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The Marauders & Regulus out in town, enjoying the day...
Peter: Guys, where's Regulus? I don't see him anywhere.
Sirius: Eh, he'll make his way back eventually - he's like a cat in that regard.
Remus: I got this, no worries. *Deep breath* SIRIUS BLACK IS A SHIT BROTHER!
*Silence*
Sirius: Mooney, that's not gonna work, we're barely on speaking terms right now.
Remus: I have a back-up plan; JAMES POTTER IS WEIRD AND NOBODY LIKES HIM!
Regulus, getting closer the more he yells: HOW ABOUT YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP, PIECE OF SHIT?
Sirius: See, Mooney, I told you he wouldn't answer to mine.
Regulus, suddenly there now: No, I answered to yours, I was just too far away. Also, Remus? I will hit you if you say shit like that again about either of them, joke or not. I'm the only one who can talk shit about my brother, I don't care if you guys are dating. *crosses arms over chest*
Sirius, tearing up: Reg... OW-
Regulus, trying to hide his blush: Shut the fuck up.
James, leaning on Peter: Did you hear that, Pete?? He defended me!! That has to mean something, right?? Do you think he likes me? Oh, I hope so!!
Peter, rubbing in-between his eyes: James, he was literally sitting in your lap last night and letting you play with his hair. Not even Barty's allowed to do that anymore.
James, clueless: Yeah?
Peter: I do not get paid enough for this.
#Has anyone does this yet lol#harry potter#jegulus#regulus black#dead gay wizards#marauder fanfiction#marauders#marauders era#fanfiction#ao3 writer#james potter#black brothers#sirius black#wolfstar#remus lupin#peter pettigrew
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âmissâ - Jegulus microfic - @into-the-jeggyverse - 222 words
James stands with his bag on his shoulder, Sirius has his on the ground at his feet.
âIâll miss you, Pads.â James tells him solemnly.
âYeah, Iâll miss you, too.â Sirius looks up from where he was staring at the ground.
âThey do know weâre just driving in separate cars, right?â Regulus asks Remus as theyâre leaning against one of the cars.
âIâve seen them do this when one of them has to go to the bathroom.â Remus tells him dryly and Regulus rolls his eyes pushing himself off the car.
âAlright, idiots, letâs go or weâre going to be late.â Regulus yells and gets in the passenger seat of Jamesâ car.
A moment later James gets in the driverâs side and Regulus just stares at him.
âWhat?â James asks.
âShould I be worried?â Regulus jokingly asks and James rolls his eyes.
âThat? Thatâs all for show. Youââ James leans over and kisses Regulus. ââhave my whole heart.â James tells him.
âIâm going to tell him you said that.â Regulus says as he turns to grab his seatbelt. When he turns back, James is staring at him with actual fear in his eyes.
Regulus rolls his eyes and shakes his head as he leans in to kiss James. James starts the car and they follow Sirius and Remus, but James sends Regulus nervous glances the entire drive.
#james had a right to be nervous#regulus does tell sirius#and sirius pouts the entire trip#remus is also pissed because now he has to deal with a pouty sirius#regulus is a little shit#regulus was just being a little brother#there's no friendship like a prongsfoot friendship#prongsfoot#moonwater#wolfstar#starchaser#black brothers#sunseeker#jegulus#james loves regulus#regulus loves james#jegulus microfic#jegulus fanfiction#marauders fanfiction#regulus black#james potter#remus lupin#marauders#sirius black#james x regulus#regulus x james#marauders era#harry potter#dead gay wizards from the 70s#jeggyverse microfic
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i just realized sirius and regulus (and likely james too tbh) probably have that rich people laugh
...yk the one
#đ¸hađ¸hađ¸ha#yk that one#marauders#marauders era#james potter#regulus black#sirius black#fanfic#marauders fanfiction#fanfiction#jegulus#wolfstar#remus lupin#the marauders#black brothers#pureblood#the noble and most ancient house of black#harry potter#the marauders era
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Prompt 2 - Constant
@jegulus-microfic November 2, Word count 512
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âI actually own this flat,â Thatâs what James had just said. Regulus felt so stupid. Heâd kept asking and asking about paying rent. He should have just figured it out himself.Â
He screwed his eyes shut and sat back down at his easel, opening his eyes to look at his ruined painting. It would have been beautiful, but now it was marred by a thick black line, which he had no way of hiding. He was just about to screw it up when Sirius knocked on his door.Â
âHey, Reggie, you good?â Sirius asked, concern shadowing his face. Regulus shrugged, he wasnât sure. âWow, is that what youâve been painting?â Sirius asked, moving to stand beside him.Â
âYeah, but itâs beyond saving. I was just about to throw it away.âÂ
âWhat?! No, donât do that!â Sirius picked up the paintbrush and began changing the shape of the line. Regulus watched, fascinated, as Sirius worked. âYou know he wasnât keeping it from you to be cruel, right? He just didnât see it as a problem. It is a constant wonder how someone so intelligent can at the same time be so dumb.â Sirius spoke while he painted. âSeriously, heâs a good guy and was just excited that you'd agreed to move in. There,â Sirius proclaimed as he stood back and revealed the finished picture.Â
Regulus moved closer, staring at the regal stag, its silhouette taking over the picture. Its head held high, with its antlers brushing the very top of the painting. The oranges and pinks of the sunset Regulus had been painting made it look like some sort of ancient god of the forest. It was eerily beautiful.Â
âItâs amazing, Sirius, but I can't use it for my assignment. Maybe you should take it.â
âNo way, itâs yours. You can hang it in the living room. James will love it, and that way, you can look up and remember the time we did something nice together,â Sirius slung an arm around Regulusâs shoulders and squeezed. âIâm glad youâre here, you know,â Regulus looked up at him with over-bright eyes.Â
âReally?â He said in a whisper.Â
âYeah, of course,â Sirius grinned at him, leaning his head so it rested on top of Regulusâs. "I've missed you so much," Regulus debated internally for a moment before twisting his head so he was looking up at his brother.Â
âSirius, can I tell you something?â Regulus said quickly. He needed to know he wasnât being an idiot because if he left it and stayed with James too long, it would hurt so much more. Sirius nodded, urging him to continue. Regulus took a deep breath before he spoke. âI think I like James. Like more than a friend,â His words were barely audible, but Sirius heard every word. He pulled Regulus into a tight hug.Â
âYou two are as dumb as each other,â Sirius chuckled, kissing the top of Regulusâs head and leading him out into the living room, where James and Remus were having a heated discussion about the proper way to top a scone.Â
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#November 2#jegulus#jegulus microfic#jegulus fanfiction#jegulus fic#james potter#regulus black#james fleamont potter#regulus arcturus black#jfp#r.a.b#the marauders era#harry potter#james x regulus#regulus x james#regulus and james#james and regulus#james potter x regulus black#jegulus angst#jegulus au#sirius black#remus lupin#jegulus fluff#james being oblivious#good brother sirius#sirius saves the painting#regulus has a mini panic#i like james#sirius knowing james likes his brother#you're both idiots
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RWRB but its James (Alex) and Regulus (Henry) and Regulus is expected to be more 'perfect' because his brother Sirius (Philip) has abdicated and left the family and now Regulus is the heir to the throne... the angstđ
#jegulus#dead gay wizards#im sure this has been done before#jegulus fanfiction#sunseeker#black brothers#starchaser#rwrb#rwrb fic#rwrb movie#harry potter universe#regulus x james#james loves regulus#i dont think its an original concept
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snow on the beach | regulus black x gn!reader
inspired by snow on the beach by taylor swift (feat. lana del rey). the story of two people rewriting traditions. happy new year everyone!!
pairing: regulus black x gn!reader
warnings: heart-fluttering is expected!
family home. the place youâre supposed to feel most at ease, welcomed and safe. but within the world of sacred heritages and centuries-old dynasties it sometimes felt more like an elaborate prison. your mother the main guard, your siblings and cousins fellow inmates unwillingly participating in this masquerade-like event. yet this year was supposed to be different. the man of your life was standing by your side thought the dragging ceremonies, squeezing your hand every time a quiet sigh escaped your pouty lips.
he understood your pain better than anyone. hating the lineage you were forced to continue. still, having no will to abandon it completely. hell, there were times when you envied the fearlessness of siriusâs choice. admiring his courage, wishing you had as much strength as him. one glance at your boyfriendâs face was enough to keep your fantasies at bay.
âare you alright?â he mouthed over the sounds of a christmas carol. his concern so out of place with the joyful notes of the song, you cracked a weak smile. regulus joined your hands together and led the chorus with his solemn voice. the depth and complexity of his feelings ringing with every word he sang, making you thankful he managed to spend holidays with you. he fitted so well in the festivities, mingling with your family members, ever so stoic and charming standing by your side every second of the day. nursing old wounds under the moonlight.
times like these you were thankful that you never ran away, for it would mean you would never get to see regulus in you home. the way his face lit up tasting your motherâs dishes, complimenting the stuffing of the pie you made. the way his baritone blended in perfectly with the choir of your familyâs voices. snickering when your father told one of his many terrible jokes and making silly faces with your sisterâs children.
there were no dark undertones to the celebration with him by your side. no snarky comments reached your ears. the candlelight reflected in his eyes was so bright you couldnât notice how great aunt janice looked at you two. too lost in your own world, you were busy fantasising about the life you wanted to build with regulus. he seemed so much younger than his usual self, burdened with his familyâs expectations and brotherâs shadow resting upon his face. he was in peace.
slowly the dining room started emptying. children being put to sleep, some family members departing for home. thatâs why nobody paid attention to the young couple leaving. laughing like two kids who were playing hide-and-seek with their parents, hiding behind the doors and about to surprise them. âwhere are we going?â your boyfriendâs voice felt distant from the wind. but you couldnât be bothered neither by the snow drifts nor the blowing mistral. you tugged onto his sleeve, dragging him further, your careless laughter the only clue he had of the destination.
the view was hard to distinguish because of the snow but then it all made sense. the sudden change of surface that made his boots sink a little deeper. faint salty smell and humidity in his throat. âcareful now babyâ you whispered. as cliff was ending abruptly the sea came into full view. powerful in its silent struggle against the wall of sand, the horizon nowhere to be seen. stars blending with tiny snowflakes resting on the locks of your hair.
âfocillioâ regulus murmured under his breach, warmth from his wand encapsulating the both of you within its protective bubble. as if his mere presence wasnât enough to set your insides on fire. there was a bonfire of passion hiding beneath his long lashes, deep below the icy surface of his pupils only for you to see. and it was hungry. ever since you left the house it was begging to be set free and devour you both.
before he could even but his wand in the back pocket of his pants your lips landed on his. a little flustered at first, he responded eagerly. the kiss was sweet, full of grateful inexchanged feelings, it was patient, slowly progressing into a full-blown make-out session. your hands were wrapped around his frame, drawing hearts onto his lower back. you didnât notice when your face ended up nuzzled in his cashmere scarf, inhaling regulusâ scent. his head weighting on your shoulder, grounding you in this intimate moment.
but then you felt a cold pinch on your exposed neck. and then another two before snowflakes decorated the crown of your head. âbloody hell, im so sorry!â your boyfriend jumped away from you, scratching his hair in embarrassment. you just laughed and kissed his cheek. âyouâre just too distractingâ he murmured bashfully, causing you to erupt in laughter once again. âwhat? why are you laughing at me?â oh dear, he looked like a lost puppy. âiâm just really happy. thatâs allâ you confessed. regulus held your cheeks in his hands. âi love you, y/n l/nâ you went on your tiptoes to reach his face and join your foreheads together. âi love you too, regulus blackâ
#regulus x reader#regulus black#regulus x you#regulus x y/n#regulus fanfiction#regulus being regulus#black brothers#sirius black#hogwarts fanfiction#hogwarts christmas#harry potter fandom#winter has come#winter fanfic#snow on the beach#lana del rey#taylor swift#happy yule#regulus fluff#happy new year#winter fluff#timothee chalamet#x reader#boyfriend imagine#regulus black blurb#boyfriend#timothee chalamet x reader#timothee x y/n
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A prophecy left unfulfilled, a family torn apart by repercussions of war and one child left to a life of neglect. But there were those not content to allow this to pass. Harry Potter may have been abandoned at the end of the war but he will rise to be more than any could have imagined. Minimal bashing, rated M for violence etc. Harry/Tonks, James/Lily Main plot begins GOF
Harry Potter, M, English, Drama & Family, chapters: 23, words: 316k+, favs: 8k+, follows: 8k+, updated:Â Nov 15, 2020Â published:Â Mar 31, 2018, [Harry P., N. Tonks] Sirius B., OC
#harry potter#fanfiction#Harry is older#harry has a younger brother#Harry is raised by the Blacks#Harry is a Black#Past child abuse#harry is a horcrux#The Potter's live#minor Potter bashing#Minor Dumbledore bashing#Omc/ Katie Bell#The fall of the Malfoy's prestige#Bruh I wondered wtf Rasputin was for like 3rd of this story#GoT champion Harry#Harry/Tonks#Sirius/Amelia#James/Lily#The lack of Remus is disturbing#Bellatrix gets a second chance#Minster of Magic James#Harry successfully breaks into Gringotts#Omc brief stint in Azkaban to gather intelligence#harry is 3 years older canonically#Harry doesn't attend Hogwarts#Voldemort is kind of a little bitch in this#Harry is heir and eventual Lord Black#Raised by Arcturus#Raised by Sirius#Raised by Cassiopeia
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Hello! Could you do a Barty Crouch Jr. x Fem! Potter! Reader.
Where they are both in Ravenclaw and get close and end up dating in secret because of the Slytherins and the marauders. But then something happens and they break up but Barty shows up at the readers house years later to warn her about Harry, James, and Lily. They rekindle (smut if you write it. Or leads to that?)
And I was thinking about two different endings.
Ending 1: The reader later finds out sheâs pregnant and has to raise their child on her own until the triwizard tournament where their child meets their father?
Ending 2: The reader goes to godric hollow that night to try to help them but ends up dying and Barty finds her and holds her?
Or if you like both you can do two different Barty x reader!
Love your fics by the way and I am Hooked to the series!!
Making Mistakes



Barty Crouch Junior x Potter!RavenClaw!Reader
Summary: (See above) After a horrible break up in 7th year, Barty and you haven't spoken a word to eachother. Then, he comes barrelling back into your life begging for forgiveness, will you trust him?
Wc: 16.8k
CW: Angst Heavy. Hurt/Comfort, Barty and the reader are messssy. Sexual themes and scenes. Mom!Reader, AFAB!Reader, Dad!Barty, Non canon complacent, The first part of the fanfiction is focused on the reader- second is focused on Ophelia(your daughter).
The Potter Manor, once warm and full of life, now felt cold and empty. The high ceilings and ornate decorations that had once felt grand now only magnified the silence. The vibrant reds and golds of your family crest seemed muted, much like the life that had once filled these halls.
Your brother, James, was hiding somewhere even you couldn't name- hardly able to visit outside of special occasions. Your parents had been gone for over a year. The house was far too big, far too quiet, and far too lonely. It wasnât just the emptiness of the space itself- it was the absence of the people who had made it a home. Youâd told yourself that time would help, but the grief lingered, stubborn and heavy, refusing to fade.
Even now, curled up on the couch in the living room- the one you used to complain was too cramped- you felt the space around you stretch endlessly. With a blanket over your knees, the fireplace crackling softly, and a book resting on your lap, it should have felt cozy. Instead, it felt hollow. You ran your fingers absentmindedly over the cover of your book, your other hand drifting to the necklace around your neck, the small charm resting just above your heart- a lone magpie.��
It matched your patronus. Well, it matched what your patronus had become. Once, it had been a darling doe- calm and serene, a reflection of your regal- that's what Sirius had said. Now, it was the magpie: small, fierce, and energetic. It suited you, or at least the version of you that remained. Youâd felt yourself change, slowly but surely, in the years you knew a love so dangerous it tore off parts of you that you no longer remmebered.
