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thereâs a part of me that has wanted to get an Icon ever since reading Brothers Karamazov the first time back in 2012
I wonât do it, not in the least because I am not Orthodox, and I think I respect my sibling faiths enough not to cop things from them with insufficient reason, but there is something about it
#I donât complain about orthodox much but I have in the past vented considerable ire at catholicism#but#you know#at the end of the day#I feel like#itâs hard to explain#I am a Protestant#but I am not so Protestant that I have nothing but contempt for the others#I think Catholics for example are too weird about Mary#but I will not say anything against Mary herself#becauseâŠ#because#(not on purpose at leastâI have reservations about her perpetual virginity which is itself a slander I suppose)#I do not believe in icons#and yet#in some way#precisely because I do not believe#I will not acquire one#because it would be glorified art#but still art#and I feel that would be disrespectful
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Do any of you remember a Youtube video about Re:Kinder talking about how the game is seen and percieved by some people (mostly touching upon and arguing against how it has been treated insensitively as some sort of weird legend like "ooo disturbing game with a hidden truth behind it" due to it's creator being dead), as well as talking about the charm of the game (even mentioning it's art at some point) and sadness of the themes without spoiling anything at the same time?? I remember the video avoided saying any spoilers at all and only touched on the literal plot as the kids being stuck in a dire situation in the town with all the adults dead without really getting into the why (it didn't even say one of the kids themselves was the causeâ as thus, spoiler free), other than that it just touched on the emotional side of it and vaguely mentioned some scenes.
i also remember at some point the later half (at the very least if not in all of it) of the video, music by Siinamota was playing in the background. Does anyone remember seeing a video like this?
I can't seem to find it anywhere and don't even remember the exact year I watched it.đ It was the way I found out about this game a while ago, which eventually ended up in me playing it, and I really wish I could watch it again. I thought it was a deleted video by someone called hazel as it was mentioned by a lot of people, but I found that one and it isnt it.đ I'm wondering if anyone remembers watching something along the lines of what im describing and knows if it's still up.
#re:kinder#not art#posting this because naw i am desperate ive been looking for this video for months#i genuinely thought it could be the hazel video but it wasnt and now im back at where i started...đ#if its still up i cannot find it on youtube#but i wonder if anyone even recalls watching this at all because im worried my memory is playing with međ#itd be rather weird though because i do recall it very vividly. it struck with me in a way i managed to remember the game by name later on#looking back on my memory of it it was a really nice video. i do agree on what it said of how people seem to treat this game#the video was really trying to make people see and appreciate the game and the themes itself instead of the glorified urban legend idea ofi#because it is true that people treat it as some âdisturbing fun factâ that someone died as if it was all his legacy wasđ#i dont remember it being the high quality standard editing known of video essays nowadays#oh thats all i can say i dont recall much its been a while and i dont know how much a while is ...đ#id be very happy to know if anyone can recognize anything at all. that video really got imprinted into my memory#it left me very emotional even as it didnt even tell me much about the game it still managed to express the feelings of it#ou shoutout to this video forever i love you thank you for informing me of this awesome game while letting me go blind#i was up for a ride#i wish i could see it again#really showed me one of the ending scenes and i had NO IDEA I HAD NO IDEA#oh my god what a good video i had no idea yet i was so devastated#thats all i can convey im not sure if saying âit made a deep emotional impression on meâ is a good descriptor to find a video i cant find#i dont know if anyone who has seen it would have felt as emotional as i had but im not sure how else to put it
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"This post makes a great blocklist" has done awful things to my psyche. Why do I keep wasting what builds up to hours of my time reading all of this dumb shit just to block people?? It's block and move on, not black and move and block and move and block and move and-
#'if you have an alt account that's because you have something to hide'#'why would you put your gross stuff with your good stuff???'#pick one bitch#'seeing that is triggering to me' okay valid me too#'but if I interacted with someone who happens to like it on their down time I want people to bring it up to me asap'#good for you I guess?? if you bring up my triggers when I am talking about something I like I will bite your head off!!#'fictional gross stuff is gross' 'kill yourself irl'#do#do you hear yourself?#the idea that people genuinely believe it's fine and okay to harass and bully people irl but it's not okay to quietly Make Weird Art is so#o.O#I don't want to see it so I block tags! I filter! I mind my own business!#'I happened to stumble upon an alt account that triggered me-'#I mean this lovingly (no I don't)#where were you that you accidentally found an account with content that triggers you and it JUST SO HAPPENED to bear similarity to a#completely different account...?#assuming that the alt accusation is in good faith- that's a lot of research to put yourself through just to make yourself uncomfortable#assuming that you just saw it and clicked away like anyone seeing trigger/squick content would how would you even KNOW that's an actual alt#and then it just goes back to the 'people put stuff you don't want to see somewhere you don't have to see it'#if they put it somewhere else they're hiding it but if they put it alongside their other stuff they're promoting or glorifying it#I don't need to touch grass I need to touch that unfinished fic I left in the summer of 2019
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I'm extremely tempted to actually go and write a whole thing about how with the adequate filtering and concern that vulnerable groups don't find the content how problematic """shipping""" and other frowned-upon content isn't that bad. Backed by my therapist.
#not art#and i need to say right FUCKING now because i KNOW some people don't have reading comprehension:#i am not a proshipper nor would i ever associate with them. this is an entirely different fucking thing#and shipping is used so loosely here because I don't have a better word. I'll find a better word before i make that doc#in short though: partaking in problematic content as a form of coping isn't bad. so long as 1) it isn't glorified#and 2) it's filtered appropriately. CAN WE PLEASE BRING BACK DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT. PLEASE I'M BEGGING THE INTERNET
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Ugh I remember dark academia when it like first started between 5 Tumblr blogs like I saw a post where some intrigued anon was like omg what are some dark academic foods and the person was like ummm black coffee. toast with nothing on it. cocaine LMAO like people got so fucking weird about it like they do with everything
#idk why people wont look at how people politicize such aesthetics instead of being like omg cottagecore is problematic#no tik tok is problematic LMAO#it was so cool before people were dumb as fuck about it#i like hyperspecific personalized aesthetics like as your personal art and style and shit#but like over specific labeling idk#we need dark trade school LMAO#hitting a deer in your 1986 ford f150 and starting your day with half a flat beer and a cigarette#but like i would rather people romanticize rich people oxford bullshit instead of gentrifying everything like whats wrong with that#have rich people invest in some stuffy academic children nd mahogany bookshelves again instead of marble countertops and THE BOYS đ„¶đ„” sons#what i really liked abt that aesthetic is how it focused kind of on cults and manipulation in such high society academic circles#because colleges are horrible places they are glorified mafias#but that kind of got washed away from oughhhnnn corduroy and book reading#english people
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I was on a plane this weekend, and I was chatting with the woman sitting next to me about an upcoming writerâs strike. âDo you really think youâre mistreated?â she asked me.
Thatâs not the issue at stake here. Let me tell you a little something about âminirooms.â
Minirooms are a way of television writing that is becoming more common. Basically, the studio will hire a small group of writers, 3-6 or so, and employ them for just a few weeks. In those few weeks (six weeks seem to be common), they have to hurriedly figure out as much about the show as they can -- characters, plots, outlines for episodes. Then at the end of the six weeks, all the writers are fired except for the showrunner, who has to write the entire series themselves based on the outlines.
This is not a widespread practice, but it has become more common over the past couple of years. Studios like it because instead of paying for a full room for the full length of the show, they just pay a handful of writers for a fraction of the show. Itâs not a huge problem now, but the WGA only gets the chance to make rules every three years -- if we let this go for another three years and it becomes the norm? That would be DEVASTATING for the tv writing profession.
Do I feel like Iâm mistreated? No. I LOVE my job! But in a world of minirooms, there is no place for someone like me -- a mid-level writer who makes a decent living working on someone elseâs show (Iâd like to be a showrunner someday, but for now I feel like I still have a lot to learn, and my husband and I are trying to start a family so I like not being support rather than the leader for now). In a miniroom, there are only two levels -- the handful of glorified idea people who are already scrambling to find their next show because you canât make a decent living off of one six-week job (and since there are fewer people per room, there are fewer jobs overall, even at the six-week amount), and the overworked, stressed as fuck showrunner who is going to have to write the entire thing themselves. Besides being bad for me making a living, I also just think itâs plain bad for television as an art form -- what I like about TV is how adaptable it is, how a whole group of people come together to tell a story better than what any of them could do on their own. Plus the showrunner canât do their best work under all of that pressure, episode after episode, back to back. Minirooms just...fucking suck.
The WGA is proposing two things to fix this -- a rule that writers have to be employed for the entire show, and a rule tying the number of writers in the room to the number of episodes you have per season. I donât think itâs unreasonable. Itâs the way shows have run since the advent of television. Itâs only in the last couple of years that this has become a new thing. Itâs exploitative. It squeezes out everyone except showrunners and people who have the financial means to work only a few months a year. It makes television worse. And that is the issue in this strike that means everything to me, and that is why I voted yes on the strike authorization vote.
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#thinking about how my old art teacher was always so eager to force themes of motherhood and motherly love into her students' art and how#I've always felt so at loss about what to do with such a topic bc I just. didn't feel any real bond with my mother#not that that has changed lol#and how she was always glorifying it and even in primary school I've already sensed sth off and was opposed to it#thinking how I've never understood parenthood until my brother grew up and imprinted on me instead of my parents#and how the true discovery of the nature of such a bond always came to me in fiction#because I could understand what between two fictional characters would make them feel good and safe with each other#idk it's like#I've had to grow up enough to see the kid me as a kid and only then did I kinda like get it#uhhhhh#don't touch me it's life shit catching up with me again#all thanks to the ninjas *confetti*#d0 stuff
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pygmalion au // rafe cameron x reader
summary ; â you love someone you can shape, who has no will to escape. â artist!rafe x muse!reader.
warnings ; unsafe feelings. slight of angst. smut. kind of fantasy/magic. art glorification. attachment issues. innocent!reader. fear of losing somebody. first time. rafe being a lost boy. dubcon. pygmalion' weird story. toxic!rafe. mentions of drugs. oral (m. receiving). p in v. insecurities. praising. artist hands appreciation. minors DNI.
author's note : 3,5 k words for this. one-shot. also a lot of tummy appreciation (tysm @shawtycoreee đ«¶đż). out of the smut, i tried to write it so poetic đđ€đż
â â wrap me up, enfold me. i am small and needy. warm me up and breathe me. â breathe me by sia.
it was alone and late at night that rafe cameron began to create you, not really knowing at the time he started his art what work you would produce. he only cut the stone with his hands. before forming your body, he fantasized about it internally, not really knowing what a woman's anatomy actually looked like. you were like a crazy dream he was trying to sort out, a fantasy he was trying to make real. he sculpted with his straight calloused and tired hands, manipulating the fragile and sensitive material with precision.
he hated doing badly, but it was what he did best. as he worked, he sank into his own fascination. you were magnificent, no, you were divine, the glorious treasure from his hands. it was scary and breathtaking. he had never done anything so beautiful, never created anything so charming. you had this firm, seductive chest, completely bare and hard, the movement of the stone making your belly round and chubby. you were carved in marble, an inanimate statue that had found favor in the eyes of his creator.
when he had finished your face,
he had been amazed but above all frightened by what his fingers had achieved. he had given shape to your lips, your nose, your mouth and your eyes. and now that you had a look, it was like you were confronting him. because now that you had pupils, you could look at him too, you could judge him too. you could be as superior as him, but also equal to his worth.
you were his most beautiful work of art, literally his ethereal and angelic muse. and above all, you made him nervous. not only were you realistic, but you were a woman, you were like one of the goddesses from greek mythology, completely naked.
