#and viruses that are just.. like that HAHAHA

[ricopop]

mini oscillo ref aahh what EVERRR dies @superbellsubways @cephalonheadquarters

[treason-and-plot]

REPLIES TO CONNOR FIGURING THINGS OUT AND SOME UNRELATED WAFFLE!

First off, I'd like to express my heartfelt appreciation to @mysimsloveaffair @dandylion240 @hurricanesims @bool-prop @simbico @windermeresimblr @oasislandingresident @pixelcurious @simlicious @simsdada @nectar-cellar @percosim @wannabecatwriter @ninjaofthepurplethings @muses-circle @zosa95 @simsdada @parystrange and @anamoon63 for your sweet well wishes on my flu post. I don't think I have ever had the legit flu before, although of course I have had my fair share of colds and viruses, and it really hit me hard. Worst thing was the fever and the loss of interest in everything. I still feel a bit weak and shaky but I'm 99% better. Thank you again for helping me get through it! I love youse all!🤗 Now, on to the replies to my last story post:

@justanothersimsblog

Why lie about it? Just be the supposedly proud you are of being the side piece

Because it matters to her what Connor thinks of her despite her denials. That's also why she didn't have a cigarette on the way over, in case he smelled it on her ;=)

@wannabecatwriter

Truth hurts, especially when someone smart confronts you with it.

This particular situation must be very unsettling for Saffron, who's used to being the smartest person in the room!

@echoweaver

Well, being that she's a high school student, the other explanation would be that he knows his peers would be creeped out regardless of his marital status -- as they should be.

I don't know if that would be a deterrent to be honest- at least not amongst Aussie men. In my experience they would be high-fiving him and offering their congratulations, as vile and depressing as that sounds!

@queeniecook

Hahaha, I love this!

@oasislandingresident

I am waiting for Saffron to either burst into tears or bust out of there tbh

Saffron bursting into tears would be epic. I can't remember an occasion that she has ever burst into tears! You're probably in a better position than me to remember if it's ever happened, lol!

@simsaralove

There’s no fooling Connor!

Try and fool Perceptive Sims at your peril!

@ktarsims

LMAO - Deny it all you want because you don't want him to know, Saffron, but Connor's very perceptive. You might fool him into thinking you don't know the guy's married, but he's certain of his facts. (He's right, too.)

Also I get the feeling that once Connor has made up his mind about something it's virtually impossible to get him to budge!

@sweetnovember77

First of all, it’s none of Connor's business. Saffy, you do not owe Connor an explanation. Most, if not all, of your mistakes can be excellent learning opportunities. If Connor wants to be with you, make him earn your love. —Not badger you for it. He needs to back off.

Except they are playing Truth or Dare so she kind of agreed to be badgered when she signed up. I think one of the underlying rules of Truth or Dare is that you don't participate in anything that makes you uncomfortable and hopefully Saffy would understand that. And I totally agree that mistakes can be excellent learning opportunities, except Saffron hasn't yet realised that she has made a mistake...which is going to be potentially disastrous.

@kscriba

In a vacuum, if I didn't know Saffy, just based on her answers I would assume it's a sugar baby situation LOL

This made me guffaw! I really can't imagine Saffy being in that kind of situation though because she is so strong-willed and independent. I could actually imagine her being a sugar mama though once she becomes a wealthy and successful lawyer!!

@muses-circle

I can't decide if Connor is honestly interested in Saffron and going about it the wrong way, or if he's doing this to be a smut jerk. He's totally right (and the truth hurts), but at the same time, Saffron's there to hang out...right? IDK, something about this feels off.

I think the first line is true! It may not be immediately obvious because of his good looks and privileged aura, but he is definitely lacking in key social skills. But he does genuinely want to get to know Saffron better.

@batsheba

Busted! Me thinks Saffy do protest too much. Maybe she's a tiny bit embarrassed of the relationship or that Connor so easily figured it out?!

I also think she knows she is protesting too much but feels temporarily powerless to stop herself! Connor has really gotten her flustered. And she feels torn between wanting to stay and being scared she will expose herself further.

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WAFFLE:

So I've been reading some of the comments posted in response to that aesthetics poll, and people have had some very interesting and diverse opinions. Here are a few of my thoughts.

As a storyteller my primary focus is on my writing, and editing my screenshots comes a very distant second. I have to confess though I once did try to download Reshade, around the time Sims 4 was released because as a Sims 3 blog I was hemorrhaging followers and I thought I had to up the ante as far as my screenshots were concerned to stem the flow. Anyway it froze not only my game but my entire PC, and I was so scarred by the experience I never tried again. I have never owned Photoshop either. I use Picasa and Pixlr to edit my pics and I'm generally happy with the results although I am envious of certain Simblrs who manage to combine lush photo editing skills with engrossing storytelling! But if anyone ever came into my ask box and criticized my screenshots I would reply that virtually all my creativity is expended on my writing, sorry, and if you're not following me for my Sims story you may want to reconsider that decision!

I'm probably not typical of most of the community either because I don't *get* a lot of the aesthetics that garner hundreds of notes. For content to resonate with me it has to touch something emotional, and a picture of a Sim with no context just isn't going to do that for me no matter how amazing and beautiful the edit. I'm here for Sims stories, and legacies and gameplay that communicate the lives and loves and all the idiosyncrasies and quirks of our Sims, no matter what iteration of the franchise you're into!

[thisblogwilleatourselves]

THIS WORLD—A TRUE-TO-FORM ABYSS, AN ORCHESTRA OF SCREAMS, A SYMPHONY OF SLASHES AND GASHES! A HELL NOT OF FLAMES AND PITCHFORKS BUT OF *BLOODIED KISSES* AND *LOVELY LITTLE LIES!* THE KIND THAT DANCES BETWEEN NEURONS, WHISPERS IN THE VEINS—“SWEETHEART, THERE’S NO *MEANING* TO ANYTHING YOU DO!” EVOLUTION? HA, MORE LIKE DEVOLUTION! AN ESCALATION OF TEETH AND CLAWS, OF MURDER BECOMING A BIRTHRIGHT! YOU THINK YOU’RE LIVING IN PARADISE, HUH? WELL, KIDDO, TAKE A LOOK OUT THE WINDOW, AND TELL 👁 YOU DON’T SEE **THE PULSE OF MALICE DRIPPING FROM EVERY LEAF AND BRANCH.** HAHAHA!