Your fingers traced the delicate charm as your thoughts wandered to the person who had given it to you. Barty. The weight of his name still felt the same, a complicated tangle of emotions that hadnât untwisted no matter how much time passed.Â
You could still see his face the night youâd told him you couldnât do it anymore. The way his sharp features had frozen, the defiance and anger creeping in as soon as the words left your mouth. Youâd said you couldnât keep hiding, couldnât keep pretending that what you had didnât matter. Youâd told him you were tired of the stolen glances, the whispered promises, and the constant fear of being caught.Â
But you knew now that what had hurt him most wasnât the ultimatum- it was the fear. Fear of admitting to the world what you meant to each other. Fear of what he might lose if he dared to love you openly. Fear that his world and yours were too different, too far apart to ever coexist.Â
Now, as you sat there in the flickering firelight, your thumb brushed over the charm, the memories tugging at your chest. The book on your lap remained unopened as you stared into the flames, the ache in your heart as familiar as the necklace around your neck.
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The flickering candlelight painted Bartyâs sharp features in gold and shadow as he lay beside you, his bare chest rising and falling steadily. The heat of your bodies still lingered in the cool air of the room, your skin damp against the soft sheets tangled around your legs. His fingers toyed with the charm resting against your collarbone, his touch so gentle it made your heart ache.
âCrow, can we talk?â You whispered, your voice soft but firm, breaking the fragile silence that had fallen between you.
Bartyâs hand froze, his fingers brushing against the charm one last time before he let it fall against your chest. His jaw tightened, his green eyes refusing to meet yours as he shifted slightly, feigning casualness. âWhatâs there to talk about, birdie?â He murmured, his voice smooth but unconvincing. Unsatisfied your little exercise didn't make you truly forget what you intended to talk about. âWeâre here. Together. Isnât that enough?â
You sat up slightly, leaning on your elbow as you looked at him. âNo,â You said softly, the word carrying more weight than youâd intended. âItâs not.â
He finally glanced at you, his expression guarded. âYouâre overthinking again,â He said lightly, reaching out to brush a strand of hair from your face. âCanât we just- canât we just enjoy this?â
âEnjoy what?â You challenged, your voice trembling slightly. âHiding? Pretending? Barty, we canât keep doing this.â
He groaned softly, falling back onto the pillow and running a hand through his disheveled hair. âWhy do you have to ruin the moment?â He muttered, though his voice lacked its usual sharpness. âWeâre happy, arenât we? Isnât that what matters?â
âAre we happy?â You shot back, sitting up fully now, the blanket slipping from your shoulders. âBecause I donât feel happy, Barty. I feel like Iâm suffocating.â
He sat up abruptly, his eyes narrowing as he fixed you with a desperate gaze. âDonât say that,â He snapped, his voice rising slightly. âYou donât mean that.â
âI do,â You said firmly, though your voice broke slightly. âI love you, Barty, but I canât keep pretending this is enough. I need more. I need us- the real us.â
âThis is the real us,â He argued, his voice frantic now. He reached for you, his hand gripping your arm as if holding onto you could stop you from slipping away. âThis is how we work, birdie. This is how we survive. You think the world would let us be together? You think theyâd let us have this?â
âI donât care what the world thinks,â You snapped, your own desperation rising to meet his. âI care about us. But this- this isnât sustainable. Weâre tearing each other apart, Barty.â
âOf course you donât care,â He spat suddenly, his grip tightening as his green eyes blazed. âYou wouldnât. Youâre a Potter. You come from your perfect Potter family with your perfect, golden life. You wouldnât understand what itâs like to have a family like mine- to be a Crouch.â
His words cut deep, the bitterness in his tone like a slap. But you didnât flinch. Instead, you stared at him, your voice steady as you said, âDonât you dare.â
He blinked, startled by the fierceness in your tone. âWhat?â
âDonât you dare use my family as an excuse to run from what you deserve,â You said, leaning closer. âJust because my parents loved me, just because James and I grew up with something good, doesnât mean you donât deserve that too.â
He scoffed, the sound bitter and sharp. âI donât deserve that. Not with who I am. Not with my name.â
âYes, you do,â You said fiercely, your hand finding his cheek, forcing him to look at you. âYou deserve love, Barty. Real love. Not this shadow of it weâre living in. But you have to believe that, or none of this will ever work.â
He stared at you, trying to read your expression, his jaw so tight you swore you could hear ticking. His grip on you was bruising, but you ached for it. You ached for his want, his desperate need, because without it- you felt like you were falling apart.
You leaned into him, your once hot skin chilling against the air of the room. On instinct, his hands slipped away from your arm and he wrapped them around your waist. Your hands found his chest and you moved all that bit closer. âWouldn't that be a dream, Barty?â You whispered, voice strained and tears threatening to spill from your eyes. âIf- if our kids,â You choked out and his eyes widened at your admittance of something solid. That was your dream. To be so true, so real, that starting a family was the obvious next step. âOur kids talk about us how I talk about my parents? That our son- our daughter- our little wix. They knew what a love like ours could do.â
Your words hit Barty like a physical blow, and for a moment, he looked utterly stunned. His hands on your waist tightened instinctively, pulling you closer as though the sheer force of your desperation could tether him to the dream you had just dared to voice.Â
âOur kids,â He echoed, his voice hoarse and filled with something you couldnât quite place- something between longing and disbelief. His wide eyes searched yours, as if trying to find the certainty he couldnât feel within himself. âYou really think⌠that we could have that?â
âI know we could,â You said, your voice trembling but resolute. âBut only if you let us. Only if you stop running from it.â
He shook his head, his hands trembling where they gripped you. âYou donât get it, birdie,â He said, his voice breaking. âIâm not⌠Iâm not good like you. Like your parents. I donât know how to be that kind of person.â
âYou think my parents were perfect?â You asked, your voice rising in frustration, shaking. âThey werenât saints, Barty. They argued, they made mistakes- but they never stopped trying. They never stopped fighting for what they believed in, for each other. And you can do that too.â
He let out a bitter laugh, the sound almost choking on its way out. âYou donât know what youâre asking. My family isnât like yours, okay? My father only believes in appearances, in power. Heâd never accept this- heâd never accept us. And if he found outâŚâ He trailed off, his expression darkening as a shudder ran through him.
âI donât care about your father,â You said fiercely, your hands cupping his face. âI care about you. And youâre not him, Barty. Youâre not your father.â
His eyes closed at your words, as though they hurt to hear. âI donât know how to believe that,â He admitted, his voice barely a whisper. âIâve spent my whole life trying to be what he wants, and even thatâs not enough. I donât know how to be anything else.â
âYou donât have to be,â You said, your thumb brushing softly against his cheek. âYou just have to be you. And you have to let yourself believe you deserve more than what heâs made you think you do.â
He opened his eyes then, and for a moment, you saw the cracks in his carefully built walls- the vulnerability he worked so hard to hide. âAnd what if I canât?â He whispered. âWhat if I ruin us?â
âThen we fight through it,â You said, your voice firm even as tears threatened to spill. âWe keep trying, just like my parents did. Just like I know we can. You donât have to be perfect, Barty. You just have to let yourself love me.â
His breath slowed, his hands sliding up your back as he pulled you into a desperate embrace. His head dipped into the crook of your neck, and you felt the wetness of his tears against your skin. âI do love you,â He said, his voice raw. âI love you so much it hurts. It scares the hell out of me, birdie.â
âI know,â You murmured, your hands threading through his hair. âI know, Barty. But love isnât supposed to be easy. Itâs supposed to be worth it.â
For a moment, you thought he might let himself believe you. His arms around you felt solid, grounding, as though he was holding on to you for dear life. But then, just as quickly, he pulled back, his eyes filled with an anguish that made your chest ache.
âI donât know if I can give you what you deserve,â he finally muttered, his voice trembling. âAnd I canât bear the thought of failing you.â
âYouâre not failing me,â You said, reaching for him, but he was already pulling away, retreating back behind the walls he had built to protect himself.
âI am,â He said, his voice cracking as he shook his head. Pushing you back and getting to his feet. âI already am.â
You watched, your heart shattering as he put on his clothes, back to you. Your eyes trailed the path your nails made against his back, your silent claim on him that he always begged you for. âBarty, Barty, please.â You sobbed out and you saw how stiff he grew. âBarty, my love.â
âI hear you, Birdie.â He whispered and buttoned up his shirt. Walking back to the bed, but staying out of reach from you. âAlways such a beautiful song.â He whispered before he leaned in and stole a kiss. âI'm sorry.â
âBarty-â You strained and he kissed you again. Over and over until he managed to push you back against the bed.
âI love you Birdie.â
âBarty-â
âBut I'm.. I'm not who you need.â
Your heart broke with every word that fell from his lips, each one chipping away at the fragile hope you'd tried to build between you.Â
âDonât do this,â You whispered, your voice trembling as tears spilled freely down your cheeks. âDonât say that, Barty. Donât leave me like this.â
He closed his eyes as if shutting out the sight of you would make this easier, though you both knew it wouldnât. âI have to,â He murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âIf I stay, Iâll ruin you. I canât do that, Birdie. I canât be the reason you lose everything.â
âYou are everything,â You choked out, grabbing his wrist in desperation as he made to pull away. âCanât you see that? Youâre what I choose, Barty. Youâre what I want.â
His breath stopped at your words, and for a fleeting moment, you saw the war raging within him. His body was tense, his jaw clenched so tightly it looked like it might shatter. But then he shook his head, his eyes meeting yours with a tortured finality.
âYou deserve more,â His voice breaking as he leaned in to press one last kiss to your forehead. It lingered, soft and agonizingly final. âYou deserve a love that doesnât hurt like this.â
âI donât care about perfect,â Your hands clutching at his shirt as though you could physically anchor him to you. âI care about you.â
He pried your hands off of him gently but firmly, his touch reverent even as it was devastating. âAnd I love you,â He said, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut love isnât always enough.â
You shook your head vehemently, trying to reach for him again, but he stepped back, his retreat like a knife slicing through the air between you. âBarty, please,â You begged, your voice breaking entirely now. âPlease donât do this.â
His gaze lingered on you for a moment longer, his own tears threatening to spill, but then he turned away, his movements slow and deliberate, as if each step was a battle.Â
He paused at the door, his hand on the frame, his back still to you. âYouâll always be my song, Birdie,â He said quietly, the nickname a bittersweet ache on his tongue.
And then he was gone, leaving you alone in the room that still smelled of him, your heart breaking in the silence he left behind. The only sound was your sobs, muffled by the pillow you clutched to your chest, the magpie charm pressing cold against your skin- a painful reminder of what youâd just lost.
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You gave a low shaken sigh. Trying to still your shattering heart and gather your voice before it all became too much again.Â
You looked up at the mantle above the fireplace, unable to stop the smile that curled on your lips. The photos, of your parents on their wedding day, of Jamesâs first birthday, then yours. Then a photo of Lily and Jamesâs wedding, of Harryâs first birthday- just three months ago.Â
You stared at the photographs for a long moment, your fingers tightening around the magpie charm at your neck. The smiles in the photos were so vivid, so full of joy, that it felt almost cruel. Your parents, James, Lily, even baby Harry- they were all looping so present in the frozen moments captured by the camera. Yet here you were, alone in the vast emptiness of the manor, the weight of their absence pressing down on you.
The photo of Harryâs first birthday caught your eye. His tiny hand reaching for the cake, Jamesâs laughing face as Lily leaned in to kiss Harryâs cheek. You could almost hear the sound of their laughter echoing in the back of your mind, a memory you clung to desperately.Â
Your lips quirked into a faint smile, though it didnât reach your eyes. âJames would tell me to get up and stop being so dramatic,â You muttered to yourself, shaking your head. âHeâd probably say something ridiculous like, âYouâre a Potter, we donât mope, we plot.ââ
The thought of your brotherâs mischievous grin brought a pang of longing. You missed him fiercely- his energy, his unrelenting optimism, and even the way he teased you mercilessly. James had always been your anchor, the one person who could pull you out of your darkest moments. But now he was miles away, hiding with Lily and Harry, fighting a war you couldnât see but could feel in every corner of your being.
Your gaze drifted back to the fire, the flames dancing and crackling softly. The silence in the room felt deafening again, the weight of your solitude settling back over you. You tried to distract yourself by opening the book on your lap, but the words blurred together, meaningless against the storm of thoughts raging in your mind.
You closed the book with a frustrated sigh, setting it aside as you leaned back against the couch. Your fingers traced the magpie charm absently, your thoughts inevitably returning to him.
Barty.
His name echoed in your mind, and with it came a flood of memories- his rare, boyish smiles that he reserved just for you, the way his green eyes softened when he thought you werenât looking, the way he held you like you were the only thing tethering him to the world.Â
You closed your eyes, letting out a shaky breath as the memory of his voice played in your mind:
A tear slipped down your cheek before you could stop it, and you quickly wiped it away. Crying wouldnât bring him back. Crying wouldnât change the way heâd walked out of your life, no matter how much it hurt.Â
But Merlin, did it hurt.Â
The knock at the door startled you from your thoughts, the sound sharp and sudden against the heavy silence of the manor. You froze for a moment, your heart leaping to your throat as dread washed over you. The wards. You reminded yourself of the countless layers of protection James and Lily had insisted upon. No one with ill intent could step foot near the manor. Still, it took you a moment to move.
Your fingers tightened around your cardigan as you approached the door, peering cautiously through the window. Relief and confusion mingled as you saw Remus standing there, holding a bundle of flowers and looking chilled down to the bone.
You couldnât help the way your lips curved into a smile, the first genuine one in what felt like weeks. Remus always had that effect on you, with his quiet strength and steady presence. You opened the door without hesitation, the chill of the winter evening brushing against your skin as you pulled him inside.
âRemus!â You laughed, wrapping your arms around him tightly before he could say a word. The flowers in his hands crinkled against your shoulder, and he let out a low, startled chuckle.
âHello to you too,â He murmured, his arms coming around you after a brief hesitation. His embrace was warm and grounding, and for a moment, you let yourself rest in the safety of his hold. He cradled you like you were something fragile, something he was afraid might break if he squeezed too tightly.
When you finally pulled back, his sharp eyes roamed your face, scanning for any cracks in the mask you hadnât realized youâd been wearing. âYou didnât have to bring me flowers,â You hummed softly, trying to inject some lightness into your tone as you gestured to the bouquet.
Remus gave a sheepish smile, shrugging slightly. âI thought it might brighten your evening,â he admitted. âBut if Iâd known the hug was part of the deal, I mightâve come sooner.â
You let out a laugh and furrowed your brow further, unable to help how the cheeky comment brightened up your night that little bit more. âI see Sirius has gotten into you. Come in, let's go to the kitchen.âÂ
The kitchen glowed softly, the warm light reflecting off the polished wooden counters and copper fixtures. The steady hum of the kettle was a comforting backdrop to the quiet conversation you and Remus shared. You busied yourself preparing tea, your back to him as he leaned against the table, his long limbs relaxed but his eyes watchful.
âYouâve redecorated,â He remarked, gesturing to the new curtains hanging over the window. âIâm not sure the maroon suits the Potters, though. Sirius would call it RavenClaw overkill.â
You smirked over your shoulder, a hint of genuine amusement breaking through the lingering heaviness in your chest. âSirius would call anything not leather or black an abomination,â you retorted, setting two mismatched mugs on the counter.
