#complex system

[mangedmutts]

One thing I love about our system is the mix of diversity and similarity. We are all similar and all different at the same time. It's just so odd but somehow it makes sense. To us at least.

Like I'm very different from the host, zim, we both are different but we both are similar. I like different things, I speak differently and I act differently. But we're both aliens, we both love ranting about ourselves and our system.

Another example of this is our two main NPD symptom holders, Achilles and blue screen / navy. They both look extremely different, but they both act similar. They both wish for praise and attention but go about it in different ways. Achilles demands it, blue screen tries to coax it out by being kind and expecting kindness in return. Achilles van love anyone if they give him the right attention ((hes pan)), blue screen wouldn't love anyone, even if they gave him the attention he wanted ((its aroace)). Both use any / all pronouns, both have the same role, but navy declares herself as the host and Achilles decides to stick to being the “special” NPD holder.

It's so interesting to me.

[rez-urrection]

to add to this : im like 3 fictives fused together and 1 of them is a song so like. how exacrlt would you like me to be accurate. im 3 guys and one of those guys is just lyrics

‘But that’s not accurate to [source]’

Well yes, I am a fictive but in case you failed to realise, my source character doesn’t actually exist.

[caintooth]

seeing people my age talk about how scared they are of memory loss, which they only associate with old age, is so surreal to see as a 24 year old who has actively experienced memory loss for a long time now

there are causes for memory loss besides dementia and alzheimer’s, i hope y’all know that. dissociative disorders, trauma, brain injuries, thyroid problems, even just stress and lack of sleep can fuck up your ability to store, process, and access memory. and that’s just a few of the many causes i can think of off the top of my head right now.

please stop treating disabled people like some scary “other” that you might become only in the distant, decades-away future. we are your age, too. you may become one of us sooner than you know. stop acting like memory loss marks the end of a life, when so many of us have so much living left to do!

[rustybutterknife]

Microdosing polyamory by dating a system

[pplatonic]

about a cofront today

[orbitposting]

DID but not as in presence of "evil murderer alter", DID as in buying two drinks instead of one because someone came to front after seeing a blue raspberry slushie and DEMANDED to have it, but the alter who walked all the way to the gas station refused to leave without getting what they wanted to get initially.

[aurangg]

Something really not talked about with trauma disorders is the paranoia.

Being scared and jumping to conclusions when people stand a little too close to you, not believing people’s compliments and thinking they have hidden motives, not believing when people tell you they like/love you, thinking that strangers you see on the street want to hurt you, etc.

[chiwosays]

shoutout to other disabled people with constant and debilitating pain, people whose pain can't fade into the background or be ignored throughout the day.

[thefluxsystem]

You know what the worst part of having a dissociative disorder is, for me personally?

The emotional amnesia.

Your entire life feels like something that you watched on TV, rather than something that you actually lived through.

You know that some of the most horrific things imaginable have happened to you, and you feel nothing about it. Sure, the memories disgust you on principle, but you don’t feel anything.

It makes you question if anything that you remember is real. If that actually happened, shouldn’t it feel significant? Shouldn’t you be sad, angry, hurt, something?

And to top it all off, nobody understands. Not even yourself.

[lesbianumbreon]

You are not a fake system because you can't hear your alters, most of us can't! Most people with DID have very limited communication between alters in general.

You are not a fake system because you don't know your headcount, or you don't know your alters names. That can take years! For some people, they need a long time in treatment to even get that ball rolling.

You are not a fake system because you don't know what other alters are doing. You don't need to know who dressed you this morning or who bought the food you're allergic to, high amnesia is normal.

Don't feel like any less of a system because of expectations set by the internet. You don't need to present the same way as people on the internet. The presentation of DID on the internet can be pretty atypical, so don't spend your time comparing.

[twiigthetwiink]

my online class is asking me to create an "alter ego" for an assignment. little do they know that

[lefluoritesys]

"What's your favorite type of music?"

*sweats in DID* "U-uhm... I- I listen to everything, depending on my mood :D"

The moods sitting in the back of my head watching me: "No, no, they've got a point"

[zombunnys]

shatted this out while procrastinating but my lovely girl

[turtlesystem]

fronting alongside the traumaholder feels like this

[bastard-coatedbastards]

Can we stop with the "DID ruins your life" narrative. It's the way people treat those with DID that ruins lives. This is FIXABLE it's not some universal law.

Abuse and trauma are hard to live with and overcome but not impossible. I know it's hard but jfc you people are professionals at making yourselves and everyone around you even more miserable tbh. Go outside.