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iv got one better. invite someone over or call someone you trust not to judge that state of your room, and use their presence as a steadying focus point. someone you can talk at as you clean to get excess energy out, who you can sit with inbetween tasks, and who can help you pass the seconds in between motions with
they dont even need to physically help, and it helps!
#i know its a joke post but iv been through enough now in life that i am so fucking over using shame or embarrassment as a motivator#i get that its what i lot of people do#i still do#but i dont think negative feelings are good for sustainability#they just make you feel bad man#sometimes#Sometimes i do understand that feeling of#'i should do this because it would be shameful if i did not' in comparison to like.....if someone you love or respect is your guidepost#like#'they would be worse off if i didnt do this' or 'if i dont do this then theyll have to' or wanting to be a more reliable person when it#comes to these sorts of tasks#i dont know thats a different sort of beast#and i think that can be utilized in a healthy way that encourages growth#because that sort of thinking is important#but purposefully damaging and hurting yourself by shaming yourself into cleaning in this posts scenario#well#it hurts#overtime again and again#the stress of it builds up#i get it still#sometimes its all you can do#but sometimes you just need a friend to help you out#a deep breath to try and untangle the mess your brains tangled up in#or#just to do one thing at a time#slow
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Why is it that most of the time they either make Annabeth seem like Percy’s mother or they make her a tool for him to be more angsty and dark and disregard all of her character and trauma? Can we normalize making them equals
#I love it when they’re treated equally#but why is the standard that low#like cmon#annabeth would not lecture Percy all the time and unironically remind him to do basic tasks like his laundry#and why is she being made to be all happy and only appear when it is for the sake of Percy’s character#and so much of it comes from mischaracterizing Percy as well#he does not need to be treated like some sort of victim or like a literal child#some ooc-ness is okay but let’s set a limit here#pjo#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percy jackson and the olympians#heroes of olympus#hoo#percabeth#pjo fanfic#percabeth fanfiction#I love it when fics explore both of their traumas and both of their characters#or when the fic is exploring only one characters but they still respect the other enough to not degrade them like that#bare minimum#mischaracterization
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rin 1000000% has a list somewhere of things hes good at that yukio is bad at
#in my mind yukio has kind of become a failboy because i read salaryman exorcist but rin would totally do this#yukio is like 'thats stupid' but secretly he doesnt want the list coming out of all his minor failures#heres my proposals for the list: cooking(obvi) video games board games woodworking dealing with animals and kids sewing cleaning#im putting mileage into rins 'good with his hands' trait from his bio#if anyone comes in here and says 'he doesnt have the patience for that stuff' i think he would be good at menial repetitive tasks#cuz i am :)#thats it lmao#jk but really i think its one of his strengths#tell me what things YOU think that rin okumura is good at that yukio okumura isnt#oh also if ur rebuttal is 'rin is too nice to have a list like that' rin put his brother below his cat on his cool guy list#both okumura twins have a pretty big ego (from trauma)#tho he wouldnt mean anything bad but such a list let me be clear#okumura twins#i need to go back and tag all my yukio and rin posts with okumura twins so my blog is consistent#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#yukio okumura#rin okumura#the yukio tag really shouldnt be here but whatever these are technically hcs for things yukio is bad at too#hes haunting this post#all of these are sorted into 'yukio focuses too hard on winning and loses' and 'yukio doesnt like menial tasks'
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wanted to say I appreciate your nuanced takes on MW and especially Curly. i don't get the claim that the fandom is full of Curly apologists when majority (esp yt and tiktok) say he's worse than Jimmy. Yes there's commentary about bro culture defending people, he def messed up in trying to placate Jimmy (tbh "we'll fix this" sounded more like trying to keep someone prone to outbursts like Jim calm and not hurt Anya/himself) but I don't think he did nothing to help Anya, since she continued to confide in him and he had less than a week to resolve it before the crash (I also don't get everyone saying he knew for ages when it seems like Anya told him that same week). I get Jimmy's a pos but saying stuff like Curly should've known he'd crash the ship or that Jim had a criminal record he ignored, reducing them to obviously horrible villain and willfully ignorant sidekick feels like a disservice to the game. If your best friend turned out to be horrible, what would you do in a confined space in the span of a few days to respond? I'd say some of the horror comes from trying to do good but ultimately failing, Curly's state after the crash is meant to be tragic horror not revenge/punishment
Thank you and this is what I want to get across.
