#anyways it’s midnight i’m going to sleep
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
ace-of-d1am0nds · 3 months ago
Text
the message of the end of season 3: defeat (in their case literally) the image of the life your abusive parent created for you
the message of season 4, apparently: go to a different timeline in which your parent didn’t abuse you (a reality that will never happen in our real world because, unfortunately, timeline hopping does not exist), receive validation by “proving” to them that you were never worthy of abuse (you should never have to prove to anybody you are not worthy of abuse, you are inherent deserving to not be abused), and then subsequently await the incoming death you “deserve” by simply existing (you do not, in fact, deserve death for having been created despite what your abusive parents may have convinced both themselves and you)
25 notes · View notes
midnightsslut · 8 months ago
Text
the reason why bejeweled feels very calvin to me still is how it parallels high infidelity. in general, the 3am tracks seem to explore a darker, more explicit side of a storyline that’s already present, if only in the form of subtext (like we don’t have a direct parallel for wcs, but we do have two songs exploring formative past relationships vaguely sexually, and wcs is the darker example), on the main album, and bejeweled/high infidelity is perhaps the best example of this. its similarities to tolerate it, which is about something she felt ‘at one point in her life,’ back this up. HOWEVER, I do think it’s exploring a potential outcome of the then-current state of her relationship with joe. like, this is how things could go - I have forgotten that I have a man in the past, and I can do it again.
34 notes · View notes
missmouse43 · 6 days ago
Text
I’d like to go on record as saying I have never believed in the JJ dying rumours.
BUT.
If I am wrong and the worst does happen, that’s a wrap on my time in the fandom. Sorry if it sounds like I’m being dramatic, but I’ll be out of here pretty darn quickly (not without saying goodbye of course) And thinking about that possibility makes me very sad, but JJ dying would kill any joy I have left for this show. Full stop.
That being said I’m still optimistic we’re going to get some amazing JJ content in part 2 and I am incredibly excited to see Rudy flex his phenomenal acting skills. The spotlight is entirely on him right now and I couldn’t be happier for him. I fully expect some great Jiara moments as well.
No matter how it ends part 2 is going to be epic and I truly hope (🤞🏻) I’ll have a reason to stick around and discuss it all with you while we wait for season 5.
Good night, and good luck!
8 notes · View notes
valewritessss · 3 months ago
Text
Should I sneak into the kitchen to get a cookie at midnight yes or no
10 notes · View notes
dialdrunk · 7 months ago
Text
taylor’s worst sin MUSICALLY is putting the best songs on the deluxe edition because from the bottom of my heart what the FUCK was that???????
8 notes · View notes
iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 8 months ago
Text
one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else
#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more#I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s#the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything#that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da#lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how#get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to#and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not#be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much#of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in#bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it#into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it#but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted#any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself#not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha#usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day#because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere#I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s#just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway#this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this#bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school#vent tw#yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely#disability#chronically ill#i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho#i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to#anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse#I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours#I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework
8 notes · View notes
lesbiansanemi · 11 months ago
Text
Do you think if I wish hard enough my mom will get electrocuted by a string of Christmas lights and just go up in a cloud of smoke. It’d be a Christmas miracle
#I’m not even DOWN THERE YET and I want to fucking KILL HER#I have to work Christmas Eve and the day after Christmas. I live four hours away from my family#I told her this MANY TIMES I said I’ll drive down after work on Christmas Eve be there Christmas morning but I need to leave by 3-4 to get#home at a reasonable hour so I can have time to unpack/catch up on a couple days of chores/get plenty of sleep#she called me last night and told me she didn’t schedule Christmas stuff until SIX PM#and when I said why tf did you do that I’m not staying that late#she got mad and upset and was like ‘it’s the only time everyone is free :(‘#BUT THEN proceeded to tell me we were having lunch with her HUSBAND’S family at noon#(ppl I am not close with never have been literally don’t talk to)#and everyone I know is like ‘just leave when you said you were going to anyways’#and like yeah I could but then my family is gonna be ENRAGED that I didn’t do Christmas stuff with them#and they’re like ‘well explain that your mom didnt listen to when you said you needed to leave’#but the thing is. no matter what. they’re going to take her side#I should sacrifice my time and comfort to spend time with them because