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For the haunted au I had an devilish little thought. Has Optimus ever had a really bad time and when the primes try to give him advice he just shouts "you guy's FAILED!" Like for all their wisdom they couldn't beat the quintisons or see Sentinels betrayal coming?
He feels bad but in his spark he wishes HE didn't have to do what THEY couldn't.
absolutely evil thought that was inflicted upon me months ago and that i finally get to inflict upon the rest of y'all OTL
i can see it happening with the caveat that he immediately regrets saying it. but it's too late. it's the kind of thing you say in the heat of the moment and then feel the ground drop under your feet because you never meant to say it out loud. but now it's out there and you can never unsay it.
it's just. a bad situation all around :(
haunted au
#hey i got an ask#lvinvint#transformers#transformers one#maccadams#optimus prime#zeta prime#haunted au#my art#absolutely delightful ask i loved it thank you so much for sending it!!!!!#and as you can see i've been hoarding it for fucking months just so i could make art for it aksjhdka#sorry this took me extra long i don't have an excuse i've been. doing bad :)#but it's fine we're all cool#ANYWAY i don't think OP totally means what he said#at least. not the way he said it.#i think it was his anger and frustration twisting up insecurities he has of himself and exploding on this defensiveness#this however doesn't mean there's not a part of him that's bitter they expect him to succeed at something they couldn't#there were thirteen of them and there's only one of him and they had several millions of years of experience that he doesn't#so how is he supposed to fix something they weren't capable of fixing by themselves#he's terrified of his odds#and them ganging up on him to point out his flaws (which. if you'll notice is mostly just them being terrified to the point of anger#for his safety) just brings up all those ugly feelings and turns them into anger#again! bad situation all around! no one is happy here!#i'll fix it. maybe :)#tf one
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Silver is finally here...he just took the title for the most beautiful card in TWST's history...
me five years ago: wow I really hope we get to see dragon Malleus someday! that'll be so nice and wonderful. I bet he's a big silly! :)
twst: :)
GOD. it occurred to me literally three hours before the anniversary stream that they might've been saving the reveal for then to just explode us all at once. this timing was EXTREMELY deliberate. thank you Twst. I can't even focus on all the Blazing Jewel stuff because Silver wielding the physical manifestation of his Complicated Dad Issues is busy eating my entire brain. and -- oh what's that? he duos with Lilia? I'M RUINED THANK YOU ᕕ( ᐕ )ᕗ
this is your warning that I'm going to be the most annoying person on the planet come Monday morning, thank you everybody and goodniiiiiiight
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#i say this with every card but the groovy might actually murder me this time fellas#silver in his biodad's armor with his adopted dad's sword#on his way to fight his adopted brother who both dads tried to save but who's also the son of the woman his biodad killed#because due to extremely complicated circumstances this is the only way to actually save him#and also this is all a parallel to what happened 400 years ago except hopefully it'll go less horribly this time#and also sebek is there!#this really is the story of poor sebek's life isn't it (jk jk sebs you know i love you)#but now it is silver's time to SHINE (a stray beam of light hits silver's armor and my eyes fall out of my head)#i say it again: episode 7 is about two things and two things only#it's dads and significant hair moments all the way down#don't worry! i haven't even reached my final form of being annoying yet!#gosh. this was SO deliberately timed to the anniversary that it HAS to be the wrapup to the episode 7 plot. right?!#like i still think there might be an epilogue chapter or something with the dorm reruns (yes i am fixated on the dorm reruns)#but we're definitely going into 7 endgame here huh folks#genuinely feeling a little bittersweet there! we've spent literally over two years in the episode 7 gauntlet and now the end is in sight#oh media. you can't last forever but why you gotta end.#(malleus in the background: i can fix that } :) fae of --)#at least we have whatever cliffhanger they throw at us for episode 8 to look forward to!#can't wait for it to turn out that grim was raverne this whole time or something#also. just. love that mal's horns look fine in the blazing jewels art#i mean obviously if something happens they wouldn't just put an enormous spoiler on there. but the potential implications are hilarious#malleus having a great time in his little idol outfit like. the weekend before lilia goes 'guess i'll die! 🤷♂️'#ugggh and now i have to actually think about what pulls i'm gonna do. this is awful. how dare you do this to me twst