A lot of information we have to supplement when it comes to how long things have been happening on this current ship. I think people try to add on to the horror and negligence by making things more obvious so it can feel like it was easier to avoid when, true to life, its not. Jimmy clearly didn't deserve or appreciate what Curly did for him in getting him the job, but do you think if Jimmy was that big of a menace on Earth he would've given him a position where he could have that level of power over people's lives? There's something in the fact he specifically chose to pick a position so close to himself where he could watch Jimmy.
I hate the bro code argument because that is a whole can of worms people really don't get. That sort of mentality is born from the general respect and preference of male matter over female ones. Curly is clearly not that guy, he is absent minded about the issue and inadvertently dismissive but he clearly believes Anya, he just can't understand what she's going through. It's an onslaught of information that no one really reacts right to. Additonally, the entire discussion of her assualt plays to heavy into the idea that there is fault outside of the perpertratior when it comes to SA. It's too close if she only did this or if Curly had protected her better but the fact of the matter is Jimmy did what he did. He did it before any of the conversations with Anya about it and it's why her behavior seemed to change so drastically in those last two days.
He has other conflicting thought and while his role as a Captain should've taken over, people act like it's not a very human thing to have such a toxic presence cloud your judgement. It is never easy to separate friend from coworker once that connection is formed, you want to help them, especially if they were friend first and for a long while like in this case. It's not right, but people act like it would be easy when the game clearly points out that no choice is easy to make, especially when you have to make it for more than one person. You have the weigh the consequences, look at all the options and make a plan. People can headcanon and decide how long things where happening, but if we look at what we were presented through the characters eyes, the only person given time to do that was Jimmy.
He waited two months after the crash to appoint himself Captain. Every time a problem was brought up he immediately took action and refused to sit on it and find a better solution. I think it's important to look at the warped way Jimmy takes initiative where Curly didn't as it works as a good contrast of why you don't just run in to "fix" things. The quickest and easiest option may not be the safest or most beneficial. I think some thoughts on the game suffer from the black and white thinking the game doesn't operate on along with us being voyeurs. We see what exactly led to what but the characters don't. They don't have the hindsight and foresight we do and even ours is scrambled by the non-linear story telling.
Like it's hard to talk abuou those grey zones without sounding like an apologist because you're explaining why taking responsibility isn't easy. It's not and it's weird to act like it would be in a scenerio that led up to the events of the game knowing what we know. We see all these characters in such isolated moments with various things before, in between, after and even during we aren't privy too. The idea that Jimmy is worse than Curly heavily banks on the words Jimmy was saying to Jimmy before he crashed the ship. That whatever happened on the ship was his responsibility to bare, which is true due to his position. But, are they not still not responsible for taking the actions Curly then must bare?
Like i feel like people think that these are situation that become easier with age or when you are in a postion of authority and they aren't. You don't lose your biases or gain some sudden knowledge that makes it easier. It just becomes more tiring as you keep dealing with it. I would be first in line to say Curly fucked up and should've done more but the idea he knew how bad it could get or he really saw the worst in the people around him and ignored it pretty much ignores a huge aspect of his character and the game.
