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kolyubov · 10 months ago

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sigma nsfw hcs

Sigma nsfw headcanons! + short scenario.

✧ pairing: Sigma x fem!reader

✧ word count: 1.4k

✧ contents: nsfw, creampie/unprotected sex, praising, brief manhandling, soft!dom sigma.

✧ author's note: SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG NONNIE 😣😣 I'm veryvery sorry, I'm kissing your forehead as an apology. btw, I'm very shy to post this idk wWHY if this is not the first time I'm writing nsfw lmao.

I'd say Sigma is soft!dom. He can be submissive if you want to, or when he's too tired after a long day of work and lets you take the lead as he lies on the bed, but he prefers to be the one worshiping you and making you feel good while his hands caress every inch of your body.

Definitely was a virgin before meeting you; that doesn't mean he doesn't know what sex is, he probably learned a few things about it and even masturbated before.

Sigma is sensitive— like, you sitting on his lap innocently usually gets him half hard. The feeling of your soft ass against his crotch awakens something in him, and he's a bit ashamed that he gets aroused easily but that's because he loves you so much and his body cannot help but react at your touch.

When he makes out with you, he usually gets too caught up and starts grinding against your body until either of you decides to pull away with flushed cheeks and heavy breathing.

Gets turned on by seeing you wearing his shirt and nothing else.

Sometimes he ties his hair up to eat you out because he knows he's going to be at least ten minutes licking your cunt even after you climax (He could keep going for longer but his jaw needs a break). Other times he's too desperate and forgets to put his hair in a bun or a ponytail and you have to hold his hair up for him.

Like I said in this, he likes creampies. Filling you up and seeing how both of your combined fluids slip out of your pussy gives him satisfaction.

He could probably just cum from hearing you call him a “good boy” or telling him that he's “doing so well” with a breathy voice as you ride him.

Making love should be comfortable for both of you; so he's not a big fan of quickies, let alone in risky places where someone could find you engaging in such activities. But, If he's too needy he'll accept you stroking him or sucking him off in his office or somewhere he's sure no one is going to catch you.

Secretly enjoys the hickeys he left on your neck or shoulders even if he denies it and apologizes to you with puppy eyes for it. Sigma knows that anyone who sees those purple or red hues in your skin is going to know that you belong to him.

Also secretly likes the idea of sitting on your lap and nuzzling against the crook of your neck as you wrap your hand around his shaft, stroking him and whispering against his ear until he cums all over your palm like a good boy.

Sigma loves you so much inside and out, but if he has to choose a favorite part of your body it'll be your breasts (no matter the size) and your waist. Under a sexual context or not, he likes kneading on those spots.

He doesn't like it rough, but when he's too desperate he'll unintentionally scratch your skin with his pretty lilac nails; could it be your hips, waist, ass, or thighs. Or he’ll force your head to take him deeper if you're sucking him off. (Apologies a lot after and feels bad)

He doesn’t have any favorite positions, as long as he's able to see the pleasure in your face, that's enough for him.

Whimpers and moans, no matter if he's sub or dom, but he bites his lip to hide them, although when he's close to cumming he'll be all loud without even realizing it.

After the sex ends, he likes to stay inside of you as his cock softens before actually pulling out, then he presses kisses all over your face and chest before helping you to stand to take a shower together… which could maybe lead to another round.

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“You're so pretty… My precious girl...” Sigma's hands grip your waist tighter, squeezing your skin as your hips bounce up and down his cock— skin slapping against skin. His head is thrown back against the headboard as pleasure curses his body; your warm walls feel like heaven even if he has already felt it multiple times before.

The room was filled with wet squelching noises and moans that neither of you noticed were escalating louder with each thrust— Luckily, the walls were thick enough so the sounds escaping from the two of you were not heard by other people.

Sigma nuzzles his face in your chest, white and lilac locks of hair tickle your skin as his arms wrap around your waist, pulling you flush against his warm body and keeping you still with his cock buried inside you.

Both of you —now completely unmoving— were recovering your breaths, panting heavily.

As you run a hand through his hair, making him look up at you, Sigma’s cock twitches. Seeing such a gorgeous woman in front of him; hair messy, lipstick smudged that probably stained his lips as well, hickeys that decorate your neck, shoulders, and chest… How could he not feel like he was in heaven?

“Darling, could you please lie down?” He whispers with heavy breathing, pecking your chin before you slowly pull away from his arms to lie on the mattress.

Sigma smiles softly at the sight, his delicate fingers push away any lock of hair that's covering your pretty red face that he loves so much. Then, he places his hands on your knees, spreading your legs further before sliding his cock inside again, groaning at the tightness surrounding him.

His hips began moving slowly, choosing to admire how your face contoured in pleasure. Butterflies fluttered on his tummy when his eyes met with yours, looking at your pretty lips parted and your perfect breasts jiggling as his hips slammed against yours.

Sigma's heart was beating too fast, not only because of the pleasure of making love with you but also because of his adoration for you.

He notices the way your body squirms and the way your walls contract around his cock— he's good at memorizing things, and the reactions of your body are something he knows very well.

“Are you close, princess?” He asks, and you nod eagerly, wrapping your legs around his hips.

The hand that was on your breast moves to one of your hands, locking your fingers with his and brushing his fingertips over the back of your hand in a soothing way.

You felt loved by his sweet caresses and words— he was so sweet and delicate with you, despite sometimes getting too engrossed in the moment and leaving a couple of marks on your body, but that's just proof of his love for you, so you don't mind.

Sigma's forehead lies against your shoulder, and you can clearly hear his breathy whines as he nears his orgasm. His hand tightens around yours as his thrusts get faster until he eventually stops when the tip of his cock nudges your womb; spurts of white fluid paint your insides.

The moans and whine you let are music to his ears and he'll never get tired of hearing them, it's proof of how good he's making you feel.

“God… Oh my god…” He hisses out, lazily moving his hips back and forth, driving his orgasm longer until you tap his back for him to stop, too stimulated to continue.

Sigma is quick to cup your cheek and press slow and gentle kisses over your face, moving down to your neck and finishing at your chest. His lips tickle you, making you giggle and squirm.

“Hey…” You whine, looking down at his puppy eyes.

“What's wrong, angel?”

“Tickles.”

He snorts, pulling away and placing his hands on the mattress as support before slowly pulling out of you while biting his lower lip, and muffling a moan.

His hands carefully grab your waist, helping you to sit up on the messy bed that feels a little bit too comfortable right now— You want to just lie back and sleep with him in your arms.

“I'm too sleepy to take a shower now…”

Sigma chuckles, pecking your nose before scooping you and carrying you like a damsel in distress. Your protests fall on deaf ears.

“Don't worry, I’ll clean you while you sleep in the bathtub, how does that sound?”

A smile spreads across his face as you nuzzle against his neck and close your eyes— Your expression is so peaceful that he can feel his heartbeat slowing down just from seeing how peaceful you look right now.

Sigma will do anything for you. He loves you so much.

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chimkin-samich · 8 months ago

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Hi :> So idk if this has been asked at all or not, but how do the boys act if they somehow get high or drunk bc I seen in your recent cowboy comic that sun was.. Yeah and how does Tari react to it?

Hello!

Considering it’s the Wild West, drinking and smoking are a common thing so it’s something they both partake in often, though Moon does prefer drinking while Sun prefers smoking, the amount of how much they do it depends on where they are,

At home they’ll let loose and take as much as they want, anywhere else that poses as a risk they do in moderation, not enough to cause an issue if they need to get out of trouble, though if they agree one will babysit while the other lets loose but it’s not a common occurrence

Now! As to how they are during I’ll put under the cut, have a feeling it’s gonna be long lol

Moon like I said prefers drinking, when he gets drunk he lets loose a lot, his constant hyper awareness is at a minimum and he can actually relax and is a bit goofy and playful, as well as having almost no filter, if he sees a pretty woman he will tell her lmao but it comes out as starstruck

Smoking is a similar situation, though he can be very forgetful (which is how Sun can trick him to smoke more than he realizes lmao) the no filter plays in also with him constantly question everything in his sight, wether it be something as simple as when did they get a new chicken to asking about the meaning of life, he’s also very giggly

As for Sun! He very much prefers smoking over drinking any day but he doesn’t mind a drink here and there especially if Moon makes him a cocktail he enjoys, but if he’s just looking to get messed up he will create what he calls a potion of many different alcohols that Moon prefers to call “an atrocity to robokind”

A drunk Sun is basically just more impulsive and reckless than a sober Sun, if the thought to jump off to the roof in an attempt to fly comes to mind HE WILL DO IT, luckily for things like this they usually hide anything that can make Sun want to cause mass destruction before hand, they’ve learned the hard way on how to avoid disasters

For the smoking, Sun is actually a bit more relaxed at least physically, he’s still just as out of pocket if not even more with what he says, smoking helps his body slow down or it can do the reverse, it’s a surprise and also how much he smokes affects the result as well

When the reverse happens, he can not sit still for the life of him and NEEDS to move around and do something, it usually ends up with him doing some weird acrobatics or creating something with whatever he finds laying around the room

Tari is a of course wary of them when their intoxicated at first, she’s seen first hand the atrocities that people have done both without and under the influence, so she doesn’t join them the first time other than having a singular drink, the wariness instantly flies out the window watching them tho lmao

She finds It absolutely hilarious to watch them both alone and interact, it’s also a bit endearing how Moon just stares at her and when questioned simple scowls and huffs out how it should be illegal for someone to be this beautiful before starting a heavy debate with Sun about how someone so beautiful can exist (it’s a common occurrence even before she was invited to their place)

She thinks their adorable and hilarious, she very much enjoys watching just how human the Celestial Bandits are, and if she gets some teasing blackmail and see how the two always end up cuddling when they crash she counts it as a bonus

#mods speaketh #mod sly #tw drinking #tw smoking #it’s mentioned but no images

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novastarrart · 3 months ago

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Banban/Devil Headcanons

Just wanna get my thoughts out there so here goes. It's a lot so, there's your warning lmao

*Note: For simplicity's sake I’ll refer to normal Banban as Uthman and the actual researcher/genome donor as Dr. Uthman*

Banban/Uthman:

All the mascots seem pretty tall so I hc him to be like 6'5"?

His tongue hangs out of his mouth constantly, it was done this way to make him more appealing/cute to kids.

That being said, When he's aware, he can keep his tongue in his mouth, usually to talk. But absentmindedly it just sorta lolls out.

He has a form of body dysphoria, being that he sees himself as a human, even when looking in a mirror.

This is why he hates being called Banban and not by his "true" name Uthman (or Adam if he knows you well enough).

However, he doesn't get too angry if you don't know about all that in the first place. Still, he'll correct you with some annoyance (Like he did with Bittergiggle in part V).

He has some memory problems, due to his own memories mingling with Dr. Uthman’s. Sometimes he’ll forget who another mascot is (Like when he referred to Nabnab as “That thing down there”. Or when Sir Dadadoo first appeared: “Hey is that a friend of yours?”)

The party hats hide his horns, this was partially his choice, and partially the researcher's. They were worried the horns would scare the children, so they decided to hide them with something “fun”. He doesn't mind them though, he wants to look as human as possible.

