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why do people slam doors when they’re angry. it only hurts the door
#I’ve come to find that my mother raised me to be unable to think of a life without her#as she did for my older brothers#as she tried to do for my little brother but he broke the cycle#I too would like to break the cycle#but it won’t end until she does because my older brothers are too far gone#she has this emotionally incestuous relationship with them and I truly wish they would all just leave so they can take everything else from#her.#I’ve never seen humans with such little purpose in life. and I know me. so that’s wild#I can’t feel bad for her. these are monsters of her creation and everything that happens from here is her fault
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Jesus is my older brother, not my dad.
other christians don't seem to feel the same?
am i missing something where he insists on such a thing except perhaps with actual little children?
#christianity#tumblrstake#Quakers#i just want to know what y'all think#progressive christianity#some christians see themselves as his children#but again most chrsitians are sippin trinity juice so the Father is the Son? egro Jesus can be Dad#i guess i'm not a true monotheist bc if Jesus is a child of God and told his disciples to call him friend. he is my peer#Jesus is my peer - big brother - mentor - friend#God the creator is my Mother/Father/Parent(s) as well as Jesus'#Jesus and I are both children of God and Jesus is my teacher/my respected older brother/ my friend#i think the Holy Spirit is what generally moves around among humans and through humans. experiencing God through others.#also an internal prompting on what direction to take (which typically needs to undergo through discernment) but is sometimes an act rn thing#hence the gift of the Holy Spirit being gifted to us#but now i'm getting theological in the tags#did i mention that all of this is through my christian lense and a muslim could have a different perception and be just as valid#and thats on different ways people see the Divine and how the Divine presents Godself/selves to different people#i know this because Heavenly Mother was at my conversion experience. she offered an invitation - an embrace#and i took it immediately a wept#and i think that presentation was intentional bc i may not have/wouldn't have reacted the same way to Heavenly Father#our relationship is good now - Heavenly Father and I -currently on the rocks in my “ God#in my “God - why?” era. shit has been dark. and people are commiting atrocites in your name#i do pray for their smitting. but only in a way God with Hir cosmic justice sees fit#and for softened hearts more often but on one occassion it was “plz get these sinners in line” and pulling out psalm 94#Godposting#religion
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I like thinking about the day Ponyboy turns twenty. Turns twenty and realizes he still doesn’t know what he’s doing. Turns twenty and still feels like a kid. Turns twenty and realizes that he’s the age Darry was when he had to drop everything for them.
#the outsiders#the outsiders 1983#ponyboy curtis#darry curtis#I’m thinking abt this bc I’m the age I thought my sister knew everything#when I thought she was the most mature person ever#when she was the only person I relied on#I’m older than when she was the main person taking care of me#I think back to when I was ten and nine and eight and wonder how she did it#I look at myself now and hope to god my brother doesn’t see me the way I saw her#because I thought she was basically an adult#and she wasn’t
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Jazz and Jason have been dating for two and a half weeks now. And in this timeframe Danny still hasn't warmed up to the former Crime Lord. Not even when Jason makes the decision to share his vigilante i.d. with Danny.
As a last ditch effort Jazz leaves Danny in her boyfriend's care while she completes her college semester. She's eager to get back to their shared apartment once finals are over, more so when Jason tells her on the phone both he and Danny have a surprise waiting for her.
To say that she was woefully unprepared for what this surprise that awaited her at home turned out to be would be quite the understatement. As never in her wildest dreams did she expect to be met with her little brother having gone through yet another just as drastic though much less extreme change.
*while halfway through the door*
Jazz: So, what's this about you two having a surprise for me?
*smirking slyly*
Jason: Danny! Jazz is home!
*apartment practically shakes from the heavy thud of footsteps, followed by the appearance of a behemoth of a seventeen year old*
Danny: Jazzy, you're finally back!
*after sweeping her into a bear hug*
Danny: Ok, I admit it. I was wrong about him. From here on out I'm completely on board! When you guys get married, can I be the best.... Uh, Jazz? You okay there?
*quivering with horror while struggling to face Jason, still trapped in Danny's arms*
Jazz: WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY LITTLE BROTHER?!
