#still it SUCKSSS

[mars-ipan]

the prednisone was mean to me overnight :(

[pigidin]

UMM?? GUYS??

Alt coz ik the quality is bad::

[The mind Bill knows best. Pure ego. Putty in Bill's hands. Bill will also reveal that, while he was possessing Ford in the 80's, he ripped out a number of pages from Ford's journal and erased his memory of them. Bill will show the LOST PAGES from JOURNAL 3 that have never before been seen]

DOES ANYONE WANNA TALK ABOUT THE MEMORY ERASE THINGY COZ IM GOING PRETTY MUCH INSANE OVER THIS INFO. WHAT.

[lynxfrost13]

AUGH! I miss working out yall!!

[mekatrio]

phoenix is actually an awesome character as long as you dissect the fact that he has canonically hit a woman, doesnt give af about children being in relationships with adults, and lets his daughter advertise her panties

[fagbearentertainment]

I’ve had horrible vertigo all day bleh

[lordgoopy]

trying to find an artist and realizing its been like at least 10 years since i followed them. christ

[piikopoko]

day 3 - me when i was sick last week

[volivolition]

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[truly if anymore of the letters of my keyboard break (this includes several numbers and one of the parenthesis btw) im for real gonna run out of keybinds to replace them with </3]

[mars-ipan]

god i cannot wait to be off these steroids…

[inkgeeky]

i really hate how we always have premonition-ass dreams about new headmates every time we're stressed. please. pleaseeeeeeee dont give us blorbo in our head we have. too many and we dont need to be fakeclaimed like this

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

wanted to buy garlic bread but good garlic bread was all nearly £3 rip im gonna [remembers suicide jokes lead to more negative mental health] angrily embroider some flowers >:(

[sheila--e]

i have trust issues because someone once told me anasui was awesome n i believed them n then i read stocean and i hated his fucking guts so much i gen wanetd him dead so badly

[sycamorality]

you are the good ideas mutual

So very smart

inverator is very cool, you have very good ideas

you are also the mutual who has not had a lot of food...

hjdfhgfhd im glad people like invterator!! i didnt expect it uhm

and. yea, i. barely eat anything??? but i have arfid (avoidant restrictive food intake disorder) so uhm. ehe. </3 sometimes i just look at food ive never had before and gag because i cant control it

[starrylayle]

My Gripes with the Lgbt+ Rep in Banana Fish

[TW: TALK ABOUT SEXUAL ASSAULT, PEDOPHILLIA, HOMOPHOBIA]

I know I’m super late to the party, but I just finished BF yesterday and I have a lot of mixed feelings abt the queer rep in the show.

As someone who lives in a super religious, homophobic household and is constantly told that gay people are rapists, pedophiles or victims,, this anime just felt like a punch to the gut. It felt that everything I’d been taught about queerness was true. I went down a really bad spiral after I finished and it made me feel like more of a monster for being a lesbian. But to be fair that's not really the show’s fault and mostly a me issue lol

Anyways, if there were to be a live action/ Western adaptation in the future,, I hope that they decide to go in a different route to the manga/anime. I think in a story with a lot of negative representations of queer people, a healthy, loving queer relationship would be so important to queer audiences.

Like perhaps, instead of the theme being about the tragedy of trauma,, it could focus on the power of healing. I think this would be especially good for queer youth, who often experience a lot of trauma regarding their sexuality.

Like instead, perhaps it could be about Ash learning to be in a consensual, healthy romantic relationship with Eiji,, in spite of all his sexual trauma. I really adore Katz and Inej’s relationship in the six of crows series. Inej, a girl who experiences a lot of sexual abuse as a child so she struggles with physical intimacy with her partner. I love how her Kaz decide to take it slow, knowing that they have to heal before engaging deeper in the relationship — even them holding hands was a milestone and it was truly so beautiful.

I think Ash could have a similar type of relationship with Eiji,, as he slowly heals from his trauma and discovers and learns about what he himself is comfortable with in a relationship. I really dislike that they were never cannonically acknowledged as being romantic. I think that they should have been cannon, even if they never engaged in any physical intimacy — because both queer people and people with severe sexual trauma deserve to be happy.

[Also just wanna say the the crime/thriller/action aspect of the show should still be the main focus -- the queerness being a sub plot/theme -- just bcoz the the story features a gay couple does not make it a bl]

Also,, why is every bad guy gay?? Like,, even not from a moral standpoint, for a show based in realism,, it just feels so unrealistic. And the fact that they never show any female victims besides Jessica is so odd — really erases the overwhelming abundance of female sexual assault, especially that occurs with the mafia. I really wish that the author had made a proper distinction in the series that gay ≠ rapist/pedo and that rape is about power,, not sexuality — and that victims can come in all shapes and sizes and everyone’s stories matter.

Anyways that’s just my two cents. Other than that, I really enjoyed it and would recommend (with trigger warnings ofc).

On a side note, I hear a lot of people headcannoning Ash as asexual because of his trauma. I’ve always been hesitant to do so because it pushes the narrative that ace people are only that way because of bad sexual experiences — but I’m not ace so I’d like to hear more thoughts on this opinion.

[faineant-girl]

been having really weird joint aches the past few days and shit. fuckin. iooooo it hurts its weird

[smellslikep1ss]

I really wanna mark the plushies and blankets on my bed soooo bad :(( it would be hell to clean up and isn't worth the effort it would take to clean but I really want to