His voice is very apathetic and monotonous, he doesn't have much control over this, it's just natural at this point. Whether or not his donor, the real Dr. Uthman, spoke like this, I haven't decided on. He definitely has an accent of some sort, which he picked up from Dr. Uthman.

He's actually a lot more emotive than he is in the game! Although he does usually default to that goofy smile

He doesn't really blink! He can close his eyes, and has eyelids, but for some reason he just cannot blink. He does not realize this at all, and it unintentionally scares others.

Thanks to his donor, he's very intelligent and can actually perform a lot of different surgeries and has a vast knowledge of medicine. He obviously uses this to his advantage to uhh open up victims.

He can consume human food and drinks, but it really doesn’t do anything for him nutritional wise, this is more than likely why he feels consistent pain near his abdomen

Hellish Banban/The Devil:

So comparing the models, bro is taller than regular Banban, so he's probably like 7ft tall

Definitely more muscular and stronger, has better endurance too

VERY FERAL. He relies on pure animalistic instinct in this form, although he is still capable of speech if he needs to speak.

Loses his "human" side and gives in to his more monstrous side. Any human memories are probably just gone at the time.

Speaking of which, If you call him Uthman, he'll probably just laugh and rip you apart. He does answer to Devil/Demon or just Hellish for simplicity's sake.

As said before, this feral side is triggered by adrenaline. Usually triggers when Uthman is about to die or is severely hurt (sorta like a Bruce Banner/Hulk sorta relationship).

His horns grow longer and sharper in this form, as well as his teeth. This is... probably pretty obvious why.

He seems to lose his pupils in this form? Uthman's eyes turn all white when he's turned or about to turn.

And that's an indicator you should start running!

Relies more so on his sense of smell, then his sight to find his prey. I like to think his tongue is like a snake which he uses to pick up scents/vibrations (another reason it hangs out).

He can DEFINITELY smell human's organs/blood/etc.

He can probably also pinpoint if something is medically wrong with their organs too (Diabetic, kidney failure, heart problems, etc.). This would be very useful, however he's not really thinking of helping you right now.

He's a lot tougher and can handle being banged/smashed around (Like that fight with Jumbo Josh). He’s VERY hard to kill.

He'll eat any organ honestly, Pancreases are just his favorite! (Maybe they're sweeter due to them producing insulin? Who knows!)

Still has some intelligence, but this is mostly overridden by adrenaline and instinct to eat and kill others. Overall, he doesn’t think correctly when in this form and will do things that are harmful to himself and others without much thought.

Aaaaand that's about it for now? Let me know what you think if you want!

#Not art #nova speaks #Headcanons #banban #garten of banban #gobb banban #hellish banban #gobb

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toomanywordsnllines · 2 years ago

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Okay so today it’s seems like a ‘Roach thoughts have just taken over my brain’ day. So I was thinking about his relationship with Ghost... and then I thought about how he would feel after Ghost started dating Soap and hmmm I might’ve written 1k words of it lmao. So here have them! Hope you enjoy them

Jealous.

He’s not– No it’s not that he isn’t. It’s that he doesn’t want to feel like this. Jealousy was always something bitter to taste. His mother would scold him when little, saying that such ugly feelings were not to be felt, especially not towards a friend. Someone important to you. So it’s not that Roach isn’t jealous of his friend. He is. And the fact that he is, is what hurts the most. It anger’s him in a way, it feels disgusting and it burns, like bile. He worked so hard to get those two idiots together. Because Ghost deserved it. He deserved someone who understood him and treated him right, who took what he was and worked with that instead of waiting for change. Someone more than Roach– more than Gary. (Because he always gave him that, he always saw Simon for who he was and never took more than was enough. So, perhaps that’s why it hurts so much.)

But he knew, learned from a young age, that people are never truly completed until they find their second half. That friends are there as place holders and should not cling like desperate children when the other finds the right one.

It’s a bittersweet little thing when he realizes that he’ll never have that and his place will always be as second, third, another option, a passing thought.

He’s never been one for self loathing (that’s a lie) but…

It hurts, worse than a bullet or a knife to the gut. It’s heartbreak and it’s worse than any other broken relationship he’s ever had. Because– because it’s his best friend leaving him.

And he feels so alone.

“Hiding in the shadow’s tends to be my thing, ya know.”

“A little selfish of you.” He looks up at the man standing in front of him, as usual covering all light with his huge fucking size, he looks him in the eyes and he looks… happy, content. Roach feels himself smiling absently, looking away and staring at the ‘Lieutenant Riley’ embroidered on his jumper.

Ghost hums, keeping his stance between Roach’s legs watching them swing idly.

“What’s up,” he asks, voice soft and comforting.

The ball that forms on Roach’s throat tastes a lot like grief. He’s going to lose all of this and he doesn’t know what to feel. Slash his belly open and he might know how to close the wound. Tear his heart from his chest and… Slowly taking a deep breath, slow and controlled, steady so it looks normal and not like he’s trying to pull himself together, he lifts his hands and signs: ‘Tired.’ He sees Ghost cocking his head to the side, analyzing him. He always hated when he did that. Made him feel like a caged animal in the zoo, he mindlessly thinks about kicking him for it.

“That all?”

No– no that’s not all, that’s not even scratching the surface. Tired does not even begin to describe the sinking feeling of absolute dread that’s taking all his organs down. It does not describe how he’s stupidly grieving someone who’s alive and healthy and still pretty much there. It can’t explain how it feels like a hole has been placed in place of his heart. Cold. Empty. Alone, alone, alone- “I’ll leave you to it, then.”

‘I’ll leave you to it, then.’ ‘I’ll leave you to it, then.’ ‘I’ll leave you to it–’ ‘I’ll leave you–’ ‘I’ll leave you.’ ‘I’ll leave you.’

It’s like something snaps. Dizziness overcomes him with how fast he looks up. And he feels himself watch– He watches– He’s watching as Ghost turns his back to him. He’s leaving– Maybe it’s the word ‘leave’. Perhaps the ‘I’ll’ with the ‘you’. But panic wells in his chest and he’s watching – rewatching – through a head filled with water, Simon’s back again before they march to a mission that would lead to their almost death. It’s watching Simon slowly bleed out before he can do anything. It’s watching death try to take him away. It’s watching Simon take his heart and leaving him to bleed without meaning too. He’s watching death taking him

Himself.

He makes some type of noise, or grunt or something because Ghost is pausing and turning around– but Roach has lost control of his body the moment Simon started going away. He falls from where he was sitting, stumbles and slams against Ghost’s back, twisting the fabric between his hands

The man pauses.

And Roach tries to take a deep breath, but everything is so much and too little. He feels so empty and so– sad. He feels so sad He bunches the jumper in his hands– he’s going to lose his best friend–

“Ro–”

“Don’t leave me.”

And Ghost – Simon – might be dense as a god damned brick wall when it comes to his own feelings. But he’s also a caring soul at heart and observant at mind. He understands that those three small, insignificant words might as well be Roach putting his gun on Ghost’s hand and asking him to end it already. He understands. So it’s with little to no words that he turns around again and holds Roach closer, tighter. Holds him together as he falls apart. Agony is what the tears that drip down his chin feel like. Relief in his hiccups. Desperation in his hold.

He’s going to lose this. He’s a mess. He feels twenty again going through his first mission and having a strong hand on his back comforting him. He feels some years after that, all the years after that, and all his fallings and stumbles. How there was always a hand there, heavy and clumsy in its comfort. But always there. Not making him talk when he couldn’t, learning and finding a way to understand him when no one would. There. Always there. He’s going– “I’m here,” a pause, a nudge at his temple, “‘m not going anywhere.” The arms around him tighten even more it’s suffocating – he needs it tighter – it’s warm, it’s safe and it’s sleepless night’s talking about anything and it’s sneaking into medbay when you shouldn’t and it’s warm tea and– “If not even death can take me, you really think a hot headed Scot would?”

–It 's Simon.

It’s a little all over the place but that was a mixture of doing it on purpose (emotions are hard and jumbled, no use making them look neat) and me not being the best of writers XD

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moodymisty · 2 years ago

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Warm Hands

Author's Note: Continuing my Wrecker era. Y'all are just along for the ride lmao

I honestly hate this, but it's been taking up space in my wips for too long so I just cranked it out so I can work on other things. I hope at least one person can enjoy it.

Summary: Wrecker has a crush, and it's incredibly obvious.

Relationships: Wrecker/Fem!Reader

Warnings: NSFW, Wrecker doesn’t just eat pussy he eats pussy, Fluff and Spice, Oral, Handholding

Word count: 4875

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99 doesn’t get shore leave often; And when they do, they more often then not find it getting interrupted by some form of emergency that for some reason, only they can solve.

But right now that isn’t the case, so one of the things they're most eager for is food. Actual food; Not barely qualifying, GAR regulated slop. It's a rare treat, and not any of them would dare give up the opportunity. Not many clones would. And while Tech's been trying to pressure one of them into being an extra set of hands for some upgrades to the ship, pretty much everyone is more concerned about eating than getting a 0.3% increase in hyperdrive performance. Once Tech realizes he’s lost the battle to try and rope in an assistant, Hunter speaks up.

“Fine, let’s get something to eat then. There's gotta be something decent close by.” suddenly, Wrecker bolts upright as if he's been shocked.

“I’ll go!”

And then realizing he had laid it on far too thick, he suddenly becomes overly nonchalant; Crossing his arms and leaning back against the wall of the ship looking in every direction but Hunter’s face.

“If, you need me to.” Hunter furrows his brow, examining the veritable buffet of emotions Wrecker is currently showing. He’s nervous, judging by the increased heartbeat that Hunter can easily hear, more than likely because he’s clearly lying. That thought is further proven right by the way his body looks hotter, as he’s pulling at the collar of his body glove. He's acting like someone being interrogated and he's the one who spoke up.

“What, going to go visit your little ladybird?”

Crosshair is leaned against the co-pilot's seat, now knowing he caught Wrecker in a corner with a single sentence. He’d done well enough hiding it from them for a bit; But Wrecker’s a terrible secret keeper, and once you start pulling on the string…

“W-what? No I-" Wrecker shuts his mouth and looks around for a moment, realizing he’s completely caught. There's no getting out of this one.

“How’d you know?”

“Because he went to find you last time and saw.” Tech speaks up from the pilot's seat, raising his eyebrows. “It doesn’t take an hour and a half to order food.” Wrecker shrinks into his shoulders as much as a man his size can, as he feels three pairs of curious eyes on him. Very curious eyes, as now that the lie -or at least attempt at one- is out of the way, they're all quite curious to know about all of this.

“You've also been communicating via comm message.” That gets a reaction out of Hunter, who glances at Tech and then back to Wrecker. Hunter glares at him, knowing that’s a massive security risk. But it seems Tech had it covered. At least enough so to soothe a bit of Hunter's worries.

“It’s end to end encrypted, so nothing is at immediate risk.” Tech still leans over the armrest and gives Wrecker a stern look anyways.

“But do keep it at a minimum, will you?” Wrecker nods, having been scolded well more than enough for the time being. It's then that Hunter gives in, and shakes his head. He’s going to have to remind himself later to argue with Tech on why he didn’t tell him this was happening, granted it wasn’t the first time Tech had done something of the sort.

“Just, don't take too long."

