#i am not normal about evan i go die now

[raynastar03]

Silly sonic stuff to practice shading :333

Ft. @moo--milk Evan and Maxi!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if I tried to get my friend's character killed?

🎾🐕 for recognition.

I (19M) and my friends (all 18-early 20s, 5 players incl. me but not the DM) play Dungeons and Dragons from time to time, usually once a month.

We just introduced a new player to the campaign, who we'll call Evan (21M). Evan's character seemed a little Mary Sue-y to me when she was displayed to the rest of us, but I don't usually have beef with characters based off of that and just chalked it up to having different tastes which isn't bad at all.

My character has been working very closely with the BBEG and has basically joined their side in their conquest to y'know. Do the thing that makes them the Big Bad Evil Guy. I was super excited to see what the BBEG was up to.

Well, this was our 8th session, and we were about to wrap up Arc 1. My character had finally reunited with the rest of the party at the BBEG's lair, and Evan's character was introduced as being a traveling assassin/Sorcerer that happened to recieve a tip that the rest of the normal party was here.

By the end of the session, Evan's character had spent a third of the game time monologing at the BBEG before slicing his head off. My character is currently half blind and mute thanks to Evan's character [she tried to kill my character and I didn't roll the best on my roll to move out of the way of her blade so now she's missing an eye, and Sara's character cut out her tongue as punishment for working for the BBEG while my character was knocked out], and was kidnapped by Evan's character.

I was and still am PISSED. I'm trying not to be, but it's been driving me insane. Evan keeps on bragging about how he killed the BBEG and keeps on revelling in the scene, and I'm the only one upset by it. He was the BBEG, and you KILLED HIM YOUR FIRST SESSION?! It just seems like a silly thing to be upset about, but it's been really upsetting me and me alone (everyone else saw the BBEG just as that, a maniacal mustache twirler). Everyone is making jokes and laughing, but it was really upsetting me.

My character is very fond of revenge. Anything she has to deal with, she tries to get even with anyone no matter the cost. One of our characters died back in Session 4, and my character ended up being the only one that learnt about his character's backstory: he's a prince, and his family would do anything to give proper punishment to his killer, and his character told mine what to do to make this happen before he died. I am the only one in-game with this information.

We're now on Session 16, almost done with Arc 2, and the current plan is [the DM mentioned we'd have to wait until Arc 3 to act on the prince's last words] to rat out Evan's character as being the killer [she isn't the killer, my character would be framing her, but the BBEG was the true killer and my character is loyal to him] and hope that she's persecuted. Most likely, this would end up with Evan's character dead, but I'm not sure due to how much he's been Mary Sue-ing all over the place [not a bad thing, but his character does virtually have no flaws that have presented themselves opposed to the rest of our party each with a glaring flaw that the DM made us all add in when we first started playing, and her stats are leagues beyond the rest of ours due to what her Sorcerer powers granted her].

I haven't told this to anyone, but I have asked the DM questions about how to execute this plan. I feel like it's going to be a real dick thing, but I think it's well within the realms of what my character would do and I honestly want to knock her down a peg. I don't know if the DM will let me do this anyways, and as I said I don't think Evan's character will even die because she's just got too good of stats so unless Evan rolls Nat 1s she's probably fine.

WIBTA for acting on this?

What are these acronyms?

[thereal-evanrosier]

I strongly believe that Evan is very disconnected from his emotions. Normally, he's a very emotionless and cold person, but sometimes he randomly feels tears running down his cheeks or laughs without knowing why. His general mood and face expression are very "why am i crying ew thats so embarrassing" instead of fitting to his emotions. He often doesnt understand why he feels the way he does, so he goes to Barty, Pandora or Regulus to ask them why he is feeling a certain way. I imagine it like this:

Evan: "Barty, what is that urge to giggle all the time, why dont i want to die?"

Barty: "Rosie thats feeling happy"

Evan: "Oh."

Evan:

Evan: "So why am I happy?"

Barty: "Because you passed all of your exams with an O"

Evan: "Ah, okay. Weird."

Considering the fact that Evan sees himself more as a weapon and an experiment, as if his body was an entirely wrong thing to exist in. More about that here. All this could be fitting to a depersonalization, which is true to me. Yet, Evan has way too big god complexes. They're just not corelated to his body, but more to his soul and intelligence. Evan trusts strongly in his charm and smartness

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Evan tries to always stay neutral, and unless he's got really strong emotions that is working out perfectly. He believes that emotions are for lower people like his standarts are too high to feel something as humiliating as them.

Now imagine him being heartbroken. Oh he wouldn't know what was going on. He would ignore the wants and needs of his body, simply acting like nothing happend. And when someone asks him about the reddened eyes he would say "I'm just as confused as you". Once he would realize what was going on it would be over for the other person though. After his sadness comes anger which leads to violence. Evan is definitely not one you want to mess with, and if someone hurt him, they will pay for it with ten times as much pain.

[itsybitsyspecter]

I for one am extremely curious about the character shots in the opening.

Sam stands in front of her set on Britain's Got Magic. Makes sense, her show is a very important thing to her and is season relevant.

K flies their broom with their friends, a rainbow that turns orange at the end trailing after her. We now know this is a scene from episode two. Not entirely sure if there's a specific reason why that's their picture unless it's just about the orange/being with her friends?

Now Jammer's is really interesting. First we see him standing normally, making the gesture for the goat horns. Though his scar does look different than it does in the other drawings, this might just be artistic choice. But what is sort of weird is that he's the one holding Tabby. Was that just to introduce Tabby or is there a plot reason for it? Might make sense considering he's the one most Anti Tabby. But then K's hand (pretty sure it's them) slides across the screen, holding their phone and takes a photo of Jammer. And when the phone moves away, Jammer has disappeared. Except the picture on K's phone begins to move, the Jammer in the photo looks like he's falling. What does this mean? Has he been put inside the phone? Why? To hide him? To protect him?

And finally Evan, the one I am more curious about. He is fighting against Tad. Seeing it for the first time, just glancing at it you might think that it's just from when they fought him in the Christmas special. But Evan is clearly season2 Evan. His hair is short and he's wearing his new outfit. Along with that there are some more drastic changes that we have yet to see. His eyes are larger, darker, more threatening. Angrier? He has fangs which I don't think he did beforehand right? His clothes are covered in strange green splotches and mostly in his shirt but slightly on his jacket too are three designs that look like lightning bolts. Along with this the magic coming from is wand is green too, a more sickly looking green rather than the vibrant green on his clothes. This could mean a whole slew of different things. Tad could've done something to him. His magic could be changing from whatever is happening to the magic world. He could've leveled up his magic die. But what I think is most likely is that it's an after effect of what happened in episode three. When Victor resurrected his familiar, it came back different, invisible. I'm sure many of us are wondering if the same can be said for Evan. And I think that whatever is going on with him in the intro is just that. The consequences of coming back from the dead.

But that's just a theory.

[veritas-scribblings]

row - @bartylusmicrofic - words: 1,180 - [explicit / NSFW]

Before Barty can get a word in edgewise, the wall behind him explodes in cloud of dust and plaster and wood and he has to duck for cover to avoid getting knocked out. Because, he thinks, there is no way he’s going to allow Regulus to win this one on the mere grounds of being unable to fight back due to lack of consciousness. He’s not going to go down without a fight, and if he has to take Regulus down with him, then so be it. It’s always been a secret dream of Barty’s for them to kill each other, to die together. There’s something darkly sinister and romantic about it, he thinks.

And when the dust clears, Regulus Black is gone.

‘What the actual fuck,’ Barty breathes, ‘was that?’

‘Well,’ Evan says, eyeing Barty like for all his intelligence, he’s still the stupidest creature in all four corners of the wizarding world, ‘I’m not exactly an authority on what is considered “socially acceptable” or “normal” in any sense of the word…but I do believe it’s not “normal” or “acceptable” to ask your best friend to sleep with you when you’re shagging your other best friend. Especially when said other best friend is Regulus Black.’

‘We always sleep together! Like that’s anything new. Sleep. Sleeping. Sleeping, not fucking. Actual genuine sleep.’ And a little bit (or a lot, if he’s honest) of cuddling too, but that’s also nothing new. It’s also something Barty knows will probably not help his case right now.

So sue him, he likes to cuddle. So fucking what.

It means nothing. Regulus could have joined them and cuddled too.

Evan laughs. And when Evan laughs, a truly rare event, Barty knows he’s very likely up shit creek without a paddle. ‘Sure, that’s true. Before you were dating Regulus Black.’