#dpxdc#danny phantom#batman#danny fenton/phantom#jazz fenton#jason todd/red hood#anger management#jazz+jason#tall jazz#though some short beanpole of an older teen or adult danny fics or prompts do a decent job of holding my interest#i will forever be team jack-sized young adult/all grown up danny#poor jason is so flabbergasted and also a little hurt by jazz's reaction#all he did was finally earn her little brother's trust by feeding him properly and enforcing a bedtime#while danny steadily becomes more and more self-conscious about his now huge stature the longer jazz rants#especially when she likens him to a teenage version of bane#jazz's just so used to as well as prefers being the big sister in size as well as age it's only natural she wasn't ready for that to change
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Something's deeply wrong with the fictional older siblings...
#it started out pretty normal didn't it?#as normal as giving up an arm to god to bind your brother's soul to a suit of armor can get anyway#edward elric#wei wuxian#illyasviel von einzbern#ragna the bloodedge#shigeo kageyama#ritsu kageyama#meanwhile the younger siblings are trying to defend their one time attempted fratricide<3#illya also committed fratricide. you can even say that she's the only one to succeed! good for her#but she died for shirou so it all evens out right???#lolol there's a fancier version of this in my head but i don't wanna waste more time than i already did for this#losing a limb or something more important than a limb is just what fictional older siblings do!
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refusing to be undone.
Atia Balba, niece to Julius Caesar, died only a year after his assassination, and was survived by her two children, Octavia the Younger and Gaius Julius Caesar Augustus, who she had named Gaius Octavius at birth. Both her son and daughter would outlive her by several years.
#historyedit#perioddramaedit#history#ancient history#roman history#ancient rome#octavia the younger#octavian#augustus#my edits#my stuff#yes i hate domina yes i will use gifs of it for my rome stuff#if only because there's no other option and tgc could have played an amazing augustus if he had a better script#and yes i am using olivia for octavia cuz she and tom look a lot alike#so they should play these aristocratic orphans someone give me money for it#anyway the fact that they spent far longer without their parents than with them will always be fascinating to me#especially octavian cuz caesar died just before atia#and he and caesar had a connection that octavia wasn't a part of#(also imagine being octavia man)#(your little brother becomes head of the family during a lot of familial turmoil and starts killing just so many people)#(how did she feel about that as his older sister? as the only immediate family he had? when he's also the only immediate family SHE had)
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TIL that in the 70s anime Snufkin is an adult and Moomin is 10 years old. This is what happens when there are no official subtitles… I THOUGHT THEY WERE SO CUTE IN IT TOO 💔💔💔
#snufkin#moomin#70s moomin#damn you moomin adaptations#moomin ages are always weird#i saw people on pinterest arguing about little my being older than snufkin or not (bcs shes his older half sibling)#people like to put the older brother and little brother dynamic on snufkin on moomin too#I did not read it that way but. to each their own!#i guess.
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Saw someone say it wasn’t normal for ena to scratch akito & while i will say yeah they’re probably a little old for physical fighting I don’t think that’s Super Sick and Twisted of her like…For the only children out there or those with siblings who are much older/younger I don’t think you realize that sometimes it’s WWE cage matches when you’re growing up with siblings close to your age. It’s enrichment. The children crave violence.
#also she keeps her nails long. shit happens.#as someone with a twin sister and a brother who’s a little over a year older:#I have definitely scratched them both as a kid. my sister and I used to get in fist fights over stupid shit. one time my brother threw me#into a wall while rough housing. one time my sister got mad at me and bit me super hard.#mine#+ I think people act like she just did it out of nowhere like. how do we know they weren’t tussling over the remote or smthng. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#ena#akito
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I gave myself a writing challenge and I am fascinated by it
So basically I put the robins in a randomizer to give them a new order/role (because I just...kinda wanted to see what would happen + I like role-reversal AUs) and got results that are giving me a fucking brain blast.
