#cassandra is fucking dead

[azucar-skull]

I'm gonna be real with you guys...

I'm totally procrastinating on drawing the next update-

[corkinavoid]

Thank you, @aceinacorner, for this gem:

You are the inspiration for

DPxDC Ring of Rage? More Like Ring of Engage [pt. 3]

[<- part 2 | part 4 ->]

Duke narrows his eyes.

He swears Tim was not in the Cave just five seconds ago, and yet, in the brief moment when Duke wasn't looking, he just materialized out of motherfucking aether. Smelling like Chinese food and holding a chicken skewer that looks so good that Duke's mouth waters.

"Can I have a piece?" He asks, the divine smell of food overriding the urge to ask 'where did you get it' or 'how did you get here'.

Tim nods, smiles, and hands Duke the whole skewer before going for the elevator.

Is it Duke's hallucination, or is he really humming something as he goes?.. Actually, that doesn't matter. The chicken tastes even better than it smells, and Duke is perfectly willing to keep his mouth shut in exchange for food.

You don't talk with your mouth full, after all.

~☆~

Cass watches Tim over the table. She hasn't heard him coming into the dinner room - no steps in the hall, no rustle of clothing or breathing. It's like the boy has somehow appeared right in front of the door out of nowhere before entering.

What's more, he seems obviously not hungry, picking at his food with an absent, if a bit dreamy, expression. Granted, Tim always picks at his food, but Cass can see the difference between 'Tim's mind is busy with a new case and therefore too distracted to eat' and 'Tim already had dinner elsewhere and is too full to eat now'.

The bags under his eyes are also not as dark as they usually are. Come to think of it, Cass hasn't seen him in a bad mood for a few weeks now, which shouldn't really be that strange, but it's Tim. The smallest of inconveniences can put him in a bad mood.

Tim notices her looking and raises an eyebrow.

Cass blinks and goes back to her plate. Whatever is keeping her brother happy, it deserves her full approval.

~☆~

Jason is... not so sure as to what is happening.

He did notice that Tim was really chill lately, but this is going a bit overboard.

"Did you spike it with arsenic, Replacement?" He asks, suspiciously looking the offered cup of coffee over without taking it. Tim - surprisingly, actually - doesn't react to the nickname in the slightest, instead giving Jason a deadpan look. Then, he brings the cup up to his mouth, takes a sip, and hands it back again.

Okay, well, that proves no arsenic, at least. It's still very weird. Tim doesn't just buy coffee for people, and he especially doesn't buy coffee for Jason.

"Am I going to owe you something for it, or what?" He asks, slowly reaching for the cup. Tim sighs.

"No. It's just a drink - my boyfriend loves it, and I think you'd like it as well," he explains with a shrug, and Jason is honestly too befuddled to ask about anything. Including the boyfriend part.

No, but since when does Timbers have a boyfriend? He sure hadn't mentioned anything about it to any of the others.

The drink turns out to be not coffee but something else, tangy and thick, and when Jason takes the lid off, it's green like Mountain Dew.

It does taste great, though, and later Jason considers asking Tim for another one. He hadn't had anything better in ages.

~☆~

Damian strikes through the last one of the training holograms, breathing heavily. And yet, just as the 'simulation complete' message pops up in the air, he hears a step behind him.

He turns around faster than a lightning, and-

Finds Timothy's neck at the tip of his katana, with his hands up in surrender.

"What are you doing here?" Damian sneers, lowering his weapon, and Tim swallows. Not because of surprise or fear, though, he clearly had some half chewed up food in his mouth.

"Inaccurate drop off," he says, looking Damian straight in the eyes, "I was aiming for the main floor."

He smells of Indian food and spices, and Damian almost sneezes.

"What do you mean 'aiming'?" He demands, but Drake just waves him off, heading towards the elevator up.

"No worries, I'll do better next time," he shoots a smile over his shoulder, "See you on patrol!" And with that, the elevator doors close after him, leaving Damian alone.

Drake has always been strange, but this is too much even for him.

Not that it's Damian's business. He huffs and starts the simulation over again.

