#how do i tag individual regressions?

[orphiclovers]

Hope you don't mind elaborating on the other turns' YJH's relationship with SP and 3rd/1864th turn YJH? I genuinely enjoyed the other posts and wouldn't mind seeing more. ❤️

anon I will NEVER mind elaborating & I thank you for enabling my madness. I love talking about them sm <3

I guess I'll start off with 41&SP since I've been thinking about them and you didn't specify which one I should talk about. and. there's literally 1864 (?) different Yoo Joonghyuks. that's 1,736,316 combinations of pairings I could talk about. I'm never running out of content as long as I'm alive (well I'm not crazy enough to have headcanons for all of their relationships. yet. link to my YJH relationship chart).

this post has PARTS thats how long it got. under read more it goes

41's personality

oh 41, you miserable, miserable man. during the 41st regression, Yoo Joonghyuk had decided to harden his heart into cold, brutal practicality. he would use any means necessary to achieve his purpose, even if he had to sacrifice his companions. (he never called them that during this round, so it would hurt less when they died (didn't work)). he tried very hard to make himself an emotionless machine (see: him carelessly saying he doesn't give a shit, beyond losing tools he could use, when lee hyungsung and lee jihye die).

We get most of this characterization from the Disaster of Floods, 41st Shin Yoosung, who had a deeply messed up relationship with him that's its own post. she was the only one by his side till the very end and had to witness his cruelty, which traumatized her. and then he sent her to the past, abondened her in the labyrinth of the worlds- his ultimate unforgivable act. (quote 'The things done by the 41st round Yoo Joonghyuk were worse than murder.')

but as much as he tried, he couldn't become that heartless monster he showed to the world. (see: him promising Shin Yoosung they would go on a trip together after the scenarios were over. even at his worst, he couldn't help but try to comfort her.)

SP's thoughts on 41

41 and SP spend multiple scenes hanging out one-on-one so we have a lot to go off regarding their relationship. 41 is Secretive Plotter's second-in-command, the one who is closest to him and who spends the most time with him. For SP, this is because he finds 41 the most quote 'similar to himself' (in their ends justify the means, no matter how cruel approach) and thinks he's most likely to understand SP's actions. also since 41 is similar to him, and SP is the peak strongest smartest YJH, 41's opinion is automatically also worth more, right? girlmath (sp is arrogant).

SP relies on 41 as a trusted advisor and subordinate, let's him in on plans and asks for his opinion/advice sometimes, even if he doesn't necessarily take it. gives him commands and resposibilities and expects them to be done competently. even let's him see his vulnerable moments (do we remember the scene where SP woke up from a nightmare and 41 was there. that was to me what lemon candy moment is to doksoo fans).

SP cares for and is fond of and feels mildly possesive/protective over 41, but only the same amount as all the other regressions, nothing special about 41 in particular. SP think's every version of YJH belongs to him (see: n'gai forest's whole existence. see: 'return to me, [999]' see: 'return to me, the place you're supposed to be is here!' talking to 1863. see: 'That guy from the 1863rd should've been a part of me originally. Just like all of you.'). but he takes it for granted when that is true, because we only pine after what we don't have. like 3rd. (and 999.)

41's thoughts on SP

it's clear to me that 41 idolizes SP very much (in a 'he's me if I succeeded' way). when SP calls them similar and 41 says 'what an honor that is' he's not being sarcastic. he sees it as an honor that SP trusts him and thinks it would be better if he only trusted him, and not unreliable people like 999 (quote: [41] spoke with a voice containing a faint trace of rage. "It was a mistake to send him. Send me, instead. [999] is too soft.") and kdj (quote: "It's all because of that fool, Kim Dokja.") (this is partly jealousy. 'SP doesnt need anyone else when he has me' type of vibe.)

he takes his role as advisor very seriously. sees it as his job to point out the things SP doesn't catch or notice, question him, etc. sometimes feels frustrated when SP refuses to see reason (especially regarding 999)

still he is too loyal to ever disobey and the final decisions are always Plotter's. 41 is only subservient to him. ('lowered his head slowly' in acquiescence and submission. 'if thats what you want' im insane)

41 is very protective of SP. sees himself as a loyal knight, the only one capable of protecting his king. (probably literally calls SP 'my king' in his head...) very quick to jump to SP's defence at any point, absolutely hates people who disrespect him or betray him or dare to speak to him... sometimes goes too far and SP has to reprimand him/ make him back off.

this is after kdj provokes SP. see how 41 immedietly jumps to defend him? and how SP calls 41 off with a single word, literally like a guard dog? SP dismisses his concerns regarding 999 in a similar way.

41 also, and I cannot stress this enough, constantly looks at SP with yearning goey eyes. half the scenes hes in he's just...staring. with love. at SP.

41 too, is cringe and in love with someone who doesn't pay him any special attention. this is a yoo joonghyuk's natural state

[piinktearxs]

bunny food

prompts by @raccoonbabey

prompt: Character A is hungry, so Character C spoils them with candy and baked goods. (Bonus: Character B scolds Character C because “That’s not real food!”)

for anon (im sorry it wasn't exactly what you wanted! but you did motivate me to write lol)

pairings: cg!sam winchester, cg!dean winchester x little!OC (munchkin)

warnings: talks of ghosts and graves!

send me more fic asks! :) i love doing these!

tags, as promised: @bunnybeeblog @simpforstefan

It was a long drive back to Kansas, with a case located in Wyoming, 6 hours of route back to the bunker ensued.

Nobody in the crew really minded, by this point it was almost routine, plus this was an easy case, a run of the mill salt and burn - the only particularity being that munchkin had to distract the ghost while the boys digged the grave. So, she was pretty beat after the hunt, the boys knew from experience that, after most hunts, munchkin regressed - it was her way of processing all the emotions that she felt during the hunt, or anything really, plus, the boys loved caring for her whether she was small or big, they all really cared for each other a lot, but when she was small, she was just "so damn cute" as Dean put it.

They were 2 hours in, 4 left to go, they had had breakfast at the motel, only thing was, they had forgotten to get snacks before the drive.

Munchkin was in the back of the car, taking a little nap, when suddenly the car came to a stop, she then slowly woke up.

