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Daytrip Illumi my beloved... and poor Darling. You capture how unnerving and unsettling he should be so well!
Illumi should be Strange and Uncanny even at his mildest(? not sure if an Illumi in love could be 'mild', but idk if it could be called volatile either. Darling was right, you can't ever tell with him); man was cosplaying Pinhead for a week. He could talk the whole time but just literally rattled at people. And poor Ghost, my stomach just dropped because everything so far was downright too tame and too thoughtful for a Yandere.
Aside from the porn, I was waiting for that drop. Darling really can't have nice things, can't she? Or rather, she can't have anything he's not able to take. Whether a Darling is defiant (Obedience Training, Ingress) or submissive (Daytrip) he's always going to pile on the trauma.
But the moment he started mouthing and groping at her in the car, I knew he was out of patience. Everything else that day was window dressing and foreplay, and the bit where she picks a cute, frilly, puff-sleeved dress really sold the toy and doll comparison later, she was so right at the observation that Illumi took her as a ballerina for his music box. In the end, the daytrip really wasn't for her to enjoy: he ripped up her dream dress, dashed her hope that her cat was doing well without her, and didn't get to eat anything at the picnic aside from the morsel he gave her. Girl couldn't even enjoy the scenery cause he blocked it off with himself. The end was so despondent in comparison to the beginning where she resolves to take any out that presents itself, falling asleep and giving into the dark (Illumi) swallowing her.
And meanwhile, Illumi's just had an epiphany on why his parents kept having kids even after the designated heir Killua. And also patting himself on the back cause he checked off all the boxes on his 'perfect romantic date to-do list', and gotten the *ideal* ending of having finally lost his v-card. 10/10, Great Day. Would do again sometime (but not too soon).
The juxtapostion between her opinion of how the daytrip went and his opinion of how it went must be... something. I almost don't want to know, and I don't know how to properly describe what this made me feel, but it's visceral.
i love it when you people treat my silly little fics like they need to be studied under a microscope,,,, i will be living on this ask for weeks thank you anon <3
illumi just makes me,,, yeah. i feel like there's so little you can do to actually fight against him (running's not an option when he has you under surveillance 24/7, fighting a seasoned hitman won't end well, etc.), but good behavior only makes him more likely to proceed with the awful things he would've done anyway, had you spent every minute from your inevitably kidnapping kicking, screaming, and cursing his name. he's got a running checklist of uncomfortable positions he'd like to see you in, and it's less a question of when you'll be ready for it and more what he'll have to do to make you compliant enough to be, if not a willing participant, than a docile one. i think he does care about your feelings and you loving him back, but your priorities are so drastically different that you two are never actually going to end up on the same page. in his mind, he's done his research (i.e. played roughly a hundred hours of the most popular dating sims he could get his hands on), been a good partner, and taken very good care of his beloved doll/pet/captive. in yours, you've been violated and abused by the man who both kidnapped you and admitted to killing your cat without blinking, and there's very little reconciliation from there.
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need f1 fanfic recs
im SO fucking glad you asked!
im gonna give you some of my favs here and youll kinda notice a pattern, i guess! im about to expose my whole psyche in front of you.
first, one of my favorite ships is maxiel! but i particularly love anything that explores daniel's character specifically, so my first rec is an entry on Daniel Ricciardo's Internalized Homophobia Fic Fest!
