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Gone
Azriel x Archeron!Reader (deceased), Elriel
the 1 | alternate endings: betty | The Prophecy
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Story Summary: In the wake of your death, Azriel loses everything. And still, you're dead and gone, an aching void felt in those around you.
Warnings: character death (suicide), dead body of reader, grieving, fuck Azriel
Words: ~2.5k
Author's Note: Yes, the title comes from RosĂ©'s 'Gone'. Go listen to it RIGHT NOW. I would say that even without this fic tho lol love me some Rosie 𫶠So here's the first one of the second parts to the 1! I hope you guys like it, and I hope I did all of the characters' reactions justice (especially Miss Feyre) - ALSO thank you for all the love you've given the 1! It was born out of my own crappy day, I'm happy something good came out of it âșïž
18+ only pls
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Azriel quickly made his way back to Elain, doing his best to put the interaction he had just had with you behind him.
His mate.
Elainâs sister⊠Thatâs the only way he had ever thought of you.
As a human you had been⊠Less than average. Hard to look at.
At least in comparison to Elain.
Elain was a breath of fresh air, so lovely and innocent and so entirely unlike him.
And turned fae, she was even more breathtaking.
He had waited for her to realize how truly damaged and scarred he was, and not just on the outside. How entirely unworthy of her he was.
But she hadnât. She had seen him, loved him, even with how broken he was on the inside.
And he had meant his words to Nesta, when he had said no one would ever compare to Elain, even his mate.
And he was right. You didnât compare to her.
But as he reached her side and wrapped his arm around his lovely Elain, he couldnât help but⊠wonder.
Had he just made a mistake in rejecting the bond so easily?
His free hand came to rub at his chest, which felt like it was being scraped with a knife, a dull, throbbing pain.
âAre you alright?â Elainâs sweet voice asked, and he tilted his head to look down at her.
A small smile graced his lips. âOf course, sweetheart. Come to the balcony with me, will you?â
The ring he had selected for Elain lay in a white velvet box, tucked safely in his jacket pocket. It was a beautiful ring, a silver band inlaid with glittering diamonds, and a stunning pink diamond as the centerpiece.
You had told him that Elain had always wanted a pink diamond ring.
He hoped you werenât lying, trying to sabotage his proposal.
He wouldnât put it past you, mating bonds do make fae rather territorial. Even if Elain is your sister.
He shook the thought out of his head, you had never been anything but kind. Boring, yes. Quiet, yes. But always kind.
Azriel smiled at Elain once they reached the balcony, and they stared out over Velaris together for a moment while he gathered his courage.
âElain,â he said softly, drawing her gaze to him.
âYes, love?â Elain asked, her lips curving upwards, as if she knew what was coming.
Azriel dropped to one knee and pulled the box from his jacket, reveling in how Elainâs eyes lit up.
âElain, I have loved you for so long now. In fact, I believe I loved you from the moment I set eyes on you all that time ago, in the human lands. Never did I think that I would have the honor of calling you mine, even once. But now, knowing how wonderful you are, I cannot imagine spending the rest of my life with anyone but you. Elain,â he said, cracking open the box and showing her the ring inside. âWill you marry me?â
Tears were streaming down Elainâs face as she beamed down at him. âYes, yes, a thousand times yes!â She squealed, and Azriel quickly slipped the ring onto her left hand before taking her in his arms and spinning her around. âI love you so much, Az. And how did you know I wanted a pink diamond?â Elain asked once he had set her down, giving her time to admire her new ring.
âOh, I may have asked Y/N for advice on what youâve always wanted,â Azriel said.
âAh, that was smart-â
âOh my gods!â Feyre screamed, cutting Elain off and causing the pair to look over to her.
âWhat is it, Feyre?â Rhys asked worriedly, panic on his face after Feyreâs outburst.
Feyre took off running before answering, Rhys following immediately, and the rest of the inner circle exchanged looks before sprinting after them, leaving the confused citizens of Velaris behind.
They skidded to a stop at a balcony, where Feyre was leaning over it, sobbing.
âNo!â She screamed, a guttural cry leaving her lips as she collapsed to the floor, Rhys barely catching her in time as she passed out in his arms.
âWhat is it, Feyre?â Nesta asked as she walked over to the balcony, glancing over the side herself. âMother above! Y/N!â Nesta yelled, the first time that Azriel had heard true, heart wrenching pain in her voice, and she collapsed next to Feyre, tears streaming down her face.
Y/N?
But what would be wrong with Y/N? Azriel had left her in the hallway, not ten minutes before now.
Elain tugged him over to the balcony, her heart rate picking up just from the reactions of her sisters. When she peeked over the side, a scream left her lips, more wounded and hurt than Azriel thought she would ever sound. âY/N!â Elain cried as she fell next to her sisters, the three of them huddled together once Feyre came to a moment later, her sobs picking up instantly, her hands clutching at her chest.
Azriel dared a glance over the side, his heart dropping to his stomach when he saw it.
Saw you.
Lying there, unmoving, darkness surrounding your body.
He gasped and stumbled back from the balcony, reality hitting him.
Dead.
You were dead.
You were his mate and you were dead!
Tears streamed down his face, and he couldnât tell exactly what happened next, but soon enough Cassian was flying back up from the ground, your limp, unmoving body in his arms.
The three sistersâ sobs grew louder when they saw you up close, the three of them surrounding your body where Cassian had gently placed it on the floor. Feyre sat with your head resting in her lap, her hands running through your hair as she sobbed. Azriel watched on, a hand covering his mouth as he beheld your lifeless form.
âWhyâŠ? Why would she do this?â Feyre cried, resting her head on Rhysâs shoulder when he sat next to her. âI donât understand, she was fine just a little bit agoâŠâ
Azriel couldnât help but feel partially responsible.
âIâŠâ He started, but stopped before he got it out.
Nestaâs head whipped towards him, though. âYouâŠ? You what, Azriel?â She snapped.
All eyes followed suit, snapping to Azrielâs form, taking in the tears on his cheeks.
âI⊠Y/N is⊠was⊠myâŠâ
âSpit it out,â Nesta growled, her voice icy with rage and grief.
âY/N was my mate,â Azriel finally whispered.
Everyone gasped, but it was Elainâs face that broke his heart.
âY/N was⊠I donât understand,â Feyre said softly, watery eyes meeting Azrielâs. âWhat⊠What happened?â She asked between teary breaths.
âShe⊠She told me, when she had asked to speak with me, Elain.â
âAnd?â The sharp question came from Rhys.
Azriel hesitated, but the pressure of all those teary eyes had him answering. âI rejected the bond. Just as I said I would.â
âYou what?!â Nesta screeched as she launched her body towards him, only stopped by Cassianâs strong arms wrapping around her waist and holding her back from killing his brother. âYou found out about the bond and rejected it in the same night?! In less than ten minutes?!â
Feyre was glaring at him, tears streaming down her face, and he was sure that if she wasnât still cradling your head in her lap that she would be eviscerating him with Nestaâs help.