"Hey sweetheart, Daddy went to the bathroom, you wanna get somethin' to eat at the convenience store?" said Dean, turning to face munchkin from the driver's seat, she was starting to feel hungry, so, she nodded and rubbed her eyes, still sleepy from her nap. Dean went to open her door for her and unbuckle her, she could do this on her own, but he knew that it made her feel extra small when he did little things like that for her.

As she climbed out of the car, Dean offered his hand "What do we do when we cross the street?" He asked "Hold dada, daddy or dae's hand!" She responded chipperly, fully awake by now, as she took his hand "Attagirl" Dean said as they walked to the convenience store, they ran into Sam, who was just exiting the men's room.

"Hey there kiddo, had a good nap?" Sam asked as he bent down to munchkin's level - "Mhm!" She responded "Dada and I was jus gettin' some snackies 'cause we hungry!" She said, looking at the younger Winchester with a big smile on her face. Sam was happy to hear his little princess verbalizing her hunger cues "I think I'll join y'all then, I'm getting the munchies, too" he said as he took munchkin's free hand and started to chat with Dean when they entered the convenience store.

Sam, being the health nut that he is, immediately went for the veg aisle, whereas Dean took munchkin to his favorite aisle, the baked goods aisle- specifically where the pies were.

As Sam joined them, with a basket containing a big bag of baby carrots and ranch, Dean put in some pie and cookies, he then picked some worm gummies and red skittles, munchkin's favorite candy "I think we're all good to go, ain't we, Sammy?" Dean asked his brother, heading for the checkout counter "Uh, Dean I think we need to get some real food in there" Sam said, seeing that the basket was 70% sweets "Seems pretty real to me" Dean responded.

As the two brothers bickered on what was real food and what wasn't ("Rabbit don't equal real!" "OH, and processed does?" "You're such an almond guy" "There's a difference between almond and healthy!" "Yeah but you're an almond" "That's a meme! And I'm so not" "You so are") munchkin went around the store, picking what she was craving, she saw some carrots with hummus, and grabbed those, she then saw an individual bag of salt and vinegar chips and added that one, too, when she returned to the sweets aisle, she tugged on Sam's sleeve "Daddy in how much time are we gettin' lunch?" she asked, "In about two hours, why do you ask, bunny?" he asked, as munchkin put her picks in the basket "ta see if ima be veery hungry or not so much" she said as she took out her gummies and put them back "gotta leave some room for lunch" she said with a shrug "okie now we ready to go!" she said with a smile.

The boys looked at each other, perplexed, what did their little one just do? She never denied candy of any kind, Dean crouched to her height "Baby, is everything alright? You love gummies" he said, concerned "I know dada, but they's not goin' nowhere, plus, I'm craving skittles more today and we're havin' lunch soon, an' i don't wanna be full by lunch, an' i also wanted carrots an' chips" she said, very sure of herself, it did make sense, what she was saying, still, both boys were confused at her sudden vegetable frenzy, when she was small, she usually dreaded those "you can have bunny food AND sweet food, is all 'bout balance, plus I got some hummus because it tastes better than ranch"

The boys shared an "oh well" look, and the argument was settled, they paid for their items and got back on the road, where they shared what each had gotten, and sang along to their shared road trip playlist all the way back to the bunker.

[gracemain919]

Find more about that here: The Fungus

(intro blog)

Summary: It’s a corrupted military facility full of addicted and lovingly sick individuals.

It’s a Yandere story I’m writing. I will be doing many posts about concepts of such a story especially it’s characters. Concepts that can range from fluff to more erotic/smut.

My content may include 18+, Yandere, and non-con topics. If you don't want to see content like that please step away from my account.

I more than welcome questions and requests about these characters/concepts, and I don’t mind how crazy it can get but:

Things I don’t allow;

- Pedophilia

- age regression

- zoophilia

- incest

If I find more then I will add them to the list. And also pls credit me if you use any of these characters or the story. Tag me if you want me to read them.

I don't condone any actions from these characters and stories in real life this is just a work of fiction.

Also English is not my main language

Master list

I’m working on the main thing on Wattpad but I might rewrite it in the future since I'm not too proud of its pacing but if you're interested then its there it's like a prequel to what I'm writing here. (also that story has a determined protagonist not like here where its ‘you/ reader’)

[maskedrealities]

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・❥・ Name: Lilith

・❥・ Age: 22

・❥・ Pronouns: She/They/He

・❥・ Gender: Gender-fluid

・❥・ Orientation: Demiromantic, Demisexual, Omni, Mono

・❥・ Extra: I’m American, Japanese, and Korean and currently reconnecting to Japanese heritage before connecting to Korean.

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・❥・ I am someone who identities as non-human due to past trauma and cannot easily identify with human experiences. I associate more with demon/devil, puppet/doll, vampire, and angel. These labels help me have a better understanding of myself and allow me to love myself more.

・❥・ I actively enjoy reading, writing, photography, gaming, and making art. My favorite games include Halo, Assassin’s Creed franchise (particularly fond of the first, Mirage, and Valhalla), Jedi: Fallen Order/Jedi: Survivor, Stardew Valley, Minecraft, and otome games (major fan of Shall We Date games).

・❥・ I write more poetry but I’m getting into fledging more into books. I actively despise AI “art” as it takes away from the process it takes to learn and shape your own designs while writing. It also isn’t art, it is something that has used works of incredible people and takes away from the artist.

・❥・ I am an active fan of Hozier, STARSET, Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace, Set It Off, Sleep Token, Citizen Soldier, 8 Graves, Fall Out Boy, Hollywood Undead, and many more.

・❥・ I deal with a lot of things regarding obsessive thoughts and behaviors relating to my disorders. I do consider myself to be a yandere as it gives more details into how my disorders affect me and I support other people that have reclaimed the term.

・❥・ I am an intersex individual and learning more about my community and learning to be more comfortable with myself.

・❥・ My religion is mainly surrounding Norse paganism. I do not claim the people that use the religion as a means of supporting any sort of bigotry. I do not support ANY type of bigotry here.

・❥・ I actively enjoy making friends and answering questions. Please feel free to talk to me!

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・❥・ The only tags I will post under will be regarding to the blog itself, such as #maskedrealities and #lilith speaks/#lilithrambles/#rambles of Lilith.

・❥・ My blog is where I get to be unapologetically me. I will not conform to what others want of me.

・❥・ I actively do not mind others needing a place to go either, you are more than welcome to send something via message or ask as a means of just talking to someone. Though I cannot say I’ll be quick to respond.

