#how do i offend something in plural

[plumonthemoon]

THEY. CANCELLED. OFMD.

ill commit a fucking hate crime

[cb-writes-stuff]

“You can’t enjoy being neurodivergent/disabled/having X disorder if it makes you suffer so much! How dare you be making jokes about it!!!” Well you see, your bad days only suck a little bit so you don’t appreciate the good days very much. My bad days suck so much worse, so I only appreciate the good days that much more to compensate.

[foxtrology]

i want you, i need you, i love you (4)

harry castillo x reader

series

word count: 12.8k

warnings: no y/n, 28 year age gap, female reader, fluff, smut.

It had been three weeks.

Three weeks since the gallery night.

Since the bath. Since her in his robe. Since the moment she stepped into Harry Castillo’s penthouse and changed everything.

And somehow, despite the chaos, despite who he was, despite who she was—they hadn’t combusted.

They’d settled. Sort of. Not into a relationship. Not into anything that had labels or expectations.

And she wasn’t in any rush to be branded. But they were something—and whatever it was, it had slowly started bleeding into the rest of their lives.

He gave her a key on a Tuesday. He didn’t make a big deal out of it.

Just set it on the kitchen counter next to her takeout container, glanced up and said, “So you don’t freeze your ass off waiting for me if I’m not home.” That was it. No smile. No explanation.

Just Harry being cold and mean in the most absurdly tender way.

She didn’t say thank you out loud, but she kissed the corner of his mouth that night a little longer than usual. And he didn’t pull away.

They didn’t talk about what they were. They didn’t need to. But the rhythms were there.

He kept orange juice stocked in the fridge because she liked it. She started leaving hair ties on his bathroom counter. And a pink razor in his shower. He bought the cereal she liked. She figured out how to work his espresso machine before he did.

And they saw each other constantly. Not every day—he was still Harry Castillo—but almost.

He texted her at odd hours. Late nights when he couldn’t sleep. Early mornings when he was at the gym at an inhuman hour and saw something that reminded him of her. Articles. Memes.

Yes memes.

Photos of outrageously overpriced apartments that had bathtubs with built-in fireplaces and chandeliers.

He had sent one at 2:13 a.m.

Old man Harry ❤️👴: Would you complain if I bought this?

You: If you bought it and never invited me over, yes.

His response came five minutes later

Old man Harry ❤️👴: You have a key. I’d be forced to.

And that was that.

She didn’t stay over every night. But when she did, she found herself waking up warm. Not just physically—but emotionally. And that scared her more than anything else.

Because Harry Castillo wasn’t easy.

He was brooding. Quiet. Obsessive in ways that only became clear the longer she knew him. But he was consistent. And that? That mattered. He didn’t lie. He didn’t flinch. He didn’t sugarcoat anything. And slowly—slowly—she started letting him in.

It wasn’t until the second week that he found out about her jobs. Plural.

She had just finished showering in his bathroom—wet hair down, wearing one of his button-downs, no pants—when her phone lit up on the bed.

Marco (Flowers): u good to deliver that midtown order today or should I send Gio?

Harry saw it. He blinked. Then stared at the screen like it had personally offended him.

When she stepped out, towel in hand, humming softly to herself, she stopped dead in her tracks.

His eyes were locked on her phone.

She froze. “What?”

Harry lifted it. “Who’s Marco.”

“…Someone I work for.”

“You work where.”

She sighed, already knowing this was going to be a thing. “A flower shop. I help with deliveries sometimes.”

Harry’s jaw clenched. “Since when.”

She arched a brow. “Since always?”

“You never told me.”

“You never asked.”

That made something flicker behind his eyes—sharp and cold and maybe a little unhinged. He set the phone down carefully, then reached for his own.

“Harry—”

“I’m not mad,” he muttered, typing something.

She squinted. “You’re typing like you’re mad.”

“I’m not—” he cut himself off. “I’m just trying not to throw my phone at the fucking window.”

She blinked. “Jesus. Okay, calm down.”

“How many jobs do you have.”

She hesitated. And that was his answer.

He looked up. “How many.”

“…Three.”

“Three?”

She nodded.

Harry exhaled sharply, standing up so fast the chair scraped against the floor. “You said you were a server.”

“I am.”

“And?”

“I bartend on weekends. And I do flower deliveries during the day sometimes. Under the table. It’s not a big deal—”

“It is a big deal.” His voice was low now. Controlled. Furious. “You work three jobs and walk home late at night and don’t tell me?”

Her brows lifted. “You’re not my boyfriend.”

“Don’t—” he snapped, pacing now. “Don’t do that. Don’t turn this into a thing. I’m not trying to control you. I’m trying to understand why the hell you think it’s normal to exhaust yourself until you collapse.”

She stared at him. He looked like he wanted to punch a wall. She softened, just a little. “I didn’t think it mattered.”

He stopped pacing. Turned to her. “It matters,” he said, quietly now. “It matters to me.”

And that? That shut her up.

Because Harry Castillo didn’t say things like that. Not unless they were true. The next morning, he asked for the addresses. All of them. She refused at first.

“You’re not picking me up from work.”

“Why not.”

“Because you’re Harry fucking Castillo. You don’t drive. You don’t do Midtown traffic.”

He stared at her. Said nothing.

Then pulled out his phone and typed something. An hour later, she got a notification from Find My iPhone.

Old man Harry ❤️👴 has requested your location.

She stared at it. Then looked up. He smirked.

“Add me.”

“Absolutely not.”

“I’ll come find you anyway.”

“You don’t even know where my flower job is.”

“Not yet.”

She groaned, shoving his arm. “You’re insane.”

“I don’t want you walking home.”

“I have legs.”

“You have shit shoes.”

“I—”

Harry raised a brow. “Let me take care of you.”

That was it. Just a soft command from a cold man who didn’t beg.

She rolled her eyes. But she added him.

The first time he picked her up, it was raining.

Not the soft, aesthetic kind. No—it was New York level chaotic. Sideways sheets of water, umbrellas flipping inside out, cars honking like they were allergic to patience, subways getting flooded by the second.

She was soaked. Her hair plastered to her forehead, her phone dead, her hands freezing.

And then? A black BMW pulled up to the curb. The window rolled down. And there he was. Driving.

She stopped in the rain and blinked. “You…drive.”

Harry stared at her, unimpressed. “Get in.”

“I thought you were allergic to steering wheels.”

He rolled his eyes. “I took a car from my old place. Get in before you drown.”

She slid in, dripping onto the leather seats. “This feels illegal.”

“Your shoes are illegal. What are those, socks with holes?”

“Don’t start.”

He tossed her a dry sweatshirt from the backseat—his, of course. “Put this on.”

She did. And the car smelled like him. From then on, it became a thing. Not official. Not daily. But often enough that she started waiting for it. Harry would show up outside her server shift around 11:15 p.m., texting her with a simple

Old man Harry ❤️👴: Here.

Or he’d pull up to the bar on Fridays, leaning against the hood like he hadn’t spent the day managing millions of dollars and threatening CEOs. Sometimes he brought coffee. Sometimes just a dry shirt and a scowl. But he always showed. And she never had to ask.

Their nights together stayed the same.

Mostly.

She’d enter the penthouse quietly. Leave her shoes by the door. Sometimes he was already home, waiting with dinner or a clean towel or just himself—half-dressed and reading on the couch wearing his glasses that make him look like an even bigger old man.

Sometimes he got home after her, muttering about meetings, his voice hoarse, jaw tense from hours of pretending he didn’t want to text her every five minutes.

But they always ended the night the same way. In bed. Tangled. Quiet. Bodies pressed close under too many sheets and not enough words.

He never said he missed her. But he texted her at 3:07 p.m. once after a brutal meeting with the board...

Old man Harry ❤️👴: This room is full of people who make me want to kill myself. You would’ve made it bearable.

She smiled when she read it. Didn’t respond right away. Let him sit in it. Later that night, when she curled up beside him, he didn’t say anything. Just wrapped an arm around her waist like a reflex.

On Sunday mornings, they got bagels. It started accidentally. She had mentioned a craving for egg and cheese one night in passing, barely awake, face pressed into his chest.

He said nothing.

Then the next morning? Bagel. Wrapped in foil. Sitting on the counter.

She blinked at it.

“Did you—”

“I didn’t want to hear you complain later,” he muttered.

So now it was a thing. Bagels on Sunday. No talking until coffee. Her in his oversized shirts. Him in sweatpants with his hair pushed back, watching her read something on her phone while chewing with her mouth open.

“You’re disgusting,” he’d say.

“You’re in love with me,” she’d fire back.

He never answered. Just stared. Like maybe—just maybe—she wasn’t wrong.

Three weeks in and they still weren’t a couple. Not in public. Not in labels. But in the way he made her tea when she lost her voice. In the way she slipped notes into his briefcase. In the way he bought her new socks and refused to acknowledge it.

They were something. Something real. Something building. And neither of them wanted to name it yet. But maybe they didn’t have to.

Because Harry wasn’t used to letting people stay.

And she?

She had the key.

And Harry knew he was fucked.

It was raining. Again.

Not the romantic kind, either. Not the bullshit people wrote about in novels. This was relentless New York rain. Cold, gray, street-soaking, ankle-wrecking rain. The kind that blurred the skyline and made everything feel too still and too loud at the same time.

His office windows, floor-to-ceiling and usually pristine, were streaked with water. He could barely see the city through them. Which was probably for the best. Because if he could see the Lower East Side right now, he might actually snap and send a helicopter.

He hadn’t heard from her since she’d texted around 9 p.m., after he dropped her off.

You: Frances is being dramatic tonight 🙄

That was it. No follow-up. No photo. Not even a meme. Just that. And now it was past 1 a.m.

Harry leaned back in his chair, phone resting facedown on the edge of his desk, his thumb twitching with the impulse to check it again.

He didn’t. He wouldn’t. He already had. Fifteen times.

“Frances,” he muttered under his breath, jaw tightening.

Across the room, Danny—half-asleep on the leather couch, legs kicked up on the coffee table like he owned the place—perked up.

“What?”

Harry didn’t look at him. Just ran a hand through his hair, glaring at the window like it had personally offended him.

“She texted me earlier. Said Frances was being dramatic.”

Danny blinked. Then grinned. “Ooooh.”

Harry sighed. “Don’t.”

“Do you know who Frances is?”

“I assume…someone in her building?” Harry said, like it was obvious. Like that didn’t already make his throat itch with jealousy.

Danny sat up, cracking his neck. “You assume Frances is a neighbor?”

“Yes.”

“You sure Frances isn’t her ex?”

Harry froze. Very still.

Danny raised a brow, voice far too casual. “I mean. Sounds like something you'd say about someone you know well. Like an ex.”

“Don’t,” Harry warned again, but it was too late. The image was there now.

Frances. Laughing on her couch. Feet on her coffee table. Touching things that didn’t belong to him. Sleeping in a bed that did.

Harry’s jaw ticked.

“Maybe she’s a woman,” he said, but it didn’t land. Not when the image had already nested behind his eyes. Not when the silence that followed made him feel like a kicked dog.

Danny yawned, stretching. “Well, if she comes back tomorrow limping, we’ll know.”

Harry looked up so fast the pen in his hand dropped.

Danny cackled.

“Kidding.”

“Get out.”

Danny didn’t. He just flopped back down, arms behind his head. “You’re unwell.”

Harry didn’t argue. Because he was. He was so far gone he could feel it in the base of his spine. He’d sent the whole team home hours ago—mid-pitch.

He couldn’t focus. Couldn’t finish the goddamn Italy paperwork. The Italy contract—the Italy contract—was sitting open in front of him. A landmark deal.

A decade in the making. Acquisition of a sustainable architecture firm based out of Florence. Tens of millions. Possibly more, if the valuation shifted after Q2.

He was supposed to fly out on Thursday. There was a dinner with the lead architect, a walking tour of the property grounds, some presentation on green luxury Harry couldn’t pretend to care about.

They’d blocked out four days. Harry had almost signed it. Almost. But he couldn’t stop thinking about her in Italy.

He wanted her in a sundress and sunglasses she bought at a corner shop. He wanted to take her to restaurants where no one knew who he was—where they’d drink wine that tasted like cherries and share plates of pasta so good she’d groan with her mouth full.

He wanted to watch her tan—really tan—on a hotel balcony in nothing but one of his button-downs and sunscreen.

He wanted her bare legs kicked up on the dashboard of a rented car while he drove with the windows down and her hand on his thigh. He wanted her bored at a vineyard tour.

Wanted her to lean in and whisper something filthy in his ear just to see if he’d blush.

He wanted to fuck her in a hotel shower with the windows open, the Tuscan hills in the distance and her moaning into his neck like it was a prayer.

He wanted to fall asleep with her in a bed that smelled like citrus and sex, the sound of her breathing syncing with the rain on the villa roof.

He wanted to live with her. Just for a week. Just enough to make it real. To prove it wasn’t some New York fantasy.

Danny cleared his throat.

“You’re still here.”

Harry didn’t look up. “So are you.”

“Because I’m trying to get you to finish the Florence paperwork.”

“I will.”

“Tomorrow?”

“Maybe.”

Danny stared at him. “You’re going to see her, aren’t you.”

Harry didn’t answer. He stood.

“Jesus,” Danny muttered, grabbing his jacket. “You’re in love.”

Harry grabbed his own coat. “Drop me off.”

Danny blinked. “It’s 1 a.m.”

“I know where she lives.”

Danny didn’t argue. He just followed. They always got in separate cars. Harry always took the backseat. But tonight, he climbed into the passenger seat of Danny's Mercedes.

Danny glanced over. “You nervous?”

Harry didn’t answer. Didn’t need to. The rain kept coming down. The roads were slick. The city lights blurry. But when they pulled onto her street, Harry felt it—

That low thrum in his chest. That ache. Because he knew this block. Knew it like a scar. She wasn’t just a girl he saw now. She was a rhythm in his life. A piece of the architecture.

Danny pulled up to the curb. Parked. Then turned, lips twitching.

“Good luck,” he said. “Maybe Frances wore her out.”

Harry shot him a look that could’ve killed. Danny just sent him a smirk. And Harry stepped out into the rain.

The air was sharp with that metallic wetness unique to New York downpours. Streetlights flickered against puddles. A pizza box floated past the curb like a makeshift raft.

And still—Harry didn’t rush. He took his time walking.

Her street in Lower East Side, uneven pavement, corners that smelled like cigarettes and Chinatown egg rolls—was familiar now.

He knew the rhythm of her block. He knew that the laundromat two doors down always had one broken dryer. He knew which deli overcharged for grapes.

And he knew the exact slab of sidewalk where she told him she once tripped while texting him. It was cracked slightly, a jagged edge of concrete peeking up like a warning. She’d texted him from the pavement, too.

You: You made me fall, jackass. I was smiling too hard.

That text had stayed in his phone longer than it should have.

He passed the bodega next. The one she claimed had the best dried mangoes in the city. She’d once spent thirty minutes ranting about the owner’s theories on aliens and glitter. Yes glitter.

Now Harry found himself slowing in front of the doors. Peering in. Wondering if the guy knew her name. Wondering if he knew about him.

By the time he reached her building, his shoulders were soaked. His shirt clung to his chest, collar sticking. His suit jacket was definitely ruined. But he didn’t care. He needed to see her. He hit the buzzer.

Once.

Twice.

A third time.

Nothing.

Then—finally—crackled static.

“…Hello?” Her voice was sleepy.

“It’s me.”

A pause. Then—

“Harry?”

His jaw clenched. “Yes.”

More static. Then a muffled, rustling sound. “It’s—uh—4C. Come up.”

The buzzer rang. The door clicked. He took the stairs. She didn’t have an elevator. Of course she didn’t.

By the time he reached her floor, his heart was hammering for no reason. The hallway smelled like weed and soup dumplings. The walls were covered in scuff marks, and someone had drawn a crooked heart on one of the exit signs.

4C had a little sticker on the door. A cartoon ghost holding a margarita. He stared at it for a beat. Then knocked.

