#i am sooooooooooooo pissed

[kimbapisnotsushi]

btw as an asian i’d like to wish all the other asians who fought to end affirmative action a big giant FUCK YOU

[coredrill]

LMAO

[thepenguinhbo]

okay so I know your opinion on oc/canon but I am curious about to hear your thoughts on why it's so good? if that makes sense?

i think i get what you mean, so lemme elaborate: there are a couple reasons for that.

first and more obvious one, i get to explore a pre-established world from a new point of view, and work out a fresh perspective on already existing characters. which has less to do w/ shipping and more to do w/ ocs in general - they are a good mental excercise.

secondly, oc/canon is the most easily customizable canon-adjacent shipping experience. if i look at a fictional guy (or a lady) and think "man, wouldn't it be nice if they were loved by someone (for example) gentle and kind" i can just... make up the exact sort of person i have in mind, without worrying about bending canon relationships too much. yes, i'm aware what "i respect canon" sounds like coming from a known oc liker like me, but there is nuance to it, dammit. canon relationships are frequently interesting as they are, without the additional modifiers. if i want, for example, for my blorbo prime to be loved, i don't have to touch what he has going on with bruce, or vicki, or harvey, or selina - i can just make up a person to love him, and let everyone else treat him as they already do, without making things any weirder than they already are.

and thirdly - it just is so... cathartic. my ocs are not self-inserts by any means, but they all carry some *parts* of me, from overall depression and anxiety, to frankie's white-hot fury directed at how her parents seem to either not give a fuck, or only give a fuck if it benefits them. and it is very gratifying and cathartic to make up a character who carries some of my traits, and then ends up loved by someone i already am very invested into.

also oc/canon ships seem to piss some people off sooooooooooooo much, and unfortunately i like being very annoying to certain people lol

[frogsandfries]

I don't know what's got me on this, but I'm really down in my feels on my whole fertility thing.....

I don't think it's POI, so that should have me feeling positive. I really think it's somehow related to the onset of my depression, though I have no idea how and even less of an idea how to get a gyno to investigate that for me....... All I can think was, depression is your body thinking it's protecting itself. How was it I heard explained once: You're a cave man* and you're really sinking all your time and energy into this project and it's not working out and it's becoming winter. You can't pour the same energy into this project in winter, it might literally kill you, so your body shuts down.

My depression set in when I had a glimpse of life without the..... person who gave birth to me, and then that opportunity seemed snatched away. My body shut down.

I was watching the new video by Mama Doctor Jones on YouTube about the gal who believes/understands that she had POI and her experience wasn't my experience at all (she's black so getting a doctor to listen to her, take her seriously, never even mind treat her makes me want to grind my teeth into paste; working in healthcare, I hear this all the time and it pisses me off, Idon't know what else to recommend except asking the doctor to document refusal to treat, and I'm really glad I learned that). I strongly do not believe I have POI; I only had one of the listed, common symptoms and I never experienced hot flashes. I've only experienced night sweating since starting my anti-d. I have no problem with vaginal elasticity or dryness, sorry for the TMI. Sooooooooooooo............

My body went through nearly ten years of damage from depression. I'm only just now getting any kind of hint of normal Flow, again, sorry for TMI, but also this is cut, so you're here voluntarily. I guess I'm lucky that I had a chance to get steep intervention to begin, but now any further solutions are coming out of my own pocket.

I'm pretty terrible at making friends, never even mind meeting people. I considered joining the book binding group here, but........ compared to what I could be joining in my "hometown"........... it just made me sad and kinda frustrated. I wanna make beautiful, proper books, not necessarily Shereen LaPlantz artsy objet d'fartsy books.

A "friend's" parents suggested to me to join a church, but that feels disingenuous, considering, y'know, I'm more atheist than agnostic. I don't need the threat of some post-life "paradise" being withheld from me to cause me to be a good person. I do good and am I good person because I like having good things happen and be done to me, and when you are a good person, more good comes back to you. I am, intrinsically, a selfish, self-interested being like a great many other creatures on this planet.

Anyway, church feels like lying, but where the fuck else am I supposed to meet anybody? How?? You don't really go to cafes to meet people. The book making group meets practically outside of the city. The city I live in now isn't like, the most creative place to be........ I'm the worst at socializing on the internet in places like Facebook groups, Discords, anywhere that people might interact in real time. I just get lost doing my thing here irl.

I guess I just feel kinda doomed. Most of the guys in the local dating scene are......... so outdoorsy and I'm a real homebody. You can't really bind a book while hiking. Plus, no one really replies, or if they do, turns out they're boring.

I should take a shower and go to bed......

[starshinegoblin]

LIVE REVIEW: THE WHOLE TRUTH

I've seen that quote before! I love it!

