#but i cannot. for some reason
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cannot fucking believe a.c.e has two fl dates for their us tour and one of them won't let me purchase tickets bc my billing address isn't in fl so it keeps saying suspected fraud (great for preventing scalpers ig, but sucks for people who will like, drive to concerts) and the other just. didn't have their sales open at the time they said they would. then 20 minutes after the countdown ended the website opened, except you can only choose your tickets by picking the seat on this map of the venue. and the fucking map won't load. they don't list the available tickets on the wise or anything. you can only pick tickets directly from the map. and the fucking map won't load.
#i took an early lunch break to be ready to buy tickets and i havent been able to!!!!!#when i tell you i am filled with such a dark and seething rage rn.#been trying to buy tickets for almost 40 minutes#just staring at websites#and the thing is i have been watching the max ticket pricing go up and down so clearly other people have been buying and releasing tickets#but i cannot. for some reason#mel talks#im going to lose my mind#man i love concerts but i hate everything about them except the actual show
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what if i broke all the bones in your legs actually
#ramble#please let this be a fucking joke#i cannot imagine being this out of touch#YEAH IT'S ALMOST LIKE ART TAKES FUCKING EFFORT AND THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE DO ENJOY IT ACTUALLY#the phrase 'labour of love' exists for a reason#i sat and watched my grad film on repeat for days when it was done bc i was so proud that my hundreds of hours paid off#I DON'T MAKE ART TO SIT AND LOOK AT IT#I MAKE IT BECAUSE I PUT TIME AND LOVE INTO IT AND I GET TO LOOK AT IT AND BE LIKE I MADE THAT WITH MY HANDS!!! AND MY BRAIN#GOD FORBID YOU PUT A SECOND OF WORK INTO ANYTHING IN YOUR FUCKING LIFE ANYMORE YOU USELESS FUCK????#i'm so sorry i'm unreasonably mad about this#is it crazy for me to say that you should have to do some things in your life?????? god forbid you read your own emails#what are you DOING how fucking LAZY can you be????#and that is NOT a word i ever want to use but this is the DEFINITION of lazy#kids with adhd aren't lazy. tech bros wanting the exact same things that people have worked years for at the push of a button are lazy#i actually need to go and put my face in grass i'm so upset#thankfully. basically every musician who saw this shut it the fuck down and told him he was an idiot so that's nice
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@soup-future an oder for you... got off track and shaded this one bc i like this creature
#requests#ds9#deep space nine#star trek#odo#odo ital#deep space 9#my art#st#i was watching the sisko war crime episode while drawing this it was quite an experience#also i cannot tag you for some reason i am so sorry. peace and love
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the real reason tmagp is on break 'til april 11th is so sam can observe ramadan without being chased by a murderous clown blob
#tmagp#tmagp s1#tmagp spoilers#the Magnus protocol#if for some islam-related reason this joke doesn't work plz tell me - i was thinking. i would like to see some content#exploring/including sam possibly being muslim considering his name and VAs ethnicity#and what better way to support that than make it myself?#joos yaps#samama#samama khalid#tmagp sam#but i am v much an outsider so lmk if i missed something#tbf. i cannot think of any way this could be somehow misconstrued. but you dont know what you dont know!
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you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.
(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)
but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.
(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)
there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.
(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)
you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.
(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)
you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.
in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.
but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.
they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.
it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.
#spilled ink#warm up#can you tell what i'm mad about today specifically#i will say that there are a LOT of things that go into this. like a lot. this is ungendered and unspecific for a reason#it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism.#and before a healthcare professional reads this as a personal attack: i understand ur burnt out#we are ALSO burnt out. your situation is also dire. this is not an attack on you.#this is a commentary on the incredible amounts of bigotry that lie at the heart of capitalism#where people have to pay money out of pocket to be told to fuck off.#your job is important. so is our humanity. and if you cannot accept that people are fucking mad as hell#at the industry - you are probably not listening .#anyway at some point im gonna write a piece about sexism specifically in medical shit#but i don't want terfs clowning in it bc they can't understand nuance#> it is true that ppl w/a uterus are more likely to experience medical malpractice & dismissal globally#> it is also true that trans people experience an equally fucked up and bad time in the medical field#> great news! the medical industrial complex is an equal opportunity life ruiner :)#(if you find it necessary to go into a debate about biology while discussing medical malpractice#i want to warn you that you're misunderstanding the issue. because guess what.#cis MEN might experience this. particularly black men. particularly disabled men.#so YES having a uterus can lead to more trouble for you. but this happens a LOT.#instead of fighting those ALSO experiencing your pain.... try working WITH them.#which btw. is like. actual feminism.)
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days are getting warmer but i am always warm when im with you ! !
