#but this isn’t our trauma

[granulesofsand]

I often feel like I, as a traumatized system member, am not allowed to be as thoroughly effected as singlets. Like our trauma responses are supposed to be collective and interconnected, but mine aren’t. Our compartmentalization worked here, or the others are so much worse off no one notices if I influence them.

I relate much more to singlets healing than systems, don’t even really have a subsystem, more a few PD/PTSD type fragments. I’m not gonna list why, but it seems like a more accurate comparison.

(This is neither the correct nor an incorrect presentation of a CDD system member. Systems are different, and we have higher barriers than other folks. This is a neutral state of existence.)

[angee1011]

I love pjo fandom because we are watching this show and people are like “wow these kids’ parents sure do suck”

And we are just like “✨yes they do✨ isn’t it great ✨”

[hijinxinprogress]

Coffee addict Never sleeps Tim drake ❌ 

Solving cases in his sleep off 87 energy drinks Tim Drake ✅

The coffee addict never sleeps perpetually tired Tim Drake thing is a widely accepted headcanon however that was elementary school tim but after he stayed up for a week straight subsisting entirely on coffee to decipher the bat weekly patrol schedule and how it aligns with rogue attacks/Arkham breakouts, he crashed then when he woke up it was fucking wednesday so he missed his chance to commemorate his discovery with pictures of Robin and he decided that shit would never happen again and made himself an ‘efficient’ sleep schedule so he could run around doing fuck shit, add to his robin shrine, and stay on honor roll bc he was even more pissed to see the gotham gazette had pictures of Robin with an on site interview credited to Vicki Vale (listen bowl cut tim had a one sided beef with vicki vale that included tim judging who gets better pics of the bats but she isn’t even aware that she’s competing with a whole ass child 😭 he’s sitting at the table with a mug of orange juice and looks at the newspaper snorts and goes ‘fucking amateur I could do better’) 

Regularly unsupervised tiny businessman in training Tim ‘Ten hours of uninterrupted sleep?? That’s so inefficient not to mention fucking stupid’ Drake is so pissed he missed getting shots of Robin dropkicking a rogue from 6 six stories up (for absolutely no reason dick just thinks it’s fun) that he just takes at least 3 hour naps every eight hours 😭 he refuses to spend almost half a day sleeping ‘for no reason when he could be doing something productive’ 

And he still does this as a bat but it’s just easier to tell if he didn’t take his nap bc he has less than zero impulse control and he’s just fucking done with everything like the gcpd is terrified bc tim’s saying shit like ‘This guys a fucking moron, I could’ve done this in half the time without killing anyone fucking loser doesn’t he know if you keep them alive you can prolong the torture?’ and ‘you’re like all hysterical and for what 🤨 ‘you blew up 83% of Bristol waah’ stfu and fucking rebuild it?? It’s only rich mfs that live there, it’s just a matter of them opening their fucking wallets’ once a new recruit made the mistake of asking if robin had adult supervision regularly and Tim responded with ‘well if you’re gonna snitch to cps like a little bitch then yeah’ and that cop did snitch so tim fucking doxxed him

Yj has just accepted that sometimes they will find tim in an air vent, on the roof, in one of their closets, or something just fucking knocked out then an alarm will go off and he’ll just get up like nothing happened but for the first couple of months they were probably concerned bc ‘I’ve never seen you sleep?? wtf are you on man’ and Tim’s confused bc ‘I slept next to you this morning wdym??’ and that’s how yj discovers tim sleeps with his eyes open

But one of the worst things about Tim’s ‘time efficient sleep schedule’ nonsense is that it fucking works he’s one of the most well rested and coherent bats even after back to back Arkham breakouts however the absolute worst thing about his sleep schedule is the likelihood of going into the cave and seeing tim staring in a daze but wide eyed yet somehow never blinking at the batcomputer with 57 tabs open on top of being unresponsive and thinking he has a fucking concussion or he’s been replaced but he’s just doing case work while muttering nonsense in his fucking sleep for some reason