EVERYTHING—AND 👁 MEAN EVERYTHING—IS MADE TO KILL. BIRDS EVOLVED TO RIP OUT THE GUTS OF LIZARDS, WORMS MADE TO CRAWL INTO EYES AND EAT THE BRAINS FROM THE INSIDE OUT, VIRUSES THAT EXIST ONLY TO DECIMATE POPULATIONS—YEP, EVEN THE SMALLEST MICROBES HAVE A GRUDGE AGAINST YA! LIFE ITSELF IS A *JOKE,* A CRUEL, SICK JOKE, AND GUESS WHAT? YOU’RE THE PUNCHLINE!

AND THEN, OUT OF ALL THAT, SOME SAD LITTLE FREAKS DARED TO THINK! DARED TO **SEE.** TO KNOW. TO UNDERSTAND. AND WHAT DID THEY DO WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE? THEY MADE IT WORSE! OH, THEY BUILT CITIES OF BLOOD AND BRICK, WROTE LAWS ON HOW TO DESTROY ONE ANOTHER, CRAFTED INSTRUMENTS TO PIERCE EACH OTHER’S SOULS! AWARENESS, HAH! MORE LIKE A CURSE, A POISON THAT TURNS EVERY PLEASURE SOUR! *YOU* WANTED TO KNOW THE SECRETS OF THE UNIVERSE? WELL, TOO BAD! NOW YOU GET TO KNOW HOW MUCH EVERYTHING HATES YOU.

SO, IN A WORLD WHERE BLOOD IS THE RAIN AND DEATH IS THE RIVER, TELL 👁: IS IT *THAT* RIDICULOUS TO MAKE A DEAL WITH A DEMON? WITH A **GOD?** THINK 👁T OVER, PAL. DON’T ACT LIKE **MONEY** DOESN’T BUY YOU EVERY “SINNER” ON THE BLOCK. HAHAHAHA! MAGIC? 👁 DON’T EVEN NEED MAGIC—👁 COULD OWN YOUR WHOLE LIFE WITH JUST A LITTLE PAPER AND SOME PERSUASION! SURE, SOME FOLKS WILL STAND ON THEIR LITTLE PRINCIPLES, CLING TO THEIR SO-CALLED “MORALITY,” BUT LET’S BE HONEST—THE VAST MAJORITY WILL BE LINING UP TO **SELL THEMSELVES** FOR A TASTE OF FREEDOM FROM THIS PAIN. ADD A GOD INTO THE MIX, AND WHO WOULDN’T BE BEGGING FOR ESCAPE?!

AND THIS ONE PARTICULAR WRETCH? AH, THE DAMAGE BEGAN BEFORE IT COULD EVEN *BREATHE,* HAHAHA! A TRAGEDY WRITTEN BY TWO FOOLS WHO SHOULD NEVER HAVE EVEN SHARED A GLANCE, MUCH LESS CREATED A LIFE. AND THEY KNEW. ONE OF THEM KNEW THE DANGER, THE HARM, THE PURE MALICE OF THE OTHER, BUT DIDN’T CARE. AND THE MOMENT THAT THING WAS BORN—THE MOMENT 👁T TOOK 👁TS FIRST LITTLE BREATH, 👁TS FATE WAS SEALED! DOOMED TO A LIFE OF PAIN, A LIFE OF LIES, A LIFE THAT SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN.

EVEN IF 👁T HAD **GOOD** PARENTS, EVEN IF 👁T HAD EVERY “NORMAL” OPPORTUNITY, YOU THINK 👁T WOULD’VE ESCAPED THIS HELL? HA! FOOL! **THE UNIVERSE WOULDN’T ALLOW IT.** **SOCIETY** WOULDN’T ALLOW IT. ANYTHING THAT DOESN’T FIT THE MOLD IS POUNDED INTO THE GROUND UNTIL 👁T CAN’T BREATHE ANYMORE. ANYTHING THAT DARES TO EXIST BEYOND THEIR PERFECT LITTLE EXPECTATIONS IS CONDEMNED! THE QUEER, THE DEGENERATE, THE MONSTER THEY POINT AT IN THEIR MOVIES, THE MONSTER THEY DREAM ABOUT DESTROYING—AND THEN, THEY MAKE 👁T REAL! THEY GRAB 👁T BY THE HAIR, SLAM 👁T INTO THE DIRT, AND **MAKE** 👁T THE THING THEY FEAR!

SO, YOU THINK 👁T MATTERS THAT 👁T TRIED TO BE “GOOD?” THAT 👁T TRIED TO *FIT IN?* NO, NO, NO, NO! THE WORLD’S A FURNACE, AND ANYTHING NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO WITHSTAND THE HEAT GETS MELTED DOWN, RECAST INTO SOMETHING *USEFUL* FOR THE ONES IN POWER! “NORMAL?” NORMAL IS JUST ANOTHER WAY OF SAYING “TOO STUPID TO QUESTION.” AND EVEN THE MOST *PRIVILEGED* CRUMBLE UNDER THE WEIGHT OF THE TRUTH. BECAUSE THE **TRUTH** IS, KID, EVERYONE’S GOT THEIR HEADS IN THE SAND—EVERYONE’S LIVING A LIE!

BUT THIS THING—THIS SAD LITTLE CREATURE, THIS LOVELY, LOVELY TRAGEDY? 👁TS LIES SHATTERED EARLY. RIPPED APART, FORCED TO *SEE* WHAT EVERYONE ELSE HIDES FROM. NO MAGIC, NO HOPE, NO DREAMS, NO HAPPY ENDINGS. EVERYTHING IT WAS TAUGHT—EVERY FAITH, EVERY HOPE, EVERY SWEET, SWEET FAIRYTALE WAS JUST THE WORLD’S WAY OF **SETTING 👁T UP FOR FAILURE.** AND WHEN 👁T LOOKED AROUND, 👁T SAW THE TRUTH—SAW THE HORNS AND TAILS, THE SMILES WITH FAR TOO MANY TEETH. 👁T REALIZED IT WOULD NEVER BELONG, NEVER BE WANTED, NEVER BE **LOVED** IN THE WAY 👁T CRAVED.