Oh! I haven't seen Punpun aka Punpun Sutatta Udomsilp in a hot second! She's amazing and I am happy to see her in this film!

No she ain't a bitch; you're a POS for trying to assault her.

What's the clip? Hey, we need some backstory! OMG LINE! I haven't seen that in a hot second. But this is a 2021 movie

wait, did you just tell your daughter to forget about almost being assaulted by her brother's friend? Because he doesn't have that many friends?

welp remember that was the last thing you said to your daughter.

Coma it is and creep grandparents your mum never told you about. So very helpful and beyond creepy.

at least they have pictures to make it less creepy? Nope some them have been burned out sooooooooooooo not cool!

I don't think that's senile behavior sounds like dementia. OOO SPOT ON!

Why do they zoom in on her face so much. we get it fam, she is scared like her brother.

Well aint' that creepy as shit.

Dude I be pissed about the cat too

You've not noticed the hole before? Well that explains it. Only the kids can see it.

Uh...where's what's supposed to be there? These two are so kreeepy

Fame needs to like go away. I can't wait for him to be gone.

Can we get to the part that we find out what happened to Putt.

Uh well its more that Fame is a master kreep!

YES! PIM GET RID OF THAT ASS

YAY THEIR MOTHER IS AWAKE! Wait...she knew?

Wait...grandma pretended to not see the hole?

wait there is actual light coming from the hole nowwwwwwwwwwww

Oh wow! Poor Pim and Putt! They've suffered the loss of their eldest sister and finding out sooo much!

What's in that milk though?!

OH NO!

GRANDMA YOU'RE CRAZZZY

Everything comes full circle now! TITLE: The Whole Truth RATING: 4/5 Favorite Scene: The ending scene with Pim and the Ghost humming their song. Is it Rewatchable: Yes! Warnings? There isn't anything too graphic except blood spitting. All actual murders are fade to black.

[breitzbachbea]

I cannot find a single medieval latin dictionary that is accessible to the point of words starting with s. I am going to commit crimes now.

I was flying so high and then Fabri gotta slap me in the face. Boy what the fuck is this word.

[lexa-kom-skaikru]

Also, if they kill Abby off by having her sacrifice herself I am gonna be SOOOOOOOOOOOOO pissed.

I would be mad at any given day for killing Abby off but if they do it after she confessed her feelings for Mel, and when we know she has a need for validation and her sacrifice would be a way of seeking that instead of her finally accepting herself as she is... ohhhhhh I will punch someone.

Rule #1: Don’t kill off an LGBT character!

Rule #2: Don’t kill off a survivor of abuse!

Rule #3: Don’t kill off a character who struggles with self worth by having her sacrificing herself to feel validated by others!

I could go on and on and on, but bottom-line is DON’T KILL OFF ABIGAEL JAMESON CAINE! Everything about that character will set off a red flag of bad messaging if you kill her off.

That is assuming that Poppy really is leaving the show, as I have seen people talking about it.

[rotblut]

Thoughts on sweet home? Your rating?

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GOD I AM PISSED OFF ABOUT THAT FUCKING ADAPTATION. that was a shitty way to adapt a perfectly paced, well-structured, written, and character-driven plot from the webtoon into a messy and confusing drama. and I am mostly speaking about the writing that was a big no from me. the biggest problem for me was the writing for 85% of the time. acting was amazing and have no problem with that (aside from 1 criminal). my problem was how it was written. 

if I hadn’t read the webtoon i would be so confused about it all. and I know the webtoon wasn’t finished while they were shooting the drama, so why didn’t or couldn’t they adapt faithfully the first 70 chapters in the first 10 eps (season1) and the last 71 chapters into season 2 (because from that fucking open-ended cliffhanger they sure as hell want to make a season 2). and I know dramas can never be as faithful to a webtoon but still :(((((((((( that shit was insulting they came up with instead.

they kept 30% of the webtoon and said fuck to the rest of the plot that was thhere. the new written plot for the drama was obnoxious af and not needed and hardly better than the plot that was in the webtoon. characters that were in the webtoon were reduced to the minimum or completely re-written, or personalities-events switched. minor side characters were terribly dumb. also, fuck the unnecessary violence. the only new character that was made for the drama who i  liked was the pregnant women (and she did a looooooooooooooooot. like they made her do a looooooooooooooooooot of stuff.) but the subplot that they specifically wrote for her??????? NAh, wasn’t a fan of that at all. the actress was amazing tho.

sooooooooooooo many fucking plotholes, the monsters conveniently disappearing and showing up when needed to show up made no sense. also fuck the director for hiring the r*pist to play a character named wook. his character was completely re-written and i hated both him and his newly written character. the only thing they kept was his name and his new subplot was fucking terrible but fuck him to the infinite for his real life crimes. (ironic how they hired a r*pist to play a character in the drama who’s after revenge and murders a guy who's a p*do and r*pist too.......................)