Stephanie, the first sidekick who defines the role
Tim, the sidekick who dies and comes back wrong
Dick, the sidekick who saves Batman from himself
Damian, the sidekick who was never supposed to be a sidekick but would go on to prove everyone wrong
Jason, the youngest sidekick who is still the Kid Wonder
...So this is fucking wild. I've got some ideas and several of these fit perfectly (Dick's role is pretty similar to his one in canon), but some of these are fucking INCREDIBLE to explore (Steph being the first Robin is something I never even considered but tbh I kinda love it).
I probably won't write a fic or anything because tbh I don't like publishing my writing that much, but I might expand this into a full AU and post about it. I might randomize other stuff too (ie, stuff that I cannot change vs stuff that I cannot keep the same) but this fucking rules as a starting point.
#uhhh what am I calling this??#randomizedrobinsau#stephanie brown#oh my god I am so excited to figure out how tf to write this.#because she's my favorite of these characters and having HER be the first sidekick + the one who has a mentor/older sister relationship#with the others?? kickass. though I'll probably keep her and Tim's relationship as 'dating-then-exes' because I think it's funny#and then SHE can be the Robin who Tim got fixated on + figured out her identity?? holy fuck and then the angst of Tim later dying#Tim Drake#tbh I kinda wish he'd gotten a different position because 'sidekick who dies' Tim has kinda been done a lot with the standard#reverse robin aus. But it'll still be fun to write. Definitely going the Joker Junior route with this because Batman Beyond kicks ass#Dick Grayson#He'll honestly probably be the easiest. Like...his role has not changed much outside of being younger/not the one who defines this#But I still think it'll be good to see how well I know Dick beyond his eldest brother thing (which is my best way of relating to him)#Damian al ghul#damian wayne#oh this is gonna kick ass#Bruce does not want his son to be a sidekick but Damian just kinda forces his way into that role#and everybody doubts him because of his history with the league but he later proves himself more than capable#to the point that he can set out mostly on his own and still thrive#Jason Todd#Jason being the baby of the family is also something I have never thought about but holy shit it could kick ass#I really hope that I don't roll 'Jason must die' or 'Robin 5 must die' on the randomizer. I just kinda want Jason to live this time#But unfortunately I double-screwed him because he's on the 'must happen' wheel twice now. I did not think these prompts through#TBH I am so happy that none of them rolled their OG roles. because that would have been so fucking boring
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Hatsune Miku doodle
#basically mt older brother had a laptop he wasn't using anymore and techinically gave it to my mom#but my mom gave it to me since she already has a laptop#anyways the colors are kinda eh but i didn't feel like painting or being colorful rn idk wanted a simple easy thing to get used to having#to use a wacom tablet again -___-#going to try and finish up my one commission left plus maybe draw those requests i got on kofi digitally hehe#tho drawing on this tablet is kinda the worst but i did draw on this for like years but....main did my surface pro spoil me -___-#keep trying to remind myself how one of my fave artists litcherally draws with a MOUSE PAD like i can. i can handle a screenless tablet#even tho i dont want to -______-#art#doodle#miku#hatsune miku#vocaloid#vocaloid fanart#fanart#digital art#sketch#illustration#vocaloid miku#artwork#arin moss#arin moss art
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Druas and Eva
#my characters#they have an older brother who is v expressive and friendly and then they just do not emote#they are actually part of a different cast/group than oifil but its the exact same location and time and they do have some crossover#so druas has a coworker that is basically chris' adopted son (as karen and right view him at least)#and druas hears about luca being a lot reckless and with no self awareness so he recruits his dear sister eva#to help monitor luca (which luca hates) bc eva has military training and is good at going unnoticed#but when he tells eva to protect luca from anything that might harm him and then she sees them together#she kinda gets in front of luca and is like hey youre causing him distress which is bad for the mental health#and druas is like did you just call me a threat to him ?? and luca thinks THAT is actually hilarious and he likes eva now#but these two dont really interact with the other cast much - its mostly just luca that talks to the oifil peeps#i never designed the older brother or named him but theres just two blondes with no expression + their older brother who has all expression
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had a funky asgardian dream last night lol
the premise was that loki fucked around and basically an amnesiac version of loki ended up back in time with so many holes in his memory but enough knowledge to be like "odin is my dad"
and odin looked at this kid and was like "aw he looks like hela, this tracks" and, importantly, does not know that loki is a frost giant and just assumes loki is his full blood kid lol
all that to say that loki and thor grow up with big brother!loki who is actually?? a good big brother?