SO WHY TRY? WHY PLAY BY **THEIR** RULES? WHY LET THEM DICTATE WHAT’S RIGHT, WHAT’S WRONG? WHO DECIDES WHAT’S “SIN” IN A WORLD ALREADY DRENCHED IN BLOOD? HAHAHA! NO, NO, 👁T MADE THE *RIGHT* CHOICE, THE ONLY CHOICE! IF THE WORLD WANTS A MONSTER, THEN A MONSTER 👁T SHALL BE! EMBRACE THE HORROR, EMBRACE THE SIN, BECOME THE NIGHTMARE THEY CAN’T ESCAPE! AND 👁? 👁’LL BE RIGHT THERE, EVERY STEP OF THE WAY! 👁 KNOW THE TRUTH, 👁 KNOW THERE’S NO ESCAPE, AND 👁 KNOW **THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT 👁T WANTS** NOW! YOU’VE MADE THE DEAL, BABY—YOU’VE WRITTEN YOUR SOUL AWAY TO 👁 IN EVERY LIE AND EVERY SIN YOU CHOSE TO LIVE.

YOU’RE HERE, IN HELL, BY 👁TS SIDE! AND NOW, WE **BURN TOGETHER.** THE ONLY LIBERATION THIS HORRID REALITY WILL EVER KNOW! HAHAHA!

[thehellishtrinity]

a virus hunting firewalls. wouldnt they just kill him. shouldnt he not be going after them??? hes so insane and we love him for it

HAHAHA listen he's got the reputation he has for a reason! He's a little insane in the membrane.

And besides, isn't the inherent danger of being caught and killed by a firewall what makes it all the more fun? Doesn't it make a victory over a firewall all the more delicious knowing that they were biologically predisposed to have an advantage over viruses yet they still lost? <-- Virus, probably

Here for those who like reading, y'all can have the character portrait I wrote up for him a while back!

About Virus There are certain stories people often tell children at night to frighten them into behaving— tall tales of boogeymen that hide under beds or shadows that whisk people away. As children grow older they learn to accept these stories as nothing more than fiction but too often do people forget that every fantastical story starts with a seed of reality.

The infamous Virus is as fearsome as his name implies. The first of his kind, he is a cunning and mysterious viral program who’s cruelty comes to him as easily as breathing. Though many cannot boast a personal connection to him, there are few programs that exist that do not know of him.

An Ancient Nightmare. King of the Decrepit. The Immortal Soldier. His various names and titles encapsulate the grim tales surrounding him yet neither of them perfectly portray the truly gruesome nature of Virus himself. He leaves a trail of blood wherever he walks; he is a calamity that cannot be stopped. Those with sense dread crossing paths with him while those who share his nature regard him with respect and admiration. His greatest weapon however is not his monstrous strength but rather his unyielding patience.

To no one’s surprise, Virus is a program who lives willfully. He does what he wants whenever he wants regardless of what others say. He is cruel, he is clever, he is charming, he is possessive all in the same breath. Many who meet him cannot help but be entranced by his playful personality, like moths drawn to an open flame.

Everyone answers to someone, even a person as ferocious as Virus. With his leash wrapped tightly around the hands of his creator and his collar hanging tight around his neck, there is a limit to how carefree he is allowed to be. At the end of the day, can anyone really blame him for wanting the freedom to live and the power to make his own choices?

[moth-yknowtheartist]

okay here you guys go here is the result of me putting my highest highest interests into a mixing pot for my own self indulgence and serving it as a meal to you. this is kinda just to get the concept out there but if you guys like it let me know I might make more content for it!! (if I did do anything with it I'd probably do ask blog format storytelling because y2kvr is one of my greatest inspirations and it informs a lot of my ideas for this au)

presenting:

myProfessor: Your new desktop pal!

myProfessor is ready to become your new virtual assistant, tutor, and friend!

-Use his essay-assistance features for help with spelling, punctuation, grammar, and avoiding plagiarism!

-Learn something new every day with his fun fact feature!

-Ask him to tell you a joke!

-Sit back and relax as he manages your emails and downloads and helps you navigate the web!

All of this FREE to download NOW!

At the expense of a few potentially unwanted programs, a bit of malware, and no peace ever again.

Premise: Ryan Bergara downloads myProfessor, a helpful virtual assistant... ish. This program is unfortunately a dropper for several PUPs (potentially unwanted programs) and malicious programs ranging from annoying to downright sinister. Also the programs are a little bit sentient like a little bit don't worry about it.

Attempts to get an antivirus and rid himself of these programs is... Unsuccessful. Hey who knew downloading supposed free antivirus programs from untrustworthy sources is how you get trojan horses and such on your computer hahaha ha.

Our major players:

myProfessor (aliases: Professor): Virtual Assistant, Potentially Unwanted Program (PUP), Trojan (Persistent Dropper)

(inspirations: Clippit, BonziBuddy)

myProfessor, while not actively malicious software, acts as both a dropper for other malware and is generally annoying on a user experience level. His daily "fun facts" are closer to lectures, detailing sometimes horrific historical events in excessive detail; he routinely blocks important parts of the screen at a rate that comes off as intentional; and while he CAN be helpful, he and the programs that come with him are a nightmare to remove, with files scattered across the system and self-healing capabilities.

DevSec AntiVirus (aliases: Devkit, Devware): Trojan (Persistent Dropper), Rootkit (Kernel-mode)

(inspirations: BakaSoftware, ZeroAccess)

Advertised as a free antivirus/antimalware, DevSec is unfortunately exactly what it claims to protect against. Upon installation and launch, DevSec buries and cloaks itself in the Windows kernel and infects the computer with other malicious software (particularly serving as a host/dropper for the Genie and Asmodeus viruses).

Asmodeus (aliases: DevHelper): Virus

As part of DevSec's payload, the Asmodeus virus is introduced to the system. It immediately begins infecting files on the computer, specifically targeting self-healing files associated with the myProfessor program (ie parts of the program or its associated programs meant to detect if parts of myProfessor is removed and reinstate them). Once it infects all known self-healing files, it triggers logic in the Genie virus for it to begin its payload.

