#regulus has a mini panic

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Prompt 2 - Constant

@jegulus-microfic November 2, Word count 512

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“I actually own this flat,” That’s what James had just said. Regulus felt so stupid. He’d kept asking and asking about paying rent. He should have just figured it out himself. 

He screwed his eyes shut and sat back down at his easel, opening his eyes to look at his ruined painting. It would have been beautiful, but now it was marred by a thick black line, which he had no way of hiding. He was just about to screw it up when Sirius knocked on his door. 

“Hey, Reggie, you good?” Sirius asked, concern shadowing his face. Regulus shrugged, he wasn’t sure. “Wow, is that what you’ve been painting?” Sirius asked, moving to stand beside him. 

“Yeah, but it’s beyond saving. I was just about to throw it away.” 

“What?! No, don’t do that!” Sirius picked up the paintbrush and began changing the shape of the line. Regulus watched, fascinated, as Sirius worked.  “You know he wasn’t keeping it from you to be cruel, right? He just didn’t see it as a problem. It is a constant wonder how someone so intelligent can at the same time be so dumb.” Sirius spoke while he painted. “Seriously, he’s a good guy and was just excited that you'd agreed to move in. There,” Sirius proclaimed as he stood back and revealed the finished picture. 

Regulus moved closer, staring at the regal stag, its silhouette taking over the picture. Its head held high, with its antlers brushing the very top of the painting. The oranges and pinks of the sunset Regulus had been painting made it look like some sort of ancient god of the forest. It was eerily beautiful. 

“It’s amazing, Sirius, but I can't use it for my assignment. Maybe you should take it.”

“No way, it’s yours. You can hang it in the living room. James will love it, and that way, you can look up and remember the time we did something nice together,” Sirius slung an arm around Regulus’s shoulders and squeezed. “I’m glad you’re here, you know,” Regulus looked up at him with over-bright eyes. 

“Really?” He said in a whisper. 

“Yeah, of course,” Sirius grinned at him, leaning his head so it rested on top of Regulus’s. "I've missed you so much," Regulus debated internally for a moment before twisting his head so he was looking up at his brother. 

“Sirius, can I tell you something?” Regulus said quickly. He needed to know he wasn’t being an idiot because if he left it and stayed with James too long, it would hurt so much more. Sirius nodded, urging him to continue. Regulus took a deep breath before he spoke. “I think I like James. Like more than a friend,” His words were barely audible, but Sirius heard every word. He pulled Regulus into a tight hug. 

“You two are as dumb as each other,” Sirius chuckled, kissing the top of Regulus’s head and leading him out into the living room, where James and Remus were having a heated discussion about the proper way to top a scone. 

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[khaleesiofalicante]

The finals are over, and I did proofread the paper! And I was pretty proud of how I did it. It was a very interesting paper about anti-colonialist movements. But now that I am free, here are the Lily updates. In list form, categories and everything 

Lillys chaotic dreams: I wanted to start with the completely what the fuck things first. So let me tell you about this dream I had in which there were demon fights, but somewhere in the middle of the dream was like a mini commercial break or some thing, and it was Shrek and regulus black on a date in a Burger King. It is a Pairing that has boggled my mind, but my friends think I should write fanfiction about it because it’s just so out there that it would be a just a chaos move.

Lillys love life: I have a girlfriend now. and she is lovely. But also chaotic gay moment, we’ve gone out to get cookies, and on the box she put happy first kiss day. And then we went to my parents house and spent the night over there, and I left the box downstairs with the writing facing out, thankfully my mom didn’t notice, and if she did she did not say anything, which leads me to believe she didn’t notice because my moms always saying something about some thing.  but I was still in a panic that whole rest of the day because I was going to be going on a plane with my mom for the next four hours, and I did not want to be confronted. I didn’t have a good enough excuses prepared yet.

Lily’s performance opportunities: I will be finally accomplishing my dream of performing at a diner. There’s a music festival happening in the city, and I applied to perform, and two places got back to me about performances. It’s going to be the first time I’ve done a live performance in about two years maybe and I am so excited. I’m still trying to make my Setlist, but it is slowly but surely coming together. If you ever have any recommendations, feel free to send them my way. I’m also trying to decide if I want any of my originals on the list, and if so do I want them to be fully finished, or just giving people a peek on the things that I’ve written to see if it even goes over well with others. I DK, I’m very insecure about my songwriting so I’m quite hesitant with sharing it with others, especially at a performance venue

The negatives: mental health has been honestly decline recently, I did start going to therapy which was pretty good, although it did unbury some past traumas that I quite forgot about which has not been quite fun to relive. I also lost one of my best friends of like nine years, we were growing apart, and it led to some really toxic situations, and we also just realize things about each other from the past that we’ve done to each other that were kind of fucked up. And I just think that we really brought out some of the worst qualities in each other as much as we helped each other grow, and that’s just a very hard thing to wrap your head around, that’s some thing could’ve been so special and precious and have helped you out of some difficult times, and yet has left you with so many scars and have not always been the healthiest situation to be in. I also had a family member going to the hospital which was quite terrifying because he’s been declining in health recently, and he was a family member that practically helped raise me, so I just end up becoming very worried win his health gets worse. Also, I was going to go study abroad in the Netherlands in the fall, and almost everything had been prepared, and then the school got back to me saying that they didn’t think that they could be accessible to my blindness which really sucked because I’ve been excited. But also, it’s one of the times where I was explicitly told that I could not do some thing that I’ve been dreaming of doing for a while simply because I was blind, and it’s a shitty fucking feeling because it’s not the first time, but it’s one of the most obvious. So yeah, I’ve really been trying to look at the really great things that have been happening in my life, but it’s been kind of difficult.

