#anyway stop rambling in tags back to actual tags
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
oharaslove ยท 3 days ago
Note
HIIII V !! i didn't think that you'd actually reply to meeee T ^ T but I was wondering, if you have enough time and space for writing in requests, i wanna suggest a storyline where the reader is Miguel's "first evreything", and the story would be about/start off with Miguel establishing his first moves and his feelings to y/n (kinda like the start of the relationship). AND DO ADD YOUR TOUCHES AND WRITING STYLE IN, AND IT'D BE PERFECT. thank u so much ! love u a lot ! โ™กโ™กโ™ก
๐˜š๐˜ฐ..., ๐˜ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ฏโ€™๐˜ต ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ ๐˜ช๐˜ง ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ฆ ๐˜”๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ถ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ, ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต, ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด. ๐˜๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต. ๐˜ ๐˜ข๐˜ฎ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜จ๐˜จ, ๐˜ ๐˜ˆ๐˜” ๐˜š๐˜–๐˜™๐˜™๐˜ !!
๐˜๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ถ๐˜ฑ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ. ๐˜“๐˜ฐ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ!! ๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐˜ฌ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฒ๐˜ถ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ต. ๐˜๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฌ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ!! ๐˜Œ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ถ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ.
This was supposed to be a one-shot but my mind keep adding more information and I can't keep it out. So anyway! This is part 1.
Tumblr media
Summary: The story of Miguel's first and only love, you. A passage through the most significant moments of your relationship.
Word count: 2040
Tags: pre!Spiderman2099 Miguel x civilian!Reader + Spider!Miguel x civilian!Reader
||masterlist|| part 2>>
Tumblr media
๐’ฏ๐’ฝ๐‘’ ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐“ƒ๐‘’ ๐’ถ๐“ƒ๐’น ๐‘œ๐“ƒ๐“๐“Ž
๐“‘๐“ฎ๐“ฐ๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ท๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ฐ๐“ผ
The fact that it was February was starting to annoy Miguel.ย 
The constant reminder of his loneliness was not something he expected to be annoyed about. Sure. He had been alone his entire life. Never a slight romantic interest in a person. Never the feeling that oh so everyone talks about. Love.ย 
What was so appealing about it anyway?
He marched into Alchemaxโ€™s reception at his usual time, after passing an uncountable amount of men with bouquets and chocolates. Ugh. The sight of it made him roll his eyes. It was Valentineโ€™s day again. He prepared himself mentally for the usual questions: โ€œNo one important in your lifeโ€ โ€œGot a lady waiting for you at home?โ€. Ugh. Why do they even care? He doesnโ€™t.ย 
Miguel headed straight to the lifts, paying no mind to the people around him. He just wanted to get this over with. Get in the lift. Go up. Lock himself in his life. Simple. Easy. No human interaction whatsoever. Or so he thought.ย 
As he entered the lift and pressed his floor button, a sigh escaped his lips. Finally. He rested his back against the back wall and threw his head back, inhaling deeply while closing his eyes. The door began to close. The outside world fading into what it looked like a peaceful and perfect day of just Miguel and Science. No one else. But he had chanted victory too early.ย 
A foot stopped the doors for closing completely. The sound of them opening again making Miguel snap his head to the front, locking eyes with the person entering. It was a person he had never seen before. Not that he paid much attention to the various workers of Alchemax, besides his coworkers in the lab and his superiors.ย 
โ€œUgh, love, love, love. Isnโ€™t there something more important than loveโ€ You muttered under your breath, probably something not intended to his ears, but your words had reached him nonetheless.ย 
Miguel snorted quietly, making you whip your head towards him. โ€œOh, so sorry. Didnโ€™t notice you there. My mind was elsewhereโ€ you rambled. โ€œAndโ€ฆ sorry if you heard that. I promise I donโ€™t hate love.โ€ you continued, avoiding his gaze, the lift closing behind you.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s okay, honestly.โ€ He shrugged. โ€œI canโ€™t say I disagree. Valentineโ€™s day is always the same.โ€
โ€œRight!โ€ you exclaimed, fully turning your body to look at him better. โ€œAnd the never ending questions: โ€˜Do you have someone special waiting for you at home?โ€™โ€ you mocked, rolling your eyes with a smile over your lips.
Miguel left out a belly laugh, one he hadnโ€™t heard in a long time. โ€œThey are horrible.โ€
โ€œThey really are.โ€ you answered, looking towards the buttonโ€™s panel.
