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i don’t think you get it
it was a shitty book about shitty people
yet it’s the one book i hear
it’s the only book i have a playlist of
its only 11 songs
but every song sounds like that book
i can’t explain it
this shitty book about shitty people,
has completely changed my brain chemistry
#it had such a deep effect on me and I don’t even know why#no one even knows this book exists#but it’s changed my brain#alternated my brain chemistry#thoughts#on life#my thoughts#poetry#books#songs#playlist#book playlist#it’s unlike me to have a playlist for a book#but I can’t help but hear it#the book is colour me in#colour me in#it’s beautiful#and horrible#and I love it
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Thinking about how Diavolo’s feelings transcend time and how in the Nightbringer UR+ card Demon Lord’s Castle Tour this conversation happens.
When asked, “Do you wish to see your father?”
Diavolo responds:
“I suppose I do . . .” isn’t the typical reaction to how a child would feel about wanting to see their parent. Especially when said parent has essentially been in a coma for a year.
Along with how Diavolo describe his father.
It makes more sense why when you learn in Lesson 56 how Diavolo was treated by him growing up.
Diavolo can tell when others are lying but is unable to understand his father’s intentions.
Diavolo mentions that he lived a very sheltered life growing up. That from a young age his father never allowed him a chance to talk to anyone outside the castle.
His childhood friend was Mephistopheles. A demon literally RAISED to be his friend. Putting a barrier between the two because Mephistopheles would put Diavolo on a pedestal.
The isolating childhood he experienced riddled with his strict father constantly scolding him.
Despite everything MC is so important to him he wants to see his father again so we can meet.
#Demons and Humans can’t get married even in the present so it adds an extra layer him wanting to introduce us.#There’s a lot more you could add onto this (please do I’d love to hear other’s thoughts).#Like how Diavolo’s childhood affected him just look at the way he describes himself:#“The truth is I am a child in a way. A child who spends his time alone and never gets to do anything interesting.”#A lot of Diavolo’s poor behavior while not excused comes from his childhood.#How Diavolo admits to using his position to force others to do what he wants. Along with how he doesn’t like sharing.#Diavolo’s insecurities in his friendships with others.#Mainly Lucifer and Barbatos which makes sense with how they happened.#IE Forcing Barbatos to become his butler and the oath/deal with Lucifer regarding Lilith.#It’s clear Diavolo is very lonely and carrying a heavy burden.#I like that MCs presence is helping him change into a better person.#Also I don’t think Diavolo hates his father their relationship just isn’t good and very complicated.#Diavolo is such a wonderful character if you have any in-depth posts about him please tag me I’d love to read them!!!#I AM FILLED WITH SAPPY THOUGHTS ABOUT DIAVOLO TONIGHT!!!!#Obey Me#Obey Me Spoiler#Obey Me Nightbringer#OMSWD#Obey Me Diavolo#Diavolo#MaddyMajolish#Is it obvious I can’t sleep because I’m riddled with Blorbo thoughts
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6 Phone Hacks for Autistics and ADHDers
Neurodivergent_lou
#autism#actually autistic#adhd#adhd post#phone hacks#I hope these help#brown noise is great#sometimes I use closed captions if I can’t hear things right#feel free to share/reblog#neurodivergent_lou (Facebook)
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sorry if you’ve already been asked, but what’s your favorite FNaF game?
I’m a “Pizza Simulator” truther, it’s just the best one, though I’ll be honest “Help wanted 2” has really risen through the ranks for me, its probably my second favourite (that might update if the DLC pops off)
Sister location and FNAF 2 are close behind, they were OG faves
#ask reply#can I hear my pizza sim fans make some noise 🔥🔥🔥#the first help wanted I already did love#it’s criminally overlooked but help wanted 2 improved on the ‘FNAF IN VR’ concept tenfold#sister location added sm to the series like all the funtimes baby especially and the humor#but it’s also the game that truly introduced ‘Michael Afton’#so that game is just based for that#as an old fan the hype around fnaf 2 coming out can not be replaced#truly the start of something special fnaf 2 is a certified hood classic#BTW all the games I didnt mention I also love for different reasons#i haven’t finished SB or ruin yet so I can’t comment on how good they are#BUT OBVIOUSLY I love everything SB brings like Monty is my favourite animatronic#I could go on and on what works for each game BUT HERE are just my high faves
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There’s a lot of great moments in the opening credits of Help!, but I think my favourite might be this close up of John while Paul humps his bass in the background
#you can’t take your eye off him for one second can you john?#actually my favourite might be the look paul gives george#I can just hear him going ‘ere are check this’#the beatles#john lennon#paul mccartney#help! movie#javelin's gifs#javelin’s gifs: help!