it was unexpected, but he had knelt before you, before your altar, on his legs and his hands. he was so white and desperate like a lost sinner having only his god to pray and glorify in order to survive.
you had seen his lips part in a prayer, his mouth tighten in a whisper. and you had ears, certainly made of stone, but you had heard it. you had heard his wish lost in the void. yet he had nothing of a believer, you could hardly imagine this man on the benches of a church, but you were also cruelly incapable of seeing and understanding who he really was.
when he stood up, you felt his hands on your skin, the coldness of his ring, but also the awkwardness of his touch. you could tell it was the first time he touched someone intimately, because he didn't really know where to put his hands but he also didn't know how to touch you without destroying you.
rafe cameron was not a god. he could break anything he touched. and maybe that was why he was so nervous and pathetic. you belonged to him now that he had created you so he refused to lose you without even knowing you.
he had hoped that god would make you a real woman, because you were perfect, too sublime to be just a piece of stone.
he didn't need to pull himself up to reach you, he was much taller, more intimidating in terms of size. he could lift you up and control you with just one hand.
you looked so alive so why, why did he only hear one heartbeat in the room? why was he alone breathing in this cold and empty room? why did you only have life in appearance?
you could feel in his look that he was questioning, that he was troubled, that all the beauty of his blue eyes was overwhelmed. but you had also felt his face so close to yours, his breath fanning across your molded lips. he had been hesitant, but his mouth had finally found yours.
and you surprised yourself by loving the taste of his pretty lips, but above all by being able to touch it.
and it was like that kiss had been real enough of how he felt about you that god had decided to give him a chance.
you had sensed all the ivory of your body, of your muscles, becoming sublimely gorgeous, all your stone beauty becoming human and alive. as if his devotion had allowed you to be free and to exist.
when he felt your mouth melt on his, he pulled back in fear. you werenât supposed to be real even if he wanted you to be. since when did statues come to life?
"oh fuck, what's going on here?... i think i'm going crazy...all that fucking cokeâŠâ
âyou created me.â you replied, slightly hurt by his reaction because he was supposed to be happy.
"no, you're not supposed to be alive. i mean, you're art, you can't be human."
âiâm human!â you contradicted, stepping forward from your marble base.
rafe wasn't sure if it was a nightmare or a dream. but his gaze was anchored on you, he couldn't take every inch of his eyes off your body. he was magnetized by your magnificence.
you came just close enough to take his hand and place it against your chest. âdonât be cold to me. donât leave me. what would i do without you? you can't reject me. you need me. â
maybe that was the game changer for rafe cameron. because he had just understood that since you were his, you belonged to him, you were entirely dependent on him. you couldn't escape, and above all, you had no desire to.
he could do what he wanted, you were like a doll created to respond to the slightest of his favors without ever complacent. you were not only perfect but unimaginable.
â be on your knees for me.â
and the next second, you were staring at him waiting for another order.
"mmh...i know your body by heart. i shape all of this. but you have never seen mine. no worry, i'm going to fix that, okay? you're going to please me tonight and not make me regret 'have given you life?â
you nodded in agreement and he smiled because you were too innocent, too sweet for someone like him. he had unzipped his pants, making them fall to his legs like his boxers.
and it was the first time you saw a naked man in front of you, but it was also fair for you because you had no clothes. âlet me help youâŠâ he offered with a smirk. his thumb had rolled over your lips, creating a slight slit between them. â you need to open that pretty mouth wider...â he added, taking advantage of your vulnerability to use you.
"you know it will only hurt if you don't relax. so don't be tense. because even if it's big, you're gonna take it, doll. not gonna be easy on you because it's your first time. show me what you can do baby, let me feel how grateful you are for your creator. "
he had pushed his tip against your lips, forcing his way into your mouth, making you open bigger to accommodate his cock in your cavity. it was new to you, and you weren't even sure if you could satisfy him because it was the first time you had done something like that, and especially used your mouth in that way.
you thought this area was used to create intimacy between people, not to do dirty things.
âbaby, i really appreciate how sweet you can be, but donât let me do all the workâŠâ he had scoffed. and your heart skipped a beat when he shoved himself further in your mouth, so much so that you felt him hit the back of your throat, all the speed of his harshly strokes leaving you breathless.
you choked on his movements, saliva pooling and dripping between the corners of your enlarged lips. âthatâs what happens when you donât do your part of the job properlyâŠâ his tone was falsely accusatory as you couldnât catch your breath from his pace. he had no pity, you had turned on him too much. and to fix it, he blamed you by harassing your throat with his fat cock.
"but since you leave me no choice, let me show you how to be a good girl for me..." he had plugged your nose, pinching it hard, forcing you to take him entirely, without being able to breathe. his length swallowed in and out, your tongue barely able to support his weight which grew as he bullied your lips.
you belonged to him so he didnât care if he ruined you a little. he told himself that he would repair you.
he released your nose when he felt you were about to pass, with a sadistic giggle. your eyes were wet with tears. âoh baby, donât give me that look, youâre wasting your time, i donât feel pity. â
you continued to pump him until your jaw arched tighten and become more tense. he pulled out for a moment, spitting in your tongue, before using your throat again. his grunts were frantic and rapid, hot breaths in sync with the pornographic sounds that emanated from your sucking. his large palm was wrapped around the back of your neck, controlling your posture. â give me that sweet eyes again, and i will make them cry.â
he took so much pleasure in watching you swallow him hard, grunting every time he entered your throat hoping to relax it but causing the opposite effect. "'ot finished. take those balls too." he had pulled back to lift his painfully throbbing dick and place it against his stomach, you had started to lick them, letting your tongue work the entire surface, coating them with saliva. "feel? how full they are. they're gonna stuff you real bad. " you sucked on them when he pushed them directly into your mouth, making him let out throaty sounds. your mouth felt so good, he wondered if your pussy would be just as her.
between your legs, it was completely soaked. your sloppy slit dripping onto the floor. it wasnât like rafe was ignoring that mess. he was just purely mesmerized by your lips, by the way you cupped his balls so well, and how his cock reacted to each of your licks.
you were definitely his best work. it was more than art, it was heavenly. he was incapable of not using you after creating you. he had his urges, and you had to respond to them.
he had started fisting his length, leaving you lapping at his genitals dangling above your face. the cum had gushed through the air, landing on you. he had rubbed his trailing tip on your cheeks, giving a new color to your skin.
he wondered if you were human enough to feel all this degradation. in a short movement, he had placed you in front of the standing mirror of the workshop, and had driven his body against yours. he spat into his hand before jerking off a little, pressing the head of his cock against your sticky dirty folds.
he placed his arm across your stomach, one hand gripping one of your breast, pressing it more firmly once lodged inside you and grunted as he felt how tight you were, how hard your pussy stretched in his path. thanks to the mirror, he could see each of your reactions, but above all, see your part pumped each of his inches. all his size had disappeared between your flowing walls.
your twitching cunt clenched around his girth, your canal squeezing him. his thrusts were merciless, burrowing into your soiled folds. rafe rocked his hips roughly, as his dick bullied your puffy core. he wondered how a loser like him could have created a goddess like you. and he was desperate to know if he could make you stupid, if his cock that destroyed and filled you was good enough for someone like you.
you had created a mess and frustration in him.
he was in love with the bouncing flesh on your tummy against his arm, your tits swaying when you took him. it was a grace.
he reached out and hit your spot every time he buried himself inside you, his face sank in your left shoulder. you could feel the strands of his hair against your skin, his mouth against your collarbone. you were his, he was fucking you like this. you were only alive when he touched you. you could feel his obsession and adoration in every thrusts, no matter how brutal they were. it was his way of showing you that you couldn't escape him and that you could never.
his rhythm was hard, as your pudgy tummy jiggled under his strong fingers who were digging into you. you were so giddy, fucked like a ragdoll not able to said if it was the butterflies that make your stomach spiraling, or that thick dick shoved inch by inch further into your messy slick. his other digits at your clit, massaging the small and eager bud. he was big enough to maneuver you and embraced your small frame with his muscular biceps.
you were too little, too fragile underneath him.
he was your creator, he gave you air but he could also take it away from you. you were completely dependent, not only you, but every crumb of your body. he was pounding into you with the inability to detach his cock from your fluffy pussy. he loved hearing your voice choked with tears and moans against his ear. it was a sweet melody, a symphony.
your body was perfect, straddling his, your skin slapping his. your lips gurgling around his fingers that you could no longer take without dropping them, because of his violent assaults. you drooled all over your mouth, struggling with the drool that splashed all over his hand.
you couldn't see anything anymore, it was blurry. you didn't even feel tired anymore, you felt like a stupid doll, unable to think and reflect, only able to take this cock nastily harassing you and stretching you violently.
with his muscular and heavy hand on your throat, he forced you to look at the mirror. there was something incredible and perfect in his hands, and you knew it from the moment he started sculpting you. they were so good and incredible, covered with veins that systematically bulged. they captured your belly fat well. âdonât hide this from me. itâs my property.â
he had harpooned your flesh between his fingers, making it move and hang down more as he fucked you senseless.
âif i shaped you like that, that meant i wanted you like that.â your tummy was caged in his grasp. â i mean, look at that belly, it's all beauty, i swear.â
he had moved his hand to the lower part of your stomach, pressing that area of your skin, feeling his bulge farther in you. in this corner of the room, there was only you and him, only your whimpers against his fingers and the pleasure you felt. there was only this mirror that stared at you and reflected you in the darkness with the only light of the moon as a beacon.
you were divine, you had the perfect body of a goddess. and even having cum with you, even causing your third orgasm, he didn't want to pull out. it was as if he was afraid of the emptiness he expected after this. and maybe you too were dreading the emptiness inside you after he filled you up so well, your soaked pussy dripping with his cum, drooling all over the floor.
he had finally taken it out, his fingers entering you to collect his mixture and place it against your lips. âdonât let it go to waste.â
you had cleaned his fingers until they were pure again.
he had his eyes on you, like a human in front of art.
he still didn't realize. but he refused to let you escape. but it wasn't like you could. he had created a home here, all over this room and in you. he had established a domain in every inch of your skin. he only had to see you to know that you were his own creation.
you kissed him, slightly awkwardly but he made up for it with his mouth on yours. âyou canât abandon me.â he whispered. âi donât want to abandon you.â
and it felt good to hear your words. you didn't know him well enough, or not really, to know how sick he was. but you felt grateful that he gave you life, because it was priceless. he had made you, and you were his.
â what are you doing?â when you felt chains encircling your wrists, you werenât sure if you liked it. "i really want to believe in you sweetheart but i also can't trust anyone. you have legs, you can run away from me but with this metal, you're stuck.â
âi donât really like itâŠâ you admitted and he replied âno one likes it but the difference is that you donât really have a choice either. you're mine. your feelings, your body, your eyes, all of that is mine. even that pouty sweet face of yours. â
you turned your head to let him know that you didn't appreciate it, and to give him the silent treatment. and he smiled. âit doesn't kill me, baby. you can pout. â
you didnât respond. "you really want to give me this treatment? maybe you really don't want me to be nice to you after all..."
he had smiled. â"okay...I'll give you what you want." he had disappeared for a few minutes before coming back with an object that you couldn't identify. " what is this ? "
"now, baby wants to talk...but it's a little too late, i'm making the rules here so...say hello to your new favorite toy. it's a gagball.â
you didn't feel it was useful until the ball went into your mouth and stopped you from speaking. you could only drool and grumble around the object.
"why that face, baby? that's not what you wanted? i swear you still look pretty. just quieter. i'm going to go to sleep. and tomorrow you'll show me how sorry you are for that attitude. you want to know if i would forgive you? maybe it would be too easy, you understand? you have all night to prepare excuses and they better please me because i can be even more creative than that to punish you. â
the next day he woke up in a good mood. and above all, you were always there.
he had picked up the bottle of water from his table, wondering if you were thirsty. but when he arrived in front of you, he changed his mind. he used it to wake you up.