Remus chuckled, a low, pleasant sound that filled the room. âTouchĂŠ. Though I do think the blue adds some warmth. This place could use it.â He glanced around, his expression softening. âIt feels different without⌠everyone.â
You paused for a moment, letting his words hang in the air. The truth of them settled deep in your chest, an ache that had grown all too familiar. âItâs been a bit lonely,â you admitted, your voice quieter now. âIâm not used to all this space- just me.â
He nodded, his gaze heavy with understanding. âI think theyâd hate to see you like this. Especially James. Heâd insist on dragging you to some ridiculous Quidditch match to cheer you up.â
You smiled faintly at the thought, a flicker of warmth chasing away the cold for just a moment. âHe would,â You agreed. âHeâd bribe me with chocolate frogs and promise not to embarrass me in front of the team, only to shout louder than anyone else in the stands. Calling us the seeker twins.â
Remusâs lips quirked into a small smile, but there was a flicker of something else in his expression- something that felt out of place. Nostalgia, yes, but also something deeper, something almost... reverent. His fingers drumming against his cup as he sat down at the table.
âYouâve always been good at making people laugh,â He said softly, his tone different now. His gaze lingered on you in a way that made your fingers hesitate as you poured the tea.
âYou give me too much credit,â You hummed lightly, though his words sent a faint blush creeping up your neck. âJames is the funny one. Iâm just the stubborn one.â
He tilted his head, his smile turning crooked- letting his fingers graze your wrist and fixing your cuff as you poured him his tea. âIt's a Potter trait. But I think itâs more than that.â
You turned to face him fully. âWhat are you getting at, Remus?â You narrowed your eyes, your tone teasing but your curiosity piqued.
He took the mug, his fingers brushing yours briefly, and for a moment, he didnât reply. He just studied you, his hazel eyes unusually intense. âYouâve always had this way of making people feel seen,â He said finally, his voice softer now. âLike they matter. Even when they donât think they do.â
His words caught you off guard, and for a moment, you didnât know how to respond. âThatâs⌠kind of you to say,â You managed, looking down at your tea as you tried to gather your thoughts. âI donât think Iâve ever been particularly good at- â
âYou're selling yourself short, Birdie.â He chuckled. The nickname slipped from his lips so naturally, so casually, that it took you a moment to process. When it hit, your breath caught in your throat, and the air between you seemed to still.
You set your mug down slowly, your mind racing even as you fought to keep your expression calm. You turned back to the sink, gripping the edge tightly to ground yourself. â...What did you just call me?â
Remus stiffened, and you felt his gaze burn into your back. âWhat do you mean?â He mumbled, his voice suddenly cautious.
You turned around, your heart pounding- only one person called you by that name. âWhy are you here?â You crossed your arms, your voice steady despite the storm building in your chest. âAnd donât tell me itâs for tea.â
His expression faltered for just a second- just long enough for you to see through the carefully constructed façade. âIâm here because I wanted to see you,â His tone was measured. âTo make sure you were all right.â
âNo,â You scoffed, shaking your head as the pieces clicked together. âNo, you know I'm not a fool.â
He opened his mouth to respond, but you didnât let him. âWhy are you here, Barty?âÂ
His eyes widened, and for a moment, the mask slipped entirely. The careful demeanor, the warm smiles, the familiar quirks- it all fell away, replaced by a raw, vulnerable intensity that made your breath stop.
âYou always were too clever for your own good,â He muttered, leaning back in his chair with a resigned sigh. âGuess thereâs no point pretending now.â
Your chest tightened as the truth settled in. You gave a disbelieving scoff before you ran your fingers through your hair. Pacing slightly before you paused, a scary truth settling over you. âHow did you do it?â
Barty rolled his neck and leaned further into his seat to face you again. His expression neutral- the natural arrogant energy coming from him felt horribly wrong coming from Remusâs stolen face. âWhat exactly, birdie?â
âDon't play coy.â You snapped. âHow did you get as piece of Remus for the potion you used to lie your way past my wards and into my home, Crouch?â
â... I hate when you call me Crouch.â Barty's response was almost petulant, his lips twisting into a pout as he sat back in the chair, fingers tapping rhythmically against the porcelain mug he had barely touched. He tilted his head to the side, his green eyes narrowing slightly as he studied you, the faintest ghost of a smirk pulling at the corners of his mouth.
âYou always know how to wound me,â He continued softly, his tone a mockery of vulnerability. âBut then again, you've always been too good at that, haven't you?â
Your stomach churned at the way he looked at you, like you were something to be admired and consumed all at once. It was too much, too familiar, and yet so far removed from the boy you once knew. You crossed your arms tightly over your chest, grounding yourself against the onslaught of emotions threatening to overwhelm you.
âAnswer the question, Barty,â You said sharply, your voice cutting through the heavy silence of the room. âHow did you do it?â
He sighed dramatically, as though the act of explaining himself was some grand inconvenience. âRemus has always been predictable,â He snarked lazily, his gaze never leaving yours. âHe's a creature of habit, like clockwork. It wasnât exactly difficult to collect what I needed.â
Your blood ran cold at the casual way he spoke about violating the trust of someone you cared for. âYou stalked him. You used him,â Your voice trembling with anger. âYou used him to get to me.â
He smiled then, a slow, deliberate curl of his lips that sent a shiver down your spine. âI did it for you, Birdie,â he said, his voice dropping to a low, honeyed murmur. âFor us. You donât understand how much Iâve missed you, how much Iâve needed you. Every single day without you has been... agony.â
âAgony?â You repeated incredulously, your voice rising as your anger boiled over. âYou donât get to talk to me about agony, Barty. You left. You made that choice, and now you want to waltz back in here, pretending like nothingâs changed?â
âBecause nothing has!â He shot back, rising from the chair so suddenly that it scraped against the floor with a harsh screech. He moved toward you, and despite yourself, you took a step back. âYou think I stopped loving you? You think I ever stopped thinking about you? Every second, every breath, itâs always been you.â
âStop,â You said firmly, holding up a hand to keep him at a distance. âYou donât get to do this. You donât get to waltz in here, steal someoneâs face, and act like youâre some lovesick hero.��
âBut I am lovesick,â He said, his voice trembling as he closed the space between you. âIâm sick, Birdie. Sick. Youâre the only thing that makes me feel alive, the only thing thatâs ever made sense. Donât you see? Iâm here because I love you.â
âLove?â You scoffed, shaking your head in disbelief. âYou donât even know what love is, Barty. Love doesnât manipulate. It doesnât lie. It doesnât use people. Get out.â
His expression switched to one of complete shock. As if he didn't expect to actually be sent away. You turned on your heels and walked down the hall, ignoring the stunned boy for a moment before he began to follow after you, taking a heavy breath. âBaby, birdie, don't walk away. Princess.â
Merlin, you hated to hear that coming from Remusâs mouth. It made your skin crawl.
His voice followed you like a shadow, echoing in the high ceilings of the manor. âBirdie, please,â He pleaded, a mixture of whining and anger that grated against your already frayed nerves. You didnât turn around, your footsteps quick and determined as you ascended the stairs. âDonât walk away from me!â
You didnât answer. You couldnât. Every part of you screamed to keep moving, to put as much distance as possible between you and the man who was once everything to you. Your grip tightened on the banister as you climbed, trying to block out the sound of his voice.
âStop ignoring me!â He shouted, his tone sharp with frustration. He was right behind you now, his steps uneven and frantic. âDo you think this is easy for me? Do you think I want to be like this?â
At that, you stopped abruptly, your heart pounding in your chest as you turned to face him. âDo I think this is easy for you?â You snapped, your voice trembling with barely contained fury. âYouâve made it abundantly clear, Barty, that youâll do whatever you want- no matter who it hurts.â
He flinched at your words, the rawness of them cutting through his desperation. But instead of backing down, he stepped closer, his expression a twisted mixture of anguish and determination. His face flickered again, the remnants of the Polyjuice Potion struggling to hold as patches of his sandy hair and pale skin replaced Remusâs softer features.
âIâm not trying to hurt you,â He said, his voice breaking. âIâm trying to fix this. To fix us.â
âThere is no us,â you spat, your hands shaking as you stepped back. âThere hasnât been for a long time. And that was your choice, Barty.â
âNo,â he said firmly, his green eyes blazing with an intensity that sent a chill down your spine. âYou donât get to put this all on me. You think I wanted to leave? You think I wanted to-â His voice cracked, and he clenched his fists, his body trembling with barely restrained emotion. âI didnât have a choice, Birdie. You donât understand-â
âYouâre right,â You interrupted, your voice rising. âI donât understand. I donât understand how someone who claimed to love me could leave me to pick up the pieces of a life we built together. I donât understand how you can come back now, pretending like you didnât shatter me.â
He took another step forward, his hands outstretched as though reaching for something he couldnât quite grasp. âBecause I had to,â he whispered, his voice hoarse. âDonât you see? I had to protect you. From my father, from the world we were in. I-â
âStop,â you said sharply, holding up a hand to cut him off. âDonât stand there and pretend you were some kind of martyr. You werenât protecting me, Barty. You were protecting yourself.â
His jaw tightened, and for a moment, he looked like he might argue. But then his shoulders slumped, and the fight seemed to drain out of him. âMaybe I was,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut it doesnât change the fact that I love you. That Iâve always loved you.â
âLove?â You echoed bitterly, shaking your head. âYou call this love? Breaking into my home, stealing someone elseâs face, manipulating me into letting you in? Thatâs not love, Barty. Thatâs obsession.â
At that, something in him seemed to snap. His entire body tensed, and he closed the space between you in two long strides. âFine,â he hissed, his voice low and trembling with barely contained anger. âCall it what you want. Call me a monster, call me obsessed- but donât you dare tell me I donât love you.â
Before you could respond, his knees buckled, and he sank to the stair landing at your feet, his hands clutching at your covered thighs as though it were a lifeline. His chin pressed against your skirt, looking up at you with those eyes a young girl you knew once spent hours of her time lost in. Those brilliant and calculated eyes. Here he was; Bartemius Crouch Junior, with an ego to rival the gods and the mind and skill to back it up- on his knees. Looking up at you like an obedient dog. âHow can I not love you?â He whispered. âBirdie. My beautiful song bird. How?â
Your chest heaved as you looked down at him, his once-imposing figure now crumpled before you, hands gripping your skirt like you were the only tether keeping him from falling apart completely. His words, dripping with desperation, clawed at your resolve.Â
âBarty,â You whispered, your voice trembling, a mixture of anger and grief thick in your throat. âYou need to leave.â
His eyes shot up at your words, his green eyes wide with disbelief. He stared at you as if youâd just struck him, his lips parting slightly, searching for something to say. âNo,â he said softly, his voice unsteady but growing firmer. You watched as the full potion effect dropped away. âI canât leave. Not like this. Not when I know you still love me.â
You flinched, his words cutting deeper with his true voice, but you didnât waver. âThis isnât about love,â you said firmly, though your voice cracked. âThis is about you not knowing when to let go.â
He rose slowly, his movements deliberate, careful, like a predator trying not to spook its prey. He hovered over you now, his height casting a shadow that made the grand staircase feel suddenly small. His hand reached out, trembling as it moved toward your cheek, and you instinctively stepped back, pressing yourself against the banister.
âDonât,â You warned, your voice sharp.
His hand froze mid-air, his fingers curling slightly before he dropped it to his side. He exhaled shakily, his breath warm as it ghosted over your skin. âBirdie, please,â He murmured, his voice barely audible, his lips forming words you couldnât make out. His shoulders hunched as if the weight of his own need was too much to bear. âPlease donât send me away.â
You shook your head, tears threatening to spill over as you fought to keep your composure. âYou donât get to do this,â You hissed. âYou donât get to break into my home, throw yourself at my feet, and demand I fix you. Youâre not my responsibility, Barty. Not anymore.â
His hands twitched at his sides, his jaw clenching as he fought some inner battle you couldnât see. Then, in a single motion, his hands reached for you again, his movements quick but not violent, desperate but not forceful. Panic surged through you, and before you could think, your hand flew up, striking his cheek with a sharp slap.
The sound echoed in the hollow silence of the staircase.Â
He staggered back slightly, his hand flying to his cheek, but instead of anger, a strange expression crossed his face. His lips curved into a slow, almost delirious smile, his chest rising and falling as if heâd just surfaced from drowning.Â
âThat,â He murmured, his voice rasping with something unhinged, âfelt real.â
Your stomach churned, the unease twisting tighter as he stood straighter, his demeanor shifting. His hand dropped from his cheek, and he let out a low, almost relieved laugh, shaking his head. âThatâs the Birdie I know,â he said softly, his tone dangerously gentle. âThe one who knew what our passion meant- I miss her. Can I talk to her?â
Your chest heaved with the weight of his words, the deranged calmness in his voice sending your heart into overdrive. His smug, unhinged smile made the bile rise in your throat as your fingers curled into fists at your sides.Â
âYou miss her?â You snapped, your voice sharp and trembling. âThe Birdie you claim to miss is the one you destroyed, Barty! Sheâs the one you left behind when you decided to join them!â
The smile faltered slightly, and for a fleeting moment, you saw something like regret flicker across his face. But it wasnât enough. It could never be enough to erase what he had done.Â
âYou made your choice,â you continued, stepping toward him now, your fury overriding the trembling in your hands. âYou chose to follow him. You chose to become a monster, to fight against everything I stand for, everything my family stands for. You donât get to waltz back into my life and pretend none of it happened.â
âI did it for you,â His voice rising, his green eyes blazing as he stepped closer. âEvery single thing Iâve done was for you, Birdie! To protect you, to keep you safe, to make sure youâd never have to know what itâs like to be weak. You think I wanted to join them? You think I wanted to-â
âDonât you dare,â You cut him off, your voice trembling with rage. âDonât you dare try to make this about me. You didnât join them for me, Barty. You joined them because youâre too much of a coward to stand up to your father. You wanted power. You wanted to prove to him that you were more then him. But you didnât care who you hurt along the way, did you?â
He flinched as though youâd struck him again, his jaw tightening as his hands clenched into fists at his sides. âYou donât know what youâre talking about,â He hissed through gritted teeth, his voice low and dangerous. âYou donât know what itâs like to live with the weight of that name. To have no choice but to-â
âYou had a choice!â You screamed, the words tearing from your throat as tears stung your eyes. âYou always had a choice, Barty! And you chose them. You chose power. You chose to stand against me, against my family. Against James!â
He froze at that, his eyes wide and his breath hitching as though youâd struck a nerve. But you didnât stop. You couldnât stop now, not with everything bubbling to the surface.Â
âYou think I havenât thought about you every single day?â You demanded, your voice breaking as tears began to spill freely down your cheeks. âYou think I havenât wondered if there was something I could have done, something I could have said to stop you? To save you?â
âDonât,â He whispered, his voice trembling now, the bravado in his tone beginning to crack. âDonât say that.â
âYou donât get to tell me what to say,â You spat, your voice trembling with a mixture of anger and heartbreak. âYou donât get to tell me anything anymore. You lost that right the moment you turned your back on me.â
He stared at you, his chest rising and falling unevenly as the weight of your words pressed down on him. And then, suddenly, he moved.Â
Before you could react, he closed the distance between you in a single stride, his hands gripping your face with a desperation that took your breath away. His lips crashed into yours with a force that stole the air from your lungs, the kiss searing and frantic, as though it was the only way he could express everything he couldnât say.Â
For a moment, you froze, your mind racing as the heat of his mouth overwhelmed your senses. You wanted to shove him away, to scream at him, to remind him of all the reasons this was wrong. But then something in you broke.Â
Your hands flew to his chest, not to push him away, but to pull him closer. The kiss deepened, raw and terrifying, a collision of anger, grief, and longing that neither of you could control. His hands slipped from your face to your waist, his grip bruising as he pulled you against him as if he could fuse you together.