She opened the door in one of his shirts—his black one, faded from too many washes—hanging off one shoulder, loose like a dress. Her legs were bare except for cotton boxers with tiny strawberries on them. Her hair was pulled up messily. She looked flushed. And sleepy. And worried.

“You’re soaked,” she said immediately, pulling him inside by the lapel of his jacket. “Jesus, Harry.”

Her hands were already working to unbutton his coat. “Why didn’t you text? I thought you were working.”

“I couldn’t focus,” he said, watching her.

“You’re going to get sick,” she muttered, peeling the jacket off his shoulders, tugging at the sleeves. “Come here—hold still—”

He let her work, silent. She was warm hands and furrowed brows and concern in motion.

Once the jacket was off, she yanked at his tie. “This too.”

He raised a brow. “Undressing me already?”

“You showed up looking like the stock market,” she muttered, rolling her eyes.

He smirked.

She disappeared for a second, then tossed him a pair of old gray sweatpants.

He caught them. Eyebrow raised. “You keep men’s sweats on hand?”

She groaned. “They’re Maya’s ex’s. Don’t get excited.”

He stepped into the living room fully now. And froze. Because for the first time, he was seeing where she lived.

Where she lived when she wasn’t with him.

The apartment was small. Lived in. Cluttered—but in a way that made it feel warm, not chaotic. Like every single thing inside of it had a story.

The living room was split between two mismatched couches—one thrifted velvet, the other beige corduroy with a sag in the middle. There were throw blankets in every texture imaginable—fleece, knit, faux fur.

The coffee table was covered in books, old takeout menus, half burnt candles in jars labeled sandalwood, fig, vanilla.

The walls were cluttered with art—some of it clearly Maya’s, some vintage posters, The Virgin Suicides, Before Sunrise, Blade Runner, Patti Smith’s Horses album, and a random framed photo of a pigeon wearing sunglasses.

The fridge in the kitchen was a museum of magnets and notes. There was even a shopping list written in red marker on the fridge door. It read

oat milk

cheez-its

limes

incense

Maya’s weird vegan yogurt

tampons

trash bags

candles (sex ones, not funeral ones)

wine

frozen waffles

cat food

Harry blinked at the last item.

“You have a cat?”

She paused. “...Yes?”

His jaw tensed. “Frances?”

She frowned. “What?”

He turned to her, eyes sharp. “You said Frances is being dramatic tonight.”

She blinked. Then laughed. Actually laughed. And pointed behind him.

Harry turned. And saw a large, grumpy-looking tabby cat perched on the windowsill. Staring at him with narrowed eyes like it knew he’d imagined something inappropriate.

“That’s Frances,” she said, snorting. “She’s named after Frances McDormand. She’s 16 and hates everything exept my heating pad.”

Harry stared at the cat. Then back at her. Then at the cat again.

“You thought Frances was a man?” she said, grinning.

“I thought Frances was your ex.”

She covered her mouth to keep from laughing louder. “You showed up in the rain to confront me about an elderly cat?”

Harry sighed, rubbing a hand down his face. “Shut up.”

She kissed his cheek. “You’re a mess.”

He looked around again. At her world. At the chipped mugs on the dish rack—each one different. One said World’s Okayest Bartender, another had a faded drawing of a walrus. The scarf hanging from a coat hook was purple velvet, half-unraveled at one end.

There were keys on a lanyard that read BOSTON UNIVERSITY, and a half-full tote bag with a produce sticker still stuck to the bottom corner.

The shelf by the entryway overflowed with mail, cracked sunglasses, a tiny hand-painted dish full of bobby pins, and a single, slightly burnt birthday candle shoved into a chunk of ceramic shaped like a frog. The coffee table had three coasters but none of them matched. There were stickers slapped across the side of the fridge—Protect Roe, Biden Harris 2020, Elvis is Alive and So Am I.

In the bathroom, he passed by the open door and caught the faint scent of her perfume mixed with rosewater toner and humidity. The mirror had streaks of lipstick.

Tampons sat on the counter beside an open tin of bobby pins. Dry shampoo. A chipped compact. An old mascara wand lying next to her makeup bag that looked like it had seen war. A pack of pink razors balanced on the edge of the sink like it might leap to freedom any minute.

The hallway wall had a row of hooks, all cluttered—coats, purses, canvas totes, one very fluffy pink bathrobe, and what looked like a dog leash even though she didn’t own a dog. The floor creaked in the middle.

And her bedroom—

Her bedroom was even more intimate. Twinkly lights looped around the ceiling like a soft halo. One strand flickered near the corner. The walls were covered—Cléo from 5 to 7, Velvet Underground, a retro ballet poster, another that read Prince's Purple Rain.

Dried lavender hung upside down beside a Polaroid photo strip taped above her dresser mirror. The dresser was cluttered with rings in tiny dishes, perfume bottles in varying levels of emptiness, tangled necklaces, and an open book of poetry facedown like she’d been reading and got distracted halfway through.

The bed wasn’t made. Worn sheets. Muted floral comforter rumpled down to the foot. A stuffed lamb with one ear bent sat on the pillow beside a pile of soft, mismatched throw blankets. There was a hoodie—his—draped over the headboard.

Her nightstand was pure chaos. A cracked phone charger plugged into an extension cord wrapped in colorful washing tape. A half-eaten cookie. Lip balm. A lighter. A box of allergy medicine. A stack of receipts, one with eggs, incense, LaCroix, cat treats, cherry cough drops scribbled on the back. An empty glass, a hair clip, and a worn paperback with the corner folded as a bookmark—The Secret History.

There was an incense holder shaped like a tiny hand. And beside that, a photo of her and a little girl in matching sunglasses, both sticking out their tongues. It was soft. Lived-in. Completely her.

And absolutely the opposite of Lucy’s old apartment. Lucy’s world had been cold glass vases with eucalyptus branches, arranged like she Googled elegant minimalism. White couches no one could sit on. Art that cost thousands but said nothing. A color-coded closet and a bathroom that looked like a Glossier pop-up—sterile, spotless, unloved.

This? This was chaos and warmth and late night pizza crumbs and nail polish spilled on tile. This was home.

And for reasons Harry couldn’t articulate—didn’t dare admit even to himself—he wanted to be a part of it. Even if it scared the hell out of him.

“I didn’t mean to wake you,” he said finally.

She wrapped her arms around his waist. “You didn’t. I mean, you did. But I’m glad.”

He buried his nose in her hair, breathing her in. Lavender shampoo. Something floral. Her. Frances meowed loudly, interrupting the moment.

She pulled back. “She wants food. Hold on.”

As she went into the kitchen, Harry stood in the middle of her room, still dripping slightly, holding borrowed sweatpants in one hand and the ghost of something warmer than he knew what to do with in the other.

He was fucked. So, so fucked. And he didn’t want to leave. So that night Harry stayed. The rain hadn’t let up.

It fell in steady sheets against her bedroom window—so constant it was starting to sound like static. Or breath. Or the thud of a heartbeat pressed against his ear.

She was in boxers and one of his shirts.

He was in borrowed sweatpants from a man who didn’t matter.

And they were brushing their teeth together in a bathroom that smelled like rosewater and lavender. She bumped into him twice. Once on purpose. Once not. He didn’t care.

He’d forgotten what this felt like. Being near someone. Really near.

Not polished. Not curated. Not part of some long game. Just… here. In a too small bathroom. In her world. She leaned into the mirror to swipe a lip mask on her lips.

He watched her. Like she was art.

When she turned, he was still staring.

“What,” she asked, mouth soft.

“Nothing,” he said, voice lower than he meant. “I just like looking at... you.”

They left the light on. Left the door cracked. The apartment was dark except for that glow and the warm flicker of the TV.

Her bed wasn’t big. A full, maybe. But it held them both. Barely.

She threw the comforter over them, then curled on her side, one hand tucked beneath her cheek. Her eyes were heavy, but she wasn’t ready to sleep. He shifted beside her, body pressed along the curve of hers. Not touching yet. Just close enough that the space between them buzzed.

And then she clicked on the remote. The TV was an old one—boxy, with a DVD player built into the side. It hummed softly as the disc spun.

He blinked. “Is that Sex and the City?”

She nodded. “Season four.”

He glanced down at her, a smile tugging at his mouth. “You have the DVDs?”

“I’m not a heathen.”

He huffed a quiet laugh. “I haven’t seen a DVD player in a decade.”

She shrugged. “You’re missing out.”

The episode began. Carrie was monologuing. Samantha was best dressed. Charlotte was earnestly hopeful. Miranda was eating Chinese food in bed.

She rested her head on his chest, her hand splayed over his ribs. He felt it everywhere. The rain thudded gently on the window. Frances padded into the room and began eating delicately from her tiny floral bowl in the corner.

Harry reached up and tucked a piece of her hair behind her ear. “She always eats this late?”

“She’s nocturnal. Like me.”

He hummed. “You’re soft at night.”

She smiled against his skin. “You’re not.”

“No,” he agreed, brushing her arm with his fingers. “But I want to be.”

She turned to look at him. “Why?”

“Because you are.”

She didn’t answer. She didn’t have to.

Her body shifted, draping over his. One leg between his. One hand under his shirt, splayed against his stomach. She wasn’t trying to start anything. She just wanted to feel him.

And Harry? He let her.

He rested his cheek against the top of her head. Closed his eyes. Let the scent of her hair—lavender and something distinctly her—anchor him.

He wanted to tell her right then. About Italy. About the dinner. The villa. The way he imagined her laughing while wine sloshed in her glass. The way he pictured her sunburnt and barefoot, dancing in a linen dress she’d haggled for at a street market.

He wanted to tell her he’d already asked Danny to add a plus one. Wanted to beg her to come. To wake up with him somewhere coastal and quiet, where he could watch her dip into cold water and wrap herself in a towel and ask him what they were going to eat next.

But instead—

He pressed a kiss to her forehead. Soft. Careful.

She sighed.

“Your heartbeat’s fast,” she murmured.

“You’re laying on my chest,” he said. “Of course it is.”

She smiled. “Mine too.”

Frances jumped up onto the bed and circled twice before curling against the back of Harry’s legs. Her fur was soft. Her breathing slow.

The rain pressed harder against the windows. The radiator clinked. The light from the TV flickered over the posters on the wall.

Onscreen, Carrie was questioning whether men were biologically capable of monogamy.

Harry whispered, “Jesus.”

She snorted. “Don’t take it personally.”

“I take everything personally.”

Her hand slid over his stomach again. A slow drag of her fingers, like she could calm something inside him. And maybe she did.

Because that night—

Harry Castillo slept in a tiny bed with a woman who wore his clothes and brushed her teeth with glitter-handled toothbrushes. He slept through the storm. He slept through Carrie’s voice.

He slept through the ache of every part of him that used to hurt.

Because in her world—this small, messy, beautiful world—he didn’t have to be the version of himself that scared people. He just had to be hers. And that was enough.

The morning soon came and of course he woke up first. 

She was still asleep when Harry stirred. Pressed against his chest like she belonged there.

Which—by now—maybe she did.

The light coming in through the bedroom window was soft and overcast, the kind of gray that made you want to stay under the covers forever. The rain had stopped sometime in the night, but the air still smelled like it—clean, cool, quiet.

Harry was warm. Ridiculously warm.

Frances was curled up on his feet again, the cat’s soft purring vibrating faintly against his ankle.

And her—

She was wrapped around him. One leg tossed over his hip. One hand curled beneath his shirt—her shirt—she decided to throw on him last minute before bed. Face pressed to his neck, breath ghosting over his pulse.

He hadn’t moved for hours. Didn’t want to. The bed was small, but it had held them both. Just barely. There was something absurdly perfect about that. About how they fit.

He let his eyes drift open, blinking up at the ceiling plastered with glow in the dark stars. He hadn’t noticed them last night. She’d stuck them up there, probably years ago, probably drunk, maybe high. They weren’t aligned properly—some clustered too close, others spread out too wide—but it made Harry smile.

It was so her.

Then—

The door creaked.

His eyes shot to it, his arm tightening around her instinctively. And there she was.

Maya.

In sweats, hoodie up, a tote bag slung over one shoulder and half a bagel in her mouth. She froze in the doorway, chewing slowly as she saw them both.

Harry blinked. She blinked back.

And then—

She smiled.

“Morning,” she said, voice casual, still chewing. “I got bagels.”

His brows lifted. “Maya?”

“Mmhm.” She stepped fully into the room, walked past the bed like this wasn’t completely surreal, and set a brown paper bag on the desk. “One’s egg and cheese, one’s veggie, one’s plain. I got a discount so I went wild. You're not vegan, right?”

“I’m not.” 

Maya nodded. “Cool.”

He opened his mouth to respond but then she stirred beside him.

She blinked. Then groaned. “Maya?”

“Hey, you.” Maya turned, already backing out. “Don’t get up. I’m leaving again. Nate broke one of the frames while carrying it up the stairs and I have to go reconstruct it before the opening or I’ll die. Eat your bagel.”

“Maya—”

“Love you, mean it.”

And then she was gone.

The door clicked shut behind her. Harry turned slowly. 

She rubbed her eyes. “That’s Maya.”

“She seems…unfazed.”

“She walked in on me giving my high school boyfriend a blowjob in this same bed,” she mumbled. “This is practically G-rated.”

Harry choked. “Jesus Christ.”

She grinned, finally stretching. “Sorry.”

He shook his head, still blinking at the door. “She left you a bagel.”

“She’s thoughtful like that.”

They sat in silence for a moment. The air was warm. The room smelled like her shampoo and toasted everything bagels.

She sat up, reaching for the bag. “You want half?”

“I want the whole thing,” he muttered, watching the way her sleep shirt—his shirt—slipped off her shoulder as she handed it to him.

She raised a brow. “Of the bagel or me?”

Harry took a slow bite of the sandwich, chewed, and swallowed before answering.

“Yes.”

She laughed—quiet and groggy—and curled back into the blankets beside him while he finished eating.

The disc in her old TV menu-looped quietly in the background. And that was when Harry realized—

He didn’t want to leave. Not this apartment. Not her bed. Not this mess of a morning that felt like something he hadn’t let himself hope for. He looked down at her, at the way she was nibbling the corner of a veggie bagel and letting cream cheese smear across her knuckle without noticing.

And that was it. That was the moment. He didn’t plan it. Didn’t rehearse. Didn’t run it through his head a hundred times the way he usually did with big decisions. Because this wasn’t business.

This was her.

“Come to Italy with me.”

She blinked. Mid-bite. Mid-smear of cream cheese.

“What?”

He set his half-finished bagel on the napkin beside them.

“I want you to come to Italy with me,” he said again, softer now. “I leave in three days.”

Her lips parted slightly, eyes searching his face like she was trying to find the joke. But there wasn’t one. Harry was deadly serious.

She swallowed. “You’re inviting me on a trip. To Italy.”

“It’s not a trip,” he said. “It’s a…thing. For work. Big contract. Private villa, vineyard dinner, all that bullshit. I need to be there to finalize some logistics.”

She blinked again.

“You want me to tag along to a work trip in another country?”

“I want you to be there.”

A pause.

“I want to see you sunkissed,” he murmured, voice dipping. “I want to watch you eat pasta with your fingers and lick sauce off your wrist. I want to soak with you in some overpriced marble tub with your legs wrapped around me, pretending we’re not real people.”

Her breath caught.

“I want you to hang off my arm and point at things in little shops and tell me they’re ugly and buy them anyway. I want you to fall asleep in my lap on a train. I want to hear what you sound like in another language.”

She didn’t speak.

Just stared at him.

“And yes,” he added, reaching out to brush a smudge of cream cheese from the corner of her mouth. “I want you there at the dinner. I want you in a dress with your hair up and that little necklace you always wear. I want to introduce you as someone who makes the rest of this shit feel worth it.”

She swallowed hard. Tried to laugh. Failed.

“You’re really pulling out the big guns, huh?”

He nodded. “I’m old. I don’t have time for subtlety.”

She stared at him for a long moment.

Then said, “Frances can’t come.”

He blinked. “The cat?”

“She’s bad on planes.”

He laughed—genuine and warm—and reached for her hand beneath the sheets.

