#i am so FRUSTRATED

[evilovesyou]

Please for the love of god just let me click on the user that something was rb from and see the damn post on that blog

[krystenreader]

why

Why? Just tell me why are you doing this? Why so cruel? These are my comfort babies! Why did you kill them? And then I am searching for that particular phrase and... BAM! It is gone! Where is that moment keeping me okay?! Where I am asking?! I feel insane like all of these stories were made up in my head and never existed:(((

[getvalentined]

Friendly reminder that the only reason Genesis is the antagonist of Crisis Core is because Zack is with Shinra. Literally.

Once he's on the run, once Genesis knows that Zack can't help him, he literally brings Hollander to Gongaga for Zack to kill��he tells Zack what Hollander is planning under the guise of it being a joint effort, but once Hollander runs off, Genesis then tells Zack what he intends to do. He talks to him about Loveless and the Lifestream, he shoves a Banora White into his hands when Zack charges at him, and then he leaves. Hollander is left behind—in Zack's hometown, his own turf, so there's nowhere to run and nowhere to hide—allowing Zack to enact poetic justice at last by striking down Angeal's birth father with the very sword that the man who actually raised Angeal died to earn, the sword that honorless Gillian said represented all the honor the Hewleys had left.

And then, finally realizing what's actually going on, Zack sets out to to Banora to save Genesis from dying.

There's no point after Modeoheim that Genesis outright attacks Zack until he's cured at the Light of Doom; there, he calls Zack First Class SOLDIER even though he's not anymore, because Genesis isn't trying to strike down Zack, he's trying to reclaim the right to the only title he's ever had that felt worth anything, and he's trying to take the burden of that title from Zack.

If he wins, Genesis takes the guilt of killing both Angeal and Sephiroth—because he doesn't know Cloud's role, he doesn't know that Zack wasn't the one to strike Sephiroth down, he doesn't even know Cloud's name. Conversely, if he loses, then it's confirmation that Zack is the hero of the story, truly and completely, and that's all right too. If that's how the story ends, that's how it ends. (Minerva intervenes, pulls Genesis from the duel, and he never gets to see the ending. The final act, as in his beloved ancient poem, remains a mystery.)

Genesis is the main antagonist of Crisis Core, but he's never been the bad guy. The entirety of Final Fantasy VII has a single monolith of villainy, and that's always been—and will always be—Shinra. Shinra made the Reactors and dug up Jenova. Shinra made Genesis, Sephiroth, Angeal, and DeepGround. Shinra burned Kalm, Banora, and (partially) Nibelheim. Shinra used any corpse they found or made as research fodder. Shinra killed the last fullblooded Cetra and drove her only daughter to a place where the only way to save the people she loved was through her death. Shinra is the bad guy.

Zack is with Shinra for the majority of the game, and thus the story behaves accordingly. Shinra's enemies are Zack's enemies, because that's the side he's on. Shinra sees Avalanche as enemies, too, but no one ever refers to Barret or Elfe as "irredeemably evil" the way they do Genesis. Barret dresses up his quest for revenge in the guise of saving the planet, but all that matters to him is that anyone even remotely connected to the company suffers the way he's suffered. Elfe allowed Fuhito to experiment on people, to take the corpses of SOLDIER and make undead weapons out of them, violating the sanctity of their final rest and denying them entry to the Lifestream altogether.

"Genesis experimented on his men!" It was a desertion, not an abduction. People who become Copies when they aren't properly enhanced don't get the same enhanced abilities as a First and they degrade very quickly, we see that in Hollander and Lazard—meaning that every single Genesis Copy was one of those SOLDIER Seconds or Thirds that defected with Genesis of their own free will in Wutai after he grew a wing and the world turned upside-down. Genesis' men loved him and they went along willingly.

When Genesis locks himself up in the Light of Doom, his last hope for a cure, he has one last Copy in there with him. When Zack unlocks the gate, he's attacked by one last Copy, even though Genesis has been waiting for him, he's not antagonistic toward him anymore, he hasn't been for a long time.

Genesis took that last Copy, a man with a horrible disease who is definitely too far gone to save, and brought him along to the Light of Doom in the hopes that maybe, maybe things could be set right. When Zack unlocks the gate, that man throws himself at him to protect Genesis, because this is his last chance and Genesis' men love him.

When Zack fights Genesis' Weapon avatar and is attacked by incomplete and twisted ghosts of Genesis Copies, magical inhuman wisps that hold him back while Genesis heals—they're in the Lifestream then, the Light of Doom pulled them both in. Those Copies are literally the ghosts of Genesis' men, unable to diffuse into the Lifestream because of their Jenova infection, fighting to protect him from beyond the grave. Genesis' men love him. They want to save him. They went with him willingly.

"Genesis killed his parents!" The parents who lied to him his entire life in order to keep getting a paycheck from Shinra? The parents that funded his fanclub as a form of marketing for a company that literally wouldn't exist without Genesis' world-changing contribution to food processing as a teenager? Those parents?

Genesis has a little shrine in the Banora Underground where he keeps all his awards and achievements—a little desk with a lantern in an unfinished stone tunnel. They survived the bombing of Banora because they weren't in the house; the chalkboard has sketches of what would clearly become the Banora brand logo, which was presumably made about a decade prior to the Nibelheim Incident, not long after Genesis figured out how to make Banora White juice shelf stable, not long before he left for Midgar to enlist.

Having all the proof of every good thing Genesis has ever done shoved into a tunnel under his hometown, hidden from the public, while his family raked in huge amounts of wealth based on those achievements, indicates quite clearly that Genesis' parents were the exact opposite of good and loving.

But he buried them anyway, didn't he?