heart's a mess by nunnit - just a great character study of internalized homophobia and trying to no-homo your way out of your own life until you lose the one guy you really loved. warning: there's a bittersweet ending! ships: Jenson Button/Daniel Ricciardo; Cyril Abiteboul/Daniel Ricciardo; Daniel Ricciardo/Max Verstappen; Daniel Ricciardo/Blake Friend; Daniel Ricciardo/OMC
Montreal Bounds by ellipsis99 - this one has a happy ending! daniel's in a complicated relationship with a guy who has a girlfriend and max makes him reconsider a bunch of stuff. ships: Daniel Ricciardo/Max Verstappen; Daniel Ricciardo/Scotty James; (brief Max Verstappen/Pierre Gasly)
pale green things by yekoc - historical fiction set during the tulip fever where jos is a rich tulip trader that commissions daniel to paint a portrait of max for his fiancee. yekoc is a GREAT author, i recommend anything by them! ships: Daniel Ricciardo/Max Verstappen
glory, from a high rise by yekoc - speaking of, another BANGER from yekoc. daniel works at a bar and max is a neurotic alcoholic office worker who's also horny as all hell. there's some commitment issues involved as well. it's perfect. ships: Daniel Ricciardo/Max Verstappen
honorable mentions:
a body wishes to be held and held by CamilleDuDemon
All We Knew of Home by LoveLeah
mon voisin by kitversuskat
now, my second favorite ship, my actual favorite drivers on the grid and the ones i cheer for: galex! <3
table in the back by crescenteluce - if you love miscommunication you'll love this one, the dialogue is so precise like you can clearly see how one would misinterpret what the other is saying and at the same time you get why the other person didn't even realize a misunderstanding happened aaaaaaarrrrgghhhh it's a bit infuriating too but so so good. ships: George Russell/Alex Albon
footnote in someone else's happiness by finedae - in this one george and alex kind of have a fucked up relationship... they break up so george can date women and fit in the box expected of him, but stays in touch with alex and alex has to, as the author put it themselves, keep things real. ships: George Russell/Alex Albon
ode to a conversation stuck in your throat by prettyrotten - this ones also crazy good and revolves around miscommunication.. i guess this is my favorite trope for them for some reason. george humiliates himself to keep his relationship with alex who just decides how george feels and makes things shitty for everyone. must warn you that i almost cried with this one, very angsty, but with a happy ending! ships: George Russell/Alex Albon
honorable mentions:
take care of you (take care of me) by ginnydear
Strike a Pose by amphibiangeorgerussell
carry you home (orphan work)
another ship that i adore is charlos! their dynamic is very interesting to me... between them and between ferrari and also i just like carlos and want to study him under a microscope. can't wait to find out how his chemistry will play out with alex once they're teammates tbh
In for a penny, in for a pound by chiliconcarlos - this one's the quintessential charlos fic; a required reading, if you will. charles gets drunk and hires an escort to accompany him at a wedding so he doesn't show up alone in front of his ex. he thinks he hired a female escort, but then carlos shows up and... the rest is history. just a very very good fic. ships: Carlos Sainz Jr/Charles Leclerc
the same as all those men by almondmilkk - idk about you but i'm obsessed with cowboys and this is THE cowboy au... carlos has a lot of repressed feelings and internalized homophobia and charles just doesn't give a fuck anymore, it's glorious. ships: Carlos Sainz Jr/Charles Leclerc
my blood is singing with your voice (the saints can't help me now) by choripan - if you like catholic guilt, this one's for you! there's a lot of religious imagery in this one and it's just... chef's kiss. charles and carlos meet at an abandoned church while on vacation at mallorca with their respective families. ships: Carlos Sainz Jr/Charles Leclerc
honorable mentions:
semiotic study by linearity
says he's gonna teach me just what fast is by foggystars
can't sleep 'til I feel your touch by chiliconcarlos
and now.... for my most deranged ship: george and lance. "WTF??" you may ask, and i say "don't knock it till you try it!" think of it this way: george is stuck up and hates himself a little and lance is just there and doesn't give a fuck and is the pillowest of princesses. unfortunately few see the vision so there isn't much, but i can't recommend enough Lesson Learned by bottomtxt who's also one of my favorite fanartist here on tumblr and the one who opened my eyes to this AMAZING ship dynamic! finger trap by rivalism is my other recommendation for this criminally underrated ship!
and this is it! i hope you'll enjoy it
ps.: sorry for taking a while but as you can see i was taking this very seriously and i had some college stuff to get done at the same time etc etc... feel free to keep talking to be about it, tho :)
#i swear i didnt send this ask to myself#f1 fic rec#fic rec#f1#formula 1#maxiel#galex#charlos#george/lance#they dont have a ship name i dont think? only crazy people like this one#ask me why#anon
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LMK Fish OC anyone?
#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#lmk oc#last picture is a blue and violet referance but it really doesn't matter#all you need to know about this guy is that he's fish with a little too much time on his hands#not related to the goldfish demon in any way whatsoever#he needs to he studied under a microscope
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I desperately need Imp and Skizz to convince Etho to pay Phasmophobia with them. He doesn’t need to stream it, I just need to know how he acts when presented with a series of tasks and a ghost.