~☆~

If Dick didn't witness it with his own two eyes, he would have never believed it. Alas, he did, and even though the swirling green vortex has already disappeared like it was never there, Tim, whom the strange portal just spat out on the floor of the Cave, is still here.

"What the fuck was that?" He nearly yells, and Tim looks up, a face of perfect innocence.

"What was what?" He returns the question, and Dick can't find the words to explain, so he just wildly gestures to the place where the portal has been less than five seconds ago. Tim blinks, "Oh, that. That was my date."

Dick chokes on his breath.

"Your date?" He parrots, hoarse and breathless, and Tim nods, like there's not a single thing wrong with anything that has just happened. "Since when do you go on dates? Wait, I thought you were engaged, you said it was cheating to date anyone else, even if you didn't know the spouse, you said-" he cuts himself off, feeling his own face slowly falling and his stomach sinking down in horror. "No. No, don't tell me."

But the shit-eating grin on Tim's face is already proof enough.

Dick clears his throat. Takes a deep breath.

Seeing that Tim is still in one piece, and, well, that he did just casually come out of a magic portal in the middle of the Cave, it's probably safe to say that it's not the first time.

And, judging by the mirth in Tim's grin, it's also safe to say he's been rather enjoying it.

Dick releases one long, loud breath and forces a smile on his face as well.

"So, how is it?" He asks, trying in vain to sound light-hearted, not suspicious. Tim's smile gets wider, and there's a glint of excitement in his eyes now, which Dick considers a good thing, all in all.

"Oh, I thought you'd never ask."

~☆~

Bonus Scene (that somehow turned out longer than I planned)

~☆~

"Where's Tim?" Bruce asks when all the rest of his kids are already seated around the table for breakfast.

"At Danny's, probably," Steph shrugs before digging into the waffles on her plate. Bruce frowns.

"Danny's?" He asks. He hasn't heard that name before. Is that a friend of Tim's?

"Drake's paramour," Damian clarifies, not bothering to look up from his own food, and Bruce's mind comes to a screeching halt. He blinks stupidly, looking around the table and sincerely hoping it is some sort of a prank, but Cass smiles and nods, and Dick has an expression of pure exhaustion on his face, and Duke is huffing a snort of laughter at him for it.

"Since when-" Bruce starts, but he is suddenly cut off by a glowing circle that appears just a few feet away from them all.

It grows quickly, morphing into a vortex, a green and ominous tear in reality big enough for a person to walk through, hanging in the air a few inches over the ground. The space around it feels staticky somehow, and the color is too bright to look at directly, and it definitely doesn't belong to their dining room. But before Bruce is able to say another word or do anything at all, Tim steps out of it, his hair and clothes ruffled.

"Oh, fuck," he mutters upon seeing them all, and turns around, sticking his head into the vortex just as it starts to close. The vortex pauses.

Bruce is almost too stunned to move.

His kids don't share the sentiment, though, most of them not paying the portal any attention at all. Bruce would have reprimanded them for the poor awareness of their surroundings if he didn't notice how Damian simply glanced up at it before going back to his food.

They saw the portal. They just didn't deem it dangerous. For some reason.

Tim's face comes back out, and he turns to Bruce. His expression looks different than before: a bit smug, a little mischievous, and just a tad bit nervous.

Then, another head pops up through the surface of the portal. A boy - or at least they look like a boy - with snow white hair that floats in the air and bright, almost neon blue eyes. His skin is far too pale for him to be human, and- he has freckles that look like constellations.

For some reason, that's the part that makes Bruce finally resign to the fact that this is just how his life is. With breakfasts interrupted by green portals and otherworldly boyfriends - because who else might it be, really - before he even had his morning coffee.

"Hi!" Said otherworldly boyfriend grins and waves his hand. "I'm Danny, Tim's fiance," he introduces himself, and Bruce conjures the last scraps of his scattered mind to smile and nod back.

"Good morning, Danny. I'm Bruce." He has no idea what else to say; it seems like a bit late for shovel talk, but a bit early for welcoming speech.