"i'm so clumsy...sorry, baby." but there wasn't an ounce of regret in his voice so you knew he was joking. you learned to read his face.
âyou know how sorry i amâŠâ he added, facing your gaze.
âyouâre notâŠâ
"yes, right. such a clever baby. are you thirsty?â
" yes..."
âmaybe if you show me how good and nice you are today, i can consider bringing you another bottle.â
"what do you want..."
âitâs not what i want, sweetheart. but what you will do to satisfy me. see the small difference ? â
it had been several weeks, a month in fact, since the day of your creation. you had spent your time in this workshop, chained to this wall. you were only alone when rafe left, when he left you in the shadows.
in fact, he was clearly having fun with you. you were dependent on his affection, and he knew it. you reacted to the slightest attention he gave you, even the most mean and bad. but above all you were incapable of hating rafe cameron.
he had made you a magnificent creature, a living human, you would be even crueler than him if you hated him.
after all, you were his muse. he had the right to use you. that was also the thought he had drilled into your brain.
everything he did was for you. and you should be grateful.
but sometimes he wondered, if he killed you, would you come back to life? was there magic in you or was he just in a fucking wonderful dream? he did enough coke to get high for days but this time it lasted too long for it to be fake.
your relationship was strange because sometimes you felt loved, especially when he hugged you after being rough with you, his palm gently caressing your back. like any human, there was tenderness in him. he could be nice. he knew how to be one but that didn't mean he enjoyed being one. he just thought that if he was too mean, you would disappear.
and that was not something he could tolerate. during all this time spent with you, he had not learned, no, he had not succeeded, to live without you.
artists brought art to life, but art gave meaning to the artists' lives.
before you, he was alone.
he had prayed for you. he needed you. it was his final call.
rafe cameron fell in love with you before he created you, before he even imagined you.
and maybe that was why he was so mean to you, because he never knew love, so how can you blame him for not knowing if you loved him back or make fun of him?
he was pathetic, full of rage and violence. but you couldn't hate him, because you and him shared the same tears. the same pain.
he made you, and you made him. he was afraid and you were scared. you wanted someone to love you, and he wanted someone that could love him.
â i swear, y/n. don't leave me alone. even when you looked away, you make me feel like a monster when i'm not. so please, do the same as me. â
â what ? â
â don't make me feel like somebody else exists. i'm the only world you can live in. â
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OK since I haven't seen too many people talk about this since twitter news usually strikes pretty fast over here whenever e'usk does anything ever, let me give ya'll the run down on two things that will go live on NOVEMBER 15TH and why people are mass migrating to Blue Sky once more; and provide resources to help protect your art and make the transition to Blue Sky easier if you so choose:
The Block function no longer blocks people as intended. It now basically acts as a glorified Mute button. Even when you block someone, they can still see your posts, but they can't engage in them. If your account is a Public one and not a Private one, people you blocked will see your posts.
They say because people can easily "share and hide harmful or private information about those they've blocked," they changed it this way for "greater transparency." When in reality, this is an extremely dangerous change, as the whole point of blocking is to cease interaction with people entirely for a plethora of reasons, i.e. stalking, harassment, spam, endangerment, or just plainly annoying and not wanting to see said tweets/accounts. or you know, for 18+ accounts who do not want minors interacting with them or their material at all (There is speculation saying these changes are specifically for Elon himself so he can do his own kind of stalking, and honestly, with the private likes change, it lowkey checks out in my opinion)
Also, this straight up goes against and may violate Apple and Google's app store policies and also is straight up illegal in Canada and probably other countries as well.
If this ACTUALLY goes through, twitter will only be available in select countries, probably exclusively in the US, which would collapse the site with the lost of users and stock, and probably be the last push it needs to kill the site. And if not, will be a very sad and exclusive platform made for specific kinds of people who line up with musk's line of thinking.
2. New policies regarding Grok AI and basically removing the option to opt out of Grok's information gathering to improve their software.
And anything you upload/post on the site is considered "fair game" with "royalty-free licenses" and they can do whatever they please with it. Primarily using any and all posts on twitter to train their Grok AI. A few months ago, there was a setting you can opt out of so they couldn't take anything you post to "improve" Grok, but I guess because so many people were opting out, they decided to make it mandatory as part of the policy change (This is mainly speculation from what I hear).
So this is considered the final straw for a LOT of people, especially artists who have been gripping on to twitter for as long as they can, but the AI nonsense is too much for people now, including myself. Lot's of people are moving to Blue Sky for good reason, and from personal experience, it is literally 10x better than twitter ever was, even before elon took over. There is no algorithm on there, and you can save "feeds" to your timeline to have a catered timelines to hop between if your looking for something specific like furry art or game dev stuff. It's taken them a bit to get off the ground and add much needed features, but it's genuinely so much better now
RESOURCES
Project Glaze & Cara
If you're an artist who's still on twitter or trying to ride it out for as long as you can for whatever reason you have, do yourself a favor and Glaze and/or Nightshade your work. Project Glaze is a free program designed to protect your art work from getting scrapped by AI machines. Glazing basically makes it harder to adapt and copy artwork that AI programs try to scan, while Nightshade basically "poisons" works to make AI libraries much more unstable and generate images completely off the mark. (These are layman's terms I'm using here, but follow the link to get more information)
The only problem with these programs is that they can be resource intensive for computers, and not every pc can run glaze. It's basically like rendering a frame/animation, you gotta let your pc sit there to get it glazed/nightshade, and depending on the intensity and power of your pc, this may take minutes to hours depending on how much you wanna protect your work.
HOWEVER, there are two alternatives, WebGlaze and Cara
WebGlaze is an in browser version of the program, so your pc doesn't have to do the heavy lifting. You do need to have an account with Glaze and be invited to use the program (I have not done so personally so I don't know much about the process.)
Cara is an artist focused site that doubles as both a portfolio site and a general social media platform. They've partnered with Glaze and have their own browser glazing called "Cara Glaze," and highly encourage users to post their work Glazed and are extremely anti-ai. You do get limited uses per day to glaze your work, so if you plan on doing a huge backlog uploading of your art, it may take awhile if your using just Cara Glaze.
Some twitter users have suggested glazing your art, cropping it, and overlaying it with a frame telling people to follow them elsewhere like on Bluesky. Here's a template someone provided if you wanna use this one or make your own.
Blue Sky Resources and Tips
So if your a twitter user and your about to realize the hellish task of refollowing a massive chunk of people you follow, have no fear, there's an extension called Sky Follower Bridge (Firefox & Chrome links). This is a very basic extension that makes it really easy to find people on Bluesky
It sorts them out by trying to find matching usernames, usernames in descriptions, or by screen name. It's not 100% perfect, there's a couple people I already follow on Blue Sky but the extension could not find them on twitter correctly, but I still found a huge chunk of people. Also if your worried that this extension is "iffy," they do have a github open with the source publicly available and the Blue Sky Team themselves have promoted the extension in their recent posts while welcoming new users to the platform.
FEEDS and LABELS
OK SO THE COOLEST PART ABOUT BLUESKY IS THE FEEDS SYSTEM. Basically if you've made a twitter list before, it's like that, but way more customizable and caters to specific types of posts/topics. Consolidating them into a timeline/feed that exclusively filled about those particular topics, or just people in general. There's thousands to pick and choose from!
Here's a couple of mine that I have saved and ready (down below). Some feeds I have saved so I can jump to seeing what my friends and mutuals are up to, and see their posts specifically so it doesn't get lost in reposts or other accounts, and also specialized feeds for browsing artists within the furry community.
The Furry Community feeds I have here were created by people who've built an algorithm to place any #furry or #furryart or other special tags like #Furrystreamer or #furrydev. They even have one for commissions, and yes you can say commissions on a post and not have it destroyed or shadow banned. You are safe.
If you want, and I highly recommend it to get visibility and check out a neat community, follow furryli.st to get added to their list and feeds. Once your on the list, even without a hashtag, you'll still pop up in their specialized feeds as just a member of the community there. There are plenty of other feeds out there besides this one, but I feel like a lot of people could use one like this. They even got ones for OC specific too I remember seeing somewhere.
And in terms of labels, they can be either ways to help label yourself with specific things or have user created accessibility settings to help better control your experience on Blue Sky.
And my personal favorite: Ai Imagery Labeler. Removes any AI stuff or hides it to the best of it's abilities, and it does a pretty good job, I have not seen anything AI related since subscribing to it.
Finally, HASHTAGS WORK & No need to censor yourself!
This is NOT like twitter or any other big named social media site AT ALL, so you don't have to work around words to get your stuff out there and be seen. There are literally feeds built around having commissions getting and art seen! Some people worry about bots and that has been a recent issue since a lot of people are migrating to Blue Sky, but it comes with any social media territory.
ALSO COOL PART,
you can search a hashtag on someone's profile and search exclusively on that profile as well! You can even put the hashtag in bio for easy access if you have a specialize tag like here on tumblr. OR EVEN BUILD YOUR OWN ART FEED FOR YOUR STUFF SPECIFICALLY!
So yeah, there's your quick run down about twitter's current burning building, how to protect your art, and what to do when you move to Blue Sky! Have fun!
#Twitter#Blue Sky#BlueSky#Cara#Project Glaze#Glazed Art#NightShade#Twitter Update#cara artists#art resource#resource#Online resource
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I am going to be real blunt here and I need you all to read what I am actually saying and not whatever you decide I mean.
You cannot be glorifying suicide the way you all are.
Seriously. You cannot be over here making fan art of someone's suicide. You cannot be pointing at fucking reddit posts and end-of-life planning (something that MANY suicidal people do in the calmness right before an attempt) as evidence of someone being "of sound mind." You cannot be publicly praising someone for committing suicide.
You are going to kill someone. You are telling suicidal people that they can kill themselves in a way that will not only make other people happy, but that will also make a positive difference in the world. That is the absolute #1 thing you DO NOT DO.
Just STOP. Please. I am at a point in my life where I am passively suicidal but that was not always the case. I know how I would've felt seeing those posts when I was a teenager, how validating it would've felt to be told that my suicide could change the world, how encouraged I would've been. Think about the people reading your posts. Think about the messages you're sending to people who are only alive right now because they feel like their suicide would be a waste.
Please.
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Something very sad and dumb is happening. During the slow collapse of the Roman empire we lost many "luxury" trades and techniques due to them not being sustainable in a post-roman less connected world. People didn't get dumber, and they kept using and inventing new things to improve their quality of life, but, to take an exemple out of many, the recipe of the seawater concrete that was so closely tied to Rome's monumental architectural projects was forgotten for over a thousand years simply because for quite some time there just weren't cities vast enough to attract the kind of patrons to fund them, which stopped the process known as euergetism to take place. Somehow we have been going through the same process again over the past hundred and so years, not because there's no upper class to chase civic recognition by sponsoring the arts, but because the upper class has lost interest in sponsoring the arts at all. It seems like rich people have become more and more into the idea alone of accumulating money, and just can't think of ways to spend it that wouldn't also be thought off by the most basic dudebros around. Not to glorify rich people at any point in time but it used to be that when you had an insane amount of money you'd use it to foster a court of artist, build gigantic public baths or commission a rank in the navy to discover new continents. Nowadays it all goes towards a dick measuring contest of yachts, mansions and what just seems like the least satisfying way one could ever spend their money. This wouldn't be so much of a problem considering the lower class has had more spending money than ever before in history, but aside from that and in lock step with exponential capitalism, rich people seem to take personal exception to the arts existing at all, opting instead to commodify everything, copy it and sell it for cheap. We're staring down the barrel of losing thousands of crafts honed over dozens of generations simply because the mercantile hellscape we live in does not, for whatever reason, value having the best possible teapot ever produced, or the best knife, or the best brush, etc... instead these products are undermined by cheap imitations sponsored by rich assholes wanting the appearance of quality over the real thing for revenues' sake, possibly because the idea that an ultra-skilled artisan class getting paid insane amounts of money completely proportional to their labor feels alien to this bunch of parasites. And I don't think that trickle down economics has ever been a thing, but it sure as hell feels like we went from being the paid monkeys of the elite, to them not being willing to spend the piss it would take to save us from a fire.
