#how have they survived without me
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so I went to see family for the Big Game yesterday bc it's a good excuse to visit and we were all wrapping up for the night, everyone had gone to bed, and I got out of the shower, ready to sleep, and I saw that no one had cleaned up their mess before going to bed. Fuckin nacho cheese Nidoritos and cheddar and sour cream Girafaridgies chips and sour cream and onion Tangelays potato chips and the bones of Tauros sauce covered Pidgey wings and the fancy Vermillion City sharp cheddar cheese dip and a billion cans of Fuecoca-cola and Dr. Wooper soda and Budew-Light beer and just. So much trash that everyone abandoned. Despite there being a vacuum of a Zorua and a bottomless pit stomached Espurr in the house. And I, the person with sensory issues bc autism, had to clean up all the wet and sticky and flavour dust covered foods and wipe down the tables and wash the bowls and put away the leftovers bc otherwise my gluttonous pokemon WILL eat until they explode. I am charging for my services
#how have they survived without me#like the amount of trash produced. ridiculous#my zorua Zoinks and my espurr Baba only were able to get a couple chips before i stopped them#and they stayed away from the soda and beer so we were safe#food mention#tw food#food tw#alcohol cw#alcohol tw#alcohol mention#//ooc: this is actually loosely based on my experience last night bc my brother snd father are slobs#//ooc: and I'm always cleaning up after them#//ooc: for better or for worse the animals that zoinks and baba are based after are no longer with us#//ooc: cuz god knows they wouldve gone ham on the cheese dust#//ooc: also this post was just an excuse to make fun poke-pun products#//ooc: it was fun to write#pokemon#pokemon ranger#pokemon ranger booker#pkmn irl#pokemon irl#ooc tags
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gg buddy am I right (ethubs doodle that I don't know what to do with)
#ethubs#Ive wanted to draw ethubs angst for so many days but art block is still hitting hard and this thing has been sitting around for awhile#hey ethubers how did you. survive#last life ethubs upsets me so much make it end#The way after Bdubs dies Etho is trying to justify to himself not having given him a life to begin with rather than#telling him to prove himself#its like he expects the others who are with him to comment on it but they dont. Etho's all "I couldn't have just given it to him you know..#without them asking about it or anything. And Etho just keeps going. god damn it Etho I feel so bad for them#dont even get me started on what Bdubs said to G about Etho grrrr GRRRR I saw that for the first time not long ago GRRRRRR#I still wanna draw proper ethubs though. someday#also the damage to Bdubs' face is supposed to be from the rocket Lizzie shot#does it make sense? No probably not but its an excuse to make him look more dead#tubby art
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EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK!!! I want to be coherent about this season but please picture me foaming at the mouth and running on the walls. S2 being what if Mark's just like his Dad? Insanity. I love this show. Anyways, AU where an Evil!Mark tries to make Our!Mark worse, and Our!Mark tries to make the other better. Something something confronting your idea of the worst version of oneself. Plus, tweaked black and yellow costume because I saw it and immediately went murder hornet lookin' ass and knew I had to draw it. Evil ass Mark. Horrible. I think he should be dragged kicking and screaming into redemption.