Miguel relaxed against the wall again, glad that the interruption of his alone time wasnโ€™t unpleasant. Crossing his arms over his chest and resting his head against the wall, he took the opportunity to eye you better.ย 
You were beautiful. The way you were dressed and the way you held yourself let him know you were confident, and strong. He was really surprised he had never seen you before. He would for sure remember it. Besides, you seemed interesting, and had the same thoughts as him regarding this dreadful day.ย 
Miguel was so focused on you he hadnโ€™t realised the lift had stopped and the doors opened with a โ€œdingโ€ until you chimed โ€œOh, we are hereโ€. He pulled himself out of his thoughts shaking his head. God, whatโ€™s wrong with me he thought.ย 
You stepped out onto the corridor, looking at both sides, seeming lost. Just then, Miguel realised he was on his labโ€™s floor. Have you worked on the same floor all this time?. He didnโ€™t want to part from you, not at least without knowing your name, or a way to meet you again. He hesitated, all being oh so new to him. How do people approach a woman without sounding like a creep?ย 
โ€œUmโ€ฆ sorry, I am new here,โ€ you interrupted his thoughts. Your beautiful doe eyes staring right at his. โ€œCould you help me find this lab?โ€ you motioned towards the piece of paper on your hand.ย 
Miguel gazed into your eyes for an awkward amount of time, his mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water, his brain slowly processing what you just said. โ€œOh! Yeahโ€ฆ yeah! Of course!โ€ He answered a little too excitedly.ย 
He darted his eyes quickly to the paper, his lab number written in it. Wait. HIS LAB.ย 
โ€œUhโ€ฆโ€ he began.
โ€œOh, am I on the wrong floor? I swear this was the floor the guide told meโ€ You retreated your hand, holding the piece of paper closer to your face. Frowning, cutely, ย your eyes darting from left to right.
โ€œNoโ€ฆโ€ Miguel shaked his head, trying to get out of the spell he was in. Come on, focus, he reprimanded himself. โ€œNo, you are on the right floorโ€ hd informed, his voice sounding more sure this time. โ€œI was just surprised. That is the lab I work inโ€
Your mouth stretched into a smile from ear to ear. โ€œNice! Are you a geneticist too?!โ€ You held your eyes in his, blinking slowly.
โ€œYeahโ€ฆโ€ he scratched his neck, looking away. Your gaze was intense, and he was feeling things he couldnโ€™t explain. โ€œIโ€™ll lead you. This wayโ€.ย 
Miguel turned on his heels, not bothering to check whether you were following or not.
Tumblr media
๐“ก๐“ฎ๐“ช๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“ผ๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท
After the initial confusion and surprise of your arrival, it turned out you and Miguel worked amazingly together. Days turned into weeks, weeks into months, and the bond between you only grew stronger.ย 
Before you, Miguel dreaded speaking to people. He spent his days cooped up in his lab, only answering questions if necessary. And not even that. He would grunt, nod and hum most of the time. But, you changed that.ย 
Every morning, before leaving for work, he would check himself in the mirror, trying to look his best. Miguel didnโ€™t know exactly why, but he liked it. And he hoped you liked it too. His quiet and montone days turned into a game, what topic would you come up with today? What outfit were you going to wear?ย 
It didnโ€™t really matter, you looked good in everything. Or, so he thought. As a friend and colleague of course. Miguel could never get enough of you. Could never stop listening. But, that was normal right? Friends want to be with each other all the time. Right?ย 
He doesnโ€™t know how it happened, but a workspace that started being only his, a sacred place no one, but him could touch, became yours. You had started working on the station behind him. But gradually, with time, as you and Miguel became closer, without you two realising, your workspace and work in general, had merged together.ย 
Sometimes, you would work so close together that your shoulders brushed against each other, or you would try to grab the same thing at the same time, making your hands touch. And, every single time, Miguel felt a tingle run down his spine. A short-circuit on his mind. Plus, a warm feeling on his chest, produced by your giggle.ย 
Today was supposed to be like any other day. Miguel got ready for work, double and triple checking his appearance before leaving. Upon his arrival to the lab, there was already an odd feeling. You two arrived at almost the same time, which meant, you always stumbled upon each other on the corridor or in the lift.
That morning, Miguel had to go up alone, the silence, despite the horrible lift music, deafening to the ears. Maybe she is already here, he thought. Nothing to get worried about.ย  He stepped out on the corridor with a heavy feeling on his chest. What if you werenโ€™t? He had grown so accustomed to your presence he never thought about not being by your side anymore.ย 
Miguel took small and indecisive steps towards his lab, the expectation of the reveal weighing him down. He needed to know if you were already there, but at the same timeโ€ฆ he didnโ€™t know what to do if you werenโ€™t.ย 
The door to the lab appeared in his view. Miguel stopped in his tracks, a metre away from the entrance. He closed his eyes as he took a big breath in. Okay, this was the moment of truth. He clutched the strap of his bag against his chest. Sweat dripped from his forehead, as his trembling hand reached for the door knob.ย 
Miguel took another deep breath before closing his eyes and twisting the knob. He stepped in slowlyโ€ฆ
Emptiness. There was not a single soul in the lab, just him.ย 
Miguel stood locked in place. His brain processed the information. You werenโ€™t here. He tried to recall your conversation the day before. You never told him you would be absent, right?ย 
What if something had happened? You had a car accident! Or your flat caught on fire. Million thoughts running through his head, none of them happy.ย 
Miguel clutched his head. His fingers running through his locks, tugging. His chest was heaving up and down. The air wasnโ€™t reaching his lungs properly. Miguel shivered, the lab was cold without your presence. His life was an iceberg without you in it.ย 
He was out of his zone. He had never felt like this. All Miguel wanted to do was curl in a ball and hide. Hug himself to feel some warmth, closing his eyes imagining it was you. A tear slipped from the corner of his eyes, trailing down his cheek before falling into the floor.ย 
After that one, came a dozen. Miguelโ€™s body was shaking. He sniffled, a sob escaping his mouth. How could he not have your number? All this time and he never asked. Were you okay? What if he never had the chance to see you again. What ifโ€“?