they’re FAMILY#never mind that literally not a SINGLE ONE OF THEM has EVER come up to visit me#IM always expected to drive down there. but that sacrifice doesn’t count it’s not good enough#but if I stay that late I won’t be getting home until AT LEAST midnight or later#cuz my family has no fucking concept of time so if it starts at six that means it doesn’t ACTUALLY start until 7 so most of them might be#there by 8 so I’ll be expected to stay until at least 10 to sufficiently catch up with all of them#I’m going to scream I’m going to cry#if I leave early I’m the awful ungrateful terrible bitch who never comes to see any of them#but none of them could adjust their days by just a few hours to see me before I needed to leave#FOR MY FUCKING JOB !!!!!!!! SOMETHING COMPLETELY OUT OF MY CONTROL#and like the thing is. my piece of shit manipulative bitch mother#I KNOW she did this on purpose#I know she didn’t plan this until six to FORCE me to stay longer because she was mad I wasn’t staying long#(again… because of work… something I can’t control)#so she’s orchestrated this to put me in this position#where I have to suck it up and stay and be exhausted and have tired migraines for a week cuz I get only a couple hours of sleep and then#or leave and make everyone pissed. I hate her so FUCKING much
12 notes · View notes
mad-c1oud · 10 months ago
Text
no one touch me someone just asked if they could bind my fic “a letter to your old address” into a book
HUH??? WHAT?????? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
6 notes · View notes
autism-disco · 10 months ago
Text
some thoughts i’ve had that don’t get to be individual posts
- i’m like ice king if he didn’t want to kidnap princesses and didn’t have ice powers and was still tired and silly
- you ever think about how crazy breathing is. like we (i don’t know what i was thinking) we breathe in and out we’re all just little creatures
- chutney
6 notes · View notes
yoohyeon · 5 months ago
Text
I LOVE PURKI !!! 🫶💜💕💞💝💘💖💗💓
Tumblr media
4 notes · View notes
shrimpisdrawing · 2 years ago
Text
Dude I’ve been thinking about sonic movie 3 so freaking much lately and watching the Mario movie just fueled it more LMAO
I’m going to ramble here bc I’ve already annoyed tf out of my sister and my friends :,)
specifically I’ve been thinking about where shadows going to end up at the end of it. Like I’m fond of the idea of him ending up a Wachowski or adopted by wade BUT I honestly don’t feel like it fits him….
I think, especially if they end up introducing Rouge, that he’ll just end up with her. Cause he’s just so independent like he’s not gonna let some parent him or tell him what to do fuck that he can make his own decisions! He’s the ultimate life form!! He’s not going to eat his veggies just bc some dumb humans told him to >:( !!!! As great as the Wachowski’s are I genuinely don’t think shadows going to like being treated like a kid even if he is one and Rouge won’t do that she respects him so much not that Tom and Maddie won’t but idk I just feel like them trying to take care of him would offend him??? If that makes any sense??? I’m bad at writing down my thoughts but yeah. In summary I don’t think he’s going to end up adopted at the end of the third movie….if he doesn’t die that is 😀
21 notes · View notes
victory-cookies · 6 months ago
Text
well I can’t say I was incorrect about how my night was gonna be
2 notes · View notes
exopelagic · 6 months ago
Text
okay I’m going insane I need to fix my sleep schedule now
#I cannot keep getting up at/after midday this is driving me crazy#SO. I’m gonna not do ice hockey for a little bit until I can get myself normal#I want to step away from ice hockey anyway bc the new committee are being annoying and I need them to stop making me do things#tonight I will go to bed at midnight. and I will stop everything to get ready for bed by 10 bc I need that time#and tomorrow I’m setting my alarm for 7:30#I’m going to have mornings again if it kills me bc this is making me feel like shit now#will also mean hopefully I’m less stressed about work and can schedule stuff with my friends bc oh my god everything has been a nightmare#this week. and it’s only Tuesday what the fuck#also going to make a sleep tracker again bc that worked in February#and I’m setting library times for weekdays as 9:30-12 and 2-5 because getting there is the problem and I normally stay longer once I’m ther#and that worked for exams AND there’s just less work to do now so if I can keep on top of it everything should be fine#just have to actually do it#like right now I rlly need to go get writing bc I need to figure out some title options and that needs to be done by tomorrow afternoon#otherwise there won’t be time to get feedback from my supervisor before the deadline#so while today might be a bit of a lost cause bc I need to shower go to the shop and cook which takes most of the free working time#I can do something and if I can make tomorrow morning work I’ll have enough time#I’m okay with having periodic getting my shit together days as long as I do use them to get my shit together#now pls. get your shit together <3#luke.txt
2 notes · View notes
cloneboywonder · 1 year ago
Text
I almost accidentally texted my boss that “it’s so hard being a teenage girl in her 20s” :-(
2 notes · View notes
seventh-district · 2 years ago
Text
CW: mention of gun violence (in a nightmare. not IRL)
i know for a fact that my period makes me more apt to cry over things because i can have a vivid nightmare about getting randomly gunned down while waiting in line to pick up a pizza then wake up and not shed a tear but when i’m on my period i can have one (1) bad dream about my father yelling at me and i wake up and promptly begin full-on sobbing into my pillow
2 notes · View notes
skyward-floored · 2 years ago
Note
Wait- one of your Au’s, not sure which-
jfjshdh sorry-
Opinions on water?????
- Hydrated Z
Hmm opinions on water are generally positive from everyone I can think of, except for Brownie who can’t swim, and Slate who subconsciously remembers being submerged for 100 years and gets nervous if he puts his head under
5 notes · View notes