#mark and the fact he is fighting for this fucking life to avoid the Many Bad Endings???? im pacing. getting out the red string.#when the season is about who you are and what you could become. when trying to be good is an active choice and a struggle.#RAHHHHHHHHHHH#chewing on the bars of my enclosure...when every mark is evil OUR mark is the outlier. the exception. the OTHER. RAHHHH#dog poetry being mark poetry because how often can you kick a dog before it starts snarling before you raise your hand?#how often can you beat it before it rips into you without mercy? when it bites not at your hand but at your neck?#when does violence for survival and violence for vengeance start and end? when your opponent is down and you keep drawing blood?#circling and pacing and losing my mind over this btw if you care#anyways self vs self gets me going crazy. did you know i loved the end of atsv? because it shows.#i think o!mark would lose his fucking mind at what evil wasp looking mark has done + this mf wasp would LOATHE mark's kindness#they both see the other as the WORST version of themselves and they can't stand it. They can't shatter the mirror but they think they can--#--change the reflection.#evil mark seeing mark and seeing what he USED to be#mark seeing what he COULD be#CAN U SEE THE VISION??????#digital art#invincible rotating in my mind#invincible fanart#fanart#mark my beloved#mark grayson fanart#mark grayson#invincible s2#invincible show#mark like hello this is my secret twin and he is NOTHING like me hahahaha anyways wanna debate about having mORALS and LIFE#mark grayson vs the urge not to accept every responsibility as his own#he's batman coded that way#ok im done yapping#if this happened in the comics in any way shape or form dont tell me JACK SHIT or i will PUMMEL YOU with my SHOES
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Garfield Pantach Kankham as JJ & Benz Atthanin Thaninpanuvivat as METHAS
—THIS LOVE DOESN’T HAVE LONG BEANS · รักนี้ไม่มีถั่วฝักยาว · 5 July 2024
#this love doesn't have long beans#love no long beans#garfield pantach#benz atthanin#benzgarfield#lovenolongbeansedit#thai bl#thai drama#bl drama#bl series#my edits.#i'm just not sure how i'm going to survive july#especially if all of these series come out without a european release 😭😭😭#me whenever editors put fancy fade ins/outs into trailers:#disgusting! jeeves take it away!!
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Wymack, Bee, Nicky and Kevin are so underrated in regards to how fundamentally they helped Andrew. Without them Andrew would never have anyone to even take a chance at him. Without Wymack, he wouldn’t have college and exy, without nicky he wouldn’t even have a “home”, without Bee, Andrew’s mental state would have been way way worse, and without Kevin, Andrew wouldn’t have a purpose.
Neil may be the catalyst and Andrew’s main reason to actually live. But these four people (and Aaron) are Andrew’s cornerstones, his foundation, are what’s holding him up before Neil josten even existed.
#I’m so done with people disregarding these four/five people when they mention how Andrew healed#like yeah ofc we know neil is the main reason#but without any of these five people Andrew minyard would have been beyond help even with Neil#Andrew minyard cannot put his entire being in just one persons hands okay#also I rmb in the EC Nora Said that the two deaths Andrew wouldn’t survive after tkm is bees and Neil’s#Andrew minyard is Just so important to me I need him for my well-being#aftg#all for the game#tfc#the foxhole court#aftg series#aftg fandom#andrew minyard#aftg incorrect quotes#neil josten#andrew joseph minyard#aftg headcanon#aftg thoughts#tfc headcanon#aftg andrew#aftg andreil#aftg kevin#aftg fic#aftg trilogy#betsy dobson#David wymack#kevin day#nicky hemmick#aaron minyard#aftg nicky
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played dragon age 2...just simple scribbles
#dragon age tag#i doubt that will see much use again..but who knows. vvv rambling below#weird game..the characters dialogue stuff and ending were good tho :')#i've played some of the first game but it kept crashing. i knew already despite knowing nothing that this guy was going to be my type#it doesnt feel right making video game art any more bc games like this end up feeling really personal - an experience that happened to me#if i design the main character a bit and fall in love then..that happened to me..i can't make Fan Art of that..only ive been through that..#like i cant make fanart of my dear companions in bg3 despite it having been a huge part of my heart in the last year#almost 1000 hours of playtime in something i can barely talk about bc it means too much.... lol#tons of ideas and conversations and extra thoughts and scenes and emotions about all the incredible times i've been through in bg3#and the maelstrom just rotates around intensely in my own heart forever...but that's ok too...that is so precious to me#but fortunately i already knew people that have played this game and talked/drew abt it recently so it was saved from that for me#sharing scribbly fanart on my Blog is a way to capture the feeling just after experiencing something so it has good points#witch hat atelier escapes that by not being a GAME. games are so immersive. but my wha art & feelings are incredibly immersive too#which makes it difficult sometimes now. i live a complicated and emotional life <3 i am not suited to fandom <3#my character ended up looking so much like oru without me realising that's what i was doing. Kind bearded fireball throwing gay mage. Hmm.#falling for a sad white hair memory trauma fellow that keeps you at a tragic distance. Hmmmmmm.#i see also how very much bg3 is inspired by stuff like dragon age now lol so i'm glad i experienced it. I WANT MY KIRKWALL LIFE BACK...#so dated though as well and unpleasant at times (the city and the dismal atmosphere was depressing.) i hate violence/horror..#bg3 is SOOOO very dismal but it feels like I am killing people and going through horrors because i have to survive i have to be free#Well anyway. ahh it's so refreshing to fall in love. my gay journey continues...