Lillys bad bitch behavior: I did a bike ride through all five New York City boroughs. That was like 45 miles at least, and it felt great.

Lily’s job: I’m going to be a diversity equity and inclusion intern at a bank, so that’s exciting. I’m very curious how much they are actually committed to the work because I worked in that field at my school this semester, and they are quite horrible at it, and so are most other places that claim that they are committed to diversity and inclusion in the workplace. But, I am hoping for the best, especially based on some of the stories they’ve told.

Things Dani should be proud of: I went on vacation, twice. Lily taking breaks? I know it sounds insane, but it happened. Like I mentioned, I started going to therapy. It started off at school counseling, but I’m looking into some stuff for the summer. We are working on self healing this year.

That’s probably not it, but that’s all I can think of. I hope that you have been taking care of yourself, and ILY!

PS: it’s almost my birthday, and as reparations for IALS, I think you should start thinking of a Mavid Royalty snippet… Just saying.

@noah-herondale-lightwood here you go in case I didn’t mention any of these updates in our messages.

CONGRATS ON FINISHING FINALS. I HOPE YOU ARE TREATING YOURSELF NOW.

Your dreams are truly something else.

Lovely to see you and your girl are going strong. Sending more love your way!

I'm so so excited about the live performance opportunities! Let me know how it goes, yeah? A song rec for you to consider: Love Letter by Anthony Lazaro & Sarah Kang. I think you will like it.

I'm sorry to hear about your mental health but I'm so proud of you for going to therapy and being so fucking self-aware about it. Therapy is never easy. Making yourself vulnerable and confronting your trauma is even worse. It takes so much courage and strength to do that. Keep holding onto that strength and courage. I'm wishing the best for you and hope more study-abroad opportunities come your way. Keep applying for more! Always.

BIKE RIDES IN NEW YORK? THAT'S BAD BITCH INDEED.

A gentle reminder that I don't need a list of things to be proud of you but thank you for sharing it anyway. I'm very proud indeed.

PS - Bold of you to assume I'm not always thinking of Mavid royalty au. Hope you had a beautiful and memorable birthday 💙

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Sirius Black Masterlist by Heloise Daphne Brightmore

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Sirius Black imagines/blurbs

[A] Alive [0.3k words]

Sirius gets injured and regardless of his reassuring touch, you find it hard to process that he’s alright.

[U] Unbroken promise [0.9k words]

Sirius promises a breath-taking date, only to leave you waiting. When Remus arrives, your heart realises before your brain does that something might not be right.

Sirius Black one shots

[A] A haunted night [1.7k words]

Sirius has been battling with his nightmares, but he decides to fight them alone, fearing to share his weaknesses with you. That is until you can't stand his pained whimpers echoing across the corridor anymore.

Absurd ideas [4.7k words]

Sirius’ jealousy causes a misunderstanding which inevitably ends up with him getting worked up and everyone else being confused. Most of all you, when you realise he thinks he knows what you feel, but he couldn’t be farther from the truth.

All your fault [1.9k words]

Sirius’ boredom causes you to end up in detention. Or so you think, but he has a different perspective on the events and you clearly can’t find the golden middle.

Alone? Together! [1.5k words]

The war has taken a toll on everyone and Sirius finds himself useless whilst hiding at Grimmauld Place. His own thoughts are eating him up, wanting to be reckless, but not daring to lose those he loves. When you arrive to sooth his worries, your strength reassures him that he is not alone, that whatever happens, you can face it together.

An unrefusable offer [3.2k words]

Sirius has been trying to get you to go out with him for the longest of time, but you can’t accept his interest in you. Will his cunning little plan change your mind at Lily and James’ wedding or will it end in a disaster?

[B] Be my (fake) girlfriend [4.8k words]

Sirius is fed up of girls throwing themselves at him, so he asks you to be his fake girlfriend, but you seem to enjoy the fake relationship more than you were supposed to.

Best Christmas Present [3.1k words]

Sirius goes back to you after he has escaped Azkaban. But when he finds you with a son, he wants nothing but to escape the heartbreak, not even listening to your explanation.

Beyond Friendship [8.3k words]

To get back at your good-for-nothing ex-boyfriend, you ask Sirius to help you out and pretend to be your new boyfriend, which seems to agitate your ex just as you expected. However, you couldn't have anticipated how Sirius’ infuriating presence could actually turn out to be not only fun, but almost essential.

Bitter Past [3.8k words]

Sirius has been relentlessly asking you out on dates, when you finally agreed, but in your mind it’s all about revenge.

Bundle of joy [1.4k words]

Part of the series What they call home, but can be read separately. When you realise there’s a little baby growing in your belly, it terrifies you. Both you and Sirius had a rough childhood and now that there’s a new life inside you, your ability to raise a child concerns you, especially as you’re in the middle of a war.