Barty pauses, frowns. ‘We’re dating?’ he asks. Because he hasn’t quite been able to figure out this new dynamic he has with Regulus, other than that it’s messy and involves a lot of nudity, a lot of arguments and a lot of orgasms. And, really, he’s completely here for all of the above.

‘Well, you’re certainly fucking. Every chance you get. And Regulus is possessive and wants to kill you. And you’re utterly clueless and being a menace. And between the two of you, you’ve managed to blow several holes in our house and collectively traumatise all of our neighbours. So I’d say that sounds a lot like dating to me. But who am I to make assumptions.’ 

‘Oh shit, you’re right, he tried to kill me,’ Barty realises, glancing over his shoulder wide-eyed to where Regulus has likely departed for his bedroom. ‘He tried to kill me.’ And then, louder, angrier, ‘The son of a whore just tried to kill me!’

Evan just rolls his eyes and drops down on to the couch, which is now dusty with the ghost of Regulus’s murderous tantrum. ‘Oh, for fucks sake…’

Barty takes the stairs two-by-two, wand in hand, because this is completely unacceptable. Regulus will not be doing any killing alone. Any killing committed within the borders of their ‘apparently dating slash relationship’ will be instigated and enacted by Barty, unless Regulus were to agree that the aforementioned killing be entirely mutual. Because Barty will not rest—no, he will be a tormented soul—if some other being were to put their filthy hands on Regulus. No, if Barty is to die—and he will, if Regulus so demands it—then he is damned well taking Regulus with him.

And maybe Evan too, because it would be cruel of them to leave Evan out and to leave him all alone.

Just as Barty enters the bedroom, a spell whirls towards him and he has barely enough time to leap out of the way before it hits the wall behind him with a deafening crack.

‘You absolute fucking lunatic!’ Barty screams. He hurls a spell back at Regulus. A hex, really. The nasty kind that burns the drapes around the bed in a blast and a waft of acrid, sour, sulphuric smoke.

And normally Barty is quick and sharp-witted and clever. But Regulus is his weakness. Regulus makes him slow and stupid, because Regulus is so beautiful in his righteous fury that Barty is blinded. Distracted. Regulus is fists flying: to Barty’s face, to Barty’s stomach. Regulus is angry, angry words, yelling: ‘I hate you, you stupid cunty shit, I hate you, you stupid fucking prick.’ Regulus is promises of: ‘I swear, if you do that again, I’ll dismember your stupid fucking body and they’ll never stop finding pieces of you. Ever.’

But two can play this game. Barty will merge the two of them together, they’ll find pieces of them both forever. He presses the tip of his wand into Regulus’s stomach (because he loves Regulus’s divine face and his wicked tongue that says acid words and can do such sinful things) and says, ‘Baby, I got you, let’s do us both.’

Regulus shoves him up against the wall, a knee between Barty’s legs, hands pinning his wrists to the smooth, wooden panelling. And when he attacks Barty’s mouth, it’s all teeth and tastes metallic. And he bites and he tugs like he wants it to hurt, and Barty maps out this new territory with thrilled interest.

He likes it, he thinks, how Regulus’s hands pull at his shirt and scratch at his chest, draws blood, leaves marks.

As a teenager, Barty had quickly discovered that he really likes sex. He likes the slow kind that’s all about discovery, about new tastes, new sensations, about learning what makes Regulus moan, what makes him cry out and swear, what makes his back arch and his hips buck. 

Barty likes the hard and fast kind, the kind where he’s chasing his own pleasure, that’s intense and whites-out his brain, that has Regulus begging, and that Barty honestly thinks might lead him to truly, genuinely dying one day.

Barty is now discovering he likes the angry, hateful kind. The kind that burns and vibrates beneath his skin, leaves his blood boiling and steaming until he is nothing but rage and ash. The kind that hurts a bit in all the right ways. That bruises and leaves marks on his skin that he will wear as trophies. 

Evan is standing in the doorway of Regulus's bedroom looking more than a little bit irritated. And Barty is close. He’s so damned close it’s about to consume him and he’s sure they’ll die together, all of them. Because Regulus is on top of him, hands planted securely on Barty’s chest, his hips working sharply in rapid bursts, rocking, riding Barty with such intensity, such fervour that Barty thinks Regulus is about to take them both to the depths of heaven or hell. Barty grips the sheets, chants obscenities like a mantra, certain he is about to shatter into a million particles and transcend the physical plane to a world where only sensation exists.

Somewhere on the periphery of his consciousness, Evan mutters, ‘Oh, fuck me, I was sure you guys would be murdering each other, not fucking it out.’

[dazzle02]

Buck and Maddie's relationship is one of the most interesting on the show to me personally.

She was nine, she lost her brother and gained a new one and suddenly she's not just an older sister, she's a parent too. She's nine years old and someone's Mother. While not being allowed to properly grieve the brother she just lost. Not even allowed to acknowledge his existence.

And of course she did the best she could, but she was a child raising another child. No parent has all the answers, but especially not a CHILD who never asked to have this put on them. So she of course got things wrong. One that really sticks out is her explanation about their parents worry when Evan falls off his bike. She kinda put the idea in his head that getting hurt is what will get him that love he craves from their parents. And that was NOT her fault. She was 12. And also living in this abusive household. But she was the one that gave him the idea to continue hurting himself to get attention. And there are likely other things that he learned from her that weren't actually healthy, due to her being a child trying to learn about the world herself.

And when she left for Boston, that would definitely feel like a parental abandonment for Evan due to her being the only parental figure he ever really had. But it WASN'T. It was a 19 year old moving out and going to School, which is what a lot of people that age tend to do. But to Evan, it would feel like the only parent he's ever known leaving him. And logically he'd know that's not the case. She's NOT his mother, she's his sister and she's supposed to live her life and she never asked to raise a child at such a young age. He was NOT her responsibility. But emotionally? That's the start of his abandonment issues.

And it's why Maddie can be kinda overbearing with him at times too. (Especially after the lightning strike...) It was ingrained in her from the age of nine that he's her kid and she has to take care of him. So as soon as she sees him suffering in any way, those instincts come back full force. She's gotta take care of him, make sure he's not going to die while she's not looking. AND make it clear she's not leaving him again.

They've had to figure out how to go from the relationship they had as kids where she was more a parent than a sister, to a new one now that they're adults where they're siblings.

And that's gotta be tough. And I would love more of a focus on that really. Just them still kinda adjusting to having to have this new dynamic. Because logically they both are aware that Maddie having to raise Buck was messed up and unfair for them both. But it's also just what's normal to them.

And any time someone comes for Maddie about not being a good sister it makes my blood boil. SHE DOES HER BEST! She was a child raising a child, and she's now an adult who went through abuse for pretty much her entire life! First the neglect from her parents (plus the parentification) and then her marriage to Doug for like 15 years! Of course she's not perfect. And as much as they both love each other, they ARE BOTH part of each others traumas. For Maddie a big trauma for her was having to raise him, and for Buck a big trauma for him was her leaving. And they've managed to work through that for the most part. It's always going to be there, they're both very defining for each of them. For Maddie having to become a parent at such a young age made her feel as though she couldn't be a very good one due to not being a perfect parent AS A CHILD. And for Buck, Maddie leaving was definitely the start of his abandonment issues. And neither of them are at fault for that, but they both have these issues that are directly tied to each other. It all comes back to their parents though. If they'd just done their jobs as parents, things would be so different.

Some of this may not make much sense as it is very hot here right now and I am not thinking right. But you get what I mean, hopefully. 🤣

I would also like to add to Supernatural fans, you can not claim Dean Winchester is just the best brother in the world for raising Sam and then turn around and claim Maddie is a terrible sister. Especially as Dean could be very abusive at times...

[leonenjoyer69]

I hope you don't mind this ask, but I'm in a huge Jekyll and Hyde hyperfixation rn (both TGS and OG novella) and I saw a post from you about how "Cotard's Solution" fits his Vibe; did you ever go on a ramble of Will Wood songs that fit Jekyll/Hyde? I'd love to hear them! I'm usually either an emo rock or hyperpop fan but I'd love to dip my toes into more Will Wood ever since my friends have shown me his songs :] I hope this isn't too much of an ask!

