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what's the threshold theory
There was a post about how Tom is the only crew member who isn't really affected by the Borg, and there's a theory that he has so much luck because he saw the past and the future when he crossed the transwarp threshold. He saw the past and the future, all of time and space. There's some subconscious part of him that remembers that experience. In fact, Tom refused to play a part in Chakotay indulging Annorax's temporal incursions, probably because a part of him knew nothing good could come of it.
If we extend that same theory to Janeway, some of her wild luck with time travel and other crack plans starts to make sense. She doesn't verbally hate time travel until after the events of Threshold, since it happens in Time and Again without complaint. Janeway has an uncanny knack for time travel, as evidenced every time she deals with it. She hates time travel, but it might be because part of her knows exactly how to manipulate the timeline. She manages to avoid the "inevitable" temporal explosion in Future's End, saving both Voyager and Braxton. She resets the entire timeline in Year of Hell, and no one else followed her reasoning. She pulled it off flawlessly. In Relativity, she senses the incidents are all related, despite it being just one reading that connects them. By the time she's involved, she has a temporal incursion factor of .0036 and a time travel protocol named after her, even if that may just be Braxton's personal grudge. Then there's Endgame, where she intentionally changes the timeline. Up until this point, she has been dragged into time travel, but for the first time, she jumps in on purpose. How does Admiral Janeway know how to get them home sooner in a way that completely avoids the Temporal Integrity Commission? It's because she has seen all of time, and part of her knows exactly what needs to happen so she can get Voyager home and do it in a way that becomes baked into the prime timeline. Maybe she doesn't consciously remember what happened during her transformation, but the experience lives in her mind somewhere, guiding her decisions.
#every day is threshold day#tldr threshold cemented the time travel shenanigans#we're not counting her disparagement of time travel in relativity i know it's technically before threshold#but they've messed with the timeline so much that her past timeline is also changed.#Time travel is funny because the past is the future the future is the past#so while relativity comes before threshold in the prime timeline her timeline has also been changed in a way that it wasn't before threshol#we could chalk it up to a writing oversight but this is more interesting#not to mention her uncanny luck with the Borg which I think ties in as well#it's part of why her instinct is so strong#also the bio neural gel packs but that's a different theory#listen she's amazing with or without having seen all of time and space but she has seen all of time and that must have affected her somehow#those little salamander babies also have all of the cosmos in their mind#tried to explain as concisely as possible but it is part of my overarching theory#she doesn't second guess herself nearly as much following their jaunt into transwarp#I have more but I'm trying to be brief cause it's written up partially in my drafts somewhere and i have some things i need to do today lol#meta#Star Trek voyager#Kathryn janeway#threshold day#did you expect me thresholdbb to not have a serious threshold theory?#listen I can make anything nonsense and turn anything into a serious theory I was known for this kinda bs in grad school#I wrote a 25 page paper on NOTHING once#I wrote a paper about how corn fields were super gay and it made my professor cry I can spin the bullshit it is one of my skills
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#it was a hard day today.#sometimes you just gotta cry for an hour about requiring significant assistance to do basic stuff that you don't actually have help with rn!#(my wife is working 6 12s at a job we had to move across the country for)#(which means 1 she is *exhausted* at *all* times and struggling to even meet her own needs)#(and 2 our other partner and all our family and friends are. multiple days away by car. so they can't come help.)#it's getting hard to even stick leftovers in the microwave for myself but no one else is able to cook for me.#it sucks.#(we're moving again in june because this was a 1-year position from the beginning)#(and the idea is for our other partner to move in with us which will help a lot)#(plus my wife should be switching to a reliably 5-day week at that time)#(but we don't know where we're going for another month and a half.)#(so we can't really do any groundwork or anything to make that happen.)#(and having zero agency other than sitting and waiting and getting worse alone Really Sucks!)#I guess this is a bit of a secret part two to yesterday's meducation lol#favorites
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first look last look
our favorite enemies to lovers. what a journey it has been.
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accepting breakup. closing the tab i had open on my computer for Smaller dildos for when i had the money to get a new one because she thought my strap was too big. its fine. one day, together, ill cum in your gay ass
#she literally told me today she knows we'll come back together. GODDDD#shes back with her monogamous ex though. because she's so fucking normal. god i miss her#they have broken up i think 3? times in the past 2 months btw.#shes literally right to break up w me im just going insane. best possible break up scenario i guess. we're friends? she's been crying more#than me. ????