Busted [4k words] [18+]

You and Sirius have always been close, but in the last year you have been even more involved with each other. However you didn’t want others to know about it, so you kept it a secret. Up until you both made a mistake.

[C] Christmas lie [1.8k words]

Your relationship with your parents has never been a good one, therefore they plan to spend Christmas without you. But you don’t want Sirius to spend it with you either, knowing he would have a better time with his friends. So you decide to lie.

Cookies [1.6k words]

You always loved to bake, so spending time in Hogwarts’ kitchen has become a daily activity of yours. This time however Sirius joins you and he has other ideas beside tasting your delicious cookies.

Crimes of jealousy [3.8k words]

Sirius becomes jealous when he hears that you agreed to go on a date with a fellow Gryffindor and he decides to do something about it.

Cuddles [1.1k words]

Sirius and you are cuddled up in a bed, enjoying a warm, sunny morning with a couple of sweet confessions.

[D] Damned words [2k words]

Friends. And a bit more of the benefits. That's what you and Sirius were to each other. Until he uttered those damned words maybe in the heat of the moment, maybe as a result of the amount of alcohol he consumed. Either way, you should have escaped.

Degrading feelings [1.8k words]

James thinks his friendship is more important than your relationship with Sirius so you and Lily decide to take revenge

Distant friend [3.8k words]

When rumours start about you and your housemate, Sirius decides to keep a distance from you, which you do not take well.

Do you mind? [1.9k words]

You think you know better what Sirius would say and when you actually do, Sirius ends up speechless. However, what you don’t know is what Sirius would do.

Don’t play games with me! [2.5k words]

Having a crush on Sirius was as normal as the sun coming up every day, but as a friend of his, you tried to keep it a secret. But then James decides to get involved and corners you in an uncomfortable conversation.

[F] Fear of prejudice [2.2k words]

You didn’t find being a barista a particularly attractive career, but when Sirius takes on the role, it stirs up some unexpected feelings inside you. However the reason behind your newfound interest isn’t in his occupation, but something that you dare not to voice, ashamed of your sinful thoughts.

Feelings [1.2k words]

You have been having all sorts of feelings, causing your head to become a mess. Sirius, being a sweet boyfriend stays by your side.

Fluffy supporter [2k words]

You have been in need of a support animal since first year, but unfortunately your puppy couldn’t accompany you at the start of year. Padfoot comes along to help you out, without you knowing that the dog is actually your boyfriend.

[G] Gentle Seduction [3.5k words]

You are more than aware of Sirius’ feelings towards you, but he doesn’t seem to want to take the first step. You decide to force him to realise he has no other options.

Go on a date with me! [3.6k words]

You have had enough of craving for Sirius’ attention so you decide to take the first step. Things however might not turn out to be so great.

[I] I missed you [1k words]

Sirius is missing you, his girlfriend, and James finds the situation rather entertaining. It seems James and you are on the same wavelength when it comes to Sirius being a love-sick puppy.

Interest in you [3.2k words]

You have been interested in Sirius for years, but you didn’t want to date him. It has been bugging him to no end, leaving you annoyed.

[M] Make me [3k words]

Sirius is unable to shut up and you are at a tipping point. Even after being kindly asked to shut up for a mere second, Sirius doesn’t take your request seriously.

Memories of a Pensieve [3.4k words]

Your friends have been tired of you and Sirius dancing around each other so they show you what they see on a daily basis to convince you.

Misunderstood feelings [4.1k words]

Being Sirius Black’s girlfriend had its pros and cons, but unfortunately you could only see what was missing recently.

[N] Not so perfect [1.6k words]

Sirius is the perfect son. Captain of his quidditch team, Headboy of Slytherin, dashingly handsome with perfect grades and proud parents. Expect that he has fallen for a Muggleborn Gryffindor.

[R] Relying on [2.5k words]

You are not sure if you can rely on your friends anymore, the continuous bullying and harassment, the mean words playing in your head over and over again, almost pushing you too far from them. [Platonic]

[S] Second chance [2.4k words]

Sirius has been distant and rude, eventually breaking your friendship. He is angry, you are hurt, both of you pulling away even further. That is until James and Remus decide to meddle.

Space that he already had [5.3k words]

Your boyfriend, Sirius has been more distant than ever and he doesn’t even realise it even when you confront him.

[T] Teacher’s pet [5.3k words]

Sirius being your teacher meant he was someone you could never have. You are struggling with your feelings and how ethically wrong what you feel is, even though he is only 5 years older.

Truth behind the Polyjuice [2.3k words] 

The marauders decide to take your love life into their hands, but things turn out badly, leaving you full of anger towards them.

Truth or Dare [4.5k words]

You and your friends are bored so you start playing a little Truth or Dare, but it doesn’t necessarily go as planned. Or does it?

[U] Unexpected expectancy [3.4k words]

You and Sirius have never talked about having a family on your own. When you become pregnant, you panic and don’t know what to do.

Unforeseen mission [5.8k words]

You have always thought Sirius cheated on you back in Hogwarts, so you avoided him. But then Dumbledore decides to send you on a mission together and you accidentally agree.