Park Gyu Young as Yoon Ji Su was hardly present at all in the drama the way she was in the webtoon. she was reduced to the bare minimum, even tho her character was one of the main characters but honestly she was better here than in psycho but okay......but not that exciting to me either. really liked Park Gyu Young as Yoon Ji Su too and his character more or less was the same as he was in the webtoon but in the drama he went out with a bigger banger. (also them making him an ex-alcoholic was not needed but oh well). loved the 2 old guys too they had more screentime in the drama but also at the same time they didn’t because in the webtoon they were like father figures to hyun and here it didn’t really work well because of time restrictions. Go Yoon Jung’s character was great too but she was most of the time with the r*pist so that was a no for me. 

ANYWAY THE HIGHLIGHT FOR ME was song kang, lee do hyun and go min shi. PERFECT CASTING FOR THEM. PERFECT. LOVED IT. LOVED IT. WANTED MORE. WANTED A LOOOOOOOOOOOOT MORE WITH THEM TOGETHER. the progression of her being a tsundere and all cold and rough on the outside but inside she’s hurt and she just loves her big brother and hyun so much. I did enjoy how they gave her more screen time in the drama and made her more flashed out because in the webtoon she’s more of a comedic character (aside from the last 20 chapters). and I did enjoy those changes a lot and that they focused on her as the main romantic love interest for hyun. she was really perfect and she could balance the rudeness with the tenderness and the comedy with the serious scenes so well. they did give her some plot points that belonged originally to Yoon Ji Su in the webtoon.  also the chemistry with the 2 boys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I watched her act with song kang in love alarm too and i haven’t seen it there because i didn’t like the way her character was written there. but here......yeahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!)

LEE DO HYUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he did what he had to do and he’s the perfect hyuk. the way he loves his lil sister soooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE LOVE HE HAS FOR HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEST BROTHER LIKE BEST BROTHHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIM and sang tae for best bros of 2020!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was a big part of his character in the webtoon and I am glad they kept that. I do wish that they would have made him sometimes even more of an asshole. wished him and song kang had more scenes together. sad they erased his otaku loving self that he had in the webtoon and for that very reason was connected to hyun in a way the others weren’t.  missed the frenemy scenes between them. his *ending* (sacrifice in the webtoon) was much more meaningful in the webtoon. I mean I did cry like a lil bitch at him saying goodbye to his sis and all that because i love my siblings and i love him and it was powerful but something was missing. 

SONG KANG SAID THAT HE IS AN ACTOR!!!!!!!!!! LOOK at him act and act well and I am so proud like he did his part in love alarm too but that was hardly challenging acting lmaooooo. again, i am bitter they diminished his otaku self because in the webtoon (i shit you not) he overcomes his inner greed into turning into a monster a loooooooooooooot of the time with the power of the anime-webtoon-gaming gods and his obsession and enjoyment over 1 female character and her knight sidekick. the fanboy inside him was living and the reason for him to survive that long. so I was really sad tthat hey reduced that part because aside from him playing a fps in the first few eps it was hardly important. also wished they went more into his struggle with his inner greed-filled asshole self-monster (I loved those scenes in the webtoon). his webtoon persona was sooooooooooooo rich and it was such a satisfying way to read his character progression and what made him into a hikikomori and how he struggled with his past and how he slowly overcomes it. So sad they reduced that. 

also forgot about acting king  Kim Sung Chul as the antagonist was amazing but his character in the webtoon had so much more depth but of course in 2 eps you can’t achieve that. still he did that!

I can go on and on but anyway. the ost was nice, i don’t even care about the sometimes tacky looking cgi because that wasn’t really the problem here and i expected something like that. but MY BIG PROBLEM WAS THE FUCKING WRITING FOR THAT DRAMA and for 80% of the time it failed me deeply and it hurt because i wanted to love it and i do like some aspects a loooooooot but fuck it was a mess. alice in borderland did it better. LIKE THEY DID A LOOOOOOOOOOOOT BETTER. and will i gif it? YES. disliking a lot of aspects of a drama doesn’t stop me from not giffing it. but i do wish the writing was better. I’ll give it a 3/10 because they fucked up way too much when it comes to the writing. 

[tartts]

So was just strolling down your Twitter, and I see that you don’t like Six of crows and honestly I’ve never been more happy!. I sometimes feel like I’m the only one who detested that book, but I’m happy I’m not alone in not liking it.

