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You ever finally get the guts to join a community that revolves around your interests so you feel less alone in things, only to find that you're still the strange one and feel even more alien than you did before.
#i exist#ill delete this later i don't know why i bother to post things even if rarely but#fuck man this really sucks#im probably not thinking right though its like 3am but i dunno#im so so so scared of people as is and now i want to recluse even further#whatever i guess its probably my fault anyway
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Indie ttrpg designers
We seem to be back in the ādnd sucks why donāt you just play Other Games (yours)ā and I have a single question for you in return
Do I get to roll a d20?
Because I like the d20
That shape pleases me
I do not wish to roll a random amount of d6s or d8s or any of them other fuckers
I wish to roll the d20 because icosahedrons please me
I will also accept d12 but the other shapes all have less mouthfeel so if thatās what your gameās based on, it is not for me
Iād also prefer more than four stats but Iām not gonna lie it is the shape of the math rocks so like
Rec your d20 based indie ttrpgs friends cuz every single one Iāve opened is them little cube fuckers or the double pyramid and I Require Round
#ttrpg#dnd#so many people so close to super good points about the problems with dnd#and then they go āand as an indie designer you should just play Other Games (mine)ā#and like. itās a good point. it also very clearly underlines that youāre marketing via negativity and iād actually really rather just hear#how good your game is? complaining is not an access point to my wallet#for real tho rec list this shit#indie ttrpg#i have Math Rock Requirements and also i hate d10s for no discernable reason#i donāt like the rest as much but d10s man. i just. i hate em#they are Bad Shape#skinny tutu bitches#not even good for caltrops#xoxo fuck you d10s#i get the math for probability and shit is easier on smaller dice but have you considered:#d20 shape good#and also d20 easily maths into 100 for percent calculations#which is why itās weird i hate d10s theyāre the only other dice that donāt Fucking Suck to calculate percents from#i know a 13 on a d20 is 65% bad#the fuck is a 5 on a d8#(itās 62.5 but thatās my point fuck decimals)
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quick @meanbossart 's DU Drow with a post-tadpol Strike!
I think they'd get along, Strike has never been afraid of anyone except Bhaal and he's enough of a freak to vibe with DU Drow! I gotta draw more of tadpoled Strike anyway, the weight loss and scars are from Kressa's torture (yes even the dick scars)
Anyway I absolutely adore DU Drow and meanbossart's art, the way he draws Astarion and Orin is downright delightful and i hope i did DU Drow justice here lol
#i love this fucked up man so much#he's got really fun features#maybe i'll draw him more if it's okay with his owner#this one was done pretty quickly just because today kinda sucked ass so that was for me to cheer up tbh#i mean it worked#bg3#other's oc#the dark urge#du drow#fanart#baldur's gate 3#durge#bg3 durge#oc strike
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Let Tord feel Matt's bite already, he wants it so much, ahah
*SIGH* well okay then, if you insist ;)
Content warning: suggestive content, mild blood
#mmmmmm tasty#tord stop blushing so much youre driving matt blood-crazy#man hes as excited for this as yall are. from how many comments ive seen about this#it felt really good to do this comic#i think i finally found a good balance between how polished i get a comic and how long i stay interested in it#because this is fanart!! i do this for fun!! and lining that ellsworld comic fucking SUCKED by the end!!!!!#sorry if you prefer that art style but this is whats sustainable for me#(and also like. theyre basically the same. theyre still not even colored)#my art#eddsworld#ask#ew tord#ew matt#shipsworld#tordmatt#comic#ew vampire matt#vampire matt#i looooooove monsterfucker tord im so happy i decided to hc that
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Ayup Tumblr,
I have escaped from the middle of fuck ass nowhere, has anyone done this one yet?
#it was actually wades dick he was sucking which is the real reason why Logan's looking disappointed at Wades stupidity#that last tag is a joke unless you are my intended audience#wolverpool#old man yaoi#wade wilson x logan howlett#deadpool x wolverine#since im out of the middle of fuck ass no where and my legs and knees are really fucking sore from walking 42km#more art to come soon#im not hyperfixated#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool 3#deadpool#wade#wade wilson#logan#logan howlett#wolverine#deadclaws#poolverine#gays#autism#if you're reading the bottom of tags pls send drawing reqs and next fanart might be of a special lil doggo
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I LOVE BEING TRANS!!! I LOVE SEEING THE WORLD IN ITS SPECTRUM OF COLOUR AND BEING FREE TO EXPRESS MYSELF HOWEVER I WANT!!! I LOVE THAT I CAN EXPLORE MASCULINITY AND FEMININITY FREE OF RESTRICTIONS!!!!! I LOVE THAT I'M PART OF SUCH AN ACCEPTING COMMUNITY!!!! I LOVE BEING TRANSGENDER!!!!