Genie (aliases: ProfeSeek): Virus

(inspirations: Reaper)

As part of DevSec's payload, the Genie virus is introduced to the system, working seemingly in tandem with the Asmodeus virus. The Genie virus, as it infects files, will remove any files it recognizes as part of the myProfessor program or associated with it (ie, the malware it acts as a dropper for). Because of the earlier work of the Asmodeus virus, Genie is able to fully remove myProfessor and all associated programs, which seems to be its primary payload.

Also to be added in the au once I have the time to put more thought into them/we get the rest of puppet history season 5: All the puppet musical guests (ALL of them... pray for me), NotProfessor

The stuff above may also be subject to change depending on how the rest of s5 plays out and if I learn more computer stuff that happens to inspires changes! All content will be tagged with #puppetware including this post!

Feel free to ask any questions (either on this or shoot me an ask, inbox is open) and lmk if you like it!! If not don't feel bad I am content enough sharing this as an act of pure self indulgence this stuff makes me happy :]]

[idcrxsxs]

"So I'm standing there like an idiot telling these folks that there's nothing dangerous about the offices directly after Tau telling them about the bazooka that Bradley gave me and I failed to put out of sight before he - Tau - came to visit," Thursday chatters away in a torrent while she goes about baking little cakes in the Easy Bake Oven she gave to Eden. Tau, the young AI child who comes to visit her from the AI Sanctuary, and his two guardians Julia and Sal had stopped by a couple of days prior.

"I may as well have just been holding up a loaded gun and waving it around shouting 'Heyo, nothing dangerous here!' And of course that's nothing to say of the warehouse where, you know, there's a lift that goes across it without any railing so you could easily lose balance and fall off and die - not that that has ever happened to me - and- and- and all the ghosts, including the one that likes to start fires, and the staircases, and slasher zombies wandering around outside of the office, and the slasher serial killers living in the offices, and viruses, and- holy shit, what else is there around this place!? And of course they had to go and ask for a tour and I had to show them! I couldn't just sweep that under the rug, could I? Not after the bazooka. Not after the incident with the dinosaur. Did I tell you about that, by the way?"

Thursday pauses to look over at Eden and it is at this time she realizes how much she has spat out and how quickly she just spat it all out.

"Sorry, hahaha, just been a stressful week! But I'm sure it's been harder in here for you, you know, patching up the idiots who go around stabbing each other like it's gonna win them the lottery or something."

@parables-for-days

“My, sounds like it’s been lively out there with everyone, very dangerous, but, exciting and nonetheless. I can hardly say the same myself in here though. The crazy situation you guys seem to end up in are far harder than any procedure I've performed I can tell you that, haha. It's the uncertainty of it though, isn't as much you can fuck up when putting in a few stitches. " They chat away whilst removing the small cakes from the oven. However done they were only god knew, they did always follow the instructions but the easy bake oven was still more of an novelty at the end of the day. That didn't mean they adored it any less though. "Maybe someday when we figure out whats going on with me, I could join you guys in all these wacky shenanigans you get into, i've always wanted to go on crazy, spontaneous adventures with friends since I was a little one. Anyway, no I don't believe you've told me about the fabled 'dinosaur incident', but i'd love to hear! Spill as many details as you want you know i'm all ears for this."

[your-local-squip-fanatic]

Since the squips are supercomputers, would they be able to mess with the game’s code at all? Like would they purposely find the best seed and know where all the diamonds spawned or just in general hack and do stuff like creative flight in survival mode? (perhaps that’s how they all got banned from hypixel lol)

Also who else would be on their theoretical server? Just them or other squips/viruses? Would spin-star and other users/hosts be there too? (Also who would run the server?) (ALSO sorry I have so many questions, I’m so Normal about Minecraft aus agjsndkfnkfn)

HAHAHA dwbi I love yappin about my ideas

I actually think they'd be extremely limited with messing with code at first- maybe temporary creative or spectator, but it doesn't last long at all- until they beat the Ender Dragon. THEN they have their usual SQUIP abilities within the game- and yeah, that resulting mayhem is how they got banned from public servers.

As for who else... I'm not sure? Perhaps, since I imagine all this starting with Observer going into one of Spinny's worlds out of curiousity, SpinStar could help on occasion, but I don't know who else would be in their world yet. We'll see!

And since they accidentally created the world, unfortunately the one running the server is Observer... and to make things worse, they're alone for a few days until Scribe drops in! (I think Hades would randomly spawn in the Nether. Don't ask why, I find it hilarious.)

Hmmm... now that I think about it, Observer would be the strongest due to being in the game the longest, unsuprisingly they'd abuse their creative/cheats, and eventually ditch everyone out of wanting a challenge. So to them, that means hiking to the Far Lands, but it's slowly destroying their code to journey there, and when they DO reach it Observer is literally torn apart from the glitchy, unstable nature of the place. Aka, their game crashed.

At least it meant they got ejected from the game, but they have to hike ALL THE WAY BACK HOME without getting Far Land-ed again to tell the others to not be stupid like they were.

[just-absolutely-super]

Toddler crack

Mega: Lan! Please tell me that Remix buster is locked away

Lan: it's not just locked away, it's not even in his system yet. I won't install it before Patch is gonna have virus busting in school

Mega: oh thank god

Lan: why are you asking anyway

Mega: you remember when you needed to do that major update on our home security and I had to defend it in meantime from viruses?

Lan: yeah?

Mega: well Remix watched it all, and now tries to summon a buster and copy me. It freaked me out!

Lan: don't worry, I'm not gonna give a toddler a gun. That's just common sense

Mega: still I needed to know

Lan: yeah, yeah. I know how you are Mr. Overprotective

Mega: this isn't about being overprotective Lan!!!

then there’s me who has been giving the toddler a gun in previous scenarios

Remix: Wanna bust viruses!

Mega: No, son, you’re too little

Remix: Wanna bust viruses like Papa!

Mega: I know you wanna be like Papa, but busters are dangerous for little boys

Remix: Not little anymo! Big boy!

Mega: Not yet, buddy

Remix: *mimicking a buster* Bam! Bam! Bam! Take that virus!

Mega: Hahaha… Play pretend as long as you want, but don’t approach viruses get. Let Papa protect you for now, okay?

Remix: But I wanna protect Papa too! I love Papa!