・❥・ Anon asks will always be a thing, but any hate will include me laughing in your face. If you’re going to waste my time and your time being negative, I can at least find some joy in how much you must hurt someone else because you aren’t able to appreciate yourself.

・❥・ I am not required to be nice.

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・❥・ Homophobes, transphobes, racists, any and all types of bigotry.

・❥・ Pro contact, anti-recovery paraphilias (I.e pedophilia, zoophilia, etc.). If you are actively getting help or are no contact and pro-recovery, feel free to interact.

・❥・ Political things. I know the world is going to shit, but I can’t stand it.

・❥・ Anti goodfaith, anti mspec labels.

・❥・ Anti neopronouns/xenogenders.

・❥・ If you actively mock or hate furries, therians, otherkin, otherhearted, non-humans, etc.

・❥・ If you use any sort of regression as a means of supporting pedophilia.

・❥・ If you judge kinks/what someone likes.

・❥・ If you preach about “closed culture” and try and remove people from that culture away from it and need “proof.”

・❥・ Religious talk. (Any asks or DMs commenting about the Bible, or heavily talking about “finding Jesus” or “worshipping God”)

・❥・ Pro harassment people.

・❥・ TransIDs/radqueers

・❥・ If you actively make fun of, mock, or harass people for taking the term “yandere” back to express their experiences.

・❥・ If you believe in any type of [disorder] abuse. Such as narc abuse, bipolar abuse, borderline abuse. These types of “abuse” don’t exist. Stop turning disorders into horror tropes.

・❥・ Endogenic/any type of non-traumagenic “system” and their supporters. A CDD must have trauma behind it.

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[gingergofastboatsmojito]

Scale down

I have been thinking about what this concept in the Sydcarmy universe would look like if played out next season because that's where Carmy is going.

But I have a very hard time thinking of Carmy as a separate entity now, he's eternally intertwined in the tapestry he has been weaving with Sydney since she came into his life, and that's why his story restarted with her, she's his reset:

She's his chance to do it all differently this time around, not like when his relationship with Michael got fucked up. But even though he's trying, old habits die hard, and despite his heart being in the right place, he succumbed to his old default ways because apologies don't cut it anymore.

More about that here:

I believe The Bear's Legacy is about The Bear's found family branching out like Carmy's lines foreshadowed in 03x07 Legacy, because duh!

But in terms of Carmy as an individual, I think he's heading to a place where he will strip everything away and focus on what truly matters for him, which will lead us straight to SYDCARMY ENDGAME and I have already been talking about what this might entail, both in previous meta posts and in my fics:

This doesn't mean they won't get the star, no. In fact, I know they will, but they will get it when they are no longer chasing it and maybe once they do Carmy will decide he has had enough and diversify to other forms of art/outlets for his creativity because he said that "fixing" that restaurant (The Beef) was a way to fix the family

and he expresses himself through creativity.

So I'm expecting Carmy to walk from The Bear post-star either full or at least part-time and I'm also expecting Syd's dream spot to happen, (maybe in a time jump?) where she's gonna cook for people and make them happy

And that will result in them only focusing on what truly matters:

For Carmy that means this:

And this:

For Syd it means this:

And this:

Find any similarities between what truly matters for Carmy and for Syd and therefore what a happy ending would look like for both of them?

Me too.

Remember to follow my tag #Gingerpovs 💋

[agere-questions-and-resources]

What's the difference between age regression and age dreaming? I don't really know if i wama google it cuz my mom dosint know I regress :(

whats the difference?

— age regression vs age dreaming —

First, let's understand what age regression and age dreaming are. Including how they're different between each other

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🎀 What is age regression?: to put it simple, age regression is when an individual mentally regress to a younger state of mind. Anyone of any age can age regress, and people who do regress can regress to different ages. (Including, but not limited to: newborn, infant, toddler, older kid, tween, teen, etc) Anyone of any gender, sexuality, age, race can regress. This can be a coping mechanism, or can be used for fun. It's therapy recommended and is a very healthy coping mechanism.

☁️ what is age dreaming?: age dreaming can be confused with age regression to anyone who may not be familiar with the labels or their meaning. While they sound somewhat familiar, they are two different things.

Unlike age regression, age dreaming is when someone may do things regressors do, but they never regress. So typically, an age dreamer is someone who can do childish or act childish without regressing. They don't regress, instead embrace doing things that may be seen as childish. Such as coloring, watching kid shows, and more.

— What's the difference? —

Let me give a visual example. let's say person A and B are friends. Person A is an age regressor who enjoys playing with toys and watching shows aimed for toddlers. Person B, is an age dreamer. They also love playing with toys and watching shows aimed for younger individuals. However, When person A is little, person B stays big.

So basically, age dreaming is like age regression, without the regression part.

If you'd like, I would encourage you to check out the age dreamer tags here on tumblr. #age dreamer, #age dreamer flags, #agere flags. Etc. I would recommend checking out the last two in your spare time, as you are quick to learn that labels don't matter all too much. I find coining a beautiful thing, and there are many, many coined terms and flags to check out in the community. You may be able to learn more about age dreaming and their community that way! It's very fun watching people get creative, so I recommend checking it out

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[aew-regression-cove]

caregiver natasha 'phoenix' trace

.ೃ࿔ ✈︎ *･ regressor reader

In my opinion she's so big sister, she's regressed but is definitely on the older side, teen regressor and loves looking after you!!! She likes being the protective big sister!!!

I can see her being really excited to cook or bake!!! Loves showing off her skills to you as she makes lunch for the two of you!!! - She's making something like pasta and you get to help!!! (Although she's being very careful and keeping an eye on you to make sure there are no accidents!!!)

^ Speaking of accidents I think she'd be pretty level headed if there were any injuries or illnesses. She knows if it's something small she can handle it and if it's something big she knows who to get to help. (The closest Dagger Squad member if their not regressed, if not literally anyone but Mav because bless him he will absolutely panic and overreact <3)

Would brag about how well she could make a bottle!!! She has the perfect temperature and stuff every single time!!! Constant going back and forth with Rooster because he wants to do it but never gets it right 🙏🏻 >>> (all in good fun of course!!! Typical sibling bickering <333)

Let's you (and Rooster & Bob) call her Nix or Tasha, you three are the only ones allowed though!!! Nat is what I see most of the daggers calling her when she's regressed but they're not, however if they are regressed she will pout demand to be called just Natasha. (Hangman calls her mini Spitfire mainly when he's not regressed) I got a little sidetracked here but she would absolutely melt if you referred to her as your big sister!!! <333

She's very active!!! She'd love taking you out on walks, to go to the park things like that!!!

