#gi disease

[vulpine111]

I am glad my therapist talks to me on Wednesday. I can explain I don't know what I want to do quite yet. Part of me *never* wants to walk away from Rasheed or quit him for good.

I understand his diverticulitis, hep c, and other sources of pain aren't at all an excuse not to respect me/my time. I understand we're probably just not meant to be together.

I still care, though.

It feels cruel/wrong to leave a friend to rot when they are dealing with so much pain and serious illness. I want to keep praying for his recovery and salvation and other blessings. I know that's obviously frustrating to everyone who he makes uncomfortable and I'm sorry.

I can't shut off my feelings.

I still love him.

[allovertheplace-writing]

Hi, thank u for ur reply and I'm glad to hear ur doing well. I will send in my request again if u wish to write it although I don't remember it exactly. I think it was about a fem reader with hanahaki disease who is in love with kazuha but feels unworthy of him and she thinks she doesn't stand a chance with him because she isn't beautiful or smart and there are better options who are interested in him as well. Regardless she is happy and grateful she got to meet him and be part of his life even tho it leaves her with so much pain and suffering. Also she hides her disease from kazuha. I think it went something like this?? And sorry about the dumb request u don't have to write it, I remember I was going through a rough patch which is why I submitted such an angsty request in the first place. Btw if u choose to do this I'll leave it up to u if kazuha reciprocates her feelings. Thank u in advance and have a lovely day.

Genshin Impact

Character(s): Kazuha

Genre: Angst + Comfort

Type: Headcanon + Small Drabble

Description: Life becomes desolate when one finds themselves alone.

Warnings/Notes: Gender-Neutral Reader(gender did not matter for this), Death(implied + mentioned yet doesn't occur), Inability to Breathe(mentioned + described)

your request isn't dumb at all and i'm happy to write it, anon <33 thank you for sending it in again, i hope you like it!

At first, it was a mere ache. A subtle, dull pain that pulled at your heart. It was something you easily wrote off as longing at first, but, as time passed, you realized it was your lungs. A squeeze and a brush...you could still write it off as another thing if you truly tried. Excitement or anguish, perhaps even just simple joy. But it was painful, almost unbearably so.

As if air could barely make it in or out, your sarcophagus felt clogged - tight with whatever couldn't make it out. You could still breathe, though, so you carried on. Perhaps a little silly of you, but it wasn't...terribly concerning. It could just be allergies.

It was difficult to watch him smile and laugh with someone that wasn't you. Seeing that gleam in his eyes directed at another being more than enough to inflict you with hurt. He began to notice that here and there.

The way you grew distant whilst hanging out. The way you cleared and rubbed at your throat. You remember him giving you a cough drop once when it got bad. His gentle voice suggesting that you should take it easy and rest up.

The first petal happened that day.

It was ticklish and uncomfortable, but there was a sense of relief once it was out. You had looked upon it and...threw it away immediately. In your mind you had already known what was happening, but simply wished to ignore it. Maybe even pretend it wasn't happening at all.

Ignore it. Ignore it and carry on. Feelings can shift and change like a water's tide and everything will soon cease.

...in a way, it was easier than continuing to think about him and how far away he feels. Than to keep acknowledging how good he looks with someone else.

It didn't turn out so well after a week.

There were more petals- one even being half a flower at one point. You didn't even think about him all that much, but it just kept getting worse and worse.

He found you a few days after that, worried and wondering why you've disappeared. Despite the lack of contact, he has a hunch...one that he desperately hopes isn't true.

The knock on your door turns into the turning of it's knob.

He freezes as soon as his eyes land upon you, a panicked chill running down his spine. His mind is scrambling despite his careful movements.

There's so many flowers—too many flowers. But you're still here. You aren't gone.

It'll be okay.

He won't lose you too.

"..y/n- hey, hey, hey," You feel the way he comes closer, his body heat joining just beside yours. "You'll be okay.." It sounds like he's reassuring himself rather than you. His hands find your face, palms gently cupping your cheeks and fingers lightly brushing against your ears. There were many thoughts crashing through his mind.

Why is it this bad?

Who in your life caused it?

His mind stills.

Who else but him?

With quickened breaths, he moves a little and shifts himself in front of you—knees just barely brushing against your own. He wants to say something—anything, but knows he lacks the words.

You feel his arms wrap around you and pull you close, his soft hair gliding across your skin. He's pensive, unsure how to get you out of this alive. What words would be the best? Those of comfort or from his heart? His arms squeeze you a little tighter before lightening up, fingers lightly digging into your clothes.