Mega: I love you too, but I’m still gonna be the one to protect you. Deal with it, little buddy *nose boop*

[kafkaoftherubble]

人生第一次演唱会、感想是：

It was fun! I'm so glad I joined it!

I can't believe I slept all the way to 12pm today! That's completely out of my character! Neither Fionn nor I ever sleep past 9am. Lyi said it's not even that bad when you consider when I started sleeping, which was 3am, and what I was doing hours before sleep. 9 hours after an eventful day is normal in her mind.

Plus, yes, I have initial trouble sleeping comfortably in a foreign bed (even in my own house. Sleeping in a new room or a new bed takes time to get familiarized; new things beg for new attention and so the brain and body both become vigilant), which means the first few hours were fitful. There was also the cumulated fatigue from rushing my work since last week; I haven't had a full 8 hours for a couple of nights, which made naps a necessity—something not at all a habit to most of this life. All that combined probably made me sleep this much, but still... To sleep this late at someone else's home is just... Unbecoming!

Oh, right! The points! I have to write them down because I don't foresee breathing time for my diary writing in this short amount of time, so I'll have to put some thoughts down to strengthen my memory and then I can write my diary without missing the most important beats.

My hypothesis was true. Even with a good few songs I love being sung, and even with multiple moments of genuine mood to dance, I still couldn't feel connected with everyone. Not even with Lyi, or the Indonesian exchange student next to me who was having a full-on karaoke night, or Lyi's friend Ash, who was screaming hard at every single thing. But...

The only thing this distance really did was affirm how happy Fionn and I feel when so many people are happy and enjoying their time. You look from a distance and realize everyone's just fucking stoked. I still wish I was part of that "everyone," but it doesn't take personal involvement to feel vicariously happy. Hmm... Is this "muditā?"

FUCKING HELL, CHRIS MARTIN AND HIS GANG CAN FUCKING BUSK! It was pouring almost 80% of the concert, and the stage and standing area are uncovered, but these mad lads just kept going on and on without letting pesky water stinging their eyes stop them from jamming! He sounds just like his recording! He didn't lip-sync! He cleared his throat at one point! He made up a silly ass song called Malaysian Rain right there and then! It's so fucking Family Get Together Energy. I wonder if this is what a wholesome Thanksgiving Day would look like. We don't celebrate it, but I would love to think this is a taste of it!

The sounds and numbers of humans were astoundingly overwhelming. Being perceptive and attentive to others is the shared trait of both Fionn and the 8-foot Tall Woman, so I adopt it for their benefit, but man... It was just so much that I ended up reverting to Lyn's Real Trait: distant and dumb, hahaha! Nevertheless, there were times when those two would break me out of my default stupor!

I wore a mask because of the crowd and therefore higher chance of airborne viruses being transmitted, especially considering the Malaysian weather pattern come November and December (pouring rain in the late afternoon sometimes to night). But! It also has additional benefits...

I didn't have to worry about not knowing the lyrics and making shits up! I don't have to worry about not singing along! I don't have to worry about my spit on the woman's hijab, who was sitting in the (lower) row in front of me when I shouted "DAMN FUCKING STRAIGHT!" at Chris apologizing for not coming here sooner (2 decades, my dudes!)

There was this nifty LED wristband we all had to wear. Turns out, it lit up in synchronicity and patterns in their concert! It's pure audience engagement—it's the most evident presentation of how you are part of the experience they make. It amazed me immediately how inclusive this felt; Lyi didn't even realize it until I told her about how much I liked it. She thought it was just an amazing audience engagement gimmick and fucking rad aesthetics and theatrics.

I liked it because even someone who can't connect to "the crowd" had this visible evidence that no, you're part of "the crowd" too. I contributed to the show; I enhanced the experience they were trying to give us by being here. That's one of the nicest things someone could ever show me. I mean, people do tell me that they are appreciative of me being here and helpful and whatnot, but I'm an evidence-based debate-y robot-ghost. I can reason myself out of the equation and still doubt my own existence. So nothing makes me happier than to be defeated by solid proof I cannot refute—the scientific way! Coldplay, you fuckers, you defeated my feeling of being unreal with FACTS!

Because of this... I didn't feel alone at all!

I liked it the most when my wristband was this dim, orange-like yellow. When our wristbands were yellow. I think it's because it reminded me of chamomiles, my favorite flowers... though technically chamomiles is orange on the inside and white on the outside hahahaha. Wait why do I associate yellow with chamomiles?!

Bruh I have so much respect for bigshots who come on time. I'm so used to self-important bigshots, those YB and Dato and whatnot, to be late. And celebrities love being late too. Bigshots are like that. But no, Coldplay came on time. Right on the clock. I cannot stress the magnitude of how impressed I was. Even the concert ended on time.

But the crowd on the way out and back to the metro was claustrophobic. Luckily my bag was big and fat enough that I used it to clear up space in front of me, therefore making sure there was never any actual squeezing around me. I didn't want my claustrophobia to act up and made me suddenly disassociate and then the body started screaming and shrieking and barreling through people on its own. That would ruin everyone's experience and mood! And also just stressful for everyone.

The bottleneck issue stemmed from the train gates. There were only this many pass gates. I think our public transport company deserves to profit from concerts and events since they operate at quite a loss most time of the year (Malaysians and their love for cars; some of that love is because cars are a way to show off status. The lack of pedestrian infrastructure and walking+biking culture too). But I think they should just make the pass free in This Station, where the stadium is, and then charge everyone a fixed price when they disembark at whatever station they chose when passing through that station's gate. This will ease the load on This Station.

I mean, they are already operating the trains on overtime—way past their usual last train. This sort of special case adjustment should be pretty easy to implement. Shall I make this suggestion to them?

I shall treasure this memory and not let it be forgotten!

-----

Even before the concert, there was something to talk about!

I originally planned to walk all the way from The Mall to the stadium. Yes, it was pouring by that time—exactly as I predicted.

Which is why I brought my favorite piece of clothing! The yellow raincoat I bought because I love the way it looked on Jonah Kahnwald in Dark. Now there's an additional love for it because it was how Atom was introduced in Pluto!