Despite being active I overall think she'd be pretty calm in the sense of there being lots of moments of cuddles, soft blankets and also just the colours beige and kinda light brown!!! (That probably makes no sense to anyone but me but yea lol)

I don't see her being big on you around tech lots when regressed. You have a screen time limit.

^ Would adore teaching you things/skills. Things like if you don't already know how swimming, and how to ride a bike!!! Would also enjoy reading to you and playing education related games!!!

^ So many trips to the library!!!

Knows how to style your hair for individuals with longer hair!!! Absolutely combs her fingers through your hair, no matter how long or short your hair is!!!

Saves literally everything you give her, drawings? A cool rock? She always has at least something on her!!!

Super protective of you!!! <333

Tagging - @agerefandomrambles , @babydagger86 , @greenlantrns

ⓘ if you want to reblog, let me know and I'll decide to temporarily unlock the post or not <3

[xoxiu]

first love of late spring - ot7 x reader

chapter four table of contents masterlist join the taglist discord

summary: falling, falling, falling- that's what you shouldn't be doing as a young intern at hybe. falling in love with your supervisor is frowned upon, especially all seven of them. you'll never learn, will you? guess you’ll just have to be their dark secret.

tags/warnings: intern!reader, poly relationships, stockholm syndrome, age regression, spanking, drug use, sugar daddy au, dubcon, body dysmorphia

taglist: @frieschan

February 1st was your first day starting as a social media manager for BTS. Scratch that- not a manager, but the social media manager. Your new position came with many amazing benefits, and you liked working from home when you weren't with the band. It felt like you were amongst the popular kids at school for once. You followed them around all day, taking pictures and videos for their socials. It almost felt like a dream- your job was to be their friend and photographer. They treated you more as a friend than a staff member. 

Then there was dealing with the fans. Being sneaky and having a secret fan account on multiple platforms allowed you to see what the fans were liking and into, giving you more ideas for the official pages. That meant you were in on all the inside jokes, leaked information, as well as what was trending amongst the fandom. 

Back in your youth, you ran a fan Twitter account for One Direction. You understood the fans better than anyone else because you were in their positions at one time. Times have changed over the past decade (you didn't even want to think about how long it's been), but getting back into the groove of things was easy enough. 

"y/n, you don't have to be so formal with us," Jimin would tease you all the time. While your job was fun, you were still a staff member. The boys would call you out constantly on you referring to them as 'sir', complaining about feeling old, and whatnot. They saw you as an equal and awaited the day you felt like one too. 

Today was the filming for a Run BTS episode. You didn't entirely understand the concept of the game- all you knew was that they were painting something and whenever they asked you to take a photo, you would. It was adorable- they would hold up their paintings like proud little kids. The photos would be posted to their individual Instagram accounts, so you would send each member a copy on KakaoTalk. 

"I think y/n should be the judge!" Taehyung said, standing up from his chair and pointing in your direction. You looked up from your phone in confusion, only having heard your name and 'judge'. The boys noticed your deer-in-headlights look and let out an endearing laugh. 

"Just tell us who you think has the better painting. We'll film a male staff member saying your answer so you don't have to." Yoongi said. You appreciated not having to have your voice in the recording. 

You gave each painting a very good look. Namjoon painted what appeared to be the Han River. Seokjin painted a rainbow that had been destroyed by brown paint, most likely by Jungkook that sat next to him. Jungkook didn't have much on his paper, obviously focusing more on disrupting the other members. Taehyung had an all-black abstract drawing that almost looked like it belonged in a modern art museum. Jimin's painting was of a variety of flowers in a bouquet, also destroyed by Jungkook by a brown marking of 'JK' right in the middle. Yoongi and Jimin seemed to have a combined painting that illustrated the seven members of BTS as crudely drawn stick figures when placed side by side. You chuckled at Yoongi's portion of the picture where he drew Seokjin with comically large shoulders. 

"Yoongi wins solely for how he drew Jin," you said, smiling at the excessive cheering from the normally calm member.

It really was days like this when you enjoyed your job. 

You sat in one of the production lounges on your laptop, editing some promotional photos for Instagram. Stretched out across the length of what had to be the building’s comfiest couch, you let out a long yawn before checking the time. 

A text alert is shown as you checked your phone. An unknown number had called you before sending a simple text. 

‘Hey y/n it’s Jin, are you busy?’

You smiled as you responded ‘No’ with a smiley face. You had no idea where or how Seokjin got your personal number, but you didn’t let that thought bother you much. Once you felt your phone buzz with an incoming phone call did you sit up straight on the couch. 

“Hello? Seokjin?” You asked. The line was quiet for a moment before you heard Jin’s voice through the phone. 

“Hey, could you come to our dorm? It’s not urgent or anything.” 

“Sure! Just text me the address and I’ll be right over,” You replied, standing up and starting to exit the building. There were the sounds of shuffling and muffled voices through the phone, making you wonder just what was going on over there. 

“Actually,” Jin suddenly said, “It’s nothing. You don’t have to.” You stopped in your tracks, now very curious and concerned about what was happening. 

“No, no. Come over. I lied,” Seokjin said quickly after, correcting himself. “We want you to come over.”

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Jimin roughly nudged Jin with his elbow once the phone was hung up. There was no way he didn’t sound suspicious during the call- stumbling on his words and even backtracking on what he said. They were lucky you just followed along. 

“Fuck,” Yoongi said, holding his head in his hands, “Now we need to think of a real reason why we needed her here. Jungkook missing her isn’t a good enough answer.”

“I think it’s fine…” Jungkook mumbled to himself. 

Namjoon looked across the room and into the kitchen, coming up with an idea upon seeing the state of it. “We could tell her we needed help putting the cabinet knobs back on.”

“We need our social media manager to help us with home renovations?” Yoongi questioned Namjoon’s idea.

“We wanted to film a TikTok?” Taehyung suggested. 

“Yeah, yeah. Let’s go with that one!” Seokjin said. 

