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lilgynt · 2 years ago

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anyway yesterday i had this huge break down like sobbing screaming throwing my self on the floor the whole 9 yards and it sounds like outtakes from the midsummer scene and any guess what started it. my dad asked me to buy rotisserie chicken

#personal #obviously lots of context but super funny #especially bc when i was throwing myself around i got a HUGE fucking bruise on my thigh #anyway my weekend was not good. personally #on thursday i went to like 4 stores and was looking for coffee (dad didn’t remember the name) and rotisserie chicken for my dad and his #dog. which i know bad but you have not tried having and elderly blind somewhat lost his mind or mostly it man as ur father for most ur life #you learn to just go with it #and during all of this i’m getting nothing but assholes on the road #like in the morning when i got breakfast for dad and i some lady cussed me out when i wouldn’t reverse into a drive through #and then after the first store some guy nearly hit me backing out of a parking space bc he was going super fast and turned around JUST to #flip me off. and i’m already annoyed bc i didn’t even want to run this errand for a fucking dog but it’s my dad so i keep going #so hit 3 more stores ask my dad if he remembers the coffee name (he requested i call him at the store) he did but it’s too expensive #(i offer to get it firmly but he’s freaking out) i leave and then my mom calls me and gets annoyed at me for not buying it anyway #go to the next store. the shit my dad just told me is to expensive is like 6 bucks more here and it’s too busy to go back to the other some #and i’m so upset but it’s only sale so small win. didn’t find the chicken anywhere #dad and mom start fighting when i get back and it’s so fucking frustrating #anyway that took over 2 hours and was very upsetting then the next day my dad is like #can you go back again 🥺 and i do but not before that huge break down #which during i was like did not know it upset me that much. but anyway ends with me getting locked in my room bc my dad #is coming over to give me batteries not even checking on or hearing the yelling and im naked and im so fucking upset that i don’t even have #a door anymore and it’s middle/high school again and i’m makes and crying and i don’t have a door and everyone’s allowed to come in whenever #naked and crying #bc it doesn’t matter wrre family and im so angry and i lock myself in start slamming on the door and my dads like what can i do and he can’t #see then i just rip the broken door knob from the door in sheer anger and then i spend the next two hours sobbing while looking for chicken #for my dad. did not find it btw. like some time looking for chicken some getting gas then food #so funny i texted my mom during it and she thought i was going to our usual store and texted me things she needed #and i only realized while inside the store i was actually in and started silently sobbing and hyperventilating bc my mom wanted me to go to #another store and she just promised this wouldn’t happen again and there’s no fucking chicken here #anyway i’ve been camping my room bc i don’t want to talk to my dad im not mad at him or anything but i just can’t do the last couple days #and my mom was really nice yesterday about it after hearing me sob and didn’t even give me shit when i said im staying hometoday l8r maybe?

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tenowls · 1 year ago

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SYSTEM COLLAPSE!!!!!!!

#murderbot #murderbot diaries #system collapse #secunit #tarik #leonide #fanart #to the person who reserved the last of the 3 copies of sc available at dymocks sydney cbd on the 14th. shakes my fist at u #(its ok i just read the ebook and managed to get a physical copy on the weekend JHSDS)#anyway. how good was sc........ hammering home just how much mbd is a story abt the power of stories. HEEMHEEM #ART-drone adacol2 and HOLISM i love u too but MY ART SKILLS ARE LIMITED........

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xxplastic-cubexx · 25 days ago

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what kind of underwear do you think Erik and Charles wear (i'm not asking this to see them half naked) ((please believe me)) (((PLEASE)))

My Personal Belief is charles is a briefs guy while erik's a trunks guy. trunks/briefs kinda couple because i can

and idk just a lil bonus or somethin. as i do.