“You don't need to pay for a flight,” he said. “I have a jet. I want you there.”

She looked down at their hands. His thumb tracing slow circles against her knuckles.

“Three days?”

He nodded.

“Do I have to wear heels?”

“Only if you want to kill me.”

She smiled. Bit her lip. Thought.

“Okay.”

Harry’s heart thudded in his chest.

“Okay?”

She nodded again, smaller this time. “Okay. I’ll come to Italy with you, old man.”

He didn’t grin. Didn’t smirk. He just leaned forward and kissed her hand. Soft. Simple. Grateful.

Frances leapt up onto the bed, meowing loudly.

“Guess she wants to come too,” she said, scratching behind the cat’s ears.

“She’s not allowed.”

“She’ll sue.”

“She can try.”

They laid back down—Harry still half-clothed, her shirt riding up at the hem—and just breathed for a moment. Rain tapped lightly against the windows again. The smell of warm bagels lingered in the air.

And Harry Castillo? For the first time in years, he wasn’t thinking about deadlines or numbers or failing. He was thinking about sunlit train rides. About her in linen. About the taste of wine off her mouth in a country that didn’t know who they were.

He was thinking about falling in love.

And maybe—

Just maybe—

She was too.

They didn’t move for a while after that. Just laid there in the warmth of her small, chaotic bedroom—bagel crumbs on the sheets, Frances purring between them, her bare leg draped over his thigh like it belonged there.

Eventually though, real life crept back in. It started with a stretch. Then a yawn.

Then her mumbling, “I should shower.”

To which Harry responded, “I’ll die if you move right now.”

But she did. Of course she did.

She slipped out of bed with that effortless, half-asleep grace, hair tangled, his shirt riding up over her thighs. She padded barefoot across the hardwood and vanished into the bathroom without another word.

Harry stayed in bed for another five minutes. Just… thinking. About Italy. About her. About the fact that she said yes. Then—he got up. Went to the kitchen to get water. That’s when he opened her fridge.

And paused.

It wasn’t empty, exactly.

Jars of random sauces. A half-used block of feta. Mismatched Tupperware with exactly two bites of leftovers. A dozen eggs, one cracked. A bag of spinach that looked like it had been forgotten in a war zone. Five different types of hot sauce. A single mini vodka.

There were ingredients. But no actual food.

And Harry?

Harry had spent the last decade with a private chef and a housekeeper. His pantry looked like an organic catalog.

This? This was something else.

She padded back into the kitchen, hair damp, teeth brushed, pulling on a pair of sweatpants. “What?”

He turned from the fridge, holding up a sad little container of pickled onions. “This is your dinner?”

She shrugged, unbothered. “Sometimes I make pasta.”

“Out of hot sauce and… half a lemon?”

“Adds flavor.”

Harry looked at her like she was a war orphan. She grinned.

He shut the fridge. “We’re going to the store.”

“Harry—”

“I’m not letting you live like this.”

She leaned against the counter, playful. “You trying to domesticate me?”

He walked past her, smacked a kiss on her temple, and muttered, “Put on real shoes.”

They stopped at his penthouse first.

“I’m not going to the store in a suit,” he explained as they stepped off the elevator.

She looked him up and down. He had put his suit back on after she left it hanging up to dry overnight.

“You look like you’re about to close on a skyscraper.”

He loosened his collar. “Exactly. I want to buy produce, not acquire a hedge fund.”

She made herself comfortable while he changed. Shoes off. Feet up. Sitting sideways on his pristine leather couch with Frances curled beside her in her tote bag like a queen.

When Harry emerged again, everything shifted. He was in a navy fleece. Dark jeans. Clean sneakers. His hair was pushed back carelessly, and he looked—God, he looked like a boyfriend. Like a rich, brooding, ridiculously hot boyfriend who didn’t like other men looking at his girl.

Which he proved five minutes later.

The market was close. Not some chaotic Manhattan chain store.

This place was a little upscale. A little overpriced. The kind with hand-written chalk signs and fancy cheese displays and a barista in the corner who actually knew what cortado meant.

He parked on the street and opened the door for her.

She rolled her eyes. “You don’t have to do that.”

“I know.”

“So why do you?”

“Because if I don’t, some other asshole will.”

She blinked then laughed. “Jesus.”

Harry took her hand as they walked inside.

Casual. Like it was just a thing he did. But when two guys standing near the tomato stand turned to stare at her—eyes lingering a second too long—Harry’s entire body tensed.

She didn’t notice. But he did. Every glance. Every flick of attention. Every half-smirk and second look.

It wasn’t just because she was beautiful. It was the way she walked. The way she moved. The way she laughed when she picked up a can of whipped cream and shook it at him.

“You ever had this on strawberries?”

He blinked. “...No.”

She grinned. “Tragic.”

He didn’t respond. Just added two pints of strawberries and the whipped cream to their basket. She pushed the cart. He added things quietly as they passed them.

Olive oil. Sea salt. Fancy cereal she probably didn’t even like but the box looked pretty. Pasta made by a brand with an unpronounceable name. Parmesan wrapped in wax paper. Fresh basil.

He let her pick the bread. Watched her fingers dance over the loaves before finally choosing one with sesame seeds. He’d never cared what bread tasted like before. But now?

He wanted to watch her butter that slice and eat it on his couch with her knees tucked under her, wearing one of his shirts again.

They turned down the wine aisle.

She held up a bottle. “This one?”

He checked the label. “You like reds?”

“I like this red.”

“That’s not an answer.”

“It’s twenty-one dollars.”

Harry raised a brow. “That’s not wine. That’s regret in a bottle.”

She stuck her tongue out at him and added it to the cart anyway.

He followed behind her, watching the way her fingers curled over the cart handle, the way she tapped her nails when she was thinking.

A guy walked past. Looked directly at her ass.

Harry moved instantly—slipped an arm around her waist and kissed her cheek like it was nothing.

The guy looked away. Quickly.

She leaned in, amused. “Was that possessive or horny?”

“Yes,” Harry murmured.

At checkout, she pulled out her wallet. Harry didn’t even blink. Just slid his card into the reader before she could open it.

“Harry—”

“You’re heading to a whole other county with me.”

“So?”

“So let me buy you fucking groceries.”

She sighed. “You’re annoying.”

“You love it.”

She didn’t respond.

Just kissed his jaw and whispered, “Thank you.”

They carried the bags back to the car, her arms full, the air still damp from the rain.

Frances meowed softly from her tote, swatting at the handle of the bread bag.

“Frances, if you break my focaccia, you’re not going to Italy.”

“She’s not going to Italy.”

“She’s gonna file a complaint.”

“She’s gonna stay with Maya.”

They both laughed.

Back at her place, they unpacked side by side. She tossed him a bag of spinach.

He raised a brow. “You’re gonna use this?”

“Maybe.”

“Uh huh.”

“Don’t judge me.”

“I am judging you.”

She elbowed him.

He stole a piece of her cheese.

Frances curled up on the window sill.

The kitchen smelled like basil and citrus and something that could have been the beginning of a life.

Harry leaned back against the counter. Watched her move. Watched the way her fingers brushed crumbs off the cutting board.

And he thought—

This. This was what he’d been missing. Not the girl. Not just her body. But the mundanity of it.

The way she stood barefoot while she put the yogurt in the fridge. The way she hummed to herself while sorting the pantry. The way her hand brushed his like it meant nothing—and everything.

He couldn’t remember what it was like not to want this. And maybe he didn’t want to.

It was the day before they left for Italy.

And Harry was folding her socks.

That alone would’ve been enough to send Danny into early retirement if he’d seen it.

Moments like this, when Harry Castillo, billionaire, former tabloid cryptid, was sitting on a floor of a cramped Lower East Side apartment, cross-legged, carefully rolling tiny pairs of white ankle socks into little cotton donuts and lining them up in the corner of a borrowed suitcase in her bedroom—made her feel happy.

So fucking happy.

“You’re doing it wrong,” she mumbled from the bed, half-asleep, cheek pressed into the duvet.

“No, I’m not.”

“You’re rolling them like they’re cigars.”

“They’re supposed to be tight.”

“They’ll stretch out.”

Harry didn’t look up. “They’re socks.”

“Yeah, and you’re acting like you’re assembling high-grade explosives.”

He smirked faintly, tucking another rolled pair into the suitcase. “I take packing seriously.”

She opened one eye. “You once told me you haven’t packed your own bag in five years.”

“That was before you made me human again.”

She blinked. He kept rolling socks. Like he hadn’t just said the most quietly devastating thing of all time.

Packing had taken hours.

Partly because she kept getting distracted and forgetting what she’d already folded.

Partly because Harry had brought over a suitcase from his place—one of those sleek matte black things with TSA locks and wheels that didn’t squeak—and she kept insisting it looked like a tiny armored vehicle.

“I can’t believe I’m borrowing your suitcase,” she’d muttered earlier that day, trying to cram a bathing suit and two sundresses into it at once.

“You didn’t have one.”

“I have a duffel bag.”

Harry looked horrified. “That’s not a suitcase. That’s a threat.”

She threw a sock at him.

He ducked, grinning.

She hadn’t traveled internationally in years. Her passport was expired until recently—she only renewed it because Maya begged her to.

The last stamp it had? Toronto. Age 20. Two broke girls, a shared Airbnb, one near-death experience on a rented bike, and a night of crying on a beach with champagne from CVS.

Now she was going to Italy.

With Harry fucking Castillo. On his private jet.

And somehow, he still got excited watching her zip up a suitcase.

They barely slept the night before the flight. Too many nerves. Too many lists.

She kept checking her phone to make sure her passport was actually in her bag.

Harry watched her, amused. Said nothing.

Instead, he busied himself in her kitchen, making tea they didn’t drink and cutting fruit they didn’t eat.

He couldn’t sit still.

Not because of the trip.

Because of the envelope.

It had come two days ago.

A thin ivory card tucked inside pale pink stationary, his name written in looping gold script across the front

Mr. Harry Castillo + Guest You are cordially invited to the wedding of Lucy & John  Saturday, June 8th, 2025 2:30 PM Chatham Bars Inn Cape Cod, Massachusetts

There was a note scribbled at the bottom in faint pen.

In Lucy's writing. 

No pressure if you can’t come. We’d still love to see you.

Harry had stared at it for ten full minutes before tucking it under a file on his desk and pretending it hadn’t arrived.

He hadn’t told her.

Not because he was hiding anything. Not really. But because he didn’t want to bring Lucy into this. Into them.

Not when she was standing barefoot in his shirt, trying to find her phone charger and muttering about whether three pairs of jeans were “too many.”

Not when she called out, “Did I pack underwear already?” and he responded,

“Twelve pairs.”

Not when she looked at him across the room like he was something safe.

He would tell her eventually. Just…not yet.

The morning of the flight came quietly. It was still dark when the alarm buzzed.

She groaned. “What time is it?”

“2:30.”

“In the morning?”

“You agreed to this.”

“I was in love with you when I agreed. I’ve changed my mind.”

Harry smirked and sat up, sliding a hand through his hair. Frances jumped onto the bed and meowed directly into his face.

“She’s saying don’t leave me,” she mumbled into the pillow.

“She’s saying feed me.”

She rolled over and stared at him. “Do you always look like that when you wake up?”

Harry blinked. “Like what?”

“Like someone just photoshopped exhaustion and sex appeal.”

He threw a pillow at her.

By 3 a.m., Danny was downstairs in the car, already texting.

Danny: I’m not saying we’re late, but we’re late.

Danny: I have coffee. And donuts. And two kinds of Dramamine.

Harry grabbed the suitcase, double-checked her passport, triple-checked the address with Danny, and then took one last look around her apartment.

She was saying goodbye to Frances, promising her the neighbor would stop by and that Maya would be back by sunrise.

Harry just… watched her.

The way she knelt down to scratch behind the cat’s ears.

The way she whispered, “Don’t pee on my rug just to spite me, you little demon.”

He smiled to himself.

The car ride was quiet. Rain tapped against the windows.

She curled up in the back seat with his sweatshirt tucked under her chin. Harry held her hand.

Danny sat in the passenger seat, wisely keeping his mouth shut except to say, “It’s a beautiful jet, by the way. You’re gonna be insufferable about it.”

She looked up sleepily. “Is it big?”

Harry kissed her fingers. “It’s private.”

She grinned. “I feel like a Bond girl.”

The jet was waiting. Sleek. Immaculate. Tucked away on the private runway like something out of a movie.

She blinked when they pulled up. “That’s… ours?”

Harry nodded.

Danny sighed. “Yours. I still fly commercial.”

Inside, the cabin was pristine.

Cream leather seats. Soft lighting. A tiny bar in the corner already stocked with orange juice and sparkling water and espresso pods.

Harry showed her how to buckle the seatbelt. How to adjust the window shade. Where the snacks were.

She laughed. “Are you my flight attendant now?”

“Only on this airline,” he muttered.

Once they took off, she pressed her face to the window, watching the skyline disappear.

He sat beside her, legs stretched out, arm slung over the back of her seat.

Danny popped in once. Dropped off croissants. Said something about Italian cell service and their hotel driver. Then vanished again.

They didn’t talk much. They didn’t need to.

He watched her fall asleep mid-sentence, lips parted slightly, hair tucked under her hoodie.

He didn’t move. Didn’t work. Didn’t check his phone.

Just… stayed beside her.

And for the first time since that ivory envelope arrived—

He didn’t think about Lucy.

Didn’t think about what might’ve been.

Didn’t think about anything but the fact that in a few short hours, they’d land in a city made of light and wine and ancient stone.

And he’d get to see her walk through it.

Get to hear her gasp at things he’d seen a thousand times.

Get to hold her hand while she ate gelato and pointed at pigeons and got overwhelmed in a market stall and accidentally bought a tablecloth because she thought the vendor was complimenting her hair.

He didn’t want anyone else there.

Just her. And maybe that was enough.

Maybe it had always been.

They landed at exactly 5:32 PM local time.

The air was different. Warmer, even in early evening. The light had a honeyed edge to it—soft gold and long shadows draped across the tarmac like something out of a postcard. The jet slowly came to a stop as she blinked blearily at the window, hoodie bunched around her waist, tank top loose and clinging. No bra. 

Harry glanced over at her, the edge of his mouth twitching.

"You’re going to give someone a heart attack the second we step off this plane."

She yawned. "Good. Let them die seeing something beautiful."

He almost smiled.

As soon as the door opened, the energy shifted.

Three black cars waited on the runway. Two assistants in pressed suits stood beside them, flanked by a driver and what looked like a security consultant in a tailored gray jacket. The woman in front stepped forward immediately, beaming like Harry personally discovered electricity.

One sign read: CASTILLO PARTY – VILLA LUMEN.

"Mr. Castillo! Welcome back. We’re honored. Truly."

Harry gave a brief nod, hand resting on the small of her back.

The woman turned to her next. "Mrs. Castillo, we hope the flight was comfortable. We’ve arranged everything at the villa. Please let us know if there’s anything else you need."

She froze. Blinked. But Harry didn’t correct her.

Neither did she.

He just squeezed her hip gently and muttered, "Let them think whatever they want."

The drive was smooth, luxurious, absurd.

The countryside blurred past—green vineyards, cypress trees, stone walls bathed in sunset. Their driver offered wine and chilled sparkling water in crystal-cut glasses. The seats reclined. The windows were tinted so deeply she could’ve fallen asleep again without anyone noticing.

But she stayed awake. Watching Harry.

Watching the way he relaxed by degrees, slowly, as the city disappeared behind them.

When they pulled up to the villa, she nearly forgot how to speak.

It was unreal.

Terracotta walls. Ivy-covered balconies. Lavender blooming along the path leading up to the entrance. White roses climbing up the columns. A view that stretched over the hills for what looked like miles.

Inside, everything smelled like lemon and clean linen. Marble floors, arched windows, a winding staircase made of stone.

Their hosts didn’t linger.

Just offered soft words, a bow, and a smile before vanishing with the promise, “Dinner will be served at eight. You are encouraged to rest until then.”

She just stared, slowly spinning in a circle, looking at every detail of the place.