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By the time the bus had arrived, the sun was close to setting. You kind of started to regret agreeing to come- it was late and you were quite tired. Finally, you had regulated your sleep schedule to be like a normal adult’s, and the members of BTS had to screw with it. What else did you expect from them?

Within seconds you were buzzed in and headed to their shared penthouse. All seven of them had their own apartments by now, but they all chose to live together still for the majority of the time. You often questioned how they were able to do it for so long- you had two roommates back in college that made you question your sanity at any given moment. 

You barely even knocked on the door before Jimin opened it with a smile. He ushered you inside, and you stood in the entryway in awe. The dorm was beautiful and big. Much, much bigger than your tiny apartment that probably couldn’t even fit seven people in it. The ceiling was high up and the doorways were arched, making everything feel so much bigger and fancier. 

“y/n! Thank God you’re here!” Taehyung said, running up to you and hugging you. You awkwardly stood there, allowing him to hug you. Never once had you had any physical affection or contact with them, and it felt like a weird time to break the boundary. You laughed slightly as he let go of you. 

After taking off your shoes, you were led into the living room where the other members sat. It was odd- everyone acted as if you weren’t needed and that there was nothing you needed to do. The sitting members all smiled and waved at you, remaining in their spots on the couch. 

“So,” you clasped your hands together behind your back, swaying slightly on your feet. “What do you guys need?”

“We just-” Jungkook started to talk, only to be interrupted by Namjoon. 

“We wanted help filming a TikTok!”

You stared at him confused. Filming a TikTok was something they were more than capable of doing by themselves. You had directed some and given them ideas, but for the most part, they would just film it themselves. It felt more natural and created more of a connection with the fan base. 

“You could’ve just done it yourself, you know,” You let out a chuckle. 

“We couldn’t think of any ideas for one,” Hoseok said. He stood up from his spot on the couch and motioned for you to take his seat. You pretended to ignore him at first, but he only kept insisting you take a seat. 

“I mean, there’s a trend of AI face filters right now. You each could do that.”

“Yeah! Let’s just play around with filters,” Taehyung said, pulling out his phone. “Wait, y/n has an iPhone. Can we use your phone instead?”

Without hesitation, you handed your phone over to Taehyung. The seven of them took turns playing around with silly filters, doing their best to keep you out of the shot. You happened to glance over at one that turned Jungkook’s face into a creepy unicorn. 

Hours passed by eventually, and you took your leave. You stood up from the couch, trying to locate your phone. A chorus of disappointed ‘aww’s filled the room at your sudden insistence on leaving. 

“It’s already 22:00 and the buses have stopped running. It’ll be a long walk.” You claimed. Jungkook stood up and walked over to the windows, observing the dark skies and falling rain. 

“It’s pouring rain out there. We can’t let you leave in this- you’ll catch a cold.” He said. The others agreed with him excitedly. 

“Or I could just drive-”

“No! It’s too dangerous. We’ll fix the couch up for you tonight.” Taehyung interrupted Seokjin and his logical solution. Everyone soon began to hunt for spare pillows and blankets for you. 

“It’s fine, guys. I really don’t need to stay here.” You slowly began to approach the front door, hoping no one would notice you leave. Hoseok snuck up behind you, blocking your path to the exit. 

“Nope, no way. We’re older and know what’s best,” he said, guiding you back to the couch. A crack of lightning struck and illuminated the dorm, making you jump at the sudden strike. 

“Awh, you’re afraid of storms,” Jimin said, placing the last of the blankets on the couch. “Now we’re definitely not going to let you outside in this weather.”

The couch had a plethora of blankets and pillows piled high on it. It seemed like each member brought at least two of each for you to sleep on. When you pointed out the hilarious amount of blankets and pillows, you were told that it got cold at night. You looked over towards the thermostat on the wall that read 23°C. The members pretended to ignore your questioning stare. 

You gave in eventually and got settled in on the couch. They made sure you were tucked underneath each of the six blankets and placed some pillows on the floor next to you. 

“Just in case you roll off in the middle of the night,” Namjoon said, seeming like he was speaking from experience. 

Within minutes of the lights turning off and the boys going to bed, you were out like a light. 

Yoongi, Jungkook, and Hoseok snuck out of their rooms at one point, standing in the hallway and watching as the city lights illuminated your sleeping body. They watched as each breath caused the blankets to move up and down, and as you softly snored. 

“You’re crazy for having this idea, Hobi,” Yoongi said with his arms crossed. 

“I mean, it sounds like a pretty good plan,” Hoseok tried to defend himself. “Jungkookie really wants her, and I figured it would be fun for us, too.”

“We do really want her, hyung.” Jungkook said to Yoongi. 

“We? What part of this involves ‘we’?” Yoongi asked, before letting out a sigh. 

“Yeah, I guess it is we.”

[deusvervewrites]

It gets even worst when you mix in Dadzawa into the stories, which you know full too well by the tag that the author intentional will make OCs out of Inko and All Might and not use them correctly unless they have actual long term validation, good build up and good writing onto why they’re the way they are. It’s to the point that I won’t read Izuku(angst, feel-good or otherwise) with Dadzawa stories, even if they lack abusive/dead Inko and All Might bashing, simply because they woobify and regress Izuku. Not to mention how the rest of 1-A can also be negatively affected by adding Dadzawa without cause.

Dadzawa, even if they is no bashing of the other characters, is frequently overused and improperly used to the point that the intended individuals for a Dadzawa to exist suffer. I understand why the authors want to have a feel-good and father like teacher for 1-A, especially for Izuku since in all scenes, Hisashi is still a deadbeat unless you subscribe to DFO, but don’t believe that All Might can change simply because of his first scene telling Izuku can’t be a hero(All Might had a bad day, it happens to everyone). A randomly inserted Dadzawa with or without the common OCs committing identity theft, has a chance to influence and develop the story and characters in the wrong way.

The impression that canon Aizawa gives off, especially if you know what it’s like to have a great father and good teacher, is that Aizawa would not be a great person to emulate due to his hygiene issues and what he does in the daily basis, which is what we see in canon. There’s a number of Dadzawa fans who haven’t even read the manga nor watched the anime, thus they believe that Dadzawa exists in canon, it’s an entirely fanon creation, especially after Eri joins the story. I know that some of them may have father issues themselves but we already have a greater father figure in All Might. I guess they are more horny and attractive to the slim figure(who doesn’t do Batman right at all) that is Aizawa and implants all of Inkos, All Mights and everyone else’s good traits onto Aizawa.