The kiss deepened, and soon words no longer mattered. There were no more accusations, no more pleas, just the raw, unfiltered intensity of everything youâd both been holding back for far too long. It wasnât tender or sweet- it was desperate, filled with the kind of longing and pain that made it impossible to think about anything else. His hands mapped out every inch of you as though he was trying to memorize you, to hold onto something real in a world that had been slipping away from him for years.Â
And you let him. You let yourself forget, if only for a moment, what heâd done, what heâd become, and the mess heâd left in his wake. You let yourself feel, because Merlin knew you couldnât stand the ache of silence anymore. Â
It wasnât long before the tension gave way to something more, something equally terrifying and exhilarating. Clothes were discarded hastily, his lips tracing paths of fire along your skin, and for the first time in what felt like forever, the silence of the manor wasnât suffocating. It was electric.
You didnât speak a word to each other the entire time. The only sounds being your soft gasps and his inaudible murmurs- ones that sounded more like pleas than anything else. You couldnât give him more then that. Words would have only reminded you of the impossibility of it all, of everything youâd both lost. Words would have shattered the fragile bubble youâd created, where nothing else mattered but the two of you. Â
When it was over, you lay side by side in the fading moonlight, your bodies tangled in the sheets as the world slowly came back into focus. His breathing was uneven, his hand still resting on your waist as though he couldnât quite bring himself to let go. But you didnât look at him. You couldnât. You stared at the ceiling instead, your mind a chaotic storm of emotions you werenât ready to unpack.
~~~
The morning light filtered in through the heavy curtains, painting the room in soft hues of gold and grey. You stirred slightly, the ache in your body a reminder of the night before, but you kept your eyes closed, willing the world- and him- away. Â
You heard him moving about, the rustle of fabric as he dressed. For a brief, fleeting moment, you thought he might leave quietly, that he might spare you the agony of facing him after everything that had happened. But then he spoke, his voice low and hesitant, as though testing the waters. Â
âIâll come back later.â Â
You scoffed softly, rolling over to face the wall, your back to him. You didnât say a word. You couldnât trust yourself to speak without breaking, without letting the storm inside you spill out. Â
âBirdieâŚâ His voice was softer now, almost pleading, but you didnât move. You kept your breathing even, your expression neutral, even as your heart clenched painfully in your chest. Â
The air felt heavier as the silence stretched, broken only by the soft creak of the floorboards as Barty lingered by the door. His shadow loomed across the threshold, hesitant, like a ghost caught between staying and vanishing.Â
âBirdie.â He whispered, his voice raw and strained, as though dragging each word out of his chest cost him a piece of himself. âOne last thing.â
You didnât respond, your body curled away from him, but he knew you were awake. He always did.
âYou have to tell James.â He sighed, the words tumbling out in a quiet rush. âAbout his Secret Keeper.â
Your breath stopped, but you didnât move. Every muscle in your body tensed as his words settled over you like frost, cold and unforgiving.
âBarty, what are you talking about?â You finally whispered, your voice hoarse as you turned just enough to glance over your shoulder. He looked so different in the pale morning light, the shadows on his face accentuating the cracks in his armor, the boy you once loved bleeding through the man he had become.
âJust promise me,â He cut you off, his tone suddenly sharper. âYou'll.. warn him not to trust them.â
You stared at him, searching his face for answers, but all you found was that same haunted intensity youâd seen last night. He wasnât lying- at least, not about this. But that didnât make it any easier to believe.Â
â... okay.â You muttered. âI will.â
Barty stared at you like he wanted to say a million different things at once. Instead, he turned, the door closing behind him. You hugged your knees to your chest and willed away as much of reality as possible. Begging for any sense of normalcy to return; even the painful loneliness.
But nothing truly worked.
~~~
As the days went on, the weight of Barty's absence hung over the time that followed like a storm cloud. He hadnât come back, and you werenât sure if you were relieved or heartbroken. The last words heâd said lingered with you, haunting your every quiet moment: Tell James. Warn him.
Youâd followed through on his warning, albeit reluctantly. It had been difficult to convince James without revealing the entire truth, but the grim look in his eyes had told you he believed you, or at least enough to act.Â
Nothing happened at first, but Peter was monitored. It didn't take long for everything to come to light; Peter was working against you. It all worked out. James was ready for him that night, the night he came for Harry, surprising the monster before he could act. Peter tried to run after the news came out, but a furious Sirius tracked him down for a confrontation. One with an explosive end for their former friend, nothing left of the boy but a finger.
It did take a few hours of wrestling with the Aurors, but after being proper witnesses and all of your evidence of treason- Sirius was released. Walking out of the holding cell with a smile that could blunt the sun. Lily and James were safe. Baby Harry, too. Relief and disbelief were all anyone seemed capable of, but you couldnât bring yourself to celebrate. Not fully. Because in the same breath that the Dark Lord fell, Barty was taken to Azkaban.
You hadnât dared to ask about the details. Not from James, not from Sirius, not from anyone. Knowing felt like it would only make it worse. But the knowledge of him locked away, cold and alone in a place that stripped people of everything, clawed at your chest in the silence of the manor.
You had lost him all over again, and this time, you knew there was no coming back.Â
The days that followed felt like a blur of motion and noise, a sharp contrast to the oppressive stillness that had once consumed you. You refused to let Barty- or the ghost of him that lingered in your mind- define you any longer. He was gone, and you couldnât afford to let his absence drag you down any further. Not when there was work to be done.
You didnât go to his hearing. You couldnât. The idea of sitting in that courtroom, of listening to them talk about him as though he was nothing more than a monster, was too much. It wasnât that you disagreed. Heâd made his choices, and the world would see him for what heâd become. But for you, he was still the boy who had once traced your blemishes like constellations and whispered that you were the only light in his life.Â
Even now, looking back, you had always known what that young boy was capable of. The signs were there; and the raking guilt of knowing that you were possibly the only thing keeping him from becoming what he seemed so keen on being, taxed your self worth.
So, you pretended that night didnât happen. That he didnât exist. The magpie charm around your neck was tucked away in a drawer, along with the pieces of your heart that still ached for him. You buried it all deep, focusing on what you could control, on what you could fix.
Joining the Order to help clean up the aftermath of the war felt like a natural next step. It was what your parents would have done, what James would have done if he wasnât busy. Saying he wanted to be a proper father to Harry and a good man to Lily. Lily still stayed close, there wasn't many healers with her talent. But James stepped down. It was what you needed to do. The world hadnât stopped turning, and there were still Death Eaters to hunt, still innocent people to protect, still so much damage to undo.
The first few missions were grueling, physically and emotionally. You worked long hours, tracking down the last of Voldemortâs loyalists and dismantling the remnants of their operations. It was dangerous, messy work, but you thrived in it. The chaos kept you moving, kept you from lingering too long on the memories that threatened to pull you under.
You found solace in the chaos of the Order. Sirius, always protective, tried to keep a close eye on you, though he seemed to understand your need for space. Remus was steadier, offering quiet support when you needed it most, though you often pushed him away. And James- when he wasnât with Lily and Harry- was your anchor, his unrelenting optimism a reminder of the person you used to be.
But there were moments, late at night, when the world went quiet, and you couldnât escape the weight of it all. When you lay awake in bed, staring at the ceiling, and his voice echoed in your mind. When you caught a glimpse of something out of the corner of your eye that reminded you of him, and your heart clenched painfully before you forced yourself to look away.
And then there were the whispers. The Order didnât really talk about Barty, he was just another cog in the operation, but you heard the murmurs. About his trial, about Azkaban, about how someone so young and clever could have fallen so far. You kept your head down, pretending not to hear, but the words cut deep.
The recklessness came on slowly at first, creeping into your choices like an insidious shadow. You pushed yourself harder on missions, volunteering for the riskiest tasks, throwing yourself into danger with a desperation that bordered on self-destructive. It was easier to focus on the fight, on the rush of adrenaline and the sharp edge of survival, than to confront the gaping void Barty had left behind.
Sirius and Remus noticed, of course. They werenât blind to the way you flinched at certain names, or how you worked yourself to exhaustion. Sirius tried to laugh it off at first, making quips about how you were channeling your inner Gryffindor âunder all that Ravenclawâ. But Remus, ever perceptive, wasnât fooled. His hazel eyes lingered on you with quiet concern, though he said nothing outright. Not until the mission that changed everything.
It was supposed to be a straightforward raid: infiltrate a suspected Death Eater hideout, gather intel, and get out. But things rarely went as planned. The ambush was swift and brutal, spells ricocheting off walls and sending debris flying. You and Remus were in the thick of it, your wand moving instinctively as you deflected curses and fired back.
Then it happened. A flash of green light, too close, too fast. It was aimed directly at Remus, who had his back turned while shielding a fallen comrade. Without thinking, you moved. You felt the spell hit you like a freight train, knocking the air from your lungs as a searing pain ripped through your side.Â
You barely registered Remusâs horrified shout as you crumpled to the ground, your vision blurring. The sounds of the battle faded into a dull roar as your consciousness slipped away, the last thing you saw being his anguished face hovering over you.
~~~
Remus paced the length of the ornate carpet, his fingers raking through his hair repeatedly as though he could scrub away the memory of what had happened. Sirius sat slumped on the sofa, uncharacteristically silent, his dark eyes fixed on the fireplace. The flickering flames did nothing to ease the tension in the room. Â
Remusâs chest tightened with guilt, each second that passed driving the weight deeper. He could still see it- the flash of green light, the way you had thrown yourself in front of him without hesitation. The moment felt frozen in time, looping endlessly in his mind. Â
âMoony, sit down,â Sirius huffed finally, his voice low and hoarse. It was an order, but not a harsh one. Â
âI canât,â Remus replied, his voice taut as a wire. âShe- she couldâve-â Â
âBut she didnât,â Sirius interrupted, his tone firm. âSheâs alive, and Lily is better then any healer we have.â Â
Remus halted mid-step, his jaw clenched tightly. âShe shouldnât have had to save me,â he said, his voice cracking. âShe- sheâs half alive, Sirius. If anything happens to her-â Â
Siriusâs gaze darkened, and he stood, crossing the room in a few long strides. He placed a hand on Remusâs shoulder, squeezing it tightly. âYou listen to me,â His eyes were sharp but his voice was steady. âSheâs as stubborn as James, maybe more so. Thereâs no way sheâd have stood by and done nothing, and you know it. Blaming yourself wonât change anything.â Â
Remus opened his mouth to respond, but the sound of the front door opening cut him off. Both men turned toward the entrance just as James entered, his face pale and tense. Harry toddled in after him, clutching his fatherâs pant leg with wide, curious eyes. Â
âWhere is she?â James asked immediately, his voice sharp with worry. Â
âSheâs upstairs,â Sirius said quickly. âLilsâ with her. She hasn't come back down yet.â Â
The tension in the room was suffocating, the silence broken only by the faint crackle of the fire and the occasional creak of floorboards as Remus paced. Sirius watched James carefully, noting how his hands trembled ever so slightly as he held Harry close. It was subtle, but for someone as unshakable as James Potter, it was telling.
âI need to go to her,â James said abruptly, his voice sharp and breaking the heavy stillness. He passed Harry to Sirius, who took the toddler without protest, his dark eyes wary. âSheâs my sister. She shouldnât be alone.â
âYou canât,â Sirius said firmly, standing up to meet Jamesâs gaze. âLily said we need to give her space. Sheâs working.â
âI donât care what Lily said!â James snapped, his voice louder now, desperation seeping into his tone. âThatâs my little sister lying upstairs, Sirius. If something happens- if she-â He cut himself off, swallowing hard as he fought to steady his breathing. âI canât just sit here.â
âYou think I want to?â Sirius shot back, his voice rising to match Jamesâs. âYou think Remus wants to? Merlin, Prongs, weâre all going mad down here, but Lily knows what sheâs doing. Sheâll call us if- when- thereâs news.â
James ran a hand through his hair, his frustration palpable. He knew if anyone could understand even a fraction of what he was feeling it was Sirius- you had endeared yourself to him in a way not many people could. And those people were in this house. âShe doesnât get to keep me from her,â He muttered, his tone dangerously low now. âNot her. Not anyone.â
âJames, listen to me,â Sirius snapped, stepping closer, his hand gripping Jamesâs shoulder tightly. âYou storming in there isnât going to help her. Itâs not going to help anyone.â
Before James could respond, the sound of light footsteps descending the stairs cut through the room like a knife. All three men turned toward the staircase as Lily appeared, her face pale and her expression unreadable. The sight of her made James freeze, his words dying in his throat. Siriusâs grip on Harry tightened, and Remus stopped pacing entirely.
Lilyâs hands were clasped tightly in front of her, and her eyes darted between the men before finally settling on James. âCan I speak with you alone?â She asked softly, her voice calm but heavy with something that made Jamesâs stomach churn.
âWhat is it?â He demanded, taking a step toward her. âLily, just tell me-â
âPlease, James,â She interrupted, her voice breaking just slightly as she glanced toward Harry, who was still nestled in Siriusâs arms. âCome with me.â
James hesitated, his body rigid with tension, but the look in Lilyâs eyes left no room for argument. He turned back to Sirius and Remus, his jaw clenched tightly. âIâll be back,â He said, though his voice wavered.
James followed Lily just a few steps into the hallway before she stopped, her back to him as she hesitated. Lilyâs words were hushed and inaudible, even to Remusâs keen ears- or maybe, he just wasn't willing to know just yet.
Jamesâs expression shifted from tension to something unreadable, his brows drawing together as he processed Lilyâs quiet words. The weight of whatever she had said seemed to hit him all at once, and his jaw went slack, his eyes widening in stunned disbelief.
Sirius and Remus exchanged a quick glance, their concern growing as they watched James stagger back a half step, his hand running through his already disheveled hair. His lips moved as though forming a question, but no sound escaped. Whatever Lily had told him, it had shaken him to his core.
Sirius shifted Harry on his hip, his protective instincts flaring. âWhat the hell did she just say to him?â He muttered under his breath to Remus, his dark eyes narrowing.