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the etiquettes of a true bodyguard â j.ww drabble.
â in which wonwoo proves the theory of humans tending to crave what they can't have and he realises that he definitely wants you.
( or you wonder if this was all your karma catching up to you when you become the bodyguard for the renowned notorious rockstar. )
pairing : rockstar!wonwoo x bodyguard!reader, one-sided enemies to ?? genre : angsty, fluffy. warnings : mentions of attacks, injuries, knives, stalkers, treating of wounds, blood. wonwoo is sort of rude. notproofread.
a/n at the end ( it got too long ) pls read and also lmk what u think of this : )
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Donât believe in rumours regarding your clients. (The truth is far more better albeit thereâll always be exceptions. )
You'd mastered the art of nonchalance.Â
If such a thing did even exist but in other words you were very in control of your emotions, usually being able to maintain a calm facade even if there was chaos around you.Â
You suppose it was due to your occupation, after all being an agent did require a lot of keeping your emotions in check.
Even when you weren't doing your job and doing something else, it wasn't as if there was some sort of on and off button where you could switch up your personality and let loose. It just wasn't habituated to you.Â
Being a bodyguard however was different. A favour is what it was. You owed a favour to someone and that someone made you repay the favour by being a bodyguard for someone else they knew.Â
You couldn't argue about it because at the end of it still meant you were repaying back what you owed.Â
It was like a glorified version of a babysitter. Following someone around, making sure they don't mess up or get messed up. That's the whole jist of it.Â
Or at least it was what you thought initially.Â
But you forgot it wasn't children or teens. Rather grown ass adults. Almost your age type adults.Â
Said adults being rockstars part of a rock band that was composed of four of them.
Apparently, in this industry it was common for these celebrities to have personal bodyguards because of the threats they'd face such as fans who get a little crazy, jealous people who tend to push the limits to the max with death threats, paparazzi who have no idea what a personal space is and the list goes on and on.Â
You never had been a bodyguard before so when you discovered all the reasons a âmereâ singer would need one, you were shocked to say the least.Â
Yet, a favour is a favour and you would keep to your word and do your best, so that's what you did. Being the best bodyguard was the goal.Â
It was your first time doing such a task? Mission? You couldnât quite understand where this role would fall into because unlike the past where these roles were just disguises, this was actually the real deal.Â
And just as you did in the past, you did a background check on your target, no wait clients.
SVT. A short form of seventeen. The year they had formed the band. SVT is composed of four members. They were a rock band that rose to fame over the years, gaining a loyal fanbase due to their unique music style and concepts.
Choi Seunghcheol, the lead guitarist. Also the leader of the band. He was younger than you but he was the oldest amongst the four. He was someone the public adored, his personality was contrary to what usual rockstars were stereotyped as, quite the gentleman.
Kim Mingyu, the drummer of the band. He was coined with a golden retriever like personality, outshining in a room full of people just by his mere presence. Tall, buff and once again quite contrary to the stereotypes. He was the charmer of the group you suppose.
You were wondering if they were actually a rock band at that point, but then came the other two.Â
Hansol Vernon Chwe, keyboard player, clung onto the typical stereotypes like it was his coat. Rebellious and confidence was his whole get-go. He was true to his role, on and off-stage.
All of them were in fact, completely different on stage based on your research.
And how could you forget Jeon Wonwoo?Â
Saving the best for last you suppose. Jeon Wonwoo, the vocalist. It was as if there was more than enough information to know exactly what he was like. Reckless, rebellious, passionate, charmer. There were numerous rumours surrounding him, in fact they all did, but it seemed he was the publicâs favourite. From being a frequent party-goer, to the typical supposed playboy, it seemed that he was always a topic.Â
They all did have their fair share of rumours, you had to dig into all the dirt, even the worse one because after all you wanted to be ready for what would come.Â
You should have known with the glint in his eyes and the smirk on his face the first time you saw him when you were introduced to SVT, that he was not going to make your goal easier.
Gradually, you got introduced to the rest of them and learnt they were alright, as a matter of truth,you got along with Seungcheol a lot in the way you were both pretty much the oldest, where you were older by two years to him, so it was almost as if he looked up to you for a lot of advice.Â
Mingyu was wellâŠMingyu. He had that energy in him that seemed to outshine any room he walked in and he was actually quite a sweetheart too. Always listened and took into consideration.
Vernon was basically almost like a kid to you. He'd say the most out of place shit that would always catch you off guard and had you contemplating why exactly you were there. It was actually quite a contrast to what you had searched about him. A good contrast, you concluded.
However, you were fine with all of them. The problem begins with Jeon Wonwoo.
Him with his messy hair, messy eye makeup that somehow suited him, lips that curved up into a perfect smirk. He was trouble if it existed in human form. As cliche as it sounded. It was their whole aesthetic though, the messy looks and makeup but he somehow looked like he was born to be a star like that.Â
He was reckless though. You think thatâs one of his flaws. Or he purposely tried to make your life harder. It seemed, the rumours were not just that, they were the actual reality of him.
And due to the whole rebellious thing he had going on, he hated you.Â
Wonwoo in other words, did not like the idea of a personal bodyguard following him around everywhere. He knew due to their subsequent rise to fame, the negative parts would also come. He was fine with having security when they were attending events, going to the airports. As a group it was fine. But he dreaded it the day he was informed by his manager, Seungkwan, each of them would be assigned a personal bodyguard to be with them all times of the day.
Perhaps, it was because he never understood the need for one. He was not attacked physically but then again, it was always better to be safe than sorry.Â
The first day he saw you, despite all of them being a bit taken aback by how young you actually were and not only that you werenât too bad on the eyes either, he was annoyed.Â
He could feel it in his bones, you were someone who stuck to rules. Always being by the book. Wonwoo hated that. And he would do just about everything to make sure, youâd quit. He did not need a personal bodyguard before. He wouldnât need one now.Â
How wrong he was about to be proven.
âMr. Jeon, you should be more care-â
âDonât call me that.âÂ
Pausing in your steps, you furrowed your eyebrows in question. You were making sure your own annoyance wouldnât be shown. Wonwoo did not pay attention to you suddenly not trailing him, going forward towards the midnight grocery store.Â
It was ridiculous to think he needed someone to protect him when he was just going for a quick five minute run to the store that was near their hotel to get a drink.Â
He was just about to go quietly and be back without anyone noticing but of fucking course, you were able to somehow know.Â
âThis is ridiculous, itâs just five minutes.â He spoke with anger, his eyes glaring at you, pretty lips in a scowl. You wondered if he knew that despite trying to look intimidating, he somehow looked more pretty.Â
âJust? A lot can happen in five minutes.â You said calmly, eyes making contact with him. You could tell he wasnât used to people not cowering away under his glare.
He inhaled sharply, eyes closing for a brief moment, âWhatever.âÂ
He pushed past you, making sure to knock into your shoulder. If it werenât for the brief discontent you felt towards him, maybe you could have appreciated how put together he looked despite it almost being very late. Grey and black were his colours.Â
And that was how youâd ended up mid argument, trying to tell him to be careful of the darkness caused by the absence of some street lights. They were turned off probably due to malfunction. It gave the entire street a very eerie vibe because since only a few were functioning, it would be hard to make out who was walking in front of you.Â
You were accustomed to the dark, knowing what to keep in mind and always being observant. However, Wonwoo wasnât. His judgement at the moment was clouded by irritance at your presence.Â
It was only for a brief second but you were able to make out a quick flash of movement just in front of Wonwoo. It was fast, likely so no one can know. Wonwoo had turned to putting his attention on his phone, scrolling and mumbling curses at you under his breath.Â
The store was still a few metres ahead, standing out by being one of the few only lit buildings. It was due to the glow of the lights of the store, you were able to catch the movement.Â
Before you knew it, you instinctively rushed forward and harshly grabbed Wonwooâs arm, him almost dropping his phone and yelping, you threw him behind you.Â
The intruder appeared from the right side, where there was an unlit tiny alley, the perfect place to wait for unsuspecting late nighters. You grabbed the knife that was raised midway, ready to slash into the person ahead.Â
It was so fast, Wonwoo felt he would have missed it if he blinked because next thing he knew, he was suddenly shoved far to the left. All he saw was you holding the hand of a fully black clothed person, who was in turn holding a knife. The knife that would have likely pierced him ifâŠif it werenât for you.Â
You did not care if the knife was pressing into the palm of your hand, piercing your skin, all you cared about was making sure nothing were to happen to Wonwoo. And so when you heard what you thought was a gasp of pain, you roughly pushed away the intruder, who was also in shock because he did not expect you. And tonight, he did not want a fight he wasnât even sure heâd win and so he escaped when he got the chance.Â
You quickly rushed to Wonwoo, whoâd by your shove, had stumbled and fallen. He didnât even realise it, trying to make sense of what just happened in the past few minutes.Â
âMr.Jeon!Mr Jeon- Wonwoo!â You were shaking him harshly by his shoulders as he blinked back to reality upon hearing his name. His name for the first time from you. In probably the worst case he could imagine.Â
âAre you alright?â Out of pure concern, you held his face, scanning for injuries as you pushed back his hair. You then took his hands and did the same to make sure he wasnât hurt too bad. Just a little scrap from falling.
Wonwoo, for the good of everything, could not explain why his heart felt like itâd combust the moment you touched his face and brushed his hair. He knew why you were doing it but it didnât stop his heart from fluttering.
Why?Â
He was confused. He hated you. Was it possible he couldnât quite understand if it was truly hate?
âWonwoo?â He realised he still hadnât replied, but when he heard his name for the second time, he also had another realisation. He thinks he likes the way you say it.Â
âYeah- yeah Iâm alright I-â He muttered, looking away as he stood up, âLetâs just- letâs just go back.â
He decided he didnât want to go to the damned store, nor get the drinks. He just wanted to rest. His head felt dizzy at the idea of almost being hurt severely. It was though it only took a few moments for him to realise maybe he had been wrong all along, heck not maybe, he was definitely wrong.
âOkay, letâs go.âÂ
You didnât even question him as he trailed right beside you, almost to the point you were in sync, when a while ago, he seemed repulsed at being near you.Â
You followed him up to his room, but not before making sure there was no one trailing you and informing the other security around the hotel, regarding the intruder and telling someone to also inform the police.
He didnât get irritated like he usually would, in fact he was too quiet.Â
âAre you actually fine Mr.Jeon?â He frowned, he didnât like the way you called him, remaining ever so in character.
âNo- no donât call me that, Wonwoo is fine.â
 You blinked once, twice to make sure you were hearing correctly. You slowly nodded, âOh-kay, but,are you alright?â
âYes, I uh- I'm fine.â
âMy apologies, you weren't able to get your meal.âÂ
You were sorry? He could have died and youâŠyou saved him but you were the one who felt bad?
He hated the fact that only now was he actually realising what could have possibly happened if you werenât there.Â
He felt stupid.Â
Glancing towards you,his gaze drifted towards your hand, the injured one half-heartedly wrapped with a makeshift bandage from your handkerchief likely.
