#but im hoping they will at least be talked about tomorrow

[mousemannation]

serious post time. concerning some thoughts ive had about zverev at LC. nothing too heavy but under the cut in case u just wanna scroll past.

i was talking to my mum about this and i think most of tennisblr share the same sentiment towards him so im not gonna be saying anything too radical. Its also not going to be super concise because im mostly spitballing here.

I was just thinking about how we talk about him and how we as a community navigate his presence on tour. I know that there's a vindictive joy that comes with seeing him lose that's especially potent since he basically got away with domestic violence scot free.

Seeing him lose is a good feeling because he clearly cares a lot and it feels like winning that he's upset, but it also doesn't actually mean anything in the scope of things. Obviously on some level if he lost enough he would no longer be relevant but it's inescapable that he is, unfortunately, very good at tennis. He's number 2 in the world. Call him a choker all you want, he's still vastly more successful that 99.9% of all tennis players.

But it's also just sport- a game. It's not the outcome of the match that amounts to anything outside of a very small community of people; its the celebrity, the money and clout and hero worship. The fact of the matter is it doesn't make a difference to the women he abused if he wins a match because he still abused them and he is still famous. He will always have been famous, even if he retires tomorrow. They will still interview him, laud him in press, put him in ads.

I just sometimes think- what right do I have to feel vindicated by his losses? To weigh his literal actual crimes against the outcome of some silly ball game? In a perfect world he would not be playing, he would be banned by the ITF and shunned publicly by his fellow players. He would not be invited to Laver Cup.

I won't say I don't look at tournament draws and hope for his early loss, but at least at tour events that means an early exit. I can't find it in myself to care if he wins or loses at Laver Cup, not really. Because he will still be there, he is still part of the team, he is still on the bench. It doesn't matter if he wins because he's still an abuser people paid thousands of dollars to watch play a game.

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 220

Adjective: Magenta

Noun: Void

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Magenta: red-purple in color; possessing a light purplish red that is one of the primary subtractive colors, complementary to green; colored by the dye fuchsin

Void: a completely empty space; an unfilled space in a wall, building, or other structure; an emptiness caused by the loss of something; (in bridge and whist) a suit in which a player is dealt no cards

[no27-autonation-honda]

another weekend, another job rejection!

[toastsnaffler]

ah shit only just realised its september now.... lets hope the rest of this month isn't like this.....

[thebirdandhersong]

personally I don't like this ish (pointing to my emotions) and if I could remove one very specific one I am struggling with at the moment, that would be SOOOOOO very convenient and helpful, Lord

[whumptea]

some irl whump as a sort of update on how i’m doing:

trigger warning for self harm and abuse

on sunday i got a text from one of my abusers and it caused a panic attack so bad i ended up relapsing in self harm. as i went to stand up though, i got really dizzy and sweaty and fainted right into the bathtub. the shower curtains fell right on me and my mom found me in the tub. i don’t remember much from that initial moment aside from mumbling “mom i did something bad” to her and telling her that i’d relapsed. she was actually super understanding and kind and gentle with me and wasn’t mad like i worried she would be. i explained the panic attack and the text to her and she checked me for a concussion and helped me recalibrate myself. it was such a??? jarring moment because i’d never??? fainted before and genuinely thought i was dying LMAO. everything happened so fast and my head still kind of hurts but i thought i’d share because that is. whumpy if it’s not anything else!!

[catchmewjsn]

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[virtualbeetle]

Hello there! I saw your pen sketch post, and I do love low-effort $5 crazy sketches. Are you still offering them?

Yep! I'm about to head for bed for the night but feel free to go ahead and send details for me to do them tomorrow :>

[acebytaemin]

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[readymades2002]

briefly confided in my mother (mistake i never learn from) about how i am very sad that my ability to have a social life in the world is tied entirely to my sibling, who will be leaving here soon, and how i do not have any other way to get out of the house and how i do not feel i have anything besides work and despite everything that came after, including an apology for saying it, the first thing she said was “well i don’t have anything else either” which is exactly what prevented me from saying anything earlier because i knew that and i know that she is very good at going “it is what it is” about the most miserable of conditions and so would never admit to being unhappy about anything even though there is so much to be unhappy about including having to raise me to begin with, and that she also gets annoyed when others complain or are unhappy about anything because SHE does it and so why can’t everyone do it. and. well. i am pretty nervous about what this means for my life (nonexistent) going forward

[asummersday]

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[pepprs]

in a circumstance and a situation currently

[ssoupcup]

I forgot i did this silly little sketch like a month back of some alternate timeline where websoup was a good person. I think it was inspired by some tiktok art challenge?idfk man do with this information what you will lmao im off to bed

[orcelito]

What If I didn't have a brain of a pessimistic squirrel that takes everything out of proportion and can't deal with any thing

[scrambled-eggsed]

Local guy opens tumblr after midnight as soon as she talked with her boss and agreed to switch to morning shift instead of evening shift the next day. im gonna be sotired

[domesticated-whores]

I fucking hate the early stages of getting better where you only have maybe 1 or 2 solid, semi-healthy coping mechanisms that aren't the most reliable at all times and you're still shaky about it all. I'd rather just be better, but at least when I'm not okay at all I lose all hope in where I could be and I've already forgotten how it feels to be okay and stable. and I KNOW I need more, solid coping mechanisms. but I just went from absolutely no healthy ones and zero hope of getting better to having a few healthy-in-moderation ones and being able to verbalize some basic life goals, so this is progress. I'm not there yet, but this is what I've got and I'm getting there. And it fucking sucks because every time I get here it only becomes so much more obvious how far I have fucking slipped.