I’ve probably talked about it on here before but years ago. I liked the characters well enough but thought the book itself was sooooooooooooo boring and all the flashbacks quite literally drove me insane. There were so many it started pissing me off. The book was like 75% flashbacks that weren’t even important to the plot, just like backstory. If you take all those out, it would be maybe a novella, and that’s not worth reading to me. Like, I disliked it so much that it made me super wary of multiple POV books to this very day. (However I am coming to realize it’s not that multiple POV books are bad in general, it’s just those ones) And I read it when everyone was hyping it up initially (like before CK was out) and was like “am I reading a different book than the rest of you guys or what??” because I do not get the hype. To each their own about it but yeahhhhh I’m not a fan of LB in general. All of her stuff I’ve read is subpar and underwhelming. It really disappointed (and confused) me.

Anyway, if you want YA fantasy heists with diverse group of characters that isn’t boring enough to make you want to gouge your eyeballs out and written by an author of color, read The Gilded Wolves.

[nothing-but-kpop-dreams]

EXO Reaction: Wanting cuddles after a long day (request)

Xiumin:

You sat at your desk without a care in the world. Actually that is a lie, you were doing some last minute homework that you had been putting off and it was due in the morning. So you were actually dying a thousand deaths as you bullshitted ever words in your dumb essay. Music was the only thing that was keeping you from a having some type of total breakdown. You had your music so loud that it blocked everything around you.

Loud music, however, probably wasn't a good thing because you didn’t at all hear your front door opening and a little someone walking around your place calling out for you. You almost screamed the second he ripped your earbuds out your ears

“Minseok! You practically gave me a heart attack!” you gasped looking up at his just as shocked expression

“I’m sorry!” he laughed before he threw himself all over you and brought you into the tightest hug ever. “I didn’t mean to scare you!”

“What are you even doing here?”

“Um, can a boyfriend not come over to his girlfriend’s place?” he asked sarcastically before giving you a kiss

“Well he can, but a heads up would be nice.”

“Well if someone read my texts or answered my call they would know I would be coming by. Good thing I know your pincode or I would have been out in that hall all night!”

“No offense, cuz I love you and all, but what are you even doing here?”

He broke his hug and went over to the corner of your room and grabbed the extra desk chair you were too lazy to throw out. He rolled back over and held you just like before. “We had a pretty shitty practice today and I am pretty pissed with just about everyone. I thought I’d spend the rest of the night with my favorite person!”

Now that deserved another kiss. “Aww baby you're too cute sometimes, but I am finishing my work” you grumbled. You can stay, obviously, but I’m just gonna be working on this most of the night.” you pouted.

“Well you finish up and I’ll just lay in the bed. Prepare for cuddles when you are finished because I feel we both deserve it!”

Suho:

He hadn’t touched his plate at all. He only sat in silence pouting to himself as he just stared at the food. For a few minutes you let it slide, thinking he was lost in thought, but now it was starting to worry you a bit.

“You okay?” you asked after you waved your hand in front of him to get his attention on you.

“Yeah.” he mumbled.

It was obvious he was lying His stress showed not only in his voice, but the way he tensed his shoulders

“It seems like you're not.”

“I said I’m fine!” he snapped at you.

That’s when you “calmly” placed your spoon down. “Junmyeon I know when there is something going on with you so just tell me.”

“It’s just a lot of shit that’s all.”

“So tell me about it.”

“Nah.”

“Junmyoen.”

“...Things are just going to shit at work alright! We can’t getting anything done for exo when everyone is off doing their side shit. I have been begging them for lighter schedules and they don't listen to me! And I feel I haven't slept in days cuz I am either on set or in practice! If I can even call it that anymore.” he said in a huff. “Honestly like half of us don't even have the time to go to practice, but they expect me to get everyone there!”

You had noticed for weeks that he was tired but now that he was saying it all, you could really see the dark bags under his eyes and how sunken in his cheeks were. That’s when you took it upon yourself to pull him into a hug, a sad attempt to bring him back together.

“I just can't find a way out you know?” he whimpered in your arms.

“I know baby, but you got this! You did it before you just gotta do it again!” you did our best to be motivational.

He wrapped his arms around you, resting his face into your neck. “Sorry I snapped at you.”

“It’s alright.” you said rubbing his back and then running your fingers in his hair.

“Can we just stay like this for awhile?” he asked shyly.

“We can stay like this all night if you want to”

Lay:

“Finally you are home!” you heard his excited cheer the second you stepped foot in the apartment.

Before you knew it, you were wrapped in his arms being carried to the couch and placed on his lap. It all happened so fast, you didn’t know what was going on

The moment was like something out of the twilight zone. This whole situation was usually the other way around. But right now Lay was the one throwing himself all over you so happy to see you.

“Hey babe. “ you finally said after you realized what was happening.