âLet me bandage that for you properly, I feel it is the least I could do.âÂ
You were about to argue, as you would, about how youâd do it yourself and to not fret over you because it was something you were pretty used to. Besides it wasnât as big of a deal anyway, just a minor scrap.Â
But before you could, he reached out for your hand, holding it in his and looked back up at you. And this time, the way he did, it made you feelâŠuneasy. His hand felt warm. Very warm. Compared to your bleeding out hand.
Uneasy in a way where your heart fluttered. You couldnât seem to form a thought as you stared right into his eyes. They were a rich brown colour that reminded you of pools of honey under the sun. It was unusual for you to ever think like that for someone let alone your actual client.Â
He spoke in a soft tone, you were sure you wouldnât hear if you werenât so close, âPlease?â
 It was definitely not normal for the way your throat seemed to dry up upon hearing him say that word.Â
âOh-okay, alright.â And without much thought, you agreed and convinced yourself it was definitely not because of the puppy eyes heâd given you or the way his hand seemed to hold yours as if nothing else in the world existed for him.Â
You think those were what youâd call famous last words, because at the moment, you were regretting even agreeing. It wasnât because of Wonwoo in particular, in fact he did prove to be someone who knew how to bandage efficiently.
But it was also because of him, your mind was simply a haywire.Â
You sat down on his bed, immediately hit by his signature smell as soon as you stepped in the room. It was everywhere but not in an overwhelming way, in a way that indicated it was a room that was lived in by him.Â
He came up with the first aid kit from the bathroom and sat beside you turning his body towards you as you faced forward with your feet down, feeling unprofessional to even sit fully on his bed.Â
Not that the whole ordeal would even fit into your etiquette rule book but perhaps you were beginning to realise, there were certain things you were wrong about. Or right.Â
You specifically remember a particular article where the headline described Wonwoo as a âshallow brat with an attitude as well.â and to a certain point, it seemed that they may have been right. But that was not the case now.
Or was it ever the case?
This time, the truth was indeed far better than the rumour.Â
It was as if the silence was enough to occupy the space between you two, him carefully cleaning your wound and disinfecting it. He glanced at your face during that part and was unsure whether to be worried or amazed by the fact that you didnât even flinch when he wiped the hydrogen peroxide over your open cut.Â
Your tongue was weighed down by the thoughts running in your mind, it was as if the person in front of you was actually another person.Â
He was close to you, and the juxtaposition of moments ago to the current moment almost made you chuckle. It was hilarious how situations could change so quickly.
âThere. Done.â
Raising your hand, you examined it with a scrutinising gaze making sure it was properly done. It made him feel slightly nervous yet he did not know if that was the only cause of that or upon the realisation of how your knees were touching the whole time â still were.
You got up, much to his disappointment, nodding along.Â
âGood job actually, youâve done great.â You swore you could see a faint blush painting his cheeks and his ears a shade redder than normal. You clenched your hand beside you, hoping it would calm your weirdly speeding up heart.
And this was when it really hit you, about where you wereâŠ.who you were.
Clearing your throat, you spoke up, âWell I should get going now. Itâs far too late and you should get some rest as well.â
Immediately he slightly frowned at that, blinking in a bit of amazement at how quick youâd changed moods. Then again, the night seemed to be all about too many quick changes.Â
You moved towards his door, not wanting to glance at him, not wanting to think or do anything that was definitely not just against your etiquettes but also your overall job.Â
He was safe. He was sound too. Everything about him was good and what he needed was rest and you did too because it was one hell of a nighâ
âWait!âÂ
You paused in your footsteps, already out of the door as you turned back around to face him.
âGoodnightâŠY/n.âÂ
He stood against the door, as he stared at you with those same honey eyes of his, that you think would never fail to amaze you, even in the most unlikely of situations.Â
And for the first time, or his first, he saw you smile. One corner slowly lifted while the other followed as you shook your head. And this time, it was his mind that seemed to blank out because holy shit.Â
âGoodnightâŠWonwoo.â You said with a grin as you waved him once and then turned back around. Nonchalantly. As if you hadnât justâŠjust smiled at him the way you did.Â
And did you just address him with his first name without him whining about it?!?
His hand reached up to his chest, pressing tightly to his left part and realizing just how fast it beat against it.
Yeah he was sure about one thing.
This was in no way the so-called hatred he desperately wished he felt towards you existed.
But then again, did it ever?
a/n : urm hi. so um this was a very random idea that sprung to me like ages ago literal ages actually and i decided to pick it up and finallly finish this piece? it feels incomplete because i am actually maybe ( if this does well ) making this into sort of a drabble series with this same pairing but yk different scenarios and their dynamics changing as well? sorry if this feels rushed! i wrote like till a certain point way long ago and after that it's recent, i haven't written in a while so please excuse the weird flow as well. i just wanted to have some fun and also post something to show im alive hahaha pls let me know what you think and whether you'd want to read more of this pairing because tbh i kinda love them lollll :DDD
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Addressing Common Arguments Against âConsuming Harmful Contentâ
Challenging purity culture in online spaces and their fears of âproblematic mediaâ.
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Constant and continuous arguments endure on social media about the dreaded and frightening spectre of problematic mediaâââfrom television shows that supposedly âglorifyâ unhealthy relationships or âsexualiseâ and âexcuseâ abusive relationships; to erotica, adult books, and 18+ fanfiction that supposedly teach teenagers bad life lessons and impact their ethics; to anime and manga that surely must be the cause of child abuse the world over.Â
I wrote an in-depth essay about the intellectual flaws in these reactionary assumptions, delving into their roots in lacking media literacy and rising anti-sex attitudes here:Â
The above essay discusses at length many of the fears and anxieties that lead to this reactionary thinking, but does not challenge or explore the echo chambers that can arise in online spaces, particularly in aggressive environments such as Twitter/X, and for young or isolated individuals who are particularly vulnerable to peer pressure and fears of ostracisation if they admit to the âwrongâ opinions.
Many of these arguments are used by âanti-shippersâ within fandom and online spaces, the term commonly shortened as âantisââââif youâre unfamiliar with the term, these are people who define themselves as opposing one or more specific ships, fandoms, tropes, or kinks, often due to what they perceive to be their âproblematicâ or inherently âharmfulâ elements when engaged with or portrayed in various forms of media and art. Because of the virulent and highly aggressive nature of these online communities, these peopleâââmany of them young or isolated, often marginalised and disenfranchised from in-person, supportive environmentsâââcan become radicalised, and can experience great fear and anxiety at the premise of others holding different opinions or perspectives from the ones these online communities have impressed upon them should be held immutably by all.
In this piece Iâm going to be addressing common arguments and assumptions seen on social media one by oneâââit is not really intended to convert the above, often radicalised individuals, but to provide support and guidance in understanding why their perspectives can be flawed, and how to engage with and deconstruct those arguments.Â
It is also intended to provide support and structure to begin to engage with and potentially challenge or affirm your own beliefs and ideas about fiction, art, and other forms of media, and the extent of the impact it can have on you or othersâââthis piece is me addressing these arguments with my own perspective, but I would encourage people to disagree with and critique my rebuttals!
The goal here is always more critical thought, analysis, and understanding, and that doesnât come from automatically following another personâs line of thought or argument just because itâs well-poised or you particularly respect or like themâââno matter who that person or people may be.Â
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âDepicting [a theme] in media is the same as glorifying it!â
Letâs first engage with what people might be discussing when they panic about âharmful contentâ and âproblematicâ ships or pieces of fiction.
They might worry about people reading or watching works that discuss or depict anything from violence, incest, sexual assault, age gaps, BDSM, kinky sex, child sexual abuse, trauma recovery, rape, rape recovery, drug use, bestiality, to abusive relationships or anything else, will encourage people to think positively about those acts, those traumas, and those experiences.Â
You might look at the list of things I just wrote there and go, âUm, there are big differences between some of those things and the others!â
And yet the same consideration still applies.Â
Just because a theme or idea is present in a work, or is depicted in it implicitly or explicitly, doesnât mean itâs being âglorifiedâ and portrayed as overwhelmingly positiveâââand even if a theme or aspect is being glorified, this does not mean we shall simply unthinkingly absorb that perspective.
Reading a story that contains something doesnât mean Iâll automatically think that thing is good or bad, regardless of how itâs portrayed in fictionâââthe media and art we engage with doesnât wholly change and adjust our own ethics and morals as soon as weâve interacted with it.Â
We might play a videogame and disagree with the way some themes are presented, have criticisms of them, whilst enjoying and appreciating others; we might read a piece of erotica and find some parts about it very hot, but find others disturbing and a little uncomfortable; we might watch a TV show and just think itâs in very poor taste, despite theoretically being up for the premise.Â
Engaging with media does not turn off and on switches in our brains that make us completely âproâ or completely âantiâ one premise or other.Â
People are more complicated than that.Â
We have complex and layered feelings about every argument and perspective there is, every experience there is, because human beings are social animals, and we experience very few things through an uncomplicated, binary lens.Â
For me personally, I often seek out works that cover the same traumas and harms Iâve experiencedâââwhy? Because seeking out those themes helps me process and better understand what has happened to me, and how Iâve felt about it, how Iâve responded.Â
âI donât have a problem with people writing about certain harmful topics to show them as bad, but some people sexualise or fetishise them!â
Iâm sure youâre right.Â
Some people might write about rape to work out a complex trauma recovery narrativeâââothers might write about rape in a work as kink. An author might well write with both goals in mind in the same work.Â
A traumatic event doesnât become less traumatic because it sexually aroused us or brought us physical pleasureâââin fact, those feelings can add to the impact of a trauma and the inner conflict we experience in the aftermath.Â
Some people undercut victims of sexual abuse by saying they âenjoyedâ it, pointing out that they orgasmed or showed signs of arousal as signs they âsecretlyâ wanted it, and these feelings can contribute heavily to shame and fear as a victim.Â
Sexual arousal is a bodily response. It is not consent, and itâs not an excuse for assault or abuse. Moreover, some people might feel arousal or pleasure but not be fit to consentâââfor example, if someone is underage, or if someone is drugged or insensible with drink.Â
These people cannot give knowledgeable consent, but abusers might still say after an assault that they âenjoyedâ it.Â
This is purity culture at workâââanti-sex attitudes use peopleâs âenjoymentâ of something to undercut their autonomy and right to consent, by implying they âdeserveâ that abuseâââabuse is abuse whether itâs sexualised or not.Â
But the thing is, the obverse applies.Â
Just as someoneâs mixed feelings or sensations of pleasure during a sexual assault does not mean they consented to the assault, or because someoneâs feelings of happiness and love for their abuser does not mean they deserved the abusive treatment they experienced from them, a person writing sexually or erotically about a topic, or engaging with art and narratives about that topic, does not mean they actually want that thing to happen in real life, to real people, or to themselves.Â
Fiction is not real life.Â
We watch a horror film, and it doesnât mean we want serial killers or demons to run amok, killing teenagers or possessing their victimsâââsimilarly, just because we engage with porn or erotica that sexualises certain topics doesnât mean weâre pro- or in favour of those topics for real people.Â
Rape fantasies are incredibly common, despite being highly stigmatised, and just because someone fantasises about this sort of control fantasy does not mean they actually want to abuse someone or be abused.Â
âItâs harmful to depict abusive or immoral characters as sexy or desirable.â
If you have never experienced abuse, manipulation, or otherwise poor treatment from someone you thought was attractive, charming, or admirable, if youâve never been groomed by someone with whom you were enamoured, Iâm very glad.Â
Iâm happy for you, honestly.Â
But many of us have.Â
People want to believe that all abusers are evil, are ugly, are obvious from a distance, are blatant from the out. People want to believe they can âtellâ someone is abusive just from a glance, and write them offâââand that anyone who would or might spend time with that person is therefore âasking for itâ, or âletting themselvesâ be abused.Â
In actual fact, many abusers arenât.Â
Many abusers are beautiful and charmingâââsome of them draw you in, slowly bring you closer and closer until itâs very difficult to untangle yourself from your need and craving for their approval. They ruin lives, ruin psyches, and they cause unspeakable damage to their victims.Â
And yes, victims often feel conflicted in the aftermath of their abuse.