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Odysseus:
Here's my daily routine as one of the Achaean generals:
I wake up, I ignore Agamemnon.
I join the battlefield for 5 hours. I ignore Agamemnon.
I train with my soldiers, using the training as an excuse to ignore Agamemnon.
I finish training and eat dinner/breakfast, while continuing to ignore Agamemnon.
When the stars align and I do decide to talk to the people that dragged me here, the conversation tends to go something like:
- Hey, we need a new plan to defeat the Trojans. Let's come up with an idea to infiltrate their city!
- k
(The original sound)
#Odysseus#trojan war#trojan horse#I need to properly read the Iliad to have a better grasp of their relationship there#Odysseus ignored him so well. Agamemnon didn't even notice Odysseus was on the battlefield#the iliad#he's so stressed he doesn't even know what meal it is he's eating#they're all stressed#Agamemnon is stressed too#reminds me of that song “we're so stressed and depressed. let us reeeeest”#stressed probably doesn't cover it#how about we pause the war and have a nice and friendly tea party? With some nice and calming herbal teas 🍵#Nestor and Priam might become besties#they'll be talking about all their kids non-stop#Priam might cry. He lost a lot of kids#Nestor lost some too#i wanted the tags to be funny#not today I guess#tagamemnon#incorrect quotes#the odyssey#tagammemnon
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And you thought I wouldn't make it...I said to me...and I was only half wrong.
Anyway, in this week's episode, Tim actually accomplishes something, is pestered by his inner monologue, and learns about the proper placement of Poptarts... Then everything falls apart. Steph is also there for a hot second.
Read, don't read. Just make good decisions out there, okay?
#ao3 batfam fanfic#batfam#batfamily#tim drake#the plot actually plotted today#and we're all really happy about that even though it causes Tim to nearly cry and have a panic attack#three guesses as to who the voice is...and the first two don't count
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do you ever feel like you're just not good enough at rp and everyone hates you and they're all just tolerating you and saying they like playing with you because that's polite? but you're pretty sure they actually hate you and hate playing with you, because ever time you turn around they're talking about their fantastic cool smart angsty plot driven rp with another partner who's clearly so much better than you, because they'll give that partner multiple replies every single day, but not be able to think of anything for your rps for days on end. And like it isn't their fault that you suck and you're not mad at them but you just feel like such an annoying idiot for even trying? or is that just me?
#annnnd I'm crying at my desk! cool great awesome fantastic#that's what we're doing today i guess#fuck me apparently
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Im a pent-up ball of pure stress and restlessness (like chest-tight and heart pounding type of stress) and I have 0 idea what to do with myself, because anytime I want to try and go distract myself with Something my anxiety spikes and my brain goes "!!! NO!!! DANGER!!! LOOK OUT FOR DANGER!!!" so I guess I'll just spend the day pacing the house and refreshing the same 3 pages on repeat, huh...
#personal#Raksh posts#tomorrow I'll know if I got back into uni#so that's the culprit#but I also have no way of assuaging it so fuck me I guess 😩#and depending on if I do or dont get in#its either gonna be a full on depressed crying or a crazy busy next week#plus so much has been happening all around#I finished my internship last friday#we found out our doggo is sick and we're going with her to a vet cardiologist next friday#my younger cousin Ive always been quite close with came to visit with her boyfriend and announced yesterday they got engaged#my bro today said he's planning to marry next year#Im trying not to let my crippling loneliness take me over#it's kinda a lot when all put together ���#I thought maybe I could finish typing up what I have of my recent vegaspete AU#its a super indulgent time travel a/b/o shifterd thingy with outsider pov - Nops in this first part#and so I could maybe have something to finally post sometime soon and motivate me to write some more#but I can't focus on that#Ive also thought of maybe gaming a bit#Id actually like to check out Cyberpunk with this new 2.0 update#but again it feels like anytime I try to occupy myself with something my brain goes into alarm mode ughhh#this stressing business is so useless and unproductive why isnt there a switch to it I could just flip and turn it off??#ughhhhh anyway#Im just venting dont mind me#hoped putting it down in some way shape or form would help but will it work? prob not 😂😪#vent#rant
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Missing this beautiful smiley angel so much today 💕💕💕💕💕
This is my first year being in The Beatles fandom so this is the first time that this day has a special meaning to me. I have always been the type of person to get attached to anything really quickly if it makes me happy, and the four of them, but specifically George, is no different.