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We agreed that I'm in charge of the bars. But you come here all the time to watch me. How am I supposed to lead my people? Use your head, okay? Suit yourself.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 04
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chaing tien#jiang dian#userjjessi#uservid#userspring#userrain#userspicy#*cajedit#*gif#what if they'd actually leaned into the gang stuff and crime and survival of it all#and chen yi and ai di growing up in this environment#what if they spent time on the actual plot do you know how good this show would be if they did that?#and spent time on the changes they went through during their four years apart while ai di was in prison??#where can i subscribe to the chen yi and ai di getting shit done ON screen half of the show#chen yi feelings realization ON screen while fixing his mistakes in the gang and thinking about how ai di took the heat for him#give it to me. please. and thanks.#IM BEGGING AGTUALLY. IM TEARING OUT MY HAIR FROM HOW GOOD IT COULD HAVE BEEN#because they are such real characters!!! because their storyline is INTERESTING! compelling and well written and near devoid of tropes!!#because their actors literally embody these roles so well theyre so believable and its easy to understand the depths without seeing it!!#BUT I WANT TO SEE IT.#I. WANTED. TO. SEE IT.
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was thinking about takeshi and how he's my favorite brand of unconditional devotion btw. the utter and absolute and all-consuming kind that runs so deep to the very core and is so intrinsic and fundamental to it, it can only express itself in the most casual and natural and certain way. without second thoughts, without any room for doubts or for any moral dilemma to be had over it, because of course he ought to always be breathing and living for his chosen person first and foremost. of course he ought to hang on their every word and make them true no matter what, no matter what he has to do to make it happen, no matter what he has to do to other people to make it happen, and no matter what it might turn him into in the process. because it's obviously the way the world should be for his chosen person. at their feet, ready to bend over backwards and break and build itself again to better answer to all their needs even if they don't ask it for it. it's the only right way it should be for them, and of course takeshi's going to do his utmost at all times to make it a reality as much as possible.
and his devotion comes out as naturally as breathing, comes out lighthearted and nonchalant like he might as well be talking about the weather, but it's not unaware of itself. it's not that takeshi doesn't know it's unhealthy and wrong and that he's willing to go entirely too far in its name for anyone's good. it's not that he wouldn't hear you out if you were to sit him down and explain to him just why he needs to tone it down a little (a lot). logically, he'd agree with you and know you're right. and then he'd tell you he's still not going to do anything whatsoever about it. that he's not bothered by it and doesn't feel the need to change anything to his attitude. makes it a point to never let anyone or anything sway him even an inch in the stand he took when it comes to that, no matter how many thousand of times you might go over the subject with him.
because the morality of his devotion isn't the point at all. is entirely irrelevant to it and doesn't affect the way he expresses it all. it's not the metric with which he draws a line in the sand to hold it accountable to. because the thing is, takeshi's entire world revolves around tsuna--tsuna is his entire world altogether, and it's just a matter of fact, that simple. to him it's a truth as unchanging as the sky being blue, and so being the way he is according to that truth is the only way he can imagine being that'd feel right to him. and so the actual and only metric that matters here is "would tsuna be happier if i were to do this?" and/or "is this something tsuna needs me to do?"