“I missed you! I didn't see you all day! I didn't think you would be gone this long!”

“What do you mean? I’m always home at this time. It’s you that’s never here!” you chuckled “Actually why are you home this early?

He rested back, so that you could lean on him a bit more comfortably. “It was only a photo shoot so I was able to get home early. When I got home, I didn't call you cuz I wanted to surprise you, but you never got here!” he pouted.

“Aw sorry baby, I was out with my friend all day helping her plan a surprise party. You could have called!”

“Yeeeeeeah, but I would have given it away that I was home early. But oh my goodness it was so exhausting waiting for you. The hours went by so slow!”

“What did you do all day?”

“I tried to clean and tried to cook… but things didn't work out soooo.... Yeah tomorrow don't be surprised if a few things don't work like they should”

Baekhyun:

“Can’t we just go back to the hotel?!?” he whined for the millionth time within 

the past half hour.

“But I want to go on this ride!’

“But we already rode it in the morning! We’ve been here all day and I just want to go back to the hotel!” he cried

“C’mon, that’s not fair we rode your water ride like five times!”

“But that was before I was tired” he said with a guilty smile. “C’mon let’s go back to the hotel We can cuddle.” he offered with a smirk

“...No! Not until after this ride.”

That’s when his shoulders slumped and he made the deepest frown. “But I’m tired!”

“Then you go back to the room. I’m going on this ride no matter what.”

“But I don’t want to be without you!” he cried as he threw his body on your back.

“Baek, get off your heavy.”

“No!”

“This isn’t going to make me get out of the line you know.”

“But it’s gonna be another half hour before we get to ride!” he reasoned as he held you tighter. “I just want to be back on the hotel in the bed, holding you like this all nice and comfortable and then we just fall asleep after walking around this place for like 10 hours.”

“And we can... after this last ride!”

“Uggggggh!” he grunted right into your ear. “Fine! But you know what, I’m sleepy. I am just gonna sleep right here while we wait.”

Suddenly his whole body went on limp on your shoulders and you tried your best not to fall down

“Baek! Seriously how old are you?!?”

Chen:

The front door opened and you could hear his footsteps moving about the place. He was home. You were unfortunate enough to still be stuck washing the dishes, unable to make your escape to the bedroom.

You felt his presence behind you before his arms wrapped around your shoulders. Still upset with him, you shrugged him off you and continued to busy yourself with the dishes.

“You’re still mad I see… safe to assume you didn't see my texts either.“ He said in a huff as he leaned against the counter to try to make eye contact.

You said nothing. You were still the the middle of your silent treatment. After the things he said in the morning, you could probably not talk to him for a week. As for his texts, you did see them, but you didn't reply. Sure he “apologized” like 10 times, but it still didn’t make up for anything.

He stood in silence until you finished the dishes, only helping you dry and put them away.

It wasn’t until you were drying your hands that he made a second attempt to hold you

“I’m stupid” he said before you could push him away “I took the joke too far. I’m sorry.” He said sincerely.

You didn’t push him off this time. Finally he said something that you wanted to hear instead of just excuses for what he said.

He pressed his cheek up against yours. “You know I felt shitty this whole day? I felt really bad that I hurt your feelings. And it sucked that you wouldn’t reply to me.” he said with a pout.  “Can you please talk to me again? Please? Pretty please?

“...Okay.”

Instantly his arms tightened around you. “...wait, why aren’t you hugging me back?” he pouted

“Because all you wanted me to do was talk to you again.”

“Ya Jagi, tell me you aren’t still mad.”

“I might be, I might not be”

“Jagi pleeeeeeeease forgive me! I promise I won’t joke like that anymore!” he begged,

“Okay, you are forgiven.” but still you didn’t hug him back.

“Then why aren’t you hugging me?”

“You didn’t say please.”

“Then please hug me and kiss me and cuddle me and and love me and slap me across the face if I ever fuck up again!”

Chanyeol:

“I am sooooooooooooo tired!” he huffed from the screen you held in your hand

“I could only imagine.” you said with pity as you rested in your own bed wrapped in a blanket. “This was the third night in a row you perform. And then you have to wake up early and leave for Hong kong in the morning!” even you were feeling the stress the the tour.

“Don’t remind me.” he whined.

“You should probably go to sleep now. I don’t want you to be tired.”

“No, I want to keep talking to you. I miss you!”

“I miss you too.”

“I wish you could be on tour with us. I wish you were here so I could cuddle you. I really need one of your head messages right now. I like the way you move your fingers through my hair.”

“Aww, but don’t worry, the next few weeks are going to go by fast and before you know it you’re going to start wishing you could get out of my cuddles!”