OF COURSE I DON'T MIND HEHEHE >:3 (also I'm so so sorry I kept forgetting about this 💀 BUT I'VE FINALLY DONE IT), I did originally connect a bunch of will wood songs to TGS characters in this post, and then I talked a bit about my Jekyll and Hyde playlist here (tho these are all various artists and Chonny Jash, not will wood, still a good collection of songs imo! Especially if you like emo rock and Hyper pop!!), but I would gladly go into detail about a bunch of Will Wood songs and how I connect them to TGS/J&H once more >:3

I LOVE WILL WOOD I'M SO NORMAL (also if there's any specific song from that first post, the honorable mentions in this, or my playlist that anyone wants an explanation for, just ask, bc idrk off the top of my head what to explain lmao, and if I have the thinking capacity to, I love explaining my reasoning!! :3)

OKAY OKAY, I'm probably not gonna hit many songs, but I'll try to get a few :3 I usually don't do these this in depth and I don't wanna make it too horribly long 💀

FIRST UP, A FRESH ONE I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT (bc apparently it hasn't been on my main playlist... I'm kinda slow sometimes): SKELETON APPRECIATION DAY

HEAR ME OUT, the "bones" could be interpreted as Hyde, or just all of Jekyll's hidden parts-- anything that isn't the perfect gentleman he prefers to show. And like!!! The lyrics can be connected so easily!! "While my cracking backbone lacks but backs up my false starts" transformation, next.

"All nightmares start as dreams and I hear my subconscious screaming" I don't even feel like I gotta say anything on that one.

"All love starts as a scheme, So wake me up, I'm tired of sleeping" bro literally didn't believe Lanyon loved him, the 'waking up' could be the first transformation.

And like!! The chorus!! "Bones, bones, bones, let me see your bones / Well, I don't wanna know if the feeling follows home /Bones, bones, bones, hell, we're all alone / If I come home, baby, will you show your bones?" Hell, I can see this as Jekyll asking (or at least wishing for) Lanyon to be more vulnerable, but!! Better yet, Lanyon asking/wishing that of Jekyll, since he knows how Jekyll just tends to cover everything up.

Idk, maybe I'm just talkin outta my ass, but I think this is really up there on my list of TGS-able Will Wood songs.

NEXT (another fresh song I haven't rambled about before): HALF-DECADE HANGOVER

I LOVE THIS SONG SM!!! I EAT IT UP EVERY TIME IT COMES ON!! PROBABLY MY FAV WILL WOOD SONG RN!!

Anyways, this song is so so soooo angstily Jekyll coded, let's go straight to the lyrics >:3

"Wonder how I didn't die / This is not my life. I'm no survivor, I only happened to survive" right out the gate, first lines. Bro literally drank chemicals and now shares half his life with an entirely different consciousness.

"Down the days I have left, with one eye open"- could be him drinking the potion, with the one eye open being only half of him--"That was me screaming "Bitch, I am reality" / And stumbling off to lose myself in a brown paper bag cause me and / Sweet Evan Williams got a date down on Avenue / A staving shakes scraping change till daybreak / Turns out anyone can eat out the trash / Then wake up on the freeway mid-crash" could literally just be Hyde doing stupid shit and Henry regaining control 'mid-crash', ie when problems arise because of either of them tbh.

And the chorus!!! "Cause I was drunk when I made my bed / Now with a half-decade hangover I lay down in it /What have I done? Don't know what I've said / It's a half-decade hangover, either this, in jail, or dead / It's a half-decade hangover, Jesus Christ my aching head" bro was at his worst when he made that potion, and now he's stuck with the consequences. And the "this, in jail, or dead" those are the only options he thinks he has to deal with Hyde now!!

"Tripped on a couple steps, and collapsed on the stairs / Broke my neck on the backs of those who I've hurt and scared" my guy has been lying to everyone around him for years, but now everythings falling apart and it's coming back to bite him in the ass so hard now.

LAST LYRIC BC AT THIS RATE I'LL THROW THE WHOLE SONG IN-- "Sober, but still so much still hangs over / Please believe me when I say I poured my whole past down the drain / Say that a second chance is a chance I can take" first of all, the poured my whole past down the drain could be him literally giving up the man he was and taking the potion, OR, him dumping all the potions in that one scene, teehee. Secondly, the second chance part and the lines that follow in the song, totally him at Lanyon.

Next: OUTLIARS AND HYPPOCRATES

This one to me is a very Hyde song, specifically him talking to Jekyll.

"Cause I doubt that you would even if you could change / You think it makes you special, but it makes you strange / I doubt that you would even if you could change / The things that make you special are the things that make you strange" could be Hyde tellin Jekyll that he wouldn't get rid of him, even if he could, because it makes Jekyll fell better about his "lonely prince" persona, as Jasper put it lmao.

"I am the shadows cast aside by gallows, and you the red-hot sky" I just really like thinking about this line with them bc ✨imagery✨. Like, shadow Hyde, check. Gallows? Hell yeah. Red-hot sky? We got color AND, by proxy, sun and moon references, Let's go 🗣️

"You become immune to my toxic fumes / My dose-dependent presence in your life / It's all subjective, all due respect to the collective mind" I mean like. Toxic looking green potion. 'Collective mind', they're both parts of the same guy.

"Horrified at the sight of my reflection in your eyes, I don't belong there" mmmmm bodyswap mishaps 🤤

"Well, it's your conclusions that make mine delusions, so I make you sane / You can thank me later" idk how to explain it but the way this is said just gives major Hyde vibes, you get it, right chat?

"Who'd want to belong to anyone? (Ay, ay, ay, ay) I mean, what do people even do? / So, if you love me, let me let you go, my love (ay, ay, ay, ay), so I can be no one" him and his little crush/loathing on Lanyon, the silly

Next!!: MR CAPGRAS ENCOUNTERS A SECONDHAND VANITY

Literally the Jekyll and Hyde song ever. I mean, it starts with "you're trying to replace yourself" 💀

"Carving out a fact from a reckoning! /Beckoning your back, skin sagging off its skeleton / Levitating off the ground / Is another man wearing your face" LIKE DO I EVEN GOTTA SAY ANYTHING? This whole song is about false identities 😭

"All the other false identities / Remedies or enemies to mitigate your memories / Shuddered at what they found / When they stripped away the grace" like...

"Damn, I thought you're not your imposter / You're so sure you're not gonna get caught / Dead in your own skin / But you didn't choose what you were born in" this song gives big vibes for chapter 14 and 15, with the constant switching and fear of identity reveal and such.

"What you feel and what you do, are those things really you? / And if not, then what is? (Never, never, never) / So, my God, what's wrong with you? / And I'm still asking who that is" I really like thinking about this part as Lanyon asking Jekyll those things, even without an identity reveal! Since he puts up this gentleman facade and hides everything, Lanyon barely knows who Jekyll is.

"You'll never take me alive, baby (this is not enough) / You'll never take me alive (this is not enough to prove it yet) / You'll never take me, you'll never take me, you better pray that I die (no, I need to hit the bottom)" This part feels like a simultaneous Hyde and Jekyll part, with Jekyll being the parenthesised parts. Hyde being all cocky n shit while Jekyll tries to figure things out or something, idk lmao running low on explanation brain cells.

Honorable mentions that I just don't feel like explaining in depth rn, but probably could!!

The Song With 5 Names- very Jekyll coded

Dr Sunshine is Dead- kinda Jekyll coded, but VERY Hyde coded

2econd 2ight 2eer- the Hyde song ever

6up 5oh Copout- another mega Hyde song, if I could animate it would be over for y'all

Against The Kitchen Floor- Jekyll and Lanyon, these gay people make me upset

Cicada Days- also very Jekyll and Lanyon :(

Hand Me My Shovel!- Jekyll coded, I like to think of him making the potion

Basically, 90% of Will Woods discography can be spun to fit these silly characters. I love Will Wood guys :3 sometimes I wish I could verbally ramble about this kinda stuff, but also words are hard (and it makes me feel annoying lmao) 💔💔 but anyways!!! Thank you for the ask! I hope Will Wood consumes you just as well as it has most of the TGS fandom :3 <333

[fiveredlights]

old habits die screaming just so so so beautiful... it takes me hours usually to read each chapter in its entirety and it is worth it... i loved loved the puzzle (and did figure it out!!!) and callan and matthew just. i love those fictional men and their fictional relationship with which there is something seriously wrong. what ARE they i would genuinely eat up anything you might choose to write about them in the future

okay firstly floored that you would spend your precious hours to read each chapter like wow thank you?! weirdly i would always be worried that each chapter was too short but i now realise maybe they're teetering on being too long... my sense of time is clearly all wack i now realise

i am so so so glad that you got the puzzle!!!!! i was honestly so worried that i made the password too convoluted and i didn't actually put the enchante three hints post until saturday because i was convinced literally no one would get it.

you are so correct in saying there is something fundamentally wrong with them. why are they like this?? what chain of events led you to be the way you are?? something something i can reveal there is a google doc titled "callan merritt: mercedes driver & matthew evans-campbell" so... i literally didn't even last 24 hours without going okay FINE a spin off. i am hearing what the people want and the people want more matthew and callan. but let me just very clearly set the expectation that it is not going to be workskinned like old habits, just a normal social media au style... one thing about me is that i am unable to let a standalone stay a standalone... i must keep constructing in my little universes...