"Would Young Master Danny care to join us for breakfast?" Alfred's calm, but still slightly amused voice comes from the door. Bruce turns to look at the butler with a sense of exasperation - is he really the last one to learn anything in this house? - but the man seems... well, not surprised, at least not on the surface. But his grip on the pitcher of orange juice is just a little too tense for him to have been in the know all along.

Danny turns to him and smiles nicely - his teeth are also way too sharp for a human - before shaking his head, "No, sorry, I was just dropping Tim off."

"For God's sake," Tim rolls his eyes, "Just put on some pants and come out, I refuse to suffer through this alone."

Dick chokes on his toast. Steph gasps, her eyes snapping between Tim and Danny in delight. Cass snorts and kicks her under the table. Damian groans.

"Spare me from the details of your personal life, Drake. Need I remind you that I am thirteen," he narrows his eyes.

The constellations on Danny's cheeks shine just a bit brighter, and Bruce has no idea what that is supposed to mean, but his guess is along the lines of embarrassment. Especially when the boy completes it with rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly.

"You mean to tell me that, at thirteen years old, you don't know what sex is?" Tim deadpans, running a hand through his hair in a useless effort to smooth it and taking his seat at the table. Dick's coughing fit comes back with renewed force.

"We didn't-" Danny starts, still kind of hovering midway through the portal, but Damian pays him little attention.

"I do. Yet, I prefer my mind free of the knowledge when it applies to you."

"I want all the details, though," Steph pipes up, looking at Danny from her seat, "Can you, like, sprout tentacles or something, because I know for a fact Tim likes that kind of-"

"Steph!" Tim yells at her, face red, and then turns to Danny, who suddenly has a very interested, if a bit mischievous, look on his face, "Don't you dare."

"Yeah, okay," Danny snorts and disappears back in the portal. Bruce half-expects it to close after him, but the vortex stays.

Which probably means the boy - the King of Infinite Realms, Keeper of Unseen Worlds, Eyes of the Universe - is going to be right back.

After he puts on some pants, supposedly.

Bruce watches Tim rub his face in frustration while Steph giggles and elbows him in the side, and sighs. This is so not how he expected this morning to be.

[emacrow]

"Danny... you need to go to Frostbite now because something is wrong with your obsession.." by the creator/ema crow pt 1

The hissing began sounding like iron dragging on a chalkboard.

Jazz said, sighing at her half brother who held the 27th child he had in his arms, looking at her like she about to steal his otherworldly possession. She counted how many kids there were in the apartment before finding danny trying to put the kids to sleep.

Go to Gotham collage for space engineering he said, he'll be fine with his Protect/space obsession on being on prescripted medicine from Frostbite because having duel obsessions tend to go haywire in Gotham city and Clockwork warned Danny several times to take them on Time.

Six months in Gotham, and she visited him to see his apartment becoming an enforcement of an apartment full of liminals and children that Danny had rescued and kept in his haunt for 'safety'

Jazz doesn't wanna ask about the girl in the black Bat costume, missing a shoe, half limping/sneaking out the window as she pinches between her eyebrows.

Jazz knew something was up after danny stopped visiting Amity Park two months ago to the point that Tucker and Sam got concerned with the lack of texts responded.

The image of danny looking more like a giant elderitch spider banshee with 6 very long arms, 8 slit eyes spread across his body with a large mid section with sleeping three toddler strapped in over stretched baby sling, a couple kids giggling quietly and peeking their head out of from inside the overgrown long half black molding into silverly mane

At least this is a mild inconvenience than that one and last time watching that holocaust documentary nearly took 3 months and half to control without the constant overprotective, baby and fenton proofing everything in the Amity Park to the point of nearly mauling the undead out of Skulker after a few bad sentences spoken.

"Danny"

More hissing, and silent creeping backwards.

"Danny, you can't keep these children in here, didn't Pandora tell you that over obsessing could lead to imbalance again." Jazz said holding her hands up in a surrender way to show now fenton weapons in her hands.

Jazz had to think because this might take a while with the way Danny was throwing a fit..

