#at 12 i sleep and get 5 hours of sleep

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 259

haha :)

[ms-demeanor]

Sleep hours!

1 is Too Late

2 is Best

1 is too late because I have to be at work 9 at the latest (even on weekends 1 is too late because I would like to not fuck up the rhythm)

But 2 or 3 is more like when I would naturally go to sleep if the rest of society was Fake News and I could just do my own thing.

The fun thing about the normal distributions on all of those polls is that they suggest that (among the self-selected sample population of tumblr users who click on polls that I've created) AT BEST 40% of people are ideally suited to a standard 9-5 schedule and the actual majority of the population would like something at least slightly different but no we all have to have fake news bedtime. Actually it's not even fake news bedtime it's fake news get-out-of-bed time because I can go to bed whenever I want. But watch out.

[anotherpapercut]

I quit one of my 3 jobs and I feel literally sick with guilt over it

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

she just looks at him like this sometimes and it is always wholly unclear as to whether it's an affectionate or derogatory thing (pre-them getting together it is always a derogatory thing)

[shanedoesdoodles]

I don't think just thinking about my work should cause me a panic attack bad enough to nearly make me faint.

I don't think the work environment that produces that reaction should be considered a good one

[theshadowrealmitself]

Once again thinking about my oc who makes how to do videos that Vulcan kids like to watch, except this time I’m also thinking about “guest stars,” because you just know there’s going to be some things where you need an expert on it for

And originally I was just thinking about pleasant guest stars, and how the Human oc is unknowingly also teaching Vulcan kids how to handle their emotions because the Human is trying a lot of new things that actually scare them, or make them anxious, things like that, but they just calm themselves down on camera and continue doing them

But now I’m thinking about Jim Kirk, specifically aos Jim Kirk, guest starring before he ever became a captain, and it’s “how to ride a motorcycle,” and the whole time, this Human who is usually good at keeping a calm and pleasant disposition, just keeps turning to anxiously tell the camera “don’t do that” because Jim went straight to tricks and stuff that he shouldn’t be showing beginners

Jim Kirk is rewatching this episode as a captain, trying to avoid looking at Bones and Spock as they watch him put himself in danger without proper protective gear on

[safyresky]

Smile Shots: When Bernard Met Jacqueline

Summary:

Bernard and Jacqueline tell Elle the story of how they met, and the centuries long friendship that ensued.

Check it out on ao3 and ff dot net :)

Guess what item was NEXT on the GLOW UP AGENDA! THE BERLINE FRIENDSHIP STORY, YEAH BABY!

I wanted to post it here but apparently, it has more than 1000 text block breaks which is apparently tumblr's limit. Of course.

Anyway! Enjoy a preview below the cut! :)

“You’re sing-songy this noon, Jacqueline.”

“Lalala—huh? Oh! Mhmm! Didn’t you see? We passed music! They were playing music!”

“Naturally.”

“So now it’s stuck in my head! Very fun! But it won’t get out of my head.”

“Very not fun for me.”

“It was a really big room with all sorts of weird instruments, and lots of colours, and happy little elfies—”

A very clear image of the music room popped into Jack’s head, then. Complete with elves and Jacqueline’s unique on-Jack's-shoulders point of view.

Well. That was an interesting new thing they could do.

“Jack.”

He groaned. Pulling a face, Jack turned around, a brilliant smile replacing the scowl as he watched Santa’s irritating head elf march their way.

“Bean pole.”

Bernard pulled up in front of them, placing his hands behind his back and ignoring the slight. (Rude, Jack thought). He could feel Jacqueline shifting forward in interest, folding her hands on top of his head.

“Council’s reconvening. Mother Nature wanted me to let you know that she knows you and your Legate have already been sworn in, but she expects you both to stay for the remainder of the proceedings.”

Jack grimaced, nose wrinkling. He glanced up at Jacqueline. She was wide awake and very interested in everything right now, it looked (and felt) like. So much for the “sleepy toddler” excuse, then. She’d be very unconvincing.

“Fine,” Jack sniffed. “We’ll be back posthaste and all that.”

Bernard looked surprised. And relieved. “Huh. That was easier than I expected. Thanks Jack.”

The nerve, Jack thought, watching as the elf walked away. “That was easier than I expected,” he mocked, sticking his tongue out at Bernard's retreating form.

He straightened. Dear Lady above. He really needed to tone down the hanging-out-with-a-toddler time. It was really bringing down his pristinely cultivated maturité.

“Down! Down!”

“What? You just wanted up!”

“Well now I want down! Pretty please.”

“I don’t know, Jacqueline. That please sounded like an afterthought.”

He was unsurprised when he felt her little toes once again digging into his shoulders, her face appearing before him with an over the top and yet, still adorable little pout. How did she make her eyes go that big. What was wrong with her.

“P-w-leaseeeeeeeee Jack? Pretty pretty please???? With powdery snow on top???”

“Alright, fine. Get back up there. And fix your face.”