I feel like I can relate to George in a lot of ways. The more I listen to the things he would talk about, the more I understand that he felt certain ways about a lot of things that many of us think about now. As someone who was also raised Catholic and slowly stepped away from it and gained interest in spirituality, George's thought processes make a lot of sense to me, as someone who is starting to view the world through a very similar lens.
Had I been able to have the privilege of getting to meet George and talk with him, I have no doubt it probably would have been one of the best conversations I've ever had, as I find it somewhat difficult to always find people who understand what I'm talking about.
But seeing as George was a very spiritual person, I know that he's not completely gone and his soul is still very much alive. And I hope that wherever he is and wherever he chooses to go, he is happy and at peace.
George is an amazing and very special person to me. And I know it's only been a few months of me being a fan of his (and the Beatles), and yet he has already become one of my main sources of happiness.
I miss you so much, George 💕💕💕💕💕
#I told myself I wasn't going to cry while typing this and I want you to take a guess what happened#I've already cried three times today#Fuck this is going to be a long day#I was going to spend it watching Get Back but I feel like that'll just make me sadder#Welp only one way to find out#Either way we're getting our fix of George content today#george harrison#the beatles#beatles#ringo starr#john lennon#paul mccartney
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woke up with just the line from yeah boy and doll face "and i don't want to be here :(" stuck in my head. like yeah boy you said it i do not want to be here what else is there to really say.....
#the specific way vic says it like he's about to cry. get out of my head and my heart vic fuentes what are you doing in there vic fuentes.#anyway guess who stayed up until like 7 am and still couldn't get anything done <3 so i am skipping that class today and feeling the rot#i will drag myself out of bed for my french lit class bc it's easier to follow along when i've read both the lais we're talking about today#but like. god i wish i was medicated or perhaps just not depressed. i don't Want to be here thank you very much.#a post
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Just looking at that TK being a kid gifset and thinking how that absolutely is who TK is at his core, and it makes it so sad that when we first see him he's been through so much and he's defensive and jaded and hurt. And then I think that's what Carlos saw in him from the beginning and its something he wanted to keep safe and protect. And then I think maybe Carlos didn't realize it but by deciding to do so he was finally getting to be who he was at his core, a protector and a caregiver, but because of his past never really had the chance and instead became withdrawn and isolated. And I think about that feedback loop of Carlos making TK feel safe and TK making Carlos feel strong and its absolutely insane how perfect they are for each other.
Yesssss it makes them so perfect for each other 🤧 They really bring to the table exactly what the other lacks. Truly soulmates.
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hhhhhhh I can't have nice things
#well I can but I'll face the consequences#oh what's that? you wanted to have a nice day and fun times? well you are now cursed with horrible stomach pain and nausea!!#go die in the bathroom and try not to wake up your mom because it's midnight#okay she wouldn't mind if it's for this but I'd feel kinda guilty#I did wake up my dad because I needed. someone. to help me. I might cry fuck#surprised I'm not already crying my eyes out but maybe I'm just too tired#anyone else get that? we're you're too tired to spend the extra energy crying? idk#I think it's mostly over now maybe?? but fuck man it might come back#I guess I ate a lot today so maybe it's from that maybe? or maybe my illness is just being a little bitch for no reason#it could maybe be an allergic reaction I guess but I was just with family and my family is usually careful enough to avoid-#-cross contamination so idk#guhhh I am. dying. I am dead actually. this is my tortured ghost soul haunting my sad little tumblr blog
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attempt to draw uni work met with extreme hatred and self percieved failure, 4 dead 17 injured
#ash.txt#i could cry fghj i might just#i hate it i hate it i hate it#it all looks so fucking bad#all the ideas i was enthusiastic about at the start i p much hate them all now#idk if i can do this today but then its like..... idk if i can do it Any day#every time i sit down to try and draw anything it makes me want to rip my hair out#ive been making great progress with my animation because its easy i can just switch my brain off#but this is such a different ball game#it used to be the opposite but now we're here i guess#maybe ill try again later or tomorrow#gritting my teeth trying to be like 'it doesnt have to be good it just has to be finished'#but thats hard when thats my thoughts when im drawing Literally Anything#when will it be good again??