How bad was gotham for danny to start kidnapping/rescuing children and babies?

Part 2 link here <-

[littlefankingdom]

~ Batgirl (2000)

ASEXUAL CASSANDRA, LET'S GOOOOOOO!

Sorry, not sorry, but I'm ace and that's exactly how I feel when someone flirts with me or is clearly looking at my body. I love wearing revealing outfits, until someone shows interest in my body. Ugh, gross, let me dissapear.

[high-in-the-tower]

What if next season Armand and Lestat are in a secret situationship and are having nasty hate sex because they both hate themselves + each other,,,,,,rock bottom together but at least you know the other guy next to you on the cave floor !

[demonic0angel]

Love buff Cass there!

Thanks! She works out! :D

[campspawn]

yknow i know a lot of people are upset about cassandra dying which i get. BUT. i can’t fucking wait for kristen’s ‘my deity is dead i’m a cleric and i’ve killed TWO gods in rapid fire succession what am i gonna fucking do’ arc because i think it’s gonna be the best kristen arc yet

[paddysol]

they're in love your honour

[ferrouswheel11]

Pre-Damian Wayne, I'm curious who the writers envisioned carrying on the Batman legacy.

Obviously Dick took the mantle in Prodigal, and I can think of several instances where Tim pushed for him to be Bruce's successor. I don't think Dick wanted to be Batman, but we've seen that he was willing to do it if he thinks it's needed. And he's certainly a popular character, maybe enough to satisfy Batman readers.

Parallels have been drawn between Tim and Bruce as well (both in and out of universe), and of course we have the appearance Evil Batman!Tim from the future. And if Damian's not too young to be considered a hypothetical Bat-successor, then neither was Tim.

I know that people think of Cass as the most similar to Bruce when it comes to the mission, and you could think of Helena's run as the Bat in No Man's Land as a test run for a female successor.

And of course there's Terry McGinnis, but he was never a part of the mainstream comics universe pre-reboot...

The Trinity universe is just the most recent time we've seen a possible future version with Damian as Batman, so that seems to be the direction writers have been leaning pretty much since Damian was introduced. Not sure how I feel about that overall, but I do like that it suggests Dick sticks with Nightwing instead of giving it up to be Batman, and that Damian's Batman is clearly very different from Bruce's. Still, I'm curious about what we could have had.

[drbatsponge]

I got accused of not caring about Cassandra Cain's development and just her fighting recently.

Yes, on the dreaded hellsite, I should really just leave. 😭

Idk, it might shock some people to know where most of her development comes from, lmfaoooooo.

Like literally fighting Shiva in her first arc was the ONLY thing that got Cass to develop as a character, Bruce and Babs could not get through to her about not holding this guilt over her head and it took Shiva beating her senseless for her to finally get over her sins.

Like I'm sorry, but Cass develops through fighting, her character is tied to being a warrior, that's just her.

LIKE IT'S LITERALLY HER LANGUAGE, MY GOD!

[revenancy]

Who is nevi? What inspired you to write them?

thanks for the ask!!

cw on this for mention of injury and death →

Nevi -- Vanessa Wyse -- is one of the main characters in Six Dead Princes. She's the only child of the Sorcerer Wyse, and at the present time in-text, she's 24 and has been Roslin's keeper since she was 16. She came up with the nickname "Nevi" when she was 4 because her mother instilled in her an apprehension towards letting anyone know her real name. (In other, simpler reasons, she just wanted to know something that Roslin wasn't allowed to know.)

She's a dilettante dabbling in sciences. Roslin has been her guinea pig for countless experiments, mostly in the fields of chemistry, biology, and what can loosely be described as medicine. He's her Ship of Theseus -- she's removed nearly every vital organ from his body at least once. The spell that binds him to the Sorcerer Wyse also keeps him alive, regenerating each of them and begging the question -- is he still himself? Was he ever himself?

She has a cruel fascination with the human body, but fundamentally, she's a coward. If Roslin was allowed to fight back -- if she didn't have total control over him -- she would never dare do any of this. She would think about it, but she wouldn't indulge herself for fear of retribution; now, her mother may be annoyed with her, but technically Roslin is property of the sorcerer, and so is Nevi's rightful inheritance, for her to keep or break as she pleases.