Instantly Wrecker goes from thoroughly scolded to upright and about ready to bolt, moving to open the gangplank. Hunter was about to tell him to keep a low profile, but he's already a good ways off by the time Hunter opens his mouth. Wrecker doesn't even look back, he's so hyper-focused on his goal now as he goes out of view of the Marauder.

He's glad everything worked out the way it had; As he'd actually already told you he was on his way. If they’d have insisted he stay, it wouldn’t have be out of the question that he’d just fight his way out to go see you. On his path to get where you were both meeting up he ends up wandering an area of upper Coruscant he isn’t familiar with; One that clearly isn't used to seeing clones. At least ones not wearing that distinctive shade of Coruscant Guard red.

And even then, it wouldn't be surprising if they didn't get an overly warm welcome. But Wrecker doesn’t care in the least what they think, and nor do you. But it’s not exactly a secret that clones are barred from most ‘higher brow’ establishments, after all; Though it's not something he's ever had to deal with, or even really had to think about until you.

'Let them stare then,'

Is the main thought he has on the matter, before throwing the thought out completely as he weaves easily through the crowd. He spots you not to long after, and gains a wide smile almost instantly at the sight. You're under one of the awnings of a drink stall, holding something as you look around through the sea of people. He recognizes your coat instantly and comes barreling for you, accidentally knocking a few people aside. They yell at him, but nothing more beyond that. It’s because of that and the paint job on his armor sticking out so much, that you see him approaching. It’s been a long while since you’ve last seen him and you’re eager to finally talk face to face again. You wish they didn’t work him -and all the clones- so hard, as sometimes no matter how hard he tries to hide it, you can tell when Wrecker is beat.

Not this time however, as he comes right for you and swoops you up into a hug, lifting you high up off the ground has his arms tighten around you waist. It’s only after he puts you down and you finally cease your laughing that you can speak to him, a smile hurting your cheeks.

"You're here! It’s been way too long! Here; For you." He eyes the cup you’re holding out for him, while the other clearly for yourself; As he sees the stain where you've already taken a drink.

"Whats this?" Wrecker wouldn't be Wrecker if he refused food, and happily takes it from your hand and downs a huge chug before you actually answer.

“Don’t really know; But it’s pretty good.” It's something he's never tried before, and it's more than good enough to be halfway gone by the time you ask him about tonight.

"So, what did you have in mind for us to do?" Quickly swallowing down his giant mouthful he looks at you confused. "What do ya' mean?" You take a much smaller mouthful, stepping away from the stand as to not clog up the queue.

"You said you had something in mind to do with me when we met up, right? That's what you messaged me." Wrecker, clearly skimming his recent memory, comes up blank. He must've just thrown it out in an attempt to get you to see him. It wasn't like you would've even considered declining, but Wrecker has a bit of trouble thinking before he speaks. He thinks on it for another moment, but comes up completely empty. It makes him a bit bashful, rubbing the back of his neck just about where his chestplate ends.

"Yeah, I got nothin'." It takes you a moment to think something up since he came up blank, but eventually an idea finally comes to mind. It was Coruscant, it wasn’t like there was exactly a shortage of places to go and see.

"I think I have something in mind, if you'd like?" Wrecker instantly takes you up on the idea. He would’ve no matter what; As at the end of the day spending the few moments he had with you was what mattered to him.

"Yeah! Where we goin'?" There's not a ton of places on this level of Coruscant that allows street food stands, but there is a few spots, many of which that won't give a heavy side eye to Wrecker like some other places would.

"How about we get some hot food? I need to hold something to keep my hands warm..." The chill in the air is making your hands cold, rubbing them together as you start walking with Wrecker by your side.

"Won't say no to that; I'm starvin'," Wrecker bemoans his feeling of hunger as you look up at him, passing other residents on the street and watching you rub your hands. When you stop, he moves to grab one and hold it in his own. Him holding it tight quickly makes the chill leave, and you move to take a step closer as you walk and put your other hand over his own. He tries not to react, as you talk while walking. Your hand feels so cute and small in his own, he's trying not to freak out about it.

"They know you're going to be gone for awhile, right?"

Referring to his brothers Wrecker becomes a little nervous at the idea that he's clearly planning to stay longer than what Hunter more than likely had in mind, but he's taking this chance while he has it.

It's not like they're doing anything important anyways; And if something comes up, he's sure they'll comm him. Hopefully.

"Yeah! They know, I... Told them I was comin' to see you."

The food stand you're at has a large amount of fancy shops around it, and they occupy Wrecker's curious gaze while you buy food for the both of you. Once you get it and Wrecker eagerly digs in, he hears you respond to him.

"I hope I'm not stealing you away from anything important, am I?" He instantly shakes his head.

"Nah, we're free men for the rest of the night." You casually mention that you'd like to meet them one day, though the idea is a little nerve wracking at the same time. Afterwards you make a small comment that doesn't mean to sound as illusive as it actually comes out.

"So, I have you all to myself for the night then."

He was supposed to be back by now but, there's no way he's going to turn down you if you want to be with him for longer. After your quiet observation the conversation dies down for a moment and you hold the warm travel cup of food in your hands, the steam wafting in your face.

"You know..." Wrecker perks up at the sound of your voice, and looks at you intently while slurping down another large bite of his food.

"I actually need to head to one of the clone bases for work in a few days. Funny happenstance, right?" It certainly catches his interest for sure, and he quickly swallows his food to speak up.

"We'll be gone by then; They never let us stay here for long."

A shame, you were kind of excited of the idea of Wrecker being there and maybe showing you around for once. But with that idea shot down, you give a smile and look up at him. He looks so cute with the sunset behind him, and you can't help but move a little bit closer to him. The sheer warmth he's radiating in this chill is far too tempting to refuse.

"I'll miss you there, then. Would be nice to have you to show me around."

The energy between you two is changing as your sentence trails off, but it isn't awkward. It's more so of who's going to take the next step first. Your voice has gotten a bit quieter as has Wrecker's, as there's a subtlety that it seems the both of you have caught on to.

It's not the first time you've thought about Wrecker in that way; You've been a little flirty back and forth but nothing as really 'happened' yet. Most of your conversations were over comms for a long while anyways, as he was leagues away after being posted on some other planet.

But you have him all to yourself now, it would be a shame to not finally take advantage of his rare moment of free time.

“It's kind of late... We can, go back to my place If you want.”

Wrecker doesn’t think of a time he was quicker than this, though granted his memory is a little foggy at the moment.

“Y-yeah, sounds good.” ‘Gods’ He thinks; ‘I sound like an idiot.’ You let out a giggle however, so he quickly loses the urge to smack himself upside the head. It made you laugh, so good enough. He's never been that smooth of a talker.

You softly gesture for him to follow you and he instantly does, stopping at the taxi stop and hailing a cab before anyone else manages to. Wrecker struggles to get into it for a moment and it makes you laugh, him almost being too bulky to fit comfortably. But when he does you're both shoulder to shoulder, and you give your address to the driver.

He's never strayed this far from any of the clone bases before, and as the buildings pass by he notices how clean and white they are compared to the lower levels. And you're both not even that high up; There's still leagues of space upward pressing into the sky for the richer elite. Politician and celebrity space, most of it. You've been up there a few times when work required you to and honestly? You'd rather not visit again. It's pretty, sure, but all so glaringly staged.

Lost in your both of your own thoughts it doesn't take too long for you to get to your apartment building, leaving you to quickly pay the fare while Wrecker hops out. The doorman is quite clearly surprised by your new companion but isn't brave enough to comment, and you both shuffle upstairs close beside each other and smiling. There's something almost a bit mischievous about it, in the way you're acting.

Maybe it's the spur of the moment nature of it all, but then again you always seem to feel this way with Wrecker; Like you're floating on air.

Letting yourselves inside Wrecker takes on glance around, and comments as you quickly lock the door behind him.

"Wow uh, this is nice." It really isn't; It's barely three rooms and quite small while you pay a premium for it, but you know where he's coming from. He slows down and seems almost careful, though his voice is still as loud as ever.

"I don't wanna break anythin'..." That's what makes you laugh, taking his hand gently in your own and dragging him in the direction of your bedroom.

"I'll guide you around then, just in case." He lets you lead him, and if you were able to see his face, you'd see the almost starstruck expression. His face feels a little hot, and it's probably more than nervousness now. His eyes glance downwards at the way your hips and ass more as you walk him into your bedroom, unbeknownst to you. He almost has to tear his eyes away from the sight as you speak up.

"I hope that armor isn’t as hard to get off as it looks?"

In your bedroom he watches as you pull off your shawl and throw it aside; But misses the way you glance away a bit nervous at his strong gaze. That same gaze is what keeps him distracted for a moment until he remembers that you'd asked him a question, as you step closer until your chest presses against his own. You had just kicked off your pants, the hem of your top lays just against your thighs as he stutters out:

"Oh! Uhh no it's pretty easy I can get it off in a few-"

He cuts himself off when you start tugging him downward, as no matter what height you are, Wrecker still would have a considerable lead over you. Pressing your lips against his he quickly pushes back, and it's almost enough to make you stumble backwards. But his tight grip on your waist keeps your steady now, as you moan against his mouth. Your fingers attempt to figure your way around his armor but the latches and clips are hidden from view, enough so that it makes you frustrated; Groaning against his lips when you fail to make any considerable progress.

“Yeah, easy. I can’t even figure out where to start…”

Wrecker can't help but laugh, and pulls away just enough to make short work of his chestplate. He peels it off with the ease of a million times done, and after doing so you have to try quite hard to not appear visibly surprised.

Gods, you knew he was built, but seeing him without the chestplate and seeing just how much is startling.

He doesn't let you leer for long as within seconds he's pressing his lips back against yours, and you slowly start pulling him backwards towards your bed. Completely blind once your calves hit the side of it you stumble backwards, and Wrecker goes with the flow and follows you down onto the mattress. His kisses are so sloppy and enthusiastic you can't help but moan and smile against his lips, throwing your top before wrapping your arms around his neck. More than likely your lips are red and puffy now, far into and beyond that ‘well kissed’ look.

The last pieces of his armor are falling to the ground with soft 'thuds' as your hands begin to wander his body, against his arms and collarbone following behind as he frees himself of ever-restricting plastoid pieces. He loves the feeling of your fingers even through the fabric and can’t help but groan in response, especially now that he's free of all his armor; No longer is his cock straining against his tight groinplate.

"You're so soft..." His hand grips your hip and pulls the both of you onto the bed proper, the blankets and sheets wrinkling underneath you not that your legs are no longer awkwardly dangling off the side. The motion almost makes you squeal, given how easy it was for him to just pull you around.

It’s his completely unconscious display of strength that has your heart skip a beat and a gulp of air catch in your lungs, if only for a moment.

"I think you're just so tough."

He chuckles at the compliment, but it gets cut off as you press a kiss to the side of his neck. Your lips are so sweet and soft, feeling your little fingers against his body glove clearly trying to find a seam. Any seam, to try and get the blasted thing off of him. It’s the final piece. But he wants more of you and wants it now, and slowly he pulls away from your face and starts trailing downwards, and you whine as he slips from underneath your hands. They grip at nothing for a moment, as you complain to him:

"Wrecker, take that thing off..."

He's already halfway down your body and seemingly far too distracted by his current goal to do that now, as he manages to make your head go blank when his lips press against the soft skin of your inner thigh. It's surprising how gentle he is; Almost too gentle, as if he's nervous you'll break under his touch.