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#i am gonna be so honest with you all babes. i'm fucking exhausted.#and my back hurts and my head hurts and my heart hurts and i'm just.#trying to take it day by day i guess. i don't know anymore really.#like yeah we have help and it's fine but. everyone leaves and goes home and they don't have to do anything about it anymroe.#im still here i'm still the one that wakes up in the middle of the night i'm sitll the one that gets called to do it all#i literally have done fuck all for work today because i've been the one doing the running around#and everyone keeps saying 'oh we're all worried for her and we're all pitching in to help'#and yes you all are! but that doesn't change the fact that she lives wiht us. and that when anyone comes over she still calls for one of us#it's not her fault she's just used to us#but my goodness gracious i have not felt this tired before and i'm just. i'm trying to remind myself i'm doing it for her. you know?#that there is no other reason it's getting done except that it's all For Her. and it makes it a little better.#but it doesn't change the fact that anyone time i step under the shower i just start crying again. or any time i'm alone for ten minutes#i'll just cry really quickly to get it out of my system before going back.#i've never felt more disconnected from reality than i have in the past week you know
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#ran out of tags on last post but still want to rant without filling anyone's inbox or dash#sorry but here's the continuation#anyway so also we went to my grandma's house and I saw my dogs which breaks my heart every damn time#I miss them so much and it kills me. it causes me physical pain to not have them with me#I'm still mad at my mom to this day for being so horrible to them and giving them away. so it pissed me off to see her cuddling them#everyone disagrees with me but I don't think she has any right to act like she cares about them after she discarded them so easily#I will never stop being upset with her for it and even though everyone thinks I'm a b**** for it I refuse to release the grudge#anyway I'm tired and as nice as parts of my day were I feel like the lows were just really low#this morning we took some lovely graduation photos at my campus (which I visited for the last time) and I'm excited to post a few tomorrow#I'm truly proud of myself and grateful my college experience is over#I just foolishly allowed myself to have a vision of how today would go and parts of it really brought me down#I don't want to complain (which is probably a lie since this is the 3rd post I'm making to rant) but I wasn't expecting to breakdown today#I spent time with people I love and I got cool photos and a really soft sweater with my school's logo on it and I shouldn't be sad right now#plus we're having people over tomorrow for a party to celebrate me#I'm just really reliving the day and a lot of it was negative at my expense and I really hoped everyone would work to make it nice#some of it was obviously out of my family's hands but I feel like they handled that stuff in a way that guilted me and it sucked#I'm just a mess of emotions and I'm lowkey icing everyone out because I don't want to end my night crying again#welcome to real life I guess?#I really shouldn't complain#ashley rants#sorry if anyone read this
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#first of all ive already been told exactly how stupid i am by my dear friend so i know#im dumb#But stiiiilll#remember how last week while i was having an all around breakdown i wrote to Them™?#it was just a stupid text like how you doing#But I mean stupid!! stupid!! so stupid! riiight?#what was i hoping? idk. I just wanted to hear from them and so well i took the matter in my own 2 hands#I missed them and I wanted to hear from them since I think about them 24/7 anyhow#and guess what? they answered me#(we're supposed to be friends of course they did)#and alright we were having a nice convo#i was kinda afraid they'd be kind of stand offish#not bc of anything but probably not to try and lead me on yk?#that's what id do probably - kind but not too involved as not to give any false hope#and im so glad bc they arent doing that! we really did have a nice convo#ok at some point they answered kinda weirdly but that's probably just them being a v bad texter#which - fair - im not that good myself#thing isssss... the convo is still going on. 6 no 7 days later?#they're offering info that they don't need to. asking questions too! it's like they're actually enjoying talking to me!#I want to cry of happiness okay#and ik this doesn't mean a thing - i know it. i know how things stand. I am okay with it.#But to know they still enjoy talking to me and sending their precious little time chatting with me - i mean. fuck#and each time the convo was kinda dying down they still managed to keep it going 😭 i could cry#and today we've really been going back and forth and it's the best thing that's happened to me all month ok? ok.#and they've just asked me how was my morning. totally unnecessary question. im so happy i could die#yes im delusional but im in love so please god please universe - just keep thing convo going a bit more#just let me have this - it's such a small joy and such a small hope - just let me have this for a little while more#I wont go crazy - or i will but it won't hurt me worse than ive already been hurt so the danger is worth it#god I love them that's so awful
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