I don't know if anything directly inspired her character -- I mean, there are parts of me in there, as well as parts of other people I know and love -- but the way the characters for SDP came to be was, in order, Roslin → Nevi → Emra. So everything about Nevi's early character is informed by Roslin's, effectively molding her abuse in the shape of his trauma. I'm actually so excited to write the rest of this bc of her.

thanks again ♥

[mvffinhamster]

ttrpgs fuck you up

everyone says ��try out dnd”, including me but dude believe me, dnd fucks you up, ttrpgs fuck you up

there’s this person in your head and you can only scream about them to the other five idiots with their own little guys in their heads

and sometimes you can’t even scream at them because first you have to reveal the backstory you came up with and you don’t want to do that immediately

ttrpgs fuck you up because they make you daydream about your little guy and what happened with them AND YOU CAN’T STOP THE THOUGHTS

try out dnd (or any other ttrpg), they say… but what they don’t say is that it’s all emotional damage

and the worst part of it is that you enjoy every fucking minute of that emotional damage

ttrpgs fuck you up.

[emacrow]

Danny's pov aka 3 months and 24 days ago before Jazz visited by creator/emacrow

Danny was not panicking. No, he wasn't as he stared up at the foggy smug that covered the sky in Gotham city.

That fancy apartment that Sam assigned him to stay for his collage life, got destroyed during a bomb/hostage by some clown wannabe who fought a liminal in a furry costume during his school time.

Along with his collection of accurate space related merchandise he had in that apartment got destroyed except for the mini projector tucker made him of the stars that he kept in him chest, intangible for now with his thermos filled with ectoplasm and his wallet.

The only available place at the moment was a rundown back alley apartment in the darker part of Gotham, a red flag for neglected health department, with the mold on the wall, three bat hanging on the ceiling, but that wasn't the worse of it.

It was the kid's crying or getting yelled at by drunken parents in the neighbors apartment as the walls were too thin that Danny could practice heard all four story apartments.

Danny's hands tighten so hard in the a fist to push down the growing length of his fingers nearly shifting in ghost form of claws.

"Remember jazz advice, I can do this. I'm the one in control, not my obsessions. I can do this, I'd beaten Dan for spirit sake, I can do this."

Unfortunately that mental strain of control lasted for 4 days straight.

The sound of smack made Danny's teeth gritted so hard as his head nearly whiplash, eyes glowing neon blue toward the sound of a little toddler crying out loud as the snapped bit of control of his obsessions rear its terrifying head.

3 days, of walking through this Damn shitty apartment seeing kids cautious huddle walking or limping around with bruises that he could see with, was torture on his protection obsession.

He could help them, save the day like he used to, beat some scummy bastardly asshole with a inch of their life and ripe off their arm off that dare beat their own flesh and blood and tear their thro-

Danny shook his head from the invasive thoughts out of pure panic, biting his lips til it bleed red.

"Im in control, not my obsessions, I'm in control, not them, I'm in contro-

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He was groaning into his hands, peeking between his eyes, to see the two sibling, 5 year old Denis and Diani looking at him with sparkling puppy eyes, gorging themselves on the freshly made mac and cheese covered in cooked mini cut sausages with a side of chicken nuggets and fries, a freshly deinfected sippy with fruit juice in the table in his apartment.

He slipped up. It was just a tiny slip of control. They were starving for god sake with how malnourished they look.

This is going to be a one-time thing, and the first thing he is doing is child support services in the morning.