[jeeyuns]

Hello! I’m really excited about your parallel universes WIP and need to watch everything everywhere. It’s been on my list for over a year. I was just wondering if you have fic recs for a related topic: time travel and time loops? For Buddie. Thank you. x

omg thank youuuu parallel universes are my JAM. i hate that i even put up that poll. now everyone chose laundry and taxes and i have to commit to writing this epic alongside bethlehem arghughg hghg ghhh. yes pleaseeee watch eeaao. i'm gonna try to make it make sense without having watched it but it's SUCH a good movie. watch it when you can and in the mood for a mind fuck

i LOVEEEE time loops and time travel! for buddie? ohhhh i GOT you:

burn the straw house down by @hoediaz

(buck gets stuck in time, has a break down and then, relatedly, a break through)

this might have been the second one i read ever with a time loop theme in the 911 fandom and oh boyyyy the emotions! you feel like you're going THROUGH it with buck, you're right there with him. and the breathless payoff at the end. YUMMM. love love LOVEEEE the reason given on how to break the time loop

Evan Buckley & The Coma-Verse of Madness by @cal-daisies-and-briars

(After being struck by lightning on a call, Buck experiences a plethora of alternate realities showing him different directions his life could have taken.)

soooo i also have to sneak in another parallel universes rec because this one is GOLD. it's more along the lines of Marvel's Dr. Strange and the book 'The Midnight Library by Matt Haig.' and it was just STUNNING. buck pov with moments ranging from confusion to bittersweet happiness to utter despair. the ending was mwah, mwah, chef's KISS. ughhh i love cal. wish they had a tumblr. i'll just scream in their ao3 comments it's ok. i'm ok i'm ok (THEY NOW HAVE A TUMBLR LET'S GOOOOOOO)

tomorrow will always and forever now be today (tomorrow is our always and forever) by @anxieteandbiscuits

(eddie gets trapped in a time loop on the day buck marries natalia)

sami is a MASTER at making you scream into your pillow at these two lovable idiots. and boyyyy did i want to just smash their faces together and make them work it out (sorry natalia babe) loosely inspired by the 'Palm Springs' time loop movie. it was just sooooo you HAVE TO have a box of tissues with you. she will eviscerate your heart with her words and MAKE you feel what eddie is going through UGHHHHHH

Benign Fatality by @ardenetoile

(Buck repeats days until he doesn't die in them, has an underdeveloped sense of self worth, and Eddie is the one who wants to step in with him.)

what a fantastic take on time loops! buck only repeats days when he's died. so there could be strings of days/weeks/months where he lives life like normal. and eddie gets brought into it at some point, or more like he shoulders his way in because it's EDDIE and he cares. ending was amazing too, author made it truly make sense! i am so intrigued about the background on buck's ability!

Being Eddie by @cal-daisies-and-briars

(When Eddie starts seeing a new therapist, he’s presented with the opportunity to revisit several days from his past and right regrets that still bother him.)

so this is my one time travel rec in this fandom. eddie goes through the time travel therapy process of the show 'Being Erica' and BOYYYYY does he. it's currently a WIP and i'm about to read ch16 of 20. Cal is fabulous with making you feel for every aspect of a character. they moved from the prior story of buck pov to this eddie pov with flawless precision and godddd i don't know what it is about their words. they are IMPACTFUL. i read a chapter and have to lean back and think through my feelings, like I'M getting therapized. what the fuck??????????????

the persistence of memory by @anxieteandbiscuits

(Buck gets shot, Eddie has to keep reliving the day until he can figure out what the universe is trying to tell him)

last but DEFINITELY not least is this one, my love. if i can imprint this on my heart, blood and papercuts and ripped out ribs and all, i WOULD. i will never have enough time or breath to speak on this fic. it was one of the first 3 fics i read in this fandom. and FUCKKKK did sami pull me in. i think i wasn't even caught up with the show but it DOESN'T matter. she set it after s4 and eddie goes throughhhh it on time loops. the beautiful prose, the sweeping emotions from eddie to buck. the 118 firefam ensemble comedy. the LOVE CONFESSIONS???? multiple????? each one made me teary and one made me outright cry. they were all different and they were all perfect on every iteration of the worst day of eddie's life. i sometimes turn over my pillow at 3 am and get a visceral flash of buck's shocked and bloody face when REDACTED REDACTED REDACTED and have to take a deep breath and rub my chest because sami did it AGAIN and my brain just likes me to remember these moments i've read and scanned into my brain apparently to play on loop

ANYWAY i got really excited. happy reading anon! thank you for letting me rant about the top 6 fics with these themes off the top of my head. <333

[darthpastry]

I just lost one of my allays and life feels shitty now..

...could you create the craziest and most nonsense fnaf theory so I can forget about my lost baby?

l-look how p-pretty she was...

*ugly cries*

Ugh, I don’t play Minecraft but that sucks and she was gorgeous <3

Have three absurd theories!

Alright, you know how everyone thinks that Charlie is possessing the Puppet? WRONG! Unless she's possessing two things at once. Which might be possible? But also, maybe the Puppet is the Mimic and just thinks it's her but that's really a whole different argument that I've brought up before. Anyway.

Let's start with the ✨aesthetic✨ reason. Charlie's sprite is grey and black, we see black present on the classic Phone Guy phone. BUT! Even more importantly, we see blue as the main color. Blue happens to be right next to green on the color wheel. The transition from green to blue signifies how Charlie was forced to change. Green is a color of tranquility, nature, hope, and even lack of experience. Blue is mercy, trust, and mourning. Phone Guy shows the player mercy by helping keep them safe despite the fact that they look similar to William, the player has to trust Phone Guy, and of course there's reason for Charlie to mourn after her death.

There's also the fact that the animatronics only come to life once the Puppet helps. So how would the Puppet come to life on its on? It didn't, it had Charlie possess the phone in hopes she'd be able to spread the word of what happened, but her memories ended up all messed up and Puppet painted blue tears on themself in honor of Charlie. Funky death stuff also messed up her voice. Also, Puppet put Charlie in the phone because she was apparently the last to die and even Golden Freddy was taken as far as animatronics go.

It is also mentioned how Charlie cares for others and protects them, like Phone Guy protects the night guards. She also reassures the player because she knows Mike can't die. There's also the fact that even after the "death" of Phone Guy on night 4 he can still talk on night 5. This is because it was just Charlie watching someone else die.

FNaF 4 phone is another toy used by William Afton. Purple eyes and it watches Evan, the eyes follow him. The same way Fredbear is meant to transmit sound, the toy phone transmits visuals.

And this is one I’ve posted before, but it was before I met you. Why exactly are The Puppet and Baby (possibly also Ballora but that’s not today’s can of worms) more intelligent than everyone else? The Puppet quite literally says “the others are like animals, but I am very aware.” It’s always been an interesting line to me since I heard it. Because it doesn’t make sense.

What makes Puppet and Baby so much more intelligent? Why are they capable of logical reasoning most of the others probably wouldn’t know how to use a doorknob? Maybe there’s some explanation having to do with their emotional state or something, but may I propose that it’s because both were AI?

We know that Circus Baby was an AI, as well as the fact that she most likely had some form of sentience before being possessed by Elizabeth. If William was capable of creating sentient AI, we have no reason to believe Henry wasn’t either.

Not to mention Puppet never acted like a normal animatronic. Yes, they were programmed to protect Charlie, but actually leaving the building and lying down with her after she was murdered? That seems like it goes beyond the realm of programming into sentience.

If both robots already had some sentience, it would make sense why they act more ‘alive’ after possession.

There’s a decent chance I’ve been able to convince you that Puppet is an AI by now, even if I don’t have rock solid evidence. But that’s still pretty different from flat out being the Mimic.