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double ?? upload ???? yeaaaahh i've gotten FASTERRrr for whatever that's worth so complementary blyla because guess what i miss them too (nobody was surprised by that)
#star wars#clone wars#star wars the clone wars#blyla#artists on tumblr#listen i just have a thing for jedi + clones it seems and we cannot forget dartain the ogs (i will draw that tonight + tomorrow not now)#tcw made aayla so cool bro i love her#can you tell i've been on a mellon_soup kick !! i love her references so much bro#one day i will draw foxiyo. that day may be tomorrow i don't know#prequel-era ships are elite sorry everything else is Lame except for han/leia rebelcaptain and kanera (reylo's fine ig)#tcw is also the only thing that salvages anidala for me however! this is not an anidala post i am getting so off-topic whoa#i am unmedicated.#anyway yayyyy double upload#by the way in my head the accelerated aging thing just straight-up doesn't exist#cuz it's one of the dumbest things star wars has ever done i think it just doesn't make sense#anyway ^^)b#listen i'm not ALWAYS gonna go the cheap route and do the gradient thing instead of color i just don't wannaaaa. too much work#“jedi can't have attachments!!!!” and you can't have fun apparently#besides attachment and .-+ love +-. are different things and the jedi USED to know that before they contracted stupid disease#aayla secura#commander bly#would've drawn bly's armor cause it's cool but friiiick dude i already did it for rex and I AIN'T DOIN' IT AGAIN#(will do it again for darman because i'm a masochist)#hey. he's a commando it's different#at least i finally get to throw my etain headcanons into the ring#why am i talking about other ships on a blyla post. whatever#i'll color something eventually. sketching is just significantly easier and more fun#actually scratch that heck y'all i'll do what i wanna do#(affectionate dw)#my art
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Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.
#bpd#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#actually borderline#bpd splitting#lately I've just been slowly moving away from all my friends too#haven't spoken to anyone on insta for days despite usually talking to at least 2-3 friends every few days#irl sent me a video a week ago...never responded. I haven't even been feeling lonely really#I just KNOW when my period creeps up on me I'll be a whining sad piss baby who's openly pathetic about needing human connection#like I wish I just felt no need for it ever. it feels SO good to be alone and not have any obligations as a person#then the crippling loneliness of forever being alone seeps in when tbh I'm fine with it currently actually
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Actually going insane over the implications of Jason asking Dick to be the Robin to his Batman in Battle for the Cowl.
Like I initially took it at the purely surface-level of Jason wanting a partner in the general sense. Which made sense, it's a huge responsibility and a lonely one so an assistant/sidekick/partner seems a no-brainer if you can get one.
But then I really thought about it, because Jason is not asking Dick to be his partner in the general sense; he's not even asking Dick to be his Nightwing. He's asking Dick to be his Robin.
And they both know exactly what Jason means: "Be the light to my darkness. Be the smile to my scowl. Be the hope to my fear. "
He's saying "Be 'Robin'; be the embodiment of Love and Justice and Goodness. Be the exceptional person that you have always been. Be the slightly-less exceptional person that I was when I wore your colors. Be the person that I was in the process of becoming and might have been (or might still be), if only Joker hadn't clipped my wings."
He's saying "I am prepared to become vengeance, become the Night. And I will go further than Bruce ever dared to, because it is what is needed. I will be the necessary evil. But you don't have to be. If Batman is Gotham's curse, Robin has always been its blessing. I will be the brutal punishment to our world, and I am asking you to be its incandescent gift."
He's saying, "Be for me, what we were for Him. Be my anchor, my comfort, my hope. Remind me what it's all for, why it's all worth it. And remind yourself as well."
He's saying "Be 'Robin' again--for both of our sakes."