and like. i don't think takeshi ever stops being a kind person capable of compassion and understanding and mercy and forgiveness even ten years later once they became mafia through and through. and i don't think either he grows up to be feared and called a monster per se despite the things they inevitably had to do during those ten years (and the things they'll inevitably keep having to do as long as they keep being mafia), at least not in the way, for example, they'll never stop fearing and calling mukuro one. but i do think that among the tenth gen, he ends up being the one with the most ruthless, merciless and horrific blood on his hands of that particular and distinct loving kind. you know the one i mean, right? he comes to be the one most expected and the one first expected to be willing and to take it upon himself to go through with it when the need arises. and to think little of it after, if anything at all. all in the name of making tsuna's reign as easy on him as possible.
and it's to the point where it's the kind of blood that makes even mukuro pause at times. or, when takeshi is the one coming up with solutions himself during meetings, makes even reborn blink. not because it's unjustified or wouldn't be safe or efficient or anything of the sort, but because it is unwarrantedly thorough in its retaliation. and sometimes, at times like this, he's the one tsuna needs to step in for the most, because he's the only one who can reason with him that "yes, this would work in getting rid of our problem" but "no, please, don't do that takeshi". because if tsuna is the only thing that infers on just how much and in what ways he'll let himself be devoted to him, then of course, he's also the only one takeshi's willing to reign himself in for without second thoughts. because he'd hate to ever do something tsuna would disapprove of or wouldn't want him to do. or do something that'd make tsuna see him differently or love him back less even in the slightest.
and it's also like. his devotion isn't an undisciplined one. it's not one he doesn't have control over, the very opposite. it's a very purposeful and conscious choice he chooses to keep making over and over again every step of the way, and he taught himself to have control over it, to know when it's needed and/or wanted, and how much and in which ways it is when it happens, and to keep it down otherwise. and, yes, to also reign it back in at tsuna's request at times when it still slips past his control. because it's all about making tsuna's happiness easier and secure and long-lasting, and never about burdening him with just how committed he is to do that.
so it comes down to this: takeshi willing to go above and beyond and more for tsuna unless tsuna explicitly asks him not to. and to tsuna needing to ask him not to every now and then. and to other people pointing out to him how too many times tsuna's already needed to stop him, and that maybe there's a hint for him to take there. and to takeshi seeing the hint, looking it straight in the eye and recognizing it for what it is and just. deciding it doesn't apply to him because it's all perfectly normal behavior to him. because it's the only kind of behavior that makes sense to him and feels right.
and so—to circle back to my first point—he can only express his devotion as naturally as breathing, so casually, almost like it's something inconsequential and not worth talking about despite how unmistakably it couldn't be further away from being the truth. it's the only way he could have always known how to express it, because, after all, who has ever taken time to ponder about the details and the hows of the way they breathe?