You know how it’s likely at least a few scrap pieces of metal survived the Pizzeria Sim fire to make Glitchtrap? You know how the pizzeria still exists under the PizzaPlex? You know how there’s a ton of symbolism of not necessarily the Puppet, but of Nightmarionne? You know how Nightmarionne is a version of the Puppet that seems a lot more sinister? You know how the only STAFF bots that can kill you are Nightmarionne designed? You know how we never actually see any version of the Puppet beyond plushies? You know how some believe Edwin and is a Henry parallel? You know how Puppet and Mimic were both made to take care of a child and would inevitably be hated when they failed to protect them?

Look, all I’m saying is that maybe after Charlie moved on (or her soul got corrupted if you want to add some more flavor) the Puppet’s AI either went a bit kooky or got Glitchtrapped.

[gorogues]

Spoilers for Flash #8!

This is a very chaotic issue, which is obviously intentional to reflect the breakdown of reality happening around the Flash Family. But that makes it challenging to read, because everything's happening at once and even the characters are discombobulated by it all.

Quick rundown: Hartley and TerrificTech figured out what's going on with speedsters causing reality to collapse, and Waller knows too after raiding the building to steal their data. Inspector Pilgrim's hanging out with Jai, and may or may not be his future self. Evan and co 'rescue' Barry from the Linear Bureau but place the Eobard-related Crown of Thawnes back on Barry to control him, and Wally's still in The Gallery but may leave now that he knows something's happening to Barry. As readers may remember, Wally was injured when Barry was possessed by the Crown and attacked him.

Like last issue, I sure hope it's the weirdness of reality collapsing that's got Barry "Good Gosh!" Allen swearing, because I find it quite jarring from him and am puzzled that none of the other characters have remarked on it. Barry noticed that Linda was acting unusually despite all the oddities, so it's not like everyone's completely oblivious to what's happening.

I can't say I'm loving this series thus far, as it's frenetic and depressing in parts and not a ton of fun to read. I guess we'll see what things are like after this arc is over and hopefully people start going back to normal again, and the Flash Family stops being awful to each other (there are exceptions; I really enjoyed Max telling Bart that he was proud of him when he thought they were going to die last issue). I'm also hoping we find out more about what's motivating the bad guys to get reality to collapse, because -- to paraphrase the Tick -- that's presumably where they keep all their stuff. But perhaps there's a higher method to their madness which will make sense when it's revealed, and Evan isn't really trying to doom the Rogues and Miss McCulloch to horrible deaths as everything crumbles around them. If so, the writer really needs to make that clear.

[viarayy01-blog]

I AM SO CURIOUS ABOUT YOUR NEWEST AU SO LITERALLY ANYTHING ABT TJAT UNLESS YOU DONT WANNA SPOIL THAT IF NOT UUUHMM IM CURIOUS ABOUT MERGEBAND TOO BC U MENTIONED MICHAEL AND CHARLIE FIGHT AND I WANNA KNOW MORE ABT THEM I LOVE UR AUS EXPLODES

JOYUS!! ok now where to start uhhnn

i know u like micheal stuff so im gonna talk ab him in the adult au as a treat mwahahah. mike is about 29 when he dies and he passes away in summer right before evans birthday. that year evan doesn’t celebrate his birthday (not that he every really did after.. yk..) and instead has mikes funeral on that day. inside his coffin, there’s a foxy mask lying over his hands. he always hated that stupid mask and what it represented, but the pain it caused got to die with him. 6 feet under, mike is buried. and to be honest, i think he would’ve thought that all the problems he caused would just go away once he was dead? like everything would just be normal. but its not, and without him alive still, it REALLY will never be.

i dont wanna say much about how mike dies becuase im not super sure myself but i know its rlly personal and uh.. yeah. eventually ill get the courage to write it lmao.

MERGEBAND WOOOOOOOOOOO. ok yeah so charlie and mike fight a lot honestly. mike is more carefree and he just.. doesn’t care? like he just slacks off, doesn’t learn his music, breaks instruments and causes financial difficulties, and charlie is the exact opposite of that. she’s organized and cautious and careful and absorbed in her music and practices. they butt heads a lot because mike never does anything and hes still kinda a dick to everyone but especially her, and she has a thin barrier over her tolerance of that stuff. she yells at him and kicks him out of practice, which not only stresses evan out but it also sets them back whenever they want to practice. THEY ARE SO SILLY AND DUMB RAHHHHHHH

[futurequibblerjournalist]

Wilhelm bullying Karkaroff?? You're torturing everyone lol

Um um um if you wouldn't mind,,, since I know ur tired of the wilkes yapping and glazing LMAO would you mind telling me about seabunny and starry Night? I've never heard of either of them :3 tbh I would totally listen to like anything u wanna yap abt tbh your posts are just so !!!! Ykkk?? like I dont think Ive seen anyone give Karkaroff that much attention before lol or Aurora honestlyyy

Sorry for the long anon LOL Ive been lurking for like a month and haven't anoned before aghhhh sorry for the spamm

-🍃

Please don’t apologise for the length, I’ve been loving all the asks I’ve been getting recently, any excuse to yap is one I greatly appreciate!! Feel free to spam me as much as you’d like lovely 🍃 anon (I will say my brain keep thinking these are weed leaves so I’m sorry but you’ve become weed leaves anon in my brain now lmao). Super flattered to hear you’ve been enjoying my posts btw jcnfjcbfjc

Yes!!! Wilhelm bullying Karkarov!!! With the help of especially Dolohov lmao. I don’t think Karkarov was particularly popular when he went to school in general but that’s a different topic for another time cjfncjfn

I would love to tell you about seabunny and starrynight!! I am obsessed with both. I’ve been lowkey obsessed with Igor and Charity for a while but Aurora and Severus is a new one for me. A friend of mine came up with the shipnames so major shout out for that lol

Seabunny is 100% something that happens because of Charity. She’s an it girl, she’s an icon, she’s pink, she’s got her daddy’s credit card, she’s got a heart ready to love anyone and she loves men that look like a rat after it’s walked through the underground sewage system (or in Igor’s case a goat lol). You’d think she does it to piss off her parents but that’s not even close. Her mum’s a little sus at first but she’s sus about everything so that’s not really anything to pay attention to. She sees Igor being his awkward self and she’s like “yes that’s the one I want”. Aurora and Wilhelm have to listen to her talk about him on and on as she praises him for doing the bare minimum like “and then he like, responded to me!! He even like, totally looked at me when I was talking this time”.

They’re so silly. For Igor he’s already decided she’s out of his league but the more persistent she is the more he actually starts to think he’s got a chance. And let’s be fr, Igor’s not the best person. He’s a bit more violent than what’s normal (he plays quidditch and oh dear you can catch Evan Rosier scraping the ground for stray teeth and bone bits by the time a game featuring Igor is over) and he’s a huge coward. Their first time alone Charity asked him over to her dorm to look at her cat and he was so confused when she pulled out an actual cat because there’s a slight language barrier at first (the cat also strangely really likes him and of course Charity sees that as a good sign (also the cat’s name is Pudding))

As for them after Hogwarts I’m so interested in seeing how being with Charity (Muggle Studies teacher and while a pureblood herself genuine lover of all things muggle) mixes with Igor (known death eater and technically convicted criminal until he was pardoned). How does knowing Charity affect how Igor basically abandons his death eater ways after the first war? And his reaction to his dark mark calling on him again and his decision to flee and go into hiding and in the end die for that freedom. How much of that is because he was influenced by Charity?? They die a year within each other and I just,, urgh there’s so many things about these two cjfncjnf have a mini moodboard lmao

Now starrynight!! That’s an entirely different vibe. It’s autism², it’s a lot of learning together, it’s a lot of enjoying each other as they genuinely are. Even if they’re not dating I love love love Aurora and Severus as friends. They just work really well together in a way where they actually get to chill for a bit, at least usually.

Bruce (Mulciber Jr) introduces them, not that they didn’t know each other beforehand, they’ve known each other for years, but the idea of them dating each other came about because Aurora really wanted to just “be normal”. Choosing Severus as her boyfriend might not be the best way to do that but she definitely feels more normal when she’s just hanging around with him cause she’s not constantly performing her normal-sona lol.