#i do believe Anya was a victum to Jimmy more than once before the crash but the game plays wit the sort of fear of waiting and stagnation#i believe the reason she decided to tell him was becasuse she finally broke down and tested to see if she was pregnant after one too many#signs and its why she went to hide the gun because she knew now that there was proof of what Jimmy did and was he would do anything to#cover it up and while she also didn't want the baby there was no sure fire way to safely induce a miscarriage or abortion cause shes smart#enough to know that hence her reading the illusion of choice and taking measures to protect herself#but in the hypothetical it was a one time occurence I think Jimmy would act like one single mistake shouldn't define him and Anya thinks#that if she did something sooner or said something sooner than she or Curly could've stopped all of it but that the hard thing taking actio#its so hard to be preventative to a person like they also have the autonomy to do things and no one on the ship is okay with actively takin#that away outside of Jimmy that its just a delicate issue and people act like it was a conscious choice not to help when he just helped#wrong he did wrong by not immediately punishing Jimmy but at the same time did he even fully get it yet? Jimmy immediately got into his hea#after like the sound design right before he confront him is telling like every track sort of gives you the feeling of the characters where#we cant see their thoughts because again the only two characters pov we get are Jimmy's and Curly's and even then we only get Curly's thru#the responsibilites he has to take like he is always tasked with something because thats his role but we rarely see him do something off hi#own volition cause hes a metaphorical cog in many of the machines the games comments on but he's not actively pulling a switch#also i think people latch on to the we can both be heros things too much when analyzing Curly because Curly very much is not happy being th#leader and current “hero” of the Tulpar he just wants out in a way that doesn't hurt and while he is still responsible for not doing more#the idea he could've easily nipped this in the butt acts like Jimmy was not a beast of his own and that he made Jimmy into the person he wa#vs the fact that Jimmy is a person on his own right that makes these choices others are forced to take responsibility for when he simply c#couldve not done evil shit like at the end of the day Curly is not perfect but not nearly or remotely as bad as Jimmy because for that hed#have to not care hed have to not have tried hed have to not try to take responsibility and he did just not in the right way but thats#subjective to the person and you can only realize you did fuck up after the results are before you and its tragic like this game is a#a tragedy no matter how you try and spin it. There's lessosn to be learnt but at the end of the day it telling the worst moments of peoples#lives and the certain inevitabilities that come with it#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#nurse anya#anya mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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u know when youre bored of everything and it feels like theres a hole that youre trying to close but it just keeps sucking everything up
#pissing me thefuck OFF#Ive tried everything ive gone for swims ive eaten snacks and drank water I went for a walk#every time I pick smth up it jumps to smth else like some sort of itch I cant scratch#and stuff that doesnt take a lot of energy like going thru pinterest reading old messages playing Tetris#I haven’t even listened to music in almost 2 weeks wtf. I cant sleep#I wanna talk to ppl but smths stopping me like I get exhausted before I can even come up with smth to say#like oh I have free time I should try this game someone recommended me its already on my ds but I cant even get past the menu#is this some sort of creative block or smth. sigh#maybe i wanna play with someone but it feels like a huge list of tasks and commitments that I can’t keep up with#and I don’t want the other person to have to read between the lines being wishy washy abt it even though I asked to play#yapping#diary#ffffffuuuck