Aizawa does seem to do a good job with Eri, but for his class? I think it's telling that when Bakugou was kidnapped, several members of 1-A decided that saving him themselves was the best course of action.

But it's infuriating that so many characters have to be turned into flat OCs so they can be assholes solely to make Aizawa look better.

(That being said, the Prince of Heroes series setting up All-Might-Bashind-But-Dadzawa only for Aizawa to drop the ball so hard the kids think he hates them for several months was absolutely hilarious)

[thankyouforthememoriesworld]

Hey friend!

If it means anything, while each of these games she scored 8 points, a few things are getting better: her Game Score is increasing across these games. I never really look at +/- because it is highly dependent on who you play with on the court. There's a good article explaining it with this quote:

"If you send Damian Lillard onto the floor of an NBA game with four preschoolers, he’s going to have a horrible plus/minus even though he’s a fantastic player. His individual play-making and/or skills won’t be able to overcome the gravity of the team’s demise. Nor would the loss (and the terrible plus/minus stat on his boxscore line) be his fault."

Anyway, her on the court often distracts the defense so much leaving Sarah wide open with her own off the ball movement. They can only track 2/3 for PSA at a time honestly. There isn't a good box score stat to show this unless we can get breakdowns for productivity per each starting 5 on the floor. (I think there is a website for this but I'm blanking on the name).

The thing that really was a regression was her usage rate aka the percentage of a team's possessions a player uses while on the floor. Remember, we need her getting 14-20 shots off and she only had 5 today. That's nearly the same number as the USC game where she only played 8 minutes and had a higher usage rate in that game than this one. I would rather see her take more shots than not take them at all (that feels like a Geno-ism at this point). Her shots were falling today, just didn't take enough. For reference, Paige averages at least 15 shots per game, Sarah is at around 12, and Azzi is at 10. We need Azzi to start making those easier two point shots ASAP. I don't want 80% of her shot attempts being from the three point line. That isn't a sign of a confident Azzi.

I hope P is okay. KK posted her and Paige responded so hopefully everything is fine. Next games are Xavier and Georgetown and they are rated incredibly low on the SRS scale so we really don't need her and I hope she gets rested fully. They have 8 games before Tennessee and none of them require her so Geno better not let her come back prematurely I'm bummed she won't break 2000 pts immediately but she will eventually. Healthy P means more to me than records. The only record that matters to her is that national championship.

If anything, maybe I'll look at this glass half full (a fan's survival guide to UConn should come with the tag line "always look at the glass half full") -- now the players are forced to look for Azzi and actually develop that chemistry because right now the only players that look for Azzi are Paige, Sarah and KK and maybe Kaitlyn but not always at the best time because she is a tad too late. With Azzi, you got to be able to read what she is doing before she does it to get her the pass in time. Here's to hoping we see more of that.

Hey love (I always think of Liam Neeson in Derry Girls as I write this 😅),

We should have fans in the stands for every game with signs reading “Azzi shoot the ball”. 10 shots per game is so few 😭. She drives me crazy because she forgets how incredible she is.

I think Paige is alright and was really angry/frustrated/scared, which is why she was emotional rather than responding to pain. We don't need her back for a while, so she should use as much time as she wants and needs to be 110% healthy. I don't care about records, she's already broken so many and will continue to do so no matter what, I just want her to be well.

Azzi (and Sarah) are going to have to take charge of the team, and that's usually something that spurs Azzi into action.

[chickpea0]

Please consider donating to Gaza Municipality Project or purchase some esims gor Gazans. If you don't want to pick the individual this will help bring relief. Know your limits with world tradgedy but please, do not shove your head in the sand.

My Name is Chickpea! But these names also work! Young adult - ey/em/eirs pronouns

Age dreamer/generally young at heart and I rarely regress, just here to have a nice time! This blog is for security, fun, being light-hearted, whimsicality and at it's core, vulnerability in general!

I love animals, getting creative and trying new things :> I'm not too fond of social media but Tumblr is my little chunk of the internet.

My lifes mission is just to get to know myself and how I work, to enjoy myself and to just be around for the ride. Life has been tough but there's always a future and there's always something good about the present. I want to meet as many good people as I can. Regression helps me to not dwell on the bad, which is a really important skill I have yet to master lmao. It's also works to make feeling vulnerable way easier.

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Dms open, asks open, I love being tagged, I love people leaving notes and mass reblogging and liking is really flattering to me. Drawing of my soft toy, Blueberry kindly drawn by @roseyposie-agere. He now guards my profile and makes sure everyones alright. 🫐

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List of media that I'm familiar with and my pinterest board of basic character headcanons

And if you're curious about any headcanons or thoughts I have, or would like to suggest a moodboard idea, send an ask my way!

[bluravenite]

Can people please put content tags and warnings when they talk about regressed ghouls????

CW: mentions of trauma and abuse, fetishization of age regression, sexual abuse, parenting? Just complaining about people romanticizing age regression, trauma, abuse and treating other mental illness/disorders badly... Also very brief mentions of self harm and eating disorders...

Summary: I'm upset

I feel like people baby ghouls a lot, and while I understand that age reg and little space is a trauma coping mechanism, trust me.. I know... I also just feel like sometimes I open Tumblr to a bunch of people babying ghouls in ways that make me upset...

I think often the way people handle regressed ghouls is by treating them like dumb little babies, instead of the actual procedures that should take place to ensure someone who is regressed is emotionally and physically safe... It's not just about which toys they love playing with, or which sippy cup they use most, it's also not A GATEWAY FOR YOU TO WRITE AGE REGRESSION AS A SEXUAL FETISH, I understand that sometimes when you regress your body may still experience those feelings, but mentally???? It's not going to be safe or enjoyable, cannot consent properly either BECAUSE ITS UNDER A TRAUMA RESPONSE, and also??? It can be even more traumatic and DANGEROUS for a person HANDLING a regressed individual, to engage in sexual acts WITH A REGRESSED INDIVIDUAL

I get that Tumblr used headcanons as comfort, but if you're going to talk about traumatized ghouls experiencing age regression and instead of having people/other ghouls take care of them safely and properly, then I can't stop you but at least TAG THEM PROPERLY??? This goes to mentions of SH and EDS, should not be romanticized... Can it be talked about? Part of a story? Yes, just like it can be part of people's lives and needs to be discussed... But please just don't romanticize it... Don't make regressed ghouls engage in it too if you're not going to properly explain the content and the reasons why it's there.