โ€œMiguel?โ€ he heard from behind him.ย 
He whipped his head around, his hands falling to his sides. There you stood, two coffee cups, one on each hand. You had a smile on your face, but upon seeing him, it dropped.ย 
โ€œOh my god!โ€ you exclaimed. You rushed to place the cups on the table before going to Miguel. โ€œWhatโ€™s wrong? Are you okay?โ€ Your hands landed on his arms, grounding him. You were safe! You were here.ย 
Miguel left out all the air he was holding, another sob cursing through his body. He slumped forward, his head landing on your shoulder. His arms snaked their way around your middle, embracing you.ย 
You stiffened for a moment, before melting into his touch. Your own hands embracing him, caressing his broad back.ย 
โ€œShhh itโ€™s okay,โ€ you cooed. โ€œEverything is going to be okay. Iโ€™m hereโ€.ย 
Yes, you are, he thought. He sighed, all the tension in his body dissipating.ย 
He pulled back from your shoulder, now towering over you, but not stepping back. His hands remained on your body, seeking your warmth. Yours regained their previous position, on his arms.ย 
You looked up at him, your eyes big while examining him.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m alright now, thanksโ€ he said hoarsely. Miguel, very reluctantly, moved his hands away from you, wiping the remaining tears of his cheeks. Your arms dropped to your side, as a small smile formed in your lips.ย 
โ€œOkay.โ€ you murmured. You glanced towards the coffee cups on the table, before meeting his eyes again. โ€œWhy donโ€™t we sit down and talk over coffee? Or not, you donโ€™t have to tell me. Just..โ€ you rambled, fidgeting with your fingers, and looking away. โ€œI got your favouriteโ€
Miguel smiled, his eyes softening. โ€œThanksโ€
You beamed at him. Taking the lead, you walked past him, grabbed the coffees and took your usual seat on the table. You looked at him expectantly. Remembering how to function, Miguel took off his bag and placed it over the desk, before taking a seat next to you.ย 
You handed him the cup, your fingers brushing against each other. The usual spark present. Miguel stared at you, his mouth slightly open, while you took a sip of your coffee. Realisation hit him like a truck. He had a crush on you.
Oh, he was fucked.
Tumblr media
๐˜ˆ๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฏ, ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ, ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ! ๐˜๐˜ง ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ข ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฑ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜ต๐˜บ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ (๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ช ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด) ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ!! ๐˜ˆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜'๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ช๐˜ต (๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข ๐˜ด๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ, ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ) ๐˜ˆ๐˜ฏ๐˜บ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜บ, ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ต!! ๐˜“๐˜ฆ๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜จ๐˜ถ๐˜บ๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฆ!!
๐–จ'๐—…๐—… ๐—‰๐—ˆ๐—Œ๐— ๐—‰๐–บ๐—‹๐— 2 ๐—‡๐–พ๐—‘๐— ๐—๐–พ๐–พ๐—„! ๐–ง๐—ˆ๐—‰๐–พ๐–ฟ๐—Ž๐—…๐—…๐—’. ๐–จ ๐–บ๐—…๐—‹๐–พ๐–บ๐–ฝ๐—’ ๐—๐–บ๐—๐–พ ๐—๐–บ๐—…๐–ฟ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—‚๐—, ๐–ป๐—Ž๐— ๐—’๐—ˆ๐—Ž ๐—„๐—‡๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐—, ๐–จ ๐–บ๐—† ๐—Œ๐—๐—‹๐—Ž๐—€๐—€๐—…๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐–ป๐–พ๐–ผ๐–บ๐—Ž๐—Œ๐–พ ๐—‚๐—'๐—Œ ๐—†๐—ˆ๐—‹๐–พ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ๐—’ ๐–ฝ๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ๐—’ ๐—Œ๐—๐—Ž๐–ฟ๐–ฟ ๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐–จ ๐–ฝ๐—ˆ๐—‡'๐— ๐—๐–บ๐—๐–พ ๐—†๐—Ž๐–ผ๐— ๐–พ๐—‘๐—‰๐–พ๐—‹๐—‚๐–พ๐—‡๐–ผ๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐—๐—๐–บ๐—. ๐–ก๐—Ž๐—, ๐–บ๐—‡๐—’๐—๐–บ๐—’. ๐–ง๐—ˆ๐—‰๐–พ ๐—’๐—ˆ๐—Ž ๐–พ๐—‡๐—ƒ๐—ˆ๐—’ ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—‹๐—Œ๐— ๐—๐—‹๐—‚๐—๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐—Œ๐—‚๐—‡๐–ผ๐–พ ๐—†๐—’ ๐—๐—‚๐–บ๐—๐—Ž๐—Œ!