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Ok he might have gone overboard in two months

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[ndostairlyrium]

Shuffle your favorite playlist and post the first five songs that come up. Then copy/paste this top ask your favorite mutuals. 💛

Tagged by @greypetrel <3 Thank you so much dear!! Hopefully the playlist I've chosen gets me diverse genres °-°''

"Unbroken (Hotel Baby)" by Monster Magnet

"Breaking Me Down" by Soil

"A Secret Place (2004 remastered)" by Megadeth

"Descent - Aftermath" from the DAI Descent DLC soundtrack

"Tooth Fairy" by Nanowar of Steel

...and it didn't. hahahah I mean, except the Descent suite which is like, my favorite soundtrack throughout the games << at risk of being controversial, I prefer it to the Trespasser one. They're both gorgeous of course, but I can't really command my preferences

I'm tagging: @underneathestars @daggerbean @layalu @m-bj @n7viper and whoever feels like sharing some music u-u

[im-out-of-it]

PSA: SORRY ANOTHER RANT BUT THIS TIME ITS ABOUT TATIANA NOT MAKING SENSE AND ALASTAIR MAKING ALL THE SENSE IN THE WORLD LIKE CAN HE HAVE ALL THE LOVE YET

“It is not your fault”, said Alastair. “None of this is your fault. Benedict Lightwood brought down vileness upon his own family, and Tatiana could not accept either his culpability or her own.”

“You sound very wise”, Thomas said. For a moment, it was as if and Alastair were alone on the street, surrounded by the icy sheen of london in winter, the cold itself a sort of protective circle around the two of them.

“Guilt is one of the most sickening feelings there is,” Alastair said. “Most people will do anything to avoid feeling it. I know I-“ he took a deep breath. “One can either refuse to accept it, push it away as blame others, or one can take responsibility. One can bear the unbearable weight.”

He sounded exhausted.

“I have always wanted to bear it with you,” said Thomas quietly.

“Yes,” Alastair said. His eyes were bright with cold. “Raziel knows, perhaps that is the reason I have not become like Tatiana myself. You keep me human Tom.”

I always love these lines by Alastair and Thomas. I hated Tatiana’s whole villain arc. you got your son killed and your father involved himself with demons and got himself infected while harming your mother and somehow it’s Gabriel, gideons, jems, as well as Will and Tessa’s fault? I hate Will and Tessa but they did not turn Benedict into a monster. Tatiana reminds me a lot of Benedict. they both seem to be the type that never want to blame themselves. I couldn’t see Benedict ever holding himself accountable. the sad thing is his prolific activities is the reason Gabriel and Gideon and Tatiana lost their mother. it’s Benedict’s fault he didn’t think Tatiana shouldn’t have been trained in combat.

out of all the villains in TID, Alastair seems to be the only one who had good cause to be one. you can technically count him as a villain or at least the merry thieves did. it was either be bullied or be a bully for Alastair. lots were racist towards him at shadowhunter academy. I’m not saying he’s a perfect villain (he never seemed to be a villain but I’m trying to look at it through the merry thieves pov) but he seems to be the only good villain they had. Tatiana’s actions never made sense and belial seemed to be a very weak prince of hell. there’s too much plot armor around the main characters. you can’t tell me that they could defeat a prince of hell like that. Belial seemed very amateur. if you compare him to shadowhunter show villains (asmodeus and azazel), their power holds. what I hate is seeing a powerful villain or any character being overtaken by a lesser being. PLOT ARMOR I HATE YOU

with me, I need a villain I can root for. not all of them need to have their reputations restored but Alastair once again wins in this category. I love Alastair but I hate how the merry thieves pin him as this evil person for the longest time. the shadowhunter academy books and TLH are two very different stories. they almost don’t make sense. (it reminds me of TEC and TMI where we see healthy Malec in one and toxic Malec in the other. or how Alec and Magnus in TEC have their own minds but they’re out in the backseat in TMI) we see Alastair be a bully in the academy book but we don’t see him being rude towards the merry thieves in TLH without reason

Alastair has every reason to have issue with Matthew and James

1. from the looks of it, James seems to be in love with Grace. Alastair isn’t about to have his sister be used

2. Matthew is an alcoholic and Alastair more than anyone knows how that works. he protected Cordelia so often from her father so she could have a childhood so no way in hell will he allow this life for her. he doesn’t want to see Cordelia hurt or destroyed. a woman’s reputation then could have easily been destroyed