The muscles of your thigh tense underneath his palm from his surprise kiss, and for a moment he hesitates this largely unknown territory until he sees your eyes looking down at him; Pupils blown out.

You can feel the heat of his skin against you, as his fingers slip between your skin and the fabric of your underwear to slowly pull them off. The cold air hits you with a rush and you shutter, and Wrecker makes you again when his lips finally press against your cunt. He barely gives you time to feel your face heat at how exposed you are, until your mind goes completely blank.

He wastes no time in lapping his tongue between your folds with gusto, deep enough that you can feel his nose pressing against your cunt too. To keep your legs from pressing shut around his head his hands grip your thighs and hold them gently but firm, pressing them as wide apart as they can comfortable go while listening as you writhe and moan underneath him.

Even as you strain against his grip you can’t budge even just a tad; And your enthusiastic reactions only serve to fuel his fire even more. He loves to hear them; Hear that he's doing everything right and making you feel as if he’s the only thing in the galaxy.

"Mmm, you taste good."

His voice is muffled and almost wet sounding, and you were barely able to understand through all of it and the blood thumping in your ears. Your back just barely arches up off the bed before flopping down again, panting as you attempt to push your hair away from your eyes.

“Oh gods, Wrecker-”

It’s so much at once; your heels are digging into the sheets, hands gripping air fumbling for something, anything, to hang onto. His tongue laps at your entrance just teasing you before it flicks against your clit, almost like torture as to how fast the pressure fills your gut.

It seems all of his daydreaming while attempting to sleep in the Marauder perhaps paid off a bit, by how he’s seemingly able to make you writhe against his mouth like this.

As your thighs flex underneath his palms he grips them harder; Pushing them wide enough apart to be just before uncomfortable before keeping them firmly in place, while your chest heaves up and down with panting breaths and cries.

Wrecker can’t help but moan against your cunt following your body as you move in every direction, as he teases you to your peak and over the edge. He feels the way your cunt tightens and flutters against his mouth, leaking even more as you cum against his face. While his mouth slows he still teases you through it, up until your hips are twitching slightly and he can hear you whining about the borderline over-sensitivity.

He wipes his mouth, though some of the shine of your juices still remains. It’s against his lips and the taste lingers in his mouth, with zero complaints.

“Maker, I can’t-” You pant, chest heaving. He’s completely wiped you out; You can’t remember a time you’ve ever felt this limp after sex. “I can’t feel my left foot.”

It’s almost comedic how Wrecker goes from hooded, lustful eyes to looking at you to startled, checking over you.

“Are you ok?! I-” You manage to stop him just before he moves, laughing.

“I’m fine, I’ve just… Maker; I’ve never cum that hard before. Not even close.”

You're content to lay back and pass out, leg still tingling, until you realize that you'd barely even touched Wrecker, after he stirred you up so much. Quickly you wobbly attempt to lean up, trying to peel off his blacks now that you have the chance as he's attempting to wiggle on closer to you.

"I- I'm so sorry I'm selfish I didn't even think about you let me-" Wrecker laughs, shrugging you off. He seems a little, shy about it though, the laugh is somewhat nervous.

"Oh don't worry bout that. I'm, I'm good."

You almost think he's refusing you, before realizing his face is quite heated, as well as the way he adjusts the bottoms of his blacks. The patch of blankets underneath him is considerably wrinkled, far more than around you. But before you can issue any sort of acknowledgment Wrecker flops down onto the bed beside you hard, enough that for a second you were scared for the safely of your bed.

"Besides, all with that runnin' around you made us do I'm tired, and your bed feels nice." You hope it's nice, you spent a decent amount of money on it.

"I'm glad you like it. Hope it's better than whatever's in the clone bases."

"Oh yeah! Way better, those are just shoddy ol' bunks. I can stretch out here, all those bunks are too small."

He doesn't seem to realize even in your large bed his feet are still dangerously close to the end of the mattress, but you don't comment. At least he’s not dangling off, like you presume he would be in the GAR barracks.

"And, there's a pretty lady to hold on to." Quickly he tugs you close, all the way until his face lays comfortably against your chest. An arm wraps around your waist and while you adjust slightly, you already feel so snug and safe, wiggling like a warm tooka cat before closing your eyes.

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It’s the early morning when you wake up, hearing the sound of a comm ringing. It’s almost to dull to notice, muffled quite significantly. It’s clearly not yours, and judging by how the muffled source is coming from the pile of armor in the middle of the floor, there’s no doubt it’s Wrecker’s.

He’s a heavy sleeper however, and it takes a considerable jostling to remove him from the way he’s snuggling you and wake up.

“Hmm?” He sounds incredibly sleepy, only one foot in the waking world. You give him a kiss to attempt to wake him up, but it seems to almost have the opposite affect.

“Your comm is ringing. Might want to answer it.”

While the is teasing, you can’t help but laugh as he groans; Pulling himself from the bed and arms away from you with one considerable throw of his weight. He stumbles over and grabs the comm before quickly flopping back into the bed, and you decide to take refuge laying on his stomach. Your legs lay between his, chin on your forearms as he lets out a tired:

“What?”

It doesn’t take long for the caller to speak up.

“Where, are you.”

The voice sounds venomous, and you can’t help but mumble.

“Someone’s in trouble…” It seems however that your voice picked up, and quickly he changes tone.

“Oh, uh…” Clearly now thinking he’d interrupted something, you laugh and dissuade him.

“Good morning.” The caller groans.

“I wish.” He changes back to Wrecker. “We got a mission. Come back here now, we leave in two.” Of course, he barely gets to enjoy the peace of slowly waking up with you, before he has to pull himself away and go back to the frontlines. He loves the fight more than anything, but now that he has something he likes just as much, it’s not as simple. That moment of silence prompts the caller, Hunter, as Wrecker says shortly after, to speak up again.

"Hurry."

Wrecker quickly slides back off your bed and starts scrambling to put his body glove back on. "I'm hurryin' I'm hurryin'! Geez Hunter!" He barely has it on when Hunter hangs up, and you're trying not to laugh at the sight of Wrecker fumbling around.

"What's so funny?" He almost falls over trying to put on a boot, and you slide your legs off the side of the bed.

"Need some help?" He's still scrambling to get the other boot on, but his chestplate is still... Somewhere.

"I won't refuse it..." You manage to find his chestplate when your feet hit the floor, and it scrapes the back of your ankle. Pulling it out from under the bed and handing it to him, he's back to completely dressed. You never really thought about how he's been in his armor almost the whole time you’ve seen him; Maybe you'd get him something more comfortable as a present next time he came by.

Granted, finding something to fit someone of his size might be a little more difficult than usual.

“I’d walk with you back if I could; But they don’t exactly let civilians on GAR property.” Wrecker attempts to hide his disappointment, but it mostly fails.

“I’ll miss ya,” he says, looking down at you as he stands in your doorway.

“I will too. But I’ll have a surprise for when you come back. So don’t do anything stupid out there.”

Something to look forward to. You don’t have something quite yet, but surely you can come up with something sweet just for him. Wrecker ruffled your hair and you take the opportunity to steal a kiss, before finally saying goodbye. He reluctantly leaves you alone, and you close the door behind him.

It’s still quite early, judging by the dim sun outside so you decide to get another hours rest, walking back to your bed and seeing Wrecker had forgotten something. His helmet; Sitting in the corner of the room partly covered by a curtain. When he dropped it, it must’ve rolled along to end up hidden over there.

With as much energy as you can muster this early in the morning, you snatch it and race out the door, rushing to catch him while still in your nightclothes.

#mywriting #wrecker x reader #the bad batch x reader #Wrecker/Reader #tbb x reader #reader insert #reader

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lipglossanon · 2 years ago

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BOOM BACK AT IT AGAIN CUZ I DONT WANNA LEAVE PEOPLE HANGING😍

OKAY SO. To answer your questions, I honestly didn’t think that far ahead lmao. I just wanna feel hurt😋 but to help u a bit, maybe the girl could be someone who Leon’s really close with, like a childhood friend or some sort; she just comes over at his house to hang out since they haven’t seen each other for so long. If they are childhood besties then they can be quite touchy with each other, hugging and touching together without being overly weird; I’d say that the girl could have a crush on Leon and is really happy that they’re so close together, but ofc Leon doesn’t feel that way since he has his adorable lil sis with him (but she doesn’t know that) and because the reader doesn’t know who this strange woman is, she just assumes that they are dating or must have feelings for each other from how close they seem, so her poor little heart breaks to pieces :( she feels angry but not at Leon tho surprisingly, she’s angry with herself because she thinks it’s wrong to feel this way; she knows very well that they’re not together like that and she doesn’t have the right to feel jealous and hurt seeing Leon with another girl, but she can’t help it😭 she can’t help but feel so heartbroken because she thought she was the only special girl to him like he told her? She thought she was the only one to have him like he had her, the only one to see him being comfortable enough with her to playfully tease her. But the sight of them poking fun at each other and reminiscing back the old memories they have that have her confused cuz she has no idea what they’re talking about, that hurts. A lot.

Laying almost lifelessly on her bed, she never thought that she’d experience the feeling of heartache like the ones she read in romance books or watched in those movies. She had always thought that those weren’t real and that they’re really corny, but oh how wrong she was. She hated it, she hated it so much because it hurts so bad. She wants the feeling to go away, but the images of Leon pulling that girl into his chest and laughing together with her only made her want to rip her own heart out. What made it even worse was that she could still hear them from here, their laughter, giggles, whispers, and sounds of clothes rustling around only made her want to throw up; tears continued to fall down her cheeks onto her pillow, creating a small wet spot on it. She cried so much that she fell asleep from how tired she was, so tired that she didn’t notice the sound of knocking and the concerned voice of her mother.

Slowly fluttering open her puffy eyes, she realized that it was time for dinner; she couldn’t hear the sound of the girl anymore, but that didn’t make her feel any better as she could also hear Leon’s voice together with her mother’s. He also sounded worried, gently knocking on her door and twisting the locked doorknob; growing a bit annoyed at their constant knocking and voices, she got up from her bed, not even bothered to wipe the dried-tears on her face or hide her red eyes, and opened the door. She ignored the looks of concern on their faces and continued to face down on the floor blankly as she walked past them and down to the kitchen; Leon stood there, feeling confused and worried at her odd behavior, he absolutely hated to see her cry, it always tugged at his heart strings painfully. Dinner was so tense and quiet, all three of them were deeply concerned with her being so silent and…robotic? She didn’t banter with Leon like she used to, moving around as if she’s a puppet that has no soul in its empty shell. Quietly dismissing herself from the table, she put her plate into the sink and slowly walked back up to her room; Leon quickly stood up as well and ran after her, catching her wrist when they both got up near her room. “Sweetheart please, tell me what’s wrong. Who made you cry?” His furrowed brows and frowned lips made her feel a bit bad, but her pretty eyes that were once so full of life turned so so dull, it made him clench his teeth. Her answer, however, made him feel as if he was being crushed,

“You.”