#i desperately need to finish those xisuma streams where he played phasmo with them#he’s such a coward <3#but now i want to study etho under the same microscope#ethoslab#implusesv#skizzleman#hermitcraft#mcyt#sharp has too many thoughts
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pony homelander
also this doodle i did of him n my sona
#art stuff#digital art#doodles#digital aritst#mlp#my little pony#my litte pony friendship is magic#ponified#homelander#the boys#the boys homelander#the boys series#the boys fanart#homelander fanart#self insert#i hate him sm what’s wrong w him he’s so stupid#i love him in an autistic way#need to study him under a microscope#i thought i’d be funny to turn him into a pony#it’s bc of a tt#squidflavoredsoup
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Flowey’s so funny and has me so fucked up like he’s a talking flower. He tries to kill you upon your first interaction. He is ten years old. He is damaged beyond repair. He’s a flower named Flowey. He’s become friends with every single character. He’s killed all of them countless times. He knows everything about everyone. He doesn’t care anymore. He takes care of his mom when she can’t take care of herself. He’s killed her before. He doesn’t care if you kill her. He thinks she’s trying to replace him. He just wants to be himself again. He wants to destroy everything. He hates you. You’re the only one who understands him. He wants his best friend back. He’s terrified of them. He believes in kill or be killed because he died by giving mercy to the wrong person. He believes himself to be the wrong person. He doesn’t understand when you show him that kindness he showed others, even when you know he could kill you for it. He’s tried every route. He asks you if you have anything better to do when you try to do the same. He’s a direct reflection of the player. He’s a fucking talking flower named flowey and his only voice line is by Ronald McDonald and his officially licensed plush does a little dance for you
#‘Flowey would listen to i bet on losing dogs by Mitski and cry until he throws up and Chara calls him cringe from beyond the grave’#-me to my friend when I ranted about this last night#he has me so fucked up like oh my god#how is the best character a fucking talking flower#I love undertale’s writing so much like it’s mastered minimal evidence giving away the biggest parts of characters#i can analyze him i can study him under a microscope#i can put him in a terrarium with a sticky note that says gay baby jail you know#he has me SO fucked up#flowey#flowey the flower#asriel#asriel dreemurr#I’m talking about flowey btw not asriel i know they’re the same person but not to me#like how i consider little baby me and fucked up 13 year old me different people#asriel sits on the playground and cries when nobody wants to play warrior cats with him#and flowey sits in the back of classrooms and answers ‘life is MEANINGLESS’ to every question#not speaking from experience ofc (im lying)#love my edgy flower *puts a magnifying glass up to him and notes how fucked up he is*#i think more characters need to be fucked up beyond repair#undertale#utdr#character analysis
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514 year-old ipad kid armand CONFIRMED!
#interview with the vampire#armand#assad zaman#he is so dear to me 🥰#minecraft of all things… i need to study him under a microscope
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#so unserious 😂💖
#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#loki#lokiedit#marveledit#and in doing so is actually the most serious of them all which is why he's a master at the craft 🥰#the chimp documentary still has me on the floor though god i love owen so much#honestly need to study him under a microscope lmao there's no one in existence more fascinating and his choices elevate every scene#for my anon who wanted some panel gifs! apologies that the quality is obviously rough but this was my fav available moment 😂#as usual their improv saves lives i'm never getting tired of them discussing how much they added to the show#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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i just finished the be more chill book and?? i did NOT expect the squip to be so nice?? he’s just kinda stupid not evil like the musical
#i think if musical squip tried to pull that shit with book jeremy jeremy would shoot him with a gun#i love book jeremy so much he’s so peculiar i want to study him under a microscope#also i love book michael so much he’s so weird slash positive#the book was so enjoyable guys i NEED to read it again#i quite like the ending bit. jeremy and michael are so best friends guys ☹️☹️ they’re so important to me#i don’t know why i have such a strong urge to draw book michael#be more chill
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Same...
#joker out#bojan cvjetićanin#jan peteh#pookies <3#he looks like his favorite insect the praying mantis in pic two and i need to study him under a microscope
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As an ace person I love how Shen Qingqiu assumes asexuality in people around him after transmigrating before even considering the possibility of bi or homosexuality. Like he builds up this whole straight vs. ace binary where he interprets people as the latter if he has to admit they might not be the former, and meanwhile I'm just here feeling all like "bro how DO you know about asexuality even given your spotty track record surrounding queer knowledge—"
#svsss#ITS SO FUNNY TO ME#like he just. skips right past gayness and straight to aceness#like thats the only possible alternative#not even when that feels insufficient does he seem to think further on it but just#leaves it at that#i need to study him under a microscope#not that i think that will make him any more comprehensible#(affectionate)#shen qingqiu#shen yuan
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“i miss playing with you” now at first i took this as him being a little shit and on the surface it was but this is actually him laying on his back buttnaked baring his belly to art. he misses him not just messing with him, playing tennis goofing around (friends/situationship?) he misses HIM. but art takes this at face value and patrick’s chronic smirk doesn’t help so🤷🏾♀️ (god these guys needed to get their shit together so bad)
#artpatrick#artrick#challengers#i need to study them under a microscope#homoerotic friendships in movies are so back like this is some golden age level of queer male friendship#fucking would actually make them worse#something something he wanted him dead he wanted him all to himself#patrick knows he’s in love with art art either doesn’t realize he’s in love with patrick or ignores it#messy bisexuals
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i feel like these two super fun and very cool facts about dorian's life in the squall do not get nearly as much weight as they should and if we don't ever get more of his backstory by the end of the campaign i will lose it.
