#emotionalflashback

[wisterianwoman]

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The experience of an emotional flashback can be disorienting and distressing. Recognizing that a flashback is happening and grounding yourself through the experience can help alleviate some of the pain and fear.

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[pokingholes-cptsdwarrior]

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[auti-things]

To the lady in walmart:

I didn't know I was in your way. In fact, I was doing my best to be out of the way while I had to watch the cart for my mother. If you needed something, and I was blocking it, you should have said "excuse me" and asked me to move. Instead, you rudely (and loudly) stated "ugh. Some people are just so oblivious to their surroundings" as you walked past. You probably didn't know it, but I'm autistic. I also often have intense emotional flashbacks (one of which I was already having and it was intensified by your actions). I really wish you had clearly communicated your need to me. It would have been more helpful and productive for us both.

[spoiledmilkkkk]

Two years ago I was so angry I couldn’t get out of bed.

Seriously.

It only took one thought to get the dominos tumbling of every reason why I deserved to feel wronged, manipulated, and frankly abused.

I didn’t like the person this was making me. I couldn’t keep food down, I couldn’t get out of bed..I couldn’t even ride my bike. I shamed myself for not being softer, for holding grudges, etc.

I didn’t realize that I wasn’t responding this way because I was choosing bitterness, but these were symptoms of unprocessed trauma. The monster I have been dealing with were not my own character flaws, but excessive rumination (which I later learned was a symptom of C-PTSD.) .

C-PTSD to me is a giant labyrinth. I am constantly bombarded with feelings of fight or flight, having to retrace my thoughts back to the catalyst event, and then decide whether or not my emotions are appropriate for the situation. I didn’t realize that when I wrote this song with a tango undertone, I was drawing on this cyclic mental dance I would do literally any time a trigger would toss me into a flashback. This song gave me hope because it’s less about being stuck in a mental Labyrinth and more about the empowering shift of “I could get out of here.” .

It’s a journey. Healing isn’t linear. I hope this insight allows the song to fully open up to you 🌟

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My lyric video is on YouTube🖤

[danika-alice]

Can you tell today has been a rollercoaster? In the first photo I’m hopeful, excited, anxious etc That was this morning and it was before I left my flat to the chaos of the outside world. The other pictures are me at 11pm doing something to distract myself from the emotional flashbacks. I don’t really want to talk about the details of my day, it’s been pretty full on and I need time to process. As hard as today has been, I chose to shave my hair at 11pm instead of relapsing, instead of harming myself and I’m proud. I’m proud of how I handled today Today was a lot, but I stepped up to the mark and took it on head first and somehow held it together. Other things I do instead of self harm include hot baths with Epsom salts, dying my hair, tidying, listening to happy music, running ice over my skin etc Sometimes it isn’t enough, sometimes relapse happens and that’s okay, you just have to make sure you stand up again and look tomorrow in the face and make it your bitch! 🌟 #selfharm #relapse #struggling #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #chronicallyinvisible #depressionlookslikethis #mentalillnessawareness #cptsd #ptsd #emotionalflashback #chronicpain https://www.instagram.com/p/BqJHOWSnmKQ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=i0qutseodij5

[andrea-turros]

11/Agosto/2014 - The Best Birthday Ever Termas de Cacheuta #flashback #flashbacks #flashbackpic #flackback📸 #flashbackphotos #emotionalflashbacks #emotionalflashback #flashbackphotography #flashbackphoto #memories #instamemory #instamoment #instagood #mebackintime💘 #thisismebackintime (at Mendoza, Argentina) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNA2RdTJMmE/?igshid=126s7bavvzxv4

[rfarrokh]

Emotional eating is a real thing❣️ looking at the emotions surrounding the food 🤟🏼😉❤️ #emotionaleatingrecovery #emotionaleintelligenz #emotionaleater #emotionaleatingsupport #emotionaleatingexpert #emotionalabuse #emotionallyunavailable #emotionallydrained #emotionalflashbacks #emotionalintelligence #emotionalintelligence #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisordersupport #eatingmyfeelings #eatingmyemotions #rachaelsroadtorecovery #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #bingeeating #bingeeatingrecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #bingeeatinghelp #bingeeatingsupport #bingeeatingsurvivor #bingerecovery #binger #overeatingrecovery #overeating #malnourished #eatingbetter #eatingforhealth #eatingforlife https://www.instagram.com/p/CQnRIdnpIY5/?utm_medium=tumblr

[srnevergivesup]

Feeling things clearly for the first time in awhile

Two weeks ago, a friendship ended. I went to two dates with this man and then we came to the conclusion that friendship was better. I was a bit disappointed and , as usual. it took me some time to grieve. I had to accept that I grieve more intensely than others.