#i've been really hating my identity recently so here's some affirmations hope u enjoy#because cis people can fucking suck - even the allies#all my friends at my college are cis and man they make me uncomfortable sometimes even though they don't mean to#but i really do love being trans#i just hate that cis people have tried to make me hate myself for it#but i will not let them#i will not be shamed into hiding myself for their comfort#transgender#nonbinary#transblr#gender stuff#trans stuff#queer#enby#genderqueer
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one thing that's missing from these convos about amc not submitting assad zaman for a golden globes nom that makes it 10x more malicious on amc's part is that a nomination isn't just like oh... ~simple appreciation for an actor's performance. even if there's no win, it results in a profile boost for these actors & them being able to command a higher salary when it comes to future projects. it's something that gets notice on their CV. these studios and networks love being able to market their shit with things like "starring golden globe nominee john doe" or "emmy winner jane doe." the emmys are more prestigious than the golden globes which are more prestigious than the critics choice awards (the one they submitted him for with two other actors lol). actors get nominated and have the opportunity to get attention from social media posts, article mentions, attending the red carpet, having their name announced and a little clip of their acting shown. that's not nothing! attention from possible new fans, publications, execs, peers, producers, directors, fashion houses & other industries which could lead to $$$ and sponsorships. I won't make any presumptions about the cast's finances but I do know amc is probably not paying them their worth, least of all the bangladeshi muslim who barely had any major roles in tv/film prior to the show.
there are fees and costs associated with submitting for awards consideration and FYC ads. the network basically took a look at assad's brown skin and name and said they don't think he's worth the money over the white actor who had less screentime and narrative importance (to the season ig) which is absolutely crazy lmao. it shouldn't be controversial to say that and you can't not discuss this without bringing up sam's name. this has nothing to do with whether he "deserved" to be submitted (and even if I said he doesn't deserve it over assad who's gonna beat my ass?). this white man isn't being persecuted by conversations about blatant racism. but I'd expect nothing less from this fanbase x.
#assad zaman#i don't go here much bc this show's fandom sucks ass lmao#like yeah the show/actors probably aren't getting nominated but on the off chance they do??#amc count your days#them submitting assad for less-known-and-less-expensive-to-campaign-for CCA alongside two white actors means nothing#what it really boils down to is a global flareup of islamophobia like another reblog stated#the worst thing is watching this fandom woobify sam#& twist the words of anyone discussing it to act like shots are being taken at jacob/delainey by every single person#who says assad is experiencing a different kind of racism or any racism at all.#not to say those ppl don't exist and shouldn't be called out#but you can just tell these crusaders are painting everyone with a broad brush to stymie any criticism of amc & sam's submission.#assad experiences a different kind of racism bc he isn't black & doesn't experience the antiblack racism that jacob/delainey do#that's not an opinion or playing oppression olympics it's just a fact.#I have to read the most racist antiblack shit imaginable about jacob and delainey constantly as a bw#only for these people to throw their names around for cover & act like amc is the most moral anti-racist network for submitting them.#meanwhile a random person wouldn't even know how prominent the issue of race is within the show#with the way amc promotes it and actively prevents any discussion of race in interviews and panels.#every day fanart and posts of that decrepit white man plowing armand's delicate ass will do numbers#every day they'll bring up sam gifting assad some cheap suspenders#but crickets about any discussion of racism from those people.#can't even say shit about a white man not being deserving of something the network decided can only go to one person.#white ppl & their feelings have to be centered every fucking time even when unfair treatment is happening to their marginalized coworkers.#and now the prevailing narrative is ppl being mean to their poor meow meow sam :(#which ofc it is lmao
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Hereās the bonus sketch I added at the end of the newest chapter!