#dick grayson#jason todd#battle for the cowl#jaydick#dickjay#kinda but also not kinda#batman#dcu#otp: be my robin#'we can rule together as just it always should've been with you as my guiding light and conscience'#is that not in essence; a sort of marriage proposal ?#well no but it's not NOT one either if you catch my drift#i should note that i haven't actually read bftc yet and i know it's considered controversial/bad#and considered ooc for pretty much everyone#so i am not even sure if I will like it#but i am still planning on reading it for the jaydick crumbs#and b/c i am using it and knightfall as the primary inspo for my krisnix au#apparently jason does ask tim to be his robin first and that's interesting as well#but honestly a little less powerful/interesting to me at least since jaytim just doesn't interest me as much as jaydick#and honestly i've looked at the panels and it seems a little more genuine when jason asks dick idk#more like 'last chance; i'll let you live if you join me' for tim vs. 'join me because this feels right' for dick#and honestly even with clumsy execution; just the narrative and emotional richness of this scene is still making me absolutely feral#this arc could be complete trash in any and every other way but if it gives me THEMES; i will forgive anything#it's the former english major occupational hazard#*apollo justice voice *: I'M FINE#(narrator voice: she was not in fact fine)
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At last, here it is. A while ago, I had the pleasure of commissioning the wonderful @lokorum to portray my beloved idiots in all of their tragic glory.
So without further ado, after months, here's the first chapter of my durgetash-centred, possibly very long, post-canon Genfic (cuz even if he's not featured in the picture, he's very much the one behind it, and yes, I said genfic but they do fuck, there's just also other themes that are more important than whatever it is those guys got going on).
https://archiveofourown.org/works/63147115
Rated M; further elaboration, summary etc behind the cut.
As per usual, please mind the tags. This is rated mature and may turn explicit depending on—let's be so fr—nothing but my mood. It IS a tragedy. I know how it ends. Trust me when I stress the tragedy part. I'm writing this story through tears at times. There's fluff, there is hurt comfort, there is true old man yaoi but there is just as much 'doves that aren't simply dead but rotten' and pain.
So to everyone who's not scared shitless yet (which is very valid), here's a summary:
The year is around 1530 DR. The once-revered and reformed Bhaalspawn returns to the city he had both saved and nearly doomed, emerging from his exile in the Underdark. Though he claims to seek only rest, the city's de facto ruler, Archduke Gortash, sees through the monster’s carefully crafted facade. Perhaps if the elf had never saved the Banite all those years ago—when he was little more than a blurred and distant memory—his own fate might have unfolded differently, perhaps even more mercifully. But regrets have long since lost their weight. The past is immutable, and all that remains—all that truly matters to him now—is the purpose that once again draws him into this treacherous den.
And on a personal note; I'm still squealing and shoving this artwork into the face of everyone I meet irl. I absolutely adore it. I'm not sure I'll be stopping with that soon. You will see reblogs.
Again. Tragedy. I mean it. There's fluffy moments, but I will absolutely exploit them to enhance the pain. I'm dead serious about Bhaal being able to learn from me. I caused his kid more agony than he could ever dream of delivering. And I haven't even shared the worst parts yet.
Edit: I also mean the psychological warfare tag. It's my guilty pleasure. And whatever over one year of obsession amounts to.
