#ivan tag

[noxcorvid]

4.28.23 - Ivan’s Solstheim outfit; armor is from Sons of Skyrim mod, helmet is from Bonemold Expanded mod.

[aphverse-confessions]

probably not a hot take but i greatly enjoy the idea that mys ivan, zane, and laurence are all gene’s exes

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[wetbloodworm]

found a mod for adding custom companions to stardew valley that has a tutorial on adding your own companion so of course i'm trying to make kyle to put in ivan's save. i'm trying to get the mod actually functioning before i finish up the sprites but i DID start the sprites. and might have to redo like half of it because i realized maybe i should have used the run cycle rather than the walk cycle

but look at him!!!!! don't mind the little naked sideways white dudes that's how far i got before i realized i should check how it looks in game before i finish up the sprites

shoutout to ez for helping me with ideal colors/outfit/etc and for taking screenshots of her kyle in game for me to use as reference!! these are primarily vanilla assets, or at least copied off of vanilla assets, some pixels might be off. the biggest change aside from colors are an attempt to make his hair look even a LITTLE curlier/longer. i don't have a lot of room to move with the pixels and i'm not a pixel artist so i don't fully know what i'm doing, but i think it's acceptable

and he SORT of works!! barely, but the game recognizes that i've done SOMETHING and i can spawn him in. he doesn't behave properly and the ring i made that makes him follow you didn't work so gotta keep fussing with the code. but he's THERE i'm so EXCITED. LOOK AT HIM. I LOVE KYLE.

[aviocs]

tell me about a song you associate with a kid of yours and why it resonates with them so well! also, would this be the type of song they'd listen to if they could or is it not really their vibe no matter how fitting for them it is? (avi since i know you've also got a playlist for this, is the song a recent find or one that's been on the list for a while but is a favorite association that you wanna gush about some more?)

no art here so i'm gonna be making a text response tag it looks like lol

and oh yes i've absolutely got playlists for these lol i have one for gta au ivan specifically so that's what i'm looking at now, and boy i just really love Artificial Heart for him. (youtube song link) (genius lyrics link)

the association i have here is with the bit of ivan like. turning off his compassion for others as a coping mechanism to both survive prison and not feel miserable about some of the things he'd done + would continue to do to, again, survive prison. and then him just keeping that off because it was easier and felt better than feeling so bad all the time.

the first line doesn't SUPER apply but the second feels good. ivan grows up feeling like there's something inherently wrong and broken about him, and when he's mistreated by others it's because they can see that and are punishing him for it, essentially. so. there's that.

love the chorus! gta ivan absolutely gets called heartless by others more than once. i just really like the idea of referring to his surface-level way of interacting with and viewing others as him having an artificial heart. i enjoy it.

the 'buzzing all the time' here would refer to. y'know. caring about people. caring what they think about him, caring if he hurts them. ivan used to care so much all the time and from his perspective that only brought him pain, so. no more of that, thank you.

no analysis really needed here. i just love this.

ivan trying really hard to do right by people and genuinely caring about others is pretty important to his character, so throwing that way for gta au is real interesting to me. and it's why i often have to make the distinction of like 'gta au ivan doesn't count' when we're talking about kids being awful and such lmao. gta au ivan IS awful. and i just like taking a moment to think about how he got there. and how, tbh, the potential for this is in every version of ivan. if he lets himself stop caring about others he can get real bad.

as for if he'd like the song, i think he'd like it well enough! might not go out of his way to listen to it, but it's catchy and he'd like how it speeds up over the course of the song.

and finally, this has been on his playlist since february of 2021 when i first created the playlist!

[toririvas]

📁📂

I love your stuff so far

nyah.... thank you ... u3u

EDIT i found the meme it's about random headcanons

ez

- ivan won multiple food challenges at restaurants when him and wade were roommates. like the "eat this meal in x minutes and it's free" ones. they were never allowed back to many of the places.