D.O:

You were attending to the last load of clothes when you heard the front door open followed by the sound of a few things dropping to the floor. After making the short journey to the living room, you found your boyfriend collapsed on the couch with his things thrown at the door.

“Hi baby.” you smiled as you walked up to him, leaning down to give him a kiss.

“Hi.” he barely got out as he threw his tired and heavy arms around your waist.

You attempted to pull away and go back to the clothes, but his refused to unlink his hands.

You took it as a sign for another kiss. Very quickly did you give him a peck, however, your second attempts to break free was a fail.

“Babe, let me go.” you giggled in your awkward stance, not wanting to lean on him too much when it was obvious he was tired from practice.

“No!” he whined

That’s when you decided to situate yourself in the awkward empty spot next to him. “Aw, does someone want cuddles?”

“Maybe.” he said with a straight face, but refused to let go of you

All you did was giggle as he held you tighter and rested his chin on your shoulder.

Kai:

“Y/n what are you doing here?!?” you could hear a tired voice ask you from the other end of the hall.

You looked up from you spot on the floor to find 9 boys sluggishly making their way to their apartment door.

“I came for movie night. Remember?” But taking another look at everyone, they looked way too tired to be up another minute “But we can change it to another time. You guys seems tired.” you said getting up from the floor and gathering your things.

“No! You don’t have to leave we are still up for the movie. Right guys?” Kai asked, coming out from the crowd and greeting you with a weak hug.

“Yeah!” the guys said

“It’s fine you guys we don’t have to!” You insisted.

“Alright I guess I’ll stay then.”

With tired smiles, you all filed into the dorm and situated yourselves amongst the couches and loveseats in the living room and soon the movie was on.

You took a seat next to you boyfriend, handing him the bowl of popcorn you made. It was obvious how tired he was when he just took the bowl and passed it to the other members without grabbing a handful for himself.

Not even five minutes into the movie Kai was already fidgeting in his seat. His shifted his body weight on to you a bit, made D.O scoot over, placed his arm from on your shoulder to behind your back and rested his head on your shoulder. You embraced him, leaning on the arm rest so that he can lay on you more comfortably. You couldn't help but smile with how cuddly he was.

“Awwwww, look at littleNnini!” you could hear Baekhyun’ s high voice cut over the movie.

“Aww look at the little baby!” “So cuuuuuuuuute!” The others began

“Shut up!” Kai only mumbled. “You all are just jealous.” he said as he held you tighter

Sehun:

“Nooooooooooooooo!” You suddenly heard the depressed cry fill the place

Quickly you ran to the source of the sound, Vivi walking past you and going to the bedroom..

On the living room floor, still in his dirty practice clothes, you found your six foot tall boyfriend sprawled all over the floor with the biggest frown.

“Sehun?!” you were at all levels of surprised. You didn’t even know he came in, you didn’t know why he was on the floor or what he was crying about.

“What happened?!? Are you okay? Can you get up?!” you rambled, grabbing one of his hands and trying to help him up.

“No!” He cried pulling his hand away. “I am where I belong!” he sighed dramatically.

“What do you mean?”

“I have been treated like dirt all day today, so I am staying where I belong! On the floor!”

“Awww, baby! Really? What happened?!?” you asked as you crouched down next to him.

“I have been everyone’s punching bag today! It is only okay when I do it. And I came home and just tried to cuddle Vivi and even he didn’t want to deal with me!”

“Awwwwww” you pouted as you maneuvered yourself to lie down next to him and hold in in the tightest hug “Then I will cuddle you!”

“All night?”  he asked innocently, hanging on to you.

“For sure! And you aren’t dirt don’t ever think that.”

-Admin Boat

[drakorn]

Second Tanz Vienna Viewing

I saw Tanz a second time in Vienna now! I had a slightly different cast this time around, so let me talk about these people :D

Graf von Krolock - Filippo Strocchi. Oh my God, he is SO different to Florian Fetterle in every way. This Krolock is way more romantic and melancholic. Florian seemed like a Krolock who has completely given up on his humanity apart from his noble disciplines and duties. Filippo seems to be a Krolock who desperately tries to cling on to every human thing he can find. He definitely wants more from Sarah than just her blood. He can also switch from a deep warm voice to a higher soothing mysterious voice. And Filippo does a great Drew impression O.o Honestly, during a few parts I thought I was hearing Drew.  Yes, there is a slight Italian accent, but honestly...I didn’t mind it! Filippo is a great Krolock and very well deserved the role! I also loved how during Totale Finsternis, he was not going full energetic like most Krolocks. He was surprisingly quieter as if he was deep in thought about the whole situation during the entire song. And during Unstillbare Gier, he just pours his heart out. I also liked how, during Tanzsaal, before he goes to bite Sarah, he stops and looks back at Herbert, who just nods. Father and Son smile at each other and then he advances to the bite. As I said, Filippo is a fantastic Krolock!