3. while it’s understandable why they would view Alastair as vile from their academy days, Matthew seems to be the one who points the gun at Alastair first in TLH no matter what (and look it’s been months since I read it so it’s not super clear in my mind but I remember Matthew being the instigator first)

4. worst of all- Matthew guilts Alastair into being there for Charles- the man who hurt Alastair badly and it seems like Matthew knows this

and I’m not excusing any of Alastair’s behavior but at least he changes. yes he was a bully and he did bad things in the academy. Alastair himself knows this. he’s not excusing any of his behavior. he doesn’t go around throwing excuses and defending his behavior. (I love myself some character who does bad things but can grow from it) and he’s not really that awful to James and Matthew in TLH first. he seems to actively try desperately to be a good person throughout the series. so it’s one thing to say hey Alastair was a dick in academy but if you’re going to write TLH and not show us, it does nothing for us.

what about when Matthew sneaks into Cordelia’s room after Elias dies and I can’t remember the exact words but says some shit about Alastair. he tells Thomas of Alastair’s past actions which obviously Thomas deserved to know but Matthew only says it out of anger. Alastair should have been the one to tell Thomas. inappropriate pov and plots ya know.

and I see a lot of matthews behavior being accepted. they start to be friendly in chain of thorns but there’s no discussion or any development between them. it’s quiet and goes unnoticed because CC decided to spend half the fucking book of Cordelia and James not communicating

none of this is hateful- I love Alastair and I love Matthew. I just think it’s a shame we didn’t get to see their relationship actually developed. I understand why Alastair can’t stand him but I also see matthews reasoning. he bought in Alastair’s words so much that he harmed his sibling. he takes his anger out on Alastair but a lot of it is Matthew hating himself. I also find them to be the most interesting characters in the series who get shitty treatment and are overlooked

and Tatiana is one of the most boring doesn’t make any sense villains. I’ll never forgive her for killing Kit or being the reason Barbara is dead or the fact Cordelia kills her. there’s not much of a discussion with her brothers who I feel have the most rage against her. she’s not developed very well. CC has a pattern of not developing her villains well enough. I love a good villain but I need a reason to relate or root for them. they don’t all need to be fixed, some can stay bad but if they don’t make sense, I can’t buy into it. they need to win me over

and my whole point is that Alastair figures out the whole taking responsibility thing. he has so much to be angry about. not having a childhood, racist people all around, Charles treating him awful, being guilted into being around Charles, not having Thomas when he wants, Cordelia also being awful to him, never feeling a priority but what’s great about Alastair is he chooses not to sink in the im going to be mad no matter what

I love Thomas saying I always wanted to bear it with you because it shows that Thomas accepts Alastair. he wants to help Alastair anyway he can. Thonas wants to grow with Alastair. you can always improve your ways. Thomas sees Alastair trying to change and be a better person. and honestly just my opinion, but he seems to be good from the start of the series. maybe I’m the only one who feels that way but a lot of his behavior seems a bit justified if you look at things from his pov (DONT COME AT ME IM NOT MAKING EXCUSES JUST SEEING THINGS FROM HIS POV)

Alastair has been through so much guilt and he knows that he could have suffered in blaming others or taking accountability. my love for Alastair stems from him always growing. he understands his behavior was unacceptable in the last years but inside and out, he is good. and for a character who always gets put through it, doesn’t get povs, gets left behind- it’s actually miraculous CC ever had him grow. but she does have a habit of hating certain characters and having them grow vs never allowing a character she obsesses grow

he protects Cordelia, he’s the best brother to Zachary, even when Thomas is upset with him- he’s still there trying to help him anyway he can. HE LITERALLY FUCKING TAKES CARE OF CHARLES AFTER CHARLES HURT HIM

I guess my whole point of this is I LOVE ALASTAIR CARSTAIRS AND HE DESERVES ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD

my man looked at Tatiana’s actions and was like well she is childish, petty, and miserable- and that’s exactly the person I don’t want to be so fuck that lifestyle I’m going to be a good bloody person. we love him for that

[chickensoup1025]

I actually cried laughing from the latest fantasy high episode