- lance plays the universe equivalent of magic the gathering at a local comic shop to ridge city and consistently misses donald, who the other folks at the shop downplay as a patron, and just tell lance that he'd be a great opponent

[murder-incarnate]

i've made a new durge run for my favorite OC ivan because he's my son and i love him, and also so much of How He Is lines up well with the durge storyline

rambling under the cut because i talk so much always. just talking more in detail about this boy and his run.

anyway i love him. so much. he's a drow eldritch knight fighter (or he's made to be a drow, kinda, all my durges are aasimar-adjacent). despite looking way more like a high elf everyone immediately clocks him as a drow and they're usually shitty about it. he was pretty passive about it at first because while he'll punch out bigots if they're harassing others he's slower to defend himself, but after like day 2 of the constant onslaught he has to physically stop himself from tearing out throats about it. more than usual anyway lmao. everyone be nice to me i've been awake for less than a tenday and my head hurts so bad all the time

he's largely going the resist route, because ivan having violent tendencies that he represses out of a desire to be good is Classically Ivan, with a dose of ivan's great displeasure with feeling out of control/being controlled. where abaddon (my main durge) tries to avoid non-murder violence out of fear of getting too excited and escalating, ivan has a quick temper and is more likely to throw a punch or more with less provocation. however, he's less likely to look for excuses to rationalize murder like abaddon does. like where she's more likely to go 'oh nooo i guess i have no choice but to kill this person', ivan will fight harder to resist/find alternative ways of handling the situation. abaddon wants to be good but if she can rationalize a killing she figures it's not BAD, and she can defend herself/not care if someone disagrees. ivan wants to be good and also feels anxiety over other people perceiving him as bad, so he'll fight to hold back until he legitimately doesn't think there's an alternative.

normally in dnd AUs, ivan is a goliath, but i'm enjoying him a lot as a drow. my friend groups/dnd groups don't generally play with Fantasy Racism very much at all so if i played around with him as a drow outside of bg3 that'd be barely a factor at all, but it is interesting to get the chance to see how ivan handles it. people being intimidated by him isn't new to him in any AU tbh, there's just usually a reason aside from. y'know. gives off drow vibes.

for his dream guardian, my friend ez's oc kyle ends up with ivan in like. MOST AUs. so he was my obvious choice. since the guardian is actually the emperor trying to gain the MC's trust it's not /actually/ kyle, which is unfortunate, but then led to me wondering why he chose kyle's face to manipulate ivan, especially when ivan has amnesia. this evolved into including kyle in ivan's backstory as a guy he had a chance to develop feelings for, who he resisted the Urge for to try to get closer to, who he ended up killing the night after they hooked up for the first time when the Urge took over. there's just something so perfect to me about kyle being so good and trustworthy and lovely and leaving enough of an impression on ivan that even with his brain shredded there's still enough of him left over for the emperor to grab onto when looking for a face ivan is most likely to trust. i'm distraught over the real kyle being dead because that's historicallly been something i can't handle in AUs lmao but i am. coping.

having the guardian be kyle has actually really changed the way i thought ivan's run would go. he doesn't usually trust SUPER easy, he tends to like people and warm up to them quick but the emperor isn't super forthcoming with info and ivan would be suspicious considering the tadpole thing. he also like... he wouldn't like not knowing what the worms would do to him. he doesn't trust that. i fully expected him to avoid the worms and be wary of the emperor, would work with him and be polite but not fully trust him. but then i gave him kyle's face, and ivan's inherent love and trust for kyle is fucking hard-coded into his character lmao. even before i planned out their real meeting pre-amnesia, kyle showed up on screen and i knew i had to change my plans. ivan would be confused by it but he'd be heart eyes immediately. can't help but feel drawn to this guy, want to trust him, want to make him happy. it's /kyle/, if the emperor picked him to manipulate ivan i suddenly couldn't see it not working.

so ivan is uncertain about this situation but feels an instinctive connection to this guy that he doesn't understand. where i thought his questions to the dream guardian would be more about the situation, it’s more ivan trying to press for answers as to who he is. who are you, why do i know you, why do i trust you, /who are you/. the first time he got a true soul tadpole and got the cutscene with the emperor encouraging him to take it, i had expected him to turn it down, but. it was kyle. kyle being gentle and encouraging, telling him it would help. kyle trying to protect him. ivan absolutely consumed the tadpole. feels real uncertain and uneasy about it but. he couldn't disappoint kyle :(

and let me tell you he is going to be LIVID at the emperor reveal. learning that this person was a lie. feeling a sense of loss and mourning, almost, and not knowing why. not knowing it's for the second time. not knowing why this hurts so much and channeling that into fury.