#nsft #probably. again A Promotion Would Be In Order From Me Personally but WHATEVER.#cherik #im too tired to tag everything ok this post'll find its people #snap sketches #not too tired for a tag ramble tho eUUGGHHH #i HAVE to post the second bit now or ill be editing it all night and for what. i will live #and my silly ass said i wouldnt draw that reading idea. well guess what im a LIAR who LIES.#i do wanna revisit that proper tho .. at least draw em by the fireplace someday but anyway #i think the funny thing is i had like. plans to draw charles in purple briefs just cause he wore them once and i chortled Unreasonably #so here we are. youll have to forgive me my friend i have a condition called If I Get An Excuse To Draw I Will #it is a very serious condition cause i need to SLEEEEPP truly and honestly locking in later i HAVE to #leaving all of you with this for the next idk twelve hours thats crazy #all i want to do is draw but i feel my eyes . Getting Weird and i have exams so i guess i should be a responsible person and sleep #i actually have a lot i need to catch up on so like. i prob wont be back on until this weekend when im Hopefully more free #'snap didnt you say that last night' I HAVE TO BE SERIOUS THIS TIME i got a lot. so i will see everyone saturday Hopefully #please give me the strength to focus for once thank you #for now good night everyone !!! please enjoy my doodlings from today. yesterday. i must not make any more for now

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navree · 4 months ago

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Incorrect, the fact that Biden has dropped out and a candidate with history of supporting medicare for all and being more receptive to a ceasefire in the I/P conflict has made me go from "I cannot morally support the Democratic nominee" to "I am voting for the Democratic nominee despite the fact she isn't perfect in every respect." I'm really happy this played out. The Dems for the most part abandoned the old Obama platform and it feels like its possible an actual progressive agenda could come to pass in my lifetime.

Kamala 2024!

If you weren't going to vote Democratic in this election before Biden dropped out you're a dorkass loser who does not care about any of the issues you're yammering about here and also a fundamentally bad person, and I hope you get run over by a bus.

But you got one thing right in all of this gibberish, Kamala 2024.

#personal #answered #anonymous #i mean let's be clear here no president is gonna attempt to be progressive ever again within my lifetime #because joe biden tried to do like 25% of that and got ZERO fucking credit #he did so much on healthcare on reform on loans on so many social issues and for all his litany of failings on i/p #he has been distinctly harsher on netanyahu than a good chunk of dems and certainly the entire republican party #for the first time since i was four we are not involved in any wars as americans and that is thanks to joe biden #but the thing is that he gets no credit for any of it!#him pulling out of afghanistan caused his approvals to tank in a way that never recovered #and leftists gave him FUCK ALL for it #they gave him nothing they just continued whining that even tho he cancelled a bajillion in student loans #he didn't actually cancel a QUADRILLION dollars so both parties are the same and voting is the most arduous task known to man #no democrat who is running is going to forget that catering to leftist/progressive policies gets them zero leeway with those supporters #that it not only tanks numbers but you still get constant haranguing about it anyway #so they're not gonna do it #we are gonna get fuckall for at least a good fifty years #and anything we get will be utterly in SPITE of people like you anon it will happen in spite of everything you've done #mostly because of people like me and mine who understand that voting is the bare minimum #and that for the democratic process to work the way you want it to you need to participate and not pitch a fucking fit #like a four year old who was told they can't go to disney this weekend #like i know you ratfuckers are happy this played out because this is all a game to you and you don't actually care #but that's why i've got zero faith in you people and why i'm glad it's my kind of folks #actual die hard democrats who have always been hardliners for supporting democrats in every possible election #who are picking up the slack and donating to harris and supporting her agenda #which is the exact same as biden's because she's his vice president and they share they same platform #because that's what they were both running on! twice!#anyway fuck you please feel free to find a necktie and test how tall your doorframe is