Unprotected experience [3.1k words]

A couple of nights of fun left you sick and vulnerable. When you finally realise the cause of your sickness, you do not know what to do.

[Y] Your decision, yours only [1.7k words]

Sirius is having trouble with his family and you are trying to be there for him.

Sirius Black headcanons

[M] Movie genres [0.2k words]

What movie genres Remus Lupin, Sirius Black and James Potter like.

[P] Pets they brought to Hogwarts [0.4k words]

What kind of pets Sirius Black, James Potter, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew and Regulus Black brought to Hogwarts in their first year. 

Sirius Black mini series 

[F] Facade pt. 1|2 [1.1k words] Facade pt. 2|2 [1.1k words]

You have been silently suffering pretending to be someone else, but noone can see the real you.

[H] Hot stuff pt. 1|2 [6k words] Hot stuff pt. 2|2 [4.2k words]

University is causing you a great deal of stress, you are couped up in your room, having your own cave. That is until your friends decide they have had enough and drag you away from your studies for a night out. But when your eyes meet a familiar face, one that you thought you would never see again, you find yourself once again captured by him, the reasonable part of your brain betraying you.

[L] Like a dream pt. 1|2 [3.4k words] Like a dream pt. 2|2 [2.9k words]

Sirius and you were supposed to be enemies, but your crush on him might not be as unrequited as you thought.

Lesson from a Prefect pt. 1|2 [4.6k words] Lesson from a Prefect pt. 2|2 [4.4k words]

Being a prefect meant you didn’t have a good relationship with the Marauders. However Sirius takes an interest in you after you give him a piece of your mind. You are tricked into going on a date with Sirius and you are dreading every moment of it, but he turns out to be more than a lost because.

Love in the Order pt. 1|2 [3.3k words] Love in the Order pt. 2|2 [3.3k words]

Finally finishing your mission you return to the Order’s headquarter as per Dumbledore’s request, where you run into Sirius Black, the man you have been craving to see. Feeling the happiness of being reunited doesn’t last long, you have to part ways with Sirius to attend to another dangerous mission, but things don’t turn out the way you have planned.

[T] Teach me how to kiss pt. 1|2 [3.7k words] Teach me how to kiss pt. 2|2 [3.7k words]

You have asked your crush out on a date, but you never dated before. You ask your best friend, Sirius to teach you on the physical part of dating, which he reluctantly agrees to. You realise that you have caught feelings for him, but knowing he would never return your feelings is beyond painful. 

[U] Useless warning pt. 1|2 [3.9k words] Useless warning pt. 2|2 [3.5k words] 

Sirius is one of your best friends who happens to be dating Marlene. She isn’t particularly a good friend of yours, but you do get along. She agrees to go out with Sirius, all the while she is aware of your feelings. Things get complicated as you are unable to keep your feelings to yourself anymore.

Sirius Black series

[W] What they call home [14.3k words]

You’re in need of protection and Albus is ready to give it to you after years of help you have been providing the Order with. However your presence is not welcomed, especially by Sirius Black himself as you already have history behind you. However Sirius agrees to the wizard’s wishes, which forces you to be trapped in the same household. [Completed]

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Masterlist

Y’all have been asking and finally... It’s here! I have compiled all I could find, pretty much all SW related but I have got some other Wolfstar in the works! ;)

Nightmares Mini Series Masterlist Post

Dream Vacation - SW Coops Smut

HE MOVED IN - SW Coops fluff

Why Loup - SW Coops

Apple Picking - SW Coops Fluff

Trick or Treating with the Little Brothers - SW Coops Fall Fluff and Stuff

Apple Pie Baking and… a Proposal? - SW Coops FLUFF

100 Followers?! (O’knutzy)

Hockey Isn’t Everything Pt.1

Hockey Isn’t Everything Pt. 2

Hockey Isn’t Everything Pt. 3

Hockey Isn’t everything Pt. 4 Admissions Essay

Unofficial HIE blurb - Reg and Finals Stress

MORE Unofficial HIE - Post Finals Reg gets Cuddles (aka Black Brother Cuddles )

RS Candy Hearts Fest Playlist/Fic list

Asks:

Loops borrows some PJs from Cap

Re gets Sick

Dumo + Sirius

Sirius gets benched

Overworked Sirius

#HotGuyOnTheBench (jealous Cap)

Coops on Vacation

Dumo helping with a nightmare 1

Dumo helping with a nightmare 2

James has a panic attack

Sick Remus (the lost ask)

First Snow of the Season

THAT Night pt. 1

THAT Night pt. 2

Jegulus during the first war

BAMF Reg w/ GOOD Friends

SW Ace! Reg

One of Leo’s Bad Days (Mopey Lo)

O’knutzy Picnic

O’knutzy Adoption

Meeting Arabella

Arabella no one asked for (first night)

Sirius walks in with Hickies

Leo and Arabella Baking

Leo reading the team Fanfic (descriptions)

In the Bedroom (follow-up to Leo reading Fanfic)

