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swearyshera · 1 year

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#sweary she-ra #shera #spop #spopedit #adora #catra #5x06 #Depression feels

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softsweetwhispers · 1 year

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i. you almost got me that time. i almost had it. which isn't to say it would've been your fault, because it wouldn't have been, but when you talked about how easy swallowing all the ibuprofen in your backpack would be, i couldn't stop thinking about it. i thought about it all fourth period because it actually made sense.

ii. i was counting all the ways i could kill myself in second because today was a bad day, thinking rope, bathtub, blood. thinking i couldn't reasonably do any of those because i have obligations and siblings and responsibilities and - it's all very exhausting. burnt out, you said and i've put every piece of me i can into the people around me and the work in front of me and now i can't anymore.

iii. i had a headache from first until i laid in bed yesterday. i have overdue assignments from march. i have jagged scars across my thigh that don't rest in straight lines like the movie, but in uneven proportions that stretch over and over and over each other. there's more there than it looks like because my dad said if i wanted to keep living under his roof, i had to stop, so now i just go over the same places. over and over and over. not that he checks anyway.

iv. i had the handful of pills in my hand and i wondered how fast they would take to kick in. if i swallowed them in fourth would they have been in effect by the time rehearsal rolled around? or is it immediate and in that case should i wait until it was over? was it just god awful that i did it at school? not that i care for god, but i weighed the risks of killing myself at his hands because it's a sin, isn't it? my ex friend told me it was the most selfish thing you could do. she was toxic, but if there's a book that preaches how wrong it is because of the people you leave behind, isn't it just saying the same thing? is it a worse sin if you traumatize all your family by killing yourself in the bathroom or in a bedroom for them to find? well, they'll be traumatized anyway. but is it kinder to do it at school, for some popular chick to find? did it even matter? dead was dead was dead and it's not like these questions were going to bother me. it's not like i'd have to deal with them of the aftermath. i'd be dead.

v. my friend came into the bathroom and called for me and i put the pills away, but keep them in backpack now. just in case. just in case.

| k. - I SHOULD'VE DONE IT YESTERDAY, QUICK AND EASY, BUT I'M STILL HERE

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disc80s · 5 months

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#is being predisposed to having depression/general feeling of sadness through your whole life an actual thing?#or do I just have undiagnosed high functioning depression #txt

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stil-lindigo · 3 months

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.