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There’s something about a vigilante x civilian pairing that will always have me kicking my feet in the air
#like yes clear the streets of bad men and come back to me all bruised and bloody so I can patch you up#giggling at 4 am as I type this- unable to sleep#when he’s afraid to fall for her because wherever he goes violence and death follows but he just can’t help himself#she can’t sleep at night until she hears him knock against her window/door#Jason Todd x reader#dick Grayson x reader#frank castle x reader
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Thinking about Minute’s insane morals and how he doesn’t have a single genuinely bad bone in his body. He gets confused when he’s betrayed, he begs for explanations when people are cruel. He would rather make amends than hold onto grudges. He forgives and forgets. He teams with the same guy (Wemmbu) that’s betrayed him countless of times, and still trusts him anyways. Even if a bit reluctant at first. Even if he knows he’ll still end up betrayed.
Like this guy has PROBLEMS. He so morally… Good. He can stoop down to other people’s level, he can play dirty, he can be intimidating. He doesn’t really let himself get walked all over. But he’d MUCH rather just hang out and have peace. He gets upset when people are negative because he’s just SO optimistic. He always has to see the Good side of things, even when it’s a horrendous situation.
Even when he has reasons to be angry and upset and spiteful, he still chooses to hold his head high and STICK to his morals. He’s Stubborn. He tries so hard to see Why people are evil and hurtful, but he can’t personally understand. He needs to be the hero. He needs to save others. Because who else is going to do it? Who else has the resources, the strength, the backbone, the reputation? He gives items out to people with no expectation for reimbursement. He’s always saving other server members, even his enemies, from tricky situations.
He tries hard to remain all mysterious and brooding. He tries to seem calm and collected. But he wears his heart on his sleeve. You can hear every emotion in his voice, in the glint in his eyes. The way his smile upturns when he finds something amusing, or how his eyebrows furrow when he’s trying to piece something together. He’s an incredibly emotional guy, and he’s not good at hiding it. He’s notoriously a bad liar. He gives himself away every time he opens his mouth. It’s WHY he’s so genuine, so easy to trust.
It’s easy to get under his skin, but he still holds his ground. Because he has to. Because the world is cruel and brutal, and everyone is out to get him. Killing is second nature on most SMPs, especially on Lifesteal. But he can defend himself. Most other people can’t. He’s paranoid, and watches events from the sidelines (even if it annoys other players.) He always has extra food and fireworks to give out. Despite covering himself in dark colors, and hiding from large groups, he’s still looking out for others. He’s still the beacon of hope people need. He’s so annoyingly optimistic and cheerful that it’s sickening to most. He refuses to let himself become bitter and pessimistic.
Anyways bro thinks he’s Batman.