#mine#original#i cannot even begin to express the amount of demons i had to fight. to do this drawing#i was goin 2 attach my process video but its so embarassinhg i cant skjbdskgdjks#local artist cant colour right :(#i sitll dont love it but also i will start eating thro my waalls so :3 ! here u go !#i bought a new water botttle the other day extremely exciting stuff. AND. a bag for said water bottle so i can take it on walks :3 !!!!#eveytything else has been . normal !!#shop orders r very slow which is th same as this time period ??? as last year ? for some reason ??#i will hopefully try n plan sm stickers soon n maybe sm new prints ??? not sure ! but either way if u want 2 buy a lil smth#ur support is greatly appreciated !!
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Skktober day 3 + 4: Height difference/glasses
#bungo stray dogs#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai#inktober 2024#skktober#skk#soukoku#(ngl no clue whats going on today but for some reason I just cannot draw properly)#(😭😭😭😭)#(
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How much can you fit under your skin?
For @warning-heckboop's AU :3
#Haha get peeled idiot#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop dev#dev dimmadome#fop peri#art#digital art#fanart#candy gore#body horror#just a little#blood tw#fop gifted au#I spent like 2 whole days on this I cannot remember the last time I spent that long on a single drawing#Also sorry if the shading is ugly Im not used to doing smooth shading#art is so hard#His wings look a little scrungly because they're still like. Freshly hatched. still wet with mucus and whatever#Have you ever seen a butterfly fresh from the cocoon and their wings are all crumpled up?#so yeah their unevenness is intentional lol#I spent forever debating whether I wanted to put Peri there#but ultimately I thought it made the composition more interesting so I kept him#Also youll notice his wings are slightly different now I decided to redesign them to be a bit more galaxy like#its hard to see here but Ive changed the 3 dots to resemble planets in a row: Green for cosmo pink for Wanda and different pink for timmy#I think it came out a bit ugly in this but whatever Ive spend too long on this already#I wanted Devs wings to be reminiscent of gold. For some reason I really liked the idea of them curving inward too#Maybe to represent that hes selfcentered. Woagh it all points back to him Wough!!!!! anyway#Btw also sorry for no Nature AU content my motivation just kinda crashed. I have ideas still but getting around to drawing them is hard
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The whole "breasts shouldn't be politicized because the primary purpose of breasts is to feed babies!" can be a fine jumping-off point, but I really wish people thought deeper than that when we talk about the ways in which bodies are politicized and restricted.
Like, why's it that when we talk about breasts, they must have some Higher Purpose? It's true that breasts aren't inherently sexual, but they aren't valuable solely because they can potentially feed a baby. A human body doesn't have to serve a Higher Purpose in order for it to not be legislated against or policed, and I just wish people would remember it isn't always about babies, about other people, about anything else other than the people who have that body.
#feminism#dysphoria tw#your body doesn't need to have an Intrinsic Worthwhile Purpose so that you can live without fear#and it is fine if people say this to criticize the way breasts are overly sexualized and fetishized or what have you...#...but i encourage people to not see this as an end-all-be-all argument#because this opens discussions about how we politicize bodies and how we interpret them#i see overlap between this and the way trans bodies are politicized and policed honestly#and i guess personally i'm just so tired of the idea that to be safe your body Must Have A Good Reason To Be#and i fear this may reinforce the idea that we Must Serve Purposes and Be Useful and Used#ask to tag (genuine)#and what would this say for childless people? or people who cannot bear children? if they have breasts are they 'useless bodies'#because i have seen the ways some people's bodies are treated when they do not 'work PROPERLY' and that scares me#it scares me to potentially start treating people with different bodies as Defective and Unworthy and Unproductive#and i don't always trust when people latch onto purpose-driven arguments for human bodies that it stops at that y'know#have seen some discussion amd whatnot so 👍#is it now time to clock put and be a silly goose yet?
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Eyooo whaddup comradess, it's ya boi skinny penis! Back with a new iPad and worse than ever!! ∠( ᐛ 」∠)_
Didn't think simply telling you guys I was back was good enough, so i spent like 3-4 days on this as a surprise! Hope ya like it!😉💖
#i PHYSICALLY cannot draw anything in a simple way#for some reason it HAS to be this fucking detailed everytime#it looks sickening and i love it but goddamn#longest 13 seconds ever#symas#mk1#tomas vrbada#smoke mk1#syzoth mk1#syzoth#mortal kombat#mortal kombat 1#Animatic#my questionable creations
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the season 7 quotes ever: unhinged edition
"ooh, what about a primal jelly tart?”
"sunfire? always hot."
“i guess that’s as good a spot as any to hide a secret basement… at the top of a tower.”
“we’ve been sitting here eating dessert, Rayla. DESSERT.”
“you were collecting worms for dark magic, weren’t you? or for… FISHING."
“for what purpose?” “‘to save your… posterior.’ she wants you to know that she used a different word. than posterior.”
“SALAD GUY!” “oh, good. somebody does know me!”
“alright. we’ve turned the unicorn bones into unicorn bone goop.”
"uh, so, here’s the thing. love is good."
“you say potato, i say po-tah-to…” “just so you know… it’s potato.” “um, no. that’s the whole point.” “don’t even get him started on tomatoes.” “ugh, they’re to-mah-toes. we’ve been over this, Corvus."