AAAHHH IK ITS THE SAME ENDING BUT I CAN'T THINK OF A SPECIFIC ONE SORRY😭😭 But yea that’s what I’m thinking right now, you can do whatever for the ending, embrace the freedom :)

Not me out here crying 😭

gosh Leon is such a dumb boy sometimes, being silly with his friend and not thinking twice cause he only sees her as, well his friend lmao. so he doesn’t even realize how much heartbreak he’s caused until later 😥

JAKSHC the same ending 😭 gosh no, okay I totally have plenty to work with!! I just didn’t want to go off on a totally different tangent and then post it and it be like what? 🤨 😆

It’s going have angst but I’m on the fence on whether I want to have sort of a ambiguous ending or totally angsty or a reconciled one 🤔 so many ways it can go!!

#ask box #lipglossanswers #lipglossanon #stepbro!leon s kennedy #more angst

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thatpunkmaximoff · 1 year ago

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Story: 3 out of 5 Smut: 5 out of 5

Normally I love bully romances or romances where the male love interests are unapologetic assholes, but there was just something about these three heathens that ALMOST made me dnf this book. Fortunately, I didn't, and I ended up liking the story well enough.

Romina is the most innocent and pure individual, and I wanted to protect her at all costs. Then I realized she had to learn what she liked, and I realized she fit in rather well with the heathens after all. The overturning of Roe V. Wade and the punishment of doctors was a little too real, and I'd never rooted for devil worshippers more than I had when I read this book.

Some of the spice was questionable, especially given how innocent Romina is in the beginning, and then it was downright filthy towards the end.

I might not have liked it as much as I thought I would, but I still recommend others to read it.

Now enjoy my ramblings..

* “You call out God’s name one more time while I’m between your legs, even he won’t be able to save you, little lamb.” — THE FIRST FUCKING SENTENCE, are you kidding me?! 😂

* Father Frollo can eat a dick.

* Holy fuck! These three little shits just bought the chapel.. the chapel where Frollo is hiding Romina!

* Damn.. these dudes are dicks. Poor Romina 😬

* Goddamn. He really just pulled her into his face and ate her out, huh 😏

* Now that the boys know the truth of her living situation, they’re PISSED!

* So Corvin is the only one holding out. Felix is okay, a little obsessed and very much protective while Sonny is just a plain dick.

* I like Reesa sticking up for Romina about the “bad touch”. Too bad Romina loves their touching tho 😂

* Sonny “called” Romina? Wtf is going on?

* I normally love the guys being assholes, but Romina is too pure/innocent to be given this treatment. Idk how I feel about this book.

* That cemetery scene.. I’m just.. at a loss for words 😳

* I’m noticing an uptick of girls getting fucked with the hilt of a knife 😂 Is everyone in crack?

* And goddamn, Sonny! Did you really have to tell Romina you didn’t like her after she had to use her safe word with you? What a dick. I hope Corvin is the first one to fuck her.

* She Arlan Black’s granddaughter?! I fucking knew it.

* Yesssss! Corvin fucked her first lmao.

* Oh no. They told her about Arlan.

* And fuck you, Frollo. I can’t believe you’re giving her an exorcism. You’re so fucked, dude.

* Now fuck you, Sonny, for kicking her out! I just hope Reesa is a decent human being.

* Ohhhh. Poor Romina 🥺 Can we let this girl be happy please?! She doesn’t deserve this.

* Well at least the boys realized they fucked up and took her back in.

* These Escura boys, man.. 🥵 She was the main dish in their spot roast 😂

* Alright, who the fuck tranqed Sonny?

* Oh fuck that dude. I’m so glad they killed him.

* Holy shit. The old man wants them to marry?!

* Aww. He was a virgin lol.

* She bound herself to them!!

* Frollo got what he deserved.

* And Romina got what she deserved as well. The heathens who will worship her until their time is up.

* I can’t believe they got married 😭

#heartless heathens #santana knox #romina #romina black #sonny santorini #felix escura #corvin escura #booktok review #book review

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trashlie · 2 years ago

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FP 223

I know this is a week late, but I figured it’s better to get this up before tonight’s episode than have to do two of these lol (writing for two different episodes is SO HARD lmao). And listen, I had a lot of feelings I didn’t get to work all the way through since I read this on vacation (literally LMAO crying in public while waddling behind my friends LMAO i am a foooooool) so this post is going to be just that - me working through this lmao

I will say upfront that as much as this episode hurts, I think it went about the best it could, or rather, the most realistic way it could. While I had a lot of hope and wishes heavily stemming from ep 219, I think I knew deep in my soul that the reality is that Nol isn’t there yet, that some scars run deeper, and that it isn’t as easy to change who he is. But I’ll get on to that under the cut!

Honestly, I think the flow of events during this arc are done SO well, so masterfully. I remember everyone being SO disappointed when we reached this arc and it was Shinae’s dad on the rooftop (the BEST possibility it could have been, frankly!!!!) but this ENTIRE arc has been beautiful and I really hope there will be a day that this series will be printed in a physical form so I can buy all the volumes and just DEVOUR this entire arc. From the beginning of the Christmas party, the Bible, Nol’s jump from the balcony, Kousuke unraveling, the arrival at Minhyuk’s party, Shinae luring out Nol, the whole intimacy of secrets shared and that glimpse of who Nol really is, the fall, the Kousuke and Nol fight, the tenderness in the hospital, the sheer flirty romance and hopefulness of 219 leading right to this. It was inevitable. In retrospect it makes perfect sense - that build up cannot reach its pinnacle, not yet. Nol isn’t ready.

And that’s what’s the most heartbreaking thing about this episode.

Nol isn’t ready. It’s not that he doesn’t trust Shinae, it’s not that love or whatever isn’t enough. It’s that he’s not ready. When he apologizes to the space she no longer occupies, he says he doesn’t want her to see him like this. I wish he could have said it to her, but it wouldn’t have changed anything, and I imagine in her own way, she must get it. Nol’s every weakness has been used against him at every opportunity that it’s no longer he wants to hide this part of him, so as to not feel like a burden, so as to be the happy, radiant friend she’d longed for. And while WE know that Shinae doesn’t need that of him, and maybe he even realizes it, it doesn’t change how he feels. It can’t - this is so ingrained in him.

I’ve started to think of Nol as a sort of prey animal; he’s easily skittish, it’s easy to startle him, and he clings to his security, because he needs it to feel safe. He clings to his masks, to his lies, to this bright personality to stave off the darkness that’s always surrounded him, to stave off the darkness in other peoples’ lives. His whole goal was to put some good into other peoples’ lives because even if he can’t have it, isn’t it better to put out something good (especially when we know he lives with this belief that the bad things that happen are his fault)? How can he bring them down with his darkness, his pain? It’s the entire opposite of what he wants to do.

And think about it, too: Nol has never really had FRIENDS, these are the first real friends he’s had and they were a total accident. But where Shinae has found security in friendship and learned to push those boundaries and put more faith into others, he lacks that experience. He can’t bring himself to do it, yet.

I think a big difference is that while Shinae wanted so badly to believe that all people suck and are awful, because it gave her comfort because if everyone was like that, then this wasn’t a one-off, then she wasn’t someone it was so easy to be awful to, and she didn’t need to be so upset when the inevitable happened, the truth was she wanted to be proven wrong, she wanted people to do for her what she expected they wouldn’t. But that’s not the case for Nol. Shinae had repressed hope buried deep down, so it was so much easier for her to change, to look at the people who DID have her back and find it in her to put faith in people she couldn’t guarantee.

And in a way, wasn’t she burned? Nol tried to leave and though he came back and offered her an explanation, they’re still at the same place: he can’t be real with her the way she wants, and she can’t bear to watch him play a charade and wear a mask that she can see through.

But it’s not the same for Nol. I think he’d resigned himself to this life, and maybe he did secretly hope otherwise, maybe he told himself otherwise when he made friends who accidentally became real. But maybe he meant it. Maybe he meant that he’d help these people before he peaced off to England. Would anything have been different, had the Kim formal not happened the way it did? If that was the catalyst that reminded Nol he can only bring harm to those he cares about, would he have made it to leaving for Oxford without telling anyone or not? But that doesn’t matter, because the Kim formal did happen and it reminded Nol how dangerous it is for him to care for people, and how futile it felt to fight back, to push back. Shinae was looking for that sliver of hope to grab on to, but Nol had given up on ever finding it, and even when faced with it, it’s too difficult for him to take hold of it.

I think Shinae never hated herself, or at least not truly, but I think Nol does, and that seems to be the difference.

For Shinae, it was much easier to change her ways because it fed into a secret hope she’d been waiting for, because it was the push she needed to make a leap of faith. In Nol’s newfound friendship, she found a sense of security. After all, we saw her struggle to put up her walls towards Nol when she thought she’d hurt him after going off on him for crossing that line. It wasn’t the Kim formal events that made her see him as a friend, but they did foster that sense of security. But when you look at those events from Nol’s perspective, it’s completely different. There was no sense of security fostered, but rather one of fear. There was no comfort in their friendship - only a sense that he’d brought her into danger, that he’d made a mistake of showing interest in her and it got used against them. One of his greatest traumas must be finding out what had happened to his mom, and to actually watch something similar almost happen to Shinae? Jesus. It’s a testament to what a friend she is to him, what she came to mean to him, that he struggled to push her away after all of that.

But I think that’s the biggest take away: Shinae has learned just how deep Nol’s scar is, and I think whenever she learns more about what happened to him, what he believes about himself, it will make even more sense to her, why Nol is unable to take off that mask, why he’s so affected by this side of him that he doesn’t want her to see it. It’s not that he can’t trust her, it’s that he can’t bear to be this person in front of her (or anyone). Even when his friends wake up, he puts the mask back on, carries on with the lies and the mask, because he doesn’t know how to let that part of himself exist, and certainly doesn’t know how to let that part of him be seen, let alone loved.

And jesus that hurts so much. It hurts to know just how badly he’s suffered and continues to. (And it’s also a reminder to my forever mantra: he needs therapy! Shinae alone cannot fix this, love and care alone cannot undo what he has suffered and internalized.)

But in the same way that it’s so heartbreaking, it’s also, weirdly, hopeful.

Shinae is able to understand him, to some degree. She’s been there, she knows what it was like. It’s just that she doesn’t know how to get through to him, yet. He’s got such an impenetrable fortress around him the only way to get through is for him to lower his guard, to let her in. Or, I suppose, find a crack in the foundation, find a way to wriggle in. But that’s the thing - she acknowledges it, and decides not to give up on him. It would be so easy - and she wouldn’t be wrong for it - to decide you know what, I can’t do this, I’m wiping my hands of this. She’s just one girl! She’s not a therapist, she’s not a trained professional. And I love her for the decision to keep trying, even if it’s not easy. Because if Nol had given up on her, then would we have any story to follow? Would she have found friendship in Dieter and Soushi, learned to open up, found a way to make up with Maya, reconciled her trust in the people she cares about?

It’s just also so sad and painful to know that it’s that much harder with Nol, that his trauma runs that deep, that it’s eaten away and left him fearful and wary and unable to be open. It was hard enough for Shinae to do it!