Many of us hero worship or greatly respect our abusers, love them very deeply, crave their good opinion, because we are carefully groomed and manipulated, over time, into relying on their praise and their attention. For victims isolated from other sources of care and support, and especially for young children and teenagers, it can be very difficult to recognise what is happening and has happened to us.Â
Even after we know and understand exactly what has happened to us, and also internalised that it was wrong, we can still feel conflicted.Â
We are not retroactively deserving of our abuse because we crave our abusersâ good opinion, or their love, still. This instinct does not excuse or justify the abuse weâve experienced. Victims of abuse are still victims of abuse even if we go back to our abusers, even if we âacceptâ or attempt to justify our abuse to others, if we try to excuse it, if we donât ask for help.Â
Abuse is never the victimâs fault, no matter how imperfect we are as victims.Â
âWriting queer characters as abusive is bad representation!â
If we exclusively write queer characters who are perfect and unimpeachable, weâre not letting ourselves write queer characters who are fully human, with all the flaws and complexities humanity comes with.Â
Queer people are not less deserving of this complex representation than cishet people areâââand in any case, the purpose of art and media is not exclusively to provide good representation, or to show good moral examples for others.
We create to express ourselves, to reflect the world, to critique it, laugh at it, commiserate over it, to feel our feelings, to connect and communicate with others through shared stories.Â
If we only let ourselves do things that might be seen as âgood repâ, we rob ourselves of the ability to express ourselves as completely as we might wish to.Â
âIf you write abusive queer characters, youâre just contributing to homophobia and bigotry in art and media!â
Queer people writing queer stories with queer villains is not the same as cishet people including queer people or queer-coded characters just to be villains. The power dynamic is completely different.Â
Queer writersâ writing of queer villainy is often inspired by their own experiences, including of bigotry, and the harm they might do reflects harm by society, the ways harms might be felt more keenly by their victims.Â
Writing queer villains as villainous because their queerness makes them (or is used as a shorthand for them being) predatory, cruel, or callous, is homophobic and is often shitty, whether people intend that or not.Â
But just having queer villains, having queer characters do bad or abusive things, or just have flaws?Â
Thatâs as much a part of queer humanity as having queer heroes and having queer characters do good and helpful things.
Why would you read about rape when you could read consensual non-consent?
[Consensual non-consent being a kink wherein partners agree to roleplay a non-consensual situation.]
Rape in fiction is a form of consensual non-consent.Â
The fictional characters, who are not real and do not have real feelings, are not consenting, but the reader choosing to read is.Â
In the same way that two people playing a CNC roleplay game in the bedroom might be a safe and fun way of experiencing or re-experiencing the fear and trauma of assault with an escape clause (a safeword), a reader can do the sameâââthey can stop reading.Â
If a television show, film, or videogame becomes upsetting, again, one can stop watching, stop playing. It is a personâs own responsibility to set safe boundaries for themselves and protect their own mental health.Â
âWhy would someone write about trauma and abuse when they could write fluff?â
Why would someone watch a horror movie when they could watch a romcom? Why would someone eat cheese when chocolate is an option?
People do not have to choose one or the otherâââmany people like both horror films and romcoms, cheese and chocolate, and reading about both horrible shit and positive things.Â
âYou mentioned that people might engage with media about dark topics to work through their feelings from their own abuse. How do I know if someoneâs actually been abused?â
Why do you think itâs your right to ask that?Â
Why are you prioritising your personal comfort and curiosity over that personâs privacy? If your instinct is to try to license who is and isnât allowed to engage with a piece of art or media, why?Â
You are never entitled to the details of someone elseâs abuse. Your validation is not important enough to potentially trade for someoneâs private traumas and experiences.Â
âIf you write or create about certain topics as a survivor, youâre just perpetuating abuse and you are as bad as your abuser!â
Creating works of art or fiction about people who are not real experiencing fictional harm that is also not real, is not in any way equivalent to real people doing real harm to others.Â
If your support of abuse survivors hinges on how palatable their reaction to their abuse is, and you believe that some abuse survivors âdeserveâ their abuse for depicting their abuse in art and fiction, youâre not actually supporting survivors.Â
If you believe that all abuse survivors do or should act the same way, or respond the same way, to their abuses, you are mistaken.Â
If you are effectively angry at someone for not looking enough like a victim, for being âimpureâ, and therefore the same as their abuser, that is a form of victim blaming.Â
Do you hold artists who create media about non-sexual trauma or violence to a different standard than those who write about sexual trauma or violence?Â
Why? What is the difference to you?
If someone writing about sexual abuse in media is equivalent to real life abuse, is a fictional murder?
âPeople shouldnât write or engage with media about traumatic things, they should just go to therapy!â
Therapy is not a moral machine where bad people with bad thoughts go in and good people with good thoughts go in.Â
Good therapy and counselling provides us with the tools to manage our own mental health, our own emotional and psychological needs, heal from our traumas, and so forth.Â
Many therapists will actually recommend safe re-exposure to frightening or upsetting topics, and also encourage self-expression on the subject of oneâs most impactful experiences, which might include creating art and media to explore and discuss their feelings.Â
With that said, therapy is as flawed as any other tools for emotional catharsis and healingâââtherapy and mental healthcare can be very expensive or inaccessible because of oneâs working schedule; some therapists and mental health professionals are abusive or bigoted; some people may not be in the right place for MH care or therapy at this time, et cetera.Â
Therapy isnât a catch-all for anything you disapprove of in someone else, and itâs also not a punishment to force someone to repent for their sins.Â
âItâs okay to write a story to cope, but you shouldnât publish it in case it upsets others!â
So long as the work has appropriate content warnings and/or is published or screened in an appropriate space, it is not inherently harmful. In fact, reading narratives and engaging with those narratives can be valuable for us.Â
Engaging with media that bears similarity to our own lives, reflects our own experiences, written by other people who we know understand the complicated emotions of survivorsâââwhilst still condemning the actions of abusers or notâââcan be extremely validating and offer a lot of assurance.Â
This is especially useful in regards to media that shows victims having a codependent relationship with or still loving their abusers, or where their abusers are shown as sympathetic, whilst the narrative still shows the toxicity and pain caused by the relationship.Â
Moreover, there can be a sense of reclamation and security in exploring stories about similar harm as weâve experienced whilst knowing we are now in a place of safety and are free from those past experiences, or that other survivors have escaped and we can too.Â
âIf children read this work or watch this show or play this game, they might think that the things depicted in it are okay!â
Is the work rated G or PG?Â
Is it shown on a childrenâs TV channel, or appear in a section that is marked for children? Is it put on a childrenâs website, where the primary audience is children?Â
In short, is the work aimed at kids?
If no, then itâs not for kids.Â
Particularly if a work is marked for adult audiences only, if itâs labelled erotica, if itâs marked M or E or NC-17, if it says itâs for adults or asks people to check a box agreeing that theyâre an adult, then the work in question is most definitely not for children.Â
Everything in the world doesnât have to be child-safe just because children exist.
It is the responsibility of parents and guardians to appropriately supervise their childrenâs online use, and to teach children and teenagers internet safety, some of which includes setting appropriate boundaries for themselves and not seeking out content that might distress them, or to know what to do if they stumble across content that does distress themââânamely, to speak with a trusted adult about their feelings and what they can do to manage them and look after themselves, and be looked after.
Itâs not the responsibility of random other adults in the world not to make horror movies or watch porn or play adult videogames or anything else, just because a child could potentially learn of their existence.Â
âBut someone else engaging with that work might think the things depicted in it are okay!â
Youâre right, they might do.Â
They might also engage with the work and think things depicted in it are bad. Fiction does not exclusively exist for our moral education.Â
âIt makes me feel uncomfortable or unsafe that people are writing about [a topic] with a tone or in a manner that seems wrong to me!â
Yes, many of us feel uncomfortable with some topics being depicted in fiction, and might find them viscerally disgusting or triggering, consider them to be in poor taste, badly considered, or similar.Â
This is normal and okay.Â
Itâs perfectly natural to have limits on what one can handle in fiction, or to find your ethical considerations donât match up with the things other people make.Â
But itâs our job, as responsible adults who look after our own mental health and consider our own boundaries, to avoid that content.Â
You cannot control what other people think about, feel about certain topics, or how they portray them in fiction. You cannot control other people.Â
You can only control your environment, your boundaries, and the works you choose to engage with.Â
You can limit your time on social media, mute tags or keywords, block particular users or sites, or simply look away or leave the room / close the tab.Â
âWhat about rampant problematic works on Ao3!?â
Works on Ao3 are not a real issue.Â
They are not representation. Fanworks and original works on Ao3 are not the mainstream. They are being read exclusively by members of various internet subcultures who read fanfiction in those specific fandoms, after reading the tags.Â
This doesnât mean we canât or shouldnât discuss certain tropes and norms in various fandomsâââwe might address our own biases around race, sexuality, religion, disability, and other characteristics, and how these biases and bigotries can come across in peopleâs approaches to fandom, the characters and ships they concentrate on, their headcanons, et cetera.Â
The same can be said of peopleâs original creations.Â
Ao3 has a robust tagging system, and allows people to mute and block tags they might be upset or triggered byâââand in the event one clicks on an explicit work, a window will come up asking people to consent explicitly to moving through to read the work.Â
It is peopleâs own responsibility to set their own limits as to what they can handle in reading fictionâââand not to obsess over what other people might or might not be reading, which we cannot control, and is also none of our business.Â
âWhat about loli and shotacon? Isnât that the same as child pornography?â
âChild pornographyâ is generally not in use as a termâââmany people who have been victimised find that terms like âchild pornâ and CP grate, because âpornographyâ is work made with willing, adult participants.Â
Videos and images produced of children are instead referred to either as CSAMâââchild sexual abuse materialsâââor CSEMâââchild sexual exploitation materials. CSEM is evil because it involves the unspeakable and agonising victimisation of a real life child or children, being abused and manipulated by adults around them, and worse than that initial victimisation, the recording their abuse is another victimisation in itself.
With every share of a piece of this material, that child or children are victimised another time, made vulnerable to more people, and the creation of this material can create more market desire, meaning that other abusers will encourage further abuse and recording of these childrenâs victimisation, or for the recording abusers to seek out other children to abuse.Â
Victims of this sort of exploitation live in terror of the pictures or videos of their worst moments being shared to those they know, of being found by their loved ones, shared to workplaces, disseminated in any community they try to live in and be happy withâââit is difficult enough to recover from oneâs own abuse without the spectre of it constantly hanging over oneâs head.Â
Peopleâs cartoons or art of fictional children is not equivalent to CSEM, because there are no real children depicted in it.Â
Itâs understandable to find these works disgusting or upsetting, triggering, unsettlingâââbut to say that underage art or fiction is the same as or counts as CSEM is patently untrue. As a victim of CSA, it is galling to be told that choices my abuser made to harm and exploit me are equivalent to an abuser choosing to draw or read a comic about a victim that doesnât actually exist.Â
Some final questions to ask yourself:Â
None of the above rebuttals are intended to imply people shouldnât critique or criticise different media or their depictions.Â
As well as the initial essay I linked, I actually wrote a big guide on how to approach close reading of text, and Iâm working on another about analysing television and film.
In my opinion, itâs really important to be aware of different tropes and themes that you feel are harmful in fiction and artâââracist tropes, sexist ones, homophobic ones, and all the rest.