and i, for one, absolutely eat that shit up every time, thanks for coming to my ted talk <3
#katekyo hitman reborn#khr#khr meta#can i even call this one?? well i'm going to anyway lol#yamamoto takeshi#sawada tsunayoshi#i've never been normal about devotion in stories and characters and won't ever be so sorry if this doesn't make sense#also this is not to say the 10th gen loves tsuna any less unconditionally this isn't a competition#it's just me saying the particularities and specificities of the way takeshi specifically does it appeal to me the most#which is one of the reasons why i have such a big soft spot for 8027#and it's not a problem in their relationship either btw that's also not what i'm saying#like tsuna doesn't mind it and absolutely /does/ reciprocate it 100%#he's just careful to keep an eye out so none of them will lose themselves along the way#also this is within the context of me shifting canon slightly to the left in the way where the 10th gen loves tsuna /so much/#they could just as well actually and properly worship him as a god and it still wouldn't make a single difference#and me liking to lean into that fully and taking it to extremes and it inevitably becoming some extent of dark#because considering the environment canon makes them express it (the mafia) it's like. well how else are they meant to keep it alive#and make sure it survives through it without giving it sharp teeth and claws and jagged edges of its own you know?#so if you feel like this is some kind of ooc-ness you're not wrong#but also consider: i'm not wrong either <3#anyway consider also: unconditional devotion running /so/ deep down to your marrow and to your very essence#even in the face of the whole world telling you how wrong it is and how insane and unhinged you are for it and condemning you for it#it still wouldn't so much as make you consider the thought they might have a point#and i genuinely EAT that shit up every time i love to see it <3
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I never stopped wondering why natori thought that gifting a happily-married woman a bouquet of roses in exchange of borrowing her adopted son for a weekend trip was the correct course of action 😭
#he's probably just rizz-maxxing in an attempt to swoon touko and get her to say yes without interrogating who he is and how he knew her son#but rewatching this episode still has me ?!?!? because YOU COULD'VE BEEN WHACKED BY HER HUSBAND IF HE WASN'T SUCH A KIND MAN PLEASEEEE 😭#i think natori understands societal norms very well (in both regular humans and exorcists' community). he can't survive this far without it#but this whole scene is likely because he doesn't have any friends. so he doesn't know how to interact with a friend's family haha 💔#like nooo natori... just bring your body + introduce yourself and your intentions politely... the fujiwaras would gladly let you borrow him#on surface-level he probably does it because of the rizz-maxxing attempt. but if you look a little deeper into it... (collapses) 🥲💔#natori shuuichi#natsume takashi#fujiwara touko#natsume yuujinchou#natsume's book of friends#natsuyuu#this is nawttt to be taken as a ship post btw 💀💀💀
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i want to grab ur ocs under their arms and make them dance like cat owners do with their cats
Ah! Thank you so much! Speaking of arms-
Poppet has none! They don't have any lips either...
You know how a tiger will gnaw off it's own leg to escape a trap? Well, the Minis certainly got a feast out of it! After taking a small vat of acid to the face and resisting the Prototype, Poppet was strung up with the rest of the Smiling Critters and left to the mercy of the Minis. So, despite the agony and the blood loss, Poppet chewed through sleeves and sinew until they were free. They've mostly been hiding in their box ever since.
Close ups!
Fun Fact: Poppet's box is hooked up to the Gas Production Zone, so it functions like a stasis chamber. Whenever Poppet is inside, the lid locks, and Poppet basically goes into hibernation. It's the only reason they haven't starved, and why the box must be wound to open! Turning the crank shuts off the gas so it doesn't leak when the box is opened. There is an internal mechanism so Poppet can get out without help, but it takes a break in the gas for them to be awake enough to pull it.
#Poppet got messed up man#my beloved rotten rabbit#and yes they absolutely left the rest of the Critters to die#not deliberately! don't get me wrong!#but they were afraid and already bleeding like hell#and how does one undo belts without arms?#All they could think about was getting away#Poppet was pretty friendly with everyone (except Catnap)#Poppet basically saw Catnap as “the problem child” lmao#They were besties with Hoppy though (Fellow bunnies y'know?)#Poppet did help a few of the critters later on! Hoppy survived the longest.#Catnap tore her apart personally#i adore them sm#poppet spring#rotten poppet#poppy playtime oc#poppy playtime#jester oc#oml y'all have NO IDEA how long the back image took#holy shit/pos#phrart#art#character design#the three d’s#armless#tw gore#cw gore#cw body horror#cw injury
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batman au designs... edward nygma, selina kyle
#mine#m art#batman#the riddler#catwoman#selina kyle#edward nygma#ed nygma#dc fanart#whatever dude how do you even tag this shit#was forced to tag art on tumblr did not survive#i post everything without tags everywhere else u will not catch me tagging posts#but tumblr..#art#artists on tumblr#digital art#small artist#artist#fuck my stupid baka life#AAAAAAAAAGHHHH#is this riddlecat chat?#theyre standing next to eachother!!#i ship it truly#riddlecat#riddlecat fans follow me im in love with you#lets make out#having a whole ass convo w myself on the tags#dc comics#batman au#fatal fears au
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so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-
but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again
(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)
i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)
weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward
but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.