"Go- don't...don't go." Dwelling on his own emotions, he manages to form segments of sentences and wastes no time in saying them. It'll be jumbled, but there's rarely a need for flowery words when one's love is dying.

"I love you."

[existennialmemes]

Having Crohn's is like

"Please excuse me, I have just consumed vital nutrients in delicious forms, and it dealt me no less than 50 damage points, and now I must lie down and recover from this ordeal"

[twisted-rat-king]

when GI issues

[cupidddd-d]

i love you, tenderly, tragically

in which you loved him tenderly and tragically until the very end

ও you loved kaedehara kazuha, and you knew that complete certainty

ও but you also knew that he didn't, and would never, love you back

ও which is why it came as no surprise to you when you were suddenly hit with a series of sputtering coughs and petals

ও you were happy that kazuha was out on the crux, travelling the seas

ও you didn't want him to ever know how you felt

ও you didn't want to see the disappointment in his eyes at your feelings

ও and selfishly, you prayed that he wouldn't come back until you had long since passed on

ও you couldn't bare to see him and carry the feeble hope that maybe, just maybe, he might be able to love you back and save you

ও so in each of your letters to him, you acted normal

ও in each of your letters, you were as tender and kind and loving as you always had been

ও you ensured that he would never find out about your disease

ও and he never did find out.

ও he never found out that whenever he called you an amazing friend, the petals would get a little more choked up in your throat than usual

ও he never found out that when he addressed you as his best friend in each of his letters, the coughs would viciously tear through your throat, each even more violent than the last

ও you ensured that he would never realize what you were suffering through and why. because if you couldn't be loved and happy, at least he could be

[semiotomatics]

lol. i think ive reached my limit.

[houstonxbreed]

I’ve reached the point in my illness that I need people the most but I hate feeling like a burden 😭😭

[chicago-geniza]

Don't have a uterus or periods anymore but my body makes up the difference with gastroparesis (called in sick to work and spent the day curled up in bed with alternating ice packs and heating pads on my abdomen, puking into disposable emesis bags, taking muscle relaxants, anti-emetics, and fucking. Codeine for the nausea and cramps)

[gentlenotes-moved]

every now and again i'll feel like i'm about to throw up everywhere whenever i eat even the smallest amount of food or do something simple like existing and then i realize it's been like 2 days since i've taken my pills

[arataka-reigen]

Screaming crying throwing up at the soul of this man's wife that barely remembers her life on earth finding her love again and giving him the forgiveness he needed to move on

[cavewretch]

if i can be so honest . i am very stressed

[vulpine111]

Rasheed basically went an entire week without any medication for his diverticulitis. The jail wouldn't help him with it. Yesterday, he said it was "really bad."

I wish I could make him the rest of the tulsi aka Holy Basil tea I've got left right now but he probably doesn't find my company comforting. Otherwise he'd be here. There is always some reason he can't get a ride to my place. I wanna have more on hand just in case, though. I love that tea even more than kava.

Anyways, I don't know what I'd even feed him if he made it here and actually wanted to spend some quality time with me? I used to do *a lot* of research on diverticulitis because Grandpa has it too, but yeah... idk. It's been a while since I sat down and contemplated it.

Sometimes, Rasheed feels like eating stuff that just makes it worse and I don't want to be mean or controlling so I let him without the reminder it will hurt later. lol

I might explain if he ever wants to come stay for dinner, I don't mind stocking up on some recipes that are good for him though. I still haven't ordered anything fun shaped for Jell-O, for example. Applesauce might be okay too. He might even like the way I make egg drop soup.

I want a bigger, comfier place to sleep btw. I have a futon for myself and one for guests but what I really need is a huge mattress.

If Rasheed wanted me to, I'd love to cuddle him and gently hold a heated sock filled with rice up to the places that hurt. I told him we've known each other so long, he really doesn't need to be self conscious about that sort of thing anymore.

Oh well.

I should do more research regarding what I can feed someone with extreme GI issues. If not for Rasheed's sake, it's just good info to have because I want to be able to be a good friend. That includes people who have issues eating.

I want to be able to provide suggestions that are fun and comforting!!

[blakedotpng]

sorry i’ve been kinda dead heres some art

[gastroenterologists]

Gastroparesis is a complex condition that affects the stomach's ability to empty. In this blog, we explore what causes gastroparesis, its symptoms, and how it impacts daily life. Learn about gastrointestinal disease treatment options and how to manage this condition effectively for better quality of life.

[meanlesbean]

this not working thing is so nice i should've seen if i could've gotten my docs to extend my leave until next week

[puppyboycoded]

have almost all my testing back and it's looking like I have an autoimmune GI disease like severe IBD or Chrons wooooooo