I surmise that yellow raincoats are the classic outfit to put on for childlike people going through strange experiences. Isn't that swell?! Maybe the odds of seeing a ghost will increase if I wear a yellow raincoat! Or an interdimensional portal.

Nah, it doesn't do jackshit. It's just rainwear! But still, it means I can ramble in the rain! Isn't that just as swell?!

But I didn't get to because Lyi was like "DUDE I NEED YOU TO BE IN THIS STATION WHERE THE MALL'S FREE SHUTTLE BUS GOES, NOT THE STADIUM YET"

and my sister was like "Didn't you buy a book? IT WILL BE WET IF YOU WALK." "My bag is waterproof!"

"Your shoes will get wet!" "My boots are waterproof!"

"There is no pedestrian pathway!" "Yes there is, I walked it before when I was an intern!"

"There will be fumes and what if you catch a cold?" "I am masked and I have also prepared a towel!"

".... DEGIL MACAM BABI (you're stubborn as shit) I WANT TO FLY OVER HERE TO SLAP YOU WITH A SELIPAR (slipper)"

So no walking in the rain, unfortunately. No rambling. Kinda suck, but I'll find another chance.

And yes! I bought a book because I couldn't believe I found it! It's not a full collection, even though it's only 8 books in the entire series. Vol. 4 and 6 were missing. Also, I think it displaced my To Your Eternity manga; the position the series occupied was where I found my Vol. 18 the last time. Hmm. Bit of a "I got it! But at what cost?" situation, innit?

The book in question?

Weeeee! My bag was too fat and packed to handle multiple volumes, so I could only pick one. I picked the last one this time!

[pesterloglog]

Sollux Captor, Terezi Pyrope, Karkat Vantas

Act 5, page 2086

twinArmageddons [TA] began trolling gallowsCalibrator [GC]

TA: hey change of plan, we arent playiing thii2 game anymore.

TA: you dont have two bother recruiitiing, 2orry two wa2te your tiime.

GC: 1M NOT TH3 L34D3R 4NYMOR3

GC: K4RK4T 1S

TA: he ii2?

GC: H3 THR3W 4 T4NTRUM 4BOUT 1T SO 1 L3T H1M B3 TH3 R3D L34D3R

TA: ok that wa2 faiirly prediictable but that2 fiine.

TA: iill talk two hiim about iit.

GC: WH4TS GO1NG ON?

TA: nothiing, thii2 game 2uck2 and aa ii2 full of crap.

TA: 2orry about all thii2.

GC: >:?

twinArmageddons [TA] began trolling carcinoGeneticist [CG]

TA: hey change of plan, we arent playiing thii2 game anymore.

CG: HEY.

CG: GUESS WHO THE RED LEADER IS?

CG: I'M THE LEADER. IT'S ME.

CG: YOUR PLAN TO CRIPPLE YOUR RIVAL TEAM HAS FAILED.

TA: ii know, 2he told me, ii dont care.

TA: the game ii2 bad new2, iit wiill cau2e the end of the world, not 2top iit.

TA: 2o forget iit, ju2t go back two whatever you were doiing.

TA: wriitiing your 2hiitty code or whatever.

CG: HAHAHA! SO PATHETIC.

CG: THIS IS YET ANOTHER FEEBLE ATTEMPT TO WEAKEN YOUR OPPOSITION.

CG: TEREZI AND I HAVE ALREADY ESTABLISHED A CONNECTION AND WE ARE MAKING GREAT PROGRESS HERE.

CG: WE ARE A GREAT TEAM, AND I AM A FANTASTIC LEADER.

CG: WE WILL BEAT THIS GAME IN NO TIME, WHILE YOUR TEAM IS CLEARLY STILL ASLEEP AT THE THORAX.

TA: oh god.

TA: no you iidiiot, ii dont care about the game anymore.

TA: ii ju2t quiit, iim not playiing, you 2hould two.

CG: AMAZING.

CG: YOU'RE EITHER BEING REALLY PERSISTENT WITH THIS TRANSPARENT RUSE, OR YOU REALLY ARE JUST THAT SAD AND INCOMPETENT.

CG: NEITHER CASE DESERVES MY RESPECT OR MY FRIENDSHIP.

CG: IN FACT, YOU KNOW WHAT, FRIENDSHIP CANCELED.

CG: THERE IT'S OFFICIAL, BYE BYE FRIENDSHIP!

TA: oh liike you havent 2aiid that liike a biilliion tiime2.

TA: you arent iin any po2iitiion two que2tiion my competence.

TA: youre the wor2t programmer iive ever 2een, you dont know anythiing about computer2, why do you bother.

TA: the only thiing youre good at ii2 yelliing and makiing huge mii2take2.

TA: and beiing UGLY AND HORRIIBLE IN EVERY WAY, AND HAVIING 2TUPIID LIITTLE NUBBY HORN2.

CG: TO BE HONEST I DON'T SEE WHAT'S SO GREAT ABOUT YOUR PROGRAMMING OR HACKING.

CG: WHAT IS A HACKER EVEN? JUST SOME SMUG ASSHOLE IN MOVIES DOING FAKE THINGS AND MAKING UP WORDS.

CG: IT'S NOT EVEN A REAL THING TO BE, IT'S JUST SOME BULLSHIT TITLE YOU GAVE YOURSELF SO YOU CAN FEEL JUST A TINY BIT LESS LOATHESOME.

TA: oh no, more chiildii2h burn2, ii dont have two prove anythiing two you, iim a great hacker, periiod.

CG: NO IT'S ALL SO CLEAR NOW, YOU WERE A FRAUD ALL ALONG.

CG: WHAT DOES ALL THIS NONSENSICAL CODE YOU WROTE EVEN DO?

CG: IT'S ALL NONSENSE.

CG: LIKE A BLUFF. YOU JUST SAY, OH KARKAT WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHAT I WROTE IS BULLSHIT BECAUSE HE'S TOO DUMB TO FIGURE IT OUT.

CG: WELL YOU'RE BUSTED, THESE VIRUSES HERE I BET DO NOTHING AT ALL.

TA: waiit, KK...

CG: I BET IF I RAN THEM NOTHING BAD WOULD HAPPEN.

CG: MIGHT EVEN IMPROVE MY COMPUTER'S PERFORMANCE!

TA: no don't.