right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#sorta#suicide attempt mention in the IRL stuff im talking about in the following tags btw#theres some construction stuff on our house going on#and my father is extremely stressed about it#he used to be very explosive- being silent and then exploding out of nowhere .. probably left me with lasting damage yippie-#but now he much more lets it eat at himself bc hes old and feels bad for the past stuff so now it makes him irritated and depressed#my older brother is the most normal cis straight guy you can imagine and incredibly impatient and bossy (you CANNOT talk with him)#(brother doesnt live in our house)#and while hes helping out hes doing it exactly how my father doesnt like and since you cant talk to the guy (explosive +200) it stresses hi#to the point of my father yesterday saying that “it would have been better if i had just died back in the day”#likely referring to the time when he was drafted for the military against his will and tried to kill himself#which i learned only like .. a year ago- theres so little my parents tell me ....#its like my mother telling me- while my father was in hospital for heart surgery- that she not only almost died back when i was a young tee#and only survived bc of some incredibly unebelievable lucky coincidences (medics on a travel being there that knew what she had-#-while our local doctors said welp- nothing we can do lady AND them beign there with a helicopter and emergency transferring her#to antoher bigger hospital while giving her immediate treatment our local one didnt do- AND at the big one just so happened to have-#-an expert on that illness in the facility when she arrived who was able to narrrowly save her life#BUT ALSO while she was recovering and weak and frail as a dust bunny witnessing someone stealing hospital surplies-#not noticing she was in the room at first (which .. the nurses left her in the nurse room while going on break ... which uhm .. yeah cool)#and if my mother hadnt acted in time like she was fully asleep and the lady stealing stuff beign in hurry- she might have killed her#without my mother being able to fight back bc she could barely even talk (the nurses didnt want to believe her when they got back either)#ANYWAY that comment from my father brough me to tears#and my mom is trying out more ... other medication shes not prescribed in hopes of it helping agaisnt her many pains#but i worry it will interact with the other stuff shes on ...#and i worry so much about both of their mental and physical well being#always trying to be the one to calm them down or help with communication bc that is a big problem in this houesehold#but i myself am also a very much not normal and not medicated shut in who has trouble dealing even with my own feelings
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mini oscillo ref aahh what EVERRR dies @superbellsubways @cephalonheadquarters
#slowly trynna draw our virtual guys again i miss them so much...#virtual assistants#ocs#rico art#oscillo#more virus stuff and the armies i guess. they all have a unit number if theyre recruited by a formal virus leader w actual power#most viruses r more commonly just stragglers at least in. my head they are#for now theres. 2 main types? viruses that come from virus matter#and viruses that are just.. like that HAHAHA#the idiot twins r a good example of both i guess? theyre comprised of virus matter but more put together than how it usually presents itsel#the way virus matter can properly survive is by taking over an electronic it can live without a host but its much more weak and vulnerabl#without a shell ya feel me#UHHH FEEL FREE TO LIKE. ADD STUFF THIS IS MOSTLY JUST BRAIN GOOP AHHH#i would go on but idk how to properly explain things.. i eventually wanna make a big old post abt it but idk how many people would actually#be interested lol#and i'd have to think abt it much much more#anyways ysaaa
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Something about Emily being called rude and harsh for the way she handled Eldon basically harassing her, before being guilt tripped for hurting his feelings and then pressured into going on a date with him.
Something about Emily trying to gain Amanda’s trust by pretending to turn against the team, having to to portray herself as incredibly cruel and selfish, and struggling to cope with how easily everyone believed it.
Something about Emily saying goodbye to Michelle, tears streaming down her face, admitting to thinking she’s not kind or compassionate enough on her own, and scared that she won’t be able to be a mentor and a role model without Michelle to guide her.