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"At the end ... I say at the end, but honestly, Q2 was - we need to talk about it and figure it out. At the time, it didn't make sense to me, but also you can't have drawn conversations because time is the essence. But yeah, both runs I felt like our plan was well off. At the end, we're struggling to get the lap in, so creating enemies in the last corners overtaking. I hate when people do it to me, but I'm being told to do it, otherwise we won't get a lap in. Still, you start 1 - 2s behind Zhou, you're not going to get a good lap in dirty air. That was certainly not one of our good sessions. We will address all we need to. What's done is done now. We're 15 and that's that, but we've struggled this weekend. The last three weekends haven't been easy but we've found a way to make it work. This weekend, as a team, wasn't going to be easy and the frustration comes from that as well because we don't have the luxury to not get it right. I felt like both runs in Q2, we were doing a very questionable run. Far from optimised, but not saying we could be P8 or something like that, but we didn't give ourselves a chance today. After we debrief and get everything off our chest, I'll look forward to a hot shower"
#oh he is BIG MADDDD#i think his anger is not only coming from them fucking up his quali run#but it's also him being so frustrated with just how awful this triple header has been#he's been expected to shoulder most of the responsibility to help sort out their fucked up upgrades#all while he's had his future continuously discussed in the press#and they keep asking him to perform when they keep on making it an impossible task for him#i hope they eat their hearts out in regret when they see his closed-off disappointed face <3#daniel ricciardo#silverstone24
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Recent images I suppose ~
#First one is THE LONG series of GEESE that fly by!!! my aforementioned friends... Or I think I referenced them in tags of some post#days ago. and how I love watching them. See how many there are? And multiple of these will go by. It's like hundreds of them.#Then just the sky because I love the sky. My hair looking ridiculous as it always does when I brush it out of the four big braids I always#keep it in to keep it out of the way lol. I just find it silly how small it can be all braided up and then as soon as it is Released and#combed then it poofs into some sort of swamp dwelling wizard style.#Then... a daily word count... have been so busy the past week that I sadly haven't written much but I'm WORKING on it. Still on the blasted#'odd jobs' tasks sections which were SUPPOSED to be very quick and short. but.. alas.. Though I am on basically the last one. You go work#for one of the enchanting specialists in the city (very important in society since a majority of people cannot do that type of magic) and#basically he just works so much he has no time for a social life so he hires random people to sit with him in the afternoons doing menial#tasks. You show up thinking you'll help with some Important Job or something but hes just like 'no... peel this apple for me.. :)' lol#Edit note: arrgh just had to fish a slippery avocado pit out of a narrow garbage disposal drain with a chopstick. felt like some#sort of taskmaster challenge or something.. gods... I know some people just reach into them. I guess maybe#my hand would fit?? but... erm... scary. what about Sharp Things in there or something.. also Sludge of some sort perhaps.#ANWYAY.. interruption... I got up to go to the kitchen in the middle of typing my tags... lol..#Next image is SLEEPING boye.. And then PIGEONS!!!!!!!!!! my beloveds...#Oh then the giant evil hole in my bathroom ceiling which is STILL not fixed and the repair people still have to come back again.. BUT they#did have this terrible industrial dehumidifier thing they put in the bathroom and just left here for like 5 days and it was like a noisy#hairdryer going at all times and raised the heat in the bathroom from 65F to 76F in like two hours so.. I'm glad at least at their#last arrival they've finally taken it away.... the Noise Beast... silence in my house at last...#though I am still plagued by Mysterious Hole.. the plastic wrap rustles sometimes when I'm in there.... go away...#Ah. Then a delightful little lemon poppyseed muffin someone didn't want and then gave to me. Which was interesting since I haven't#had one in soooo long even though its like a very Classic Flavor.. I do quite like them though now that I've had one again. :0c#Lastly.. mushrooms. I think it's the mushroom season here. Everywhere you go outside there's some new manner of fungus#having popped up from nowhere. I like the variety of all their little shapes. These in particular have an interesting wispy curled layers#sort of look to them. Almost like a shaggy hairstyle that's curled up at the ends or something. They seem neat to draw perhaps.#Okay.. that is all.. I still have literally like 2 costumes and 12 outfits and I think 1 sculpture? to post.. but I am so busy this is#what I can manage for now I suppose lol... quick pictures that don't really take any sorting or cropping or editing lol#photo diary
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Anyone else have near-perfect executive function at work; but at home, have literally no energy or motivation to do anything except lie in a dark room, with something in or on your ears for several hours?