#I do NOT want to see a minutetech villain arc I want him to suffer through always playing the Hero#minutetech#PLEASE CAN ANYONE HEAR ME#DOES THIS MAKE SENSE#His hero complex is so fascinating to me#he isn’t doing any of this out of personal gain either#he’s just Genuinely trying to be a good guy#dare I say#In Over My Head by Grandson#I associate that song with him a Lot#he gets overwhelmed with this position he’s put himself into but he can HANDLE it#he HAS to#he has to endure it because nobody else is insane enough to be so stupidly Good and Optimistic#this is inspired mainly by the aftermath of the election results stream#and also the recent Nations event he was in#because wow he really can’t comprehend people Genuinely being evil JUST to be evil#basically Minute has to help people out all of the time or he dies#lifesteal#lifesteal smp
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WITH A LITTLE BIT OF MONEY I’LL GET GONE AND I WON’T BE FOUND WITH A LITTLE BIT OF LUCK I’LL FIND A PLACE WHERE I CAN STAY FOREVER IF I GET A LITTLE MONEY I’LL GET GONE AND I WON’T BE FOUND I DON’T WANT NOTHING BUT A LONESOME QUIET PLACE WHERE I CAN THINK SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE LOOKING BACK AND WONDERING WHO I WAS SOMETHING CHANGED THE DAY YOU LEFT AND I’LL NEVER KNOW JUST WHAT SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE LOOKING UP AND WONDERING WHO I AM SOMETHING TELLS ME YOU AND I WILL NEVER MEET AGAIN HAD A FEW GOOD YEARS OUT ON MY OWN BUT IT DIDN’T LAST LONG HAD A COUPLE GOOD FRIENDS WE USED TO PASS ALONG THE DAYS TOGETHER NEED A LITTLE BIT OF MONEY AND I GOT STONED AND I LET IT ALL GO ALL I WANT IS A NOISY CROWDED PLACE WHERE I CAN DRINK SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE LOOKING BACK AND WONDERING WHO I WAS SOMETHING CHANGED THE DAY YOU LEFT AND I’LL NEVER KNOW JUST WHAT SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE LOOKING UP AND WONDERING WHO I AM SOMETHING TELLS ME YOU AND I WILL NEVER MEET AGAIN
#i know i messed up a few lyrics but i can’t help it mr ben’s voice is hard to hear sometimes !!#lord huron
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Oh they think they’re so slick, sneaking around the palace walls like that.
#one day Eugene will find y’all and you’ll be sorry😔#hugo vat7k#varian and the seven kingdoms#varian tangled#hugo the human#vat7k#varian#varigo#varian tts#tangled varian#varian and the 7 kingdoms#Oh you know raps is helping them#“No I totally can’t hear the sound of metal boots sprinting down the halls 😀”#Im sorry guys I’m still trying to figure out what style I want to draw them in haha#Please send in more requests!! The ones I’m getting are amazing!
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Crimson and Clover
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Hand-cut, mixed media collage
2024
#collage#dark art#collage art#paper collage#artists on tumblr#illustration#paper art#gothic art#dark aesthetic#surrealism#pop surreal art#pop surrealism#This is a message in a bottle for a girl who broke my heart in the city of angels#i waited for you#isn’t that silly?#I don’t know what’s worse: that you came and didn’t say hi or that you didn’t come at all because I’m a delusional mess.#Both scenarios are heartbreaking even if one was unintentional.#So I removed myself — a little bit for your sake but mostly for my own.#But there’s this nagging feeling that won’t go away.#A whisper of maybe maybe maybe.#You haunt me and I can’t help but wonder if I haunt you too.#If I do haunt you can we throw away the Ouija board?#Can we send the medium home?#I hear email is punk AF#All the cool ghosts say it’s the next big haunt.#anyways#I miss you
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just a few javieran horse headcanons because i like them a normal amount
branwen
- tall AND fat. kieran makes sure he’s always fed (maybe even accidentally a teensy bit overfed. just because kieran can’t help but indulge him when he butts him with his head or nuzzles at his pockets when he knows there’s treats in there. but never too much because ‘obesity is a problem, even in animals !’). probably about 17hh, taller than average for a kentucky saddler but nothing too big. especially since kieran himself is quite tall
- VERY well-tempered, both naturally, as well as because kieran has literally made him bulletproof. bagged him, blanketed him, stood, jumped, backflipped onto and off of him. this kindly gentleman of a horse only spooks when he wants to be bratty specifically.
- i think he’s about 6 or so, came from the stables kieran worked at after being orphaned, he was just a colt when kieran was just a kid. kieran learned how to birth foals quickly, and branwen happened to be one of them. with the way that they fell in love with each other and the way that branwen whinnied and pranced up to the fence when kieran came back to buy him after the army didn’t work out, you’d think that horse was born just for him.