#durgetash#the dark urge/enver gortash#durgetash fic#dark urge/gortash#durge OC#enver gortash#gortash#bg3 the dark urge#bg3 durge#bg3 dark urge#durge/gortash#bg3#daemons writing#yes I am slapping this into the tags cuz this is all 100% gortash's fault#I may have also stared down the post button longer than I'd like#this is a tragedy pls pls pls heed my warning#also again thank you lokorum for this beautiful artwork#choosing between the versions truly is impossible even now#anyway hope y'all like yada yada time to become an offline hermit for a week#I'll make a master post later i promise#and just cuz I can thank you again lokorum#and dear moots who never fail to encourage my tragedy loving arse#also now that i have regained my ao3 login#i will get to answering the beautiful comments i've gotten during my 'hiatus'#please just give me a while i'm socially awkward as fuck#okay time for the offline hermit bit to commence while the dread takes ahold of me#at least until tmr#oc: fine
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species medley ft. gorgug and riz
#fantasy high#gorgug thistlespring#riz gukgak#cw: body horror#tbh mostly for the goblin shark jaws lmao. the rest is like. fine I think#ngl drawing like snouts on a humanoid face is kinda awesome I enjoy it#it is kinda a little bit what I aimed for with how I drew riz at first but I pulled back on it#the elephant remix for gorgug I think actually feels a bit more like orc rather than half-orc#maybe the tusks wouldn't get the same lip closure in half-orcs. tho tbh saying that sharing human and orc heritages would result in#consistent physical traits across the board is already kind of a reach I think. I imagine there would be a Lot of variations#and well. at least in spyre we don't see non-human mixed heritages so far... Ive been in my dunmeshi brain lmao#getting to see ryoko kui's art of mixed humans (dunmeshi in-universe term not irl term) is like coming home. thank u ma'am#anyways uhhh I think. I will have refs for every class swap bad kid (at least the full like per-season sets)#fig I'll post separately and then riz and gorgug I'll just include in like a masterpost kinda thing I think#u already know tf is up with them babey!!! just expressing those designs again for convenience#its been really fun figuring these designs out! and necessary if I wanna draw riz bc its literally impossible to doodle him on his own lmao#hes with his friends a lot actually. theyre literally in each others pockets the whole time#anyways! now I sleep. tomorrow? chillin. waiting to watch new nsbu with friend again. see u!
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owlfly
#i also have no idea how i want to draw hivewings#maybe its the bug dragons maybe its just pantala dragons cause ive drawn them the least#i dunno! i'll figure em out eventually#this is the....... second? time ive drawn a hivewing#im gonna be honest i dont really.. like this?#i was fine with it then i started coloring and augh#whatever#i'll for sure draw her again at some point#wings of fire#wof#wof oc#hivewing#raff's art
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That one guy who tried to eat us
I KNOW the colour palette is inaccurate, I'm just terrible at extracting colours.
#if i have enough sanity left Cruez might be next#keyword. might.#this one doodle took me longer then I expected#an embarrassing amount of time#but again this was mostly just practice to at least try and get ahold of his design#I'll draw him properly one day....one day#anyway back to the actual tags#my art#obsidian lantern#the Labyrinth series#does the Kabu tag go here too??-#fuck it it's fine#KabuyamaVA
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"what if we committed [...] what if we, put a ring on it"
look i GET that dan is trying to make some backwards metaphor that they're committing to the gaming (not gaming?) channel and they have no plans to dip any time soon but this man is a MENACE there are hundreds of other ways you can illustrate that you're both committing to this new channel WITHOUT MENTIONING RINGS!!!!!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE IMPLYING!!!!
and part of me is like yeah....he's sowing the seeds, he's dropping hints he knows exactly what he's doing and what he's saying and he chose all of those words specifically because he loves to taunt us but none of that matters when all i want to do is shake him like a snow globe
#LIKEEEEEEEEE#IM STILL HERE#I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE#I LIVE HERE NOW#imagine telling me of 2015 that theyd be making marriage and commitment jokes in reference to themselves#i'd laugh in your face#anyway#i feel fine#or at least i will when dan stops making my blood boil#fucking frogs#dan and phil#phandom
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ad astra per aspera

do do do do dooo doing the tumblr thing where I ramble about the thing that I made either in the tags or under the post. in this case I believe I will be doing both.
I find it a bit unfortunate with pieces like this that I've either workshopped for months or have thought about way too hard, how I end up having nothing to say about them at the end. someone explain that to me, or don't. that's cool too.
I made an alternate version where he's getting dragged down by bill hands because that's:
a) sick as hell
b) somewhat plot relevant
someone tell me if I should post that or not. is that cool or am I insane. I feel like I could've done more but what I've ended up with is satisfactory for me so I'll move on now. thanks for coming to my ted talk.
#gravity falls#art#ford pines#digital art#stanford pines#fanart#illustration#hmm what else should I say about this.#alright no that's it I have nothing else#you know I got put on zoloft and it made me a bit insane but at least my art has gone hard the last month#I'm fine now just for reference#my psych started me on something else. we'll see how it goes.#maybe this one will be better and then I'll make happy ford pines art.#also#bill cipher#if you squint#something something the road to hell is paved with good intentions#in this case the good intentions were the progression of knowledge#quite unfortunate but that's how it panned out.#what an unfortunate little specimen this guy is#someone needs to out this guy under a microscope and figure out what the hell is wrong with him
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"so who—"
"—will you choose?"