Sirius coming to practice with hickies

Leo hides being sick

Bad Habits Die Hard

Talker and Loop Friendship &lt;3

Disability Pride Month ask Feat. O'knutzy

Disability Pride Month ask continuation

Sirius Drinking to Cope Pre-Coops

Coops Mental Health - Sirius has an anxiety episode

Jegulus - Reassurances

Toxic Masculinity who? We don't know him. It's Christmas! (fic exchange)

Coops with baby Harry

Just in Case (Regulus' letter to James)

Tipsy Loops (Remus' birthday)

Heavy Workouts and Hasty Words

Fake Feelings? (fake dating prompt for V)

Scandals, Salvia Sunshine, and Second Chances (wolfstar au WIP)

Murder Mystery Drabbles - Fun Fair

Murder Mystery Drabbles - Hogwarts Edition

Nothing Ever Makes Sense (College AU / RA Remus, Wolfstar and Jegulus) WIP coming soon-ish!?

Smutty Saturday - Jegulus

Several Sentence Sunday - Jegulus(continuation)

Smutty Saturday Compilation (They Finished- I mean I completed writing it)

Twitter Mishap with a Happy Ending

*Please let me know if any of these don’t work and I’ll try to get it fixed

**To be updated periodically when I get out new content, but I think this is all of it for the moment :)

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Minerva Mcgonogall being an awesome teacher and human being

First Man - Camila Cabello

All of her homework assignments come with the added requirement for extra credit that you draw an animal of her choosing.

She keeps sweets in her desk for students having a bad day (there’s an entire drawer of chocolates simply for Remus Lupin and only herself, Remus, and Sirius have access to it).

She gives no homework at least once a week.

She has a collection of stuffed animals on her bed and she gives them to students who are struggling. (She transfigures some stuffies into different animals when she doesn’t have the animal a student wants.)

She lets Severus stay in her classroom all the time because she knows he’s lonely.

She lets Sirius call her Minnie because she knows it makes him feel better.

She asks students about their pronouns and helps trans kids learn temporary transfiguration spells for their bodies so they can better deal with their dysphoria.

If she sees a child sleeping in her class she lets them sleep and excuses their work for the day.

She does check-ins once a week to make sure students are doing okay.

She throws small parties over breaks for kids who can’t go home.

She makes small gifts for all of her students, taking particular care with which holidays they celebrate so she can celebrate each one with them.

She has a collection of mini pride flags in a mug on her desk that kids can take from if they want.

She puts moving stickers on all the essays she gives back no matter what grade the person got.

She teaches class outside at least once a month.

She tries to use the names her students ask her to (Mr. Potter and Mr. Lupin for Sirius and Regulus specifically).

She has teatime with Dumbledore to discuss the students’ personal lives, especially the ones she’s worried about.

She encourages creativity and artistic expression and tries to give assignments that are open to originality and new takes and ideas.

She tries to pair people from different Houses together to encourage House unity.

She works to dispel House stereotypes and guide kids on a path that feels right for them.

She takes notice of kids with insecurity and mental illness and invites them over for tea.

When a student has a panic or anxiety attack or just a really bad day, she gives everyone group work to distract them and transforms into her Animagus form and lets the upset student pet her until they’ve calmed down.

She takes mental health just as seriously as physical health.

Sometimes she has discussion circles, especially nearing the war, where she moves all the desks to the side and the students all sit in a circle with her and they talk about what they’re scared or sad or angry about and then at the end they share good things to keep up the hope.

She gives a hug to anyone who wants one.

She has open teatime for students to come out to her during since she knows how hard that is (she’s an ace aro legend don’t forget) (she had to explain to Sirius and James what queerplatonic relationships were because they wanted one but didn’t know what it was called; legit they just burst into her classroom at like three in the morning with Sirius like “Professor I’m super gay for him but only like a friend but I still wanna kiss him” and James just like “yeah and I’m super bi for him but I also only wanna kiss him but not date him” and Mcgonogall just *facepalmed* (Remus was later included in this disaster)).

She fucking runs the GSA (Remus, Sirius, and the other Marauders are guests; she is not trusting them with any real sort of responsibility).

She curses all the time without reserve but once yelled at James for ten minutes for daring to use the word “hell” in her presence (her rant did include phrases like “I am a goddess, James Potter, do you really want to know what happens when you mention a place like that in the presence of a goddess???”) (overdramatic Mcgonogall for the win).

She once put a Silencio on Sirius for a week because he accidentally called her “Mcgoogs” where she could hear. (He then tricked Harry into doing it, who received the same punishment.) (Sirius received a Howler that was silent for a full minute before getting started, just to scare him out of his wits.)

She invites Sirius over for tea on the weekends just because (he sometimes sits in on her classes and pesters her until she turns his hair pink and scraggly) (he then moans until she turns it back).

She has a room off to the side of her classroom, the door of which is always closed. Many students have tried to break in only to end up humiliated by the protection spells she’s placed on it. The only people who know what’s in there are Dumbledore and Remus. (It’s her collection of many, many, many witch hats. Of various different colors, and organized by such. Some of them are feathery or furry or scaly. Some of them talk. Some of them snore. Some of them cry. Some of them scream and then smile and then stare and then smile and then scream. Yeah. Yeah.)

Mcgonogall cares, above all else, about the safety and happiness of all of her students, regardless of background, personality, or House. She wants the best for all of them no matter what that looks like and does her best to ensure they receive it.