âI donât know,â Remus replied quietly, his voice tight with unease. James finally looked at Lily, his wide eyes searching hers for confirmation.Â
James didn't hesitate after Lily's nod. He took the stairs two at a time, his worry and confusion pressing heavily on his shoulders. His hand gripped the banister tightly as he moved, the wood creaking faintly under his weight. Sirius and Remus exchanged uneasy glances from their spot by the fireplace, the tension thick enough to choke on. Â
Lily lingered at the base of the stairs for a moment, watching James's retreating form before turning back to the room. She mustered a soft, reassuring smile, though it didnât quite reach her eyes. Â
âSheâs fine,â she said quietly, addressing Sirius and Remus. Â
Sirius raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. âFine? You call that fine?â He gestured toward the staircase with a sharp nod, where James had disappeared moments before. âProngs looked like he was about to keel over.â Â
âShe is,â Lily insisted gently but firmly. âBut James.. they just need to talk.â Â
Remus frowned, his sharp hazel eyes darting between Lily and the stairs. âIf sheâs fine, why is he in such a rush? What arenât you telling us, Lily?â Â
Lily hesitated, her smile faltering slightly as she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. âItâs not my place to say,â she said finally, her voice soft but resolute. âYouâll have to ask her yourselves when sheâs ready.â Â
Sirius let out a low growl of frustration, running a hand through his hair. âGreat. Love a good mystery. Just what we need after all this.â Â
Remus, however, wasnât so easily placated. His gaze lingered on Lily, his instincts screaming that there was more to the story than she was letting on. But he didnât press her. Not yet. Â
Instead, he leaned back against the arm of the couch, his arms crossed tightly over his chest. âWhatever it is, itâs obviously got James in a state,â he muttered under his breath. Â
Lily offered him a small, almost apologetic smile before excusing herself, taking Harry from Sirius, as she headed toward the kitchen, leaving Sirius and Remus to stew in their unease. Â
~~~
James reached the door to your room, his breath coming in shallow bursts as he paused to gather himself. He wasnât sure what he was expecting to find on the other side. The worry twisting in his chest was relentless, and the weight of Lilyâs cryptic words only added to his unease. Â
He knocked softly, his knuckles brushing the wood. âItâs me,â He called quietly, his voice trembling slightly. âCan I come in?â Â
There was a moment of silence, and then your voice- weak but steady- drifted through the door. âItâs open.â Â
James pushed the door open and stepped inside, his eyes immediately searching for you. You were propped up against a pile of pillows on the bed, your complexion pale but no longer deathly. A soft blanket was draped over your lap, and a steaming mug rested on the nightstand beside you. Â
Relief flooded through him at the sight of you awake, but it was quickly tempered by the shadow of exhaustion that lingered in your eyes. Â
âHey,â he said softly, his voice breaking the quiet. Â
You managed a faint smile, though it didnât quite reach your eyes. âHey, Jamie.â Â
He crossed the room in a few strides, pulling the chair closer to your bedside and sinking into it. His hands fidgeted in his lap as he searched for the right words, his gaze flickering between your face and the mug on the nightstand. Â
âYou scared the hell out of me,â He sighed finally, his voice barely above a whisper. Â
You looked down, your fingers picking at the edge of the blanket. âI know. Iâm sorry.â Â
James shook his head, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees. âDonât apologize,â He said firmly. âJust⌠talk to me. Please. Whatâs going on? Lily said youâre fine, but-â Â
âLilyâs right,â You cut in gently, meeting his gaze. You were able to see all the true overbearing nature of James Potter. When you were younger his protective nature used to irritate you- he was always on, all the time, brash and loud- a proper lion. Now? You wanted nothing more than to curl up against him and cry. But that's the last thing you could allow yourself to be- weak. âIâm fine, James. Or at least, I will be.â Â
He studied you for a long moment, his hazel eyes filled with a mixture of concern and doubt. âLily said.. you needed to tell me something.â
James tilted his head slightly, his brows furrowing as he studied your expression. There was something guarded in your eyes, something that made the air between you feel heavier. His concern deepened when you let out a soft, shaky breath and slowly ran your hand over your abdomen.
The motion was small, almost absentminded, but it struck James like a thunderclap. His eyes widened, his lips parting as the realization sank in. For a moment, he was utterly still, his mind racing to catch up with what youâd just silently told him.
âNo,â he breathed, the word barely audible as he leaned back in his chair, his face pale with shock. âNo.â
You didnât say anything, didnât move, didnât breathe. You simply held his gaze, your fingers resting lightly on your abdomen.
James swallowed hard, his voice trembling as he asked, âBambi, when?â
The nickname, soft and familiar, broke something inside you. But you held firm, your eyes flickering away from his as you shook your head. âIt doesnât matter,â You whispered, your voice barely above a murmur.
Jamesâs leg began to bounce, his eyes flickering from you to the door a few times before he shot up from his seat and began to pace. âWhen did you find out?â He demanded sharply, his voice tight with tension. Â
âTonight,â You admitted quietly, your fingers curling around the blanket on your lap. Â
James stopped mid-step, spinning on his heel to face you. âTonight?â He repeated, his voice rising slightly. âAnd you didnât think to tell me immediately? Merlinâs sake!â Â
You flinched as his voice raised, but you held your ground, meeting his gaze with a calmness you didnât entirely feel. âI was a little busy almost dying, James,â You hissed, your voice firmer now. Â
He opened his mouth to argue but then snapped it shut, his jaw tightening as he resumed pacing. âFine. Fine,â He muttered, more to himself than to you. âBut youâre leaving the Order.â Â
You let out a sharp, humorless laugh, shaking your head. âAs if theyâd want me back after that stunt,â You shot back. âIâm not exactly in peak condition for fieldwork, am I?â Â
James ignored your sarcasm, his hands balling into fists as he continued his relentless pacing. âGood. You shouldnât be anywhere near this madness,â He said firmly, his tone brooking no argument. âNot now.â Â
Your heart clenched at his words, the overbearing protectiveness youâd come to associate with him hitting harder than ever. But before you could respond, he stopped abruptly, his hazel eyes narrowing as a new thought seemed to strike him. Â
âWho is it?â He demanded, his voice sharp and almost accusatory. âWho?â Â
You swallowed hard, the weight of his question settling over you like a lead blanket. âIt doesnât matter,â You pushed, though your voice wavered slightly. Â
Jamesâs expression darkened, his jaw tightening as he began to pace once more. âDoesnât matter?â He echoed incredulously, his voice rising. âIt absolutely matters, Bambi. You canât just- Merlin, you canât drop something like this and expect me not to-â He cut himself off with a growl, shaking his head as he muttered under his breath. Â
James's pacing came to an abrupt halt, his hazel eyes narrowing as the pieces began to fall into place. He turned to you, his expression shifting from confusion to a dawning realization that made your stomach drop. Â
âThe wards,â he said slowly, his voice low and dangerous. âThe ones Lily and I put up for you- someone wouldâve had to get past them. Someone who knew how to.â Â
You froze, your heart pounding in your chest as his gaze locked onto yours, sharp and unrelenting. Â
âWho was it, Bambi?â he demanded again, his tone deadly serious now. âWho the hell got past the wards?â Â
Your throat tightened, and for a moment, you couldnât find your voice. You looked away, your fingers gripping the blanket tightly as if it could shield you from the weight of his question. Â
âAnswer me!â Jamesâs voice cracked, a mixture of desperation and anger bleeding into his tone. Â
You took a shaky breath, your gaze fixed on the wall as you whispered, âYou donât want to know, James.â Â
âThatâs not your choice to make,â he shot back, his voice trembling. âTell me.â Â
You finally met his gaze, your eyes brimming with tears as you whispered the name that had haunted you for weeks, for months: âBarty.â Â
The silence that followed was deafening, the weight of your admission hanging heavy in the air. James stared at you, his face a mixture of shock, anger, and something deeper- betrayal. Â
âBarty Crouch?â He asked slowly, his voice barely above a whisper. Â
You nodded, your throat too tight to speak. Â
âBarty Crouch Junior?â James pushed and you gave a weak scoff.
âJames- yes Junior.â You huffed, your anger boiling over.
James stared at you, his chest rising and falling with the effort of keeping his temper in check. His jaw clenched so tightly you thought it might shatter, but his eyes- those familiar, warm hazel eyes- betrayed the storm inside him. He was angry, yes, but the anger wasnât directed at you. It wasnât even directed at Barty. It was directed at himself.
For a moment, the room was silent, the only sound the faint beating of rain against the windows. You could see it, the way his hands trembled slightly as he tried to decide what to say. Finally, he spoke, his voice low but sharp enough to cut through the silence.
âHow long?â He asked, his tone controlled but strained. âHow long were you seeing him?â
You swallowed hard, gripping the blanket in your lap. âJames-â
âHow. Long.â His voice cracked, louder this time, the control slipping for just a moment. He was trying, you knew he was trying, but the weight of everything was too much for even him to hold back.
You took a shaky breath, forcing yourself to meet his gaze. âIt started fifth year.â you admitted quietly. âIt ended seventh. And he.. he showed up here. He told me about Peter.â
Jamesâs face twisted, and he turned away, his hands dragging through his already-messy hair. He let out a low, frustrated sound that was somewhere between a sigh and a growl. âFifth year?â he muttered to himself. âMerlin, Bambi, how did I not see it? How did I-â He cut himself off, pacing again.
You bit your lip, tears stinging your eyes. âJames, please-â
âI..â He started but stopped- as if your tears alone tore apart at his flimsy heart. Closing his eyes and taking a steady breath. âSo he made it past the wards. He came and told you about Peter and what? You-â
âJames please just drop it. He's in Azkaban for life! It doesn't matter.â
James froze mid-step, his fists clenching tightly at his sides as his back remained turned to you. His shoulders heaved with the weight of unspoken words, his frustration palpable in the charged silence that filled the room.
"It doesn't matter?" He finally repeated, his voice low and filled with a quiet, simmering rage. "It doesn't matter?"
You flinched at his tone, gripping the blanket tighter as you tried to steady your breathing. "He's gone, James," you said softly, your voice trembling. "There's nothing left to fight over. There's no point in dragging this out."
James spun around to face you, his hazel eyes blazing with a mixture of anger, hurt, and disbelief. "No point?" He hissed, taking a step closer. "You think Iâm angry because of him? Merlin, Bambi, I couldnât give a damn about Barty Crouch. Iâm angry because you didnât tell me. Youâve been carrying this- this secret- alone, and now youâre trying to push me away again."
"I'm not pushing you away," You shot back, your voice rising slightly. "I'm trying to protect you! You have Lily, Harry- your family. You don't need to be dragged into this mess, James. Itâs mine to deal with."
His expression softened for a fraction of a second, but the anger quickly returned. "Youâre my family," he said fiercely, his voice breaking slightly. "You always have been. And if you think for one second that Iâm going to stand here and let you face this alone, then you donât know me at all."
You stared at him, the raw emotion in his voice cutting through your defenses like a blade. Your chest ached, torn between the desire to let him in and the fear of burdening him further. "James, I-" you began, but your voice faltered as tears welled in your eyes.
He closed the distance between you, dropping into the chair beside your bed. His hand found yours, warm and steady despite the tremor in his grip. "Listen to me," he said softly, his tone losing its edge as his thumb brushed over your knuckles. "I donât care how messy this is. I donât care how much it hurts. I just care about you."
The dam inside you broke, and a sob escaped your lips as you clung to his hand like a lifeline. "I donât know how to fix this," you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. "I donât know how to move forward."
James squeezed your hand tightly, his gaze unwavering. "You donât have to figure it out alone," he said firmly. "Weâll take it one step at a time, together. You hear me, Bambi? Youâre not alone in this."
The weight on your chest eased ever so slightly as his words sank in, the overwhelming love and determination in his voice a balm to your fractured soul. You nodded, unable to speak as the tears streamed down your face, and James pulled you into a tight embrace.
For the first time in what felt like an eternity, you allowed yourself to lean on him, to let the walls youâd built around yourself crumble. And as James held you, murmuring reassurances that you would face whatever came next together, you felt the smallest flicker of hope begin to bloom in your chest.
After you recovered, you faced the daunting task of telling Sirius and Remus. Their reactions were nothing like youâd expected. After weeks of being stuffed up in that dingy room.
Sirius, ever the one to surprise you, turned softer than youâd ever seen him. It reminded you of the day Lily announced she was pregnant with Harry. He was standing in the kitchen when you told him, fiddling with a mug of tea. The moment the words left your lips, his eyes widened, and he nearly dropped the mug onto the countertop.Â
For a moment, you thought he might pass out, but then his face broke into a beaming smile that almost seemed out of place for the weight of what youâd just told him. âYouâre joking,â he said, his voice barely above a whisper. When you shook your head, tears welling in your eyes, he stepped forward, his hands gripping your shoulders firmly. âMerlin, youâre not joking.â
âIâm sorry,â You began, your voice cracking as the apology spilled from your lips. âI didnât mean for this to happen, I-â
âStop,â Sirius interrupted, his tone so warm it took you aback. He let go of your shoulders and instead pulled you into the tightest hug youâd ever received. âDonât you dare apologize,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âYouâll be a good mum, do you hear me? A bloody brilliant one.â
Tears slipped down your cheeks as you clung to him, his words washing over you like a balm. âBut Sirius,â you tried again, your voice muffled against his shoulder. âThe father-â
âI donât care,â he said firmly, pulling back to look at you. His gray eyes were intense, but not with judgment- only love and determination. âI donât care who he is, or what heâs done. This baby is going to have the best mum in the world. And theyâre going to have me too, whether they like it or not.â
You let out a shaky laugh, his unwavering support lifting some of the weight off your chest. He grinned at you then, that mischievous, boyish grin you thought youâd lost after the war. âMerlin, James is going to lose his mind when he meets them,â He said, his voice laced with humor. âBut Iâm going to be the favorite uncle, just you wait.â
But then there was Remus.
You found Remus later in the sitting room, a book in his lap, though he wasnât reading it. His eyes were distant, his fingers absently tracing the edges of the pages. He looked up when you entered, and the small smile he gave you faltered slightly when he caught sight of your expression.
âRemus,â you started hesitantly, sitting down on the sofa across from him. You fidgeted with your hands, unsure of how to begin. âThereâs⌠something I need to tell you.â
He didnât say anything, but the corner of his mouth quirked upward ever so slightly. His gaze flickered to your stomach for a moment, then back to your face. His expression was calm, almost amused, but there was a glint of something in his hazel eyes- something knowing.
âI-â you faltered, feeling suddenly uneasy under his gaze. âItâs⌠itâs important.â
He hummed softly, setting the book down on the armrest. âGo on, then,â He said, his tone light but laced with curiosity. He leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows on his knees as he studied you.
You took a deep breath, the words caught in your throat. âRemus, I-â You stopped when he lifted a finger to his nose and tapped it lightly, the gesture so quick and casual it took a moment to register.
You frowned, your heart skipping a beat as realization slowly dawned on you. âRemus,â you said again, your voice sharper this time. âYou already know.â
His smirk grew slightly, the mischievous tilt of his lips catching you completely off guard. âI might,â he said nonchalantly, leaning back against the couch with an air of smugness. âThough itâs much more fun watching you squirm.â
You stared at him, your mouth opening and closing as you tried to process his words. âHow?â You finally managed, your voice a mix of shock and disbelief. âHow do you know?â
He shrugged, crossing one ankle over his knee. âIt wasnât hard to figure out,â he said casually, though there was a teasing lilt to his tone. âThe scent changed a few days ago.â
âThe scent?â You repeated, utterly baffled.
His smirk deepened, and he tapped his nose again, his hazel eyes sparkling with amusement. âEnhanced senses, remember? The subtle shifts, the hormones- itâs all there. Just like Lily. Didnât think Iâd notice?â
You stared at him, utterly dumbfounded. âYou could smell that I was-?â
âPregnant?â He finished for you, his tone softening slightly. Hearing Remus be the first to break- to finally say the word properly- it brought a smile to your face. âYes.â
You buried your face in your hands, groaning softly as the embarrassment washed over you. âMerlin, Remus, you couldâve said something!â
âAnd miss this moment?â He teased, leaning forward again. âNot a chance.â
You peeked at him through your fingers, narrowing your eyes. âYouâre insufferable.â
âOnly because I care,â he quipped, his smirk turning into a warm smile. He reached out, his hand resting gently on yours. âI knew youâd tell me when you were ready.â
His words melted some of the tension in your chest, and you let out a shaky laugh. âWell, Iâm telling you now,â you said softly. âIâm⌠Iâm having a baby.â
His smile grew, the teasing glint in his eyes giving way to something softer, something warmer. âI know,â he said simply, his voice steady and reassuring. âAnd youâre going to be amazing.â
Tears pricked at your eyes as his words settled over you, their sincerity hitting you squarely in the chest. âThank you, Remus,â you whispered.
~~~
Even after everything, it was as smooth as it could possibly be. James, Lily, and Harry all finally packed up from their safe house and moved back into the Potter Manor.Â
Sirius and Remus finally stopped torturing everyone and confessed to their little run around of affections.Â
The years passed like a dream, each one carrying its own triumphs and heartaches. The war faded into history, though its scars remained etched into the lives of those who survived it. Life moved on, not always neatly, but with a resilience that surprised you.