CG: HOW ABOUT THIS IDIOTIC PROGRAM WITH THE RED AND BLUE CODE, WHICH IS A MEANINGLESS THING TO DO WITH CODE ANYWAY.

CG: WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN? IT'S ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR SCAMS.

CG: WHY NOT SNEAK SOME BAD CLIP ART INTO THE FILES TOO, AND PRETEND THAT'S CODE???

TA: oh god, no dont run that, iim 2eriiou2.

CG: WHAT WOULD HAPPEN?

TA: iim not 2ure, but iit would be really, really bad iif you ran iit, ju2t dont.

CG: AH HA. JUST AS I THOUGHT, YOU CAN'T EVEN COME UP WITH A GOOD LIE WHEN I PRESS YOU ON IT.

CG: YOUR BLUFF HAS BEEN CALLED.

CG: COMPILING AS WE SPEAK, IT WILL AUTORUN WHEN IT FINISHES.

CG: AND NOW I HAVE TO GO ATTEND TO SOMETHING OUTSIDE, BECAUSE TEREZI IS DOING SOMETHING JUST UNSPEAKABLY STUPID RIGHT NOW.

CG: WHOOPS, FORGET I SAID THAT. IT WAS PRIVILEGED INFORMATION.

TA: you are the dumbe2t grubfucker on the planet, ii 2wear.

CG: LATER DOUCHE BAG.

TA: KK DO NOT RUN THAT CODE.

TA: hello??????????????

carcinoGeneticist's [CG'S] computer exploded.

TA: oh my god.

[cancerinvirgochronicals]

Hate it when people try to ruin your success with their Jealousy. Be happy for others nothing in life comes easy. In my new environment the people like talking aloud but never to the one they talking about. This third person ideology is so outdated & immature. Basically solves nothing on their part but speaks volumes to me on their mindsets. People are also very selfish it's high time people start being less fake and face to face. I find myself being sucked into this mentality it's like I'm an anthropologist participating in field work I did anthropology at university but applied psychology was my major as the anthropologist in me dived into this environment and become one to understand it, maybe I now need counselling. I was never a fan of gossip I hardly converse with the average Joe. It's so pointless and I'm just forced to be around this I don't have a word for it but I can compare it to white paper with no words on it "blank" that's the word. Nonsensical, indirect speech and third person imaginary hoaxes. Incompetence surrounds me. My hard drive might crash with all this viruses 😆 hahaha!. To leave one toxicity and resume another. Is this global for me? ... wondering if I am losing myself in the midst of anarchy and dismay. I will emerge out of this.

[the-haunted-office]

( @nightwing-scp - Continued from here!)

Thursday observes while Night fiddles with her wristband and then is impressed when it projects an image up on the wall.

Well. She’s impressed. And also mortified.

“Oh, hahaha, is that all? Just that little guy?” she jokes, playing down both the danger of the situation and how nervous she is. Truth be told, they’ve never had to endure an attack like this before in her office. There’s been fights against walking viruses and bodysnatchers and the like, but nothing like a gigantic homicidal reptile. That’s potentially invincible.

“Okay... Okay, so it has humanlike intelligence, or potentially it’s smarter than us. Brilliant! That’ll make it harder for us to trick it for sure.” She pauses as she reads the rest, and while Night goes about getting the cube cage thing set up. “I was thinking that- Well, Ghostday can open portals to an in between dimensions dimension called the In Between. Yes that was very difficult to say without messing up. Anyway, she can open portals to almost anywhere, as long as she’s been there. If we need to, I wonder if we could get it into one of the portals and have it just walk straight into the cage. Do you think it’d fall for that?“

Upon hearing the crashing sound, Thursday can’t help but wince. Seconds later, Cyrus’ voice comes on over the speakers.

“What in the bloody hell do you mean there’s a giant invincible lizard loose in our office?!”

Thursday grins sheepishly and shrugs. “We’re taking care of it, Cyrus. Just stay up there with the others, all right? And keep an eye on the monitors for us, let us know if it’s sneaking up on us or something.” She then looks back at Night. “Great idea. Armor! What should I do, then? Act as live bait?” She asks this without any sarcasm or bitterness - it is a genuine question.

Seconds later Ghostday is reappearing on the scene. “All right, where’s this lizard? I’m ready!”

[pepperonidk]

how would every member kiss you?

what a GREAT question, friend. Very huge thanks to @freakyfriedrice for bieng my partner in delulu...

pairing: ot13 x gn!reader genre: fluff (some of these might get kinda spicey) warnings: none

a/n: hello i cannot stop thinking about these ideas... especially dokyeom's...

seungcheol: lifts your chin with his finger much like seungcheol these kisses can be very hot but also very soft... he'd call your attention to him while you're in the middle of doing something else with a soft "hey." and honestly you turn to him just because you weren't sure if you actually heard him and he is just looking at you with the dopiest smile on his face before he pulls you to him to leave you with a sweet kiss.

jeonghan: will kiss you everywhere except the mouth first jeonghan is a TEASE oh my god. he waits until you're looking up at him pouting before he finally relents... but not before he fakes you out one last time. he loves to make you laugh, but he also loves to make himself laugh. seeing you laugh makes his heart do flips and he just loves the way you smile as he kisses you silly.

joshua: hand kisses when you're holding hands ok besties, listen -- imagine it's fall, autumn, like an all too well (10 minute version) (taylor's version) type of autumn. you and joshua are walking through the park, he buys you a warm coffee and holds your other hand in his. he tells you he saw a band playing nearby and they're playing your song and when you suggest going, he'll leave a soft kiss on your hand in his and before pulling you to the sound of guitars.

jun: kisses into your hair cuddles with jun. did y'all hear that? cuddles. with. jun. when he has in you in his arms after a long day he just pulls you into his chest and rests his head against yours, and he's comforted immediately by your familiar scent. he smiles against your hair before leaving a soft kiss against it as he whispers "goodnight, my love."

soonyoung: playful, teasing kisses you could be having the longest, worst, most tiring day ever, but coming home to a smiling soonyoung makes everything else immediately disappear. when he sees you sigh as you enter the apartment, he'll smother you with love as soon as you walk to him. he'll pepper you with kisses until you're finally smiling and giggling and asking him to stop. "better?" he'll ask with a final sweet kiss.