And Elain⊠She was staring at him with such sorrow in her eyes, the love that had been shining in them mere minutes before all but gone.
âI⊠I thought that it was what I should do, I love Elain,â Azriel explained, but he could tell it was the wrong words by everyoneâs shock and disgust.
âSo you turned down the bond? Just like that? You couldnât even think about it? When it was Y/N?!â Nesta yelled, her struggles against her mate renewed with her outrage. âWhat in the hells is wrong with you?â She snarled, silver flames bursting from her fingers.
âYou should go, Azriel,â Feyre said quietly, the calm before the storm. And he didnât want to be here when his High Lady turned into a raging hurricane.
His gaze snapped to Elain, who had turned away from him, instead focusing on where her fingers were caressing your rapidly paling face.
âAz. Just, go home. Okay?â Cassian suggested, his own expression harder than it normally appeared, but still softer than everyone else around them.
Mor and Amren, who had been quiet throughout the ordeal, gave him pitying looks as he turned to leave, his wings drooping to touch the ground.
The three sisters wails grew in volume as he left them, Feyreâs the loudest among them as she mourned her twin, who sheâd already lost in death once before, and nearly again to the terror that was the Cauldron.
He could hear the concerned chatter of the citizens of Velaris nearby, a few people daring to venture into the disallowed areas of the House to see what all the commotion had been about. Quickly, Azriel made his way to another quiet balcony, launching himself into the sky.
Tears were still falling from his eyes when he landed in front of his and Elainâs cottage- though he wasnât sure if he should even call it that anymore.
She still said yes, his shadows whispered to him quietly, their voices tinged with sadness. But⊠Our mate⊠they wept softly, coiling tightly around him.
Azriel threw the door open, making a beeline for the bedroom. He collapsed by the foot of the bed, a sob ripping from his throat.
His mate. Gone.
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Three days later and his mate was being lowered into the ground, her decoratively carved wooden casket slowly taking her to her final resting place.
His mate. Dead.
It had been three days since he and Elain had spoken, though they had laid next to each other in silence each night when Elain came home from planning the funeral and mourning in the company of her remaining sisters.
She looked beautiful today, even in dull black mourning garb. Her engagement ring was still sparkling on her ring finger, the one ray of light still left in his life.
He couldnât help but feel she was slipping through his fingers, though.
A situation entirely of his own making, he supposed.
After the ceremony and during the wake, he waited for Elain to approach him first.
âHi, Az,â she said softly, settling herself into the chair next to him. He murmured a soft hello back. âI wanted to⊠Talk to you.â
âOh? What about, âLainey?â
A slight blush colored her cheeks at the nickname. âI wanted to know⊠What you said to Y/N. I just⊠I need to know if it was just the bond being rejected orâŠâ She trailed off, turning her eyes from his hazel ones to the table.
âIf I was needlessly cruel to her?â
Elain pursed her lips together. âYes.â
Azriel sighed. He had hoped he would never need to admit how horribly his last interaction with his mate had gone. âI⊠I was not kind to her, not like I should have been. I wish I could change how I rejected her Elain.â
Elainâs mouth turned downwards. âWhat exactly did you say?â
Azriel looked at the ground. He couldnât meet her eyes as he repeated his awful words to her, her eyes widening by the second.
âI⊠Azriel, I am sorry, but I cannot marry you.â She slipped the ring, the ring that was so, perfectly Elain, off of her finger and onto the table, sliding it over to him. âI would not be able to marry someone who could say such things to someone, let alone to my sister and their mate. I⊠I wish you the best. Iâll move my things out of the cottage as soon as possible.â
And with that, Elain stood from the table and walked back to where her sisters and his brothers were sitting, leaving him and his broken heart in her wake.
Sheâs right, master, the shadows whispered to him. You hurt our mate badly. She is gone.
Tears pricked Azrielâs eyes again.
A few minutes later, a black cloud encroached on his field of view-
His High Lady.
âYou said WHAT to my twin?!â Feyre screamed at him, darkness flooding his vision. âYou thought being her mate was a joke?! And when it wasnât a joke, you told her she would never compare to Elain?! And that waiting for your mate, the one who was made for you, was a waste of time?! What the fuck is wrong with you?!â Feyre raged, her inner beast coming out, only for Azriel to see.
And he was horrified, terrified as his High Lady pinned him to the ground, talons cutting into the skin of his throat and piercing his left wing.
âI should rip you limb from limb,â Feyre hissed, her voice more animal than fae. âIt is only for my mate that I will not, but you will leave this court and never return. Better yet, leave the fucking continent so that I am less tempted to hunt you down and slaughter you anyways.â
And then Feyre was off of him, letting her claws slice into his neck, just barely missing his jugular. The darkness receded, leaving him lying on the ground bleeding and Feyre standing over him, appearing as a fae again.
âAzriel.â Rhys approached the two of them, followed closely by Cassian, and extended a hand to help Azriel up. âBrother, you know that I love you. But⊠You canât stay here. Not now. Not after⊠This.â A heavy sigh left his brotherâs lips.
Cassian hugged him tightly, careful to avoid brushing against his now punctured wing.
âIâll miss you, brother. Take care of yourself⊠Donât⊠Donât do anything stupid, okay?â Cassian said quietly, tears shining in his eyes.
âI second that, Az. Be smart, hmm? Iâm sure that youâll find somewhere to hear from this, to change from this,â Rhys said aloud. Then, he spoke into his mind, âI know Feyre said to never return but⊠If you could, I would like for you to check in with me every month or so. Just to know that youâre alright.â
âI will,â Azriel replied in a soft voice, his throat sore from where Feyre had held him and cut him. âI am sorry, for what itâs worth,â he added as he regarded the three remaining Archeron sisters, knowing it would likely be the last time he would see any of them.
And then he took to the skies, even with his punctured wing making flight painful and more difficult than it had been since he first learned.
His mate, gone.
His family, gone.
Itâs what I deserve.
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Imagine you're in the CoN and your high lord & lady visit and you have to watch her sit on his lap as he fingers her while knowing you will forever be trapped under a dark mountain with no way to feel the sun on your face or grass under your foot or hear the birds chirping with the knowledge that your steward is an evil man and that your high lord's rich little circle has never made an effort to change things for the better or realize that there are other "dreamers" here and your only hope of any change is a woman whose personality is wearing red and who can't stop thinking about herself but she also absolutely hates your guts for no reason other than the fact that you were born in the Hewn City and who hasn't faced or gotten over her trauma in the 500+ miserable years of her existence.
#court of nightmares#a court of silver flames#a court of thorns and roses#a court of frost and starlight#a court of wings and ruin#a court of mist and fury#morrigan acotar#mor#hewn city#fuck the ic#fuck mor#fuck rhys#fuck feyre#fuck amren#fuck cassian#fuck azriel#i cant possibly hate these mfs any more than i already do
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Forever thinking about injured Azriel refusing to abandon his friends to battle in ACOWAR, to the point that heâs threatening to rip a tree out of the ground and fly with it on his back.