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akai-anna · 4 months ago

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Round 4

Round: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8

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#detective conan #music #polls #detco posting #my stuff #AYE ROUND 4 IS FINISHED AS WELL!!!#another full of hard and difficult choices...#so many good songs dammit #i have no idea how y'all can even make a choice with all of these...#(exactly why I AM the one making this poll. bc this way i don't have to pick dkfjndkfkdf)#(i'm just way too attached to like. half of my detco playlist)#(i very emotionally care about these songs. it would be like picking a favourite child: undoable)#anyways: HAVE FUNSIES EVERYONE #more coming tomorrow if i have the time. if not then might on friday but latest on the weekend #again: all videos work for my person and apologies if your region music blocked you

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mishalikessoundsandcolours · 17 days ago

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Art dump :))

Art block has once again fallen over me and I'm physically unable to draw well, but here's some stuff I've managed during the last month

#I'm having such drastic mood swings atm I can't even #especially about the view I have on myself and my ability do things and my looks and stuff #I've got so much homework this weekend I'm so done SO FUCKING DONE #I need to get back into art just relearn how to draw #because I'm not happy with most stuff I try to draw rn these are just the lucky few #Ahhhshgshahahahhhhhhhh #my art #art dump #sketch dump #syd barrett #peter murphy #david j #<- because they're there in the first two #the syd one accidentally turned into syd it was just some random person at first #my pcs #original character #oh yeah the third one are my beloved goobers lawrence and lee #anyways good night I gotta sleeppppp #Spotify

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isfjmel-phleg · 1 month ago

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It's my night to work, and I can't, and I'm very sorry. Can't argue with the campus nurse though.

I am also very sorry about the grass out front of our main building. The circumstances were desperate and hopefully it will never happen again.

#random personal stuff #I thought the problem was that I needed to eat something #but apparently it was not #the system has declared a maintenance day #had some exhausting things to discuss with the counselor this morning #and saw my friend earlier and it was fine but apparently she thinks she's causing me not to make progress with the counseling #which is very much not true and I had to reassure her that I am responsible for my own reactions and that I'm fine and everything's fine &#she's fine and I didn't tell her that the weekend was rough because it would just make her feel bad and she did nothing wrong anyway #and I really think we'll be able to solve the problem #but in the meantime I have a lot of stuff to work through #there's a physical component to guilt I guess? and I don't think that helped #all this to say that I probably need a rest day anyway #and hopefully I'll be okay to fly Thursday #have I ever said that our nurse is just the kindest lady #she was so good to me today and I am eternally grateful

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roseworth · 1 year ago

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what a fucking week (it’s 2 pm on a monday)

#i’m gonna have a very therapeutic lay on the ground for an hour tonight #i’m so fucking exhausted #also unrelated but vaguely related #the other day i told my supervisor i didn’t know how to do something she asked me to do #which was very hard for me! bc i’m not good at asking for help bc i don’t like to be annoying #anyways i asked her on friday and she never responded and i was like ‘ok she’s probably gone for the weekend and she’ll answer on monday’#then i looked today and she just reacted with a 👍 to my message instead of. telling me how to do it #so i’m still stressed out about that but. girl i am so tired #i also promised myself i won’t get high in the middle of the week this week. so this is a test from god #and i may fail that test #we’ll try again next week #personal

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zorosdimples · 4 months ago

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knowing i should take a step back from tumblr for my own wellbeing vs. being emotionally attached to this app and the people on it

#tumblr would be tumblr without me—as would the self ship community. it’s silly for me to feel so invested this Thing that is just that:#a Thing. it can’t give me the love or care or satisfaction with life that i’m looking for. i’ve been hiding on here—escaping reality.#because it’s fun to live in an imaginary world where i’m everything i want to be. where i’m the main character.#but in doing so i’ve been neglecting the ugly parts of my real life; the pain and hurt and harsh realities.#over the past couple months it has become apparent to me that i tend to put too much trust and effort into people #who have neither the capacity nor the desire to reciprocate.#so i just look like a fool in the end. (this isn’t about anyone here—just a pattern of behavior in general.)#at the end of the day #having thousands of followers on tumblr has no impact on my real life. if anything it makes me feel more isolated than ever.#because it’s yet another arena where i feel like i have to carve out my own space; i’ve never been good at taking up space.#anyway i suppose i’ll take the weekend away and see how i feel. i’ve had a lot of shit happening irl that has been so horribly difficult.#so maybe getting through all of that will help me feel more comfortable on my own blog again.#if you read this all i’m so sorry. i’ll prob regret posting my heartfelt thoughts in the future but at this very moment i don’t care.#self preservation be damned.#please support ficsforgaza; i’ll still be helping aleks over there because it’s one of the few places where i feel useful.#okay i’m done now. i’ll see you later. i wish you all so much love and nothing but the best.#tw personal