#every now and then i remember these neat little tidbits and feel. crazy.#like no wonder he can be just straight up mean when he feels like he needs to be#idk i just want to study him and his backstory under a microscope and i need him back so i can do it#k watches cr3#c3e2#c3e12#bell's hells#dorian storm#critical role
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my friend just sent me some gay disco elysium fanfiction that he created in collage mode where he made kim and harry passionately smooch while cuno shouted slurs at them. he is a heterosexual male.
#he's such an interesting critter#need to put bro under a microscope#study his brain#i asked him why and he just said “let me cook”#disco elysium#harrykim#kim kitsuragi#harry du bois#kimharry
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sukuna is actually messier that he let’s on. he acts like a deity, which everyone falls for… everyone except for yuuji that is. yuuji despises sukuna, sukuna despises yuuji and honestly if it weren’t for yuuji (and uraume, but on that later) all of us would probably only see sukuna as some evil god that only wants to corrupt and destroy which truthfully… is exactly what we see most of the time. however, sukuna never refers to himself as the honoured one or the strongest or even the king of curses it’s everyone else who does (even the narrator), but he still plays along. the only time we can see him act rather casually is when he’s around uraume cause even around them he doesn’t really act like an evil god everyone sees him as. another instance is yuuji. yuuji has got to be the only person that gets on sukuna’s nerves and doesn’t revel in his god like greatness. in fact he defines it and sukuna does not like that one bit. that’s why he retorts to petty insults that don’t even hold much weight and only says more about sukuna himself than yuuji, which also reveals sukuna's own inner conflict. sukuna is not a deity as much as he wants to act like one. he has has this messy and dare even I say human side to him that only two people managed to get access to.
sukuna is someone who actively rejects his humanity - turning and twisting it into something that fits his ideal worldview - but he can’t completely escape it no matter how much he tries to…
Q: Does he still posses the memories when he was a human?
A: Seems like he does. There’s only subtle recognition from Sukuna himself and everyone around him that Sukuna is “human”.
#I love talking about sukuna's twisted humanity#I need to put him under a microscope and study him#he makes me insane#just absolutely deranged#ryomen sukuna#sukuna angst hrs
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wilson is like one of those bitches who puts nicotine patches on their partner in their sleep so that they’ll subconsciously crave their presence and associate their time together with the gratification of it. except instead of doing it sneakily, he openly (even reluctantly) exists as the main source of house’s vicodin prescriptions, not only providing him with the high but maintaining this pavlovian dynamic where he actively contributes to house’s pain relief & survival. he’s essentially his lifeline. and for the most part, he doesn’t even do it on purpose!!! because aside from the literal drug connection, that’s what his friendship is to house, too. what bonnie said about how wilson just tries to be a Good and Normal friend but ‘once you’re the subject of all that attention, it’s addictive’. in season 8, he says “I cannot be responsible for the happiness of gregory house.” and then has the audacity to look shocked when foreman replies, “You are responsible, though.” it’s like he’s painfully aware of their fucked up codependency but simply turns his face away from it. he’s even in denial until the very last moment, until it’s not only his upcoming death on the horizon, but the knowledge that they’re both free. I always found his smile after ‘I’m dead, wilson’ a little chilling. because it feels like he knows what that means — the larger, lethal implications of house disregarding any worry about his own future — and only then is he done fighting it.
#sorry if this is incoherent#house md#hilson#house/wilson#james wilson#greg house#gregory house#I can see house doing the nicotine thing fr but I can’t see wilson doing it covertly#simply because he can never keep it quiet when he pulls off a covert little manipulation#he’s too proud of himself#most of the insane boundary-violating things that house has done he’s only done to satiate his own curiosity#but wilson does them specifically for house’s validation#like the antidepressant thing or the healthy eating#he knows house loves it when he’s a manipulative bitch#so he’d never keep it a secret#whereas house has probably violated every law of privacy towards him w/o ever mentioning it#I need to study them under a microscope etc etc#also can you tell that my personal experience is bleeding into this a little bit#I used to give my (prescribed) adderall to druggies for free in high school because it made them like me more 😬#and I gaslit myself into thinking I was doing them a solid / doing a positive thing#as if I wasn’t just depriving myself of medication that I needed as well as feeding the addiction of unhealthily high-reliant kids#processing my own issues via james wilson meta >>#I’m also now realising that this teeters into the horrors of mortality a little bit more than just doomed old man yaoi#i’m sorry i’ve spent a year in the hannibal fandom I forgor we’re not meant to casually drop references to percieved suicide pacts#between our blorblos
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