Gwyn, seriously injured, dehydrated and weak, refusing to leave Nesta (which would have basically guaranteed her death) to the point that she had to be knocked out and carried away.
My brave, loyal, self sacrificial idiots I love them so much
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just another day thinking about what a disaster the high lordâs meeting was for the night court. the spymaster was smashing chairs and choking other delegates. the high lady was setting fire to innocents. the high lord was treating his ex boyfriend like his personal puppet. the human emissary was vomiting in the reflection pool. and yet. somehow, against all odds, these messy idiots convinced 5 other courts to join their cause. a miracle, really.
#yes this was inspired by the latest chapter of JEL#nesta I donât blame you#azriel what the fuck#FEYRE#how dare you burn LoA#Rhysand⊠itâs been centuries let tamtam move on#CassianâŠyou get a gold star#lmao#acotar#eris vanserra#nesta archeron#feyre archeron#Rhysand#cassian acotar#azriel#inner circle critical#anti ic#wtf were they doing
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Rhys: âSo letâs see if Iâve got this; you have immense shadow power, incredible combat skills, height, tattoos, secrets, dead parents, a thirst for vengeance, the weight of the world on your shoulders, a rebellion to lead, and a dragon?â
Xaden: âYeah? I mean, thereâs also my girlfriend who Iâm completely in love with and 107 people under my protection but-â
Rhys: *frantically flipping through papers* âthis is the hyper-intelligent girlfriend with unprecedented lightning powers? The one you speak to with your mind and call a nickname permanently?â
Xaden: âI do only have the one girlfriend. Kinda offended youâd think otherwise.â
Rhys: *signs a paper* âAdopted. The rebellion thing is handled. Me and your aunts and uncles have got this. Your new mom is going to need some time to add you and your mate to the family portrait gallery. Your bedroom is upstairs, knives are in the training ring, family dinner is every Thursday, your allowance is infinity and your curfew is never.â
Xaden: âI amâŠ. Older than your wife?â
Rhys: âDid I fucking stutter?â
#incorrect quotes#fourth wing incorrect quotes#fourth wing#incorrect acotar quotes#acotar#crossover#who wants to write it?#bat boys#xaden riorson#rhysand#you cannot tell me im wrong#Xaden would be adopted in 0.8 seconds flat#Violet and gwyn can hang out#Rhys and Azriel might have to fight over custody#Violet would have a lot of fun with the valkyries#Brennan has things to say about Night Court medical practices#Tairn Sgaeyl and Andarna have a lot of thoughts about Byraxis#if Xaden is 23 than he is factually at least 2 years older than the oldest weâve seen Feyre and thatâs objectively fucking funny#Rhys is in his Dad era and even if he werenât Xaden is everything he looks for in adoptive family and IC members#Rhys thinks Xaden is baby brother shaped and Xaden thinks Rhys is a weird powerful guy who might be able to help him win the rebellion#Xaden needs a nap#Xaden is adaptable and heâll roll with this#but damnit all if heâs not bringing Violet with him#Violet is sure something about this is funny#crack fic#crossover fic
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Cassian: Azriel, Two truths and a lie, who would you fuck if you had the chance?
Azriel: alright bet.
Rhys: Give us three names and weâll guess which one is the lie.
Azriel: option one, Hybernâs headless corpse
Cassian: woah, woah, woah bro WHATâ
Azriel: option two, bryaxis
Rhys: Azriel what?
Cassian: HOW DARE YOU?
Azriel: and finally option three, Eris Vanserra.
Cassian: âŠ
Rhys: âŠ
Azriel: tell me brothers, which one is the lie?
Cassian: âŠ
Rhys: âŠ
Cassian: IâŠ
Rhys: I think itâs better off if we donât know.
Azriel: suit yourselves đ€·ââïž
#acotar#azris#eris vanserra#azriel x eris#acotar shit post#incorrect quotes#incorrect acotar quotes#the lie is the headless corpse#heâd go for the head (lol jkâŠ. or am I?)#how better to conquer fear itself than to fuck it#azris supremacy#cassian#cassian acotar#rhys#rhysand#rhys acotar#bat boys#bat bros#Iâm just making myself laugh#acomaf#acofas#acowar#acosf
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Elain is the most relatable Archeron sister because I too would rather spend my days gardening and baking and if I met Azriel in real life I would also want to climb him like a tree
#I am a simple woman with simple needs#I donât want to be the person who saves the world I just wanna bake and fuck the emo#elriel#acotar#elain archeron#elain x azriel#azriel
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Rainy Season - Part 2
What You Gonna Do?
Azriel x Reader
A short follow up to Rainy Season since you all have been so gracious with your responses - Initially I planned a time jump for part 2 but decided to give a taste of the aftermath of her leaving. Things will eventually look up for our girl, sheâs just going through it right now. Stay tuned for more! Iâve decided to make this a short series.
Part 1 Part 3
Warnings: cheating, language
Azriel
Who wakes you when the morning comes?
Azriel awoke to rays filling the room with brightness. Shit - heâd overslept. Why hadnât Y/N woken him? He looked over to find the bed cold, as if it had been vacant for hours.
Wiping the sleep from his eyes, he wandered to the kitchen, lacking its welcoming aroma of fresh coffee and the sweet and savory aromas of pastries and bacon. No, it was totally empty.
Where was she?
âY/N?â He groggily called out into the house.
Silence.
Slipping on a pair of pajama pants he wandered to the door. The chill of the house whipping against his bare, muscled abdomen.
Perhaps she was basking in the sunlight on the patio. He always loved how she looked in the morning rays - a deity in her own right. He should probably tell her that sometime.
Padding to the front door, two things caught his attention.
One, his clothes were strewn over top of his bag and two, a note was scrawled in her messy handwriting.
No - not a note. A list of rhetorical questions.
âWho wakes you when the morning comes?
Who gives you all she has to give?
Who fulfills all her promises?
Who sees the good in you?
What are you gonna do when Iâm gone?
Where you gonna go when thereâs nobody home?
Whoâs gonna love you when youâre all alone?â
He dropped his head. Fuck - things were good last night. What happened? As he bent back down to clear up the strewn undergarments, the strong, sweet scent of Elain wafting into his nostrils.
No - those questions were not rhetorical. They were a plea. âWho?â Who is that person to him?
Clutching his chest he realized just how terrible a mistake heâd made when he fucked Elain.
âââââ
Y/N
The warm rays of the Summer Court and the overwhelming weight of crushing heartbreak greeted me bright and early. A mockery to the pouring rain Iâd traveled through last night, showing up at my grandmotherâs door like a drowned rat.
Instead of chastising me for how long it had been since Iâd paid her a visit, her brown eyes only met me with compassion. She knew me well and every ounce of pain on my face spoke the words that I couldnât get out.
She pulled me into a bone crushing hug, ran a hot bath and steeped a pot of tea before laying in bed behind me and running her fingers through my hair until my heaving sobs turned to shuddering breaths and eventually a deep sleep.
It was a strange feeling. It had been too long since Iâd seen her and yet, she showed me more love and compassion in a span of three hours than I had in the last three years.