I have my own way of dealing with small children, age regressed individuals (and littles)... It may not be correct, but it caters towards listening to the individual I am responsible for taking care of...

You don't know what they want or need, you need to talk to them and ask them how they're feeling, how you can help, what they would like, what is safest for them. Get them something of comfort, something for entertainment, and at all costs try to ensure their safety, even if you fail, you can talk them through calming down. I do understand that 1. Children can be difficult sometimes, it depends a lot on the kid... 2. Not all instances will have bad experiences or feelings involved, but sometimes they might, which is why you need to understand age regression is a trauma response... 3. You cannot treat children as dumb brainless babies, AND YOU SHOULD NOT TREAT AGE REGRESSED INDIVIDUALS HAVING TROUBLE PROCESSING EMOTIONS like CHILDREN.

My point being, just try to learn some gentle parenting. It doesn't always work, it doesn't always ensure everyone's safety... Yes you can still have your cute headcanons of things people enjoy and it does not have to be exclusive to age regression...

I have spent entire summers volunteering with special needs and disabled kids, as well as having my own mental issues and disorders and I'm just tired of seeing people treat a lot of them like they're toys to play with and sexualize... And since I know I can't stop anyone from doing that, AT LEAST FOR SATAN'S BELOVED COCK, USE TAGS

[michaenics]

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excuse how messy this might be. i’m making it in a bit of a rush and might clean it up later today.

hi, i’m michael/scott. i’m an adult and use he/him , ask about my neopronouns. this sideblog is mostly centered around my special interests , art , and kin experiences , but there might also be other things that will be accordingly tagged.

a little more info about me ; i’m a michael afton & twilight sparkle fictive , i’m audhd & personality disordered & tourettic. i write in lowercase and speak english & intermediate brazilian portuguese.

my personal / individual special interests are fnaf, mlp , mechanics , and technology. i’m a big fan of poetry and writing. i’m a fox therian , techkin , and german shepherd kin. i like green day , bmth , dona cislene , hozier , arctic monkeys , glass animals , half•alive , the front bottoms , aviators , guns n roses , ac/dc , pantera , linkin park , imagine dragons , crywank , among others.

main blog = @oil-bh

syst blog = @flipsided-oilbh

my current tagging system is straightforward but i’ll list them anyway ;

#🗝️.my art = my art

#🗝️.kin = kin posts that will probably be specified in tags , like fox therian or tech kin

#🗝️.rambles , #🗝️.infodumps = rambles / infodumps

#🗝️.spin , #🗝️.hyperfix = special interests / hyperfixations

#🗝️.pda = pda , yearning , etc. posts

#🗝️.objectum = posts related to objectum experiences

#🗝️.regression = posts when i’m in some kind of regressed mindset

#🗝️.foxspace / #🗝️.dogspace = posts where i’m very foxy / puppy minded

i do not have a dni , but i will delete any asks that are political or discourse. this blog is not the place for these topics.

[thepevertedwizard]

Hi! I'm Calvin. If you know me in real life, you probably don't want to follow this account. Yall know how much I share in the tags, and having an nsfw sideblog is gonna ramp that up to a 10.

I know kids want to snoop because I did some snooping myself, but think about it this way. I want to share my thoughts with people who are interested in the same things as me, and potentially me. I'm not interested in 18-19 year olds, let alone children. Stick to YA romances for a couple more years.

If you are incensed by the following statements, you're not welcome here.

Trans people deserve to exist. Transfemmes, especially Black transfemmes/transfemmes of color, are disproportionately assumed to have bad intentions on social media and face a world of discrimination and violence. Transmascs are in an interesting predicament where they may benefit from gender essentialism/TERF ideology that says that characteristics normally associated with being male corrupt individuals. At the same time, some transmascs (most often white ones) will do their best to assimilate into the patriarchy. This environment is a complicated one, and I try my best to avoid stereotypes and construct a better masculinity for myself merged with queer liberation. All that goes to say, FUCK TERFS!!!

Decolonization and antiracism should be at the forefront of every political movement and ideology. Free Palestine, DRC, Ayiti, Borikén, Aotearoa, Turtle Island, etc. Nazis and the alt-right have no place in public (or among the living).

Actual discussion of kinks under the cut.

DNI if you're into forcefemme/forcemasc as a way to force people to detransition. Same with so-called "corrective rape." I don't want to write off ddlg or other such dynamics entirely, but I hold great trepidation with people that do sexual things when one or both people are in a state of age regression. I treat the people in my life that age regress with the same care I would treat a smart kid when I notice they're in that state, so it rubs me the wrong way.

I will try my best to tag anything remotely nonconsensual with #cnc. #free use kink will also be a common tag. Incest fantasies sometimes squick me out despite their common overlap with free use stuff, so I'll tag #incest if I do reblog anything like that. #somnophilia, #intox kink, and others might show up for the same reasons. If I have to censor tags, I will tag twice with the correct spelling and then add a slash after the first letter, so #somnophilia #s/omnophilia. Otherwise, I think the rest of my kinks are not common triggers for people (so you'll probably be safe relying on previous posters' tags flagging any terms you've blocked).

I'm a switch who likes to service sub and pleasure dom. I like a lot of content surrounding monsterfucking, "mommy domming," and free use fantasies.

I have 2 story ideas that I'm thinking of and may wrote posts about. I'll tag one as #gender potion story and the other as #the venue story. The former is a t4t erotic fantasy in a setting aesthetically based on the medieval kingdom of Sicily (so a bit Italian, a bit North African, plus some nautical influences). In this society, the majority religion has instituted a unique gender system that affects the clergy and regular people. The religion has its clergy members consume a potion that changes a person to the "opposite" sex (it's intersexist on purpose) because they believe the dysphoria created by cis people transitioning is a form of holy suffering. However, some people have taken this potion and used it for their own gain. A lot of nobles have used the potion to strategically change the gender ratios of their children. For the main character, a priestess loyal to their family decided to give him the potion shortly after he was orphaned. She thought it was best for the main character to be the male heir of the family instead of a daughter who would have been married off to someone chosen for her by her guardiana as soon as possible. Luckily, he liked the change! The story will follow him as he grows up, falls in love with someone who was also given the potion (they're genderfluid, so the change wasn't fully welcome), and meets people with more nuanced approaches to the state of their society, with as much freaky t4t sex as you'd expect.