I gotta say, that frame of them, where she’s stepping away from him and the sunset fading to black behind them is SO BEAUTIFUL and also SO DEVASTATINGLY SAD ;~; lmao I cannot get my mind around the FEELINGS it evoked, the way it’s so easy to understand both of them. I think Shinae did what was right. She drew a line, she made it clear that she doesn’t want to blindly play along anymore. She wants to know HIM, not this false version of him, and he can’t be that person right now. As much as I wanted her to pull off the blindfold and force him to see, I think it wouldn’t have been the right move. It might have felt violating to him, to be seen in a way he’s not ready to show yet, and would have made the wedge worse. And she had to leave, because it was only stringing herself along to otherwise pretend he’d be the person he’s incapable of being right now. How is it fair, for her to share a moment with him so full of joy and happiness for her, while he’s hiding his pain? How is she supposed to feel about that? It negates any of the joy she feels.

I’m sure there’s more to read into regarding Nol’s fairness than I can get my head around, but even at the surface level, it feels like Nol feels like it would be unfair to open up to her or Dieter and Soushi, even though they’ve opened up to him. “It’ll make things fair” but like she says, how is it fair at all, if she’s the only one allowed to find joy in their relationship, if she’s the only one keeping it as a good memory. Isn’t that unfair, that she alone would have remembered this dance as a pleasant time, as something to tuck away in her heart?

I had thought that Nol’s decision to join Shinae on the rooftop was a sign that they’re on the same level, toe-to-toe, but his choice to wear the bandana negates that. He’s unable to stay on the same level as her, unable to be as open and vulnerable as she is, and that’s not fair to her. She’s shared with him a story I’m pretty sure she’s never shared with anyone else.

How much must it hurt, to hear him say “I don’t need to see anything. I’ll be fine”? GOD. I can’t get over it ;~; The whole episode is just FULL OF PAIN.

Because even after she leaves and makes her resolve to get through to him one day, the mask remains on. He says not one truthful thing to Dieter and Soushi, from pretending he just woke up to refusing to acknowledge his crying, to pretending to not know what happened to Shinae. And Dieter sees right through it, which hurts just as bad. No matter how long he was really awake, he knows enough to realize that Yeonggi was always a lie, that he’s a mask worn to placate others and deflect the truth, and maybe Soushi doesn’t yet know enough to see that in him. But just like with Shinae, how do you go back to being friends with someone, knowing they can’t be honest with you? Even knowing there’s a reason for it, it’s not easy.

(Though, I guess when Nol says “When I opened my eyes she was already gone” that’s not EXACTLY a lie, but the truth of it is pretty irrelevant to Soushi in this matter.)

Dieter has always been remarkably perceptive, and while he couldn’t figure out Yeonggi before, he now knows enough to see through, and he seems to feel frustrated over the realization. It’s not that he and Soushi were bad friends and didn’t realize how bad things were with Nol - it’s that he never let them. It’s how he was always there to take care of their problems, to help them with their dilemmas, but never let them do the same for him, and instead played this role to deter them. How are you supposed to continue to be his friend when you see through it all? When you realize it’s so hollow and empty?

I’m not saying this to make a dig at Nol, because unlike Dieter, I do understand. As readers, we get it. But Dieter knows even less than Shinae does. It just isn’t fair to them.

I’m really curious what he’s going to talk about with Shinae, because boy is there a myriad of things, huh? ;~; Even if Dieter didn’t like Shinae, I think overhearing that would be difficult to swallow, because he essentially overheard something that feels, you know, private? Overhearing their conflict, Nol’s refusal to open up, and Shinae disappearing without a goodbye. GODDDDD that’s awkward and so painful ;~; I think Dieter is a very tactful person, so I’m not sure how he intends to approach that, because I think it would be far too, idk, rude? To be like yo overheard you and Yeonggi yowch that hurts lol and far from his style, but I have to assume that his intention is to address that - Nol’s evasiveness, his masking and lies, the persona he wears for them.

And because Dieter is a tactful, perceptive person, I wonder where he he lands. Is he frustrated because it was something he couldn’t see through before? Does he feel more like Shinae, in understanding Nol has his reasons? Or is he more frustrated that Nol continues to hurt them (and specifically Shinae) over and over? He definitely seems lost in thought, so it’s hard to get a good read on him (and I’m sure that’s intentional, as his face is obscured from us a lot).

And, yeah, I’m sure the frustration could be the realization that Shinae and Nol share something very different to what he and Shinae do, but I don’t think that’s THE source of his frustration. Sure it could be a part of it, but again, because he’s such a perceptive person, I think he’s already clocked this on Shinae’s end. I think still think there’s a lot to the way that Dieter told Shiane she loves Nol with his back to her, because characters seem to share some moments of honesty with their backs to each other, but also, as someone who likes her, of course it’s something he’ll pick up on. But I think most of his frustration is in that Nol continues to play pretend, that he can’t let himself take off that mask.

But also, yes, I do feel for him in the sense of realizing that the girl you like and one of your charismatic friends you’ve envied might like each other, because of course that part also sucks. But in the grand scheme of things, I think there’s a lot of things at play that are hurtful for him. ;~; There’s something so, so bittersweet about the birthday party juxtaposed against his - Nol’s emotional “I love you guys” set against his refusal to be seen like this ;~; What can you do for someone like that? How do you encourage them when you can’t get through to them?

GOD. I HAVE EMOTIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone is going through it and IT HURTS and I think I knew all along the pain would be coming but GOD it hurts even more right on the back of such a tender, SWEET series of episodes, after getting to see Nol find that sense of peace, after getting to see them share a moment of friendship together again after so long ;~;

But idk, there’s just something about the sunrise that continues to make me feel hopeful. Nol is in such a deep, dark place right now, and it’s not easy to come out of. I still think we’ll see the main trio separate leading to the timeskip, and maybe when they all reconvene in whatever way, that’s how we’ll return to them. I think Kousuke will go to Japan and we’ll probably see Yui push his isolation further from the people who care about him, I think Nol will still find a way to Oxford after serving his sentence, and I think Shinae will take Rand’s advice and opt for university. It’s hard to say where I think they’ll all be when we get through the BIG time skip, but I guess we have to get through the first one first, anyway. What will come of Yujing’s expose - and what might Nol’s friends learn about him when they learn about the family that has haunted him?

One last thought, though. I’m glad Nana has shown up - I’ve been wondering where she was, why no one had contacted her! - but I feel like I’m the only one who felt like Nol’s expression was a little weird lol. idk, people seem to think he looks really happy to see her but his smile looks a little... off? It could just be because he’s all marked up, but his smaller pupils make him look a little... afraid to me? I don’t THINK that’s the case but I just want to throw that thought out there lmao

#I Love Yoo #ILY FP #ILY Spoilers #ILY Brainrot #Shinae Yoo #Nol #Nolan Oliver T. Lochlainn #Dieter Becker-Wulff #Soushi Toyoshima #this is surprisingly shorter than i thought but lmao i think my thoughts ended up more succinct!#i'm hoping tonight's episode answers some of the questions i have right now and that i can sort of my thoughts a little further with that #i'm just so alfjkjafjkafjkajkfjkafjkaf #i want to say but i guess it's spoilery LMAO BUT LISTEN I'M JUST #sad and hopeful and achey ;A; lol #there's so many feelings to deal with and at the end of the day it's like ;~;#I JUST WANT TO GIVE HAPPINESS TO EVERYONE #i wish it was easier to help them lol ;A;#waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh #ILY Commentary

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apoptoses · 1 year ago

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Hi hello 🥹

First of all, I am so sorry for your recent loss. Sending so much love and hugs and kisses your way, I hope you're taking care of yourself ❤️

New medical kink fic rocked my entire world and I absolutely loved the "choose your own adventure" approach you took, like we're on an Armand/Daniel episode of Black Mirror (I bet they'd be into that) and we get to choose what happens next and all the options are a little messed up but also sweet asf 😭

Ngl I felt compelled to read both endings because of course I did 😌and while I loved the explicit version and imo the fic would hold up just as well if that were the actual ending, the x-rated one has my whole heart. It just makes perfect sense in-universe yk, when you consider how much blood Daniel was allowed to drink and how his mortal body would've reacted to it. It made me feel light headed and giddy and a little uneasy all at once and it was SUCH a fantastic exploraton of their dynamic. Mfs have no boundaries, just an all-consuming desire to know everything about each other. It's desperate on both their ends and I loved how you had Daniel come to that realization at one point when he sees Armand's pupils blown wide and *knows* he's just as crazy about him as he is for Armand. Armand called Daniel a morbid romantic but lbr it's BOTH of them, Armand's just as guilty of it.

“Breathe, Daniel,” Armand murmurs. Professional as any actual doctor, he pats Daniel’s knee. And then, unprofessionally, he continues, “it’s smaller than my cock and you’ve had that in your throat plenty of times. Surely this won’t be enough to bother you.” lmfaoo Armand being an unbearable brat even in doctor mode feels so stupidly in character, like he would find a way 💀

"When Armand drops the image of the inside of his hole, cranked open by the shining chrome speculum, straight into his mind his hand flies up to grip Armand’s wrist in an attempt to ground himself. If he doesn’t get it together he’ll choke or, even worse, moan." I'm speechless lmao you mad(wo)man. Armand truly lucked tf out when he met Daniel and found his freak soulmate. Literally no one else would meet him there and be like "so that's how the inside of my hole looks? god that's so hot".

"He gets to flick his tongue into his vein and lap at the blood within him, to lick into a place so unnatural he can’t imagine anyone else has done this with Armand. Daniel must be the first to press his tongue into this void he’s created in search of more blood" DANIEL TONGUEFUCKING THE WOUND I'M-- 🥵🥵🥵

I would DEFINITELY read about whatever they got up to when they got back home (was it kinky aftercare? tell me it was kinky aftercare 🥹)

Also!!! "Daniel forgets about hiding his half-hard cock and reaches out to hook his fingers in Armand’s belt loops" awwwe loved this reference sfm! Still drives me insane to think it's canon tbh.

anyways this is IT, you're IT as usual xoxo DA ❤️❤️❤️

PS CURRENTLY LOSING IT OVER DANNY MOLLOY AND AMADEO. MOST PERFECT LIL ANGELS EVER SEND THEM ALL MY LOVE 😺😺

Dungeon anon you always know the right time to drop a message on someone ♥

The choose your own adventure format was entirely thanks to hekateinhell and monstersinthecosmos and I'm so glad it worked!! Because I have a couple friends with emetophobia and I still wanted them to be able to read it, but also wanted to indulge my sicko needs to make Daniel get blood sick lmao

But I agree that the x-rated version makes more sense for them, that this is a gradual erosion of boundaries and falling into this crevasse wherein Armand won't be satisfied until he sees all of Daniel. And Daniel learns he wants to be seen. Plus the exploration of how much blood can a mortal handle, how much would be too much and give this awful wine spins/pot sick experience? Because if just a few drops made Amadeo see psychedelic shit then a can of coke worth would have to be fucking awful and Armand would know it.

And I am SO excited you were into Daniel going all in on the wound. I was nervous about that because I haven't read a lot of erotic gore in this fandom but man, he's a freak just like Armand, if there was a proper gash he would go to town on it. The blood would drop his inhibitions and I think Armand would go fucking insane inside over it.

When they got home? Daniel absolutely tried to lick the sweatshirt but it was dried, they were both aware it was an action done for the visuals only and what good visuals they were.