Thank the gods the rays woke me early as I had to make it to the palace in Adriata immediately.
âLeaving me so soon?â Grandmother asked as I hurried out the door. âSorry! I promise Iâll be back before lunch.â
Iâd only met Tarquin a handful of times but sensed that he was a kind, benevolent ruler. Still, I expected to meet with his officials before being granted access to his office but when heâd heard who was here to see him, he immediately made time for me.
By the end of our meeting, heâd granted me renewed citizenship in the Summer Court and wrote to Rhysand effectively barring Azriel from his court. Careful to not create tensions in the court, he revoked the current ban on Cassian so long as he could keep himself from destroying any more buildings within his court.
Despite my numb state, a small smile flickered across my face as I imagined Cassianâs reaction to the news. He wasnât one to hold petty grudges but he certainly clung on to that of being banned from the Summer Court. I just hoped he wouldnât be angry with me for leaving without saying goodbye.
Additionally, Tarquin discussed my skill set with me and by the end of the meeting I had been offered a paid position in teaching self-defense courses within the palace to a variety of age groups, primarily focusing on women and children. I brought few assets with me upon leaving the Night Court and my pride was too stubborn to withdraw any of the money from Azriel and Iâs shared account when I left. No, I could do well enough on my own - thank you very much.
After the battle of Adriata, Tarquin had ramped up efforts of ensuring his citizens were better protected on all fronts so his offer was mutually beneficial for his court and me, ergo not solely extended out of pity. My pride beamed at that.
I gratefully accepted his offer.
âââââ
I returned home. Home? No, not home - to my grandmotherâs house to find that my sister and nephew were there waiting for me.
âOh my gods!!!!!â My sister Camila yelped. Practically tackling me.
âGran! You didnât tell me that Y/N was coming for lunch. You secretive old thing.â
Before he could say anything I swooped my nephew, Alex, up into my arms and - ouch, I was not as strong as I used to be because it was an effort to lift him. Heâd grown at least a foot since the last time Iâd seen him. A pang of guilt struck me out of my blissful state and back to reality at the thought. It had been far too long since Iâd come to visit my family.
âWhereâs Uncle Azriel?â he asked.
The question struck me like a knife. My expression faltering as I scrambled to regain composure. âHeâs on a mission.â I lied.
My sisterâs brows furrowed. She was always too good at reading me but thankfully she didnât press further. I would talk to her when I was ready.
We spent the rest of the afternoon chatting and catching up. Alex animatedly told me of school and all of his friends - I couldnât help but smile as the warm summer breeze whisped over my exposed skin. The tea tasted a little bit sweeter, the air a little fresher, and the company a little warmer.
âââââ
âY/N?â
Rhysandâs distant voice echoed into my mind as I lay down for bed that night. I always forgot how far his daemati abilities could carry.
âHello, Rhys.â
âI received Tarquinâs letter. Azriel has been on edge all day andâŠ. Well, Iâm not going to ask you to share anything you donât want to but - it must have been bad. Take all the time you need.â
âIâm not coming back, Rhys.â
The words rolled through me so quickly that I almost believed them but I knew Iâd need closure at some point. For now, I wasnât ready for that.
Seeming to sense that exact thought Rhys only replied, âWrite me or Feyre if you need anything at all.â
âââââ
Who cries knowing you donât care?
Night time always brought out stronger emotions in me. Iâd keep my emotional barriers held high all day but as the sun set, so did those walls. As I lay in bed that night the first waves of grief blew through me. Not a wave of my own grief which had been omnipresent within me but⊠Azrielâs grief through our bond.
Of course it took me leaving for him to feel anything toward me through our own mating bond. I shut it down as effectively as I could and cried. Tears of anger flowed as I realized that my presence was never enough but my absence was what it took for him to give a damn about me.
Who worries what the future holds?
I grieved the future that could have been ours had he only chosen me. I let the sobs pour out once again as his pain rolled through me in waves. He couldnât even extend the courtesy of shutting down his end of the bond as he came to grips with the ramifications of his own actions. His emotions only brought me bitterness and maybe that was a flaw on my end but it sure as hell felt justified. I spent so long giving him everything and even now, I still receive only heartache in return.
Whoâs tired of empty promises?
He swore heâd love me forever but forever only meant until someone better came along. Certainly it wouldnât be long before he returned to Elain for comfort. Would he be courteous enough to shut down the bond then or would I feel the pleasure she brought as she soothed his emotional wounds then too? As he healed and made the same empty promises to her that he had to me? Hell, had he already made those promises to her? Would he hold to them for her?
What would he do now that Iâm gone?
What would I do now that Iâm gone?
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A/N brace yourselves, weâre getting a different characterâs POV in the next chapter đ đ„
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Lucien was talking about Graysen here.
He wanted to ask Rhysand how one would survive knowing your mate chose someone else.
Meaning?
He would let Elain leave the bond for her own sake
DonÂŽt ever disrespect Lucien and say he would show anger if Elain made a choice. He is saying right here that he would try to survive it.
I'm sick and tired of people portraying Azriels traits (towards Elain) onto Lucien.
AZRIEL is jealous of Lucien and Elain's bond. AZRIEL has one sided beef with Lucien. AZRIEL is the one who thinks he is worthy of Elain. AZRIEL has entertained the idea of killing Lucien.
Not LUCIEN.
Note: This isnÂŽt an anti az post but we all know how fucked he is. (coming from a gwynriel) WHO IS ALSO PRO LUCIEN 4LIFE
Lucien, just like any mate would support Elain in whatever choice she makes because, say it with me!
HE đ IS đ HER đ MATE đÂ
And Az does not have the same maturity to do that because he is not Elains mate.
and he will be fine
#pro lucien vanserra#pro lucien#dont EVER try to disrespect the king like that#i just love how they know how az acts towards Elain is weird so they deny clear canon and push it on to someone else#bullshittery#im feeling angry today#dont fuck with me#always defending lulu but today? DONT PLAY BITCHES!#Pro elain archeron#pro elain#pro elucien#azriel#azriel acotar#anti e/riel
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Ember in the BAM bonus chapter
#hofas spoilers#Ember gave zero fucks about Rhys#and went all mother bear on him for Nesta#good for her#ember quinlan#nesta archeron#randall silago#Rhysand#cassian#azriel#bryce quinlan
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lowkey think itâs gonna be such an experience for nesta to watch Elain and Lucien get together bc Lucienâs just so⊠normal? like her sisterâs mated to a lunatic who hates her guts and sheâs mated to an asshole who doesnât even like her all that much and then thereâs Lucien. Heâs not weird or creepy or a liar. He doesnât tell Elain everyone hates her or force her to do things she doesnât want to do or tell he feels shackled to her. Heâs respectful and chivalrous and literally worships the ground Elain walks on. Heâs probably fighting the urge to say I love you on the first date because heâs so smitten. Heâs just so normal. Good. He almost makes the whole mates thing seem like the gift itâs supposed to be.