"yes you am."
“here to judge me, Captain Trueheart?”
“i mean, at the end of the day, you’re at the top of the org chart.” “we have an org chart?”
"i’m Terry. uh, Terrestrius for short. i mean, for long, i guess.”
“confirmed. regular sap.”
“i’m sorry. i’m not sure how you want me to respond.” “YEAH, WHILE I’M CONFUSED TOO.”
“oh no! DARK MAGIC? wHaTeVeR sHaLl I dO?!”
“RAYLAAAA, CALLUM WANTS TO HAVE TEN BABIES WITH YOU! TEN!”
#i cannot stop quoting “WE'VE BEEN SITTING HERE EATING DESSERT RAYLA. D E S S E R T .” for some reason#s7 is seriously one of the funniest seasons i love it#tdp spoilers#tdp s7#tdp#the dragon prince#continuethesaga#giveusthesaga
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Please god give Eddie Munson a belly for the love of god please give him just a little chubby I cannot with the chiseled abs I need this man to have just a little bit of chub because he snacks occasionally and drinks Bud with uncle Wayne and doesn’t work out because he’s too busy writing bulette encounters. We as a society need to embrace chubby Eddie Munson.
#I just want him to have a soft tummy#stranger things#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#admin speaks#stranger things x reader#mentally i’m here#burying my face in his stoner chub#enjoying his happy trail#I want him to look like he’s got some meat on him#I need it for reasons that cannot be explained
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Image description courtesy of @anistarrose: digital art of Luz from The Owl House in her Titan form. Instead of her witchy clothes, she wears a t-shirt and green overalls, with claws poking out from her sandals. She's leaping in the air with Stringbean's staff in one hand, laughing and channeling a spell. End description.
#the owl house#toh#luz noceda#titan luz#toh spoilers#the owl house spoilers#titan!luz#obviously very inspired by dana's art of titan luz with casual clothes over top lol#i thought it'd be funny to have the claws poking outta the berks#fanart#for some reason (tumblr cannot handle basic post functions) i was having trouble adding the description as alt id on the image#so for this one i guess we just get a description in the post body for now lol#thanks anistarrose for the description!
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Can someone please just rant with me about the people who hate on Jegulus LMAO? And I don’t mean people who don’t ship them (it’s fine that’s your choice), I mean the ones who make posts about their hatred of the ship. And on top of that, why are they tagging their posts Jegulus? I literally don’t want to see it. Keep it to yourself.
Like—first of all, why do they act like it’s such a hot take or an unpopular opinion? I see one person daily say that Jegulus “doesn’t make sense” and they pretend like it’s such a new thing to say?? And why do they act like they’re victims when they’re the toxic ones?
I swear I see so many toxic Jily stans openly hating on Jegulus like it’s their birth right but I have literally never seen it the other way around. Like no I’ll be brave and ask the real question—what is so interesting about Jily? Why does liking that ship make you superior? And I’ll just say—even Harry wondered how Lily ended up with James so your arguments that “they probably hated each other” / “doesn’t make sense” literally applies to Jily as well. And this is not hate to Jily in any way, but rather to toxic stans who spread hate for no reason. You are not better than someone else based on your shipping preference, but you are worse when you act a certain way.
Also I love all you non-toxic Jily stans out there! <3 I promise this is not directed at you at all.
And don’t give me the reasoning that they created Harry. Frankly if your argument for a ship is their off-spring, it’s already weak.
#like guys please have some manners#i’m usually so kind but this is insane work#i see so much hate for no reason#and i genuinely cannot stand pretentious people#and this isn’t directed at people who ship jily#or even people who dislike jegulus#this is specifically for people who are assholes about it#i hate certain ships too#you don’t see me making that your problem#also please block me if you’re weird like this#like genuinely#i do not want to hear from you#jegulus#starchaser#sunseeker#regulus black#james potter#dead gay wizards from the 70s#marauders
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people who hate slow walkers are ableist
#i don’t care if the reason u walk fast is because of adhd or some other disability its still ableist af to hate on ppl who walk slow#people never slow down their pace for me and it makes me feel so alone#I PHYSICALLY CANNOT WALK ANY FASTER BUT YOU CAN SLOW DOWN#ableism#me/cfs#pots#disability#invisible disability#chronically ill#cpunk#crip punk#cripple punk#myalgic encephalomyelitis#chronic illness
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oh, to be taken care of
#cabbage draws#little witch academia#diakko#mine#I.MISS.MY.GF#shes just busy lol#and im busy#so well#wow i did this like 2 hrs#longer than i expected but faster than what i thought it would be#im so rusty at drawing lmao#i learned that i grasp 3d better#due to sculpting#but damn it is still a skill i must learn#i still cant color im so sorry about this mess lmao#i tried learning color theory but by god i cannot wrap my head around it#for some reason#i know the opposites the tertiary the complementary the meanings hue value brightness saturation etc#but i cannot put it into practical#when i learn how to color its going to be over for yalls#lmao#obligatory post when i have time cause i will probably disappear for months again
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