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phagodyke · 1 month ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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chromxena · 10 days ago

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joined a local choir and ah, singing with other people is just so fun and nice and beautiful <3

#hope i can still find time for this when i'll eventually be employed again;;;#being unemployed has been so good for my hobbies and social life and it's been so nice;;;#im split inbetween “i should put more effort into finding a new job” and “i should enjoy this time and invest in myself instead of rushing #back to work which will take away the majority of my free time again. we only live as short as we do after all“#anyways! yay! choir!! the last time i sang in a choir is over 4 years ago and still in highschool and we were like. 6 people.#and now we are so many more and we sing songs that i like more and ahhh #im. so socially awkward. sometimes. but singing (with others) always makes me feel at ease #next weekend we'll have some kind of training camp (i feel like in a sports anime lmao) so i wont be as active during that time i guess!!#im looking forward to it so much <3 but. not so much to leaving the house at 7am for three days in a row bc. im not a 7am person;;#chroms ramblings

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the-golden-dragoness · 4 months ago

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Does anyone know how to maneuver a relationship where they are interested in dating you but you were fine being old school acquaintances who don’t speak to each other

#tgdposts #personal #aroace #actually aroace #aromantic #asexual #ace #aro #asexuality #aromanticism #we’re hanging out at an undetermined point which I’m fine with I love hanging out but I can tell he’s into me and I feel neutral about it #good new is I’ve clearly grown since last time this scenario happened because I think I’m being less of a leading on asshole about it #also ideologically I’m not about assuming they want to date instead of be friends so I don’t want to assume anything #but based on how he’s talking to me I think he likes me which I obviously do not reciprocate #fond of me as the Brits say #he’s asked how my day/weekend was for the second time in all too short a timespan which I find telling #not that it irritates me but it’s obvious he wants to pursue SOMETHING #anyway just bc I said okay to hang for coffee does not mean I want to participate in this kind of online conversation he’s initiating #his eagerness to talk is telling and I already lowkey had vibes from him after the fall semester when he asked how my winter vacay was #I was like yeah I’m SUPER BUSY with family stuff and studying for my makeup exam #tbh thought that was the end of it until recently #this is mainly a vent post I guess if anyone has opinions feel free to share #I guess my broad struggle is that I’m learning how to be aroace and assume the best of a situation without leading people on #also I feel this kind of situation is almost inevitable if I want to make friends with guys even though having them want to date me #is not the most ideal start to a friendship with someone #ok to rb although idk why you’d want to

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eijiroukiriot · 1 year ago

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it's been a sec since i've done a translation! but i think this comic is really sweet so translation under the cut!! the title on the comic is "kiribaku and tododeku who aren't public about their relationship (having mild heart attacks)", and the caption on the tweet is "i wanna read 10000 stories about people finding out about kiribaku and tododeku's relationships"

Hero Radio OFFTiME! On our program, you can hear top heroes spill a little bit about their private lives. Today's hosts are Deku and Red Riot! What kinds of things will they talk about? Let's see!

Midoriya: Man, you must be tired! You came here straight after a night shift, right? Are you feeling alright?

Kirishima: All good! Besides, you've been working ten days in a row, right? Good on you!