#It’s got to be the schedule keeping me on task at work#I love microdosing strict routines (not having an actual routine for the day; but having routines for small tasks#which piss me off if I can’t carry them out precisely the way I planned)#For instance: If I’m asked to paperclip a bunch of stuff together with multicolored paperclips of various sizes#I cannot just indiscriminately pick paperclips from the container because that is WRONG and ILLEGAL#The colors must fit the theme of the assignments; and the colors must alternate in a specific order#and the paperclips must all be the same size#If I’m asked to dump out and clean containers of writing utensils I am going to sort them by type and color#whether you like it or not#Black permanent markers have their own container in a different section from the blue permanent markers#Dry-erase markers are not to be mixed with permanent markers because they are easily confused and it is WRONG and ILLEGAL#Do not fuck with the system. It’s the only organizational skill I have and by fucking GOD I’m going to use it in EXCESS#I stuff and fill out envelopes the exact same way every time because if I do it any other way it is WRONG and ILLEGAL#The stamp always goes on last to minimize monetary waste if there is a mistake#Now you’d think my room is squeaky clean and organized because of how particular I am about these small tasks#Right? Right?#NO IT IS NOT. It looks like a bomb went off. Cleaning the room is a big task which cannot be accomplished within two hours#therefore I have discarded it as anything I need a routine for because it would take too long to come up with#and it is very hard for me to do things like that without instructions or a sense of consistency#So I simply don’t#“After five years the dust doesn’t get any worse” correct; but the mold certainly does#I am convinced half my problems with organization as a kid would have been solved if I just had a hamper#“We have a clothes chute; you don’t need a hamper” Maybe you don’t but I DO#I want one now; but I’m going to use it as incentive to get an apartment#because that’s another thing I need to smuggle and I have too much already
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Amiya filled my office with fresh flowers today.
#ic#oratio ;; dialogue#arknights irl#it is a little bit overwhelming to think about how much love there is in this gesture#i'm sure she only wanted to do something nice for me#and because she is amiya#she does everything wholeheartedly#but if i ask her what i've done to deserve it she insists i do by nature#and in interrogating my own nature for the answers i come up empty-handed#i have been tasked#one way or another#with reshaping the world upon which we tread#and so i think often about what sort of Terra we are working towards#and what the future holds#...#i only hope#wherever the road we take ultimately leads#that at the end of it there will be flowers for Amiya
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three days into thr academic year and i feel like I crashed ;-;
#i've reconfigured some tasks/priorities to lessen the load#and i think that + really prioritizing not doing work when i come home/just fucking around to chill#will really help#that and sorting out my sleep#i feel silly for putting so much pressure on myself and losing the plot so soon ;-;#but ig it's better for that to happen now rather than later in the middle of things?#zip quips
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my toxic trait is that i legitimately have so many little organizers/trays/drawer separators that help me keep my room clean that are literally just cut up cardboard boxes from things I bought - a 12-count clif bar box but horizontal turns into a tray for hair care stuff, and another clif bar box cut vertical for pills/painkillers, old box for period pads with the lid removed becomes my sock container in my drawer, and another for undies. cardboard panels from an amazon box now separate my pants from my shirts from my skirts-and-misc in my clothes drawer. Another clif bar box holds pens and pencils.
which would be fine except. it means that i feel like I should hold onto all my cardboard boxes forever just in case inspiration strikes and it could be a good organizer tray size, so i am forever fighting the urge to keep what is usually just actual garbage (well, recycling at least)
#tag#also tho if you're like me and your adhd clutter (or non adhd clutter) is everywhere and you buy things that come in boxes#this is your sign: grab scissors. if you have tape handy that can help but its optional. make a tray and put a handful of clutter object in#rinse repeat with whatever frequency makes sense to you#you may feel the urge to categorize things as you put them into trays: go ahead and categorize but dont get too caught up in it#it doesn't solve clutter but it makes it SO much easier to move the clutter around#and gives you strong visual blocks of 'how much room does this take up' and 'where might this tray of stuff fit'#and as any sorting task does it also makes you pick up each thing which gives you a moment to go#'wait ok do i actually want to bother keeping this?'