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Nightmares Pt. 3 - SW Coops

Here it is. The longest piece I’ve probably written to date. And it’s going to have a pt. 3.5 because I couldn’t get it all here. I’m proud of how this little mini series is turning out, I hope y’all are enjoying it. As always, @lumosinlove gets all the credit for everything because Haz deserves the world.

Content Warning: Panic attack, nightmare

Take care of yourselves, lovelies.

Remus had been worried about Sirius. The whole team was, really. It has been about a week since that last nightmare on the road and Sirius is still on edge all the time and everyone can see it. The bruise and the dull ache of his wrist was finally starting to fade. Dumo checks in with him every practice, but there isn’t much Remus can tell him.

“He won’t talk to me. Or Regulus. We all live in the same house and he just won’t talk about it. I don’t know how to help him. I… fuck, it’s ripping me apart.” Remus starts to get teary eyed, hands flying up to tangle in his hair.

“Hey, hey,” Dumo puts a hand on his shoulder in the PT room. Remus flinches away and shrugs the hand off. “He’s going to be alright. You’ll be there for him. We all will.”

“But what if this is it? What if he isn’t alright?”

“He will be. This’s happened before. He’ll get himself sorted out; it’ll just take time.”

“Happened before?”

“Uh,” Dumo runs his hands over his face, “You should really hear this from him, but if he isn’t talking, you should know. He went through something like this before when he lived with me. Shortly after he moved in, he had nightmares. A lot. Took me a while to get him to calm down and all I could ever make out was mumbled French, but I always assumed it had to do with his parents. What he went through.”

“He… He doesn’t talk about it much. I’ve only pieced some of it together but… it’s not good.”

“I know. We just have to let him know we’re here for him, non?” Dumo tried to sling his arm around Remus’ shoulders for a half hug, but Remus abruptly side-stepped, turning his shoulder away. “Are you alright, mon fils? You seem… skiddish.”

“’M fine.” Remus mumbles as he absentmindedly rubs his shoulder, exposing the still lightly bruised wrist, and turns to leave the otherwise empty PT room, “I should get back to work.”

***

Later that night, back home, they stand in the kitchen putting away the dishes from dinner. Sirius walks over the put the bowls away as Remus turns back to the half empty drying rack by the sink.

“Looks like we’re almost done, mon loup.” Sirius says as he pats Remus’ shoulders, who abruptly startles and hastily steps to the left as he swings his right arm to swat down Sirius’ hands defensively. Remus looks at his boyfriend with his eyes wide, full of fear.

Sirius puts his hands up in surrender, eyeing his boyfriend with concern, “Hey, hey, I didn’t mean to startle you. Are you alright?” He puts his hands down and starts to approach Remus.

Remus takes a step back, then seems to shake out of his fear and bows his head, deflated. “I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to… I just-” Remus goes to rub his shoulder, eyeing the ground in defeat.

“Shh shh, it’s okay, what’s wrong love?” Sirius questions, moving forward slowly as not to spook his boyfriend again and hesitantly placing his hands on Remus’ hips as he comes to the realization that maybe this was because he had grabbed his boyfriend’s once-injured shoulder a bit too roughly.

“I-” Remus sniffles, and takes the half step forward to rest his head on Sirius’ shoulder and nuzzle his face into his neck, wrapping his arms around his torso.

“It’s okay. Let’s just go up to bed, yeah?” He rubs his hands over Remus’ back soothingly.

“But we have to finish the di-”

“Reg can finish up when he gets back from dinner with the cubs, I’ll leave him a note. That’s what he gets for ditching family dinner. Let’s go get ready for bed.”

***

As they head up to bed, Remus can’t shake this odd feeling that’s been leaving him so jumpy lately. He thinks that maybe it’s… No, that doesn’t make sense, he thinks to himself. It happened so long ago, it hasn’t bothered him in a while. The anniversary of the Greyback incident is soon… tomorrow maybe? Remus doesn’t even remember the exact day anymore, tried so hard to forget but it seems like his body hadn’t. But now everyone knows and it’s just… different. Having to explain it to Sirius was one thing, but when the team pieced it all together… So many people know the things he had tried to cover up from that night. The attack, his sexuality. For some reason it was leaving a heavy weight in his chest that pulled him down and he was gasping for air, trying not to drown.

He shrugs when Sirius asks if he’s alright and crawls into the bead next to Sirius, curling into his side hesitantly and leaving a bit of distance between their bodies. Sirius places a hand on his waist to pull him closer and drops a kiss into his curls.

Sirius soon drifts off, but Remus can’t seem to get his mind to stop racing. He pulls away from Sirius, moving to the far side of the bet and curling in on himself facing away from his boyfriend as a few quiet tears fall from his eyes and sleep finally drags him under.