#lucienâs fucked up in his own ways but he doesnât project all his issues onto his partner đ#heâs normal compared to all the other weirdos weâve got at the night court#nestaâs gonna be thanking god that elain dodged a bullet with azriel lololol#acotar#a court of thorns and roses#lucien vanserra#pro lucien vanserra#pro elucien#pro nesta archeron#anti nessian#anti e/riel#she couldâve had him but sjm is insane i fear
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Hii! Az fluff request here.
I was thinking of the inner circle being out having dinner somewhere and the reader is exhausted. Az notices it and moves his arm for her to lean on him and she falls asleep there, head in azâs arm. Az being all cute w her in front of the inner circle. Or something like that!
Love your writing!!
wake me up.
authorâs note: wake up babes itâs time to yearn. this drabble is brought to you by this song.
the shadowsinger could tell that youâd had a long day, but he didnât realize how exhausted you were until you almost placed the chocolate cake in the sink instead of the dirty dishes. azriel took the dessert tray from your hands and handed you the dishes instead in one smooth move.
you blinked in surprise. âoh, thanks az. soggy cake wouldâve made a horrible dessert.â
azriel frowned in concern. âyou look exhausted. whenâs the last time you slept?â
you wiped your soapy hands on the front of your apron. âalways great to hear that i look haggard and tired.â
azâs eyes widened. âi didnât meanâ you always look great â i justâŠâ
the soft little chuckle that fell from your lips instantly relaxed the shadowsinger. âiâm just messing with you, az.â you smoothed down the worried frown lines on his forehead. âdonât worry about little old me. itâs just been a long day, thatâs all.â
âif you want to head upstairs and rest, i can finish cleaning up here. the others wonât mind.â
you stubbornly shook your head. âare you kidding? iâm not missing game night. the last time we played poker cas got so mad he flipped a table and got put in time out. itâs worth losing sleep over.â sidestepping the shadowsinger, you finished washing the rest of the dishes. you couldâve easily used your powers, but cleaning always made you feel accomplished. besides, it gave you an excuse to be alone with azriel for a little while longer.
âare you sure? i just donât want you missing any sleep.â
as you racked the plates, you couldnât help but smile. this was so typically azriel. always looking out for his friends. âyouâre sweet to worry, but really, iâm fine az. now letâs go kick some ass at poker.â
halfway through the game, the shadowsinger was convinced that he shouldâve insisted on marching you straight to bed. you were barely keeping your eyes open, yawning every now and then while stubbornly stating that you werenât even a tiny bit tired.
as expected, the poker game had turned heated fairly quickly. cas and rhys were arguing about some trivial rule, while their mates sighed exasperatedly. mor and amren had completely abandoned their cards all together, choosing to drink their weight in wine instead. despite his brothers argument, the only one close to winning was lucien who winked at elain from across the table. his mate blushed and smiled back before turning her attention to azriel.
she nodded in your direction, slumped form currently growing sleepier by the second. elain patted her shoulder, signaling to the shadowsinger. azriel got the hint and scooted closer to you.
âlooks like this game isnât going anywhere anytime soon.â the shadowsinger set his cards down and moved his arm over the back of the sofa. âyou might wanna settle in, this might take a while.â
you watched through bleary eyes as cassian angrily waved his deck in rhysandâs face. the high lord looked affronted, which made you snort in amusement. those two were worse than children.
you yawned once again. âokay, but only for a little bit.â azriel nodded as you curled against him, resting your head on his shoulder.
âfinally,â lucien mouthed.
azriel glared at him, which only caused the redhead to smirk. elain elbowed him, but there was a quirk to her mouth that told azriel that she obviously agreed. luckily, you were too sleepy to notice the exchange with the meddlesome couple.
âpromise youâll wake me up, az?â you asked as azriel stroked your hair.
âi promise.â
heâd wake you up eventually. he just didnât specify when.
within minutes, you were fast asleep on his shoulder. azriel pulled the blanket over you, making sure that you were comfortable and undisturbed. the shadowsinger rubbed circles against your back, lulling you into deeper sleep. you looked so peaceful in his arms. he was so engrossed in you that he didnât even notice that the whole room had gone quiet.
âwell, arenât you two adorable?â rhys said with a smirk. at some point, him and cassian had stopped arguing and focused their attention on the shadowsinger instead.
âyou never hold me like that nes.â cassian teased with a pout.
âthatâs because you snore loud enough to wake up the whole damn house,â scoffed nesta. âplus, you drool in your sleep.â
cassian gasped in feigned outrage. the shadowsinger shushed him. ânot so loud, cas. youâll wake y/n up.â
ârhys is right, you know.â feyre whispered. âyou two are so cute together.â
âitâs about time you do something about it, shadowsinger.â amren said pointedly.
âitâs obvious that you two have chemistry together,â mor added. âyou should ask her out on a date. not your little âjust friendsâ picnics. i mean a real date, like dinner and a nice restaurant and candles and everything. oh my gods, iâll have to help her pick out a dress!â
âthatâs a great idea, mor.â feyre agreed excitedly. âwe can all go shopping together.â
elain clapped. âi can put together a bouquet for you! y/n adores roses. especially the ones from my garden.â
âname the place and iâll handle the reservations, brother.â rhysand offered.
âyouâll have to take her to that new gelato place, too.â lucien suggested. âsheâs been raving about it for days.â
azriel rubbed his temples as his friends planned out this hypothetical date that he apparently got no say in. the shadowsinger knew they meant well, but if he was going to take you out, heâd do it on his own terms. plus, itâs not like heâd been thinking about your first date for months now. agonizing, was more like it. everything was planned right down to the last detail.
he just had to suck it up and actually ask.
âthank you for the unsolicited advice,â azriel said dryly. âbut i think iâve got it.â
the shadowsinger lifted you up with ease and walked out of the living room, leaving the rest of his friends to their own devices. he quietly made his way up the stairs, taking great care not to wake you. azriel paused on the top step as you stirred in his arms.
âaz?â you murmured softly. it was so quiet he thought heâd imagined it.
âyeah?â
you cuddled against his chest, curling your arms around his neck. âpromise youâll ask when i wake up?â
azrielâs heart stopped for a second. then, sunlight filled his veins as you smiled sleepily up at him. he leaned down and kissed your forehead.
âi promise, y/n.â
#excuse me but what the fuck#i need to scream for a sec#azriel#azriel fic#azriel x you#azriel x reader#acotar#azriel fanfic#azriel fluff#azriel acotar#azriel shadowsinger
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The Inner Circle + Elain and Nesta
Art by @crisolcrowling on Instagram
#Excuse me#Excuse me!?#EXCUSE ME!?!?!#Okay for me Nesta and Elain also belong to the IC but the artist word it like that so i won't chance it#THIS IS ABSOLUTLY STUNNING#like are you kidding me#my jaw dropped#crisolcrowling is a fucking queen#I love her fanarts so much đ#acotar art#rhysand#azriel shadowsinger#cassian#morrigan acotar#amren#feyre archeron#nesta archeron#elain archeron
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Elainâs Lumpy Sweaters
An Elriel Headcanon
Elain has taken up knitting and knits everyone in the IC sweaters every fall. Sheâs not very good yet but intent on practicing. The sweaters are lumpy and sort of sad albeit in a cozy and lovable way. Endearingly ill-fitting for the most part. A variety of colors are involved ranging from rust to tawny to grey to olive. The family is too kind to say anything to her. They mostly just sport the lumpy scarves she knits instead out of politeness.