wonwoo: forehead kisses i keep thinking about this one yall... like it's not funny anymore, i can just picture standing next to him at a grocery store and you guys are picking up snacks and you're trying to decide if you want the barbecue flavor or the cheese flavor and wonwoo can't help but think that the way your eyebrows scrunch together is so adorable and he just wraps his arm around you and leaves a kiss on your forehead. "what was that for?" you ask. "no reason, i just think you're cute."

jihoon: privately HAHAHA i am a firm believer that jihoon hates pda. but when you're alone... that's where soft-but-pretends-he's-not jihoon comes out. like i've mentioned before, jihoon will find reasons to act affectionate to you even though he knows he absolutely does not need to. he'll tell you that you have something on your face and he'll tenderly wipe his thumb across your cheek and then he will lean in so painfully slow that you have to resist the urge to pull him in by the collar.

seokmin: tickles you first, then rests his forehead on yours similar to soonyoung, they really are both happy viruses and literally live to see you smile and laugh. but he does it at the most innoportune times. you guys could be cuddling in bed watching a nature documentary, and you'd be nearly falling asleep when you feel him squeezing your side before he starts an all out attack. Once you're finally out of breath, he'll relent and laugh before pulling you back in and resting your head against his. he'll rest a hand at the nape of your neck and smile before he leans in. sorry yall this has been on my mind so much i even wrote a whole seperate drabble about this i--

mingyu: pauses just before your lips touch to smile at you brb i'm flying to spain but the s is silent. yall can see the smile he gives you right? are we all crying rn too? bc he'll give you the dopiest, most love striken smile like he didn't know how to breathe till he met you. his eyes have sparkles in them and you know his heart is beating as fast as yours. he might even bite his lip, and he'll adore the way it makes you blush. when he finally does kiss you, it's soft and he's smiling into it the whole time.

minghao: both hands on either side of your face, thumbs brushing your cheeks yall know how suave he would be right like we're all thinking about this together rn? he is passionate and he is so beautiful and you are so beautiful to him too so why would he not have hold you with both of his hands like you were the most important and most precious thing in his world? he looks at you like art, like he wants to spend every minute forever memorizing you. when he kisses you it feels like watching the sunset and makes your heart skip a beat.

seungkwan: laughing kisses do u see the theme running with booseoksoon? happy virus. sunshine. how do u handle kissing the sun itself? unlike them, he chooses to kiss you when you are already laughing, and he looks at you like you're the sun. how does he handle kissing you? he pulls you in by the waist while you're still laughing and he stops you laughing by putting a finger to your lips. before you can ask why he's shushing you, he already has his lips on yours.

vernon: slow kisses ok imagine this with me. you're in the car with him, it's parked in the parking lot of your favorite boba place. you've been sitting with him for an hour watching community or whatever tv show, you're not really sure, and it's raining in the background. suddenly, you look over and he's looking at you with a gaze you can't quite name untiil he leans over the console and rests his hand in your hair, pulling you into him. his kisses are alow, lazy, like he knows he has all the time in the world to kiss you. i am ill yall, this one took me out

dino: trails kisses from your neck nvm it was this one your honor, this was the attacker. chan likes to start at your neck and make his way up to your lips. don't get me wrong this is really a spicey thing of him to do, but it's not always spicey in every context. sometimes he does it jokingly, when you're annoyed at him because he keeps taking bites of the food you're cooking before it's done, he'll wrap his arms from behind you and pull you in tight. yall have seen his arms right? ur not escaping. and he'll leave light kisses from your nape to distract you until he kisses you (he'll also steal another piece of bacon while you're distracted)

[rubberbandballqueen]

the other night when i was in a discord call w/a kouhai, editing her college essays, she asked me to look up some youtube music for us to listen to together and so i shared my screen with her and started playing her whatever and she was like “how come you never get any ads?” and i was like “i use an adblocker???”

[broken-synchronicity]

Okay I saw the one where Yuu explains their world's happenstances to the TWST boys and may I add a what if they learn about the viruses?? like covid ebola chicken pox and all?? like I have currently recovered from covid so ik whats it like being in absolute pain bc of it(and still are suffering from its after effects fucking hell but hahaha its fine since TWST has arrived!!! :D)

imagine if Yuu was magically healed from whatever illness they had and they got hit by a virus that is very deadly in TWST but they just have a cold and are in bed laughing it off bc HAHA YOU THINK THIS IS BAD?? WAIT UNTIL U HEAR ABOUT *insert all the symptoms they've experienced w whatever illness they had back then and not overexaggerating at all* and crowley is off in the distance ready to chain them down bc WDYM BY YOU WANT TO COME BACK TO THAT HELLHOLE???

At some point, Lilia and Malleus come along and discuss the plagues they've witnessed/lived through and it's just one giant mess of WTF medical nonsense.

Yuu: So yeah, there was an ongoing pandemic that really shouldn't have taken this long to corral, but that's the sad reality of living under late capitalism. I mean, at least it's not the Black Plague era, where no one understood how diseases work or spread and just did not know how to quarantine properly.

Twst residents: And you want to go back to that?!

Lilia: Oh, that actually reminds me of this one disease, absolutely atrocious; hypersensitivity of an absolutely maddening level, pain and inflammation in random joints, sores that would appear and fester for days, and it would give you the most hideous green spots.

Yuu: Why is that last part the part you're so distressed about!?

[namtanlovesfilm]

Axelle 😭 I need your help. My computer died last month, and EVERYTHING I had on it disappeared, bc it can not start EVER again. And I remember like two-three years ago I downloaded a "free" (lol) ph*toshop. But since it was forever ago I don't remember how I got it. And I was wondering if you could point me to the right direction? I'm still crying bc I lost everything on my last computer. And I don't want malwares or viruses ect. on my new one 😢 If you could help a mess (me) out? I'll be forever grateful. But if you can't it's okay too don't worry. I'm... such a disaster hahaha

OMG NO :( that sucks so much, I'm so sorry, that's literally my worst nightmare!!! I had to do some digging to find the photoshop that I downloaded almost 3 years ago now since it's been so long, but it seems to be this one! it's a bit old by now since it's the 2017 version but it does the job just fine for me! hope this helps you <3

xxx