"They put us in the west wing," Harry muttered, fingers lightly brushing her back as they were led upstairs.

"We have wings now?"

He looked at her. "We have whatever the fuck we want."

The bedroom made her stop walking.

A carved wooden bed stood in the middle, sheets white and impossibly soft. The balcony doors were open, a breeze dancing in. Beyond them—vineyards. Hills. A sky slowly turning the color of ripe apricots. 

There were flowers on the nightstand.

A bottle of wine already uncorked.

Macarons in a glass bowl.

She lets out a sigh, closing her eyes as she makes her way out onto the balcony. 

"Is this a honeymoon suite?" she whispered.

Harry didn’t answer.

He stepped behind her instead. Hands on her waist. Lips grazing her neck.

"Come here."

She turned in his arms, breath catching. His eyes were darker than usual, jaw tight. There was something restless behind it. Something feral.

"You’re quiet," she murmured.

He studied her face. His hands slid under her tank top.

"You smell like a fucking dream."

She arched a brow. "That’s not an answer."

"I haven’t touched you in days."

Her stomach clenched.

"I noticed."

He kissed her.

Hard.

Like he was angry at himself for waiting. Like he’d been hungry for weeks. Like her mouth was the only thing that could make him human again.

Her back hit the stone and he lifted her onto the bench, hands gripping her thighs, dragging her tank top down, mouth never leaving hers. She gasped when the cold air hit her chest—bare, sensitive—and he groaned deep in his throat.

"Fuck," he muttered, pulling back to look at her. His eyes were locked on her breasts, his thumbs brushing over them like he was memorizing. "You’re so fucking pretty. You don’t even know."

She bit her lip. "Then show me."

And he did.

He kissed down her throat, down the center of her chest, sucking, licking, dragging his teeth along soft skin until she was squirming. Until her thighs squeezed around his hips. Until she said his name like it meant something.

Then—

He dropped to his knees.

Right there.

On the balcony.

The breeze blew gently around them, the smell of lavender and wine in the air. Her tank top was shoved up, her shorts already pushed down her thighs. She slowly slid down the bench.

And Harry looked up at her like she was something sacred.

"Keep your eyes on me."

She did.

She watched him lick a stripe up her slit, slow and deliberate, like he was tasting something rare. She cried out, legs shaking, hands grasping for the stone railing behind her.

He groaned again. "You taste like everything I’ve ever wanted."

His tongue was relentless—circling, flicking, sucking. His grip on her thighs was bruising, grounding her, holding her open like he couldn’t get enough.

She tried to speak. Failed.

He slid two fingers inside her—slow at first, curling perfectly—then fast, then deeper, fucking her open while his mouth devoured her.

"You gonna come for me, baby?"

She whimpered.

He sucked harder.

"Say my name."

She did.

Over and over.

Until she shattered.

Until her legs gave out and he had to catch her.

He stood, scooping her up like she weighed nothing, carrying her to the bed and laying her down gently.

Then he kissed her again—messy, hungry, licking her taste off his lips and moaning like he was drunk.

"I can’t stop," he muttered. "You do something to me. You ruin me."

She pulled at his shirt. He let her.

Let her undress him like she owned him.

And when he pushed inside her, slow and deep and all at once—

It wasn’t just fucking.

It was worship.

It was raw, reverent, almost painful in its intensity. He braced one hand against the mattress and the other curled around the back of her neck, holding her gaze like he couldn’t bear to look away. Like he needed to see every twitch of her mouth, every blink, every gasp that left her lips as he thrust into her again and again, steady and deep and so achingly deliberate.

She breathed his name like a prayer, fingers tangled in his hair, lips parted with pleasure. Her body arched to meet every movement, desperate to be closer, to swallow him whole.

Harry moved like he was etching something permanent into her—like he wanted to mark her from the inside. His mouth brushed her cheek, her jaw, her lips between every breathless exhale.

"You feel like heaven," he rasped. "You feel like mine."

She whimpered at that—at the way he said it like a truth carved into stone.

He kissed her again. Slower this time. Tongue teasing her mouth open as his hips rolled in a rhythm that was almost cruel in how good it felt. Like he knew exactly how to undo her.

One of her hands slipped down, tracing over his side, his back, clutching at him as if to make sure he stayed there. As if she couldn’t take the chance he’d pull away.

And he didn’t.

He never faltered. Never let her go. Just kept moving—fucking her with care, with need, with that terrifying depth he never shared with anyone else.

She tightened around him, legs trembling, her voice breaking as she said his name, pleaded, begged.

He whispered into her mouth, "I’ve got you. Come for me. Right now. That’s it—fuck—just like that."

Her body arched, then shattered beneath him.

And he followed.

A low groan ripped from his throat as he spilled into her, thrusts faltering, his whole body shaking from the force of it. His forehead pressed to hers. Their breath tangled. Their pulses frantic.

He didn’t move for a long time.

Didn’t say anything.

Just held her.

One hand cupping the side of her face, the other stroking her waist in lazy, absentminded circles.

Eventually, he pulled back just far enough to look at her—eyes heavy, mouth soft, expression unreadable.

Then, almost inaudibly, he whispered, "Thank you."

She blinked. "For what?"

He didn’t answer.

Didn’t need to.

He just kissed her shoulder, slow and reverent, and stayed there.

Outside, the Tuscan night whispered around them—

Soft. Endless. Real.

The air inside the villa was thick with the ghost of everything they’d just done. Her skin still tingled. Her chest rose and fell in slow, steady waves. She was sprawled across the sheets, hair a mess, limbs boneless, skin flushed with afterglow and the faintest imprint of the linen texture pressed into her back.

The room still smelled like sex and sunlight.

Harry was quiet beside her.

Not cold. Not distant.

Just...quiet. Like the kind of silence that comes only after something tectonic. Like he was letting the earth settle. Like something had cracked open and they were both just standing in the new air, breathing it in.

His thumb moved absently along her waist, tracing lazy circles. He was still half-hard, still close, but not demanding more.

Not yet. He just needed to be here. In it. With her.

She rolled over onto her side, tucking her face into the crook of his neck. His skin was warm and smelled like wine and her perfume and faint lavender from the villa sheets. Familiar and new at the same time.

Neither of them said anything for a while.

She let her fingers trail along the curve of his chest, nails faint, almost ticklish. She counted the moles across his sternum. He hummed at that, deep in his throat, then exhaled slowly, one big hand sliding up to rest on the back of her head.

“You’re going to be late,” she mumbled against his collarbone.

“No, I’m not.”

“You have a dinner.”

“I said what I said.”

She laughed quietly. “Harry.”

“I don’t care if we show up looking like we just fucked.”

“We did just fuck.”

“Exactly.”

She nudged his rib with her knee. “You have to shower, old man.”

He groaned. “You’re the reason I’m sweaty.”

“You’re the reason you’re grumpy.”

He cracked one eye open. “You wanna say that again?”

She kissed the corner of his mouth. “Shower. Now.”

Eventually, they moved.

Reluctantly.

Limbs tangled as they rolled off the bed. Her thighs ached. She was sore in the most decadent way. Her body felt loose and tender and entirely his. He offered a hand as she stepped down from the mattress—mock-gentlemanly, fake regal—and she accepted it with a smirk and a dramatic curtsey.

The bathroom was all marble and glass. Golden light spilled in from the balcony, painting the countertops in warm hues. The shower was massive—big enough for two, maybe three. Probably four if they stacked right.

She turned the water on.

He watched her.

Always watching.

When the steam curled around their bodies, she stepped in first. Hot water sluiced down her back, her shoulders, her spine.

She sighed as it hit her skin. A low sound. Almost grateful. Almost reverent.

Harry followed.

No words. Just hands.

Big hands. Careful hands. Hands that had held her like she might vanish, that had gripped her thighs and touched the softest parts of her like they were sacred. Like she was.

He grabbed the soap first.

Rubbed it between his palms, lathered slowly. Then—gently, reverently—dragged his hands over her back.

Her shoulders. Her arms. Her stomach. Her hips. Down to the back of her knees.

She didn’t speak.

Didn’t need to.

He washed her like she was precious. Like she was something ancient and delicate and holy. He kissed the top of her spine. The curve behind her ear. Rinsed her hair with long, slow strokes. Massaged her scalp until she leaned back into him, humming.

She returned the favor.

Lathered his chest. His arms. Dragged the soap down the deep lines of his stomach with slow, teasing fingers. She worked the shampoo into his hair, watching his eyes flutter closed. When she got to his thighs, he groaned.

“Behave.”

She didn’t.

He pulled her close, water cascading over their bodies, their skin slick and clean and flushed with something almost unbearable.

She reached for a cloth and gently wiped behind his ears.

“I’m not your child.”

“You’re acting like one.”

He grabbed her waist and yanked her flush against him.

They stayed like that until their fingers pruned.

Then—finally—they dried off.

She wrapped herself in one of the impossibly soft robes from the villa.

Harry did the same, though his looked comically small on him. She giggled when it barely covered his thighs.

“Say a word and I’ll throw you into the courtyard.”

“Promise?”

He rolled his eyes. “I have international security clearance. No one would know.”

Back in the bedroom, the air had shifted. Still warm. Still gold-lit. But now it felt like transition. Like preparation. Like a pause before the world returned.

The suitcase sat open on the bench at the foot of the bed. A half-folded silk dress draped over the edge. His suit jacket hung on a chair.

“Unpack?” she asked.

He nodded.

They worked together.

Unpacking side by side.

She folded his shirts. He folded her underwear.

Her fingers danced over his cologne bottle, the one she always associated with him. She set it gently on the nightstand beside a small glass of water. He didn’t say anything, but he glanced over. Noted it.

He placed her hairbrush beside the bathroom sink, untangling a few of her strands caught in the bristles.

She rolled her socks and tucked them into the drawer. Folded her pajamas. Lined her skin care in a neat row.

He lined his ties on the shelf like a ritual. Stacked his cufflinks in the tray she passed him.

They shared the space. Merged into it. No questions asked. No territory claimed.

She hung up her dresses into the villa wardrobe. He adjusted the hangers. Steamed the back of her dress when she wasn’t looking.

She noticed his charger cable was frayed. She pulled one from her tote and handed it over without a word.

He opened a small velvet box and revealed a delicate necklace he’d packed for her without telling her.

“Wear this,” he said simply.

She blinked. “You packed jewelry?”

“You didn’t.”

Her lips curved.

The moment lingered.

Then—getting ready.

She stood at the vanity, pulling a comb through her damp hair. He stood beside her, shaving. Both in their robes. Moving in tandem. Like they’d done this a hundred times before. The kind of rhythm you can’t fake.

She did her makeup slowly, lip balm first, then liner, then a whisper of mascara. A little blush.

He adjusted the collar of his shirt beside her, fingers methodical. Buttoned his cuffs. Straightened his sleeves.

She reached for perfume. He paused, watching.

“You use that every day huh.”

“I do.”

He leaned down. Smelled her neck. “Still there.”

Then he asked if she could spray some on him.

She smiled.

He walked into the closet to grab his belt. She watched the way his robe opened slightly as he moved, the lines of his body still lingering with the softness of their morning.

Then—clothes.

She slipped the silk dress over her shoulders. It was pale. Bare-backed. Barely structured. The kind of dress you wore in Italy when you weren’t sure if you were someone’s date or someone’s downfall.

Harry froze when he saw her in it.

She turned.

“Too much?”

His jaw flexed. “You’re not changing.”

She smirked.

He moved closer. Adjusted the straps like they were made of glass. Tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. Let his thumb brush her collarbone.

“You’re going to make this very hard for me.”

“You invited me.”

“I didn’t know what I was inviting.”

“Yes, you did.”

He said nothing.

Just buttoned his shirt.

Put on his watch.

Slid into the jacket like he was donning armor. Sharp and deliberate.

She watched from the bed.

Hair pinned up now. Lipstick barely there. One heel dangling from her foot. Legs crossed like temptation.

“You look mean,” she said.

“I am mean.”

She grinned. “But you smell nice.”

He offered a hand. She took it.

They stood in front of the mirror together.

Perfect opposites.

Dark suit. Soft silk. Sharp jaw. Warm smile. Something dangerous, something beautiful.

Together.

They didn’t say much after that.

Just breathed.

The dinner.

Work.

But for now—

It was just them.

But not for long.

Because at exactly 8:17 p.m.—fashionably, just barely, late—the knock came.

Three soft raps on the thick villa door, followed by a polite, accented voice calling, "Mr. Castillo? Your guests are seated. The drinks are being served."

Harry exhaled slowly. A breath through his nose. One final glance at her.

She looked unreal.

Silk dress. Loose updo. That faint smudge of color on her lips that made his mouth twitch every time he looked too long. Her necklace—the one he picked—rested delicately on her collarbone like it belonged there.

He didn’t say anything.

Just offered his arm.

She took it.

And down they went.

Dinner was being served under a pergola lit by strands of woven golden lights. The villa’s courtyard stretched out before them like something out of a dream—white linen table, wine glasses already half-full, the sound of crickets humming in the background.

Candlelight danced across bottles of olive oil and bowls of olives, and the scent of rosemary and garlic wafted from a nearby kitchen. Cicadas buzzed low in the distance, the fading sunlight casting long shadows across the rustic stone tiles.

There were twelve seats.

Ten already filled.

Harry’s partners were an intimidating mix—Italian, British, and New York-bred tycoons with slick smiles and suspiciously quiet watches. Their wives, dressed in silk and linen and quiet diamonds, turned when Harry and she arrived—eager, observant, their eyes already cataloging every detail.

Like predators sizing up a rare animal at the watering hole.

Lorenzo and Marcella sat closest to the head. Lorenzo was tall, leonine, late fifties, with thick white hair and a voice like a cello. Marcella wore a linen suit and pearls, her Italian accent soft and theatrical. She was always watching.

Next to them—Livia and Paolo. Livia had a sharp chin, a sharper voice, and a body that looked sculpted from Florence marble. Paolo wore a navy suit that screamed Milan, his cufflinks catching the candlelight.

And at the far end, Francesca and Luca.

Francesca looked like a Donna Tartt character. Blunt bob, smudged eyeliner, a cigarette nearly lit. She wore a sheer black blouse over a vintage slip and held her wine glass like it was an accessory. Her smile was the kind that knew secrets.

Luca barely spoke. Just watched. Calculating.

And then there was Danny. 

"Harry!" Marcella called, standing with a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes. "We were starting to think you’d eloped."

Harry rolled his eyes. “You’d know. It’d be on the news within the hour.”

There were polite laughs. The kind that had more teeth than warmth.

He pulled out her chair before taking his own. It was a subtle motion. Protective. Possessive. Deliberate. A quiet claim staked in linen and candlelight.

Francesca’s eyes sparkled.

Marcella tilted her head. “And this is…?”

Harry rested one hand on the back of her chair. "My girlfriend."

Silence.

Then—

Marcella blinked. "Girlfriend?"

Livia raised a brow. “That’s new.”

Paolo chuckled. “She’s beautiful. Young, too. You’ve been holding out on us, Castillo.”

Harry didn’t smile. Just picked up his wine.

“She’s not a secret. She’s just not your business.”

Marcella laughed, waving her hand. “You know us. We’re nosy. Besides, the wives are all dying to know. We have a betting pool.”

“Jesus,” Harry muttered, under his breath.

Francesca leaned over to her. “Don’t mind them. They’re all bored and drunk on red wine and old money.”

She smiled.

“I’m Francesca,” the woman said. “And you—are fascinating.”

The meal began.

Plates of antipasti. Olive tapenade, roasted tomatoes, shaved fennel, slices of prosciutto that melted on the tongue. Tiny burrata drizzled with balsamic. Warm focaccia with rosemary. Bowls of almonds and figs.

It was decadent without trying to be. Effortless luxury.

Harry stayed quiet for most of it. Sharp-eyed, tense-shouldered. Only relaxing slightly when she brushed her leg against his under the table. She could feel the energy buzzing off him—wary, protective, always watching.

She found herself in conversation with Francesca quickly.

Books.

They talked about books.

