#don't they go by in a blink

[etoiline]

Happy December, everybody!

For those of you following along at home, this November was my 20th NaNoWriMo, and because I've been utterly obsessed with the Jedi Survivor video game, I decided to do something a little different and write not only something original (it's Not A Star War, I swear) but also some Spyscrapper fanfic. I ended up writing over 60,000 words combined, 23k of which I threw up on AO3 and ran away.

(So I got to not only win NaNoWriMo, but I also completed my super secret second goal for the month, which was to start and FINISH the fanfic)

So here, have my very first post on AO3 and my first fanfic since the Roswell fix-it I wrote in 2002. It's pretty different from what I usually write, so it was a little uncomfortable to do! But stretching your creativity is good, right?

What if Cal and Bode switch bodies just before the events of Nova Garon? Presenting what if I had your heart, what if you wore my scars.

Massive thanks to the Spyscrapper Discord for sprinting along with me (this wouldn't have become a thing without y'all), and super duper mega thanks to @voidcat-senket for cheerleading. Absolutely no points to @freaoscanlin for being there since the beginning of my NaNo journey and leaving me hanging this time for perfectly acceptable reasons. Now I have an AO3 post. Happy?

[autisticrosewilson]

I'm actually not over the person last week who got in the notes of my "stopping the drug trade completely all at once would actually be very bad for addicts, so getting pissy at Jason is silly" post and said with their whole chest some variation of "Ah HA so he took drugs away from CHILDREN just admit you have a weird version of Jason in your head" like. I mean, I guess if you really want to, you could be mad that he didn't give children who were already addicted the proper support. And we can get into the difference between addiction in children vs. Adults and I can give you my real actual anecdotes about patterns I've noticed with these situations. But I am like 89% sure that you do not care about the reality of addiction or actual addicts. You just want to hate a fictional character. And like. Go ahead and do that, but it's really embarrassing for you to advertise your lack of knowledge so loudly.

[lightgamble]

DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.09

You asked me for a favor. I did it.

[red-hot-kick]

I packed up Yusuke and Ryuji, and took them on a little field trip with some friends! We went to a bunch of museums and walked a few trails.

We also were lucky enough to catch some of the cherry blossoms that were still in the area, too!

[a-most-beloved-fool]

as much as I'm a fan of the idea of Kirk spending all of TOS ardently wooing and/or pining after Spock, I have to admit that I'm also kind of in love with the idea of him being entirely unaware of his affections -- right up until the moment that Spock is gone, seemingly for good. It works very well pre-TMP, when Spock has left for Gol, but it's especially heartrending during TWOK, after the warp core.

Kirk is slumped against the glass, still pressed to where Spock lay on the other side, as close to him as he could get. He looks as though he's trying to melt through its surface, as though if he simply tries hard enough he'll be able to touch Spock once again, warm and alive - but the wall remains there, and Spock's flesh remains cold and unmoving. When McCoy goes to pull him away, to take him somewhere warmer and quieter and far away from the corpse of his dead friend, Kirk doesn't stand, doesn't pull himself away from Spock. Instead, he looks up at McCoy with wide, desperate eyes, face pallid and cheeks damp, and says, "Bones...? How long have I been in love with him?"

McCoy has never heard him sound so broken, so fragile. He pulls him into his arms, then, and he can't quite manage to say anything except oh, Jim..., because how can he possibly explain that it's been true since the very beginning? How can he tell Kirk just how much time he would have had, if he had only been able to see?

[recent-rose]

yknowwww there is something... deeply uncomfortable about the way mel never speaks directly to viktor in the 'build hextech weapons' scene. she really only speaks to jayce. plenty of people have pointed this out already but like the one scene they actually share a meaningful interaction and she treats him like he's beneath her. all this after jayce has emphasized how important viktor is, that hextech is theirs, together. she unequivocally ices him out, there's no other way to interpret this scene. the way it's shot too - from viktor's perspective, looking up at her, as though to reinforce the same belief in him. like he doesn't even bother expecting respect from her - or anyone from the upper echelon of piltover. he's fully accustomed to being dehumanized by everyone around him at this point. sometimes even by jayce, despite the trust they clearly have in each other.

then of course after this scene is viktor experimenting on himself. it's pretty clear that he has internalized his own dehumanization. crazy.

[fisheito]

before mirage of scales: I NEED YAKUYA EVENT

after mirage of scales: ah. um. i . i don't need yakuya event so much, anymo.re... hah..a...

[birbleafs]

"We usually keep a few packs of coffee beans at home" They are so disgustingly domestic, they don't even bother hiding it anymore lmfaoo

and AAJJSJAKDJSHS KAVETHAM COFFEE BEAN SHOPPING (HOUSE CHORES??) ROSTER... I guess that's a shopping list Alhaitham is holding while he purchases the coffee beans from Puspa Cafe. I imagine Kaveh must have made a loooong list of requirements of the beans he thinks they would enjoy based on taste, smell, etc. He probably also included some other extra groceries he’d want Haitham to buy from the bazaar too. The fact that it's somewhat implied they now take turns buying necessities for the house, and possibly also share the house chores together (as opposed to Kaveh wanting to shoulder all of it at first because he'd felt guilty and that he'd owed Alhaitham for taking him in at his lowest point in life).... Something about these minute details of routine mundanity and the subtle shift in their dynamics to something more balanced and equal, that speaks volumes of their shared comfort and companionship really rejuvenates my dead fossil heart. I HATE/LOVE them lol.