- his favourite treats, in order, are rutabaga (kieran’s secret for branwen’s glossy coat. also why he’s kinda fat.), boiled potatoes mixed into his oats, apples, and fresh greens. he’s simultaneously incredibly easy to please because of the simplicity of the latter parts of his favourites list and also very needy and complicated because kieran so loves to make his pony happy with his absolute favourite treats, so he tries his very best to get branwen’s eccentric tastes pleased once falling into the VDL’s.
- i always say “a horse’s favourite thing to do is hurt itself”, and i think this statement holds relatively true for branwen as well, though there’s a 25% chance that he’s actually hurt, a 50% chance that he’s only mildly injured or spooked and he’s playing it up to get kieran to dote on him, and a 25% chance that he will protect kieran with his life when they’re in a dire situation (see: snake on the ground or gunfire nearby. or even god forbid a spare tumbleweed find it’s way rolling nearby.) despite kieran’s last wish being his horse getting injured. branwen thinks that he’s gotta be The Man and protect his dad sometimes. it does not help in any situation ever whatsoever.
- branwen is the PERFECT companion for a trail riding date. he’s settled, calm, has a great gait, and as a gelding, truly is not worried about other horses being “faster” than him, so he never gets rowdy nor has any problems when partner riders/horses crowd him. kieran is allowed to ask for as many kisses as he pleases because branwen will never jump when javier’s gold-tipped boots poke him in the side and boaz irritatedly flicks his flank with his tail. truly a goated wingman. also never complains about long rides, and enjoys being out of camp with his rider for as much as physically possible for both of them, so he’s never barnsour in either direction.
boaz
- as an american paint, he’s naturally short and stocky. saddle ends up being a bit loose, though, as javier isn’t as dedicated to keeping him perfectly fed or groomed. he loves him, sure, but horses are somewhat of tools to him, so he kinda does slightly more than bare minimum to keep him kempt and healthy. around 14.5hh, slightly shorter than average and quite dense with muscle
- temperamentally a bit volatile. this horse has just as much drama as his rider, if not a little more. doesn’t like something ? ridden too long ? that stick looks too much like a snake ? hasn’t spent enough time with kieran that day ? he will snort and grunt and bunny hop if javi isn’t on him, and shudder hard enough the saddle shakes underneath him if he is. boaz likes to please his rider, but he also demands pleasure himself, and has no issue with “accidentally” placing a hoof on his owners nice, intentionally clean boots, and subsequently slowly leaning more and more of his weight onto it when he doesn’t immediately get what he wants. bratty pony. generally, he keeps javier safe, though, when it comes down to it.
- around 5 years old. after dutch found javier trying to steal chickens the first time they met, he soon took him back to that ranch and their first take as gang leader and member was a 1 year old grey paint colt for javi to train and subsequently ride. until he was rideable, javier rode a morgan that was formerly hosea’s, named carolina, while he lead boaz everywhere behind him.
- favourite treats, in order, are corn cobs (especially dried), prickly pear fruit AND cactus, sugar cubes, and sliced apples. will force javier to share his maiz with him. javier has always sliced his apples up since he was a colt, not only because javi simply finds comfort in toying with his knife, but also because boaz will not eat them otherwise. javi will also cut all of the spines off of the cactus before letting boaz eat them.
- in terms of injury, boaz is the most dramatic tank on the planet. this horse could arthur morgan-style run face first into a tree and then fall off a cliff and walk it off. but not before he gimps and limps and whines and teeth grinds his way into javier leading him instead of riding him for the next mile or two. once kieran started taking care of him, there is also a 25% chance of boaz faking a terribly painful injury just to get kieran to dote on him.