No one wears the sweaters. Except Azriel.
Cassian and Rhys balk when they initially see him in one. Itâs the first time heâs worn anything aside from black in 500 hundred years.
Azriel literally says nothing about it and just reviews murder reports in Elainâs lumpy sweaters. He begins to do so daily. Just to drive the point home. Just to see her eyes light up a room.
Elain is so elated that Azriel seemingly enjoys her knitware that she knits him a lopsided brown little woolie hat for the days when itâs crisp and cold and he is mulling through paperwork outside while sheâs tending the autumn garden.
Heâs so dead inside and in love with her that he absolutely wears the sad lumpy woolie hat on the cold days.
His brothers laugh halfway to Adriata everytime they catch sight of this. Azriel waves them off and pays them no mind. Though his ears turn pink now and again because he is, after all, a five century old Illyrian warrior with a hell-black heart covered in lumpy knitware but Elain is beaming and no one could pay him enough gold marks to give a flying shit about his dignity.
Azrielâs pink ears are not lost on Elain, however. She assumes it is because he is still not warm enough. She devises a plan for wooly earmuffs in the coming weeks.
#elriel#elriel headcanon#Elainâs lumpy sweaters#they are not cute#but Elain is and azriel canât fucking help himself
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Eris is my favourite character. I have so many reasons for this, but the main one is how complex his character is. Personally I think he really is a good person and does what he thinks is right but he is still morally gray. Like really morally gray, for example Rhys is supposed to be morally gray but sjm tries to justify everything he does. Morally gray characters do bad things. If you're trying to write one let them be bad, arrogant, selfish at times. The world isn't black and white, it's shades of gray. Eris shows that and his actions are probably the most realistic, because we all know he's done bad things but he owes up to them just like real people do (or should). Sjm claims Rhysand has never done anything bad and more bs like that.
(also azris and the vanserra in his name make eris VERY appealing)
#pro eris vanserra#azriel x eris#eris vanserra#azris#sjm#morally grey characters#eris vandaddy#rhys critical#still think rhys is an interesting charecter#sjm just fucked it up a bit
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âThe Silent Oneâ
#3 Azriel x Fem!OC
âPart 1âPart 2âPart 3âPart 4â
Word Count: 3.6k
Summary: Azriel finds the guy that sold Cassandra. Lots of bonding happens with Cassandra, Azriel and other members of the IC. Slight cliffhanger.
Warnings/Tags: mentions/implied rape. Mention past sexual abuse. Mentions pregnancy from rape. Slow burn. Violence. Brief victim blaming. Found family. Protective!azriel. Protective!IC. GRAMMER ERRORSâI plan on going back to edit this please donât judge me too hard Iâm gonna have a busy week and just really wanted to get this posted for yâallđ©”
Authors Note: all reblogs, likes and comments are welcome, appreciated and encouraged! Let me know if youâd like to be added to the tag list for the next chapter. Regular italics are inner thoughts and bold italics are mental communication.
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Azriel stands in the darkness of night watching. Waiting. Body thrumming with anger. Calm cold anger. The kind that got people killed if they didnât give him what he was looking for.
Only moments after Cassandraâs departure had his shadow returned to him. Telling him where to find this Vale. This horrid male who was taking females away from their family and selling them offâprofiting off of them like livestock.
He sees the male, recognizes him from the briefs flash of memory Cassandra let slip at dinner, the one where this mad had choked her, slammed her against the wall just for needing to use the restroom.
The male is loading something up in the back of a wagon, the building behind him dark and dingy. Azriel let his shadows take him closer. Closer. Until he was standing in the alley between this man's house and another. The smell was horrid, small creatures scurrying about looking for their meal for the evening.
The male retreats into the building and Azriel lets a shadow loose to follow himâto be his eyes inside of this building. Inside is just as dark and dingy and piled high to the roof withâŠstuff. The blue skinned male navigates the maze of boxes and bins and trash with ease. He seems to be the only one here but Azriel knew better so he waits following the man through the seemingly endless maze.
Thatâs when he hears it, his shoulders going tight, his jaw clenching. Cryingâno sobbing. A girl begging to be left alone as the male grabs her and pins her down to the floor.
âFuck,â he growls. He pounds his fist against the outside of the building, taking chucks of the stone out. Itâs loud enough to distract the man, to get him away from that girl as he rushed from the room under the floor, locking the locks and coming out. Looking around wildly for the source of the sound.
Azriel winnows, leaning against the wagon the man had been loading before, whistling to get the man attention. He whirls around, black eyes narrowed in anger, freezing in place when they land on him.
âShadowsinger?â He grunts, narrowing his eyes at Azriel. âWhat brings you to these parts?â
Azriel looks him over, the smell of shit, piss and rot was overwhelming even from this distance.
âVale,â Azriel says, to let the male know he knows who he is, rightfully see the fear in his eyes. âIâm looking for something and I hear youâre the one to help me.â
âI ainât got nothing you need, pretty boy,â Vale sneers, crossing his arms, looking Azriel over. Trying to come off as tough but itâs actually laugh-able.
âAre you sure?â Azriel asks, pushing off the wagon. Letting his wings spread wide, walking closer, towering over the male. âSee, Iâve got this female telling me you bought her from her dad and sold her to a pleasure house. I mean, tell me Iâm wrong, man. Iâve just gotta check on these things. Itâs a pretty serious accusation and all.â
âThat chickâs got the wrong guy. I would never do something like that. These bitches are always trying to get us males in trouble,â Vale said, seeming to relax. Big mistake.
âYou think so? Just tell me if you know her man. About this tall, really pretty, tan skin, white hair. Wings.â Azriel growls the last word, the manâs eyes widening again, taking a step back.
âLook, man, itâs not like that. Her dad owed me money, so he gave me her instead cause he couldnât afford to pay me back, okay? So I didnât technically buy her,â He stammered out, trying to explain himself.
âOh,â Azriel said, nodding his head. âWell, I mean, if you didnât technically buy her then no law was broken.â
âThatâs right!â The male nods, sighing in relief. âNo law was broken, man. I wouldnâtâI wouldnât do thatââ
âYeah. I get it,â Azriel nods, shifting. Looking towards the building, then back to the low life in front of him. âAnd that female inside? Did you buy her? Is she here of her own free will allowing you to rape her daily?â
âFuck,â Vale whispers, turning and running down the cobble stone road. Azriel stands there watching, a grin stretching his lips as he lets the male think heâs getting away.
âSend Morrigan,â He calls out to Rhys as he watches the male.
âSheâs coming.â
Then he's gone again, just as Vale looks over his shoulder to try and spot him, only to smack hard into a body that came out of nowhere. He looks at the shadowsinger towering over him, swallowing thickly.