Aurora is, to me, incredibly reserved yet curious at the same time. She doesn’t want anyone too close yet she wants to experience everything everyone else does. She spends most of her time (if not hijacked by Charity or thinking she’s best friends with Wilhelm) in the Astronomy tower with the large golden telescope that Hogwarts provides and because homegirl loves this telescope so much she brought Severus to see it no doubt and being the mindful and demure girl she is she even checked if he was dying when he was dry heaving and trying to catch his breath while leaning on the walls as he climbed the stairs. Their dates consist of them sharing their interests with each other, whether it be knowledge about stars, telescopes, potions, chemistry etc. their compliments to each other consists of “I really appreciate that you know how to be quiet” and “I admire your knowledge on insert topic no ones ever heard of ever”. They sit together and read and call it a date where at most they share a few glances. They’re such an awkward looking couple, Aurora towers over Severus, but you’ve never seen communication skills like the ones these two have.

Charity is over the moon when Aurora announces that she’s got a boyfriend because they can finally talk about boys and everything that comes along with it. Aurora is over the moon, not necessarily because of the boyfriend thing (though she’s also fairly happy with that) but because she feels normal and god is she excited to feel normal cjnfjfnf

There’s a bit of Aurora and Charity friendship for you too and here’s another moodboard lol

I was gonna yap about Edmund Avery Jr but this post has already gotten like sooo long so I'll save that for another timenvjfnbjgbg

[cutedisneygirl]

Love Online Chapter 9

Warnings: none

The next morning Merida woke up to hear alarm and gets ready for her day. She has just gotten out of the shower when she hears her phone go off. She picks it up off the bathroom counter and smiles.

            Chris-Good morning my beautiful girlfriend! I hope you have a wonderful day! I look forward to talking to you tonight and texting you during nap time☺️

Merida-Morning my handsome boyfriend! Thanks. I hope you have a great day too! ☺️I can't wait to talk to you tonight, and yes texting during nap time.

Chris-😚☺️

Merida-☺️😚

Chris-Man I would love to see your beautiful face right now.

Merida-Well, not a good idea right now. 😉

Chris-Oh? Why is that? 😉

Merida-*bites lower lip*

Chris-Uh oh! What are you nervous about? 😉

Merida-*continues to bite lip* well I just got out of the shower 🥺

Chris-LOL! Mmm well have to say I would love to see you right now, especially since you're biting that lip 😉and probably being all cute standing in a towel?

Merida-*bites lower lip* actually no. 🥺heard my phone as I got out of the shower and picked it up before I got my towel. 🥺

Chris-😮

Merida-LOL well I really need to finish getting ready for work, so I won't be late.

Chris-Okay babe I will talk to you later. Have a great day 😚

Merida-Thanks, you too. 😚

            Merida finishes getting ready then heads to the kitchen and quickly fixes herself a cup of coffee with cream and sugar and a bowl of cereal. She quicky eats then feeds dixie and takes her outside then brushes her teeth then heads to work. She has just gotten to work when her phone goes off. She pulls it out and looks at it.

            Tiffany-I just remembered you have your doctor's appointment tomorrow. Let me know how it goes.

            Merida-Oh! Thanks for the reminder. I almost forgot it was tomorrow. I will let you know! At work talk later. Love ya.

Tiffany-LOL okay. Love ya too!

Merida heads inside and after signing in she walks into her room. She is greeted by two of her kids who come running up to her and hug her. A little red-haired girl and a blonde-haired boy.

            "Miss Meridda!" The red-haired girl said emphasizing the d and a.

            "Hey Ashely, hey Billy."

            "You're a little later than normal," her co-worker Maranda said.

            "Yeah sorry. I got into a...text message this morning and it pushed me behind."

            "So how was your weekend?"

            "Oh, it was great!"

            "Did you and Tiffany have fun in LA?" She winked.

            "Yes, we did. I guess you saw the picture!"

            "Girl everyone saw it! Everyone has been talking about it this morning. I won't be surprised if Catherine comes in and talk to you about it."

            "Am I in trouble?" Merida asks surprised.

            "Oh no! I wouldn't think so. We all thought it was so cute and funny too."

            "Oh okay."

            The girls fed the kids breakfast and after changing their diapers they played in centers for a while then before lunch they went outside and let the kids play.

            "So, Merida, I heard you met Chris Evans." One of the girls she works with said while they were outside on the playground.

            Merida smiled. "Yes, I did."

            "Is he as hot in person as he in on TV and pictures?"

            "Oh yes!"

            "I saw where you kissed him." Another girl said.

            Merida smiled. "Yeah."

            "Is he good kisser?"

            "Yes, he is." Merida smiled again.

            "So, are you two dating?"

            "As of last night, yes."

            "Really! Are you serious?" Maranda screamed.

            "Yes. He asked me last night... and I said yes. So we are."

            "Oh, wow girl! You are so lucky!"

Merida smiles. "Yeah, I guess."

            "You guess! Girl I would kill to be in your shoes! To be on his arm and walk to the red carpet with him. OMG I would just die! He has a great ass too!"

            "Maranda!" Merida screamed.

            "Well, he does!"

            "You better hope one the kids didn't hear you say that, or we will be in trouble!"

            "I didn't say it that loud and tell me you haven't noticed it!"

            "No actually I haven't. I noticed his smile though and his beautiful eyes."

            "Oh yes, that smile and my gosh those eyes!" Maranda says putting her hand on her chest after she said oh my gosh.

            "So, tell me what is he like?" Another girl asked.

            "Well, he is kind, understanding, caring, sweet and the perfect gentleman."

            "Aww."

            "Well, it's time for us to go in." Merida says walking towards the door.

Merida gathers up her kids and they head back into their classroom. Her coworker Maranda walks behind the last kid. After they in the classroom they wash hands and get ready for lunch. After eating lunch Merida changes diapers while her coworker gets the beds out. When nap time comes Maranda helps her gets the kids down and then takes her break. Merida is left alone and as she pats one of her kids, she feels her phone vibrate.

            Chris-Hey beautiful! How is your day going?"

Merida-It's going well. Guess what?

Chris-What?

Merida-Your famous around here. All the girls saw the post and I have been getting all kinds of questions. I can't tell you everything they said, but...

Chris-LOL and why can't you tell you me everything?😉

Merida-because some of the things are kind of bad lol and... *bites lower lip*

Chris-😮Must be pretty bad especially if you biting that lip 😉

Merida-Yeah. Crazy fan girls 😉lol

Chris-lol let me guess one of them said something about my ass?

Merida-Chris! OMG! Language!

Chris-LOL, they did, didn't they?

Merida-Maybe 😉

Chris-LOL okay fine babe so what else is going on?

Merida-Well right now I am patting a kid to sleep, and Tiff reminded me that my doctor's appointment is tomorrow. I almost forgot about it.

Chris-☺️what time is your appointment?

Merida-8am I'm nervous Chris.

Chris-It will be okay. You can call me when you get done.

Merida-Okay. I just hope I get good news.

Chris-Me too. I need to get going but I will talk to you later tonight, okay?

Merida-Okay. Have a good day.

Chris-you too babe 😚

Merida-☺️😚

The rest of the day went by fast. Maranda leaves after snack and Merida is left alone. She changes the kids diapers and lets them play in centers for a while before helping them clean up and taking them outside.

            "So, Mer, do you and Chris FaceTime?" One of the girls asks.

            "Yes."

            "Do you talk every night?"

            "Yes."

            "I bet the distance is hard."

            "Well, we just started dating and just met so...but yes. It will be I know."

            "When will you see him again you think?"

            "I have no idea. Probably not till November sometime."

            "Wow, that long!"

            "Yeah. He's working on his next project."

            "Oh? What is he working on?"

            "Uh...I don't know."

            "He hasn't told you?"

            "Uh...no not really." Merida hated lying but she had promised Chris wouldn't tell anyone what his next movie was.

            "Not really? So, you kind of know?"

            Merida laughs. "No, I don't know."

            "Mm okay if you say so."

            When Merida's last kid left, she cleaned up her room and was heading out when Catherine stopped her.

            "Merida, can I talk to you a minute?"

            "Sure." Merida walks into the office and sits down in front of the desk.

            "I heard all about your weekend and I saw the pictures on the media."

            "Yeah, I'm sorry about that. Chris said he was trying to be careful. We..."

            "No, it's okay. You're not in trouble. I just want to make sure it won't affect your job."

            "Oh no of course not! Why would it?"

            "Well, with the media being what it is, and how lies get started and pictures get taken. I don't want it to come back and affect you in any way. I'm not discouraging you or trying to hurt you but..."

            "I know what you're saying. He and I have just started dating, so its still in the early stages and I know how careful he is about his private life or tries to be. I can always talk to him about it if I need to."

            "No, as long as you understand and are careful. I'm sure he is a great guy, and I am happy for you."

            "Thanks Catherine. He is. I never expected it to happen."