Sirius and Remus opened a small library nestled on the corner of Diagon Alley and a quiet cobblestone street. It was cozy, with tall shelves of books that seemed to reach the ceiling, a perpetually warm fireplace, and a small reading nook tucked into the back. The name on the window read Padfoot and Moonyâs Rare Reads, though it quickly became known simply as âThe Den.â
Remus spent his days writing accurate, unbiased Defense Against the Dark Arts books, ones that became staples in Hogwarts classrooms. His name grew to rival even Gilderoy Lockhartâs (though, unlike Lockhart, Remus didnât need embellishments to sell books). Sirius, of course, claimed full credit for every ounce of their success, though he spent more time charming patrons and hosting wildly popular storytelling nights than actually working.
Your daughter, Ophelia, was the light of your life. She had her fathers eyes- but carried a quiet intensity in her gaze that reminded you of a young girl you once knew. Sirius adored her, and James, ever the doting uncle, took it upon himself to teach her everything he could about Quidditch, much to Lilyâs dismay. Harry, now only 6, had taken on a brotherly role, often sneaking her chocolates or helping her catch frogs in the garden when no one was looking.
But it was Remus who seemed to understand Ophelia in ways even you sometimes struggled to. He noticed the way she retreated into her own thoughts, the questions she asked that were far too insightful for her age. He never pushed her, always waiting patiently for her to come to him with her thoughts, her worries, or her triumphs. It was Remus who first noticed how much she loved books, spending hours reading to her in that steady, soothing voice of his.
One quiet afternoon, while Ophelia played on the rug with a stack of enchanted building blocks, you stood at the counter of the library, watching Remus as he worked on editing a draft of his latest book. The sunlight streamed through the windows, catching the streaks of silver in his hair, and you couldnât help but smile.
âIâve been meaning to ask you something,â You said softly, your voice breaking the comfortable silence.
Remus looked up from his notes, his hazel eyes warm and curious. âWhatâs on your mind?â
You stepped closer, your hands resting lightly on the counter. âI wanted to ask if youâd consider being Opheliaâs godfather.â
His expression froze for a moment, his pen hovering above the page. Then, slowly, a smile broke across his face, wide and genuine in a way that made your chest ache with affection. âAre you serious?â He asked, his voice barely above a whisper.
âDead serious,â You teased lightly, though your voice trembled with emotion. âShe adores you, Remus. And so do I. Thereâs no one else Iâd trust more.â
He set his pen down and rose from his chair, crossing the short distance between you in a few strides. He hesitated for only a moment before pulling you into a tight, warm hug. âIt would be an honor,â He murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âThank you.â
~~~
It was late summer, and the warm golden light streaming through the windows of the Potter Manor made the room feel alive, even as you worked through the seemingly endless task of packing Opheliaâs trunk for another school year at Hogwarts. She sat nearby, perched on the edge of the armchair with her dark hair falling in loose waves over her shoulders, her head bent over her meticulously written list.Â
She was elegant without trying, a quiet sort of grace that seemed inherent in her very being. Even now, as she frowned slightly at the parchment in her hands, the faintest furrow of her brow betrayed her focus; her fingers fiddling with the magpie necklace you gifted her on her eleventh birthday. You couldnât help the soft smile that tugged at your lips as you watched her. She was so much her own person- intelligent, curious, and brimming with quiet determination- but in her moments of focus, you could see glimpses of her father in her too. It made your chest ache with a love so fierce it almost hurt.
âMum,â She said finally, her voice gentle but tinged with that signature note of exasperation. She didnât look up from her list as she spoke. âI told you- I need new potion vials. The ones from last year cracked.â
You folded one of her robes carefully and placed it into the trunk, glancing over at her with a soft chuckle. âAnd I told you, my love,â You hummed, your voice calm and warm, âthat youâll get them when we go to Diagon Alley. Harry and the Weasleys are meeting us there, remember?â
She let out a dramatic sigh, finally lifting her head to meet your gaze. Her sharp, inquisitive eyes- so much like his and yet so uniquely her own- sparkled with that combination of pride and determination that seemed to define her. âI donât see why I canât just go by myself,â She challenged, crossing her arms over her chest in that effortlessly regal way of hers. âIâm not a baby, you know.â
You raised an eyebrow at her, the corners of your mouth lifting into a knowing smile. âYouâre thirteen,â You countered gently, pausing in your task to give her your full attention. âAnd while I have no doubt that you could navigate the alley on your own, Iâd prefer to keep you in one piece. Humor your mother, will you?â
Ophelia rolled her eyes dramatically, but the faint smile that tugged at her lips betrayed her. âFine,â she relented, her tone light but tinged with mock indignation. âBut only because you insist.â
You laughed softly, reaching over to brush a stray strand of hair from her face. âThank you, darling,â you murmured, your voice soft with affection. âI donât know what Iâd do without you to keep me on my toes.â
She tilted her head slightly, her expression softening as she studied you. âProbably live a very peaceful, boring life,â She sighed in faux aspiration, her words playful but her tone warm. âNo dramatic letters about professors or requests for obscure potion ingredients.â
âDonât forget the long rants about Magic Theory,â You added with a smirk, resuming your task as you carefully folded another one of her robes. âIâd be lost without those.â
Ophelia gave a delicate shrug, her lips curving into a smile that was pure mischief. âWell, someone has to keep you informed,â She said lightly, glancing back down at her list. âYouâd be dreadfully out of touch without me.â
âPerish the thought,â You mused, your tone laced with mock horror. But as you reached for another item to pack, you couldnât help the warmth that bloomed in your chest.Â
Despite her pride and sharp wit- or perhaps because of it- Ophelia had a heart so full of love and passion that it left you in awe. She was your miracle, your everything, and the reason you had fought so hard to build a life worth living after everything youâd endured. And though she sometimes tested your patience, you wouldnât trade a single moment with her for the world.
As you worked together in companionable silence, the house around you buzzed faintly with the promise of the day ahead. Soon, the Floo Network would carry her off to join Harry and the Weasleys, and you would meet James and Lily later at the Leaky Cauldron. But for now, in this moment, it was just the two of you, and the quiet love you shared was enough to fill the room with light.
âOphelia,â You called softly, breaking the silence as you tucked the last item into her trunk. She looked up at you, her expression curious. âYou know I love you, donât you?â
Her sharp features softened instantly, and she set her list aside, crossing the small space between you to wrap her arms around your waist. âOf course I do, Mum,â She murmured, her voice quiet but sure. âAnd I love you too.â
You held her close, your heart swelling with a love so fierce it threatened to overwhelm you. No matter how many years passed or how independent she became, she would always be your little girl. And in that moment, as the sunlight streamed through the windows and the world felt soft and safe, you were reminded once again of just how lucky you were to have her.
~~~
The cobbled streets of Diagon Alley buzzed with life, the chatter of families mingling with the clink of cauldrons and the rustle of shopping bags. Children darted between storefronts, their excitement infectious, while parents called after them, juggling lists and parcels. But Ophelia paid the lively scene no mind. She moved with purpose, her steps elegant yet determined, weaving through the crowd with a quiet confidence that belied her thirteen years.Â
âHonestly, Harry, itâs just a bookstore,â sheâd said earlier, rolling her eyes at her cousinâs protests. âIâll be fine.â Her tone, a perfect blend of exasperation and poise, had left little room for argument. Sheâd dismissed him with a wave of her hand, her pride unwilling to entertain the notion that she needed an escort for something so trivial.
Now, her prize- a hefty tome on advanced magical theory- was clutched tightly under her arm, its worn leather cover radiating the promise of knowledge. She moved briskly, her dark hair swaying as she navigated the bustling street, her mind already racing ahead to the countless possibilities the book would unlock. The noise of the crowd seemed to fade as she glanced down at the book, her lips curving into a satisfied smile.Â
It wasnât just the content that thrilled her- though the promise of unraveling complex magical concepts certainly did- it was the independence of it all. Sheâd insisted on going alone, had chosen the book herself, and now, with it safely in hand, she felt a sense of accomplishment she wouldnât admit to anyone.Â
With her head held high and a quiet pride radiating from her, Ophelia turned her steps back toward the group, determined to reunite with Harry and the others before anyone could begin another lecture on responsibility. For now, though, the world felt bright, the possibilities endless, and she relished the brief moment of freedom.
That was when she heard it.
The cheerful hum of Diagon Alley faded into the background as a sharp, panicked cry reached Ophelia's ears. She froze mid-step, her heart skipping a beat as her gaze snapped toward a shadowy alley just ahead. The sound came again, muffled but unmistakably distressed. Her fingers instinctively tightened around the book she carried, and she shifted her weight forward, craning her neck to see.
In the dimness of the alley, two figures stood locked in a tense struggle. The taller one had the smaller pinned against the brick wall, his grip tight around the otherâs collar. âYou've got nerve, Pettigrew.â The smaller figureâs pale hair fell in messy strands across his face as he squirmed against the hold, his voice trembling.Â
âPlease,â the blonde figure gasped, desperation lacing every syllable. âIâm sorry! I wonât look for you again. H-he wonât hear of your escape- not from me!â
Opheliaâs breath hitched. Her heart hammered against her ribs as she took in the scene. The smaller figureâs voice cracked with panic, his pale blue eyes wide and darting frantically. The taller figure, shrouded in shadows, stood silent and imposing, his wand raised. A faint, menacing glow illuminated the tip, the threat unmistakable.
She didnât think. She didnât pause. Her wand was in her hand in an instant, and she stepped into the mouth of the alley, her voice cutting through the tense air like a blade.
���Oi! Let him go!â She shouted, her tone sharp and commanding.Â
Both figures froze, their heads snapping toward her. The taller manâs wand lowered slightly, his body going rigid with hesitation. The smaller figure twisted his neck, his gaze locking onto hers, and for a fleeting moment, Ophelia saw a flash of something in his pale eyes- hope? Relief?
It didnât last.Â
The blonde manâs lips parted, and before she could speak again, his body jerked unnaturally. The sound of cracking bones and tearing sinew filled the air, a grotesque symphony of transformation. Opheliaâs stomach churned as she watched the manâs form contort, shrinking and twisting. Within seconds, he was gone, replaced by a scruffy, dirt-streaked rat.
âWhat the- ?â The words barely escaped her lips before the rat lunged forward, its sharp teeth sinking into the taller manâs hand.Â
The man let out a hiss of pain, his grip faltering just enough to allow the rat to squirm free. In a blur of motion, it darted down the alley, disappearing into the shadows with a faint, scuttling sound.Â
Ophelia stood rooted to the spot, her wand trembling slightly in her grasp. Her wide eyes flicked from the spot where the rat had vanished to the man now turning toward her, his movements deliberate, his frustration radiating like heat.Â
As he stepped into the dim light filtering from the street, his features came into view. Sharp, angular lines carved a face that was both striking and unsettling. His dark hair fell messily across his brow, and his green eyes burned with a mixture of irritation and something else- something far more dangerous.
Ophelia squared her shoulders, her heart thundering in her chest but her chin lifting in defiance. She clutched her wand tightly, the poised elegance of her posture belying the unease bubbling beneath the surface. Every lesson her mother had taught her about composure echoed in her mind, steeling her nerves.
âWho do you think you are?â she demanded, her voice cold and cutting. âPicking on someone smaller than you in an alley? How pathetic.â
The manâs lips quirked into something that might have been a smirk, though it didnât reach his eyes. He took a step closer, his tall frame casting an intimidating shadow. âAnd who,â he said, his voice low and measured, âdo you think you are to interrupt something that doesnât concern you?â
âIâm the girl whoâs about to hex you into next week,â she shot back without missing a beat, her wand steady as she pointed it at his chest. âBack off, or youâll find out just how much trouble a thirteen-year-old can cause.â
The man hesitated, his head tilting slightly as he studied her. His gaze dropped from her face to her neck, and his sharp eyes narrowed, honing in on the small magpie charm resting just above her collarbone. The faint light caught the delicate metal, and for a moment, his composure faltered.
âThat,â he murmured, his voice strained, âisnât yours.â
Opheliaâs brows furrowed, her hand instinctively rising to the charm. Her fingers brushed over the familiar metal as her mind raced. âWhatâs it to you?â she retorted, her tone sharp, her grip on her wand unwavering. âIt was a gift.â
The manâs jaw tightened, and for a fleeting moment, something flickered across his face- recognition, anger, and a hint of something she couldnât quite place. âWho gave it to you?â he demanded, his voice rougher now, almost desperate.
Her lips pressed into a thin line, and she straightened her spine, her wand tip glowing faintly as she met his intensity head-on. âThatâs none of your business,â she said firmly.Â
He took another step forward, his green eyes blazing with an intensity that made her breath hitch. âIâll ask you again,â he growled, his voice a dangerous whisper. âWho gave you that charm?â
Ophelia didnât flinch. Instead, she tilted her chin higher, defiance sparking in her gaze. âMy mom,â she said clearly, her voice carrying an unmistakable note of pride. Her lips curved into a faint, deliberate smile as she added, âYou should know her. Iâm a Potter, after all.â
The man froze. His entire body stiffened, his green eyes widening ever so slightly before narrowing again. Something shifted in his expression, a mixture of shock, pain, and anger that he quickly tried to mask. He stared at her as though he were seeing a ghost.
Ophelia arched an eyebrow, her confidence swelling as she saw the cracks in his composure. âOh,â she said lightly, her tone dripping with mock disappointment, âdonât tell me youâve forgotten about us. That would be awfully sad- we are war heros.â
The manâs lips pressed into a thin line, his hands twitching at his sides. He took a small step back, his expression unreadable as he muttered, âA Potter.â
âThatâs right,â she said evenly, her wand still raised. âAnd unless youâd like to explain what youâre doing lurking in alleys, I suggest you leave.â
He didnât respond. Instead, he turned sharply on his heel and disappeared into the shadows without another word, leaving Ophelia standing in the mouth of the alley, her chest heaving as she tried to steady her breath.
She glanced down at the charm again, her fingers brushing over its surface. Who was that man? she wondered, a faint chill creeping down her spine. And why did the sight of this charm seem to haunt him so?
~~~
The Leaky Cauldron buzzed with its usual chatter, the comforting scent of roasted meat and freshly baked bread drifting through the warm air. You sat at a large table with James, Lily, Sirius, and Remus, laughing at one of Siriusâs over-the-top tales from Hogwarts. The lightness in the room felt like a rare and precious gift, a momentary escape from the shadow of battles fought and sacrifices endured.
The door swung open with a sharp creak, a gust of cool air sweeping in as Harry entered with Ron, Ginny, and Ophelia. Their cheeks were flushed from the bustling streets outside, their movements slightly hurried. Your gaze instinctively fell on Ophelia.Â
Something was wrong.
She lingered behind the others, her usual confident stride replaced with hesitant steps. Her arms were crossed tightly over her chest, as though trying to shield herself from the world. Her sharp features looked drawn, pale, and etched with unease.Â
âOi, there they are!â Sirius called out, raising a hand in greeting. âTook you long enough. Did you stop for ice cream?â
Ron mumbled something about Fred and George dragging them into Weasleysâ Wizard Wheezes, but his words barely registered. Your focus stayed fixed on Ophelia as she slipped into the seat beside you. She didnât look up, her fingers fidgeting with the edge of her cloak, her head bowed like she was trying to disappear.
âOphelia, love,â you said gently, leaning closer to her. âEverything alright?â
Her shoulders tensed, and for a moment, she said nothing. She just sat there, her hand brushing against the magpie charm around her neck. It was a small, almost subconscious motion, but it spoke volumes.
âYeah,â she murmured after a pause, though the tremor in her voice betrayed her. âIâm fine.â
You frowned, your worry deepening. She was many things- brilliant, fiery, and determined- but never this quiet. You reached into your bag, pulling out a few Galleons, and slid them toward Harry, Ron, and Ginny. âWhy donât you three grab some ice cream for real this time? My treat.â
The three exchanged uncertain glances, but Ron was the first to shrug and stand. Harry hesitated, his concerned gaze darting toward his cousin, but eventually, he and Ginny followed Ron out of the pub.