"mmm... but aren't you guys the same person?"
[insert two chicken wing boys with passive aggressive smiles on their faces]
comm from namii on vgen!!
#sunday roast#I WANTED TO THE ROAST FEATURING WONWEEK AT LEAST ONCE#AT LEAST#i'll do a non-cheeb version one day#the blurb is lacking tho i apologize#i guess u could see this as pre-2.7 sunday too but he's so smug lmao#i actually wasn't sure if i wanted to do color or gradient but i thought the gradient on the other coms was so pretty so i went with it...#also i decorated the post a little bit#just a little bit lmao#i almost didn't post tho because i was afraid how it would look for light mode users but i think it's fine
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Happy Pride to Trent Crimm and his gay little t-shirts
still images of each shirt below the cut






#shout out to trent-in-teds-t-shirt for insp for the t-shirt phrases#and to casismybestfriend for the art idea!#happy Pride!#to everyone except the people responsible for gif sizes on tumblr#never doing lineart for a gif again lmao#or at least not lineart this fine#but I'm not redrawing this so#if this flops I'll just post the individual shots#anyways! happy pride to trent crimm my beloved#sketch.art#ted lasso#tedtrent#tedependent#trent crimm#trent crimm independent#ted lasso fanart#pride art#Ted lasso Pride#also the homo shirt is a little easter egg for those who know my spn art
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I will never get used to How gently you treat me. As if I were fragile as glass, My existence lacking solidity.
#writerscreed#spilled ink#dark academia#original poetry#original poem#love notes to no one#love notes#love#love poem#short poem#writers and poets#poets on tumblr#my poetry#my poem#women writers#writerscommunity#writers on tumblr#desi dark academia#spilled thoughts#spilled words#this is so 📚🧮#especially 🧮 with 📚#it's the thing of:#'i've been through so much - this is the least of my worries' & 'i can deal with this - i'll get through it ~fine~'#vs.#'just because you can doesn't mean you have to' & 'you've dealt with it all your life - please rest and let me help you for once'#i have no strong feelings about this dw
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there's something poetic in hirano, alarmed by the widespread normalcy surrounding the desire to kiss one's beloved, also being adorned with the black 'normal' hair colour in japan. cosplaying normalcy while still struggling with its concepts. cosplaying normalcy while slightly embarrassed being seen by your kagi-kun in this form, (for whom normal is the personification of the sun). cosplaying normalcy and desperate for your kagi-kun to treat you (touch you) like normal. but then...what even is normal?
#normal used to be a lunch buffet and now it's a two spoon portioned meal at a super fancy restaurant#side note @ green peppers “if you eat at least one then i'll finish the rest for you” vs “ten seconds huh? i guess that would be fine...”#minimums and maximums placed on what you detest and what you ravenously desire#eating at a buffet is instinctual- anyone can walk in and basically figure it out- but at a fancy restaurant? like really fancy?#there's dining etiquette you have to learn- it's not instinctual- and -#yknow what forget this BRO IS HUNGRY LET HIM EAT!!!!!!!#bro's gonna go insane sooner or later#>:)#this is just stream of consciousness idk what this is byeee#hirano to kagiura#my posts
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{ Spoilers for the Welcome Home update! }
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I thought it would be funny to sketch what Wally was up to in the bug clips- since they all seem to be in his pov!
See the tags for my theory ramblings ^^
#byte's bites#welcome home#wally darling#welcome home fanart#idk quite what's happening but I love that he's just vibing in the background while things go on like :)#Also he seems?? Fine for the most part at least during the beginning clips. Like he goes to poke at the tea coaster#And the cereal#But during 14-14 something is definitely wrong#Also also the roach is the odd one out of the cartoony bugs? It appears!! which definitely makes me go 👀??#welcome home spoilers#welcome home speculation#I'll probably draw full on scenes from this later#as a treat#hee hoo hee
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