My other story is an attempt at avoiding the misogyny that plagues free use society conjecture and hopefully makes the dynamic resemble cruising more than anything else. Imagine there was a company that bought up a bunch of abandoned real estate and turned those spaces into membership-only sex clubs. So for the price of a fancy gym membership and insurance-covered monthly sexual health screenings, you could have sexual encounters every day. Members have a fitbit-like band they use to enter spaces and log sexual encounters if STDs were to spread despite the monthly required tests and the "condoms unless they request otherwise" norm. Most people also flag their sexualities, whether or not they're into cnc, and perhaps a kink they're looking to engage in that particular visit. The club has standard safe words and gestures, but people initiate by asking about hard limits and safe words, cnc-favorable or no. Each space has several employees there to clean, top up lube and condom dispensers, and use their mouths and hands to service people if the ratios are off (and they're paid well enough that tips aren't necessary! I control the narrative). I'm planning one story focusing on a woman's Friday after work commute on the metro, and another on her or someone else's time at a medical kink experience they decided to spring for after their monthly test (they wear gloves and use toys that can go in an autoclave after, just in case they test positive).

I think that should be a good start to things! Send a non-anonymous ask if you wish to dm me.

[beastboost]

I personally don’t have a problem with people calling themselves queer or identifying with it any way. I think it’s pretty awesome, actually. However, the word did see its beginnings as a disparaging term for “sexual deviants” and has continued to be used as a slur against LGBT people to this day. It’s why reclamation is radical in the first place, why people loudly and proudly calling themselves queer hits as hard as it does. We took their disparaging word for us and went, “Yeah, I’m queer, what are you gonna fucking do about it?” To deny its origins is to take away what gives it any teeth at all.

On the flipside, there are people who follow me who have been targeted with the word, have seen its use as a slur, or just don’t like it for any particular reason. They are understandably uncomfortable with seeing it or being called queer themselves. They’re not inherently terfs or aligning with any sort of ideology for having those experiences, they just don’t wanna see or be called a word that is associated with violence for them. I tag it out of respect for their boundaries, not because I’m trying to invalidate anyone or say their identity is bad.

I get it must suck to call yourself queer and then come to find out the word is still being used to hurt people, or to call yourself queer and find those around you aren’t ready to do so (or may never be ready)- but that should be a moment to reflect on LGBT history, think about how we’ve gotten to the point where individuals can openly call themselves queer, and have those who can’t do so in your heart. It shouldn’t be an opportunity to spit on those who are hurting and say they’re aligning themselves with violent bigots and being regressive because they don’t have the same experiences as you.

god i am always the FIRST to rally against the failures of just fighting for tolerance from straight cis ppl, but also we haven't even fucking reached tolerance yet.

we still need "We're Queer We're Here Get Used To It", because i don't know about you guys, but from what I'm seeing, they aren't fucking used to it.

we need that old school "we're your hairdressers, your teachers, your neighbors, your siblings, your friends" energy back ASAP. quietly queer isn't cutting it for me anymore. in your face dykes fag queer trans forever until i'm fucking dead.

[jiangwanyinscatmom]

Do you think YQYs death is the original SQQs fault? I was in the SVSSS tag and I saw that take that it wasn’t SQQ fault when I was kinda like…but it is? I was just reading like…no…this isn’t victim blaming is it?!? I haven’t actually thought about it. I didn’t even think of the original after everything was said and done and I’m using my last three brain cells to figure this out. Might the smart and illustrious Raccoon Mom do it for me🥺🥺🌸💖 pls I don’t have the brain power to do this myself and my sister hasn’t read it yet and I have no one to bounce stuff off of😩

Hello dear Ticobi!

I think this is a bit of a convoluted consequence on both Yue Qingyuan's guilt and Shen Jiu being well... Shen Jiu...

It has to be mentioned that Yue Qingyuan did actively take the bait of Shen Jiu's torture by Luo Binghe. How this concluded the way it did needs to be broken down due to the theme of actions having consequence and the points of abuse through relationships.

1: Yue Qingyuan had promised to come back to save Shen Jiu eventually some way from his situation due to their dependency on each other.

2: Yue Qingyuan ultimately was not able to save Shen Jiu at the expected time both believed they would be reunited. This leads to Shen Jiu's growing resentment of the world he already despises and his own faith in people is lost, and the beginning of Yue Qingyuan's guilt complex for failing someone so vital to him.

3: This leads to Shen Jiu's resentment of people as a whole, and his degradation as a person as he chooses to become nihilistic and jealous. Yue Qingyuan in his guilt continues to let this be as he doesn't know how to mend their rift. The hypocrisy of Shen Jiu wanting to be "strong and independent" is warped now as he is just an unhappy person while still craving some form of affection and comfort.

4: Luo Binghe is introduced, Shen Jiu just finds a target to essentially continue the abuse and jealousy he endured in an individual that mirrors his own circumstances in life.

5: Yue Qingyuan knows this is abuse of Luo Binghe, but because of his guilt, he enables Shen Jiu instead and Shen Jiu's hate and abuse of Luo Binghe continues.

6: Eventually, this leads to Luo Binghe growing into another Shen Jiu, the abused, become the abuser with the enabler remaining passive and stuck.

7: Shen Jiu is forever convinced Luo Binghe is disgusting as a person, as well as Luo Binghe thinking the same of him. But due to that past with Yue Qingyuan, Luo Binghe is able to take advantage of an already wrought relationship between all. Luo Binghe tortures his abuser, becoming the abuser, the former abuser, is made a victim, the victim/abuser's enabler is forced to do something, and is killed for it.

There really is no "It is on the fault of one only", here, as all parties are guilty of abusive action or, regressive inaction. These were all continued choices to escalate the abuse of each other, so, each are a victim in one way, while the abuser as well. What came first, chicken, or the egg? Nature, or nurture? We know with Shen Jiu by the end of his life, knows exactly what led to his end, but, regret isn't always an epiphany, and what if's don't matter for the future or the present where you make your choices.