Itâs worth considering how works are harmful, and what you actually want to be done about it.Â
I personally have criticisms of various tropes in mediaâââI have particular dislike, for example, for the ways in which teacher/student relationships in TV shows and films are portrayed as âforbidden loveâ, with issue of their positions of power being depicted as one of bureaucracy or technical rules rather than a real power imbalanceâââI donât care for the âsexy schoolgirlâ trope, and the âbarely legalâ porn genre unsettles me.
All of the above three tropes often coincide with peopleâs thinking of teenage girls, especially those in school uniforms, as sex objects, and portraying school uniforms themselves as sexual or deserving of this sort of sexual attention.Â
Not all depictions are the sameâââsome works subvert the sexy schoolgirl trope by having those schoolgirls be secret monsters than punish abusers, and some works exist that critique teacher/student dynamics.Â
Itâs also important to note audience and outreachâââa work thatâs put on mainstream television channels or put in movie theatres by huge studios have a very different range of impact than an indie published novella, or one personâs fanfic on Ao3.Â
Note where youâre holding individual or small studio creatorsâââespecially those who are in some way marginalised and are already facing adversity in their workâââto higher account than large studios, or fixating on imagined harm their work could potentially cause.Â
Is a work harmful, or is it just uncomfortable? Is it harmful, or is it just personally triggering to you?Â
Can the work youâre concerned about do as much harm as youâre envisaging? Is it actually reaching the individuals you are worried might be vulnerable to harm as a result of it? Does the work intend to do that harm or hold those harmful views, and are the authors or creators working to address or apologise for that harm?
Is the work discussing, critiquing, or exploring the emotional impact of the dark themes within it? Does it have warnings or disclaimers before the work begins?
If youâre worried about a work ânormalisingâ or âglorifyingâ a troubling subjectâââdoes the work actually do that? What is your evidence for this, having engaged with the text? Is that thing discussed in the text, argued, explored in-depth, or merely mentioned? Do characters show inner conflict and interpersonal conflict over it? Is it actually portrayed as good or normal? Is your concern the charactersâ perspectives within the text, or the authors or creatorsâ opinions?Â
Does the work carry ideas that are bigoted or feel like it includes apologism for some shitty ideas or ideology? Is the work a piece of propaganda, or function as propaganda? Do you feel the work is being advertised or pushed to an inappropriate audience for its subject matter?
If you do consider the work to be either likely to be personally distressing or upsetting to you, or potentially harmful because of its troubling or bigoted or just shitty ideas, how do you want to respond?Â
If itâs the former, you should set your own boundariesâââyou should use your mute and block functions, you should avoid the work, you should seek out things that will comfort you, and perhaps discuss the distressing topics with someone you trust, whether thatâs a friend or partner, a loved one, or a counsellor or therapist.Â
If itâs the latter, you should absolutely deconstruct the piece in question and analyse the ways in which itâs shitty or harmful, or read essays by those whoâve done that work. You can maybe warn your friends about it, or if itâs a work of political concernïżœïżœââif the harm is being done because the work provides financial support to a hate group or a bigoted public persona, for example, you might perform a boycott, or involve yourself in acts of protest in response to the work or its creators.Â
If itâs important enough to you and your beliefs that you feel urged to do those things, perhaps you shouldâââif all you feel urged to do is to harass or shout at people online, though, it might be better for your own mental health to take a step back and do something more positive for yourself.Â
Sometimes, a piece of work or media will be shitty, and shitty people will love it, and that will kinda suckâââGod knows Iâll see work thatâs really transphobic or homophobic or antisemitic, and itâll upset me that people I otherwise love and respect seem to be enjoying it so much.Â
I can talk to my friends and my family about it, and Iâll do thatâââand I can mute and block the topic, and critique it in the right circles, or write essays if Iâm really inspired to, responding to the work and what I feel its impact isâŠ
But if my instinct becomes to just snipe at people for enjoying it when they really donât know what the problem is, or have a go at them when theyâre doing so unthinkingly, thatâs not really helpful to them or to myself. Itâs not addressing the harm I feel is being done, and nor is it really constructive.Â
Iâm an adult, after allâââas Iâve said a few times already, itâs our own responsibility to set our own boundaries and consider what weâre doing to safeguard ourselves, and if in setting those boundaries and personal safeguarding limits, whether theyâre in line with our own ethics and morality.Â
We cannot control other people and their feelings, or the works they create, but we can take care of ourselves, including breaking ourselves out of obsessive moral spirals or anxieties about other peopleâs thoughtsâââand personally, I think thatâs actually a very revolutionary thing to do given that we exist in a world that constantly tries to encourage (and monetise) that sort of aimless outrage.Â
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â Sun in houses â
Sun sort of magnifies the house it falls in so yeah a post about our dear sun.
These post are general and won't resonate 100% because we have to consider other aspects too.
â Sun in 1st â
Now I have seen that sun in 1st people may come off as leo rising. These people are very optimistic. These people tend to get recognized for their creativity and self expression. The main motive of their life is self expression and inspiring people. These people can become narcissistic too but we'll look into that later. Their self of sense is their physical body and how they show themselves to people and most of the time these people are very well dressed and may sometimes overdressed. They want to appear best at all times. Very confident individuals and won't even second guess themselves. They might come off as too strong or too confident. Another thing I have noticed is that sun in 1st house people usually think that they are main character and everybody in their life is just a side character. Though they like to helpothers and care for them but mostly they would try to give them what they think is right for them not what the other person needs. Something like "I think you deserve this so I'm giving you this not matter if you want it or not ".
â Sun in 2nd â
Sun in 2nd house people get their sense of self from money and assets. Now this placement can make someone love art or have a keen eye for art. The thing people notice most about these people is their sense of style and their aesthetic. This placement can make some overly materialistic too. I have seen that these people are very confident and know their self worth. Elegance is something they just have. These people will have a career that's very creative and in which they can express themselves. These people come off as possessive and are a bit controlling. This placement gives you great success too. The type to always carry extra cash with themselves. Also I have noticed that people who have sun in 2nd house have a raspy and authoritative voice. These people can also have a rich family history or if not then no matter how bad their family history is they will always glorify it. The type of people who sometimes loose touch with reality. Their father can be a government worker, teachers, artist etc.
â Sun in 3rd â
Sun in the third house people are the chatter machine but depends if there are another aspects too. These people love to chat and talk with people. I have seen that thes people are always expanding their knowledge and their sense of self comes from their mind and intelligence. If they don't know something about a certain topic they tend to feel stupid so that's why these people tend to thrive for knowledge. These are the people that'll make a slideshow just to prove their point and that they are right. These people are very might liked by their peers, schoolmates, colleagues etc. These people have easily influence others too. The trend setters. Overthinker. Brain seems to be all over the place. They can also have not-so-good relationships with their siblings or they are not able to communicate freely with their siblings. Their sense of ego comes from the way they communicate and also sun in 3rd house people are the most courageous people you'll ever know. These people can become journalist, news reporter, writer, poets or a social media influencer.
â Sun in 4th â
The secretive homebody. These people like to stay inside more than outside and these are the people who are more likely to work from home. Their sense of self comes from their home, family and the friends they consider their family. These people like to decorate their house and make it aesthetic. These people are very secretive and don't really like it when people interfere in their personal life. They don't like it when people ask them personal question about their family. Sun in 4th house people are very intune with their intuition And their emotions. Very protective and loyal person. These people are comfortable with expressing themselves only when they with people who are like family to them. Sun in 4th house can also mean that your mother did most of the parenting while your father was away. This placement can also give a absent father. Another this I have noticed is that these people struggle a lot in their early life. And their mother has a lot of significance in their creativity. These people also like to cook.
â Sun in 5th â
Very creative and goofy person. Their sense of self comes from expressing themselves in front of people. Might be a little show off. The class clown type of energy. These people love dares. The social butterfly with the most authentic and unique personality. The extreme extrovert. These people love expressing themselves through creative projects. Probably the type to take part in every activity. The type to always be involved in something creative or have crazy life experiences. The popular jock type of energy. I have also noticed that these people are very well liked by their seniors / teachers /bosses too. These people take good care of their body and might be into sports too. Since sun feels comfortable in this house it gives very creative mind. Also these people love history, politics, ancient sculptures etc. Sun in 5th house people like to be at the top in education field. The topper of the class while also being entertaining. Their sense of self also comes from their children. These people will raise their children with all the good things in life. These people also have talent for performing.
â Sun in 6th â
Sun in the 6th house people are very concerned about their health, what they eat and how they maintain their daily routine. Their sense of self comes from their routine and work. So if they're not following the routine properly or doing something properly they loose their sense of self. These people are workaholics and people know them for their work . Good health is very important for them and these people are the type to always have sanitizer with themselves. You know just to clean their hands all the time. They really maintain their body too. You know when you see someone who's always reapplying lotions, sunscreen etc there are chances that they are virgo sun or they have their sun in 6th house. They hate when they get sick. I have also noticed that these people win over their enemies. Somehow their own friends can feel competitive with them. These people like helping others and might be doctors, therapists or into social services etc. Their parents can also be doctors. These people solve arguments and fights. Sometimes father can also blame his own failures on others.
â Sun in 7th â
The friendly person. Sun in 7th house really magnifies someone's relationship and partnerships. You see these people always look for friendship and relationships to find a sense of self. Simply their sense of self comes from their relationships with people. The type to have a crazy dating life .These people can also date or even marry someone who's very popular or famous. They tend to have great relationships with people around them. Honestly speaking some people might even call them bitchy or ve rude to them for no apparent reason. They always come across people or date someone who's their reflection. So they can date or marry someone who's just a reflection of themselves. People with this placement also have a hard time having fun by themselves. They seek validation from other and I have also seen that other project their insecurities on these people. These people can have problems in their dating life. Sun in 7th house people tend to feel incomplete but of course will have to see if there are other aspects or not.
â Sun in 8th â
Well well well the type of placement that gives obsessive and mean OBSESSIVE fans haha. I have seen that people who has sun in the 8th house just know how to draw people in. Like they can be doing nothing but breathing and people will still be drawn to them. Very secretive, magnetic and mysterious type of placement. These people are very special. Special in everything they do. I have also seen that people who have these placement love to research about the occult but they won't let people know that they are interested in that. 8th house and scorpio influence makes them very secretive about their interests, talents, personal life etc. Also these people won't just invite people over. They only invite people whom they trust to the core. Also tend to have a love-hate relationship with people. One day everyone loves them and the other day everyone just despise them out of the blue. They also go through a lot of transformations in their life. Might even change jobs alot. These people can become politicians, researchers, paranormal investigator etc.
â Sun in 9th â
Okay so I have seen be very much influenced by their father with this placement. Either you had a great relationship with your father or a bad relationship. Not in between. This placement also makes a person very righteous. Like these people will always lecture people what is right and what is wrong but when someone else lectures them they don't like it much. I have also seen that these people will have a number of rules that they will never break. They like to know about different cultures and religion and this placement can also make someone very religious. I have seen that these people really don't like it when people try to put them in a box Because this placement is all about expansion so putting these people in a box is like putting a black hole in box and you can't right? It will basically destroy the box. Just take that as an example for these people. They can also travel a lot in their life or their work involves travelling. These people can also work with foreigners or foreign things. Others can also see them as a "know it all" Or a smartazz.
â Sun in 10th â
This placement is something to thrive for. This is also a popularity placement . These people are very well liked by the people in general and if not liked then it can also be that unknowingly you're very popular. Like in your school/college/work everyone knows you and even the people you never talked to. This is also trendsetter placement. People are very much inspired by these people. One more thing about them is that these people can't work under anyone . They HATE it when someone gives them orders or nags them. So the thing here is that these people will have to do something that makes them the boss. Also no matter what they do they'll always succeed in that. But with this placement there also come people who will come after them because sun here can give a big ego . They can be opposed by the people. But these people will deal with them easily. I have seene great leadership qualities with these placements. If you put them in a group with others there's a high chance that they'll influence half of the people in the group.