(word bubbles - Very, Very Tired)

M: Alright then, our first letter of the night...this one comes to us from BlueMackerel-san, who asks, "How did you spend your last day off?"

K: Uhh...oh yeah! Hiked 'n camped! And ate a ton of campfire food!

M: Oh, with Kacchan?

K: Yep!

M: He sure does like hiking.

Flashback Kirishima: WHOOPIE!!

Flashback Bakugou: Just eat it

M: What'd you two eat?

K: The works! Spare ribs, and homemade sausage, and meat, and more meat! Bakugou always packs a ton of meat to barbecue, it's crazy good! What about you?

M: Mmm...I slept in until around noon...and I think that day, Todoroki's family invited me over for dinner. His sister is a great cook!

Flashback Fuyumi: Welcome, welcome!

K: Coooool. So we both ended up just spending the day with our boyfriends, huh-

M: UH- um-

K: Huh? OH-! Cut! Cut!! Can you guys pretend you didn't hear that last...

M: Ohhhh my goddddddd

Narration: Our next letter comes to us from DieYouScum-san, who writes, "I'm killing you when you get home"

#kiribaku #tododeku #translation #bnha #this is a short one that's mostly kirishima and deku talkin but i think it's very cute #i'm also still completely in shock that tumblr now lets you go back and fix typos in tags #good on ya tumblr stuff #this is just a super quick translation before bed and i played it kinda fast and loose w the expressions!! but i did my best to get the #meaning across!!#to talk abt mostly unrelated stuff yesterday on my way home from a long weekend i dropped by tokyo and to a huge anime resale store #they had soooo much bnha stuff but pointedly they had a whole separate building across the street for doujinshi #my local anime resale store lately has gotten so few bnha doujin that they stopped sorting them by ship so it's basically not worth looking #but this one had a ton of krbk all laid out and i was this close to not even going into the store but i came out w a little stack!#crazy to see so much krbk in person that i even had my /pick/ of safe fluffy stuff #anyway one of the ones i bought is abt them living together and the cover illustration is kirishima elbowing bkg in his sleep #i was gonna not just read more krbk before bed tonight but it looks so sweet and up my alley #ik i don't post much on here anymore and it's mostly bc adult life saps the paragraph-typing/thread-typing energy out of me #but those guys still have an apartment in my brain #hope you guys are doing well!!

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shireduchess · 2 months ago

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;; ☁️

#I don’t know where to talk about this so here I am ahhhhhhh anyway I’m worried that he doesn’t #want to talk to me anymore/ which is hopefully me being overreactive #and I don’t think I came off clingy at all I really hope I didn’t and I haven’t been texting him a tremendous amount also because #I’ve been waiting for him to text me back sometimes?#and idk maybe he was busy yesterday and doing things but hhhhhhh god #I hate being nervewracked by this stuff especially after feeling SO happy and grateful #and just like overwhelmed with emotions #the last text was a question I sent last night and nothing now and yet I’m a total loser #he deleted/hid his bumble profile so that’s a good thing right? because he’s not interested in anyone else #but I’m paranoid about a crash after that high about not being able to have good things #and I just need the reassurance that it’s okay and he does like me #because he’s flying away soon I think next weekend and he was the one who said we should hang out again #before he leaves #anyway this is what the inside of my head looks like right now. sad and nervous and anxious and needy and unsure #personal

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penisbilt · 7 months ago

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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL #really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us #ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great #extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore #the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog #its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow #i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating #i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one #i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it #theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget #anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by #there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad #cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now #maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that #im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away #ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free #i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20 #i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her #but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more #maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know #because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before #i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years #i dunno. i dont know #anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process #the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months #the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time #when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move #just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend

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a-lil-perspective · 6 months ago

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Pregnancy weekend plans is like

*wake up* -> *eat* -> *mildly exercise* ->*go back to sleep* -> *wake up* -> *eat* -> *mildly exercise* -> *go back to sleep*

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