131 notes ยท View notes
strawberriesshi ยท 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media
celebratory dedf1sh drawing because she is not ded she is real
139 notes ยท View notes
pineappleudh ยท 2 months ago
Text
*You shouldn't have done that.
Tumblr media
@floofanflurr
Stumbled across this DTIYS and decided to give it a go, with some creative liberties obviously.
It was really fun, ive never drawn in the undertale battle style before so i was surprised at how easy it felt, granted it still took a little while but nowhere near as long as i expected.
So, uhh, yeah. Papyrus is cool, challenge was fun, hope you enjoy.
72 notes ยท View notes
ninja-knox-ur-sox-off ยท 25 days ago
Text
Only two chapters left of Wobbly Hearts and then Iโ€™m DONE. 21 is pretty much finished I just got to edit it and look over it and all that, and 22 needs some tweaking but its almost done too and Iโ€™m AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA longest Iโ€™ve ever worked on anything like this and itโ€™s almost done!!!!
21 notes ยท View notes
pup-pee ยท 21 days ago
Text
hi this is a post saying i will not b online((or try)) until i get my g.e.d.
i love u all if i uh, yk never return
hugs hugs many sweet dreams & good mornings!
#i had a much longer post then realized no1 wants 2 read all that long#i dont want 2 like fill the tags w/reasons y im suddenly doing this#hell i might regret this & delete it a minute l8r#but like. i need my highschool diploma#ive failed school like all the way through. my entire school career looks good in concept but its not#shit im going 2 start crying again#<- that is also y#i keep crying i keep like getting rlly sad & self#destructive & idk how 2 fix that so im doing this so no1 hears my whining#uhhh pray 4 me 2 pass ig lol#hugs hugs hugs mnay hugs#this feels like a final goodbye bc my self confidence is so bad jdjfiosk#summer school; switching classes bc of bad grades; getting expelled; having numerous teacher conferences; having my teachers talk 2 me like#im their kid just bc my mother works @ the school ohh my god that hurt the most & made me want 2 go monkey mode#point is im not good @ school & never have been & it stresses me out & im so scared#im so afaid im crying just thinking about sitting in a class#i love learning i love ideas i love questions MY FAVORITE SUBJECT IS MATH but im just so scared 4 some reason#& idk if ill b able 2 do it#i can barely see my screen help djchis#anyways im going 2 try my best bc i want 2 talk 2 my friends & uhm thats rlly it#but i cant do that unless i get better so im going 2 try 2 not#i ended up rambling in the tags blehhh#niko is also w/me rn as always & i will give him all the kisses &love i can so nobody worry about that#watch me take this post back in a day bc the internet has been 1 of my only safe soaces#this is so pathetic kanfkf & me saying so does not make it any less so#i just jumped out of the car & walked 2 hrs home crying bc im an actual disaster rn#like what if everything im thinking rn makes no sense#i mean not the school thing#i need 2 do that#i need 2 stop stalling
14 notes ยท View notes
thegreatyin ยท 2 months ago
Note
How did you manage to handle not one, but FOUR separate accounts in fl? I recently made the account for my HD little guy but having to do the tutorial again just seems miserable
there's... weirdly several answers to that question, actually??
a HUGE part of it is due to the way FL is structured. the 10-minute action timer is a core part of the game on a fundamental level, and the fact that i can very easily run out of stuff to do on one character and thus have an excuse to quickly and easily swap to another is just... convenient? satisfying? i'm not entirely sure how to explain it. the fact that i can make progress even while i am fundamentally simultaneously Not Making Progress is like pure dopamine for my freak insane awful little brain. there's just something really pleasing about spending all of my actions pursuing The Goal Of The Dayโ„ข on one account before casually swapping to another and doing the same without feeling like i'm wasting time or acting to the first account's explicit detriment. the downtime helps! the recharge time helps! the structure really really works!!