Soā¦ Those new mahjong voicelines, huhā¦? ;)
#stars in the dark#fanfiction#ao3#persona 5#final fantasy xiv#gāraha tia#joker p5#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#akiren#g'raha x wol#wol/gāraha#wolgraha#(in that somebody is totally getting pinned against the wall when this match is over)#ffxiv#ff14#p5#WoL Joker#art#I was not expecting Gāraha to be the most unhinged about mahjong out of the gang#but in retrospect I really should have#love chill guy estinien offering a drink and some fried squid though#thanks man I need that after how much I fucking sucked ass
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hateful gaze
#homestuck#homestuck au#beforus#alpha trolls#kankri vantas#man beforus SUCKS ASS in this au#i cant wait to post this fic. kankri backstory anyone???#like i dont think it was ever stated but. his ass was def culled#and when you think of culling as complete removal of your rights - similar to conservatorship but on crack#like every part of your life is under control of your guardian#it really puts into perspective how horrific this whole thing actually is#not mentioning how a system like that is a breeding ground for abuse against disabled/impowerished#overall just fucking terrible. i have. many thoughts about beforus#its for the ultkri au btw for those unintiated thats a thing im apparently fixated on rn
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hey! as the first season of connor bedard gets underway i, your local indigenous hockey fan, have a request of you: please don't let this kid's sure to be marvellous and jaw-dropping rookie season make you complacent with the racism of the blackhawks as an organization. it is beyond heinous that they were able to secure the first overall pick this year for a number of reasons i'm sure we're all familiar with, but i am pleading with the hockey community not to let the racism of this org fall through the cracks.
they drafted connor bedard and handed him a jersey with a giant racist caricature on the front. their mascot is named tommy hawk. they continuously fail to curtail their fans' egregious displays of anti-indigenous racism at games.
i'm not going to ask anyone not to post about bedard. i know he's huge news and i'm bummed as all hell that i won't be able to enjoy the beginning of what is sure to be an incredible career myself. but i am asking, given that his presence on the team is likely to increase the prevalence of people making and reblogging posts about the blackhawks, that you please care, loudly and actively, about the racism of this organization and how much it hurts indigenous fans to see that go unquestioned so often.
consider mentioning it in posts. consider amplifying the voices of indigenous fans and community members about the issues of these types of sports organizations. consider reading up on the history of the person they claim to 'honour' with their hideous effigy of a logo. consider censoring the logo in your posts if you are able to (please do this if you are able to). consider tagging posts so that indigenous fans are at the very least able to blacklist that team and not have to see it.
above all, please just. don't forget about it. don't forget about us. we belong here too.
#gav gab#connor bedard#chicago blackhawks#i jsut. it makes me feel sick every time i see that thing.#this racist caricature of a native man's head on their jerseys on their ice in their locker room#a native man who had his body mutilated in death including having his head removed#it's fucking grotesque and it makes me literally sick#i was really looking forward to see what that little wizard boy could do!#and now it is wholly ruined for me#and i keep seeing people just. posting about it like this team is normal. like it's any other team#no ethical consumption under sports is true but some things ARE worse than others#and there is no justification or excuse for being a blackhawks fan in the year 2023. there just isn't.#and like..... it bums me the fuck out for bedard himself too#like he didn't choose this#he just got like. put into this situation#it sucks#he's a teenager and now he's in the middle of this whole mess he didn't create and isn't responsible for#and i can't expect him to do anything about it#but boy was i excited to see him play#and now it just..... yeah#well.
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uhh umm uhm random stuff
#jrwi riptide#my art#sketch#ships are so hard to draw. like. that's supposed to be a brigantine but its twice the size i wanted it to be and its sad.#i guess they can have a bigger boat š...#they just keep fighting and running around on their ship and it feels like there's a lot of room for activities there when there really isn#idk man#i wanted to say that i need to draw more ships but i really dont. ships suck and drawing them is 90% pain and 9% holy shit i did something#and a secret third thing.....#AND NOW that I've said it i feel the sudden urge to draw more ships. ship combat. a giant port as a background. more scenes on a ship...#fuck my life bro#also. found out in the middle of writing the ids that i misspelled both the words millennium and albatross. bruh
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I've decided to do myself what the cowards at Aston won't. Behold.