Cackling (yes, really, the child was cackling), Jacqueline smirked at him, popping back up on his shoulders. Seconds later her arms were around his neck and she slid down his back and threw herself over his shoulders, succeeding in nothing but a decent imitation of a necktie.

“Jacqueline. You really need to work on your chill.”

“What? No I don't! You said it was perfect just last week!”

“Not—” Jack paused to let out a laugh. “Not your literal chill! The art of being chill.”

She stopped squirming, hanging off of Jack’s neck, head tilted up at him.

“Oh. Right.”

Rolling his eyes fondly, Jack grabbed her waist, placing her down gently.

“Honestly, Jacqueline. I’m super chill, not super fast. Have some patience. Hand please, if you're going to insist on being on the floor.”

“Hehe. Okay.” She grabbed his hand, letting him gently tug her back towards the meeting room. “Who was that?”

“Who?”

“The guy you thought was rude!”

Ah. She could hear his thoughts, too. Best be careful about that, Jack thought. To himself.

“That was Santa’s Number One Elf.”

“He had a cool hat. I liked it.”

“Yeah. I’m sure he’d let you wear it in a heartbeat.”

Jacqueline stopped, pulling Jack with her. Her eyes had done that “getting big” thing again.

“REALLY?!”

Jack blinked. And got a terrible idea.

“Why, of course! C’mon, Jacqueline. Who can say no to you.”

She looked positively devious. “NO ONE.”

“Exactly. Tell you what. Why don’t you go find him and ask? I’m sure he’ll say yes. Just make sure you call him by his preferred name! It's Bernie. He loves his name. You go and catch up to him, okay? Just. Don’t get lost!”

“Okay! Wait. How will I find you?”

“Tell you what. I’m going to go to the...restroom quickly, and then I’ll go find you, and we can head back to Gran. Okay?”

“Okay!”

“Have fun! Be safe! Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do!” Jack shouted after her retreating form, smile dropping as soon as his sister was out of view.

A quick trip to the restroom…or perhaps, instead, a quick trip to Santa’s office to do something about this whole unlawful exclusion he’d managed to get?

Same difference, Jack thought, slinking away through the lesser used hallways of the Workshop.

___

What frozen hell will Jack wrought? Will Jacqueline find this. Bernie? Will she get to wear his HAT? WILL BERNARD EVER CATCH A BREAK?!?! Not when friendship with Jacqueline is involved >:)

Catch the newly updated version on ao3 HERE and ff.net HERE. I'll reblog this after a NAP with some A/N's/the change log and the cake recipe lol :)

[autisticlee]

don't you love when you dream you were stabbed or shot or fell and broke something or some other thing and wake up to some kind of severe pain that makes you wanna cry but you can't do anything about it to stop it. and bonus points if you also have to pee really bad so have to force yourself to get up 😐

also I accidentally missed my volunteering today because I tried to get up a few times but it hurt and I gave up and fell back asleep and kept getting woke up by those pain dreams fbddsjjsjjs I feel so disoriented and out of it. idk what to do about it. Just ignore it I guess 🥲 have to go back to work in a couple hours and mop up salt for 5 hours again. ugh. can the snow and cold stop existing now?????? it's so painful 🥲😭

also I can't tell if I feel like i'm going to throw up because of stomach issues or because sometimes my chronic pains seem to make me nauseous for some reason in general. or both???? I want to disappear for a while. not go back to work 😭😭😭😭

[running-in-the-dark]

my niece stayed with us last night. it was pretty fun this time, probably because I was feeling better (if I'm already in pain or exhausted, I can't handle it). after we dropped her off, we talked to my mother for a little bit, and then drove to my in-laws. we were there for a few hours and because the guys were busy outside, i ended up talking to my mother-in-law for most of that time. it was... kind of good? I don't know. she actually showed some real emotions, just a little bit, but hey that's more than ever before! I even gave her a weird little shoulder squeeze/side hug, it was so weird.

anyway, I almost fell asleep in the car on the way home because I was so tired, and actually did fall asleep immediately on the couch.

[callalili]

I wish my job allowed me to do fun things outside of work for more than like maybe 2 hours

[angelstrawbabie420]

i got such shit sleep bc of that wild ass dream/nightmare and now im all foggy and hazy but not in a fun way and i have shit to do i hate it

[windupaidoneus]

oh my god its going to be 36°c today. & i ahve bad cramps. everyone keep me in ur thoughts so i survive this

[seokmins]

My parents said they're getting up early tomorrow n it's gonna be like idk 7 or 8 bet

[dakrapatops]

I will never not be angry about school starting at 8 when I want to sleep in til 9-10. like I'd be cool with a 10-4 day. like teenagers are PROVEN to fall asleep and get up later and school goes 🤗 6am start sweaty:)

[aropride]

my body is begging me to get some sleep i think . i should probably listen to it. but im having SO MUCH FUN in pages document

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

What if I just don't sleep. What then.