i'm technically only actively playing three, maybe two accounts minimum. the only reason the fourth (the one that'll be my future BaL playthrough) currently exists at all is so i can get his earlygame completely out of the way now and not have to waste time running through it all later, when what i actually want to do is play the ambition i've made myself wait a full year to play. and also getting free goodies as seasonal stuff happens,, something something surprise tools to help us later. the only two accounts i'd say i'm really "actively playing" at the moment are caeru and lark- and of the two, lark takes the most priority, since his ambition is the one i'm currently pursuing in earnest. for a couple months now- despite being My Main FL Character- the scoundrel has actually been pretty inactive on a gameplay front outside of the occasional progression in TLC and discordance content. purely by virtue of having Very little left to do outside of Very long-term grinds and vanities. they're in their "now what?" "now you can start playing the game" era. they've graduated to previous protagonist background cameo in a sequel anime series. they're like the yin FLPC equivalent of red at the top of mount silver. they're Literally just vibing rn. i only keep posting about them regardless because i'm insane and i will never ever ever ever ever let that bat go. but yeah, big TLDR, outside of doing the bare minimum to keep making waves/notability up every week, i'm not actually spending that much time on accounts i'm not currently actively interested in playing. and that accounts for way more gaming spoons than you might think.
i have a virtually lifelong history of playing MMOs, especially and specifically world of warcraft. i was born in the endless grind for useless video game pixel vanities and/or bragging rights. molded by it. you all have merely adapted to doing the same piece of content a pointlessly excessive amount of times for literally no reason besides whimsy and folly. me? i've done my time. i've served my sentence. i've spent weeks doing the original burning crusade netherwing dailies. i've devoted days to running praetorium over and over and over again, back-to-back, nonstop, long before square enix cut it in half and made it NOT take at minimum an hour and a half per run. i've perfected my silverwastes + auric basin goldfarming strategies. i've (almost) crafted dragonwrath tarecgosa's rest. i've killed the sha of anger so many times its dying scream of agony is embedded into the very fabric of my being. ""only"" doing making your name content four times over? that is nothing to me. it means nothing to me. it is so infinitesimal i can do the persuasive seduction quests in my sleep. it's not a matter of handling misery, or having the capacity, or even sighing as i remember the brass embassy raid segment of the watchful questline seriously i don't know why i keep forgetting that exists or what even is my problem with it i just am so consistently mildly inconvenienced by it and its highly specific resource requirements and it is the worst thing ever. maybe i'm just so used to the scoundrel's near-infinite money and troves of disposable items that i've completely forgotten what being poor is like. despite having done that step 3 fucking times now. ahem. anyway. i have transcended the feeble mortal bindings of my resistant-to-grinding flesh and ascended to a higher plane of enlightenment, they may call me insane but they will be the ones left laughing when they see what that "insanity" has wrought, i've usurped them, i've usurped them all-
hacks and coughs and awkwardly clears my throat. i mean. uh. um. Ahem.
the empress' court artistry + tales of the university nerfs helped too.
#and yes#before you ask#i have forgotten which account has which items/has done which content many a time#i think the most painful incident was forgetting to keep up the scoundrel's making waves while i was still playing nemesis with caeru#given that im trying to build it up to 12 and reset their specialization... that was uniquely painful#then again they have like 40 BDR so it wasnt actually that inconveniencing lmao#fallen london#ask#long post#sorry for the infodump + sudden villain monologue.#all jokes and personal accounts aside i totally get the apprehension abt doing that stuff again#it's not for everyone. not by a long shot.#im only doing this because im genuinely invested and in love with this silly little browser game#and way back when i started i made a (only half metaphorical) solemn oath to experience all of its ''main stories''#and truly see everything it has to offer#(bc i like. physically cant do hyperfixations by halves. i need to consume Everything abt the thing or i'll explode)#(and even then i'll probably explode anyway. it's either completely drop it or go All In until it stops taking up so much space in my brain#(and. given the track record. that is not happening with FL for a while yet)#but like. that isnt actually normal behavior. just. just to clarify.#from what ive seen a VAST majority of people do not go out of their way to play literally every ambition#and that is so valid. it is so overwhelming. you have to juggle so much.#you have to play the earlygame So Many Goddamn Times.#(as i said. served my time. did my sentence. i am my scars. etc etc)#the best advice i can give as someone who's so completely desensitized to that repetition it doesnt even phase me anymore?#the same advice i can stress to all FL players. legitimately just take ur time with it. play when you want to.#dont when you dont.#sometimes you have to grit your teeth and bear things. and when it comes to alts you Will have to grit your teeth and bear it all again#but the beauty of this being a game that one plays for fun is that unlike. say. crushing deadlines or annoying coworkers in real life#you are completely within your power to decide when where and if you want to grit and bear it all#..wow this is ADVANCED yin rambling holy shit. i actually reached the tag limit. i think this ask should be put on some kind of list
16 notes ยท View notes
necrotic-nephilim ยท 6 months ago
Note
Any ships you donโ€™t like in the batfam fandom that is popular?