- kinda the worst wingman ever LMFAO easily annoyed, easily aroused, easily offended, and as a stallion, HAS to walk in front of the “herd” (his rider’s boyfriend and his horse). pins his ears back, smashes into personal space, flicks branwen with his tail (and preferably kieran, if he can reach him) even sometimes will nip at branwen if the latter tries to calmly make this date a date and not a life or death race (whoever loses, their dad is gay) and walk side-by-side to aid their riders’ hand holdings. will make executive decisions via stopping or veering off for fresh green grass beside the trail, will at points actively attempt to shudder javier out of his saddle (has succeeded once when javi was distracted by a story being excitedly told by kieran), and will also spook and take off running so fast javier thinks it must have broken his neck from the velocity. generally makes trail rides a living hell, but kieran finds it charming, and it makes for some cute shoujo-style “omg … *reaches out to help you up after your horse bucks you off because he saw a log that looked nothing at all and everything like a cougar and pink and white soft bubbles surround me* are you okay ? here, let me help.” moments. maybe some day boaz will be allowed off of the national american terrorist list written by javier “rizzless rider” escuella
ok im tired and that’s all i can think of please enjoy and feel free to contribute 👍 i love them so bad im gona cry
#i’m at the gym for the first time since my od and ouugghh i’m so emotional#it’s 2am aslo. ouu they haunt me#i love thinking about them being silly little domestic cowboys#and just going on dates and riding their little horsies#my fav horse girls !1!!11!1!1!! even tho javi isn’t a horse girl really but in my heart he is cuz kieran loves trail rides#and so javieran go on trail rides a lot as well as “’riding into town’ as an excuse to get out of camp together#javier is so good at listening he truly learned the art of shutting up when he couldn’t speak english and also was learning in america that#he really should trust sparingly because the new world was so incredibly hostile to him from the start simply for being who he was and where#he came from#so he’s such a great active listener and while it’s kinda a trauma response it also works very well for javierans relationship because kiera#has never in his life ever felt important or safe or like anything he said mattered to anyone so perfect brilliant ‘i’m listening go on’ jab#vier makes kieran feel so loved and heard in ways he’s never ever in his life experienced and javi takes them fishing and riding and to the#stables constantly because he’s LISTENED to kieran and kieran never has to ask to do something he wants to do because javi’s already HEARD h#im (and he also knows kieran would never ask for anything first ever because he never feels like he deserves anything at all. nor even feels#safe enough to dare).#and javier gets his cake and eats it too when kieran asks and asks and asks because kieran cares about EVERYTHING right from the getgo beau#se unlike javier kieran has been entirely unable to turn his heart off at all in any capacity so he loves and loves ans loves against his wi#ll so javier has been so adored from the start because kieran can’t HELP it so he gets him gifts and learns things for him and javi just as#much never has to ask for much other than courage from kieran. ever. can anyone hear me is anyone lidtening ouuu#ok enough sorry they make me so emptipnal#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#javieran#kieran duffy#javier escuella#text#hero's talking to himself again#hero’s waxing poetry again#i think that was the tag ¿#im gonna throw up i miss them so bad they’re everything to me oouuggyuuuy
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Not to be asexual on main but I still don’t understand how eating cake by the ocean was supposed to immediately be understood to be about sex
#do I think about this every time I hear the song YES#like I GET that cake = ass and I KNOW that a lot of pop songs are innuendos#but I can’t help it! I want to eat sweets at the beach!#asexuality
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okay but can we talk about how ???? Lucius is with Edward? Like this man is a freak I can’t hold it in anymore. How did one episode make a man get revealed as a fucking freak in a way.
Ed has both gassed up a entire group of cops which made them fear about a poison threat he made up, held Lucius’s coworker hostage dangling over a flight of stairs, admitted to having something to do with their missing mayor via omission (not responding at all when Lucius asked him about it) broke into Lucius’s car and pointed a gun at him once Lucius got in ALL IN THE SAME DAY AND HE DOESN'T FREAK OUT ONCE???? He doesn’t freak out at all with Edward. Never once does he freak out. He stays level headed, empathetic and genuinely caring about Edward’s mental state while talking to him???? The way he’s so level headed here feels like he has a fucking screw loose in his cranium. Literally how.