rather than hide hela's existence, older loki makes odin nostalgic and he ends up telling them that hela is their big sister who was "lost to the war" or some bullshit, which most people assume to mean she died in the war, right?
older loki sees like, one picture of her, notes the similarities, and then for some weird reason feels profoundly uncomfortable so he decides not to unpack all that and just avoids mention of her lol. kid thor doesn't really care that much about her bc she's not in their lives so why should he? kid loki LOVES learning about her and actively seeks info about her out, mostly because he thinks a big sister would probably be better than two older brothers (he also is young enough that lost to the war means that he could probably find her, right?)
importantly, kid!Loki grows up very differently in this dream world. instead of being the weird outcast prince, everyone looks at him and is like "awww look he's like his big brother <3." he's also like, 8 so at the moment he is very much the baby of the family
anyway so the main plot of this dream was big Loki (imagine like a 19/20 year old) plus thor (like 12) and Loki (8ish) manage to find where Hela is sealed away. idk where they are or where the king and queen are, it's implied they're not in asgard right now and this was a Very Unplanned Field Trip that is giving older Loki an ulcer. They have to look at little Loki to confirm this weird fucking ceiling portrait is Hela bc the older two are not the Hela Experts in the room
at the same time, older Loki is starting to get some flashes of the future and begins to suspect that he's from the Bad Timeline
through accident, they manage to unseal Hela, who is met with three whole younger siblings - and let me tell you it is a very different welcome when you have a very enthusiastic 8-yr-old sparkling at you and very excited to have found his lost sister and a 12-yr-old who thinks girls kind of have cooties rolling his eyes
so hela makes a split second decision to not tell her baby brothers about the whole "dad sealed me away for being warful" thing (it will be a fun surprise for odin later <3) and also embrace being a big sister (it is now her legal job to pick on older loki and make fun of thor for being the odd one out)
anyway while they're figuring this out, older Loki is continuing to get flashes of the future but is now somehow joined by thor also getting flashes of the future. what they manage to glean makes them suspicious, and hey if they're both getting future visions or whatever then logically baby loki should also be, right??
so they start to like. suspiciously spy on little loki. except idk maybe the universe decided that one loki having knowledge was fine? i don't think older loki actually fully knows about the time travel thing or that he IS little loki tbh
so anyway they're spying on an eight year old who has a strict bedtime of nine o'clock.
meanwhile hela starts getting flashes of the future and is like "wait. do i destroy asgard?? why would i do that? where would my brothers live? ):"
the only other thing i remember is there being a dramatic scene where hela is trying to reject her fate and someone tells her that she cannot escape it, and she's actually getting teary eyed because she's gotten attached to her weird shitty brothers now
then i woke up and was like "huh"
#my dreams#dream journal#big brother loki dream#i have no explanation for the fact that both lokis were just called loki in the dream#no one even batted an eye#that's dream logic for ya!#thor was also a lil different#a little shit but in the way that 12 year olds are little shits#also he kept getting called the odd one out bc of all his black haired goth siblings#i think at one point he asked if they thought he should dye his hair#little loki was very sweet honestly and really got to be a little kid without the weight of asgard hating him#older loki really absorbed a lot of that at the beginning lol and would NOT stand for anyone being mean to his little brothers#older loki and thor teaming up to be suspicious of little loki was a hilarious part of the dream#i am not kidding about the 9 o'clock bedtime which little loki adhered to religiously#little loki shoving his brothers out of the way like 'sorry losers i have a sister now <3'#hela was charmed by little loki and the other two are very fun to tease#her and older loki snipe at each other#older loki is like 'hmm for some reason i feel like releasing hela is Very Bad.'#*looks at little loki*#'ah yes my position as fav older sibling is being threatened'#hela is that one meme where she's like 'i've only had little loki for one day but if anything happened to him i'd destroy asgard'#i appreciate my brain deciding i needed a fun little sibling sitcom in my brain last night though#very fun#no clue where the loki of it came from since i haven't seen a marvel movie since uhhhhh i think the one where thanos snaps.#is that infinity wars or end game#i did watch the taika thor movie but not the second one?