(he'll figure it out later. i've got Plans.)

anyway here's kyle

he's my phone background now lmao. the emperor could also manipulate me with kyle's face. i'm so normal about him.

he's usually a fire genasi in dnd AUs but a tiefling in bg3, though the tattoos are supposed to represent his genasi szuldar. i copied his design almost exactly from screenshots of him from ez's run with him lmao. i lose my mind whenever he's on screen. also love a dnd fantasy character named kyle.

i've been obsessed with these boys for a decade i want to cry whenever they're on screen together. my BOYS

one more, quick doodle. ivan you know what would make me so happy? if you partook in the worm

okay okay anyway. so! ivan is going to romance wyll. it was between him and gale because those two would both appeal to him (and also ivan is a demisexual gay man so karlach is tragically off the table lol) but wyll especially just feels Right. he's good and kind and warm and charming, and ivan would be very taken by that. i'm only in act 1 so they're not Official yet but they got one kiss and ivan had to bend down a little and it was so sweet. very excited to see more of wyll's romance, i don't know too much about it!

and finally, just a handful of things that have happened so far

ivan discovered his pyrophobia on day 2 at waulkeens rest but still ran in to help because he will power through things at the expense of his mental health to help other people

on night 2 alfira showed up. it was a real bad day.

he punched out aradin for being racist to zevlor. was immediately bummed out when zevlor followed up with some racist shit about drow. like c'mon man :(

let astarion bite him, because allies and he's hungry! and also maybe ivan's a little into it even if he has no real interest in astarion. tragically failed the persuasion check to get him to stop with a CRIT FAIL and ez whooping in voice call convinced me not to use inspiration. so ivan died and had to be revived. which, god, this all just tracks. he's not a lucky boy. he did not punch astarion in the morning because, listen, he knew the danger. it happens. no hard feelings this time.

okay that's it i'm done. for now.

[dreadark]

it’s always “why did you sacrifice yourself and leave me behind” and never How was the sacrifice Was sacrificing yourself fun it looked fun

[ronanxing]

harana

[ctrlzxoo]

ROUND 7: amongst a sea of green, is a glimpse of snow

Bonus: happy end(?)

[noxcorvid]

WIP of Ivan in their Solstheim fit - the armor is from the Sons of Skyrim mod and the helmet is from Bonemold Expanded

[fatherdmitri]

my psychiatrist just diagnosed me with 19th century russian literature character

[wetbloodworm]

🎶 forklift simulator, forklift simulator, wanted in 13 states, most of which for murder 🎶

i am. not sober. but here’s a Boy

[aviocs]

what are two characters of yours that rarely interact (either from different stories or just never get the chance) that you think would get along really well if they did cross paths? alternatively, what are two that you think would be instant rivals?

i feel like ivan and mik would really get along! sweet boys who care very deeply about people and love to help! they're good boys, brent. they could be friends. i'd love to see it.

also made the 'same autism' joke on the drawing b/c like. yeah. y'know how sometimes different types of neurodivergent people just extremely don't mesh? these two would mesh nicely. ivan makes unblinking eye contact but doesn't particularly like it when people do the same back to him, and mik prefers not to look people in the eye, though people can look at his all they want as long as they don't expect him to reciprocate. they both also love to infodump about their special interests and are also always delighted to hear other people talk about the things they care about on top of having a real interest in learning new things. ivan is also not squeamish or bothered by death at all so mik is free to infodump as much as he wants. they're also very straightforward and sometimes blunt people that appreciate honesty and clear intentions, and have no issue with requesting an explanation if they don't understand something. ivan DOES lie sometimes and he lies very well, which is a thing mik doesn't particularly like, but ivan only does that when he feels it's necessary (or particularly funny) so that's fine.

the biggest place where they'd clash is that ivan very much loves touch and tends to touch a lot where mik hates being touched and WILL smack your hands if you try to touch him unexpectedly. but ivan CAN respect boundaries so they'll be alright lol also, potentially,

[m00nbuggies]

theyre bffs guys

[sev-ille]

I may be pointing out something completely obvious, but Round 7 takes place immediately after Round 6?

Like immediately after.

Hyuna is still there, bleeding. Like it's so unlikely that Mizi and Hyuna have just been roaming for days. Like after round 6, it's been maybe a few hours at most?

My thoughts are a mess rn but damn that sucks for Till if that's true (not that it doesn't suck if it's not).

Ivan dies in front of him, then he has a change of outfit and immediately has to move onto the next Round. No wonder he looks so fatigued, like he's about to pass out at any moment.

Did he even get to eat or drink anything? I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't, but still.

[harlepinyo]

ALNST changed my life. true story.