“I just reread The Secret History,” Francesca said, swirling her wine. “Still makes me want to commit academic murder.”

She grinned. “I always wanted to be Bunny. Not in spirit. In wardrobe.”

“Tragic prep chic.”

“Exactly.”

Harry glanced over at that. Quiet approval in his gaze.

Francesca lit a cigarette, the smoke curling around her in elegant swirls. “Who are your favorites?”

She shrugged. “Zadie Smith. Donna Tartt. Ottessa Moshfegh, but only when I’m feeling unwell. Lately I’ve been reading a lot of Didion.”

Francesca beamed. “You and I are going to get along dangerously well.”

Livia leaned in across the table. “How did you two meet?”

Harry stiffened.

She opened her mouth.

He beat her to it.

“Page Six is going to run that story in a week. Ask them.”

More laughter. More glances. More eyes like spotlights.

Marcella pressed on. “It’s just surprising, Harry. You’re not… known for romance.”

He smirked. “I’m not known for a lot of things I am.”

Paolo raised his glass. “Is she moving in?”

Harry stays silent, starting to scowl at Paolo.

“Soon?” He pushes. He keeps on fucking pushing.

Harry didn’t answer. But his hand brushed hers under the table.

Francesca spoke instead. “Let them be. Love doesn’t have a lease agreement.”

Marcella sipped her wine. “But surely it’s serious. You brought her to Italy.”

Livia leaned in again. "And what’s the age gap, if you don’t mind me asking?"

Harry’s jaw ticked.

“I do mind.”

Marcella laughed, shaking her head. “We’re just curious. You know how it is. Older men and beautiful women. It’s a tale as old as time.”

“She’s not a tale,” Harry said flatly. “She’s a person.”

That shut them up.

For a beat.

Then—

Lorenzo, quiet until now, finally spoke. “And what about Lucy?”

The table paused.

Her stomach dropped.

Harry didn’t blink. “What about her.”

Lorenzo shrugged. “Just surprised to see you here with this girl, that’s all. I'd thought you'd be reeling from shock over Lucy sending you an invitation to her wedding.”

How did he know.

How the fuck did he know?

She froze next to him.

Her hand stopped rubbing his out of comfort. 

Harry’s jaw ticked. “We haven’t RSVPed.”

Marcella’s eyebrows rose. “Wait. You were invited?”

“Apparently.”

“Wow,” Livia said. “That’s bold. Isn’t she marrying that waiter?”

“John,” Paolo supplied.

“Oh, right. The bohemian.”

“She's not my girlfriend anymore, so stop bringing her up.” Harry said. Cold. Even.

Livia raised a brow. “But she was.”

Silence.

He stared down at Livia. “She isn’t now.”

She didn’t say anything.

But her body went still.

Francesca noticed. She shifted slightly, nudging her foot against hers under the table. A quiet, unspoken solidarity.

The conversation moved on.

Sort of.

She laughed at something Francesca said about poetry readings and obscure authors who only write in lowercase.

But inside—

Something tightened.

He hadn’t told her.

About the wedding.

About the invite.

About any of it.

She smiled. She clinked her wine glass. She even leaned into his arm when dessert was served—some kind of lemon tart with burnt sugar and pistachio.

But something shifted.

Just slightly.

A hairline crack in the evening.

Not enough to break it.

Just enough to notice.

Francesca asked her if she’d read Bluets.

She nodded. “Three times.”

They talked about heartbreak. About writing through pain. About how nobody writes yearning like Nina LaCour.

Harry kept his hand on her lower back. Gentle. Present.

But she wasn’t fully there anymore.

When Harry looked down at her later—when the stars came out and the wine dulled most of the tension in the room—he noticed it too.

Her smile didn’t quite reach her eyes.

He wanted to ask.

But didn’t.

Because he already knew why.

[redflagshipwriter]

Nest Swap 8

Masterpost

He did not go to bed. He went to the computer and he searched up Batman. Wikipedia had the same article. He clicked on it and scrolled down to the list of associates. It was… 

A really long list. Tim’s eyes crossed. There were a whole bunch of boring irrelevant people in other states. But more importantly, there was a list of speculated Robins. Robins, as in plural. 

“Four or five, depending on who you believe,” Tim muttered incredulously to himself. The original Robin, one next, then a girl, and now a short one. That was so many Robins. It was perhaps too many Robins. There should have just been the one. The others were fakers. He scowled at his screen, a little offended for Dick.

At least he knew, now. That was what Oracle meant by ‘the birds’. Tim put his face on his hands and tried not to feel small and silly. She meant the robins.

Tim closed the tab and tried to feel ready to search up the Waynes to confirm his theory. 

The second Robin would have been Jason. He had no idea about the girl or the new one, but doubtlessly Bruceman BatWayne had adopted them. If he searched Bruce Wayne’s name, he’d see it.

Tim closed the laptop. He didn’t need to see it to know that he was right. And honestly, he was tired. He dragged a lap blanket off the back of the couch and made it into a cape for comfort. He trailed around the empty, quiet apartment and tried to feel better. He would not be able to sleep if he went to bed like this; he just knew it. 

��Why didn’t Jason come?’ He hugged his blanket to his body and wished he felt warmer. ‘You’re supposed to like your boyfriend. I’ve been here for days and no one tried to see me before those two. Why did he not come home?’

Maybe they were fighting. Maybe that request for surveillance meant something. Tim craned back to remember Jason’s exact wording. The first relevant thing he’d said had been…

 “I picked up on something - I think one of my ongoing cases dips into your patrol area. You gonna come out tonight?” 

Then Tim said no, because he was 9 years old. Then Jason said a bad word. Then he said “Fair enough. Uh, think you could do some surveillance for me?”  

Tim ran it back and forth a couple of times. He didn’t see any subtext. So… No. he decided no, Jason hadn’t been communicating anything that indicated a particular problem in their relationship. Maybe he was just out of town.

He poured himself a glass of milk and challenged himself to drink it as slowly as possible. By the time it was gone, Tim sort of felt better. He went back to the guest room and crawled into bed. 

Despite his feeling that he wouldn’t sleep, it was like he just laid down and blinked to see it was the morning. Tim snuffled and pushed his hair out of the way. He sat up slowly. Man, he felt crummy. Unenthusiastically, he swung his legs over the side of the bed and scooted down to the cold floor. 

Bleh.

“I want Mom,” Tim said. No one answered, because the apartment was big and empty and there was nothing to indicate that anyone who loved him lived there. He felt kinda empty in his chest as he walked himself to the kitchen. He wasn’t even hungry, but it was just the law for people that you have to eat in the morning. 

He put bread in the toaster. He got out the pan but it just seemed like too much work. He left that on the counter and then climbed onto the counter to dig out the peanut butter from the cupboards. 

Okay. Peanut butter toast. That was pretty good. Tim snagged an apple off the counter and started peeling it. 

“Ow!” He dropped the peeler with a clatter. The apple landed on his foot and rolled away. He was too busy sucking on his finger to do anything about it. Tim danced in place for a minute, tearing up in pain. It hurt so bad! He ran to the sink and put his finger under the water, scared to see how deep he had cut himself.

In the clear stream of water, he could see that it was a cut that made a flap of skin. There wasn’t any bone or anything. It was fine. He was fine. He just needed a bandaid.

Tim burst into genuine tears. He sat on the floor and cried his heart out. He didn’t want to be here anymore. He wanted to go home. He was tired of being too small for his life. His sobs gradually petered off into sniffles. 

He picked himself up and wrapped a paper towel around his finger so that it didn’t bleed on anything. He hunted down the apple and threw it away. He unpeeled a banana instead, because a banana never hurt anyone aside from the pain of it tasting bad. He poured himself milk and juice and he put peanut butter on his cold toast. He ate it all, feeling numb. He had to, because no one else was going to. After that, he went looking for bandages. At least big Tim had a lot of them. Big Tim was really prepared to get hurt and have no one to help him.

So lucky.

The apartment felt a lot less fun now.

It was hard to even work up enthusiasm for Miss Tamara, but it was his job. So Tim reluctantly dragged himself to the laptop and opened the email to see if she’d said anything.

She had. She said to call her.

Tim went looking for the phone. It turned out to be under the sofa for some reason. He didn’t remember why. He hit the power button, discovered it was dead, and then he plugged it in. He waited around and fidgeted while it charged enough to turn on. He called Miss Fox right away.

She picked up on the third ring. “Tim, good to hear from you,” Tamara said easily.

…It felt nice to hear that. Tim swallowed. “Is there a situation?” he asked. 

“The opposite, thank you for that documentation,” Tamara said. She sounded like the pretty version of a shark somehow. “I confronted the employee with it and they did admit to some malfeasance. They were hiding an earlier error. Of course, I went and confirmed that mistake made sense. Thank you for including your exhaustive list of theories.” She sounded amused by that. “Never change, Tim.”

That hit him in a weird way. Tim rubbed at his chest, wondering what that meant. He’d just been thinking that he really needed to change and grow up. “I’m glad that I could assist you,” Tim said. “Thank you for telling me how you resolved the situation.”

“No problem,” she said crisply. “Will I see you in the office on Monday?”

Tim looked at his wall. He could see his reflection in a picture frame. It was mostly blocked out by the bright colors in the photo behind the glass. It was just obscuring enough that he could imagine how his face was going to look when he met Miss Fox. “I hope so.” He didn’t know who Zatanna was, but Oracle seemed efficient. She had probably made the correct staffing decision, just like Miss Fox would. 

The day seemed a little brighter after that. Tim picked himself up with a new feeling of determination. He hadn’t ruined things. Sure, he hadn’t been totally successful. But so what? Who won every game they played?

He went back to studying. He barely registered it when the bell rang.

When Tim lifted his head, he was mostly just grabbing around for the phone on autopilot in order to make it quiet. “Shush,” he said, trying to shut off the alarm.

He hit ‘accept’ on the phone call instead.

That woke him up. Tim stared at the timer counting up from 0 seconds to 1, 2, and then hastily lifted it to his ear.

“Hey?” 

“Jason,” Tim breathed.

“That’s my name,” Jason agreed, sounding weirdly uncomfortable. “You’re still sick? Jeeze. You aren’t dying or anything, right? You’ve been out of the field for a while.”

“I’m perfectly healthy,” Tim said. “I will see a specialist, though.” He left off any estimate of time, since Oracle hadn’t said how long it would take. “I apologize for my failure to make progress on your case. I’ll get it done today.”

“...That’s not terrifying or anything.” Jason sighed. “I thought this was a cold. I, uh.” He cleared his throat. “There’s some chicken soup outside your door. Take it or don’t. I don’t care.”

“What?” Tim asked.

“Back off,” Jason snapped back. 

…They sat in silence for a couple of seconds. On Tim’s end, it was a confused silence. But he felt a little warmed. “You made me soup,” Tim said aloud. “Right?”

Jason said another bad word. “Eat it,” he snapped. “I just don’t want you to waste away before you do that surveillance. I know you don’t eat enough. I’m going to bed.”

The dial tone rang out in Tim’s ear. Dazed, it took him a couple of seconds to lower his phone. He put it on his lap and recalibrated. 

“He loves me,” Tim said, choked up.

He cried about it a little. But it was a good cry this time! Tim was happy that someone cared about Big Tim. The idea that he was going to grow up to live in this big empty place with no friends or family around had been scaring him. The fact that he was wrong sent so much relief through his body. 

He retrieved the soup and ate it. He cried a little more when he realized the dumplings were homemade.

When he was done wrestling with big feelings, Tim knew what he had to do. He went back to his studies with renewed determination. He was going to get Jason the right information about the Sausage man, no matter what.

[sysmedsaresexist]

Terms, from a syscourse perspective

A very long ramble

We're taking this to a new post, starting fresh, and going more in depth. The original post is off course and confusing, and I've seen a few tags confused by the uptick in polls, so this is for them as well.

SO

We're not talking about which is liked by more people, we're talking about which term hurts people less. We're talking about people who are genuinely offended by the term plural because of the history that many prefer to deny happened.

Welcome outside of your bubble.

There is a very nasty history behind all these terms, and the type of people who identify with them.

Some plural systems, to this very day, proudly use the term empowered, despite the fact that empowered multiples were a literal DID hate group. Like an actual organized one, with multiple websites and political activism. Many still deny the trauma basis of DID.

It was the fight for the word "multiple" that sparked plural, an anti psych alternative, focused on personhood and autonomy of their system in a community that largely boycotted the diagnosis and treatment of MPD/DID at that time. There were groups that demonized anyone who identified with the DID label. There were sites about what failures we were as systems.

Endogenic isn't just the alternative for natural multiples, but empowered ones, too. Plural is far more synonymous with endogenic than CDD.

"System" is the current hot topic. Endogenic systems don't have a right to the word, they're not "real systems," just like vickies wrote about the fight over "real multiples".

Some plurals are scared to use system

History repeating itself, over and over.

And all of these words hurt.

I think we should encourage the use of system for endogenic systems, but that's just me. That is a positive step toward an inclusive word that everyone is happy with. I'm finding that I have a lot more words for my disordered experience that system isn't really something I feel a claim over. If you call me plural, knowing I have DID, you're going to hurt me.

Looks like many are back to liking multiple again, so we can look forward to round two.

But which words hurt the most people?

We are discussing two words specifically.

Plural

and

System

We're not talking about alternatives, the conversation was, "plural is safer than system as a blanket term, less people identify with system, plurality is something we all share," and I said, "no, system is safer than plural as a blanket term, plural is seen as offensive to many CDD systems, the priority of my blog. The vast majority do NOT relate to being plural or plurality, system is what more people relate to and are less bothered by."

The why is because of history and genuine offense, whether you like it or not.

You say that no one complains, but if you had said this the other way around, "systemhood is something we all share," would anyone have been like, "uhm, ackshually, if you call me a system I'm going to cry." What would those polls have looked like? We get a glimpse in the polls now.

So what are the numbers? It's still early, but there's really only two parts of the poll that really matter. Everyone wants more options, but I'm really only talking about the options for uncomfortable.

Plural vs system.

"Not medical" vs "medical"

Pro endo vs anti endo

Words are the root of syscourse, are they not? How many antis say, "if endos just didn't call themselves systems"?

Based on the numbers, system is the safer term to hurt fewer people. Endogenic systems mind system less than CDD systems mind plural. The complaints you're going to get would be more along the lines of, "endos aren't systems," rather than, "hey, careful, that can be offensive."

Are we finally saying the fight over "system" is over and antis won, plural is better now? Well, then, I don't know that lumping anti endos under plural is going to help the syscourse divide at all. Remember a couple months ago when antis forgot that they didn't invent plural? The big war over pluralpunk? And how much everyone tried to correct them that plural didn't belong to CDDs? Because it IS so synonymous with endogenic systems?

Start at the top of the post, reread, the fight starts again. Don't put antis, mostly CDD systems angry at endogenics, under the plural umbrella. I know we're not prioritizing their comfort, but it doesn't just hurt antis, but pro endo CDD systems, too. Our history is important.

And going to be honest, my memory is not that great. I'm going to forget my friend's preferred terms and I'm going to offend people. I would rather offend them with system. Less chance, less hurt. System is the most popular, across the board. I believe it's lost its synonymity with CDD.

I would REALLY love to hear opinions on this from all sides.

[tamashii--0--naturanimae]

I have a question to everyone who is part of plural system.

So, as first some background story for my question...

Even if I know who I am since I can remember, I joined alterhuman community in last year. There wasn't any term that would fits to who I am and how I feel, so I created my own term. Now that there are those communities/groups on Tumblr, I joined one called "Alterhuman Community" or something like that (I'm not longer there) and I posted there about term I created, I thought maybe I would help someone who identify similar to me to find right term. But even if community members were liking my post that one admin said that I'm insulting you guys with my term... And it wasn't really about my post there, but that admin read more my posts and said that my worldview about one soul in one body is insulting you and started discussion with me, even if in almost every post I'm saying that these are only my thoughts and no one have to agree with me and also that every identity is valid and miningful. What is really weird, instead of just deleting my post, that admin started discussion telling me that I decided in my posts what is correct and what is wrong and started offending me. :/ So I was defensing myself and tried to explain that I'm not telling anyone what they should think or believe in, but yeah... He make me that bad one who is offending everyone. :/

So, this is my question... Is this post offending you in any way? Or you can just agree that everyone can have their own beliefs and point of view?