â Sun in 11th â
Okay so whenever I see this placement the first thing that comes to my mind is the eldest child. Because most of the eldest kids I know have this placement. This can be a very challenging placement because these people have a great ego and won't give other credit. They also have a hard time making friends or continuing a friendship. If they want to they can break a 10 year friendship like nothing. These people are also very egoistic. Though these people get recognize for their work they don't consider others opinions and won't give someone credit. No matter how much you have done for them, one mistake and it's done for you fr. This placement can also give a difficult relationship with network circle. These people have big dreams and will work to achieve them. This placement gives problems with father or father figure and authority. This placement can also damaged relationships with friends, social circle and siblings. Since 11th house is the house of wealth it gives a person great material wealth and a long life. It also makes a person a great leader.
â Sun in 12th â
This placement can make someone very creative and imaginative. I have also seen that these people have can became a disappointment for their father. If not this then there is definitely some sort of conflict going on with their father. Or they can live far away from their father or parents I general. This placement also makes someone very secretive. For example they are banned in 12 countries and that'll never let you know. Of course this is just an example. It can be anything. Sun in 12 house people have a lot of hidden talents that they like to keep hidden. This is a great placement for foreign settlement. Also these people can have more popularity in foreign land then their own country. Also one this is that these people won't like in their homeland for a long time. They will change areas. People with this placement have a isolated childhood or a not so good childhood. It can even be that they were so privileged that they didn't get to do normal things like playing with other children etc. This placement also gives great talent for song writing, poetry , script writing etc because of great imagination.
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I am not a professional, these are the things I have observed so far . Let me know your thoughts and I'm open to criticism too. Just be nice lol.
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Amelia Shepherd x fem!reader Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI, angst (happy ending!), sex, fingering, explicit language, surgery times (duh), (let me know if I missed anything!) Word count: 1.8k
Summary: You used to be Dr. Shepherd's favorite resident, but something had happened in the last month that drove you further apart than ever. Will it get resolved (hint: yes, it does)?
âYou, out!â
You stood, flabbergasted, in full scrub, suctioning blood out of someoneâs brain-deep head wound. The OR had gone deathly silent, and if they couldâve seen your face under your surgical mask, they would have seen you blushing bright red.
All youâd done was ask a question. All youâd wanted to know was why Dr. Shepherd had gone after the brain bleed at the angle she did, because it wasnât the angle youâd expected. You were a surgical resident. Asking questions is what you were supposed to do.
âDr. Shepherd, Iââ
âUh-uh. You? Out of here. Youâre distracting me, Y/L/N. And if you canât focus on saving this manâs life, you donât need to be in here.â
Frustrated and more than a little embarrassed, you handed off the suction tube to another resident and quickly burst through the doors and into the scrub room, washing your hands furiously. You felt like crying. You didnât know what was going on these days.
During your intern year, youâd gotten really close with Dr. Shepherd. Sheâd sort of take you under her wing, said you had the right mind and hands for neuro. You worked well together, almost read each otherâs thoughts sometimes, it seemed. But the last month or so, sheâd all but banished you from her service.
You knew part of it had to be Webberâs new initiative for âwell-rounded surgeons,â a new protocol where residents were cycled between attendings at random, with no favoritism or preference allowed. But even when you were assigned to neuro, Dr. Shepherd always put you on the other neurosurgeonâs service. She hardly talked to you at all.
You wondered if youâd done something wrong, something to completely ruin the mentorshipâno, the friendshipâyouâd felt like you were forming with Dr. Shepherd. Not only did you miss her company, miss working with her, but you missed neuro.
You spent the rest of your day on neuro doing glorified scut alongside the interns. Humiliating. And when you finally went home, you wanted nothing more than to collapse on the couch and order Chinese food. But a text from your cohort group chat reminded you that tonight was the annual Surgeons for Surgeons benefit gala. And unless you wanted to be fired, youâd have to show up, bells on, ready to mix and mingle and convince Seattleâs rich and famous to donate to the program that connected Seattle-Grace with its partner hospital in Nairobi.
You stared at yourself in the mirror before leaving. Thanks to a very artful layer of makeup, you looked a little less exhausted than you really were. And you had to admit, you looked good in a suit.
By the time you and your friends arrived at the gala, things were in full swing. Wine, music, twinkling lights, the whole shebang. You were determined to have fun with your friends, despite whatever weird stuff was going on with Dr. Shepherd. Youâd had a few glasses of wine, had danced with a few other residents, and had generally avoided Dr. Shepherd, even though once or twice youâd caught her watching you. Let her feel bad, you thought. She was out of line.
But when you were on your way back from the bathroom, a hand shot out of a hallway and gently grabbed your arm.
âJesus, Dr. Shepherd,â you complained, straightening your suit as she crossed her arms and looked at you, leaning against the hallway wall.
âSorry,â she muttered. âYou justâŠâ She threw up her hands. âYouâve been avoiding me all night. I didnât know how else to talk to you.â
You raised your eyebrows. âIâve been avoiding you!?â You scoffed. âDr. Shepherd, you havenât talked to me in over a month. I went from being the de facto neuro resident to being bottom of the barrel in your OR. So forgive me if Iâm not jumping at the opportunity to chat with you.â
Dr. Shepherd looked at the ground. âI know. Iâm sorry.â
You sighed. âLook, I donât care if weâre friends, okay? Iâ I would have liked it. I like you. But my career comes first. And whateverâs going on with us got in the way of that today. So whatever I did to upset you, Iâm sorry. Okay? But I love neuro. And Iâm good at it. You donât have to talk to me ever, outside of work, but you cannot keep me from surgery.â
You started to walk away, but she stopped you.
âY/N!â she called, grabbing your hand and holding it for just a moment too long. You were taken aback by her use of your first name. She always called you Dr. Y/L/N. âI donât want that.â
âOkayâŠâ You shrugged. âSo put me back on your service.â
âNo, I meanâŠâ She exhaled sharply and stared at the ceiling. âI donât want to be friends with you.â
Youâd be lying if you said it didnât sting. You liked Dr. Shepherd. You really liked her. You thought sheâd liked you. You thought that in another life⊠But it didnât matter now.
âMessage received,â you said, avoiding her eyes.
âGod, thatâs not what I meant. Iâm fucking this up.â She looked at you almost like she was in pain. As if there were words she just couldnât get out. âWhat the hell,â she finally mumbled, then grabbed the sides of your face and kissed you.
To say you were surprised would be an understatement. But her lips felt so good against yours, her hands warm and soft against your skin. This was what Dr. Shepherd had wanted with you, why sheâd been avoiding you. And, if you were honest with yourself, it was what youâd wanted to, youâd just been too scared to let yourself admit it.
You wrapped your arms around her waist, pressing her into the wall to deepen the kiss. She whined into your mouth, her tongue fighting for entrance, and you knewâby the arousal shooting down through your very core, the wetness pooling in your underwearâthat this would not end here tonight. Ameliaâs arms snaked underneath your blazer, searching for skin.
âWhy do you have so many clothes on?â Amelia muttered breathlessly, painstakingly unbuttoning the collar of your dress shirt, then continuing on to the lower ones.
âWhoa!â You grabbed her wrists, pushing them away. âWeâre in a public hallway, Dr. Shepherd.â
She huffed, pulling you by the arm into the closest room, which turned out to be some poor soulâs vacated office at this event venue. She slammed the door, taking her own turn to push you against a surface. It took your breath away.
âDonât call me Dr. Shepherd when weâre about to have sex,â she said, trailing kisses down your neck.
âFine, Amelia,â you retorted, and she smiled into a kiss. She liked a little sass in a woman.
With one hand, you rolled her nipple between your fingers. With the other, you moved slowly down her body, gently pulling up her dress to slip a hand into her underwear.
She gasped as you brushed lightly over her clit. âFuck,â she breathed, throwing her head back. You smiled, happy to have a little power. Amelia might have all the power in the OR, but you had all the power here. You could tell by the way her hips rolled toward you, by the way she leaned heavily on the desk at her backâshe wanted you bad.
She breathed heavily, squeezing your arms as she pushed her hips into you, desperate for the friction, the pressure. You grinned wickedly and removed your hand, licking her arousal off your fingers.
âY/N!â she protested, glaring at you.
âHmm.â You pretended to be thinking deeply, circling the rest of her vulva so that you were close, so close, to where she needed you, but not quite there. âYou know what? I bet this feels a lot like being knee deep in a surgery and then being pulled for no reason at all.â
âI said I was sorry! Please, Y/N.â You had her squirming and writhing and you were getting drunk off her desperation.
You pushed two of your fingers into her warmth, already so wet, so ready for you, and she moaned. âI mean, I guess, if you insist.â You smirked at her, loving to see her lose control. She was always so in control at work. It was honestly something you admired about her. But right now? All you wanted was to see her coming apart.
There was a part of you that wanted to tell all the residents, to tell everyone that you were fucking Dr. Amelia Shepherd. But there was another part of youâdeeper, softer, more youâthat wanted to keep her all to yourself. Because some part of you knew that it wasnât just sex, no matter how much easier itâd be if it was.
Ameliaâs breathing grew ragged, her walls pulsing around you and you knew she was close. You circled her clit with your thumb, and she thrust her hips up into your touch, chest heaving, legs shaking. And when she finally, finally hit her peak, you scooped your arm around her back to hold her up, keeping your rhythm steady until she came down, resting her head on your shoulder, a thin sheen of sweat on her face.
âFuck!â she breathed, lifting her head to grin at you and tuck your hair behind your hair. âYour hands.â
âThatâs why Iâm such a good surgeon.â You winked at her.
âThatâs why youâre good at a number of things, apparently.â Amelia pulled her underwear up, straightening her dress.
âWell,â she shrugged. âShould we go back in?â
You scoffed. âIâm certainly not.â
âWhy?!â
âAre you kidding me!? Thereâs a fucking lake in my underwear right now. I gotta go home.â
Amelia smirked, pulling you down by your collar for another kiss. You couldnât take much more of this. You needed her. Or a vibrator. Or a dildo. Or something.
âYou want help?â she asked, playing with the hair at the nape of your neck.
You blushed. The tables had turned all of a sudden, and she was the one with the power now. âYeah,â you said quietly. âYeah, thatâd be⊠thatâd be good.â
She laced her hand in yours, squeezing it. âTake me home, Dr. Y/L/N.â
âWhat if someone sees us!?â you hissed, looking both ways out the office door.
âWeâll slip out the back.â
âSneaky.â You nodded. âI like this side of you.â
Glancing furtively around, she leaned forward and sunk her teeth into your neck, taking you by surprise. You gasped.
She pressed her lips against your ear. âIâve got a lot of sides you havenât seen yet.â
God, you couldnât wait to see them.
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sooo i was rereading @emositeccâs Arthur comics and i saw Jack. and then i thought âhm⊠angst!â
so i drew this! (warning, i suck at digital art, so this is just traced from my sketchbook and it may look weird or something idk also i have no clue how to draw bird beaks soo sorry in advance!!!)
my interpretation of why Arthur hates Jack!!! :)
honestly i think i couldâve done better in writing but my brain said Draw and i did hhdjfbhghjs.
also, because he needs it: jack gets a hug
which kinda bleeds into my headcanon that Saint Peter, since he greets EVERY NEWLY DEAD SOUL EVER, would be a good therapist. heâs probably comforted millions of souls, all he needs is a psychology degree. (the only problem is that heâs busy being a glorified walmart greeter and never gets a break, poor guy)
#hazbin hotel#emositecc#fan comic#fanart#are there character tags for these guys??#Arthur#Jack#saint peter hazbin hotel#there. good enough#reblogs over likes please!!!
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