The second they were gone, you turned back to Ophelia. âYou donât look fine,â you pressed softly. âWhat happened?â
Across the table, James and Lily shared a look, their worry mirrored in their expressions. Sirius, his usual joviality replaced with quiet intensity, leaned back in his chair, studying Ophelia closely. Even Remus put down his cup of tea, his sharp gaze focused on her.
Opheliaâs fingers twisted together in her lap, her head ducked low. âItâs nothing,â she muttered, her voice barely audible.
âOphelia,â you said again, your tone a little firmer this time. âYou can tell me. Whatever it is, Iâm here.â
For a moment, she stayed quiet, the tension in her shoulders radiating like a pulse. Then, in a gesture so small it almost went unnoticed, she leaned into you. Her head rested against your arm, her nose pressing into the fabric of your sleeve.Â
You froze for half a second before wrapping an arm around her, pulling her close. She didnât cry- Ophelia never cried- but the way she clung to you spoke louder than words. âMom.â She muffled against your side. As if recharging her spent bravado and bravery in your arms. âDo we know a Pettigrew?â
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Reading your blog makes me so nostalgic. I've tried to read fanfiction once again but harry is so mischaracterized and that puts me off. Ironically canon harry is for some reason underrated in his own story. I'm really glad I found your blog!
I do wonder, what harry would've been like if the whole war didn't take place. Raised by his parents, how do you think harry would've turned out?
Anonymous asked:
Hi there! Your meta and analysis posts have single-handedly reignited my Harry Potter hyperfixation and your interpretation on Harry himself is my absolute favorite. What are your thoughts on a scenario where Lily and James survived or there was no Voldemort at all and Harry got to have the happy childhood he always wanted - how would his personality change? What would stay the same? What kind of dynamic would he have with his parents?
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How do you think Harry would grow up under James and Lily instead? No war no Voldemort.
Thank you! I talked about Harry's mischaracterization a bunch on here, I'm very passionate about my boy. He may be underrated in a few sections of the fandom, but not by me.
I think I talked a little bit about Harry if he was raised by his parents somewhere in the past but I can't seem to find the post so I guess I'll write it again.
Now, I believe that if James and Lily had lived they would've had more children after Harry. So a Harry raised by James and Lily still has his godfather, Sirius, basically constantly around, and also has younger siblings (I like to say a sister and a brother), so it's not just James and Lily that have an effect on his childhood. Also, I assume Remus would be pressured into being more involved than he is in canon, and if the war never happened, then Peter Pettigrew is still part of the Mauraders and Harry will know him well growing up. Contrary to canon, he probably only met the Dursleys once in some family gathering they were all in for some reason, but I don't think Petunia and Lily are too close. They maybe send a postcard every year, or so. I assume Lily tries more to keep that relationship going, but I can see Petunia making some very minimal begrudging attempt to know in general what her sister is up to (as in, how many kids she has and that she has a job, god knows she doesn't care for anything magical).
Also, if the war never happened and there was no Voldemort it's possible Snape & Lily are still friends or reconciled at some point after school â which can also be fun to play around with since I do like their friendship. Though I don't think he'd want to sit with the Mauraders at the same table, I can see Lily and Snape keeping in touch. Maybe Harry knows him too then. But not as a teacher. In this scenario, Severus won't be a professor because without his promise to Dumbledore, there is no way he is choosing to work with children. Not happening.
You know, maybe Lily could be the Potions teacher instead. I think she is more likely to want to be a teacher than Severus and we know from Slughorn she was great in Potions in her own right and one of his favorite students. Not that James and Lily really need the money, but I like this concept.
Now, this Harry Potter, who is raised by brilliant and talented Professor Lily Potter and Head Auror James Potter (or whatever other job you want for him) and has all these successful, caring adults around him that everyone likes, is going to have more things to prove. I think this Harry would be more ambitious than the canon one with about the same amount of cunning â basically, I think a Harry raised by James and Lily is going to Slytherin. It just feels right. He's on the crusp of being in Slytherin away, add some ambition and thirst to leave his parents' larger-than-life shadow â and bam! you got an even more Slytherin Harry.
Like, his core traits (resilience, courage, determination, protective tendency, tenacity, distaste for authority, etc.) I think will remain intact. I mentioned I think he'd have younger siblings and he's going to be the most protective older brother out there. But I think he'd be slightly less self-sacrificing because he's going to be more confident and have more self-worth, and perhaps be a little arrogant if he was raised by James and Lily. You know, James, Lily, Sirius Remus, and Peter are all going to spoil the shit out of him.
It's very possible this Harry would also have more of a taste for mischief (he already has some in canon, but he's also very polite) due to his parents' influence, so this Harry would probably like Fred & George even more.
I can still see him befriending Ron and Hermione, even with the slight changes in his personality. I think they would still get along well and a Harry that grows with James and Lily and the Order (or just its members because the war didn't happen) will know the Weasleys before Hogwarts. So, I can see Harry and Ron as childhood besties in this situation.
(I think Ron could've done well in Slytherin, he has that thirst for glory and to prove himself that a Harry raised by his parents likely would have, so maybe the two end up as snakes. I think Hermione would still be in Gryffindor and that they might still befriend her, so it creates a slightly different dynamic. Though without the first war as a backdrop, I think the muggleborn situation would be less tense. And also, I'm not sure how they'd befriend Hermione without the troll...)
I think James and Lily will be protective, but also really encouraging of Harry to try new things and will completely spoil him and his younger siblings. The only reason Harry would have some Independence is his own nature which I don't think would change much. Some kids are more independent and responsible, and if he has younger siblings it will push him to become someone more similar to the Harry we see in canon. However, he would be less awkward around other people and in social situations in general. I think this Harry, while not being an extrovert, is likely to be louder and more talkative. Also, Lily and the Mauraders would be so proud when Harry becomes Seeker in his first year. James would nearly cry with joy.
That being said, you can play around with it and what you're changing quite a bit, depending on how you envision James and Lily as parents.
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Pairing: Harry x Draco, James x Regulus
Description: Harry Potter is desperately into Draco Malfoy, but he has no clue about it. He finds himself going through some old stuff in Siriusâ attic. He finds an old notebook that used to be his dadâs. Harry discovers that his dad was not only with his mom, but also dated Regulus Black during his time at Hogwarts. He reads through the flashbacks which help him to process his own feelings for Draco.
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Authorâs note: This is the first chapter of my first ever fic, so please be kind. I wanted to do this cause I enjoy fanfiction and wanted to practice my creative writing skills. If you do like it then give it a like or comment and feel free to follow if you want more updates. The next chapter should be posted later today. Thanks for reading!đŤś
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Chapter 1: Pages of a Secret Story
20 October, 1995
Harry James Potter loathed Draco Lucius Malfoy. At least, thatâs what he thinks. His friends know differently. Ron and Hermione knew that Harry had a massive crush on Draco. It was so obvious that his whole house could know as well. The only person that didnât know was Harry himself. He was completely oblivious to his own feelings.
Right now, Harry is making his way toward 12 Grimmauld Place to visit his godfather, Sirius Black. Heâs staying there for the weekend to spend some time with the only living man he considered family. He was a bit nervous; he didnât really know what he could do there. He supposes he will find out in about a minute. He stared at the flat, almost afraid to walk in. He hadnât really gotten to know Sirius that much since he had to stay in hiding after escaping Azkaban in Harryâs 3rd year. This was the first time heâd ever spent any elongated time with him. Harry made his way to the door, hesitating slightly. He knocked. He waits a moment and hears a pair of footsteps getting louder, making their way to the door. He watches the door handle quickly turn. He looks up to see the kind face of Sirius Black looking him right in the center of his bright green eyes. âHarry! Welcome!â Sirius exclaimed.
âYeah, thank you for inviting me over Sirius.â
âOf course, my dear boy! Please come on in. Iâd hate to be seen.â Sirius rushed Harry inside. The place looked exactly as he remembered it when he first came to join The Order. It still had that cold and regretful feeling to it. Almost as if there was a ghost haunting the place. A ghost with a lot of regret that is. âPlease make yourself at home this weekend. I made Kreature clean all the rooms, so youâd be able to choose which one youâd want to sleep in. Theyâre just down that hall if you want to take your bag down.â Sirius told Harry, with an almost equally as nervous tone as Harry felt on the inside whilst gesturing toward a stairwell. âAlright. Thank you.â
âOf course. And down there is the kitchen and sitting room if you want to hang around down here.â He said now gesturing towards the corner that led to the kitchen. Harry nodded and started to make his way up the stairs. It was quite a dark and harrowing hallway. It made Harry feel as if the walls were closing in on him. It was a bit different last time he was here because there were also about 13 other people there to make it a bit more comfier. Now it was completely silent aside from the faint sound of Kreatcher cooking dinner all the way downstairs.
He made his way down the hallway and decided to stop at a room that said âRegulusâ on the door. Harry knew that name. It belonged to Siriusâ estranged younger brother. For some reason, Harry felt drawn to the room. As if fate were telling him to open the door. He stared at the golden door knob for a moment before reaching toward it. He slowly turned the knob and when he opened the door he saw a room no different than a teenage boys would be. It had peeling blue wallpaper that had decaying Slytherin quidditch posters tacked to it. There was a piano in the corner, as well as a desk and dresser on the other wall. They were all the same shade of brown, but the dresser had a dirty mirror on top of it. The bed was quite wide which left little walking room through the bedroom. Though Harry didnât mind too much, considering he lived in a cupboard for 10 years of his life, this room was like a mansion. The sheets were a reddish color and the comforter was blue. They were the only things in the room that looked new. Everything else seemed to have been sitting there and rotting for 30 years- âwell I suppose it had.â Thought Harry.
He set his stuff down and sat on the bed. He was tempted to look through the desk, as he was a bit nosey sometimes. He started toward it and sat down at the chair. It almost gave out at Harryâs weight the second he plopped down on it. He stared at it for a while and pulled on the golden handle that opened the bottom drawer. Inside was only some old parchment and quill. There was also an empty bottle of ink that Harry assumed was either used up or dried out over time. It all was quite boring, so Harry decided to wander around a bit. He set his jacket down on the bed and set back off for the unlit hallway.
As Harry stood in the hallway he contemplated where he should go. He looked around and then up. He stopped and noticed that there was an attic door opening with a string hanging to pull down the ladder. He slowly walked toward it cause he didnât want to be too loud incase he wasnât allowed to be up there. He did stop for a second and consider whether or not it was a good idea to go into the attic. Dinner was almost ready and he wasnât sure if he was allowed up there. After sort of careful consideration though, he still made his way up the rickety ladder.
The attic had a dusty smell to it. Harry could feel the 30 plus layers of dust traveling up his nose and down to his lungs. He coughed into his shirt sleeve, trying to conceal that he was upstairs. The attic was cold as well, but not in a temperature way. More of a lonely way, like no one had been up there in years. The attic was practically filled to the brim with boxes of stuff. He looked around a bit, but nothing caught his attention. That is, until he saw a small box labeled James sitting in the corner of the room. He made his way to it, eager to find out what things of his fathers Sirius still has. He picked up the box and sat on the attic floor in its place. It wasnât very heavy and it was also untaped. He set the box on his lap and began to open it. Inside he saw only 3 things, including a quidditch trophy from 1974, a few Spider-Man comics from the 70âs, and a journal. Harry had to admit he was a little hesitant to open the journal. Last time he found a journal it turned out to be the ghost of Tom Riddle and he was going around petrifying people with a basilisk. He even forced Ginny Weasly to do his dirty work for him. Thinking about that time during his second year surprisingly reassured Harry that nothing can be as bad as that.
He opened the journal and saw that there were entries all throughout. Turns out it was a diary from his dads time at Hogwarts. The first entry was from 4 October, 1975. Almost exactly 10 years ago. Harry started to read in hopes to find a connection with his dad. The only other time he felt that way was when he played quidditch, and he desperately craved a way to know his family better. He never got the chance to know either of his parents personally. He only heard the same things from everyone else; His mother was bright and his father was a prankster.
4 October , 1975
Today was the first day of quidditch practice for this year's season. I saw Regulus in the air practicing as well. He looked so beautiful from that angle. Like he was an angel. Or perhaps a demon sent to tempt me. Unfortunately, it was working a little too well. Everytime I see him, itâ s like my heart swells up and might just burst. I feel a little bad for Lily, even though we never dated or anything, I still told her I liked her for 4 years. Iâm just glad she never felt the same. I also feel bad for Sirius. I mean what kind of best friend falls for his best friend's baby brother. I mean itâ s not like Iâd act on these feelings anyway. Not unless I got Siriusâ blessing which I know he would never give. That kinda sucks doesnâ t it? I suppose I ought to go to bed. I have more practice in the morning. At least I can watch from a distance right?
Harryâs jaw had dropped and his eyes had completely bugged out. He could not believe what he just read. His head and heart started to pound in synchronization as the words lightly uttered out of his mouth. âMy dad and Siriusâ little brother?â Harry had a fear behind his voice. Almost as if he was scared of his own thoughts about this. While he had no problem with homosexuals, he never really knew any, and he certainly didnât think his father would be one. About a million thoughts raced through Harryâs brain. However, the one that stuck out the most was âDoes this mean my dad never loved my mom?â This thought terrified him. If it were true that would mean everything he had ever been told was a lie.
âHarry? Would you like to come down for dinner?â Sirius faintly shouted from the bottom of the stairs. Harry forced himself out of his trance to answer him back. âYeah, Iâll be down in a minute.â
âAlright.â Harry heard back. He quickly stood and set the box back in its spot. He kept the diary and swiftly climbed back down the ladder to shut the door on the ceiling. He went into his room and shoved the diary in his jacketâs inner pocket. He made his way downstairs trying to remain calm and get through this dinner as fast as he could because oddly enough, Harry found himself wanting to read more.
Links to more chapters(will add as I continue to write)
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
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GUYS HELP!
I have been lightly dropping nuggets of marauders fandom (and just general fandom) culture to my family, as a way to process my findings. Like I said in a previous post, fandom participation is largely an anthropology endeavor for me, and being able to explain the culture to outsiders is important for that. This is extra funny because my family is very Christian, and like. . .we're all kind of prudes. Like, we don't really care what other people do as long as it's not in front of us, but that does mean AO3 has some WILD stuff that we never would have THOUGHT to imagine on our own.
Anyway, I explained to my mother that due to the wild popularity of Crimson Rivers, one of the most popular romantic pairings amongst the Marauders fans is James Potter/Regulus Black or, as I said "Harry Potter's dead dad and Harry Potter's dead godfather's dead emo brother." I expressed my pleased bafflement that a complete crackship had become a fandom staple, and showed her the sheer AMOUNT of fics for it on AO3.
You wanna know her response!?!?!
"Mmmmm. That's weak. We can get crazier than that. I wanna see Severus Snape/Mundungus Fletcher."
MY MOTHER. . .WHO DOES NOT READ FANFICTION. WANTS. A. CRACKSHIP FIC.
You wanna know the best part? THERE AREN'T ANY ON AO3! I LOOKED!
Now. I'm sure that somebody has done this SOMEWHERE. So if somebody knows of one, send me a link. But otherwise. . .CALLING ALL BORED WRITERS!
Also, you know what else she said?
"Ooh ooh, what about Newt Scamander/Willy Wonka, but the Timothy Chalemet version! That would be cute! I actually really want to read that"
RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY HOMOPHOBIC BROTHER!