It became really clear soon that he wasn't available for a friendship either... I tried to arrange to meet him with our friends or even for a one to one. He was busy. He was always busy. Then I had the courage to be honest by letting him know it seemed to me we coudn't even be friends. His response was "Don't take it personally but..." He doesn't have time...

I got in touch with my closest friends. I was sad. The first thought that came into my mind was "What is wrong with me? Was I too pushy?" I fought back by telling myself there is nothing wrong with me!!! My friends agreed. Why the hell do I always think it is my fault? Why do I take it so hard, it is not like we knew wach other that well. My adult self understood it was "just" a connection that didn't work out!! Why do I take it so personnally?

One of my friends actually told not to take it personnally. I answered: "Yes, I know it isn't all about me but it is happening to me right now!!"

Of course, it all comes back to my childhood, as it always does. I grew up being rejected, abandonned and abused. I was told (and believed) it was my fault: there was something wrong with me. For the little girl within me, what has just happened with this "friend" was yet another rejection. If there is a rejection it means to her that there is something wrong with her. I was right in the middle of emotional flashbacks. When I realised that, it was easier for me to sit with my Inner Child and to validate her emotions.

I chanted about this. The next day, I came across a website: www.emergingfromthebroken.com by Darlene Ouimet. I read few of her entries. Darlene articulates clearly a few points that I found so hard to explain even to myself let alone anybody else. It is like the fog has starting lifting.

Here are a few things that I now understand with my head and with my heart:

There is nothing wrong with me and there never was! The abuse I was subjected to was what was wrong!! I wasn't the problem, my abuser's behaviour was the problem!!

It isn't that I am too much: if I am too much for some people, they aren't my people. I am not going to feel ashamed for being this caring and loving woman that I am.

Of course I wanted to be loved so much. Every child needs love to grow up happy and healthy. Of course I want to be loved in a special way, I never had any love as a child.

I spend so many years in therapy trying to fix myself when there was is nothing to fix!! I am not to be fixed = my mental health issues are an effect of the abuse not a symptom that there is something wrong with me. (I believe all these years in therapy weren't a waste of time. Therapy really helped and was needed. I am referring of going there feeling there was something wrong with me and that I needed fixing) I need support, yes, I don't need to be someone's project. MY MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES ARE THE EFFECT FROM THE ABUSE, NOT A SIGN THAT I AM A BAD PERSON. THESE ISSUES ARE A NORMAL REACTION TO MY PAST TRAUMA. THEY AREN'T DISORDERS as they like to call them.

It isn't that my expections are too high, it is that my needs were never met. A friend told me, maybe not to have expections at all as not to be disappointed. I remember trying to do just that before, but, it never made sense to me... I was the one who happily welcomed crums that the men in my life gave me. I was so understanding I took it too far. I think, for me it is actually about having higher expections in terms of respect, honest, love and care; especially respect and honesty... The latest are important in any relationships.

I don't have to be grateful for my past. Abuse is nothing to feel grateful about. I was/ am strong despite of it not because of it.

I went back to my Buddhsit altar and chanted strongly about all of those things - I want to call them my truths. I feel a shift within me. I feel my heart opening a bit more. I also feel restless and a bit overwhelmed. I have a quiet week ahead of me so I am going to use it to rest.

Check out: www.emergingfromthebroken.com

Sylvie

[pokingholes-cptsdwarrior]

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Recognizing when we’re triggered and being self-compassionate can help us regulate our emotions enough to see if what we perceive to be a threat is actually a threat. Sometimes it’s a current threat that requires a healthy response (such as boundaries) and other times it’s a misunderstanding that feels way too similar to a previous painful experience. Either way, self-compassion can help support us while we sort it out. ❤️ . . . #emotionregulation #dbtskills #dbttherapy #dbt #ptsdsupport #traumarecovery #traumahealing #healingtrauma #emotionalhealth #regulatingemotions #healthyboundaries #selfcompassion #selfcompassionjourney #cyclebreakers #innerchildhealing https://www.instagram.com/p/CPpNr4dD3He/?utm_medium=tumblr

[danika-alice]