OOOH this is such a fun question because I have quite a few
StephCass - i'll be honest this is one of those ships where the fandom ruined it for me. because 2000s StephCass is an elite dynamic, they care for each other so deeply. but the fandom has been intent on defanging and purifying this ship. i don't know *why* but StephCass seems most popular with the anti-Batcest crowd who get very mad if you compare it to ships they deem Batcest. i have an entire meta commentary on this in my drafts I'll likely never post discussing why the only reason StephCass gets the pass for not being Batcest ties directly into misogyny (because the women of the Batfam need to exist as love interests first, not family members so Steph was never going to truly get to exist as a "full" Batfam member so long as she could remain a viable love interest for Tim, and the same can apply to Babs, Helena, and even Cass in some cases) and that just sours me to it. like if i want yuri in Batfam i think there are far more interesting/fucked up ships for Steph like Babs/Steph or Helena/Steph. and when it comes to what i'd actually like to see in canon, i don't want to see Steph relegated to love interest of a Batfamily member, even if it's queer. let her date and exist outside of Gotham the way every other Batfam member gets to, DC *please*.
Bruce/Selina - i can't fully articulate why this ship isn't my thing, it just isn't. i think i just can't conceivably agree with Selina letting go of so many of her fundamental morals and beliefs for the sake of a man, even one she loves such as Bruce. ironically, i think that's one of the few things Gotham War got right about these two. the only canon love interest i like for Bruce is Zatanna and i mourn we'll never get much of that.
JayRoy - i will admit when i was newer to DC the first comics i picked up for Jason were all New-52 and i shipped this. but now that i'm a pre-Flashpoint truther and i've actually read well-written Roy Harper comics, i only see the flaws in this ship. ngl if ppl were actually fun and interesting with it, playing with the idea of Roy knowing Jason as Robin and still seeing him as just Dick's little brother who's gone a little mental, it *could* be fun. but this Red Hood & the Outlaws (2011) and Red Hood/Arsenal (2015) dynamic *butchers* the fuck out of Roy and strips him of everything interesting. and even as a Batfamily stan, my number one pet peeve is when other DC characters get *butchered* in a Batfamily character's book just for the sake of propping up the Bat as some kind of savior. free Roy Harper from this mans.
Bruce/Oliver - we could be here all day if i listed all the Bruce ships i don't like, but i figure this one has to be included. because oh my god either the people shipping this *really* don't understand Oliver Queen or they just hate his ass because why would you subject Oliver to this man. he can't *stand* Bruce. i really hate the popular BruOliie shipping dynamic of like "oh they were boarding school besties" because if you want that, you *should* like Bruce/Zatanna, not these two. Oliver just always gets butchered in these fics and i won't stand for it.
Tim/Bernard - the ESSAYS i could write on this ship and why i dislike it. the fucking *fear* DC (and most popular media tbh) has with depicting queer relationships as anything other than totally perfect and cute for fear of accusations of homophobia has stripped this ship of *any* real grit. Bernard is a non-character in Tim Drake: Robin, he exists to cheer Tim on and prop him up and just be The Boyfriend. we occasionally get glimpses of an interesting character with really interesting trauma and nothing is *done* with it bc at the end of the day, Tim and Bernard must be perfect and cute. what's fun about Tim is he is the *worst* boyfriend alive. that boy is *ass* at dating. all of his relationships are rich with conflict and yet the moment he dates a guy suddenly all of his flaws vanish? i hate it. i mourn what this could've been if we kept messy Tim Drake and had a Bernard who was actually informed by his trauma. DC please let gays be messy again. also of all of Tim's 90s/00s friends to bring back as a love interest, Bernard Dowd was just a *bizarre* fucking choice. Sebastian Ives was *right* there come on now.
Any Crossover Ship - look if crossovers are your cup of tea i'm happy for you but oh my god if i have to see that little green ghost boy or that ladybug girl in the Batfam one more time i think i may explode. i have a lot of thoughts on *why* i think specifically Danny Phantom and Miraculous Ladybug get crossed over as often as they do with the Batfam, but i don't think anyone wants to year that. my only exception to this is Jason/Bucky Barnes, but it *has* to be comics!Bucky. like. Judd Winick's Jason and Ed Brubaker's Bucky would hatefuck and that i wish to see it. any other crossover ship (especially the Peter Parker ones that seem to be rising in popularity) just do *not* do it for me.
honestly besides that i don't think i dislike many ships. (aside from being super opinionated on Bruce ships, but that's mostly bc ppl will use him to butcher the character they ship him with) there are some ships i'm neutral to because i simply do not know enough to have an opinion (like Dick/Wally). i guess the only Batcest ship i'm not particular to is Bruce/Damian, but I wouldn't say that one is popular nor would i say i dislike it, just that it's not my cup of tea. most Batcest ships click for me in one way or another because i like their Weird dnyamics. i guess i could also say i dislike most ships that have come out of Young Justice (tv) because. oh my *god* why were those group of characters put together on a team. it's baffling. but even then it's not disliking those ships, it's moreso disliking that show's depiction of those characters so. everything is really dependant on the canon context for me!