âWhat do you want from me?â The male nearly cried out as Azriel grabbed him and pulled him up, slamming his face first into a stone wall. The resounding crunch of his nose breaking is ever satisfying.
âHer name is Cassandra,â Azriel snarls into the man's ear. âShe told us what you did to her. What you did to that female you have locked in that disgusting building. We know thereâs more girls. We will find them all and when we do, Iâll let each one take a turn with you. Their weapon of choice. And youâll feel exactly what they felt.â
âPle-please. Please, just kill me,â The man begged, fighting in Azrielâs grasp but he was no match for Azrielâs strength.
âAnd what kind of justice would that be? Did you stop when those girls begged you to? Did you give them death with they would have preferred that over you using their bodies?â Azriel asked, scenting the smell of urine as the man pissed himself. âYou deserve everything youâve got coming to you.â
Before the pathetic excuse of a male could beg or plead any more Azriel grabbed the back of his head, smashing it into the wall, letting him fall unconscious to the ground. He left him there binded and hidden by shadows, stalking back to the building where he spotted Morrigan easily.
âDonât tell me this is where heâs been keeping those poor girl?â She asked when she spotted him approaching.
âUnfortunately, I think it is. She said under his house but he could live here. Iâll question him more. I know thereâs at least one female inside,â Azriel explained, guiding Morrigan into the building. Be could get the female on his own but he knew it was safer to have a female companionâafter all theyâd been through the least he could do was make sure a female was the one to comfort them.
They get to that basement floor, unlocking the various locks and pulling the hatch open. Itâs as dark and dingy down here as it was in the rest of the building. Morrigan enters first, taking Azrielâs hand to steady herself on the old wobbly stairs.
âYour wings wonât fit down here,â She said, hushed. He nods at her. âSend a shadow if I call for help.â Itâs said jokingly but he knows sheâs serious. Heâd rip the floor from this building to help her if she needed it.
Mor squinted her eyes in the dimness of the sellar, resisting the urge to plug her nose from the horrid smell.
âHello? Is anyone down here?â She calls out, looking up from at Azriel when thereâs no reply. âHello, my name is Morrigan. I work for the High Lord. The male keeping you here isââ
Morriganâs cut off when I body slams into hers, knocking her to the ground. She cries out in surprise when a sharp sting slices across her cheek.
âStop, hey, stop! Iâm here to help!â Mor calls out, trying to catch the hands of the female fae on top of her.
âMor!â Azrielâs deep voice calls.
âIâve got it!â Mor calls back, grabbing the girls wrists. âPlease, stop! Vale is gone! He canât hurt you, please, stop!â
The girl stops fighting then still tense where sheâs straddling Morriganâs middle section.
âHeâs gone?â She whispers and Mor nods.
âYes, heâs gone. He canât hurt you any more. I swear,â She promises. Eyes finally able to take in the sight before her.
A fragile, naked, malnourished body sits atop her. Eyes not only shut but scarred as if theyâd been cutâmaybe by the same person that took Cassandraâs tongue. But what really got Morrigan, what had her ready to lose the contents of her stomach was the rounded belly attached to that nearly skeleton body. Her eyes welled and she helped the female to shift off of her body.
âAre you pregnant?â Mor whispers, trying to keep her voice from breaking as the female nods.
âPlease, donât let him take this one too,â She cries, reaching out to find Morriganâs hand, squeezing it tightly. âPromise me I get to keep my baby.â
âI promise, no one is going to take your baby away from you,â Morgan swears, a single tear falling down her cheek. âWhatâs your name, sweet girl?â
âNeema, my name is Neema,â She answers and Mors eyes widen. The girl Cassandra told them about.
âYou and your baby are safe, Neema. Weâre gonna take you away from here, okay?â Morrigan says, standing and helping the pregnant female stand as well.
âI have my friend Azriel here too, he will not touch you, heâs only here to make sure no further harm comes to you. Heâs handing me a cloak for you to wear,â Morrigan explains so the female doesnât feel uncomfortable. She nods, allowing Mor to wrap the cloak around her.
âAre there any other females here?â Azriel asks gently, wishing he hadnât with the way she clenched at the deep mess of it.
âNotânot that I know of. The females come and go. Thereâs been no others for monthsâŠâ Neema answers, grasping the fabric tighter around her body.
Azriel and Mor share a look the last females had to have been Cassandra and the other two she mentioned.
âIâll stay and check the building before I head back,â Azriel informed, consciously softening his voice so as not to scare the female again.
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Morrigan winnows away with Neema and Azriel searches every inch of the building with his shadows. No signs of any other females. He leaves the building, needing to relieve himself of the horrible stench.
He retrieves the still bound and unconscious male, winnowing him to his dungeon. He strips him, places a gag in his mouth, dumps him into a chair and binds him to it. He would be dealt with later.
The sun would be rising soon and he wanted to be there when they informed Cassandra they found the male and the femaleâher friend?
He enters Rhys' study, Cassian and Mor there too.
âHow is she?â He asks, glancing at Morrigan then his brother.
âResting,â Rhys answers. âMadja looked her over. Thankfully the baby seems healthy, Madjaâs main concern is getting Neema to gain some weight and begin healing herself.â
âWe offered her to live amongst the priestesses in the library, she agreed,â Morrigan said, her brown eyes bloodshot and cheeks flushed.
âGood, thatâs all good, theyâll help her heal,â Azriel nods his head crossing his arms. âI have the male in my dungeon.â
âHave you gotten any information out of him?â Rhys asks, standing from his desk.
âNot much. He admitted to knowing who Cassandra was, receiving her from her father and holding her. He never admitted to selling her but that information wonât be hard to get out of him,â Azriel explains and Rhys nods in agreement.
âYou get whatever information you can out of him and then heâs dead,â Rhys orders, Azriel doesnât need to confirm he already knew what Rhys decision would be.
âAre we telling Cassandra?â Cassian asks, the first words heâs said the whole time.
âWe are. She needs to know heâs here, it may bring her some comfort knowing heâs locked away and Neema is safe. I think you should be the one to talk to her, Azriel,â Rhy says, turning his attention to the shadow singer.
âMe? Not Mor?â Azriel asked, a bit confused.
âYes, you. Sheâs comfortable with you. Youâre the one that apprehended him. I believe she would prefer to hear it from you,â Rhys nods.
âOkay, I can do that,â Azriel agreed.
âYou handle that, Iâve got some business to attend to with the priestesses. Weâll all meet up in a few hours to discuss further action.â Rhys stepped around his desk, patting Azrielâs shoulder when he passed by him.
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An hour goes by before Azriel tracks Cassandra down. Finding her in the library, flipping through a book where sheâs sat in the large window seat that overlooked the city below. A steaming cup of tea next to her.
âI thought you couldnât read?â Azriel asks, leaning against the door frame, grinning when those green eyes meet his.
âI canât. Iâm looking at the pictures,â She said, holding up the book, some romance book from the looks of the two people in a colorful garden.