Tonight I was on a train home from seeing my other half, I was pretty content listening to music. When the album I was listening to came to an end all I could hear were voices screaming, I instantly tensed up. I felt the tightness in my chest, that familiar pain in my entire body, that ache that runs through me, that deep rooted stillness. Frozen and mind racing Tears welling up Nausea punching me in the stomach Why do I feel like this? I don’t know these people, I don’t know what’s happening. But their voices, loud, angry, brash, stern Cut through me. In therapy when I explain stuff like this, my therapists asks “how old did/do you feel” Younger, always younger. More vulnerable, more anxious. Emotional flashbacks exist, I have complex ptsd which can cause the typical visual flashbacks which I also experience and emotional flashbacks which I experience the most. It was like I had travelled back in time, to my younger self, dying for the screaming, shouting and violence to end. Sometimes the world is too much for me, I’m overwhelmed and very tearful tonight. The only thing making me feel safe and comfortable right now is the t shirt I came home to, as much as I am struggling right now this is my reminder that I am a warrior, a warrior who is allowed to feel like this. Thank you @warriorteesuk 💖❤️ #flashback #complexptsd #emotionalflashback #violence #screaming #pain #nausea #mentalhealth #mentallyill #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #warrior #warriorteesuk #wearewarriors #1in4 #itsokaynottobeokay #triggers #bpd #anxietyattack #depression #anxiouslyawesome #keepgoing #iamworthy

[write-ugly]

#originalpoetry #poetry #poems #poet #poetrycorner #poetryofig #poetrycommunity #writingcommunity #writersofinstagram #spilledink #writeugly #criesofpen #soulsofpoets  #bleedingsoulpoetry #CPTSD/PTSD #CPTSD #survivor #thriving #christiansurvivor #cptsdrecovery #cptsdawareness #cptsdwarrior #cry #tears #crying #mencrytoo #flashbacks #emotionalflashback #trauma #traumaresults https://www.instagram.com/p/B9V_pwQlnne/?igshid=iay14kpg82ty

[traumaanddissociation]

Failure is another emotion I cannot stand to feel, because in adult life I have conditioned myself not to fail at anything. Failure takes me straight back to the feelings of worthlessness I grew up with as a stammering, reclusive little boy. ― Jake Wood, Among You: The Extraordinary True Story of a Soldier Broken By War #fearoffailure #jakewood #amongyou #veteran #worthlessness #emotionalflashback #childhoodmemories #stammer #mentalhealth #emotionalpain #emotions #difficultemotions #emotions https://www.facebook.com/TraumaAndDissociation/photos/a.357820054319427.1073741828.357814604319972/1096545507113541/?type=3

[danika-alice]

Right now I’m battling with a depressive episode. I don’t know if this will last minutes, days, weeks, I never know. I’m currently battling my own mind. I’m reaching out because I want to isolate myself, I know reaching out is better than shutting myself off now. I’m struggling with suicidal thoughts so badly today, the pain I’m physically feeling right now in my stomach and chest feels like the most intense grief I’ve ever felt but it feels so so familiar. My head hurts, my eyes hurt, my entire being hurts today and I can’t hold it together. I was so happy earlier, I was tackling my self care, I was feeling positive and relaxed and now I’ve shattered. This is what it’s like to live with borderline personality disorder and complex trauma, I never know what my emotions are going to do from one minute to the next. Some may have options on taking photos and videos whilst these symptoms are present but honestly how else are we supposed to educate and try and get people to understand just how turbulent it is to live with mental illness?! This is a regular occurrence for me, this is part of my recovery also. I’m fighting so hard not to listen to intrusive thoughts, I’m fighting to stay alive constantly. Some days are just too much, some days I just can’t hold all the pieces together. Today I have unraveled and it’s killing me right now. I need some support, I’m learning to reach out and ask for help do here I am. I need some kind words, I need something to help keep me going today. #suicidalideation #faceofdepression #suicidalthoughts #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #complextrauma #complexptsd #emotionalflashback #overwhelmed #grief #pain #mentalillness #tryingtosurvive #learningtolovemyself #reachingout #mentallyill #emotionaldysregulation #isolation #depression #exhausted #depressiveepisode #bpd #bpdlife #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #bpdwarrior #bpdsupport #personalitydisorder #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthwarrior #tryingtostayalive

[andrea-turros]

11/Agosto/2014 - The Best Birthday Ever Termas de Cacheuta #flashback #flashbacks #flashbackpic #flackback📸 #flashbackphotos #emotionalflashbacks #emotionalflashback #flashbackphotography #flashbackphoto #memories #instamemory #instamoment #instagood #mebackintime💘 #thisismebackintime (at Mendoza, Argentina) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNA2IZDp7KG/?igshid=1sz2ttifdyfz7

[drekingreen]

Understanding and Coping with Emotional Flashbacks #MemoryandPerception #PTSD #Trauma #emotionalflashbacks

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[pokingholes-cptsdwarrior]

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