Professor Abronsius - Sebastian Brandmeir. I already saw him in St. Gallen, so I was excited to see his rendition of the Vienna Abronsius. And wow...he acted SO differently compared to St. Gallen (where Abronsius is much younger). He has great comedic timing and during Wahrheit, he even switches into operatic voice during the higher parts XD His freak out in the crypt was sooooooooooooo drawn out and it was perfect XD Gernot Kranner has been my favourite Abronsius for a long time, but I think, Sebastian took the spot. Or at least they share the spot. He is definitely a fantastic Abronsius and deserves all the praise he gets.

Herbert - Charles Kreische. This is a VERY different Herbert. This Herbert is not as childish as a lot of them are. This Herbert is colder and a bit more aggressive even. He also has a slightly deeper voice than many Herberts do. But it worked! He still has the great comedic timing, just in a slightly different way. He likes to play with his food, which is shown during Wenn Liebe in dir ist. Charles is a bit closer to Movie!Herbert, I think, a Malfoy-esque character who knows his position of power and will use it. But he also like to joke and play around. And when he is evil, like in Carpe Noctem or Finale 2, he IS evil. Charles definitely brings a breath of fresh air to Herbert in the best way possible.

Rebecca - Tanja Petrasek. I saw Tanja in Artus- Excalibur already, where she played Guinevere, so her name was familiar to me. I think she did good, this Rebecca is a bit more pissed off at Chagal XD And she definitely knows what’s up. She really enjoyed beating the hell out of her unfaithful husband. Very different to Dawn but also very good!

So yeah, those are the cast members I can review this time around. Let’s see what happens on next Wednesday, where I finally get to see Mark Seibert as Krolock. I am very curious for how this will go!

[sofakingmanyrecords]

This is my favorite Buck Owens song. First heard it on a best of CD about 13 years ago. I loved the fuzz guitar on it, plus I’d always loved Buck’s Bakersfield twang. While I have seen many Buck Owens records in the wild, they either never had this song on the LP of the vinyl was so scorched I wasn’t gonna put it on my turntable (and I’ll put some pretty wrecked wax on my platter)

Sometime this summer I saw this 45 on ebay for a price I was willing to pay and was happy when this mint 45 arrived. This fall I bought an instrumental Buck Owens record plus a Ventures LP off a dude on discogs who I saw was in the Cleveland area, so I asked if we could meet somewhere or I could pickup from him. Turns out he too lives in Euclid, about 2 miles north of me, and is a somewhat well known record nerd/guitarist of garage/punk bands for hire (or was) and the whole point of telling you that, was we stood in his driveway talking about records for half an hour and I mentioned my love of this song and found out the LP version doesn’t have the fuzz guitar on it. I am inclined to buy LP’s over 45′s, so I’d have been sooooooooooooo pissed if I’d bought the LP and it wasn’t the version of “Grass” that I adore.

[booknerdcassieclare]

I Need Input

I have a girl at school who no joke calls everything gay. A very straight, very white girl. Like sees a Christmas tree in the front office and says, “that’s so gay’. It pisses me off sooooooooooooo much. Now, normally I’d be okay with this, but she is just a bully and a bitch. Am I being too sensitive? Insensitive? Please help me?

[drfalsehope-blog]

sudden death | pt. 3

And suddenly, there is a loud screeching noise. The doors fly open.

“You MOTHERFUCKER-”

Another metallic robot rushes in on the scene from the door where you all entered. In an instant, he’s brushed past all the students. The red haired robot clambers up the stage and-

The awful noise of crunching metal reverberates around the gym. If you look up, the darker haired robot is currently receiving a punch to the face. Hard.

“You locked me in the fucking closet!” The darker haired robot rolls his eyes innocently. His face is slightly bent in, but it looks like he fixes that himself.

“Maybe, but I didn’t want you to interfere! Kids, this is Arthur-”

“WELL, I’m interfering! Don’t fucking prance around like you own this place, you prick. And don’t kill the students all willy-nilly!”

“Haaaah. Fine.” He sighs. “Sorry for the interruption kids! I guess it’s not super professional of us, right? Anyway, back to the killing.”

“I have to set down a few rules, you know! One, no harming me or Arthur! Arthur may be annoying, but he’s expensive! And this rule is punishable by getting fried by my super hot and SUPER COOL laser.”

The red haired robot interrupts him once more.

“Hey, who the fuck died and made you in charge of this? Piss off and let me speak.”

“At least let me finish the rules!! Rule number two - some places will be closed during nighttime, which is from 10:00 PM to 7:00 AM! Like the cafeteria! Rule three? No destruction of any locked doors, cameras, or any of the school’s properties will be permitted! Hope’s Peak students are certainly better than a bunch of vandals, huh?”