***

A few hours later, Sirius wakes to find a lack of warmth at his side that he had fallen asleep with. He opens his eyes to see Remus curled up on the very edge of the bed, facing away from him. He carefully gets up just enough to reach out and, without thinking, grabs Remus’ shoulder to pull him off the edge of the bed so he won’t fall off when he goes to move. Even with the best intentions, he realizes too late the mistake he made when Remus violently jerks…

***

Remus startles awake with a sharp gasp and falls from the bed, moving to clutch his shoulder instead of catching himself. He hears the thud when his heads hits the leg of the nightstand but doesn’t feel it. He doesn’t feel anything put a searing pain in his shoulder and a crushing weight in his chest, making it impossible to take a full breath. He scrambles to sit up and leans against the bed, drawing his legs in and dropping his head onto his knees. He still can only manage to get in short, shallow breathes as the tears start falling and he begins to rock back and forth.

Suddenly he can feel a warmth next to him, not quite touching. Sirius. He is trying to calm him, get him to take a deep breath. Remus tries, but his breath catches and breathing stutters worse. Tears keep falling and he realizes he’s sobbing. He tries to focus on Sirius… His warmth, his voice… He’s asking Remus if he can touch him. Remus can’t control himself enough to answer but darts out his left hand haphazardly and feels around until he finds Sirius’s hand, grabbing on for dear life. It’s his life raft, keeping him from drowning.

After a while, minutes, or hours he can’t tell, Sirius’ voice starts to get clearer and Remus tries to slow his breathing. “I-”

“Shh. I’ve got you.” Sirius soothes him, carding a hand in his hair.

Remus decides he likes the contact and leans into the hand a bit. After a few more minutes, he realizes how lightheaded he is and starts to slowly fall into Sirius, who straightens out his legs and lets his head fall into his lap. He closes his eyes and tries to focus on Sirius again, feeling safe in his warmth. He goes to wipe the tears and some sweat from his face, but Sirius lightly redirects his hand back down to the ground. Then, he feels Sirius shift slightly and then come back when he feels a pressure on his right temple. Only then does he remember the thud of hitting his head and winces in pain as Sirius dabs away the dribbles of blood there with a corner of the sheet and holds it there until the slow bleed stops.

***

As Sirius removes the sheet once again after holding it for a good 20 minutes and sees the bleeding has stopped, he tosses it back on the bed and drags down the comforter. He flicks it over Remus who has started to shiver as the sweat and tears he’s drenched in cool. Sirius runs a hand lightly through Remus’ hair tentatively, and when he doesn’t perceive a negative reaction, he continues to do so. Shortly after, he hears Remus’ breathing start to even out and soon he is fast asleep laying on his side on the floor, head in Sirius’ lap.

***

Remus wakes up the next morning disoriented and with a pounding headache. He starts to lift his head and plants a hand on the ground to lift himself only to get about halfway up before getting light-headed and plopping back down with a grunt.

“Huh?” Sirius says groggily, presumably awoken by Remus crashing back into his lap. “Oh, Re, shh, it’s okay, just don’t try and get up yet, yeah? Take it easy.”

Remus’ breathing picks up and with more difficulty than he expected, gets out a soft, “Where am-” voice cracking and weak.

“You’re okay.” Sirius reassures him. “We’re home.”

Remus can feel him rummaging around for something to his left, but Remus pays it no mind. Instead he looks around to take in his surroundings and realizes he is on their bedroom floor, blanket pulled down over him, and he starts to remember what happened barely a handful of hours ago. “I’m sorry.” His voice comes out rough. “I… You just, and I-”

“Non. C’est d’accord, mon loup. Je suis désolé. I knew it was bothering you, but I wasn’t thinking last night. I just wanted you near me so I could be there for you for once, and I messed up.”

“No. You couldn’t have known. I didn’t saw anything. I thought I had forgotten when it happened, I though I was over it. But… having everyone know and knowing that they know… I… I don’t know.”

“It’s alright. You don’t have to explain yourself. I understand. It’s tough dragging up the past…” Sirius trails off, almost like there’s something he feels he should say, but can’t muster it up.

They sit in silence for a few moments as they both mull over their heavy thoughts. Remus decides to make an attempt at lightening the mood, shifting with some difficulty onto his back to look up at Sirius, teasing, “Did you enjoy playing medic?” he chuckles softly.

“NO. I was terrified. I thought you might need stiches. That you would bleed out.” He huffs. Then, more seriously, “But I didn’t want to touch you and risk- I didn’t know how to help you.”

“You did just fine.” He reaches a hand up to Sirius’ face. “Once I realized you were there, talking, I just focused on that. On you. There.” He stopped for a beat, removing his hand, and going back to a bit of a lighter tone. “Though, you shouldn’t have let me sleep so soon after such a hit to the head. And woken me up-”

“Every couple hours, I know. But Re… you… you didn’t fall asleep until almost two hours after, and I-” Sirius was cut off by Remus’ phone alarm going off next to them. “There it is.” Sirius mumbled to himself as he turned the alarm off.

“What time even is it?” Remus asks.

“Only 6:30. It was after two when… and then…” he trailed off.

“Did you set an alarm on my phone to wake me?”

“And me in case I fell asleep. But I didn’t. I couldn’t. Just got lost in worry and I was trying to sort out what was wrong. And I’m sorry, but I didn’t want to move you to get my phone. Though I will eventually when my 8:30 alarm goes off.”

“You should get some rest, this can’t be comfortable, and you have practice.”

“We have practice. Come on, do you think I can help you on to the bed?”