#necrotic answerings#batcest#sorry sorry to the shippers who are going to have this post caught in their filters#i am specifically not tagging the ships for that reason but sometimes tumblr will put it in the tagged content anyway#so sorry about that one#anyway i'm so serious i have Big feelings about the steph and cass thing.#i will probably never post it because oh the fights it'll start. but i've got feelings.#also my jason and roy feelings are pretty recent won't lie#like i used to be neutral on it. even have it in recent (within past few years recent at least) fanfic i've written#but the straw that broke the camels back was -as usual- wayne family adventures.#a recent episode had roy waxing poetic about how jason โ€œsavedโ€ and โ€œbelievedโ€ in the outlaws as their leader#and i was like nope. i'm done. i can't. unsubscribing from this ship. goodbye.#red hood/arsenal is a guilty pleasure comic i won't lie to you (mostly for the duela dent content)#but i can't do it anymore. i can't witness roy being fucking BUTCHERED like that. i am done i've left the building.#writing this i found i actually don't dislike as many ships as i thought i did. bc i love to be a hater#but rlly most batfam ships i'm agreeable to#it needs the correct context and characterization but I'll be down for the cause if i think it could be fun#only the ones i mentioned are the ones i rlly dislike enough to be grumpy about#also bruce and constantine. i also dislike and am grumpy about.#but i do think that *could* work. y'all just need to read a hellblazer comic#bc you guys (the general you) do not understand constantine stop making him silly magic mcguffin guy. free him.#tumblr ate some of my tags on my last post so I'll stop rambling for fear of being silenced by tumblr gods again.
19 notes ยท View notes
madspeed ยท 10 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
more keykid things!!!!!!!!!!!! The design's based on my original player character avatar i used when i was active on khux with a few swaps (mainly cause i had no idea there was a moogle headband lol)
41 notes ยท View notes
james-spooky ยท 4 months ago
Text
this is a test
#iโ€™m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters thatโ€™s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring letโ€™s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk iโ€™m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad thatโ€™s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isnโ€™t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw thereโ€™s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i donโ€™t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like iโ€™m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much itโ€™s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books theyโ€™re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry thatโ€™s made everything a bit messy. i shouldโ€™ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think youโ€™re being annoying i literally donโ€™t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now itโ€™s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i donโ€™t really have any thoughts to put here idk if weโ€™re halfway ermmmm omg itโ€™s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. itโ€™s wild how itโ€™s basically almost christmas. like#what. thatโ€™s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesnโ€™t crash or#smth cause iโ€™ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but iโ€™ve saved it and holy jesus itโ€™s a lot of text im just sat here giggling thereโ€™s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldnโ€™t that be crazy) so wait thereโ€™s 140#haracters and 30 tags so whatโ€™s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i havenโ€™t done maths lessons in two and a half years iโ€™ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
10 notes ยท View notes
wheucto ยท 3 months ago
Text
if you guys are going to post things about the new ii episode, please don't tag it with bfdi if there's nothing bfdi about it, or at least tag it with ii spoilers / ii 17 spoilers (or a spoiler tag. or multiple). just something please
(not mad! this is just a general request)
#wheucto#wheucto speaks#i think i saw spoilers#i'm going to terminally ignore whatever was it in and try to forget#i'm probably going to procrastinate watching the episode for a couple of days and i don't wan't to see spoilers for it#i did go into the bfdi tag and see a couple of tags marked for spoilers. and thanks for doing that guys!#i think its called cross...tagging? i don't know_ but sometimes people will tag both bfd| and || despite only being about one#and sometimes when it's not even about either_ just an osc post#it's mildly annoying but it's not like. bad or anything?#i'd prefer if people would tag the appropiate things (bfd| for bfd|_ || for ||... if you have ocs you can tag it osc...)#but i understand why people do it. i've even done it before#if you _are_ going to... crosstag? like that_ please just also tag spoilers if there are any!!!#unrelated but usually i don't mind spoilers Too much. || is just different it Jumpscares me or smth#no but it's like... i get a Feeling. that is a sort of negative feeling? i don't know how to describe it#not as in. a negative feeling bc i dislike the show. the opposite i think actually?#i dont know it's the only show i have that Feeling towards (that i can recall_ at least)#dont know what's up with that!#anyways random rambling sesison Over#actually let's veer back on topic. i'm probably going to stop checking the bfdi tag now#i think i was checking the bfdi tag when the trailer released? mightve done it when 16 released? but iunno