And I absolutely love how Alhaitham can sass Kaveh for his late-night workaholic over-reliance on coffee while still being point-blank about their mundane domesticity and shared grocery-shopping duties in a single breath like it's NO big deal... Just the Sumeroommies roommating....

I haven't really checked, so I'm not too sure how the lines are written in CN/JP/KR since those languages can skip (obvious) pronouns altogether and the context would still be understood. But it's nice to see the EN translators going with "We" and "home" here because it gives us yet another sense of the subtle changes in Kaveh and Alhaitham's companionship now. Alhaitham is a very strong-willed person who tends to favour the use of "I", and people's individuality and agency first, so seeing him explicitly use "We" and "home" now—which aligns with how Kaveh uses it often too when he refers to both of them together—just feels so heartwarming and so very earned :")

[genuflecting]

this feels like Christmas Eve but for gay affirming media deprived adults

[etoiline]

Saw The Marvels today and loved it. Haven't laughed that much (in happiness) at a movie in theaters in a long time. Parts made me so giddy I was actually kicking my feet in geeky joy.

Then I reached 25k+ on my 2023 NaNoWriMo projects (yes, I'm writing two this time around, something "original"--it's Not A Star War--and a Jedi Survivor fanfic because I've fallen *hard* for that ginger Jedi), which may be the fastest I've ever reached the "halfway point" in my 20 years of doing NaNo. Clearly when you like what you're writing the words come faster...

Today was a pretty good day. And tomorrow I stream for the One Hundred Hours of Writing, so here's hoping that goes well too.

[simptasia]

thinking about how the temperature and humidity on cardassia can get so severe that it enters into This Could Kill Julian territory. so perhaps julian takes the summer months off to stay inside with the environmental controls set to human comfy

and of course i mean, garak literally won't let him leave their house

[alllelements]

If you hold your hand between the closing doors of a train in Frankfurt, the doors will barely touch you before they jump open again, apologetically waiting for you to clear the area.

In Berlin, the doors will viscously clamp down on you and you will beg for mercy while fighting with all your strength to free yourself but they don't give an inch, you don't even care anymore if you land inside or back on the plattform, you're praying the train doesn't leave while you're stuck in purgatory having the life squeezed out of you and all the while the people in the train stare at you without mercy in their eyes

[c2-eh]

Carlos and Charles in Don't Blink EP3 Season 4

[sunlitlemonade]

i want to write jason & natalia but head so scattered.....

[see-arcane]

This part focuses on Quincey in particular instead of everyone, "Quincey raised his eyebrows slightly and looked at her intently", and I wonder if it connects with what he had said before: "And I promise you, too, that I shall make all certain, for if I am only doubtful I shall take it that the time has come!" Because Quincey is the one who always clocks on the situation at hand first, and patrols for threats (and if he spots one he shoots first asks questions later)

He does clock things very fast and takes action just as quickly. When he's facing the right way.

But in this scene, our favorite Texan isn't looking the right way or even reacting safely as much as he is quick about it. Even if his reaction was entirely innocent surprise, the fact that he made clear how ready he was to serve Mina's euthanasia request--seemingly with more readiness than even Dr. Jack Malpractice who must 'steel' himself to the idea--has absolutely stuck in Jonathan's mind.

Hence Jonathan death gripping the kukri as Quincey gets (to his eyes) the wrong kind of interested.

The whole story could have gone very nasty very fast if Mr. 'You've yeed your last haw' Morris had made a wrong move at that moment.

[swordscleric]

I think as a result of their indecision, general dithering on every possible decision and inability to provide a single sliver of rationale behind the actions they have taken, I personally don't think we can judge Bell's Hells on whether or not their decisions are moral or not. Have they wishy-washily and passively avoided every hard question that could have been asked of them? Yes; but that speaks to a lack of interesting ideas and a lack of curiosity on their collective behalf in dealing with the scenarios set before them. I think if we judge them on anything it is the consequences of their actions (or inaction). Realistically, I reckon (depending on how releasing Predathos goes) they will be treated in a similar way to how someone like Vespin Chloras was treated by history - a damned fool whose actions lead to the annihilation of civilisations, the destruction of millions of lives and as such has been (rightfully!) condemned by Exandrian history as one of its greatest villains. Our softening of our view as a fandom on Vespin comes from his editing of Zerxus' pact to save the world from the rage of the Primordials. I think his actions, typical of the Age of Arcanum, echo Ludinus' fatal ideological folly in assuming that they would lead to prosperity due to a change in the divine structures of Exandria; Bell's Hells, having followed Ludinus' plan to the letter, now risk becoming as big of villains as Vespin Chloras for even worse reasons - a total lack of imagination and a deep unwillingness to engage with any hard question that would force them to face their lack of interiority as a party.