#GAAAAAAHHHH REALLY HAPPY WITH THESE#GRRRRR I WANNA EAT HIM#not to pat myself on my own back too much but god he looks so fucking hot#woof woof woof man why isnt aston fernando miami 2004 redux not real :(((#only exists in art form :) teehee#ty for everyone who voted in my poll for this even if you didnt know it was for this!#apologies for not picking the most voted one. however...i didnt wanna draw it LOL#theres smth sexier to me about him wearing the unbuttoned shirt OKAY#was pretty fun to design the aston version of the shirt! lmk what you think#also small gripe: it sucks ive put all this work in and its probably gonna end up getting less than the poll i spent less than 10 mins on#idc that much abt notes but ugh the fact that lower effort notes tend to do better sucks :(#unless you wanna make this post more popular than the poll- be my guest :)#anyways god i though renault fernando was hot in these outfits and i obv still do but ggrrrrrr old man fernando when i get you#as i said yesterday. if he wont do well on track he might as well do well off track. so here i am. objectifying him#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#2024 miami gp#f1 fanart#formula 1 fanart#catie.art.
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okay so in french baguette means wand/rod and itās not solely used for bread like in english
but even so seeing red call it his ice baguette makes me cry laugh
#the fire rod is la baguette de feu#Iāve been comparing the French and English versions#and BOY#DO I HAVE COMMENTS ABOUT IT#the English one went really gay#like#REALLY gay#i can see why everyone bitches about it now š#star got the Spanish one and weāve been going through them all#shadow link is link noir#but man they made vio into such a french asshole#he goes āpfuuuuā all the time š#loz#four swords#red link#four swords manga#i feel like the English translation took the route of vio being like āIām different than all the other linksā#and the French one went āim literally better than all of you you guys fucking SUCK later losersā#but also the English one took out a lot of foreshadowing and for what?????#im also having a hard time with this version of franƧais#i was raised with apparently a unique version of quebecois#they also switch between green and vert for green#itās interesting#at one part where they think green is dead for the first time#blue just goes āNOOOOOOON GREEEEEENā#and it took me a second cause I was like sooooomething aināt right here
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Man, today was really rough and really bad and really long and and I just needed my son today. I really needed my son, you guys.
#my characters#oops i fell in love#its totally fine i just have probably cried for an hour total since i left work like 3 hours ago#its totally fine i am just super miserable rn and feeling like garbage but its fine i just have to go to sleep#and not leave the house tomorrow and ill be a lil better#it was just so bad today im exhausted i needed to see my son being happy#my lil anxiety incarnate trash can man guy deserves it#and in saying that youd THINK it would register that i also deserve some joy but nope ! off to be miserable and sleep#on a lighter note ig in regards to him in the silly dnd au he does in fact get a Magical Companion#and he gets to choose what it looks like (within reason aka the DM guy says no dragons)#and he is super happy to say he wants a raccoon companion and his best friend is just beaming internally#bc hes the one that made the comparison of right being like a raccoon with those bags under his eyes and garbage eating habits#so anyway i dont know how to animal which really sucks cause i didnt use a reference until coloring and so you know what#at least its INTENTIONALLY a magical companion so fuck it we ball close enough im done
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The moral of the arcane season two act three is that if you're suicidal you should just go ahead and kill yourself
#Why did they give all three of their suicidal characters successful suicide attempts#If it just happens once that's one thing but all three of them#Suicide mention#the arcane spoilers#Before anyone says anything no I do not think they literally meant to say this bit it's kind of. An unfortunate turn of events#Arcane handled so many really heavy themes really well in s1 and then in s2 uh. Well the themes were there#Case in point is season one was like oh let's subtly yet plainly imply it by having jayce and viktor step off a ledge and jinx k#Let herself get blown up by one of her own grenades to blow up ekko to signify her lack of self preservation#And then in season two she goes off to kill herself and vi is like damn alright I'm gonna fuck my girlfriend in her jail cell now#And then jinx literally blows herself up like 10 times and then fall into a hole#The jayvik double suicide wasn't as bad but it still adds to the numbers and man it sucks that a disabled man who fought so hard to live#Just dies anyway#Oh Isha kills herself also but it's a noble sacrifice which makes it fine I guess#Heimerdinger also kind of does it. Listen I know tragedy writers love writing noble sacrifices but like can we calm down for a second#It's possible for people to die for normal reasons also
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sangwoo is the type of guy 2 get a hard on when he sees you applying lip gloss
#something something sangwoo oral fixation something something#heād really be into the idea of you sucking him off after youāve just applied your lip gloss#i canāt stop thing about this man FUCK !!!!!!!#cho sangwoo#cho sang woo#sang woo#sangwoo#player 218#squid game
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