“Four,” Arthur pushes Lancelot away from the podium. “Lancelot and I are neutral parties. We shall never harm you unless one of the rules here is broken. All the killing is in your hands. That doesn’t mean you can cry to us and ask for your mommies either. You’re on your own here.”

Lancelot sighs. “I don’t want to agree to that! Ahhh, fine! Rule number five - we don’t care how you do it, but if you DO KILL, we’ll be forced to remove you from premises! In other words, you’re outta here! Freedom for you. If you kill, you escape!

Arthur pushes him back again. “Six, just sleep in a bedroom. Doesn’t have to be yours, but I will kill you if I have to drag your ass back to your room at night time for wasting seconds of my artificial life. Lastly, we are free to make any more rules we like. However, we can’t void any of the rules we’ve made here.”

“Ohhh, and to start you off with such a wonderful life of mutual killing, we have a present for you! It’s on your beds in your rooms. Speaking of whiiiich- you have roommates!”

Lancelot claps. “Anyway, the dorms should be unlocked by now, sooooooooooooo… Have fun!”

Arthur comes up to speak one last time.

“You all are best off giving up on rescue or anything too. No one’s coming for you. Everyone knows you’re here, but they don’t care. In fact, you might as well throw away your names, titles, hopes. dreams, whatever. You all have no future. No past. You only exist in this moment because we let you. Your hopes are only going to disappoint you. You are nothing from this moment on. Good luck.”

The lights go down for a few seconds, and when they come back up, Lancelot and Arthur are gone.

[nightin-gale-x]

OHHHH I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED.

[aquaanna]

This year had such a rough start for me and it's gotten slightly better but not so much. I'm probably only writing this because of my period but I haven't written literally anything in a good minute. I'm single. Again. I guess? Idfk. Point is we broke up and with this being my first actual boyfriend it's really fucking hard to deal with and my fucking bipolar disorder makes it literally impossible to figure out how I really feel about ANYTHING. One minute I'm fucking hurt and crying and suffocating in my own sadness but the next hour I'm as light as a feather and happy and wanna do whatever I can to make the world a better place and then the next day I'm fuckin ugly as heck and hateful and I don't want to talk to anybody but then I'm pissed that no one's talking to me and then later on I'm empty and scared I'm fucking up my entire life just because of something so small???? Like I'm crying over a boy???? Um?? I'm better than this and stronger than this and I've been over a year clean of cutting myself and now working on my eating disorder why am I crying over a boy? Why am I so HURT? I understand yeah like nothing bad happened between us we just don't work out and that's why it's gonna take a shit load of time to get over him but like oh my god? Pull it together? I'm perfectly fine and have such a good support group and I'm working hard and studying and doing pretty okay with the start of the new semester. I know I feel disorganized and I feel so deeply about my troubles but jesus Christ I really need to go back to therapy lmao There's a void in my chest that I don't exactly know how to fill but I know that I dont want it filled by another person. I love people and I love myself but I just think I'm better alone. I can only deal with me. It's been proven multiple times and sometimes it's saddening and I know my friends and family worry but I've met one of my soul mates before and even then I knew I couldn't be with them. I'm good on my own. I'm getting places and making progress on my own. Change is inevitable and I don't refuse it. I just worry that my ex.... I just worry about him. Like I genuinely really care and love him with all of my fucking soul. He is my favorite person and best friend and again it HURTS that we don't work well together but I don't know where to go about it. Like one day I wanna ignore him forever and block him on everything. The next I wanna go to his place and just lie in his presence. And the next I'm making plans and the next I'm fucking crying because I miss him but I know he's better off without me. Like wtf man. Get it together!!!! Why must I feel so many ways! It makes things harder than need be! It's harder for me to deal with! Harder for me to talk about! Harder to understand!!!!!!! Like what! What is this! What am I! Where am I and why!? Other than our (second) break up I'm alright. Been saving sooooooooooooo much money and working out and being body posi. But also not really on social media anymore. I even started reading again but I haven't been listening to music which sucks because I'm at that stage of my depression again where music isn't enjoyable for some unknown reason. But hey maybe it's the time of the year or what have you.... I get tired of blaming things for the way I am though. "It's my period" "It's the weather" "It's that time of the year" "I'm thinking too hard" "It's cus I didn't sleep" It makes everything seem invalid and sometimes I forget what's real to me. Feelings wise. I just hope things play out for the best. If he and I end up strangers again, okay. If I get put on meds again, okay. If I see the doctor and something is actually worse than it seems, okay. I just want someone to confirm... I guess who I am and what I feel.