            "I'm sure you didn't. I know you have struggled with dating in the past. So..."

            "Yes. I am still scared."

            "Well, if you ever need to talk, I'm here."

            "Thanks Catherine."

            "Welcome, and have you talked to Chris about it?"

            "No."

            "You should."

            "I will try. Oh, and I will be late tomorrow. I have a doctor's appointment."

            "Okay. Thanks for letting me know."

            "I will message you when I am on my way here."

            "Sounds good. Have a goodnight Merida."

            "You too thanks."

Merida leaves Catherine's office and says bye to her other coworkers and heads to her car. When Merida arrives home, Dixie greets her at the door.

            "Hey girl! You ready to go out?" Merida says putting her stuff down.

            Dixie barks.

            "Okay let me grab your leash."

Merida grabs Dixie's leash and they head out. They had just gotten out the door and were headed towards the sidewalk when her phone vibrates.

            Chris-Hey babe! Are you home?

Merida-Yes, I am walking Dixie.

Chris-I am walking Dodger ☺️can I FaceTime you?

Merida-Yes

Chris FaceTime's her.

            "Hey."

            "Hey beautiful! How's my girl?"

            "I'm okay."

            "Just, okay? What's wrong?"

            "Nothing."

            "Mer, are you lying to me?" He asks raising his eyebrow.

            "No, not really."

            "Not really? What's up? Talk to me."

            Merida bites her lip.

            "Oh no, there's that lip biting that tells me your nervous. What's up?"

            "It's nothing.  Promise."

            "Mer. Come on, you can tell me."

            "Chris, honest. It's nothing. I'm just..."

            "Are you still nervous about tomorrow?

            "Yes. I hate going to the doctor."

            "Yeah, I understand that. I do too. It will be okay. Remember I told you that you can call me when you get done."

            "I know and I will."

            "Okay, is that all that's bothering you?"

            "Yeah, that's it."

            "Alright. Well, you know you can always talk to me. About anything."

            "I know."

            "So how is Dixie? Is she learning how to use a leash?"

            "Yes," she laughs. "She's getting there. Oh, I plan to call someone to help me get a fence built in my yard soon."

            "Great! Then it will be easier to take Dixie out. You won't have to keep her on a leash."

            "Yeah. She is stubborn at times, and I don't want her to run off."

            "Yeah. Dodger can be stubborn at times." Chris laughs.

            "He is so cute though! I haven't seen a post about him in a while."

            "Yeah, I've been a little preoccupied." He winks and smiles.

            "Are you saying I'm a distraction?" Merida smiles.

            "Oh no babe! Of course not! But I have been busy with filming and then I talk to this wonderful girl who just recently became my girlfriend." Chris smiles.

            Merida smiles. "Aww Chris."

            "God, I love it when you smile. You have such a beautiful smile."

            Merida blushes and bites her lip just little.

            "And there's that lip biting again. Your so shy but cute. I love it."

            Merida walks back toward her house and opens her door and lets Dixie off the leash.

            "Your back home now?"

            "Yes. I need to figure out what I am going to eat now."

Chris laughs. "Well, I'll let you go so you eat."

            "You don't have to hang up. I can do both."

Chris laughs. "I actually do need to go. I am meeting up with my brother. I will text you later, okay babe?"

            "Alright."

            "Enjoy your dinner," he blows her a kiss.

            "Bye Chris," Merida smiles.

Merida ends the call, and she fixes herself a sandwich. She sits down on the couch and flips through Netflix and finds the movie The Little Mermaid. She smiles, remembering how her and Chris sang the songs. She hits play.

            Merida-Guess what I am watching ☺️

A few minutes later she gets a reply.

            Chris-And what are you watching? 😉

Merida-The Little Mermaid

Chris-Aww one of my favorites ☺️I would love to be there sitting beside you watching it with you. 🥺

Merida-Aww I know me too. I would love to watch it with you and sing all the songs.

Chris-Oh would you actually sing all them this time and not be all shy on me?

Merida-Maybe ☺️

Chris-LOL well hopefully one day we can babe. 😚Message ya later with my brother.

Merida-Okay, have fun. 😚☺️

Chris-☺️definitely will. I always do when we are together LOL

            Merida-LOL yeah I know. I've seen you guys together your funny.

Chris-LOL Oh no! What have you been watching?

Merida-Nothing specific but I have some of the videos on your Instagram page of the jokes and things you do to each other.

Chris-Oh yeah. LOL He's a nut.

Merida-Lol, yeah but so are you. ☺️

Chris-Hey! 😢

Merida-☺️😚I'm sorry, but you are. You are funny but your fun to be around so it's okay.

Chris-thanks babe, and I your fun to be around too. Alright I really need to go now. I'll message ya later 😚

Merida-Okay 😚

Merida finished her movie while she ate her dinner then cleaned up and took Dixie out again then got into bed and read. She was currently reading Ella Enchanted. Merida was almost asleep when she heard her phone go off.

            Chris-Hey babe, you still awake?

Merida-Yeah. I was almost asleep then I heard my phone.

Chris-Oh I'm sorry did I wake you? I don't even know what time it is.

Merida-It is 3 something, I think.

Chris-Oh babe I'm sorry.

Merida-It's okay. I was trying to stay awake. I was reading and got tired. Are you at home?

Chris-Just got home. Can I FaceTime you?

Merida-I guess. I look terrible. I'm half asleep.

Chris-Aww I'm sure you don't look terrible. I know your beautiful.

Merida-Awww 🥺

Then Chris FaceTime's her.

            "Hi."

            "Well hey babe. Your beautiful!"

            "Thanks Chris."

            "Welcome babe. So, your appointment is at 8 right?"

            "Yes. Ugg...I wish I didn't have to go."

            "It will be okay. Remember to call when you get done."

            "I will. I will be heading into work after that."

            "Okay. Well, I guess I should let you get some sleep. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Goodnight babe. Sweet dreams."

            "Night. Talk to you later."

They hung up and Merida put her phone on the table beside her and rolled over and went to sleep.

            The next morning, she awoke and saw that is 6:45. She quickly got a shower, put in her contacts, applied a little make up and got dressed then got her coffee and ate her breakfast. After she finished her breakfast, she washed her dishes then took Dixie out and left for her appointment.

            She arrived at the doctor's office right on time. Once her name was called, she went in and got her checkup. They took some blood and scans of her and checked her out. Right before the doctor left, she told Merida she wanted her to come back in a week for another checkup. Merida asked why, what was wrong? But the doctor just said she needed her to come back that they would look at her results. Merida left the office worried. As she walked to her car, she called Chris. He answered on the second ring.

            "Hey babe, how did it go?

            "I don't know."

            "What do you mean you don't know?"

            "They checked me out, took blood and did some scans, but she said she wants me to come back in a week for another checkup and show me my results. Chris I'm scared. What if something is wrong?"

            "Babe, I'm sure everything is okay."

            "But the way the doctor looked, the look her face. She wouldn't tell me anything. She just said to come back in a week. Chris I'm so scared. I can't do this!" Merida cried as she got into her car.

            "Babe, hey I'm here, its okay. Would you want me to go with you?"

            "I can't ask you to do that. I know your working on your new movie and..."

            "Hey, I can work it out, if you need me, I'll be there."

            "Chris that's sweet of you but I can't ask you to do that."

            "Babe, you didn't ask me, I'm offering. It's not a problem. I can make it work. Just say the word and I can be there."

            "Chris..." Merida cried.

            "Aww Babe, don't cry please. I can't stand to hear you cry. I wish I was there with you. Listen to me, I will be there. Just let me know when your appointment is, and I will be there."

            Merida bites her lower lip and remains quiet.

            "Babe, are you there?"

            "Yeah, I'm here. Chris you're so sweet. It is next Friday at 1:00 pm."

            "Alright I will work it out and I will be there."

            "Thanks Chris that is so sweet of you."

            "Babe, I'm here for you always! I care about you."

            "I know you do, and I care about you too. Thanks Chris."

            "Your welcome babe. We can talk about the details later alright?"

            "Okay. I need to head into work now."

            "Alright babe. I'll talk to you later. Message me at nap time?"

            "Of course."

            "Alright babe. Later kisses."

They hung up and Merida headed into work. Catherine could tell as soon as she walked in the door that something was wrong.

            "Merida, are you okay?"

            "Yeah, I'm okay."

            "How did you appointment go?"

            "Okay, I guess. I don't know."

Catherine had been like a mother to her for the five years she had been working at the daycare. The mother she never had.