Genesis may not be a particularly good person, but he's never been evil, he's never been the bad guy. Genesis was right—more than that, he was justified. His methods were not. He did terrible things. He hurt and killed a lot of people.

But he was only ever the enemy because Shinra said he was. Genesis doesn't need a redemption arc because he already had one, and Minerva herself said he could serve the planet forever to prove it.

[mjfass]

JUST STOP PUNCHING YUTA. ALL OF YOU.

[beanghostprincess]

We don't talk enough about how good Namivivi's dynamic truly is. Vivi is a princess with the need of liberation and freedom only being a pirate provides, and Nami is exactly everything she's been wishing for. And when they actually manage to be together and find themselves, Vivi is not allowed to talk about it publicly because it would mean the end of her reputation as a princess. The only thing they have to prove they're connected is an X in their arms that ended up fading away. And it's not even the cliché trope of "princess waiting for pirate girlfriend to come back and save her" because Vivi is a pirate too. It's a "right now we can't be together, but we will, and it's kind of killing me that it can't be right now". They miss each other so bad it makes my heart shatter completely.

[frasermints]

"i don't want to vote for genocide joe" do you think i want to???? do you think i want to vote for another establishment democrat?? do you think i want another four years of minimal progress at best??? no!!! but guess what!!! life in this country isn't about what you want!!!! life isn't about you you you you you!!!

existing as a voter in america is about triage!!! existing as a voter in america is about minimizing your impact!!!! because guess what!!! your existence is inherently unethical!!! as long as you draw breath you will be causing harm!!! i am serious!!! you, the american reading this!!! your very existence causes harm! you cannot mitigate that by doing nothing!!! you HAVE to do even the bare fucking minimum in order to combat that!!! and sometimes that means voting for joe biden!!!

you exist in america! you pay taxes to this country and you use electricity made in this country and you consume food purchased in this country and you post things on the internet under this country's laws! americans! your existence is harming people! so you have to do the bare fucking minimum! in order to make that harm less! and that includes conforming to the establishment and not letting donald trump gain the presidency again! because if you allow your inaction to result in a fascist presidency! you will in fact be doing!! even worse!!

[pellucid-constellations]

[joy-girl]

The way I screamed because why does Oda always teases us about God Valley, and now that we finally were getting the flashbacks scene, they got cut like that 😭

[calmmyfears]

resting is driving me crazy. it's been driving me crazy for years but we have reached a whole new level of being so over having to rest in order for my body to keep functioning. i am tired of rest, i fucking hate rest.

[palmtreepalmtree]

The government has been sitting on one of my cases, like just fucking sitting on it, after two approved expedite requests, and my client is going to lose $1 million a day if I can't get this fucking thing through and I genuinely do not know what the fucking FUCK the government is doing right now. I genuinely think the officer does not like this person and project and is actively trying to fuck them because they can but WHAT THE FUCK.

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

I am literally begging you to please put your age in your bio and to please unfollow me if you’re a minor. It will make my life so much easier because it’s going to take me a while to get through all of my followers because of school and work

[destiny-in-the-universe]

kind of need a little help, guys.

if anyone could give me like, song recommendations for either randy or like- BATTLE SCENES; just anything, please, i'm so desperate right now it's insane. i can't focus

i'm just a horrible writer, i can't do this right now. so just a couple song recs might spur me back into action

i apologize with how weird i'm getting but my disability is acting up, and i just can't concentrate everything hurts

[hersurvival]

it is never-ending, i have become a project, shoved and torn in different directions, limb from shaky limb, without proper evaluations or communication hearing "situational" or "not typical" or "definitive" based on various observations. but no one knows. because who casually prescribes one of the strongest anti-depressants on a whim for "ocd tendencies" on a wednesday from their strip mall office? who looks at the way a patient's hands tremble without any other information or examinations, tests, and scribbles an anti-convulsant down onto a pad saying to come back in a month? how did it take five weeks to get a psych evaluation while i was crying and scared, dissociating with demons in my head calling for blood? seven doctors in six months, twenty-one appointments, five different medications: start this, go up, switch, up, i said up, one week trial of this for nothing, full stop and crash, start over, go up, start another, switch two days later, taper off the one that helps you because oh, it might be making something else worse, "you were never evaluated." i still don't know what is wrong with my body and i am scheduled for a second round of evaluations with psychiatry because in an hour, we couldn't get to them all.

tonight i start something new with the potential side effect of insomnia and nightmares but that's how i have always lived so why not? it can't possibly get worse, right? two negatives make a positive type logic.

[quinzzelx]

I need to rant real quick

I just finished Iron Flame and I'm utterly frustrated and devastated. I cannot even put into words how upset I am about what happened at the end there.....

Where do we go from here? Don't get me wrong, I like Violet, but there are way more likable characters than her in this series, even though she is the main character. AND XADEN IS ONE OF THOSE FOR ME. I am so mad. Of course, this can make the story even more interesting but the scene felt so rushed and so out of place somehow? I need this to make sense and I need Violet to not be mad and whiney about this because I hated her lack of understanding toward Xaden's situation. I got really attached to him as a character and their relationship....... Ugh, I'm just so frustrated man.

[silverstreams]

Frustrated about fibro pain again. Barely made it through work. Today’s pain has a burning but mostly stinging quality to it and have only managed to out of bed like once in 5-6 hours. And because it’s so heavily affecting my back and neck and shoulders, I can’t really do anything. Even phone is a challenge because that requires hand and arm muscles.

[iamsonotoriginal]

CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT MATIVY

WHAT IS HE PLANNING ?? how does this all tie in ??? They made it a point to mention the change from gravity to mavity TWICE!

Davies I am coming for you, in fact I am under your bed