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My mom is always like "you were suchhh an easy kid compared to your brothers, you didn't even cry the first night home from the hospital it was so weird. I never had to worry about you since I knew you could handle yourself" meanwhile I as a kid always felt like
#its also funny bc then she acts surprised when i dont know how to do things#'i learned how to drive at 14' okay well you didnt teach me#'my friends taught me' okay well i didnt have friends because my social skills fucking sucked.#at this point i know its on me that i let my anxiety control my life im not even blaming that on her#sibce i am an adult capable of making changes#since*#but when she says stuff like this it makes my eye twitch#i try not to resent my brothers (esp my younger brother) for this#but kinda sucks they got more attentiveness to their developmental issues than i did#two younger brothers on the spectrum and older brother with speech issues and dyslexia#i started anti anxiety meds in senior year of high school but thats it. and wasnt bc of her noticing my anxiety disorder#personal#also i know people usually reply these things trying to be encouraging but i dont really like when others talk badly about my mom#so dont do that please
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Lines that somehow single-handedly kinda broke my heart:
"Thank you."
"Never thank me for that."
#Dain Aetos#Violet Sorrengail#Violet Sorrengail quotes#Dain Aetos quotes#Iron Flame#Iron Flame quotes#Rebecca Yarros#Chapter 44#no spoilers please#quote spoilers without spoiling#iykyk#first read along with me#reading reacts#break my heart#spoonies understand#legit I’ve lived this#idk there’s just a lot in this scene#the fact he knows exactly what she means the way he just grabs her the way she did everything she could and still is blamed#though the griffin grabbed the rider first not her and she literally couldn’t move and she tried and the love and heartbreak in Dain at that#the like guilt response pain relief thank you and the horror heartache of her even saying that or owing him or any part of it#plus the chaos of the scene and almost humor in her being like ITS NOT THAT BIG A DEAL DO IT cause been there too idk it just got me#ALSO RIDOC DONT YOU DARE DIE ON ME#the next lines too but they get their own posts#and Cibbe broke my heart btw#and YES AND THATS WHY I LOVE HIM#OK POWER QUEEN#He wields the older brother disapproving stare like the professional he is. but also Brennan Ridoc best not die bro#and it was a brilliant idea Vi#How did you know you could kill them like that? I didn't.
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I'm quite worried for the drama that's gonna eventually ensue between Rachel and Hyde cause like 80-90% of her distress was not at all caused by his actions.
#not to devalue her trauma or emotions...#just like...the whole 'looks like her brother thing' wasn't at all his fault...#and I feel like even if she had known Jekyll and Hyde shared an existence...she still would have viewed Hyde the way she did...#also really didn't have it on my bingo card that she was the least stable person inside the society outside of Jekyll and Hyde#girl was holding on by a string#the glass scientists#glass scientists#also i know Hyde is hurting about it#cause he was so ticked off when Rachel's older brother told him the situation#and he's already fighting to be seen as a person and not just Jekyll in a blond wig
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every once in a while, i do in fact think abt how quinn taunting gale with this was likely just as much a projection of her own pain + guilt over not being able to do anything to prevent richie’s death, or even so much as be there with him as he died (and pretty brutally at that), as it was her just looking to hit the worst nerve she could. and yeah. yeah. it does absolutely get me.
#my poor evil little baby…#likely contributed a lot to her feeling the need to step up as a ‘protector’ in the fam#post richie’s death as well#me being kirschcest pilled makes this a million times worse bc its like#so she lost her older brother her protector and the man she loved in one go. ofc she turned into the joker 😭#scream#scream vi#kirsch family#quinn bailey#richie kirsch#ceci speaks#also if this reads very familiar i DID post it on my old blog#i cant find it tho so im saying it again
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