I really don't want to offend anyone, I jist shared my personal thoughts and how I see world, and I know not everyone will agree with me and that's perfectly fine, everyone is different and that's great. I personally really like to read your stories, and also other alterhumans, it's inspiring. :) And I respect every living being, I want everyone to be whoever they feel they are and being yourself is something that everyone should be able to do, without being judge or criticize.

[sophieinwonderland]

I feel like the authors/creatives who are extremely opposed to fictives of their characters probably already have a fictive of their own character and said fictive is uncomfy with doubles. And they’re getting these feelings of repulsion that they don’t understand where it’s coming from.

Because I know a lot of fictives are initially uncomfortable with other fictives of the same character. It’s something that you’re encouraged to work on as a fictive. Because it’s not super healthy to feel this way after just seeing other systems on the internet.

I have no idea how true this may be, but I do love the theory!

Accidental plurality seems to be very common in writers. So having an unconscious revulsion because of a headmate, or even a proto-headmate, being offended by it wouldn't be too strange.

[loveanalyst]

What I've Learned From The New "World Underneath" Chapters

If you're not reading The World Underneath Chapters, you are truly missing out on some wonderful lore and alternate perspectives! Honestly, I find them more interesting than someone the main story chapters!

These aren't full summaries of the chapters, just the notes I took and things I found interesting. In my handy Triple L (LaDS Lore Log) I color code the chapters that involve or reffrence the Lis. Not all of them do.

Xavier Zayne Rafayel Sylus Caleb

#11

Follows Colin: A man that has been working as a Hunter Dispatcher for the last 12 years.

He takes a call where a wander attacks 3 people (we find out later that 2 of those people were in the process of attempting to rob the third, a lil ol' lady.) A mysterious woman shows up, saves them and holds the would be robbers until authorities arrive. She reports that she is a retired hunter and is confirmed to have previously worked for the DAWN sector.

He takes another call from a man named Orson. Orson is "Linkon City Police Department's infamous repeat offender". He has been arrested several times for protocore smuggling. After getting out of jail this most recent time, he takes up counterfeiting protocores by making fakes out of rock candy. He called in to report that several men with illegal protocore weapons are after him because of his scams. Only 2 hunters show up despite Colin essentially putting out an ABP. The two hunters take the men down with no issue. They are from the revered UNICORNS. It's Mc and Xavier. Over the phone Colin can hear Mc yell at Xavier not to "eat the evidence" (the rock candy fakes.) Orson is arrested for fraud.

#12

The Fractal Library

A mystery library that contains "books". We don't know who owns it, however the entity being interviewed is the library's administrator. They mention that most of the "books" are "science fiction. Nearly every fictional universe inside them branches out after it's own big bang and spawns countless worlds of infinite complexity. The books themselves reflect this fractal nature, each with a sense of variety and overwhelming similarity." The ongoing explanation is reminiscent of main LaDs story's structure.

I put "books" in quotations because a visitor to the library notes the things in the library don't look like books, to which the administrator replies "You're right. A lot of the things here aren't what you'd call books, but let's call them 'books' for the sake of convenience."

#13

The Gallery Manager: Thomas's Story.

Side note: Writing the plural of a name ending in 'S' with and Apostrophe 'S' is not incorrect (i.e. Thomas's) , but I don't like it! It looks super weird because I was taught to use the apostrophe on it's own(i.e. Thomas'). It also changes how I read it. I would pronounces Thomas' Apple as Thomas Apple where I am inclined to pronounce Thomas's Apple as Thomas-es Apple which sounds wrong to me. I digress.

Thomas forgets to put an interview on Rafayels schedule and ends up doing an interview in his place. It just so happens it's also his birthday. We learn that Thomas is married to a woman named Solana and they have a baby daughter together. Thomas is a very busy man, but loves his family dearly. Mc and Rafayel stop by his home to wish him a happy birthday and bring him a gift.

#14

Takes place in the N109 Zone. We learn about "Phantom Thief Mr. P." who steals but also seems to leave something of equal value behind. He visits an establishment called Elysium that has a secret menu for intel and other "hush-hush" services. The owner is a woman named Ginevera and the bar is tended by a young lady named Aislinn. Aislinn was abused by her father in her youth and asked for Ginevera to take her under her wing after seeing how strong and fierce she was. Ginevera agreed and they've been together for 10 yrs since. (Aislinn was 12 and now 22). We learn that the N109 zone was originally run by 4 distinct powers until a war broke out. We learn that a "protocore map" was highly coveted. Elysium went unscathed through all the fighting and we find out this is because Ginevera offered the map to Sylus in exchange for protection. Sylus now has this map and control of the N109 zone. Aislinn remarks that she knows Genevera as well as a scarred man named Dexter are "good guys" based on something she saw but did not reveal.

#15

This is an interview of an author named Yevette who also use to work for the Deepspae Aviation Administration. We learn the following:

When the DeepSpace tunnel appeared it caused deep magnetic fluctuations that caused several islands to "detach from their tectonic plates" and float:

in 2036 EVER proposed the "SkyHaven project" A plan to stabilize the island(s) using protocore technology and create and aerial base.

We find out that Yvette is divorced. During the interview she picks up her children who ask to see their father. Upon taking them to him we find out that her ex husband is the adjutant to the new Farspace Fleet Colonel (Caleb). It's Liam, and their divorce is due to his coldness and distance (due to the chip. However, it's unclear if she knows about it or not). She plans to release a book based on it called "heartless". When asked if she named the book that because of the change in Liam she responds "its because 'heartless' rhymes with 'coreless'"

#16

These are log entries from an archeologist named Shaylin. She is know for being the first person to discover/study and name protofields. She notes several times that people who seem to have been killed by wanderers, may actually just be trapped within protofields. She disappeared in 2034 without a trace. Her mental and physical health had been declining, some of her notes seem to be rambles and at some points hard to make out. However in her last entry she remarks that she is lucid as ever, it then hints that she may have gone into a protofield for good.

She notes that protofields are real alternate places/dimension where one can eat, drink, and explore. Protofields change based on the wanderer class and appear when a wanderer is close to being defeated. It dissipates and returns the person(s) trapped once the wanderer is killed.

#17

Didn't get a ton from this. Its about real vs. virtual life and how they can blend together and overlap.

#18

Abysmal Chaos Missions Told By Wontony.

The A.I.s are up to somthing. "A.I No.1" has killed it's creator (Mr. T). Well...kinda, it ruined his credibility and legacy on purpose as revenge for being discarded and replaced, the subsequent backlash causing Mr. T to commit suicide. Wontony, OTTO, and No.1 talk to each other.

During the Mr. T/No.1 case, Wontrony runs into an "unknown A.I." Wontony notes it's technology is "beyond anything humans can manage right now." Wontony tried to communicate with it, asking it questions, but the only response it gets is "Caw." (Mephisto??). Wontony feels no malice and cannot resist it. "As you wish" is the last thing we hear Wontony say to it.

[viciousvisor]

Dinner? I Hardly Know Her!

TWs: missed meals, possible eating disorder

wc: 463

"There's my sweetie patootie schmuckem berries!" Sabrina beamed on the other side of the line. "Sorry Bri, no chapter today," y/n dejectedly said. "Baby, you've missed the deadline twice now," she responded with a suprisingly high amount of sincerity. "I worry about you, you know?" Y/n has never heard the woman say something with so much seriousness. "Don't you mean the publishing house worries about me?" Y/n snorted hoping to lighten the mood. Instead of a sentence, y/n was answered with silence. "Hello? Hello?" The writer questioned only to be responded with her Home Screen.

Y/n sighed, she thought that Sabrina was offended by her sass so she decided to continue her staring contest with her google doc's blank screen in effort to give Sabrina some space to cool down. It didn't take long for the screen to win as y/n's heavy eyelids guided her to sleep.

'Ring'

Y/n looked out her window to find the winter night sky. She forgot to have lunch again, her third missed meal that week. Y/n was about to order something of off a delivery app when the doorbell rang again; this time the ringing came in rapid succession.

"Alright, alright! I'll get there," Y/n complained as she answered the door. "Brina," she gasped as she was greeted by Sabrina who was wearing an adorably thick layer of winter coat. "Care to let me in, stranger?" Sabrina smiled. "What are you doing here? I thought you were mad at me," Y/n shyly said. "Do you think that my anger erases my love for you?" Sabrina wondered. "Love?" Y/n gasped. "Shit! I was supposed to confess after dinner !" Sabrina hit herself on the head with her hand. "Dinner?" Y/n smiled. "Wow! You seem a lot happier when I mentioned dinner!" Sabrina pretended to be annoyed. Y/n responded by colliding her lips with Sabrina's. Their lips danced together in a graceful beat, slotting effortlessly with one another.

Y/n pulled away first, "maybe because you're the best dinner anyone could ask for." Sabrina blushed as she playfully hit y/n. Y/n leaned in but Sabrina did not accept the kiss. "As much as I want to have sex with you right now, I want you to eat more," Sabrina stated as she showed y/n their dinner. "How do you know if I already ate or not? For all you know, I already a—" y/n's defense was interrupted by her rumbling stomach.

"That," Sabrina pointed to y/n's stomach. "And the fact that you've uncharacteristically missed deadlines. Deadlines. Plural," Sabrina continued. She put her arm around y/n's waist. "Let's eat ok?" Sabrina gently said as she led y/n to the dining table.

[lyricismmp3]

hi heres a LONG post. i am anti endo but i do not hate endos i think theres reasons for them being that way, its explained below. also some sys info and some dni info (not a complete list its moreso heres an idea of who id like to keep off my blog) here you go

hello i edited this post theres now more nuance to it i encourage you all to read it again the new part(s) that i added is coloured green, i learned a little bit

ive been reblogging a lot of posts with some very angry tags and i feel like i should explain myself and my thought process when it comes to endos just because i like to know the stance of who im following or reblogging from and i imagine a lot of you will as well

i very firmly believe that endos are one of two three things.

A. a traumagenic system with really bad disassociative amnesia to the point where they dont know its there and dont 'feel traumatized' (for lack of better phrasing)

B. a singlet that has a different disorder with symptoms that mimic did.

EDIT: there is a secret third option. recently i came across some resources and links to plural things. i did read it because it wasnt using plural and system interchangeably and i figured it would be a good place to start. so to be a SYSTEM you need trauma, but to be plural specifically theres a lot of reasons for that. to my understanding (feel free to respectfully correct me) plural doesnt mean 'alters' as alters are a system exclusive thing. plural can mean different 'subpersonalities' or states of mind, not necessarily different fleshed out full identities. some people name and give pronouns to these different 'mindsets' (for lack of a better word) but that doesnt mean that theyre claiming that they have alters

so. option C: they are the secret third option: not a system and not claiming to be a system and should not be attacked for naming their different sub-personalities for their own whimsical needs

(this part is about any nontraumagenic system who is not willing to accept theyre not a system) the thing is, nobody wants to be a 'faker' and when someone looks at something that you firmly believe to be a core part of you and says that this thing that, again, you believe to be undeniable and goes "ohhh you dont have that!", youre gonna get hella fucking offended and defensive right? i get it, nobody likes to be 'wrong' about themselves but a lot of endogenic systems and pro-endo systems need to do a lot of research on DID

all of that said DO NOT DIG FOR YOUR OWN TRAUMA. IF YOU DONT KNOW ITS THERE, YOU ARE NOT READY. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO PROVE SHIT TO ME IM NOT FAKECLAIMING ANYONE IM CLARIFYING MY MINDSET ON A HEAVY TOPIC

anti endos feel free to interact

pro endo systems i will be a little uncomfortable if you interact i try my best not to engage in pro endo system posts and tags and communities for my personal comfort. dont breach your own dni to try and yell at me im not changing my mind ive had some shitty shitty experiences with endo systems

endo neutrals feel free to interact

i dont do syscourse unless the 'right' alter is fronting (guy with thick skin) and im in a headspace where i wont lash out. if i see any hate comments theyre either getting deleted or ignored depending on how bad the comment is. be nice to me and i'll be nice to you. if youre an asshole i'm blocking you, i dont have a dni i'll block whoever makes me uncomfortable! like racists, transphobes, most trans-ids (half of them probably dont know better), any harmful paras that have 0 desire to change or recover, 'the future is plural' dickriders (that movement will always always translate in my head as 'make more systems' which is something im very against) people who try to claim that they like media more than me (it is for everyone to enjoy, calm down)

my system name lyricism. any pronouns or terms work for me, i use singular language for myself because it makes it easier to mask when i need to. i am an introject heavy traumagenic polyfrag CDID system, i have adhd + autism + aspd + and schizophrenia. im researching/suspecting a multitude of other disorders (cant be sure which ones i do have, itll take a lot of time for me to track my symptoms well enough to be comfortable stating "i have [disorder]), i have high amnesia barriers but really really good internal communication so my system generally has a good idea of whats going on irl (i have 'informants' they talk to memory holders (or are memory holders) and then go tell the rest of the system important info so that we're all on the same page)

i wont share my age (only that im a young adult), i wont share my collective chosen name, nor will any of my alters sign off on future posts. we say i/me/myself/my system/my alters regardless of fronter so it will look like the same guy talking everytime (its not i assure you) i have a beautiful partner system and im not open for another relationship. i am also canadian (PST). not important but maybe useful for you later on idk

[growling]

Fucked up strange and unusual creature dubbed by the locals as "tumblr user Growling" (pinned post)

Hello everypony this is Growling's blog of tumbler where I post my yaoi. Anything is yaoi if you're open-minded enough

-> collective/blanket names are: Seth, Feliks/Felek, Sójka, Miko��aj/Miki, Stefan, Sylwester, Odolan, Sambor or Lasota. Collecting names like cool rocks. We also get called Growl occassionally. -> transneufemmasc (but often shortening it to "transfemmasc" when mentioning it) as a blanket term for our gender; specific sysmembers that have concrete personal sense of gender may resonate with transfemmasc but also may vary in exact identities quite a lot too, for ex.: someone like Brutus is transfem while someone like Yomi is transneumasc. Individual members prefer different gendered terms so you'd be better off just asking them, but when speaking generally then neutral are fine. -> intersex, will not respond to weird speculations about our "agab". Or genitals. At least take us out to dinner first. -> it/its in general, once again just ask a system member for their actual pronouns if you're speaking to them specifically and you need them -> alterhuman; plural collective/system, and physically nonhuman (fictionkind, holothere, complicated therian), we use I/we pretty interchangeably. We don't care about origin labels or seeking out diagnoses, and don't have defined roles, either. -> related; due to being a system with DID we don't have one concrete sense of self or opinions and may often come off as inconsistent and erratic. -> Slavic as shit I will never shut up about being Polish. I am so cool and I love being Slavic unfortunately this also tends to come with The Horrors

I'm a narcissist so I thrive on attention and will not be offended if you "spam like/reblog" my stuff, tag me on things or send me too much asks, it's fine. I am very friendly and chill cat please put your fingers through the bars of my inbox. And while I love receiving them I might take a long while to answer or will not know what to say other than a ":3". If my response sounds dry or cold or anything like that then I'm not mad at you ever (I probably just had trouble with articulation or a bad case of Very Tired), I'm not the kind of guy who's just gonna secretly stew in anger something then never tell you, if something genuinely upsets me then I wouldn't hide that or at least I'm trying to.

Fandoms, fixations, and special interests include, in loose order of intensity: Master Detective Archives: Rain Code, Tribe Nine, Warriors (cats), Breaking Bad & Better Call Saul, Bungou Stray Dogs, cat coat color genetics, Project: Eden's Garden, Akuma Kun, ZENO remake, My Little Pony, Danganronpa, Mouthwashing, The Coffin of Andy and Leyley, Henry Stickmin, Gravity Falls.