Mind you Ed is a man who his first interaction with was ED ADMITTING HE HAD A MISSING COP IN HIS HOME VIA A RIDDLE. HIS SECOND INTERACTION WITH THIS MAN IS HIM MAKING HIM ANSWER FUCKING RIDDLES IN ARKHAM OR ELSE HE WILL KILL THEM BOTH WITH POISON. I KNOW HE WAS BLUFFING ABOUT THE POISON HERE AGAIN BUT GENUINELY HOW IS HE ALWAYS LEVEL HEADED WITH THIS MAN. FREAK BEHAVIOR!!!!
Also him acting like this strengthens the fact the only riddle he got right was reflection. He understands at least some part of Ed. Even though that part is small and fuzzy in his understanding, it’s still something. It’s still something that he can empathize with. Something that is worth trying to understand more of even despite their brief encounters. God do I love his weird push over ways with Ed it’s so fucking fun I wish they interacted more. This is horrific for me
#rambles#gotham#gotham fox#gotham 2014#edward nygma#lucius fox#foxma#Riddlefox#Nygmafox#lunar over analyzes two characters who barely interact with eachother for a ship post. Fork found in kitchen#I’m in a heavy explaining details I love in very fucking minor ships recently alright#I’m shocked I haven’t gotten this detailed with them before so now I gotta change that. I can’t keep holding onto my shipping thoughts that#I only let go of in fucking conversations with my mutuals in DMs. Yall gotta hear my fuckass thoughts more actually#ALSO I AM A FIRM AUTISM HAVER LUCIUS BELIEVER. IT MAKES SENSE WITH THE FUCKING REFLECTION RIDDLE NARRATIVELY#LET ME READ TOO DEEP INTO A DYNAMIC TWO CHARACTERS WHO ONLY INTERACTED FOR EACHOTHER 20 MINUTES MAX IN THE WHOLE SHOW OKAY#MY BLOG MY RULES#also I do know he technically threatened Ed in season three when it came to Ed going to the gcpd to help Oswald and his mothers statue#but like. That wasn’t fucking agitated at all. He said that calmly. To a man who has commited many crimes and used to stay at Arkham. How#why is he never truly unsettled heavily by this man it’s so funny why is he chill and even PLAYFUL WHEN THREATENING HIM????#they deserved to interact more!!!! Free me!!!!!#Character study#I guess. This is a heavily undeveloped Gotham side character lmfaoooooo
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I swear every time I have a headache and I hear SB’s voice, the pain goes away for a few seconds.
#like I’ll can’t help but smile whenever I hear him#he just radiates so much comfort#💬 chy chatter 💬#🧽 spo.ngebob 🧽
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Drowning my sorrows in music <3
#I blast it until I can’t hear shit anymore#helps me forget everything else exists#actually bpd#bpd#bpd culture is#bpd feels#bpd safe#bpd vent#bpd problems#bpd thoughts#cluster b
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i was too keyed up yesterday from peak content so i slept like garbage and am a little too tired to stream today lol
but i offer you a transliteration of hitoya’s solo preview lol
#this is vee speaking#and i mean transliteration lol#i’m not good enough to tl lyrics but i think having a general idea of what he’s saying will help in the long run lol#i really do want to talk about this lol i’m sorry my energy levels are always in the negatives by the time i get off work 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#hitoya is preaching this song is so GRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH i can’t wait to hear what he’s teaching in the rest of his song#and like i don’t want to make too many observations about anything with a bad tl lol#but the usage of ‘curse’ and ‘sing’ in those first two verses makes me think they’re directed towards kuukou and jyushi respectively#kuukou is often in conjunction with curses bc of his occupation and the same can be said for jyushi#plus the crybaby part and how jyushi still carries a lot of guilt about his past#and the scars on your chest you wear with pride kinda sounds similar to kuukou’s verse in kaigen#where he says this flower carved on my chest is a mandala#kuukou then brings up the red spider lily a flower symbolic of death#which makes me a little more certain that sadness is a curse on body and soul you carry heartache always is directed towards kuukou#i wouldn’t be surprised if hitoya’s yapping at the both of his teammates in this song tbh#kuukou’s always compared jyushi to flowers so it wouldn’t be surprising if hitoya’s blooming flowers verse was towards jyushi#but also it could be kuukou bc hayama-san mentioned kuukou was blooming in this track lol#speculation speculations~~
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