âAh,â Azriel says, walking further into the room. Trying not to focus on the way her eyes track up and down his body the closer he gets. He holds his hand out for the book, flipping it over the read the title, snorting at it. âSecret Garden Romance, huh?â
She shrugs, taking the book back.
âI asked the house for a book with a lot of pictures, this is what I got,â She said, a small sweet breathy laugh escaped her lips and he couldnât help his own smile.
âDid you end up getting some sleep?â He asks, watching her set the book down and grab the warm mug.
âI slept but not great,â She shrugs. âI canât stop thinking about my sisters.â
âWeâre gonna do everything we can to find them, I promise you that,â Azriel said, not even waiting for a beat. He would find her sisters and heâd beat the shit out of her father too.
âYou know I took my older sister's place. It was supposed to be her he sold off but the way she had cried when he told her. I couldnât let him do that to her so I told him to take meâŠI didnât really know what he meant when he was selling me. I thought Iâd be a servant like the ones we had when I was a kid or something. I never thoughtâŠâ She trailed off, taking a deep breath.
âYouâre not to blame for what happened to you. You were protecting your sister. You did a very selfless thing. You're safe now and your sisters will be, too,â Azriel said, resting his elbows on his knees as he leaned towards her.
âWell, what about you?â Cassandra asked, gently changing the subject. âDid you ever get any sleep?â
Azriel sighed with a head shake. âNo, actually. Thatâs kind of why I came to talk to you.â
Cassandra fixed him with a curious look, leaning forward as if to give him her full attention for whatever he needed to say. He looked into those glowing green eyes, filled with curious concern.
âWe found that male. Vale. We found him,â Azriel said, watching the vast range of emotions flash through those emerald eyes.
âHeâs here?â Is what she asks, fear tinging her voice. Azriel straightens his back.
âHe will not touch you,â he declared, holding her gaze. âHe wonât even come near you.â
Iâll fucking kill him if he does. He thinks but doesnât add it out loud.
âHe canât get out ofâŠwherever he is?â She asks, and he wants to reach out so badly to comfort her. The ache in his chest drawing him to her.
âNo. Heâs being held in a very secure place. I promise youâre safe here. Youâre safe with us.â Azriel promises. Youâre safe with me.
âWere there any females with him?â She asks and Azriel nods.
âThe girl you told us about, Neema. She was the only one thereâit had been only her for months.â
He watches as her eyes fill with tears, offering his hand for her to hold. She takes it, thumb tracing his scars unconsciously.
âJust herâŠalone with him for months. Gods, is sheâŠI feel like okay isnât the right word for what I want to ask,â She says, sadness written all over her face.
âShe will be okay,â Azriel said. âSheâs in bad shape. Pregnant, malnourished but we have an amazing healer and a library below the mountain. Many priestesses live there. Many of them have experienced similar traumas. Theyâll help her heal.â
She looked thoughtful for a moment. He wasnât sure what was going through her head as she sat there silently, grasping his hand and tracing his scars.
âI want him to die.â Itâs fierce. Heated. Emotional. And it does something to Azrielâs heart, to his brain. He squeezes her hand. âI want him to feel everything we felt. To know the fear he put us through. I want him to suffer and then I want him to die.â
âHe will die. I swear to the Mother. Iâll get every drop of information from him and when itâs time his death will be painful and slow,â Azriel swore, gently swiping a tear from her cheek.
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The next day is a day Cassandra would remember forever. She hadn't slept much the night before but Morrigan had practically begged her to have lunch.
Cassandra wasnât entirely sure she was ready for a day out in the city but she felt safe with Morrigan. She nearly asked if Azriel could come too until she learned he would be spending the day collecting information from Kamari and Vale.
Morrigan picked out her outfit for the day and it was one of her favorites sheâs worn since being here. A flowy silk top that tucked into a dark pair of slacks that raised high on my hips. They emphasized her longer legs in a way she had never noticed before. She had also pinned Cassandraâs hair up and out of her face.
She liked the way Azriel smiled at her when he saw her dressed this way. She blushed but was quickly rushed away by Morrigan, shouting something about wanting you to herself for the day for girl time.
Their first stop was a place she called the River House. A beautiful home that her mother would have loved. Morrigan had only had them stop here briefly to grab a few tote bags, wanting to shop while they were out but promised to bring her back and give her a proper tour of the house.
The city was even more beautiful when you were in it. The sun was shining bright in an endless blue sky. Better than any dreams she had ever had about it.
They went to bakeries, where Cassandra single handedly filled half a tote with various pastries.
Then a clothing shop where Morrigan helped her pick out some new clothes. A few everyday pieces. A gorgeous gown she wasnât sure where she would wear it but Morrigan swore she would need it sooner or later. And then the softest, satin, dark blue nightgownâit had reminded her of the stones that glowed atop Azrielâs hands. Morrigan herself had picked out quite a few outfits and gowns of her own and a lace set that looked like something the girls in the pleasure houses would wear but she paid no mind to itâshe was sure it would look gorgeous on Morrigan wherever she planned to wear it to.
Then they went to a place near the river for lunch, the glistening river was the perfect view while they ate.
âDo you feel like youâre settling in okay?â Morrigan asked, sipping on some kind of iced fruit tea while they waited for their food.
âIâm stillâŠadjusting. I enjoy the company of everyone. I feel like I can trust you all. Itâs just odd.â Cassandra says, taking a drink of her tea that was just slightly too sweet but she wasnât complaining.
âWhatâs odd?â Morrigan asks gently.
âTrusting strangers more than Iâve ever trusted anyone else,â She says it like a confession, like she should be ashamed for feeling that way.
âI donât think thatâs odd,â Morrigan shrugged. âYouâre around people like you, people you can relate to and get to know. Itâs easy to feel safe with us in turn, causing your trust. Thereâs nothing wrong with that.â
Cassandra smiles at Morrigan.
Their food comes soon after and they talk the whole time. Morrigan gives her the rundown of how Rhys, Azriel and Cassian all knew one another. She explained more about their titles and what each one of them did as a member of the inner circle. She told her about so much that Cassandra could believe sheâd spent her whole live knowing practically none of it.
When they go to a bookstore Cassandra looks at a few before putting them back. Morrigan grabs them and tells her theyâll teach her to readâthat sheâll love these books and so many more.
And when they finally get back to the House of a Wind itâs late. She's exhausted from carrying around nearly overflowing tote bags and eating more muffins then she can count.
A top the house where they have to land theyâre greeted by the three males. Their solemn faces wiping the smile off your face. She caught Azrielâs eyes, sees the look of pure death thereâa look that she just knows means he wants to kill someone.
And just like that, her perfect day with Morrigan took a turn straight down hill.
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#azriel playing games with that male in the beginning lives rent free in my head#I just know he enjoys fucking with guys like that#thinking they could be all buddy buddy making them feel safe then bam he fucks them up#az and Cassandra got a bit of bonding in#as did Cassandra and Morrigan#besties for the resties#acotar#azriel#azriel fanfic#azriel x reader#acotar fanfiction#slow burn
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