded your head.

"Okay, Jungkook."

"Come here-" he spoke, taking your hand, pulling you out of the swing, hugging you tightly. Maybe it felt like a real hug or maybe just a "I'm feeling bad about all this, so I will hug you" type of hug.

For years, Jungkook and you have been friends. Best friends. Over the years, of course, both of you grew and found the things you want to do in your life. To keep and save up some money, the two of you decided to share an apartment where each of you has their room, their privacy, etc... Some of your guys' friends were kind of worried about the two of maybe fighting or something similar.

Basically, the apartment was only for sleeping since the two of you had busy schedules and such and for hangouts.

Way before moving in with Jungkook, secretly, you always felt something towards him. He was just the person who understood you, was always there for you, makes you laugh, etc... In the last year, Jungkook was more affectionate to you. Hugging you more, being closer to you, even sometimes flirt in a way. When at the clubs, parties, the two of you would get so close to each other. Few kisses would fly when both of you were drunk but not being talked about the next day.

Your best friend started to come over more than usual to your place. Everything was normal, like nothing was going on. You never asked Jungkook about his love life, goes both ways. Being that blinded and stupid made you so mad and irritated.

- - -

Time did pass by; somehow, you grew out of those feelings towards Jungkook but knew they were still there. Him and your best friend were still together. Sometimes, watching them cuddling up, hugging, kissing, and such made you so sick. Jungkook, in a way, kept his promise of everything being the same as it did before. He kept trying to talk to you, joke around, and such. That wasn't it anymore. It stopped. When the two of you needed to talk, you did. Maybe you were in the wrong for that same as him, but you just couldn't do it.

Jungkook saw a guy talking to you outside through the window. At first, he didn't think of it as much. He did notice how much you were smiling and him making you laugh. It felt weird to watch you being with someone new? Like he couldn't accept the fact you met someone else and is talking to that person. All of the questionable feelings run through his body. Then the of you kissed. He looked away in that moment, not wanting to watch.

From being best friends to almost just mutual friends did hit him hard sometimes, but never he wanted to show that to you or his girlfriend. He always questioned himself "What if Y/N never told me that?" , "How would our friendship be now if some things didn't happen?".

He was a soft soul, just trying to be tough from the outside.

- - -

After a while, he met your boyfriend, who you have been dating for about 6 months now. His eyes scanned him from head to toe. His hand gripped on his hard, and he fake smiled at him. Jungkook asked you politely if you had a few minutes to spare to talk to him.

You were surprised actually. Jungkook pulled you through the hall, to the kitchen. His body moves closer to yours.

"That guy?!" out of all the things he could say, he said that, whispering. You raise your eyebrows and move away from him.

"What about him, Jungkook? You just met him and have already something negative to say!?" you whisper back, wanting to shout actually being completely out of your mind.

"I don't like him."

"Jungkook-"

"He just- He isn't a good guy for you, and I can FEEL it." Jungkook points at himself, staring at you

"You are being weird now Jungkook. Since when do you even care about me or who am I dating?" you look back, just to check if anyone is coming by.

"Y/N- I never even stopped caring about you. We just somehow stopped hanging out or talking that much. But I can assure you, I saw you many times and-"

"Jungkook, were you watching me??"

"No, just sometimes I just happen to be at the time the two of you kiss or something like that"

The two of you just stared at each other for a few seconds. You didn't know how to feel or what to think of his sayings. It all felt just too many new things at the same time.

"I'm sorry Y/N... For everything... I'll just go now, I don't want any of them to suspect something... Let's have a good night out!"

Smile formed across his face, and he quickly passed by. The night was going really well. All of you were drinking, getting prepared for the club. Cheering one last time before going out, Jungkook and you shared a long eye contact. Both of your hearts would start beating just a little faster.

The group of friends met you at the club, which was already packet. It felt so nice to feel the music and great atmosphere in the air. All of you danced, had quite a lot of drinks. It was all about having fun and being together. Looking to your side, you see Jungkook and his girlfriend sitting on his lap, the two making out, being all over it each other. You didn't want to watch, but just for a split second, I wanted to know how she feels. How is it to be in that position as her? For a long time, you didn't feel this way. It was wrong to feel this way since you have a boyfriend by your side. Jungkook's eyes met yours; the energy that went through your body gave you chills. This time, both of you didn't look away. Jungkook slowly bit on his lower lip and gave you a little nod, before he looked away.