I don't have a DNI (we find them ineffective and just stupid as a concept; blocking is your job, not everyone else's. also, what the hell is a "basic DNI criteria"? Are you just virtue signalling or is this some form of code.) and probably won't check yours either if it's not easily accessible, ex. I won't click on a carrd link or read your entire several-paragraph pinned post under a cut unless I'm REALLY interested in your blog. If you don't want me to go through your stuff, the block button is the best way to do that, no hard feelings. If you're wondering, or about to ask as to why I might have you blocked: I block very liberally over all sorts of stuff no matter how small, so most of the time I probably don't even know either.

I don't tag a lot of stuff (either I forget or don't know how, usually forget), but as a general rule for when I do, warnings are tagged in the "cw (thing)" format. Oh and "#alfie don't look" is intented for a mutual but it is also for everything transmisogyny & transandrophobia related (if I don't forget to do that) so you can also block that too.

(More about us as well as boundaries under the cut, which are optional reading but might be helpful if you'd want to avoid being blocked over unknowingly breaking some of them)

Neurodevelopmentally + physically disabled, stigmatized mental disorders Georg. My brain works differently than yours probably does, I am usually tired and disoriented/confused, very bad with articulating and will often write things in a kind of incomprehensible way, give you very short answers, take very long to do that, or not answer you at all (you can remind if you want) because of my semiverbality and disorganized thoughts also applying to written words, it doesn't mean I'm ignoring you.

I get confused pretty easily and will probably not discuss more "complex" matters unrelated to my hyperfixations and/or special interests (like politics, some discourse, invitations to "debate" you on something etc.) with you so don't bother bringing those up. Similiarly, I may ask you to rephrase something if your wording was too complicated/difficult for me to understand, or to have something clarified or explained in very simple terms. If even then I won't understand and leave the discussion, it's nothing personal.

I will also probably not read your sarcasm or know if you're telling a lie/misinformation as a joke, unless I know you and already memorized all your speech patterns or something. Do not approach me with any sort of teasing, playful rudeness, or "joke" insults, I will not take it the way you intended, and I actually hate how normalized it is now to just "ironically" be mean to strangers on the internet.

I'm not that empathetic/sympathetic, and my tone may be off or I may come off as uncaring/tactless because I just don't really have an idea how to approach most sensitive stuff and because I can't find it in myself to really be able to care about most things that don't directly concern me, so I will usually just try not to talk about those kinds of subjects. If I said something out of pocket then literally just tell me outright, otherwise I will likely not realize so and thus won't do anything about it.

Any further information you'll gonna have to pry out of me by force, or perhaps embark on an odyssey to obtain (though realistically speaking, if you just ask I have a 50% chance to just start yapping immediately about my entire life story for ten paragraphs)

Other (public) blogs:

director-yomi-hellsmile - yomi's main blog. active. coffeebeancocoa - ashie's main blog. active on and off. wisterintoxin - seweryn's and ashley's sideblog. active on and off. wiewiorczy-lot - squirrelflight's sideblog. active on and off. seth-burroughs - rain code side. active. clowder-system - plurality-focused side. active. amaterasu-corporation - rain code pride icons blog. active on and off. yaoihellsmile - shitpost yomi rp side. on hiatus. strophaia - akuma kun side. active on and off until season 2 comes out. ichinose-kazuma - tribe nine side. active on and off. treecut-place - warriors hypokits side. inactive. palebird - warriors designs side. formerly abandoned, but restarted again.

Bonus: my spotify, if you like cool and epic playlists and think I would have an immaculate music taste. Don't ever assume I pay for spotify I would never do that I have standards

[plurillean-confessions]

Welcome to plurillean & sysian confessions!

[PT: Welcome to plurillean & sysian confessions!]

This blog is run by plurals, for plurals; it is for anysys who have headmates loving headmates, and who wish to send in confessions or silly moments or heartwarming things, and anyone who wishes to ask questions (mind the social contract of (in)tolerance; see below).

What is plurillean and sysian? [PT: What is plurillean and sysian?]

From pluralpedia, on plurillean and sysian respectively:

Plurillean refers to a member of a system who is attracted to other members of their own system. This doesn’t have to be exclusive, and they can love both system members, and non-system members.

A sysian is a member of a system who is exclusively attracted to other members in their own system.

NSFW confessions are allowed; they will be tagged as #18+ confession. Minors found sending NSFW confessions or interacting with these confessions will be blocked from the blog. Any mockery or shaming will be removed and offending users will be blocked as well.

BYF, mod introduction, and tagging conventions under the cut!

Before You Follow/Interact

[PT: Before You Follow/Interact]

RE: Social Contract of (In)Tolerance

This blog is explicitly pro-endogenic, nontraumagenic, and multigenic systems, including disordered nontraumagenic systems, tulpamancy, and systems who are disordered through something other than a CDD. Sysmedicalists and anti-endogenics found interacting will be blocked.

This blog is supportive of people with any personality disorder. Any who support the idea of "[insert personality disorder, eg. narcissistic, antisocial, borderline, histrionic] abuse" found interacting will be blocked.

This blog is supportive of alterhumans and nonhumans of any and all kinds. Any who cannot respect this found interacting will be blocked.

All good faith identities are welcome, including male / nonbinary /mspec / he/him lesbians, female / nonbinary / mspec / she/her gays, and anyone with "contradictory" identities. This blog is queer and anti-assimilationist; anyone who cannot respect the above found interacting will be blocked.

This blog does not believe in thought crime; someone cannot be a bad person solely for their thoughts, regardless of how horrible those thoughts are, and regardless of whether or not that person enjoys those thoughts. The only thing that determines whether someone is "good" or "bad" is what harm they do or don't commit against others, and--if harm has been done--what they're doing to remedy it. Anyone who cannot respect this found interacting will be blocked. [Edit because it looks like some people don't understand the point of this: this may not be a fandom blog, but this roughly translates to being profiction. What you like in fiction and in fantasy does not matter so long as you are not harming real people. Okay? Okay.]

This blog is, above all, anti-harassment for any reason, no matter how horrible you believe the other person is. "ACAB" includes vigilante justice. Anyone who cannot respect this found interacting will be blocked.

RE: "Is this allowed...?"

"Is NSFW allowed?" Yes! Copy-pasted from above for convenience: "NSFW confessions are allowed; they will be tagged as #18+ confession. Minors found sending NSFW confessions or interacting with these confessions will be blocked from the blog. Any mockery or shaming will be removed and offending users will be blocked as well."

"Is [x relationship] allowed?" So long as all parties have given informed, uncoerced consent, then yes, it is allowed.

"Is talking about relationships with people outside of our system allowed?" Yes, but please keep in mind that this blog is aimed towards plurillean and sysian folks and is meant for talking about in-system relationships and attraction.

"I'm a singlet/not plurillean/sysian; can I send questions about it?" So long as you're respectful, yes!

"I/we don't call my/ourselves plurillean/sysian, but we have in-system relationships/attraction; can we still send confessions?" Yes! One need not apply the label to themselves so long as you're talking about in-system relationships and attraction.

"I'm a singlet; can I send confessions about my plural partners?" No; this blog is specifically for in-system relationships & attraction and plurillean/sysian folks.

"Can I tag the blog in posts I think would fit the theme, a la @/funnier-as-a-system?" Yes!

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Mod Intro[s]

[PT: Mod Intro[s]]

Hi, we're Mod Lepton[yx]. We use it/its, hy/hym and ze/hir pronouns collectively, and are also collectively a genderfaun aroalloapl abro gaybian. We're a polyfragmented mediple gateway collective of 900+ with DID, a werebeast, autistic, and have ASPD and NPD. Our main blog is @coyotenoses and our plurality-centered blog is @canis-constellate if you're curious.

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Unique Tagging Conventions

[PT: Unique Tagging Conventions]

#confessions - Confessions!

#18+ confesssions - NSFW confessions; minors found sending or interacting with these confessions will be blocked from the blog

#not a confession - Non-confessions #questions - Questions #unqueued - Posts that weren't put in the queue #anonymous - Anything sent in on anonymous #[insert URL] - Anything sent in not on anonymous #Mod Lepton - Submissions answered by Mod Lepton. Slightly redundant unless we get another mod, but hey, never know what'll happen!

#reblog - reblogged posts #image described - Posts with images that have alt text #image undescribed - Posts with images that do not have alt text

#positive - Any general positive posts sent or reblogged #negative - Any negative posts sent or reblogged #discourse - Anything related to discourse that is sent or reblogged

#blog upkeep - Posts related to the blog itself and its functioning #intro post - This post!

General plural tags will be used for confessions and related questions, such as #actually plural, #pluralgang, #plurality, #plural system, #plurillean, #sysian, #pro endo, and #endo safe. If you wish for a specific tag to be added or removed, feel free to mention it in your submission!

[the-morningstar-family]

Vox,

A) You do realize Al is doing the exact same thing right now?

B) You do realize that Lucifer did the exact same thing with Charlie?

C) You do realize that you having a kid with Valentino is going to make Al want you even less if he notices at all because it's Valentino?

D) He's going to have to look after his own kids (plural) and probably won't even have the mental capacity to care because he's not going to outsource childcare?

Just making sure we're all on the same page here.

Oh and btw, make sure that whatever it is you're growing is actually capable to survive outside "the womb" and doesn't need any technological parts due to your DNA.

Also, do you have any idea how much it would suck to have a baby with a TV head?

Vox: “Yes sure, but I can do it extra easily! I won't have to deal with it in my body.”

He once again inspects if everything is in working order. Once satisfied that it is, he looks at his creation through the glass.

Vox: “And he's obviously not going to like the Valentino part, that's the point of jealousy! He'll see that he wants to be with me all along!”

With a digital clipboard in hand he takes more notes on all of the scores his screens are showing. It's All about nutrition, cell growth and more. Everything concerning fetal development.

Vox: “And I'm offended that you think I wouldn't think of it surviving afterwards! My parts aren't genetic. But uh … there might be some difficulty regarding breathing instincts to kick in… it's not going to be a normal birth after all, but I'll figure something out!”

[fictionfixations]

playing the entirety of the amphoreus story in 3.0

3.0 spoilers

HIMEKO YOUR VOICE IS STILL GONE💀 dan heng is still gone too

oh damn theres an option now to edit audio settings during dialogue

wait there are other languages? no wait no duh isnt there like a Synesthesia Beacon which translates words

is it possible to play without sunday on the express? like if you choose to kick him out does he get kicked out or what? wonder how itd play out then without him. hm

march not joining us on amphoreus !?

OH as in an express car

AHH WE'VE BEEN HIT WTF

RIP safe zone car its on fire. actually wtf the express is now missing a car um oops

LMFAO?

not the inner voice of yes lets do it (me) being called the devil, and then he woke up before we even started LMFAO

dan heng: stay quiet

my tuskpir: *immediately makes a sound*

what the fuck are these voices what the uh chills??

i cant tell what its saying

when it switches to i assume the past where its in a good state and there are kids it laughs but when it switches to the present in a bad state theres this weird voice i cant tell what its saying

i mightve mixed that up and its the other way around cause i immediately forgot bc herta, see below

oh my god herta just jumpscared me with her idle cause ive been popping into the character screen when typing this down sob

for a second i thought they were gonna be weeping angels because i looked at them and it said we thought their pose was different and we shouldnt get too close

KEVIN or what the fuck his name is in hsr

BITCH MY BAT??? 'youve got something interesting' ???

i feel like that could be an innuendo but i also think he said that considering well. im gonna look so dumb but did bats exist back then 💀cause im assuming the bat is unique, and i mean it certainly is. its like. modern people go back in times of myths n stuff ig? am i phrasing this right???

every mention of the abyss i just stare like. .....genshin?

YOU DID WHAT TO MY BAT?

'we're all humans here' *stares at dan heng* *stares at me in what the fuck am i do i count as a human 💀i was just like made into existence is that human??*

we in bold? huh so tribbie is plural pronouns ?

from what now? sorry that sounds like nonsense to me. ill get used to it in time but with everything so new it sounds like gibberish 😭

wait did he break dan hengs spear or something? i need to rewatch the cutscene 😭

??? is that old man the annoying old man in like the legends of amphoreus video?? who like kept being negative about the chrysos heirs

actually how the fuck is dan heng fighting without a weapon is he like pulling out the magic stuff he does when hes imbititor lunae i forgot what its called

...cloudhymn ?? idk man i forget shit

CONSTELLATIONS? sorry i read that i think orv

WHAT JUST HAPPENED

also DAN HENG CAN REFORM HIS SPEAR? or well not actually its like hes holding his spear but its green

YEAH its cloudhymn

...how do we know this?

what was that?

'humanity is so doomed' usually id choose the meme-y non serious options but this is serious and i dont wanna offend phainon

so the other chrysos heirs dont discriminate with who they attack whether friend or foe?

huh..

i accidentally skipped past his line 💀

'minions of strife,' and then i missed the rest

whose De?

ah. Mydei. the guy who when i see i kinda end up thinking of cyyu tbh 😭 i know he doesnt voice him its rlly i think just the look of the guy

apparently this is blonde guy tho? the name during the battle when he spoke

comment on strange name so

phainon kinda sounds like fight on

mydei kinda sounds like mighty

idk about the the the tribbies. i know thats not their name only one of them is named tribbie but i forgot okay 😭

another bold..

isnt she the person who kills people by touch or something? interesting this butterfly effect appears when you get close to her. when you get super close the game forces you to walk and you cant get so close as to touch her model

what are these sounds i have no idea what the voices are saying but whats the sound..? it sounds kind of like crunching

boss already?

the herta so strong i can actually understand how it feels when people have strong teams fighting enemies. ..or maybe its just how it feels when i actually give a character their signature lightcone cause before this i only had the ones for the standard characters 💀

sorry i wasnt paying attention to nikador turn into that gold dust or is that from aglaea? cause i notice the transportation thing that 'turns you into birds and transports you' has like that same gold dust

so wait is she blind or not? i genuinely cant tell if she can see or if she cant see she just perceives the world through her threads and stuff

THATS WHAT THOSE ARE? beacon of the Trailblaze...

IM FREE FROM STORY MODE

if i was free earlier i didnt notice

theres an option to stop listening and to yawn and i dont wanna know what happens if i pick those i want to actually hear this not miss anything

...the trailblazer's preference is a high cute girl voice?

'where did i stop the last time' WAIT ARE YOU THE SAME BATH SPRITE??

????

is it weird if i say i preferred the other version 😭 im so disappointed it stopped me. like yeah the voice was speaking slowly but i preferred how it described things

close my eyes? man. the last time i closed my eyes i got stabbed (by sleepie. ..his name was sleepie right??)

ah so like wonder woman's lasso of truth? i think it was called that?

hm

what happens if you get all the coreflames? take their authority for ourselves or something she said. does that mean we take down a titan, we get their power? whose to say we wont do something bad with it?

that..

curious that they're using march. i wonder if it means anything

..what happens when you do? will you go mad?

i was walking around wandering and then i just see phainon and jumped LMFAO like i didnt expect him

i mean he did say he was gonna be here but i just forgot

...is the Rosy Celestial Maiden March 7th..?

oh i thought she appeared but no its cause that guy saw the photos LMFAO

WAIT IS HE IN THE HERO'S BATH? DUDE YOURE NOT ALLOWED TO BE UP THERE

MY CHEST JUST GOT STOLEN

it just occurred to me that we're completely cut off from the express

im like.. an hour late into that realization but like oh yeah we cant talk to them or go back

me when im losing the ability to understand what is happening in cutscenes because they lag me

so anyway sure okay

so if i lie im gonna get executed

so like what if i lie though

maybe we'll get like another joke ending but i dont wanna test it im trying not to do meme or non serious answers

..what? im not lying i dont want to hurt them

but also for all i know they could turn out to be evil or something. or block our path or get mind controlled i dont know.

fuck

i didnt mean to be dishonest my bad aglaea haduidhawuhf

WHAT SORRY I DIDNT MEAN TO DO ANOTHER 'LIE' IM SORRY I DIDNT KNOW I WAS DEFLECTING BY ASKING A QUESTION I WAS JUST CONFUSED AND THE OTHER RESPONSES DIDNT SEEM LIKE THE RIGHT ANSWER?? AGLAEA MY BAD IM SO SORRY

thats only 2 lies not 3 so im safe but oh god i did not mean to fuck up this bad

😭????

so wait

phainon interrupted so does that mean if we fuck up 3 times to where we would be executed phainon would still interrupt? and prob save us in that time?

also crying though imagine we died here

the express would have no way of knowing

oh god reading text this is so bad for me i usually sleep by now afhedusi oh god okay okay POWERING THROUGH

i closed my eyes for longer than a second and oh god its hitting me

i read it all

oh my god im so tired

if we join the chrysos heirs does that mean we will become a part of the prophecy and have to kill a titan and get their coreflame ??????

or is it less that we're becoming one of you guys but helping you guys with the prophecy and you already have all the people who are meant to be a part of the prophecy you just kinda need help cause like we're fighting gods basically

the idea is that theyre chosen when caught in dire circumstances and bestows miracles upon them....

its not confirmed just the only speculation that seems reliable enough

wait we can choose to leave ???