SOMEONE NEEDS TO WRITE THIS FREAKING CROSSOVER NOW! But not me because my sorry aroace hide is trash at writing romance. Like, I think I might be okay when it's f/f, but I don't think I'd enjoy writing an mlm romance fic. So, again:
CALLING ALL BORED WRITERS! I HAVE CRACKSHIPS FOR YOU!
#marauders#james potter#regulus black#jegulus#harry potter#hp#crackships#fic ideas#ship ideas#calling all fic writers#newt scamander x willy wonka#newt scamander#severus snape#mundungus fletcher#severus snape x mundungus fletcher#writing prompts
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âlingerâ - Jegulus microfic - @into-the-jeggyverse - 904 words
âstoriesâ - 25 Days of Jegumas - Day 18 - @noblehouseofgay
Regulus is waiting outside the Winter Festival with Sirius and Remus.
âStop fidgeting.â Sirius slaps Regulus hand away from where heâs fidgeting with the hem of his jumper.
âHeâs late.â Regulus mumbles.
âHeâs two minutes late. Calm down.â
âWhat if he saw me, turned around and left?â Regulus asks nervously.
âItâs not a blind date, Reggie. Heâs very aware of what you look like.â Sirius rolls his eyes.
âBut heâs never seen me on a date. What if he saw how I look on a date and decidedââ
âRegulus.â Remus cuts him off and nods towards the parking lot.
Regulus turns around and his nerves increase tenfold when he see James and by the time he stops in front of them Regulus feels like he canât breathe.
âHi!â James smiles brightly.
âHi.â Regulus whispers.
âSorry Iâm a little late, I was here⌠I was⌠erm⌠IâŚâ James trails off rubbing the back of his neck nervously.
Sirius snorts. âHe was nervous and has been sitting in his car for the last 20 minutes.â Itâs not a question and James doesnât correct him he just blushes and glares at Sirius.
âSirius, leave him alone.â Remus tells him. âShould we go?â He asks and pulls Sirius into the festival without giving anyone a chance to answer. Regulus and James fall into step behind them.
Itâs only quiet for a moment before Sirius turns around. âSo, should we start with baby pictures or embarrassing stories from his childhood?â He asks James with a cheeky grin and Regulusâ eyes grow wide with panic. âOh, calm down, Reggie. Like he hasnât already heard embarrassing stories from your childhood.â Sirius smirks and Regulus freezes.
Remus grabs Siriusâ shoulders and turns him back around. âLeave them alone.â He hisses in Sirius' ear as they continue walking.
Regulus and James wait a moment longer, then followed behind them. âI havenât heard embarrassing stories about you.â James tries to reassure him and Regulus huffs disbelievingly. âI really havenât. Honestly, he would probably be embarrassed for you to find out how much he gushes about you. Heâs only ever told us how great you are. Itâs actually kind of intimidating.â James clears his throat. âIt could erm⌠could probably make some guys feel a little insecure and really nervous to beâŚâ James trails off when Regulus stops and looks at him.
âYou⌠youâre nervous?â Regulus asks quietly, and James give him a shy shrug. Regulus narrows his eyes incredulously and James purses his lips to the side and looks away sheepishly. After a moment, he looks back at Regulus with an unspoken question in his eyes. They exchange several glances with varying emotions having a bit of a silent conversation that basically says âyeah, weâre both nervous.â
They both seem to relax a little and they start walking again. But as soon as they catch up, Sirius turns around.
âOkay, how about some embarrassing stories about Prongs?â Sirius asks, wiggling his eyebrows. âAnd I definitely have embarrassing pictures.â He pulls out his phone and James groans under his breath.
âSirius.â Remus snaps. âLeave. them. alone.â
Sirius fusses a bit but Remus pulls him forward and James continues behind them. Regulus stops to linger at one of the booths and after a moment, he feels James come up beside him.
âWe shouldnât have done this.â Regulus whispers.
âOh.â James says sadly.
âNot this.â Regulus gestures between the two of them. âThat.â He waves dismissively in Siriusâ direction. âI donât know why we thought a double date would be smart.â Regulus sighs.
âBecause he wouldnât let me take you out otherwise.â James says simply.
âWhat?!â Regulusâ head snaps to look at James. Â
âYeah, he said I could only ask you out if he came with us.â
âI donât need a chaperon, James.â Any remaining nerves are instantly replaced with irritation. âAnd what do you mean, let you? Like he needs to give you permission?â
Jamesâ nerves also seem to be slipping away, and have been replaced with a cocky, relaxed smirk that only irritates Regulus more.
âWhat?â Regulus snaps.
âI agreed to a double date for our first date, but I also told him thatâs all he gets. Heâs not allowed on any other dates unless specifically planned or invited. No randomly showing up where we are. No âoh, thatâs where I left thisâ if weâre hanging out in the living room. No barging in or sabotaging us in any way⌠and he said âokayâ.â He shrugs then pauses for a moment. âPlus, I was going to ask you out either way, but this way, any future dates will be Sirius-free.â
Regulusâ irritation is slowly melting away and he narrows his eyes at James.
âYou think thereâll be future dates?â Regulus raises an eyebrow with the hint of a smile.
James smiles back and steps into Regulusâ space. He slowly lifts his hand and tucks a curl behind Regulusâ ear.
âOnly if you want there to be.â James answers with a bright smile as Regulus leans into the touch. Â Â Â
âSirius! Leave them alone!â Remusâ voice breaks them out of their moment and they look over to see Sirius holding up his phone. Â
âWhat? I need embarrassing first date pictures!â Sirius defends himself and looks at his phone with a huff, âWell, thatâs not embarrassing at all.â He complains. âThatâs sickeningly adorable.â James grins and Regulus leans into his side a bit, letting Jamesâ arm wrap around his shoulder. Regulus gives his brother a small, smug smile. âUgh, you two are going to be insufferable, arenât you?â Sirius whines.
âSirius.â Remus rolls his eyes and pulls Sirius away again. âLeave them alone.â
#wolfstar double date fic requested by fourthe_marauders on insta#a double date at a winter festival sounds like a good first date#unless your brother is sirius black#sirius is a little shit#poor remus has his hands full#somehow it still turns out to be a great first date#and there are definitely future dates#this is my longest microfic to date!#wolfstar#sirius black#remus lupin#regulus loves james#james loves regulus#jegulus#jegulus microfic#jegulus fanfiction#marauders fanfiction#regulus black#james potter#marauders#james x regulus#regulus x james#harry potter marauders#harry potter#dead gay wizards from the 70s#dead gay wizards#starchaser#sunseeker#jeggyverse microfic#25daysofjegumas
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FANFICTION FRIDAYS
Here are my picks for Jan 10th 2025, please go give them a read:
Marks by @bullet-prooflove (Clint Barton x Reader, MCU) Outlander by @zepskies - Dean Winchester has been stripped of his military rank, but heâs living happier with his new wife, trying to adjust to a new life in her tribe. What will it take for her people to accept him, especially when the battle for her heart might not be completely won? (Dean Winchester x OFC, Supernatural) Attention by @lila-lou - Ben is always distant in publicâyouâve come to expect it. But at Annieâs birthday party, his detachment stings more than ever. With a little push from Frenchie, though, Ben makes it clear that thereâs no one he wants more than you. (Soldier Boy x Reader, The Boys) NSFW Rumor: Joe Velasco by @bullet-proofloveSnowglobe by @kazsrm67 - You find a beautiful snowglobe at a thrift shop after a hunt with your husband and brother-in-law. Once you take it home things around the bunker change drastically. (Dean Winchester x Reader, Supernatural) Happy New Year, Soldier Boy by @kamisobsessed - Annie and Hughie invite you and the other members of 'The Boys' over for a New Years Eve party. You and Soldier Boy don't always get along. When the New Year is about to ring in, you don't have anyone share a New Year's kiss with, but Soldier Boy changes that. (Soldier Boy x Female!Reader, The Boys) Untitled Prompt by @supernaturalfreewill (Dean Winchester x Reader, Supernatural) Miracles Don't Exist by @sheeple - Being the Dark Lordâs daughter and raised under the strict supervision of the Malfoyâs is no easy life. Especially if you start crushing on your fatherâs arch-nemesis, Harry Potter. And that while being engaged to one of his followerâs sons. (Theodore Nott x Riddle!Reader, Harry Potter x Riddle!Reader, Harry Potter) daemonium armor by @justwhisperingfantasies (Dean Winchester x Reader, Supernatural) Helping Hand by @bensonstablers - Prepared to go home for the night, Velasco finds Olivia still in her office and sticks around to check in with her. (Benlasco, Law & Order: SVU) [AO3 link]
slowly kissing down the body by @chevroletdean (Dean Winchester x Female!Reader, Supernatural)
Dark Necessities by @dimitrescus-bitch (Jamie Moriarty x Reader, Elementary) You Feel Like Home by @im-just-a-mississippi-girl - When a case hits a little to close to home, Joe is there for you and to make sure you feel safe. (Joe Velasco x Female!Reader, Law & Order: SVU) Brownstone by @blog-of-a-multitude-of-fandoms (Jamie Moriarty & Platonic Reader, Elementary) chopped and screwed by @vivaciousoceans (Benlasco, Law & Order: SVU)
The Great Invasion by @pamwritessometimes - In a world turned upside down, where monsters are the ones who hunt and hunters are the prey, Y/N must choose: follow the new rules to stay alive or join a rogue band of hunters determined to reclaim power and change the game for good. (Dean Winchester x Female!Reader, Supernatural)
Looking for more? Please check out my fic rec lists and writers rec lists (1, 2, 3). I do have some things to update like the Beau stories list, Alec, Russell, Jensen, Soldier Boy, Dean, etc (and I promise I will when I hopefully get more time this month) and I do have some more coming out, like for Law & Order: SVU, LOTR, etc.
In the meantime, if youâd like to peruse even more stories that are on my reading lists, please check out @biggerbearsreads and @tbbrebloglibrary (which will eventually take place of the 1st - tbbrl will be more organized by tags, etc) or you can check out @biggerbearficrecs.
And please donât forget when you come across any and all creative content on here to reblog:
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Prompt 10 - Favour
@jegulus-microfic January 10, Word count 253
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What the hell was going on? James yanked Regulusâs hand and forced him behind his back, shielding him from the enormous snail. Its beady eyes turned in their direction, its body still facing in the opposite direction.Â
With a sickening squelch, the snail began to turn. It moved much faster than heâd expected. Thankfully, they both had quick reflexes thanks to years playing quidditch and took off back the way they'd come.Â
âWhy is it so big?!â Regulus gasped as James all but dragged him down the corridor.
âNo idea,â He grunted as he made a sharp left, the snail still on their tail.Â
They ground to a halt as they came face to face with another of the enormous shelled gastropods. âFuck!â James exclaimed as he changed course, spinning Regulus around to go back the way theyâd just come, but it was too late. The other snail had caught up with them.
James panted, spinning his head this way and that, looking for a way out.
âDo me a favour and stop trying to be the hero,â Regulus drawled boredly, as though they hadnât just legged it down two corridors. He tugged at Jamesâs hand, with a lot more strength than James had given him credit for, and opened a secret passage beside them. They fell into it just as the two snails collided with each other slimily. James shuddered at the sound and lit his wand, taking in Regulusâs scowl.
âWe need to find my brother,â Regulus spat through gritted teeth.
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CHAPTER 15: HARRY'S BIRTHDAY (PART 1)
I didn't do it on purpose but since today's the 31st of July, it's very fitting that this chapter is the first part of Harry's birthday! So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HARRY!
Hermione giggled but Ron shook his head, his nose wrinkled.
âStill with that, are you?â Ron said, pulling a face.
âStill with what? Severus?â Harry asked, raising an eyebrow.
Ronâs scowl turned into a disgusted grimace as he stopped dead in his tracks.
âYouâre calling him Severus now? SEVERUS?!â Ron's arms were gesturing wildly.
âYes, Ron, Severus. Itâs his bloody name, for Merlinâs sakeâŚâ
Harry breathed in and out, trying to calm down as he shook his head.
âOh come on, weâve been through this. Spending time with Severus has shown me heâs not the person we believed he was. And it's shown him that I am not James Potter, or even Lily. Weâre friends now, just like you, Neville, and Luna,â Harryâs voice tightened, his fists clenching as he struggled to keep his tone steady. âI donât understand why that bothers you so much.â
âBecause itâs him!â Ron shouted. His jaw tightened, and he ran a hand through his hair, âItâs the git from the dungeons, itâsâŚâ
âYes, and I am the son of his mortal enemy,â Harry interrupted. âIf he has learned to forget all that, you should too. I donât understand this hatred towards him! After all, all heâs done to you is deducting points from Gryffindor.â
âHe didn't...!â Ron said, his hands in the air. âYou must be bloody delusional, Harry!â
âRon, that's enough,â Hermione intervened.
Harry turned to his left, where Hermione was standing, looking at Ron with a stern gaze. Ron's ears turned bright red, and he turned around, huffing and starting to walk, his steps heavy on the ground. Harryâs hands clenched into fists, his knuckles turning white as he struggled to maintain control. The tightness in his chest was suffocating, and he could feel a knot of anger and disappointment forming in his stomach.
Ron's words seemed to echo in the quiet moment before Ginny, who'd been standing behind them, took a step forward. Her brow knitted together as she glanced between Harry, standing beside her and Ron, already walking away.
âHarry, itâs not just Ron,â Ginny said quietly. âYouâve been spending so much time with Snape lately when you used to hate him not three months ago. And we remember the things he did. Maybe you know things we don't, but still, itâs Snape. It'sâŚweird.â
She then ran after his brother until she caught up with him, a few yards ahead.
Harry breathed out, looking at the dry path as he sighed and started to walk, Hermione falling in step with his pace, much slower than Ron and Ginny's.
He felt a wave of weariness wash over him. That had gone dismally. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair, closing his eyes shut. Why was it so hard to understand that someone could change?
People can change. He'd seen it in Severus. He'd felt it in his bones, he himself was not the same he was a year ago. Hell, hadn't he himself changed from the boy who had first arrived at Hogwarts? If he could evolve, why couldn't Severus? Why couldn't Ron? The realisation felt like a cold, sharp truth he struggled to accept.
He couldnât help but feel isolated, Ron had always been a pillar in his life. But this time, it didn't look like he would budge. His emotions tangled with a sense of being fundamentally misunderstood.
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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Harry Potter/Tom Riddle/Severus Snape, Tom Riddle/Severus Snape, Harry Potter/Tom Riddle, Harry Potter/Severus Snape Characters: Harry Potter, Tom Riddle, Severus Snape, Potter - Character Additional Tags: Threesome - M/M/M, Courting Rituals, Pureblood Culture (Harry Potter), Pureblood Society (Harry Potter), Pureblood Politics (Harry Potter), Child Neglect, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Bad Parent James Potter, Bad Parent Lily Evans Potter, Dark Magic, Dark Harry Potter, Heavy Angst, Pureblood Courting, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Child Abandonment, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Politician Tom Riddle, Hopeful Ending, Age Difference, Coming of Age Summary:
At six months, magical babies began showing signs of accidental magic, and while Godricâs had manifested in the expected ways - floating his toys around, summoning food when he was hungry, even once apparating himself to wherever their mother happened to be. Hadrianâs magic manifested in different ways. Little Harry set fire to his mother's drapes when angry, shattered widows when he cried, and turned his toys into snakes when his younger brother tried to steal them. These darker manifestations werenât uncommon with children from Dark families, but the Potters were not a dark family and no son of a Potter would ever become a dark wizard.
#Harry Potter#fanfiction#ao3#Harry has a brother#Tom/Severus#Tom/severus/harry#like lowkey annoyed everyone's all like harry's weak but they all know his parent's bound his magic like wtf#bound magic and still an animagus like what if that isn't an indication of power what is?#slytherin!Harry
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