7 notes ยท View notes
a-gay-bloodmage ยท 5 months ago
Text
One of my favorite hobbies to engage in is ignoring the canon course of video game romances
#yes my warden in an open relationship will have a foursome at the pearl#and yes I will continue to have Morrigan sleep with Orest after the โ€œI love you and I hate itโ€ conversation#I am digging into her brain so deep rn#morri seeing sex as the main manipulation tool she has and being so scared to have orest be just In Love With Her#she says no to his invitation of sex once and he just goes oh okay I'm sorry#I still love you that's okay#and it scares the bejesus out of her#time to keep fucking him so I can pretend that he just wants me for my body#time to let him fuck other people so it'll be easier for him to leave me in the end#I can't have him so dependent on me for his happiness or else it will destroy him (the man I love) in the end#I have to let him leave my side slowly or else he'll die if I separate myself from him I saw what happened with his ex-lover (tamlen)#let him be happy with zevran or leliana or anyone#fool woman he will never let you leave and never stop loving you#I love morrigan and her fucked up relationship with intimacy so much#orest is also especially easy to think you're manipulating because he acts so stupid (and it's only partially an act)#he loves so openly and so intensely and yet he's also clearly very easily drawn in with the appeal of a Nice Ass#I could talk about them forever#I'm editing an old fic to better fit with their dynamic and the canon of the romance#and the orest x morri content I've written since I first wrote this fic#and this doesn't just apply to orest and morrigan#I ignore that tamlen and gorim are female warden LIs only#I ignore that Blackwall is โ€œstraightโ€ (blackwall may be but thom isn't that's for sure)#I do whatever the fuck I want with da2#anyway time to stop rambling in the tags and actually get back to writing#dragon age#dragon age origins#dragon age ii#dragon age inquisition#original content#and mainly
16 notes ยท View notes
foxgloveinspace ยท 11 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
(X)
@blue-lollipops-and-ice-clouds
Ok, 1) I am so sorry haha, to be fair I could hear the Alkaline laugh with my 30$ skull candies (that I recommend!! They sound pretty freaking good for their price ok)
2). YES YES YES, exactly. Heโ€™s sleeping.
13 notes ยท View notes
an-theduckin ยท 9 months ago
Text
Wait shit people might actually care about me
#sorryyy for the personal posts lmao just not having a great time lately . ill go back to posting abt fandom stuff soon dw#hopefully the self loathing phase is over now cuz i really didnt enjoy that!#mf got me thinking thay everyone secretly hates me n itd be better if i was dead ahahaha#but like. my friends talk to me daily. my mutuals love me. i didnt go to school for like 3 days and my classmate who im kindaaa friends wit#texted me saying. and i quote โ€œHi [name]. I know its late but i hope your doing well. Hope to cya tmr.โ€ (the full stops symbolize each text#cuz she sent three seperate texts)#and i was just. so flabbergasted at that#i didnt rlly think anyone would really notice if i was gone#i didnt think anyone cared me enough for that#i thought theyd just be indifferent to it#also i sound pathetic rn but i reread that girl's text over n over again when she sent rhat. was literally on the brink of tears#and i just. wow.#people might actually care for me. they might actuallynotice when im gone. they might actually miss me#ive been so inside my head n thinking allat bad stuff about myself that i. didnt think that people might see me differently than the way#i saw myself#really and truly i love you guys so much#even if we've never talked to each pther before or interact very little. i appreciate all of you. you guys rock#anyways aha i should stop rambling now loll. as for now i think im doing a bit better#life still sucks but hey at least i have my friends. at least i dont hate myself anymore now#at least now i dont believe that everyone was being friends with me out of pity#thank you all for everything :')#man i need a hug rn lmao#tw vent#tw sui implied#tw sui ideation#tw self loathing#tw self destructive behavior#<- dw about the tags i dont feel/do those anymore#if you wanna talk to me abt this or just talk in general hit me up!! i love talking to ppl i dont like being alone xd#love youu <33
8 notes ยท View notes
quietlyblooms ยท 17 days ago
Text
so i'm definitely going to work on that headcanon meme bc it's time to yap about chiyo, and after that i might start writing out chiyo's a.rcane verse? at least a rough outline if not a lil blurb to give a feel for the verse as i tend to do. i'm also gonna casually rewatch a.rcane to see which characters really jump out at me, but if anyone has a preference for who they'd like to see me write, pls let me know!! i'm gonna add anyone i decide to pick up to @tvrningout as test muses and go from there. so altogether!! i have three tasks i wanna work on tonight, and hopefully i can actually get them all done!
3 notes ยท View notes
pup-pee ยท 9 months ago
Note
ur bartkon art legendary
TYSMM!!!!! IM GLAD U LIKE ITT!!!!! <33
Tumblr media
heres a silly sketch i prolly wont color :3
48 notes ยท View notes
yourinaudiblename ยท 10 months ago
Text
Iโ€™ve become afraid of death. which is actually improvement for someone who was suicidal but also. scary :(
this is all your faults /pos /pos /pos-
10 notes ยท View notes