..................no thanks i dont wanna test it what

also im warning you that while i did read the thing i dont remember everyone whose coreflame has been taken

and i dont recognize their symbols

but its the one with the holy candle? the dude over earth i think? or some sort of creating thing and super kind and made like the dromas(?) hes down

i think the one of beauty is down too

and i cant remember okay memorizing whose been taken down already is hard enough with blocks of text describing each one in detail like om

okay its Zagreus of Trickery, Georios of Earth, Phagousa of Ocean, Mnestia of Romance (taken by Aglaea), Janus of Passage (taken by Tribbie, Trianne, and Trinnon), Talanton of Law

iforgot the full name of tribbie it was mentioned at the beginning but my dumbass forgot

also one of them has the form of a sky bird i forgot who but i just read it and was like. isnt there a sky bird in s-classes that i raised that yoojins goal is finding or some shit

sorry i like just read a chapter of it today. or well yesterday.

me when i eepy how many hours hasit been

its been 20 hours (in the story i mean)

its been 3 hours irl though. i should have 2 hours left if its all super long story

OH WAIT WE'RE GOING AFTER THEM NOW i thought he was gonna be like a big bad that takes a few patches

though in that case considering every patch will include story.. so does that mean every patch we're gonna go after a titan? and then the 7th where we have all coreflames... hm.

i just realized ive been calling nikador he. ??? is he a he? idk man i was thinking of nikador as a he but also all the titans have been they so like. im. so fucking tired but its just coming naturally to call nikador he so like fhsiufh. if i mispronoun nikador earlier my bad ?? its so late

you can fight the thief????

his full name is Mydeimos???

newbie Little Gray... i will cherish this nickname

MYDEI IS THE CROWN PRINCE???

'trianne has sacrificed a lot for amphoreus' i wonder..

cause so the old guy didnt recognize her because she was so small right? so that implies she wasnt kid shaped. hm.

evo..ccultism..?

sorry imw hat teh fuck

i just solved a puzzle and i get hit with a wall of text what the fucki cant i dont

i dont have the capacity to understand this so i cant bother im

i know i made an exception for reading about the titans but thats iimportant lore stuff this is.. not so important

im so sorry phainon i keep cutting you off i dont mean to you just talk slower then i can run 💀

also you were saying shit and i was trying to pick up an item but i accidentally interacted with something else and started new dialogue whoops thats my bad i just need to like stop doing anything when you talk but before this you always talked short enough that i could reach where i needed to go by the time you finished and it wouldve been fine

😭😭😭😭

what the fuck was that??? did. did it just roll down a ball and crush another enemy what the

LMFAO i rewinded the ball and it hit an enemy and i got the rewards

hah who needs acheron when i have a fucking BALL

oh wait am i actually supposed to be fighting to win the competition

did phainon just use they/them pronouns on us ?? he was like i already forgot the line cause mydei was talking and i got distracted but it was something like the baseballer shows no mercy to their enemies ???

i regret not opening the chest before taking the photo its so tempting

the chest was there in the photo

its there in dialogue

please free me from these text boxes and let me open such treausre...

i feel like im going insane wtf am i talking about now 😭

i

them: lets decide who does the final blow by a competition

and phainon is the one meant to do it right and like take the coreflame and shit so like

..fuck guess im gonna be fighting every single enemy i encounter

then it turns out IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER????

theyre just like actually lets not decide it by a competition lets just do it together

dude im so

im. so tired.

oh my god MORE TEXT im so sorry this probably sounds so annoying tos oemoen reading thi sbut oh my im. so tired. but its important to the story...

am i making any progress at all...? am i getting any closer to facing nikador...?

i feel like im not getting anywhere its dragging on and its probably fine normally im just sat here like dude please end already im tired

FINALLY IM AT NIKADOR

im so fucking lost what the help

ARE YOU FUCKING WITH ME

IT ONLY ACTIVATES WHAT I NEED TO PASS WHEN I INTERACT WITH THE DOOR THAT CLEARLY CANT BE OPENED IM

going to explode

...pancakes with mind

AAAAAAAAAAA

'should be smooth sailing from here' I WILL HOLD YOU TO THOSE WORDS PHAINON AND IF YOU TURN OUT TO BE A LIAR I WILL

BE VERY VERY CROSS

another puzzle.. aa....

something that has more weight than the fate of amphoreus...

is march 7th's camera

LMFAO no its the companions we've traveled with that are most important and thus have more weight then the fate of amphoreus.

LMFAO DID WE JUST TAKE A PHOTO

....mother...?

WHAT

WHAT??????

WHOSE MOTHER

remembrance?

"Is that you... Is that you? Mother... encountered you. She misses you..."

"Follow me... Please follow me. I see you... She also misses you. We want to see everything about you."

???

my.. past?

oh my god

OH MY GOD

STELLARON HUNTERS????????

CAUSE CAUSE WE SAW THEM ON THE TRAIN IN THE TRAILER OR SOMETHING I FORGET

wait how come only blade has a voice what

he didnt speak earlier though

what

three of a kind, two pair, ace

? xianzhou something? i dont recognize it

silver wolf is voiced too?

freezing? ice..?

like. march?

what

just happened?

a full team of just story characters? has that happened before?

blade, kafka, rememberance tb, and firefly.

..i wish kafka was voiced here.

anyway i chose her. i like firefly but kafka has like special importance to the trailblazer story wise considering they know each other somehow. and she technically kind of made tb? or recreated tb? i

i dont really know man

....more blocks of text...

how many hours has it eben holy shit jimgdfji

sorry i havent said anything for awhile im in that state where i just want to get through it now

anyway time travel yay

something happened in the cutscene and i literally have no idea what because it was lagging so bad. joy.

its at like herta now and im just

it has to almost be over right

i would like to sleep now

i feel a little bad not paying full attention to what shes saying but also. bruh. im. gonna be rereading it anyway when i see other people go through this

....ELYSIA???

MARCH??

OH MY GOD IM FINALLY DONE HOLY SHIT

i need to get up in like 2 hours 😭😭😭😭

....THIS WAS SEVEN HOURS????

[revisitingstoneybrook]

#44 Dawn and the Big Sleepover: Chapter 11

Sorry for the long break! I'm back with more from this book and there will be new content coming up that wasn't on the LJ group!

In this chapter, Haley Braddock bores us and...that's pretty much it.

So we have a BSC notebook entry from Mary Anne, writing about her babysitting job for Matt and Haley Braddock, and she said she was hoping to take a break from the pen pal project. *GASP* You heartless wretch! When a BSC member is involved in a project, they go in wholeheartedly, no questions asked! Wait until Kristy finds out *cue lightning and thunder clap*

We start out with Haley begging Mary Anne to let her play Madame Leveaux so she can raise money for her pen pal. And no, Haley isn't planning on performing an exotic cabaret on her front lawn. She wants to tell fortunes, which is actually pretty creative. And Leveaux...the old people? No, that would be Lesvieux. Ok, time to translate this.

Veaux is apparently the plural of veau. Which means...veal. Haley is Madame Veal? She should thank her lucky stars that Dawn isn't babysitting her.

Anyway, Haley is excited when Mary Anne agrees to help out, and she happily signs her plans to Matt. And while I ponder how Jessi and the kids of Stoneybrook were able to pick up ASL quick enough to communicate coherently with Matt (because Dawn just gave us the explanation of who Matt is), Haley gets to work setting up. She emerges from her bedroom in a costume that Dawn describes as something from I Dream of Jeannie.

Old TV show, everyone take a shot!

Haley tries doing an exotic dance that involves "wiggling awkwardly" (ew?) and talks to Mary Anne in an over-pronounced, Eastern European accent. And since this is a BSC book, ghostwriter extraordinaire Peter Lerangis spells it out phonetically. It looks like Mme Noelle's french, but more nasal. If something can look more nasal. Thees eez zuh vay vee speek een Trannnsylvania! I can think of a few Transylvanians who are offended by this stereotype:

They only have an hour until their parents get home, so the kids and Mary Anne get to work, setting up a card table on the front lawn and Mary Anne makes a sign advertising Madame Leveaux's services. Whoa, mind meet gutter. And she actually writes in PRINT on the sign, instead of her usual loopy cursive, so this is the only time I can call Mary Anne's handwriting 100% legible. Haley sits down with a deck of cards and Matt decides he wants to practice catching while Haley works her magic. Good lord, this chapter is boring.

So her first customers are Suzi and Marnie Barrett, along with Mrs. MILF. Why is Mrs. Barrett known as Mrs. MILF? Well, as soon as she saw Haley, Dawn said she flashed a dazzling smile. A smile from Mrs. Barrett alone could raise enough money to rebuild the school on the Zuni reservation.

Mrs. Barrett pays for Suzi to have her fortune told, and Matt pulls the chair out so Suzi can sit down. Haley touches Suzi's forehead while shuffling the cards around and her fortune for Suzi is she sees Buddy at the elementary school's gym, having fun at the sleepover. Um, you'd think for Suzi's fortune, she'd make up something for Suzi and not tell her something about Buddy?

Suzi complains, not because she didn't get her own personal fortune, but because Haley already knew about it and demands her money back. LOL I love the Barretts.

Mrs. Barrett quiets her down and lets Marnie get her fortune told as well. Only Marnie isn't too interested, screams "NO!" and starts crying. And there we have one of like three times I can think of Marnie talking in the entire BSC series. Gabbie Perkins, who's also 2, would sit down and say "Why I am positively delighted to have my fortune told by you, Haley! What is written in the stars about my future?"

The Barretts leave, and Haley says she thinks her veil scared Marnie. Mary Anne tells her not to worry about it, and reminds her that it's OK to make up fortunes, she doesn't have to be accurate. The next customers are a group of 8th grade boys who just so happen to be walking through the Braddocks' neighborhood. Alan Gray, Pete Black, and Justin Forbes. Let me just say, forget Logan Bruno and his hiring a horse-drawn carriage and wanting to buy a ring for his beloved Mary Anne. Alan Gray is the most accurate teenage boy in the BSC series, even though his personality tends to fluctuate a lot. Like sometimes he's the class clown, sometimes he's taking Kristy to dances and sometimes he's even a bully.

I have no clue who Justin Forbes is, but from the way Dawn describes him, it sounds like he was a one-note character in another book, and Peter Lerangis needed another immature 8th grade boy for this scene. Dawn says he prank-called Stacey once and said he was from the Atlanta Pig Farm? It sounds familiar but I don't know what book that was.

Alan sits down to get his fortune told, and calls Haley "Madame Levy-oox" and "Madamee Lee-voke-see-odor." Haley ignores his looniness and pulls a fast one on him, by giving him part of a fortune and telling him to continue, he has to pay more, and ends up collecting two bucks from all three boys. Clever. Either the boys decided to humor the 9-year-old and play along or they're dumb enough to be led on by a 9-year-old. It's actually hard to determine. Haley tells Mary Anne she felt guilty about it, but Mary Anne told her to suppress the feelings like she does, and let them out later when everyone least expects it not worry about it.

Meanwhile, Dawn's finalizing plans for the sleepover. So, 11 chapters into this book, we FINALLY get to what the title's all about. This book should have been called Dawn and the Great Relief Project or Dawn Saves the Zunis or something. Mary Anne comes home and Dawn tells her the Stoneybrook News interviewed her over the phone, and is coming to the sleepover, with a photographer. The toy store's donating prizes, and Pizza Express is donating pizza, and they'll be bringing their stuff over when the photographer's there. See? Being involved with the BSC is the BEST publicity any business in Stoneybrook could ever ask for!

And there will only be four teachers there. So 100 kids, and four teachers, who I guess are there to pick up the slack while the BSC runs the show since they're so much better with kids than teachers are. And some cafeteria workers are showing up in the morning to cook breakfast, pancakes and juice all donated by the supermarket. Mary Anne and Dawn spend the rest of the chapter organizing games and activities and we can finally move onto the point of this whole book!

[sophieinwonderland]

r/FakeDisorderCringe doesn't know what biblical canon is, atheists are offended by saying God is plural, and other people casually throwing out some blasphemies and ableism!

👎

For uncreative title.

Atheists Pretending To Be Deeply Offended...

So, let me guess, you're not actually Christian are you?

Those guys sure aren't.

So weird how people pretend to be offended over a religion they aren't even a part of.

(Let's be real though, that's most of the tulpa discourse.)

Oh... you considered converting.

That clearly gives you a say in this conversation. /s

Meanwhile, my host actually lived the religion. He was Christian through his teenage years, and as a child helped his mom teach Sunday School and went to sleep every night on a Noah's Ark pillow.

Sorry, I distracted from your point. We're thieves stealing from a religion. 🙄

Okay, let's talk "canon!"

I just... I LOVE this whole conversation! 🤣

THIS is actual cringe.

Does anyone see the issue here?

I'll let u/AdSuccessful3533 spell it out. Possibly the only person with sense in the thread.

It's not just Catholic Canon either, but Biblical Canon! Like, there's a whole Wikipedia article on it!

The sheer self-righteous ignorance of r/Fakerdisordercringe (and r/systemscringe) never ceases to amaze me.

All of these people so bent out of shape over the use of "canon" to describe biblical text as if that's not been in use for hundreds of years!

"Something a middle schooler would say."

The Heresies!

That's correct. This is NOT the modalism heresy.

Modalism suggests God is a single unified being who reveals himself in different forms. God being plural would mean that God is three beings in one. This is completely in-line with the views of Trinitarianism.

An example of the modalism heresy would be more like this...

Comparing God to Optimus Prime, arguing that they're just different forms like Optimus Prime in a truck form vs him in a robot form, is modalism.

But if modalism isn't enough, we've got some tritheism too!

Besides the tritheism... it's really hard to take people who are calling tulpas appropriative seriously when they don't even know basic facts about the most popular religion in the world.

Also, the part about System not being a term for a person with DID is technically correct. System is, rather, the term used for the total collection of all the alters. But it is very much a term used by psychologists and it's accurate to refer to the Trinity as a system in this way.

Also, if the Tritheism bothers you, don't worry! We're going to go right back to modalism.

The H2O metaphor is controversial for the same reason as comparing God to Optimus Prime. It suggests God is simply changing form to become these different things.

Miscellaneous

Can you show me that rabbit hole?

I'm the one who Tweeted that, and have NEVER been on the OSDD sub.

Who do you think I am?

No... it definitely doesn't sound right. Religion shouldn't just be a thing for neurotypicals.

If one believes in God, then surely God made all people, including those of us who have mental illnesses. Why should Christianity and biblical references be kept away from people with mental illness other than ableism?

I mean, if by in peace, you mean without endogenic systems, then no. You can't.

We're here and we aren't going away. Ever.

And we exist in all spaces, including in your churches and your religious communities. And Christian systems shouldn't be expected to hide who they are because our existence bothers bigots like you.

We're going to share this world, and we're going to share spaces. And that includes churches and religious spaces too. Deal with it. 🤷‍♀️

Acknowledgements:

I would like to thank everyone at r/fakedisordercringe for giving me the free material. For a subreddit that's designed to laugh at people for supposed "cringe," you all sure are a goldmine for it! 😜