“Um. Yeah, let’s try that. My head is still pounding, though.”

***

Sirius helped Remus get up enough so he could grab him and lift him into bed. He said his head was spinning and sore, so he went to get some ice from downstairs when he ran into Regulus.

“What are you doing up?” Regulus questioned. “Is everything alright, after I got home I heard a thump and-”

“And didn’t see the note to finish putting away the dishes.”

“Oh, I saw it. But is everything okay? I though I heard something, but I couldn’t be sure over the TV and didn’t want to waste the energy going up the stairs in case it was nothing. But that look on your face says it wasn’t nothing.”

Looking past the younger black, Sirius could see the living room, “Did you sleep on the couch?”

“Yes. Now stop avoiding my question.”

“It’s Re.” He sighed. “He should be okay; he might have a concussion. I’m gonna convince him to take it easy today. If he can, I want to take him to practice and have Moody check his head.”

“Shit. He’s okay otherwise though?”

Sirius remained silent, busying himself getting the ice from the freezer.

“He’ll be okay, Sirius. He’s tough. How are you doing?”

“I’m fine.”

“No, you’re not. Now I know now isn’t the time, but we’ve all been seeing it lately. The team. Logan is really worried and frankly, so am I. Now don’t make that face at me. You don’t have to talk about it now. Or with me at all, but I think you should. Talk about it. But whatever it is, we’re all here for you. I’m here for you.”

Sirius lunged forward and wrapped his brother in a crushing hug, which was returned with equal strength. A hug that Sirius hoped said what he couldn’t. That he wished he had been there for Reg, too. After a few moments, they both let go.

“Now go take care of him. I’ll be down here if you need anything.”

“Can you… Can you come to practice with us and drive Re back home after Moody gives him a once over? And make sure he gets some rest. Wake him up every two hours? Sorry, I know that’s a lot to ask…” Sirius trails off, breaking eye contact.

“No no, of course. I’ll take care of everything. I’ll watch over him. Whatever he needs, I got him. Now go get some rest before practice.”

“Thank you.” Sirius gives a short nod and heads back upstairs.

As he crawls into bed next to Remus, he’s sure to leave a bit of space between them in case Remus doesn’t want him too close. But his worries begin to melt away when Remus scoots closer and rests his head on his right shoulder. He moves the cloth of ice up the Remus’ head and holds it there for him.

“How’d I get so lucky with you?” Remus smiles sleepily, eyes already closed.

“You’re the luck, I was the lucky one to find you.”

“I love you, baby.”

“I love you too. And because I love you, you’re not staying for practice. After I get Moody to make sure your head will be alright, Reg is gonna drive you back home and make sure you get some rest.”

“But-” Remus opens his eyes and starts to protest.

“Non. Don’t argue. I need Moody to assure me you don’t need stiches or a hospital, then straight back to bed for you.”

“Fine.” Remus concedes, and Sirius sees him close his eyes again and feels him relax. Within minutes, he’s sound asleep with an arm thrown over Sirius’ middle.

***

After what feels like only 10 minutes of sleep, Remus wakes up still next to Sirius. He can feel Sirius shift to turn off his alarm, then drop a kiss into Remus’ curls.

“Time to get up love.” He whispers.

“Mmm. Okay.” Remus replies as he starts to straighten out and sit up in bed. Sirius gets up and walks around the bed to help steady Remus as he stands up. Sirius wraps an arm around his waist and guides him to the bathroom as he stumbles a bit and admits, “I’m still a bit dizzy.”

“Come on. Let’s get you ready and get some water in you. And breakfast. You’re probably a bit dehydrated.”

Once they both brush their teeth and get ready, Sirius gently cleaning up the last of the dried blood from Remus’ temple, they move back into the bedroom to get dressed. Sirius dresses fast in sweats and a Lions hoodie, then moves to grab clothes for Remus who is sat on the bed, head in his hands and eyes closed.

“Here, how’s this?” He holds up a pair of sweats and an old Wisconsin hoodie that Remus forgot he had.

“Sure.” He replies without looking up.

After helping him get dressed, Sirius helps him downstairs to the kitchen where Regulus is attempting to make some scrambled eggs, bacon, and toast for their breakfast. Without turning around, he greets them, “Morning, guys.”

“Thanks for making breakfast, Reg.” Remus says, slowly lowering himself into a seat at the counter.

Reg turns around to dump the pan of eggs on a plate, smile faltering briefly and doesn’t school the look on his face in time, so Remus sees the look of shock on his face from seeing the nasty gash and purple bruise on the side of his right temple.

As they settle to eat breakfast, the brothers make small talk about the upcoming game later in the week. As they finish up, Remus moves to collect Sirius’ plate but Reg swoops in and takes them all over to the sink to soak.

“I’ll do them when we get back, we should probably head to the rink.”

“We?” Remus questions.

“I’ll drive you back to get some rest, you shouldn’t stick around for the whole practice. I already called Dumo who talked to Coach and let him know. And Siri, Dumo said he’d give you a ride home, so we didn’t both have to drive over.”

“Alright. Thanks for taking care of that, Reggie. Let’s get a move on, shall we?” Sirius stands and goes over to help Remus out to the car.

 To be continued…