(Armand has him lick his own jeans clean too for good measure which is so much worse even though he's done that a hundred times by now)

And from there it's aftercare elevated to an uncomfortably intimate level. I mean Armand sitting him down and brushing his teeth for him, playing dentist and scraping his tongue, making Daniel hold the mouthwash in until it burns. And then oh dear, mortals need nourishment after intense experiences and there's only orange juice in the fridge, guess Daniel will have to be a good boy and tolerate the toothpaste and citrus combo and be taken care of.

(by the time all this is done he's turned on from the excessive praise/violation/giving over of control and happily gets some aftercare that involves Armand's hands on him without the jeans in the way)

I love the belt loop holding too. Anne was a real one for including that detail in canon ♥

xoxo

ps: Danny Molloy and Amadeo are my entire WORLD now, I haven't written fic in three days because they're too perfect and fun to cuddle, send help lmao

#apoptoses answers #dungeon anon

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monsterbananatv · 2 years ago

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Things from Lockwood & co because I can part 2:

Episode 3

Lockwood planting a bomb in his stuff as a decoy and hiding one on the premise to use

Lockwood pausing at the top of the staircase. Why did he do that?

I just want it throw this in here, but the lighting in this show is amazing. It’s so dark but everything can be seen really well and I just really appreciate that. It’s dark enough to be spooky but not dark enough that you miss anything. The flashlights and the way things are lit is just really cool to me

The red room scene. It’s so freaky and cool watching the blood drip into the room and the panic of the of them all trying to get the hidden door open to escape and the way the camera angle spin as the blood continues to drip, and the noise it makes and oh It’s just so cool, and as someone who’s always wanted to make a scene like that it’s just cool watching it idk

The chanting of the monks is so creepy and the way their shadows appear and how the chanting gets loud, it just gives me shivers

Lucy slapping George awake then literally crawling over to Lockwood as he calls for her, holding his hand as he comes to, and the way they look at each other (We always talk about how in love Lockwood is by the way he looks at her, but Lucy looks at him just the same (except when he’s being an idiot that is))

“Oh where’s his slap?”

Lockwood and his death wish

Even though he has a death wish he still looks scared when he thinks Fairfax might kill him

Lucy saving Lockwood (and probably all of them) by stepping in and letting Annabel get her revenge

“I’m working with maniacs” (You sure are George)

George stealing the googles (George and his stealing stuff)

Lockwood getting Lucy her fourth grade and George smiling big behind them

“You belong here” (The found family troupe has my heart)

The fact that George is looking out for Lucy because “She’s finally starting to get me” and I love them (he’s so happy about it and it makes me happy)

“Luce?”

This episode was so creepy and cool and I just love it

Episode 4

Lockwood being pissed about being rescued by Kipp’s crew (the scene’s just funny)

“And you just want to watch him… die” (just the way he says it and their faces lmao)

I feel robbed that we didn’t get to see George and Lockwood find and carry Lucy upstairs (it either would have been a cute Locklyle moment or a funny one trying to watch them struggle to figure out how to do it without dropping Lucy lol)

Lockwood being the showman he is and charming the crowd (love him)

The slowly spinning camera transition to them walking to the grave

The buzzing sounds and Lucy’s unease and panic and the loudness of it all

George looking into the mirror

Lucy’s throw

The talking skull

“DEATH IS COMING!”

“Is it talking to you now?” (Same energy as ‘is *insert thing here* in the room with us now?’ yk?)

“You gave her a free pass just because you like the way she looks at you”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about” (Suuuure Locky)

Lockwood pausing at the door (What is in there???)

The bandage scene. It’s probably one of my favourites honestly. How close they are sitting, how awkward Lockwood is about it, the rain on the roof, Lockwood being honest about the fact that we doesn’t want to talk about his past, Lucy understanding that, him helping Lucy with her wound, how she’s looking at him, how gentle he is placing the bandage on her arm…

“You believe me?” “I do. About everything”

How he looks at her, Lucy bringing back up being called an asset, the tears reflecting in her eyes, Lockwood telling her he’ll never make that mistake again, they way his eyes flick to her lips, their hands, they way they just look at each other, Lockwood’s eyes flicking to Lucy’s lips again, how close they are to each other, and then how abruptly they break apart, like they didn’t even realize until that point and the bit of awkwardness that follows. I just love it. All of it

George showing Kipp’s team up by just being better (get it my guy)

Lockwood looking proud of George

Lockwood’s stupid bet with Kipps (That idiot’s ego is too big sometimes)

#More things #I like making these lists #Idk if anyone else likes them tho #But eh oh well #I have three more days to watch this show before I don’t have Netflix #If it gets a season 2 #And it better #I’ll get Netflix’s again #And if it doesn’t #I’ll cry #because I love this show so much #And it deserves a season 2 #lockwood and co #lockwood & co #anthony lockwood #lockwood and lucy #lucy carlyle #george karim #lockwood spoilers

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wetbloodworm · 2 years ago

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doodled this a while ago and decided i want it here. gta au ivan! mostly i wanted to draw some of his tattoos. i’ll probably never design his full arm sleeve but i like the mix of blue for his prison tattoos and the black for the new ones he got to fill out the sleeve.

on a design note, i very specifically don’t give gta au ivan the little white highlights i put in people’s eyes usually, at least when he’s not interacting with someone he loves and actually conceptualizes as a fully realized person. he’s smiling and cheerful when interacting with most people but his expression is flat and i think i’ve described him as having dead eyes before lol. losing the eye highlight is just an indicator of that! i think it’s fun. i also specify gta au ivan because, while in other AUs he’s always more open and expressive with people he’s comfortable around, his default expression otherwise is... not so dead, lol. you can tell the difference between a ‘this is just what my face does’ smile or an ‘i’m actively smiling at you to be polite/friendly’ and a real genuinely happy smile with all ivans, but gta au ivan doesn’t mask quite as hard because he barely recognizes other people as people. it’s a combination of not caring enough about other people to even consider that he should look less off-putting and of not wanting to show how he actually feels. gta au ivan is WAY more emotionally closed off and has chosen to switch off the part of his brain that feels compassion for most people. he still goes along with a lot of the social rules he’s learned and the part of him that cares about how people are treated/cares about being polite isn’t completely dead, but for the most part people are basically objects and tools and toys until he gets to know them well enough for something to click in his brain.

(gta au ivan fascinates me don’t mind my rambling)

WAIT i drew a comparison before! okay this is even older and it was done pretty quickly so don’t worry about it

in the second one he’s got the eye highlight, a wider smile, and the smile actually reaches his eyes. subtle differences because it IS a fairly subtle shift, a lot of people wouldn’t notice it, but it’s there. i just think these details are fun.

losing the eye highlight it something i use a lot actually to depict something being Wrong or to indicate that the facial expression isn’t genuine. not always, because sometimes the style just doesn’t require the highlight, but the more detailed the drawing is the more likely i’m gonna use that indicator. now that i’m talking about it i’m putting some examples under the cut because it’s my blog and i can go off topic if i want

warning, lots of pics here so it’ll get long

hunger games AU charlie! the one where they’re crying gets the highlight because they’re not masking. in the other two they’re acting cheery for the camera after an extraordinarily traumatizing experience so the highlight’s gone to indicate those smiles are absolutely not genuine lol

another hunger games au charlie. genuine emotion but that emotion is ‘doing just really bad right now’

dnd au charlie in their sunny mask! this one is just a style choice partly because this was a quick sketch and i left their sclera as pure white instead of off-white, which would make the pure white highlight not stand out as much. how can you tell when it’s a style choice and when it’s symbolic? well. uh. uhhh. anyway more examples

another hunger games au charlie, i’m in that folder rn lol. eye shine in the first one because they’re acting but doing alright, no eye shine in the second one because. y’know. trauma.

just posted this one lol but another example! genuinely happy vs boiling over with rage and grief

symbolic vs style example. highlight stands out more on the left drawing than it would on the right drawing. it’d get lost on the little one, and it’s not as detailed to boot.

symbolic choice here. angery and trying to hide it even if he’s failing lmao

making vs genuine expression, but both get the highlight because asya’s still trying in the first one and she’s not completely closed off emotionally.

also masking but she was caught off-guard and isn’t trying as hard

first two lacking the highlights are style choices, bottom two with the highlights are symbolic. EXTRA highlight in the bottom left because extra happy, bottom right she’s just real emotional. it feels obvious to ME that the top ones are style choices but i don’t. know how to articulate the reasoning.

OKAY THAT’S ENOUGH THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK

#ivan tag #reference tag #reference tag for the highlight talk and examples #gta au tag

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savedpeople · 1 year ago

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thoughts about tonight’s episode:

we got confirmation that maggie didn’t burn ginny’s dino, but is hiding it from negan and is planning to continue hiding it. and the fact that she tells ginny to her face that she can’t have negan knowing she’s there... she was completely planning on keeping ginny away from him and what, try to force her to go back to the community knowing that maggie is lying to him?

she had absolutely no business calling negan a monster in front of ginny, telling her she “doesn’t know him” and that she’d find out he’s a monster if she sticks around long enough. whatever negan’s done in the past is not what he’s doing now, and using crimes from 15 years ago to tell a little girl that the only person she has left in her life, who has been caring for her, is a monster, is uncalled for. the continued flip flopping between “i know you’ve changed/are trying to be better” and “you’re a MONSTER” is still old

the people hating on ginny for caring about negan and calling out maggie’s lies are weird. maggie both directly lied and hid things from negan. that is fact. ginny isn’t a horrible person deserving of death for saying the truth

maggie refusing oxygen for what reason??

was the weird wall of baby doll limbs supposed to shock us or something bc that is extremely tame in the world of twd lmao

tommaso lowkey looking like shane in this episode

i hate that they killed off both tommaso and amaia, and in such a weird anti-climatic way too? i liked them. they’re killing off nearly every character they introduce us to

also the fact that tommaso was apparently not bit or anything during last episode’s fight against the walkers? he really got out of that completely unscathed?

“out of my way, bitch” LOL

the “walker king” looked cool, but the entire “fight” just being maggie on her back stabbing each walker head also felt anti-climatic, given how often they were teasing the walker king in trailers

i saw people who watched it early making fun of negan for “finding any reason to mention he’s a gym teacher” but he only mentioned it bc armstrong literally asked? i don’t see the problem lol. negan’s only mentioned being a gym teacher/working with kids maybe 2 or 3 times total in the entire twdu.

years ago i’d written a headcanon about negan knowing first aid and how to treat a number of various injuries due to being a gym teacher/sports coach. and while everyone at this point in the apocalypse undoubtedly knows how to administer first aid to some degree, i still liked the small nod to/confirmation of my hc in the way negan knew where to find first aid in the school bus and immediately started treating armstong’s injury

so it took armstrong 15+ years into the apocalypse to realize that the world isn’t all black and white?