"I am not feeling good... I am going to get some fresh air!" You shout to your boyfriend and slowly find your way out. Jungkook saw you going out alone and made his way to you. Drinks were hitting him hard, but he managed to stay on his feet. He saw you standing near-by the club.

"Hey..." he spoke up, standing in front of you catching you by a suprise.

"What are you doing here, outside? Your girlfriend will look for you." You spoke and Jungkook rolled his eyes being annoyed by your sentence. He took a deep breath and looked around.

"Well... Let her look for me then, I don't care. I want to be with you." He leaned towards you, placing his hand on the wall beside you

"Um... Jungkook... You stink out of alcohol!" Both of you laughed, and he nodded his head in agreement

"Always the same things... You used to say that all the time Y/N-" he looked up, his eyes being very sparkly, a little red. His hair falling over his forehead. This perfume of his that was always one of your favorites.

"You're too close Jungkook-"

"So? Let me be-"

He said softly before kissing you hard. The air felt sexual and hard. Just "wanting more" kind of energy. Happiness above all, but then it hits you. You're cheating. He's cheating. This is wrong. By doing the wrong thing, it made you feel like it was actually the right thing to do. Both of you didn't want it to end.

You placed your hands on his chest, pulling him away quickly. Jungkook looked at you in suprise, but knew what's up. His eyes go wide and he steps back a little.

"Oh shit- Oh fuck me... What have I done?" Jungkook placed his hand over his head.

"No one has to know. We'll just pretend it never happened- Like we always did..." You spoke up

Your boyfriend came storming out of the club. He was mad as he saw Jungkook standing near by you.

"The fuck are you doing with him?!" he shouted at you

"We- We just talked nothing else-"

"I don't care! You don't need to talk to him. You can't!"

Jungkook snapped out of the bad thoughts and looked at your boyfriend being too close to you, getting into your face, shouting at you.

"Hey- Get the fuck away from her!" His hands would reach onto his clothes, pulling him away from you. He was ready to fight. Ready to kick his ass because of the way he treated you.

Managing to come in between them, you stop them. You faced Jungkook in that position. He was breathing heavy and quickly, his hands being formed into fists. Your hand, without your boyfriend noticing, places on Jungkook's. Just to calm him a little bit. You didn't understand why he was doing all this. He never did, never stood up for you like this.

Jungkook's dark brown eyes fall down on yours. He observed your face; just the way you're trying to calm him makes him feel all kinds of ways. His heartbeat raced up; he wanted to kiss you more and be with you more than ever. He wanted to cry because of everything that had happened in the past.

It was the moment of realization for Jungkook. All this time, as soon as you got yourself a boyfriend, he was jealous. What if he always has felt something for you but was too afraid to tell you or ruin the friendship you two had?

"Y/N I'm sorry..." he spoke quietly, looking up and down at you and walked away.

Turning around you just gave a look to your boyfriend and followed Jungkook. He kept walking, being angry at himself, at everything. When there was a nearby bench, he sat down taking a deep breath, closing his eyes.

"Why are you walking away Jungkook?" he hears your soft, innocent voice. As he opens his eyes there you were stabding in front of him.

"Why are you following me?"

"Maybe because you need to do some explaining" you cross your arms over your chest, he starts laughinga bit and stands up. Jungkook took a step towards you.

"I don't know, but I think this is your lucky night because Y/N... I just realized I was too afraid to ever actually admit to my feelings for you"

"I fucking never should have let you go." he added, placing his hands on each side of your face, looking at you with a smile.

"Y/N, I want to treat you right and be with you, but.... Let's forget all this. Let's start over, please."

He leaned in for a kiss. His lips tasted as the alcohol he drank. His warmth felt nice as it was close to you.

"Jungkook-"

"Shh... Just enjoy the moment before it becomes a memory." He cuts you off by kissing you again, pulling you in even closer, harder.