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i dont like to hear things like "based on their name/image/etc i thought ghost would be sooo heavy and yucky but actually its normal music :)" umm you sound very closed minded to me
#like theres really no need to put it that way#i feel like 80% of people who say they like music just like whatever is put in front of them#which is FINE and you should enjoy whatever music you want to listen to#finding new music takes some degree of effort. like its a mental task to try something new at the very least#but that frame is a very clear indication that you have some sort of#either conscious or unconscious boundary that you really dont need to put out in the world like that#its not harmonious#come at it from the other direction#btw i know it might sound like im making up a guy to be mad at but i swear i see this in the comments of every youtube video at least once#i dont really see it on here
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rewatching 13s era for me is not so much diminishing returns as it is something opposite and eviler...............increasing losses? increasing losses
#every time i rewatch an episode the points where it couldve been better poke me in the eye#maybe probably the exact same thing would happen with any other thing i would get this obsessed about#you stare at something long enough its flaws will become ever more apparent#you love something enough everything it could have been but IS NOT becomes ever more painful#i watched 13x5 tonight.........honestly what the fuck goes on#no these were my responses now 3 years and probably a dozen rewatches in:#1) what the fuck goes on#2) philosophically stilll utterly unintelligible to me i might be stupid#swarm and azures whole thing. like. everything they say about their Schemes is completely......incoherent. i dont understand it.am i stupid#3) feels like most agents in these plots are just doing busywork. but might be my inability to understand plot again#but like diane?? who is she what is she why is she#4) 13s message to yaz 'flux destroys universe so refugees coming take over earth your task' is.....like.....profoundly......wtf#and seemingly easily fixable: flux destroys universe refugees come to earth find a way to welcome them#get unit involved THAT way. right?#unit as the liaison between humanity and alienity. rebrand#but maybe that doesnt work with the snakeman plot idfk im stupid with plot#5) scenes between 13 and tecteun couldve been so much more. mastervoice: i have Notes. first and least: tecteun shouldve called her Child#damn now i want to do 13 era rewrite again#i really should do that one day i think it would be good for my skills#turn it into a good oldfashioned 13 ep series. still one story tho. but to deepen everything out a bit more#actually getting into all the stuff thats only sort of Touched upon#making swarm and azure not only make sense but also emotionally important and if possible even lore-wise interesting#more abt the division past. doesnt need to be shown in detail if the absence is the point. that doesnt mean there cant be more absence#swarm&azure lore + division lore + vinder&bel lore in separate pieces starting to show a horrible puzzle when put together#yaz and dan in 1900s for 3 full eps or so. time to breathe. more yaz&13 stuff. a lot more 13&yaz stuff#i think that might actually be the heart of it. maybe it should be the heart of it#leaning into that 13-tecteun parallel. the frustration and resentment. build up to the 'so why are you SO interested in him!' stuff#more of their life in the tardis just the two of them without buffer#i kinda want to play with like a lot more body language between them which the camera doesnt allow as we have it#like zoom the fuck out pls
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it's probably the sunnier weather that's doing stuff to my brain to make me more optimistic but it's so interesting having a brain that craves a lot of self-fulfillment to the point where I can move past some hang-ups around perfection by going "oh I really wanna do that though" and then I do it well because researching how to do it right is also a rewarding part of the process
#it comes with the double edged sword of dropping projects as soon as they become a bit more involved/difficult#or when they don't feel fulfilling#but maybe it's better to take a break and come back to something with new knowledge ?#maybe it's good that my brain has a built in 'if it sucks hit da bricks' function ?#i just wish that i had more stamina for these things when they start lacking intrinsic rewards#it just feels like compared to my other family members i lose steam very very quickly and since we all have the same disorder i should be-#- 'just as capable'... but honest to god my under-activity feels SO severe#it honestly feels like compared to others my threshold for mental exhaustion is half the normal benchmark it should be#you know how there were studies done that found that 4 hours is the maximum amount of time people can work before a decline in efficiency?