Something about being a good person at your core, but nobody ever acknowledges it so you don’t even know that you are.
Something about this character who, despite the countless number of times she’s felt it break, genuinely believes she might not have a heart.
#i am having a lot of feelings about emily rn#i just rewatched michelles goodbye episode and this one part really stood out to me#she was like#‘i know i have this (*gestures to brain*) but i don’t know about this (*puts hand on heart*). everyone knows you cant survive without this’#and idk i was reminded of when the team votes for michelle as dance captain in s1 and emilys ‘does everyone really hate me that much?’#also in s1 when she was pressured/guilted into going on that first date with eldon when james (i think) said how mean she was being to#eldon and how much it upset him#which just…. ew#plus in s2 when she’s pretending to be mean to riley to turn the team against her and shes so upset by how easily everyone bought it#like i never realised until i rewatched the goodbye girl today but i think emily really internalised a lot of those moments and genuinely#worries that she’s a horrible person#……#this was heavier and angstier than i meant it to be lol sorry#thanks for reading if you made it this far haha#the next step#emily tns
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i know ive gone on about this before but it still amazes me to hell and back that people use spotify. like, at all. especially as a main music source
#radio rambles#how do you… survive#genuinely the only thing spotify is good for imo is checking out OTHER peoples character playlists n all#i cant even enjoy THAT anymore though with the whole ‘smart shuffle’ bullshit#you guys have to be honest with me. how tf are you using this piece of shit without premium?#sorry.. nothing brings out the hater in me more than trying out spotify again and being swarmed with#ads and paywalls and fucked formatting
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dandelion is indeed the worst but if he’s not present in the next book i would legitimately be sorrowful as the whole thing will become a slog . you basically cannot have the “short stories” era-of-the-timeline iteration of geralt without dandelion, it would be like eating unbuttered bread.
though it’s not like season of storms did them dirty, i wasn’t disappointed with it (… with regards to them), but since it’s literally been over 20 years since the saga was finished i’m trying to prepare for any potential reality
#however i will accept an absence of dandelion IN THE CASE OF we get to see geralt and yennefer living together in vengerberg#but if it’s regular geralt day in the life then if dandelion’s not there it’s gonna suuuuuccckk#i mean as in geralt’s life sucks without him. badly#and it also? sucks with him. good-ly.#it’s august and we don’t have a title yetttt 🥲 and they said 2024 … hmhm sure#i just feel like rupaul ‘and don’t fuck it up’.gif#like i’m excited but also wtf? new witcher book? are we on punk’d?#it’s not going to be the best but i’m hoping it will be at least as good as season of storms. not a high bar ok!#this from the person who was optimistic about the n*tflix show. don’t trust me i like to believe in the future#i was going to say ‘and i trust sapkowski more than i trust n*tflix’ and then i laughed.#i don’t trust him—i don’t even trust the version of him from the 90s and 00s!#one side of me can’t believe i’m still here after the guardswomen of kerack. and the ‘well i’m only gay for clout’ villain motivations#the other side of me is intensely curious wtf geralt will get up to this time and how witcher could maybe even denigrate further#but season of storms ending was actually good and = well it’s not like sapkowski forgot what it was about#then again it’s been 10 years and a bad adaptation since then so im biting my nails#all i ask : please stick with the naming convention of the other books. i don’t want to write an absurdly long or short name or acronym out#sooooo weird that in a few months i will be saying: there are 9 witcher books.#actually rn i just say there’s 7 and discount season of storms as a legitimate heir but mention it as footnote lol#i just hope i can survive until this new book and until its translation LOLLLL#they said translation in 2025 but you know the track record#new book: *releases winter 2024* | english translation: coming 2045!#jk i think they finally figured out that witcher is a money printer so they will be eager to translate it now and not waffle around#they kicked their butts into gear with the hussite trilogy so ! and they made new hardcovers.#the elbow-high diaries#new book 2024
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