[kavehater]

I support girls but NAH THIS IS REACHING “if you look carefully LIKE REALLY CAREFULLY 🤓☝️”

[ivegennedmylastloss]

so. i was thinking. in generation loss, why was charlie given the moniker “The Villain”?

because ranboo and sneeg’s titles make sense: Ranboo “The Hero” was showfall’s hero, no problems there, and Sneeg “The Taken” was taken prisoner in the first episode, taken captive when he tried to escape the carousel in the episode two, and was taken for granted had his life taken permanently (maybe) in the finale.

however, Slimecicle “The Villain” feels like it only really applies to the first episode, with him playing the antagonist to the hero in the form of the slime demon. in the second and third episode, he didn’t really play a villain, just mega chet and then himself.

unless, of course, charlie slimecicle was labeled the villain because he was the one that got the hero killed in the end.

be it intentionally or not, at the start of the trail of dominoes that leads to ranboo being crucified, sits charlie. in a mockery of his streaming set up, oblivious to his surroundings, unaware of the horrors around him until our dear hero saved him. an act of kindness that gave the employees the time they needed to lock the doors and seal the exits. had ranboo not stopped for charlie, they would’ve made it out and been free, they would’ve lived.

instead, our hero wanted to save their friend and in turn they were strung up and slaughtered for their good deed.

and what kind of good person would lead their friend to getting killed? who would let such a cruel fate befall his own brother? no, that’s something only a villain would do

[gentlebeards]

stede saying “i don’t like how you are right now” during the calico jack era was not him saying he doesn’t love edward’s piratesona, that was him trying to explain, in the only way he knew how in that moment, that someone he thought he could trust was way too comfortable hanging around a stereotypical bully who had no issues talking down to stede + insulting him to his face.

[mars-ipan]

the prednisone was mean to me overnight :(

[anarchne]

i wish i could remove the word “adopt” from kept peoples’ vernacular lol

[thecorporatetower]

We could literally tell anti-endos our system was originally formed/diagnosed/originally found out as/whatever by trauma and they’ll still say they’re the “real systems”. Fucking friendly fire! Just say you jump to fake claim others when their experience isn’t the exact same as yours. Just say you wanna control how other people are supposed to think and feel when it comes to systems (referencing the common mindset that being a system is supposed to be “miserable” and being a system is “not fun”)

Also please don’t put ableists on your dni and then turn around and say endos aren’t real.

Not up for debate or to argue on this, we’re saying our piece, and this is final.

-Natasha/Angel

[thattheater-kid]

The worst thing is when you get in a bad situation and you hate it, but you can’t even blame anyone else. It’s all your own fault. You have no one to blame but yourself. This was your own idea, your own choice, your own decision. You’re stuck in this bad, vaguely traumatizing situation, and it’s entirely your own fault.

[spurredbunny]

“DID/plurality/being a system isn’t just about having silly guys in your brain, it’s about trauma responses, dissociation, and an actual disorder.”

I agree 100%, its a disorder. but it can also be about the silly guys. that’s okay too :3

[nevada-got-screwed-over]

Actually I don’t think I’ll ever forgive how Wash’s disability and subsequent ‘cure’ was handled.

[sadtiredboy]

Too nice to endogenic systems for anti-endos. Too mean to anti-endos for pro-endos. I can never be part of a community lol

[glittertimes]

I shouldn’t have to actively fight to not get addicted to things! Like why are things that are addictive so easily accessible to me!

[soullessjack]

tummy hurt so I can’t go college thesis on this post but I am sincerely urging everyone who’s ever obsessed over dean’s persistent kindness despite the horrors to please give some of that credit to jack as well . Thank you

[arihi]

On my bullshit again but I still maintain the (once again very bastardized and westernized) idea of ‘healing’ a la “you don’t owe anything to anyone” and “cutting people off is maintaining healthy boundaries” is a brain rot and people are so caught up in their moral superiority of [have had a single thought of introspection at least once] they don’t realize how black and white and inconsistent these ideals are