I’m really worried about this whole thing with the croat and the dama. why do they “need” negan. how does the dama know who negan is. it feels like they want him to help them run nyc or something and if that’s the case i really worry about the writers making him “go bad” again and join them?? like i don’t think they will. but i remember one reviewer mentioning a “plot twist” in the finale that would break the pattern of maggie needing negan’s help and them working together so i am Worried

i really don’t want the dama to be yet another character we’ve never met yet somehow already knows/has worked with negan, bc this spin off is already oversaturated with characters having past connections with him/magically knowing details about his savior era

the croat was acting unbothered about missing an ear last episode in front of negan, but wore a cap to hide it when visiting the dama

I don’t understand how croat knew about maggie’s history with negan well enough to demand she bring negan to him, or how he even knew her at all. he was already gone by season 7. he never met maggie. she and negan hadn’t seen each other in like 5 years and never worked together until long after all the other saviors were gone (meaning no one there to witness it and then later tell the croat, in the way someone told him about the war.) she wasn’t even at the old hilltop location when he took hershel iirc so it’s not like he went back to an old community that he knew had once been under negan’s rule. like how did he have enough information to do this? it doesn’t make sense and i’m tired of characters just magically gaining knowledge related to negan for plot reasons. if i missed something please let me know because i’m lost lol

i... don’t see why maggie had to lie to negan about her situation. why not be honest with him from the start, and try to make a plan together to get hershel back without actually handing negan over to the croat.

overall i was kind of “meh” about this episode; it’s probably my least favorite one of the season. i feel like the plot didn’t move forward much and i’m having doubts about the story wrapping up in the finale in a satisfying way. I have a feeling it’s going to end on a cliffhanger of sorts in hopes of it getting a second season. and it does bug me that if it does get another season, that the bulk of the characters we were introduced to are already dead

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LMAO the double whammy sassy asshole dynamic is so funny but I get what you mean about its practicality LOL I’m ngl between the Isagi post and this I wonder if rewatching bllk this time is gonna lead to isagism LOL Ok but genuinely my other thought was maybe more Barou appreciation!! Or maybe if you come across a tiktok edit to some fire music of a scene in s1 it could be someone completely random/new!

STOP THE KIYORA KNITTING HC IS SO REAL??? I don’t even know how to describe it but heavy on this vibe like, especially with the “not hiding just not brought up” part you kinda cooked with that…also bro the chokehold Rio had on me….talk about gateway bird media

SSHSHS OK IM GLAD LMAOOO the hiatus scare concept honestly just shows your dedication like no one’s doing it like you…we all trust you’ll cook LMAOO

The work you do for Karasu nation is immeasurably truly…ok but I can’t wait for whatever you write next!! The request lineup honestly slaps excited for another Mira banger o7

BRO THE EDIT??? You made that a little too fast but omfg I see it….it’s literally them….

Pause the good ≠ popular thing is so real like….just because something was captivating enough to become popular doesn’t necessarily equate to it actually being thought out well either…I mean there’s several cases where the art style can just be really good or the characters are good looking and it’s enough to get people to read….

I truly think that the inability to understand the concept constructive criticism is like biggest issue plaguing communities like you are required to absolutely love every part of something like hello….

The jjk hype build up/bait is honestly so real though…you can kinda feel it in how gege handles things that he can be reliant on shock factor of capsized to try and spice things up…

Honestly same the rat tails are a no no for me….i also think in terms of more assholey characters i much prefer ones like Karasu over Kaiser LOL

Noel noa being a paid actor would be so real HAHA I can imagine that they’d maybe even just go to sign marriage documents and wouldn’t really even have a full ceremony! I don’t really know enough about weddings to say much beyond that but yeah LMAO

Ok but wait circling back, how’s the dub LMAOO any character updates….

- Karasu anon

EEK DON’T MANIFEST ISAGISM FOR ME!! i just got to second selection but i will keep my thoughts to myself until i’ve finished all of season one…also it’s so funny to see characters from the manga in the background DHDJSKS even though they never put KARASU there 😒 maybe it’s because his hair is just so obviously not side character worthy that it would stick out too much?? like less of an easter egg and more of a “look at these guys”

LMAOO kiyora is mine now 😈 and oh i loved the rio movies too!! as a bird stan it truly is the perfect movie but also in general it’s such a fun and vibrant film PLUS it’s surprisingly heavy given the intended audience

i prefer to slow cook full course dinners instead making of super quick microwave meal fics 🙏🏻 JFJDSJ that was silly but ykwim

it’s truly always a surprise what i’m going to post next i feel 😭 but agreed there’s a lot of cool stuff in my inbox that i’m excited about writing!! plus karasu nation will be fed trust i have more than a couple of requests for him as you know so i will be back 🤩

THE EDIT HAD ME CACKLING BECAUSE IT FITS TOOOO WELL 😨 kaneshiro if you’re listening give us yuki x gagamaru PLEASE they both need friends so bad

no exactly i mean me personally if an art style is good i’ll watch something that’s otherwise mediocre…you see it a LOT with manhwa too where people will gas up the most mid villainess isekai abusive male lead shit ever because of the art style 😭 and yeah the day that people realize what constructive criticism actually is will be the day we reach peace in online fandom spaces

YESS when i think asshole character i imagine like sassy jerk who’s secretly a sweetheart (karasu or barou) NOT someone who is genuinely questionable at times 😟 i think it’s a matter of lightheartedness like with characters such as karasu you know that half of the time they’re just saying bs because they’re trying to tease you but kaiser lowkey means it fr 😭 idk he’s not my fav but that doesn’t stop me from writing him if people request it HAHA

okay i actually rlly like the dub surprisingly!!! i LOVE anri’s voice (probably more than the sub) she just sounds sm more mature and actually in control of things?? her and ego’s interactions also feels more equal somehow even though the lines they’re saying are the same…smth abt the tone though makes it feel less like ego’s degrading anri and more like he’s just kind of a shithead 😭 and oddly enough i rlly enjoy niko’s voice?? it’s very satisfying to listen to somehow 🤩 everyone else’s are pretty fine so far except nagi’s 😰 lowkey i don’t really like nagi’s dub he just doesn’t sound the way i imagined nagi would 😓 his japanese VA is just too iconic ig…also i haven’t gotten there yet but i think i saw a clip of karasu’s dub from the last ep of season one and i remember not rlly liking that either 💔 he was kinda too rough sounding i think i pictured him to have less of a harsh voice and something smoother 😩 but it was also only one line so maybe i’ll like it more in the future?? not that i plan on watching s2 in dub at least at first 🤔 i will say the dub does an excellent job of feeling realistic in terms of the dialogue lines and slang…like yes this is exactly what these losers should sound like LMAOAOA it’s honestly pretty funny at times

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your screams in my dms were making me wHEEZE and now this?? this is just making me cry!!

Bro is suspicious of them. He maybe doesn’t even realize it? He seems awfully insistent that Yoongi hook up with that jewelry store girl. And always is surprised that Reader knows anything about Yoongi, who has been his best friend 5eva? Sus. And Jin and Namjoon noticed but Bro who is super smart is clueless? Hmmm.

LMAO throwing your theory in the bag, for sure! he’s definitely intelligent and an idiot, which can definitely coincide lmfao. and as far as jin and joon sharing a look, we don’t know if it’s a “what was that about” look or a “well that’s interesting” look!

and now they have matching couples jewelry!? So cute but like so bold! What happened 8 years ago? What happened to Yoongi’s other bracelet? It’s lost like Bangtan Sonyeondan is on hiatus LMAOOO. “Pass”?! Plz I love her.

STOP IT LMAOOO not bringing up the hiatus T^T and the matching jewelry :’)) take me back so i can cry even harder! as far as 8 years ago, we don’t know yet but we could start learning more about their past in the main line.

also the “pass” was so cheeky i’m so proud lol

The way Yoongi just wants to be with her. He knows and has enough respect for her to know that now is not the time for that kind of play, they both need reassurance and connection with each other <SCREAMS IN TRUE LOVE>

QUIT IT JUST QUIT IT NOW *SCREAMING* i can’t hear you lalalalallalala

but yes, you noticed how he was able to draw a line! as much as he wants to do so much more, he knew it was definitely not the time. nor place. nor place in their little.. whatever sdlfksdlj

I also love Dom! Go apologize to my future brother in law! And she’s not ready to be an auntie but I AM. They are end game and I am back on my 3Tan Yoongi Dad Agenda.

HAHAHAH dom was a fcking queen in this chapter who is shocked! so you’re already ready to be an auntie huh. bringing up the agenda that makes me crumble every single fcking time!!!

Kim Taehyung, you tricky little minx. And he and Jimin are being very couple-y in this! 👀

a ha ha👀 we might see more of them later down the line. and taehyung being just as tricky as ever. god i love him.

They are just so passionate for each other! UGH! It’s so perfect it’s gross and I love it.

But I am a little nervous, cause all of their friends are so happy for them, the ones who know. And it’s going to get harder and harder (Heh. Sorry.) to hide? And if everyone else is like wink wink nudge nudge they’re so cute and bro catches on last? He might be hurt or feel deceived by that and not happy that he is the last to know? OR! He’s more accepting cause he can also see it? I’m just worried he’ll over react cause he feels foolish they kept it from him AND cause they have some kind of family history situation that happened 8 years ago and Yoongi helped bro work through it.

this is good commentary! bc you’re right, if everything does play out like that, feelings are certainly gonna be hurt bc it’s like.. what the hell? it would feel like a slap in the face from everyone, for sure. but we don’t know! tossing this in the theory bag, too.

Also he wants to take her away for the weekend!! It’s so adult and and screams I am fiscally responsible and good in bed.

i covered my mouth because i’m in public and just started laughing at this line way too hard HAHAHA i hate you (affectionate!!)

Also! Have to add all the times he called her “babe”! In public! That someone else called her his girlfriend!!! So so soooo good!!!! 💜💜💜

GODDDD ITS ALL WAY TOO MUCH TO HANDLE I CANT DO THIS. thank you so much for reading, mittens! i love your commentary too much, i fear. this was a delight to read.

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title:the window (m) pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) series:masterlist | three tangerines | fireworks | house party | basketball | stay | sidewalk talk | friends | dalo | like that | anytime | sundress season | yoongi’s interlude | forfeit | flutter rating/genre: m (18+) ; angst , fluff , smut ; brother’s best friend au, implied age gap au summary: you get to spend the holidays in a lavish private lodge with your brother and all his friends. but you’re just really fucking sad tonight… and maybe a bit mad, too. note: so in order to not fall more behind than i already am, i went ahead and combined both holiday specials into one🥃this one came about due to window anon’s reminder about yoongi’s window threat, and everyone that proceeded to cause outright chaos all day after that. so if you want someone to yell at for this, yell at them!!! note 2: this is a holiday special! therefore where it fits/if it fits in future canon is not disclosed. so this can be enjoyed as a one-shot, but i still highly recommend reading all the three tangerines series if you haven’t yet<3 it’ll make things make a lot more sense. warnings: strong language, alcohol, this yoongi requires his own warning tbh, chains making a comeback who is shocked!!!, or*l (m rec), manhandling, hitting it from the back a ha ha, angst :(((, masturb*tion, exhibiti*nism, omg we’re kinda pissed y’all😳, ….c*ckwarming, rough s*x, slow motion l o l, missi*nary, protected s*x, cmnf (clothed male), pain kink :)), kissing haha, !!!angry!!!s*x!!!!, c*wgirl, light d*m/sub dynamics, tense scenes, bro appearance, body worship, yoongi is deliciously aggravating, but so is brat!reader<333, ch*king (m/f rec), head/hair pulling (m/f), multiple org*sms, yoongi’s fit is basically 2022 grammys have funn🥴, cute af aftercare<3 drop date: january 10th, 2023, 7:17pm est word count: 15.3k bc i can’t stfu !!

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