            "Come in and talk to me for a minute. You don't have many kids yet."

Merida walks into Catherine's office and sat down in front of her desk just as Catherine closed the door.

Tag List: @cevansbaby-dove @nicoline1998enilocin @lizette50 @katherineswritingsblog @cutelatinagirl

[freyaswolf]

For years, I lived in bewildered befuddlement regarding the musical musings of Taylor Swift. I usually listen to rock or metal, so her brand of pop was not a part of my usual lineup. However, I gained lovely friends here on Tumblr who swear by our Lady TayTay, so I decided I should check out her stuff. But there was SO MUCH, I didn't even know where to start. Luckily, my dearest mutual and actual friend, @idontgettechnology , took pity on me and made me the most amazing playlist to get me started. She titled it Taylor Swift 101, with a description of "Class is is session bish".

I spent today working my way through it, and it was a revelation! I took notes, cause that's what you're supposed to do in class, so here are my highlights from the 56 song playlist. I know I'm missing out on years of lore regarding TSwift, but I'm eager to learn. After a few more listens I may even be ready for the 201 level of this class lol

Notes below the cut, to save your scrolling thumb 😜

Ok, here we go! (I'm pretty sure these are in the intended order, and mostly these are first impressions)

1. Fifteen: wow, this took me straight back to highschool!

2. Teardrops on my Guitar: yep, I'm already hooked

3. Fearless: UGH!!!!

4. Tied Together with a Smile: FUCK!

5. Whitehorse: Holy shit!

6. Cold as You: DAMN!!!

7. You Belong with Me: (SCREAMING) I'm officially invested!

8. Stay Beautiful: 😍😍😍

9. That's The Way I Loved You: FUUUUUUCK!!!

10. Come Back, Be Here: I'm dead over this one ☠️

11. Sparks Fly: EHRMEHGHERD!!!

12. All Too Well: DUUUUUDE!!! I think this is about Jake Gyllenhaal? Also, OOOUUUUUCCCHHH, I can feel her pain!

13. Dear John: EW! Girl, he's a toxic ass narcissist! Babygirl, you need to ditch those boys, get you a girlfriend instead. I volunteer as tribute, or I would if I wasn't too old and boring lol

14. I Almost Do: 🥺🥺🥺🥺

15. Enchanted: Oh the feels!!! Also, my personal head canon is that this is about Chris Evans 😜

16. Red: oh boy, have I been here!

17. Long Live: THIS IS SUCH A GREAT SONG! OH MY HEART!

18. Blank Space: HA! I love this song!

19. Out of the Woods: girl does not have normal relationships

20. How You Get the Girl: OOOOF! I mean come on, she's literally giving instructions!

21. Bad Blood: Fuck you song if ever I heard one! "You made this mess, you know that right?" Kinda vibes

22. Clean: (hand over heart in salute) I feel you sis!

23. Wonderland: Love this! Also, who is this green eyed boy she keeps mentioning?!

24. Look at What You Made Me Do: love this! "Fine, now I'm the bad guy" vibes 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

25. This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things: BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! DUDE!!! LOVE THIS!!! 🤣

26. Gorgeous: Love this! UGH SHUT UP YOUR PRETTY FACE! Also about Chris Evans lol

27. Getaway Car: Damn, I've had a few of these, and yeah nothing good happens in a getaway car. Doomed! Lol

28. Dress: HOT!!!

29. New Years Day: Oh my heart!!!

30. The Man: FUCK YES!!!

31. The Archer: wow, exhausting/exhausted, this poor kid!

32. London Boy: FUCK. (This totally made me think of JQ) lol

33. Paper Rings: LOVE!!! ❤️❤️❤️

34. Cruel Summer: relatable lol

35. Cardigan: Sobbing 😭

36. Ivy: UGH! Made me cry!

37. Exile: FML. SOBBING. FR UGLY CRYING.

38. Champagne Problems: this girl needs a hug

39. Illicit Affairs: OUCH!

40. Coney Island: 🖤

41. Hoax: I am bereft. I feel like I just broke up with all of my exes at once.

42. Gold Rush: definitely about Chris Evans. Also the way I flirt, if you're too perfect, I avoid and ignore. And if I can't do that, I heckle.

43. Tis the Damn Season: FEEEEELS!!!

44. Mirrorball: she needs all of the hugs, and some real friends.

45. No Body, No Crime: I would absolutely hide bodies for her. I would die for her.

45. Betty: I have questions? Also, I 🖤 when she says fuck.

46: Evermore: I liked it, but I didn't have a definitive "note"

47. Antihero: HA!

48. Maroon: I really love it when she says fuck. It may be a new kink for me.

49. Lavender Haze: I really want her to get a girlfriend.

50. You're on Your Own Kid: SO GOOD!

51. Bejeweled: FUCK YES!!!

52. Mastermind: 😈😈😈 I've done this. This is me.

53. The Great War: bonded like war buddies lol

54. High Infidelity: Feels decidedly Hellcheery

55. Would've Could've Should've: DAAAAAMMMMNNN!!!!

56. Dear Reader: WOW

And I am SPENT! This was a rollercoaster of emotions, and I enjoyed the whole fucking time. I am now a ride or die T Swift fan. Dude, I had no idea. Thank you so much MJ for this guided tour, I had the best time today! 🥰

[originalnovelist]

Vain

INVOLVED: Samuel Evans and Rebecca Evans. LOCATION: Cleveland Clinic; Cleveland, Ohio. TIME FRAME: - NOTES: Rebecca decides Samuel’s fate. 

Rebecca gazed at her brother as he lay there, she had so many emotions whirling inside of her she felt like she was going to explode. Begging him to wake proved futile, her hope had died long ago, and now she was just all around exhausted. Defeated moreso. She exhaled looking around the white room, her mother had left to grab herself a bite. She hadn’t been in the room alone with him since he entered the hospital. She didn’t want to be honestly; it was entirely too surreal. What if his heart had given way while she was sitting in the chair beside him, she might as well have die too she wouldn’t be able to handle that. No matter the person, another body in the room had managed to give her a little comfort during the ordeal. 

“How could you leave her everything?” she finally spoke, she looked back at Samuel. She could hear his remark, like a knife cutting ice he would have torn into her. But right now, he couldn’t. He was unable to attack them in his normal beastly manner in this state, it was unfamiliar to her. She almost longed for him to curse her out. “She doesn’t even love you, she never did. She never will” the bitter woman spoke. “She’s in this room crying over you, laying at your side pretending that she isn’t the fucking reason you are laying right there right now. I hate the idea of her, of you letting her back in. I begged you not to. I forbade you to and you did it anyway” she said clutching her fist. “And now you are going to leave her all of it?” she asked him. 

“You didn't even have the balls to tell me yourself you went to your accountant and your lawyers and you handled it all. Weeks ago” she yelled, putting emphasis on the news she’d gotten mere days ago. “You have it all mapped, the money you are dispersing between the six kids. The royalties of the books! Your funeral Sam?” she said in disgust. “You planned the entire thing, flowers, music, colors” she listed on her fingers. “I am fighting for your life and you ending yours” she confronted. “This is about around the time you’d tell me it doesn’t have anything to do with her right, but it does. You can’t have her the way you want her so what, you don't want to be here at all?” she asked him. “You are selfish as hell for that, casting aside everybody who really loves you who needs you here for one bitch” she spat. 

“An inferior bitch” she added as she got up from her chair, she ran her hands through her greasy chair. She was lacking in the self care department but that was a sacrifice she would make for him. “Here I am trying to get these people to do everything they can for you” she told him, standing at the foot of his bed. “Your whole life I’ve been trying to protect you, help you, save you and you won’t even save yourself” she barked. “Get up!” she commanded “face me” she told him irritatedly. “Tell me to my face everything I’ve done; all the studying, all the crying, all the praying was in VAIN!” she argued. 

“You are improving, they have done everything they could for you” Rebecca told him. “I can’t think of anything else and I am tired, I don’t want to think anymore. I want you to get up. But you aren’t right?” she asked him. “This is it. That is what you are saying to me, to us. The book spelled it out quite clearly, you are ready to go and right now we are selfishly keeping you here, on this fucking machine…. wasting away anyway….” she turned her head away from him. She wiped a few of her tears, her head shaking as she pushed off his bed. “Alright” she said, a chuckle leaving her, the sound leaving her mouth morphing into a cry. “You win” she said to him “I won’t fight you on it, I am going to give you what you want. You left me a road map…. We will go from there…”