#i swear to god when the activity is something i have no internal reward for it takes 1-2 hours for that decline to start. and my brain -#- crashes HARD. my eyes start to glaze over. i start forgetting how to speak. my brain starts acting like it's 2-3 am and that i need to -#- sleep. i don't push myself not because i coddle myself but because i perform WAY worse. my work becomes unintelligible#or if it's some other kind of task (such as cleaning) my brain desperately tries to take shortcuts in order to get it done#i am trying to avoid a situation where i have to fix up the shitty job i did after the fact!#it's just kind of crazy to me how this is viewed as laziness LOL 'you did a bad job!' because i was pushed past my limit!#not to mention... i get burned out for DAYS if i push myself too hard. i am trying to conserve my efficiency#if you want me to do a better job... i need more time. and trust me: i'll do an excellent job if you let me rest#i am a very smart and capable person who cares about doing a good job - and i have a fine eye for smaller details as well#the trade-off here is i'll need some time to find joy and fulfillment somewhere else for a little bit while i rest. let me excel ok?#idk where this high self esteem came from other than like. realizing i wrote an entire research proposal in such short time#while receiving positive feedback with very few notes for improvement. i just sat down an added another section today based on -#-feedback and realized like 'wait. i know what i'm doing and i probably care about this far more than the average classmate'#i've been having a lot of thoughts lately and i sort of want to get to the bottom of how i have a difficult time coping w/ burnout#and i also want to figure out how to offset the costs of the stuff i need to do... it's a process
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So I haven’t written anything in a month
#Whoopsie#maybe I’ll post some polls to gather motivation#Actually I’m having a minor surgery next week and I’m counting on my post op drug induced to inspire me#Which sounds like a joke but actually#I’ve ended up with some strangely good vibes post anesthesia#Also I’ve been in a very melodramatic intense poetic sort of mood for like three months#which tends to produce work that might be a little more than my audience would like Lmao#which I know I should write what I want yadayda#but when I post something I do want it to have interaction just because it’s very disheartening if it doesn’t#plus I publish work with the intention of it being enjoyed by other people so if I do write something more intense I need to find a way to-#-set it up so it makes sense to the reader which is sort of a daunting task#when I come up with a scene I have the ancient well of my brain to set up. Decades or daydreaming as foreshadowing if you would#so posting something knowing people likely won’t read it feels like shooting myself in the foot#The little things I could write are also unlikely to get interaction. Which would make very sad which in turn would make it hard to write-#things that do get interaction. So those things in would sit around rotting which would make updating them more daunting#which in turn would make me sad. It’s a cycle
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5 and 10 for hallowrove!! - @letheology
5. What is your OC's preferred self-endulgent snack?
Hallowrove's favourite food is a meat pie that can be eaten on the road, but if you asked them to indulge.... Any sort of honey-soaked pastry, especially if it also involves almonds. I haven't yet figured out if this is a thing they would've had in childhood or if they tried it in travel somewhere, but they are a big fan of that combination.
10. What is your OC's favorite stim?
He has lots! One of the most fun is letting Sneeve do a sort of ladder climb over his moving hands, usually while sitting and waiting for something (like the train). Other common one is spinning something between and across his fingers - like a coin, or a pen, or a knife, although the chances of that last one being interpreted as an unintentional threat keep it mostly out of public. Foot tapping is another really common one Hallowrove does, though I wouldn't call it a favourite so much as just a sign of boredom at best and unease or discomfort at worst.
#hallowrove tag#it takes about 5 minutes in an enclosed space with Hallowrove without a Task or a Situation going on to determine that she has ADHD#and a very hyperactive manifestation at that#given How London Is i think she's sort of fallen into self medicating via constant involvement in Some Sort Of Situation honestly#keeps the mind busy to be spinning away on issues with the Dawn Machine or BaL or the railway or (or) (or) (or)#she comes off chill in downtime because of that,doesn't really have a problem relaxing in between as long as there's still something up#but in times like the months between Haarsink and starting the [REDACTED]. yeah. you'd see it#remembering a scene where Oversol's being a little bit driven out of his mind by Hallowrove cycling though checking the mailbox#and the icebox and then the mailbox again dhfhdh#and then opening the icebox. again#had to take them out to Parabola to run around a bit and blow off steam#so yea my guy has a lot of stims#perfers larger motor ones to stuff like clicking a pen but will do that too when forced to be more still#like in a dreaded railway meeting
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