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gothamite-rambler · 3 days ago
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Dentists seem to be their one weakness
Yes, this is based of Tori and Trina when Trina got her wisdom teeth removed.
Cass, Tim, and Stephanie entered the department store, but Cass quickly glanced at her phone and noticed that a couple of people were missing.
Cass: Where are Dick and Jason?
Tim: Um, I guess they didn’t tell you. Jason had all his wisdom teeth removed, and Dick guessed the wrong number, so he’s taking care of him.
Stephanie (alarmed): He got… all his wisdom teeth removed?
Tim: Yep. The crazy thing about the Lazarus Pit is that the liquid grew his wisdom teeth back, even though Bruce paid to have them removed before Jason died. Apparently, the dentist convinced Bruce it was best to take them all out because of the damage already done to Jason's mouth when he went last week.
Stephanie: Why would they even tell Bruce—he's covering the payment for the removal?
Tim nodded, chuckling.
Stephanie (snarky): Let me guess, Bruce dipped for an important vacation or mission?
Tim (feigning shock): Oh my God, how did you guess? He even brought Selina along to 'keep him company.'
Stephanie (shaking her head with a smile): All to avoid dealing with loopy Jason. Poor, poor Richard.
Cass: Why wouldn’t Bruce want to take care of Jason?
Stephanie snorted in laughter, waving her hand for Tim to explain.
Tim: Who do you think came up with this system? He’ll provide a ride home—that’s it.
Stephanie: It’s deceiving as heck, but I admire it.
Tim rolled his eyes.
Tim: You would.
Cass (doubtful): Jason has been through worse pain; he can’t be that bad.
Tim and Stephanie exchanged a knowing glance, then resumed their shopping without discussing the matter further.
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Meanwhile, at Dick's apartment, Jason sat on the couch, arms crossed, in pain from the novocaine wearing off, refusing to open his mouth for his medication.
Dick (holding out a purple pill): Take the pill.
Jason (with gauze in his mouth): No.
Dick (for the tenth time): I need you to take the pill.
Jason (muffled): Nuh-uh, they taste nasty!
Dick: We’ve been at this for thirty minutes!
Jason’s eyes darted toward the door, searching for an escape. In a sudden burst of energy, he elbowed his brother in the stomach. Dick fell to the ground but managed to grab Jason's leg before he could escape, knocking him down as well.
Dick (angry): You’re going to take this fucking pill—
Jason punched Dick in the cheek, sending him backward. In retaliation, Dick kicked Jason in the stomach.
Dick: We’re doing this the hard way, got it?
Dick grabbed his brother’s leg again and dragged him back. The brothers started grappling as Dick tried to pry open Jason’s mouth.
Jason (whining): I don’t want the pill!
Dick (shouting): You need it, or you’ll get an infection!
Jason flipped Dick across the coffee table, causing the irritated, tired man to growl in frustration.
Dick (enraged): I will break every bone in your body until you take this pill!
Jason: Catch me first!
Jason ran across the apartment as Dick chased after him. Hayley the dog and Austen the cat watched from a distance, amused by their antics.
Dick (pinning his brother): Take the pill! I don’t care what you say!
Jason: No, I don’t want it! They taste awful!
Dick: I’ve been dealing with this for five hours! Take it! Take it now!
With a final surge of determination, Dick held Jason down, pried his mouth open, and forced the pill down his throat. Jason screamed but eventually swallowed the pill, whining as he shoved Dick off him. Dick collapsed onto the floor, grumbling.
Jason rubbed his sore mouth, cursing the fact that his wisdom teeth had regrown since he’d been brought back to life. Dick calmly stood up, grabbed a glass of water, and lifted Jason by the shirt collar.
Dick: Here’s your water!
He tossed the liquid into Jason’s face, then dropped him back to the ground.
Jason: When my mouth is healed, I will break your arm, your leg, and all your teeth!
Dick: Awesome, I’m just going to lay down. Stupid number-guessing game!
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bubblergoespop · 1 day ago
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My Top Damien Quotes
i want him to chuck a water bottle at me ♥︎
“You are a person that is overflowing with love to give, and that is not too much, that is fucking beautiful.”
“I’m not going to get mad, I just want to know who did this to you.”
“My fire is a part of me.”
“I can do good. That’s all I want to do. I want to help.”
“Now who whimpers?”
“Well if you four would stop teasing me, I could stop doing my best impression of a furnace.”
“I have never felt more flaccid in my entire life.”
“Oh, he thinks I’m funny when I’m mad? Huxley has no idea what I look like when I’m mad.”
“C’mon nature boy, let’s get natural.”
“Handsome man [he’s saying this with a :3 on his face you can’t convince me otherwise]”
“Huxley, I need you.”
“I want all this anger to mean something.”
“I can walk.”
“You’re always so gentle with me. With everything. I-I’m not used to that.”
“Body like yours needs a little worship, you know?”
“Yeah. I’m fine… I’m freaking out.”
“A-are you gonna serve, or what? [he’s too busy gawking at Huxley’s muscles to realise he’s holding the ball himself, not Hux]”
“The rolls aren’t aerodynamic enough. I can’t get enough speed behind them.”
“Huxley seems to think threats are a way I express love.”
“Who. Was. It?”
“I’ve gotten pretty good at screaming at walls.”
“You remember that positive outlook when you’re ripping out your happy trail trying to get dried cum out of it.”
“I spent a lot of nights thinking about all the stuff this body of yours could do.”
“Hey. I don’t just care about it as a morally wrong action for the sake of it. I care about you. You’re my friend. A good one. And my friend is hurting, and I can do something about it, so I’m going to.”
“You are the person I choose. And I’m so fucking grateful that you’ve chosen me.”
“He [Huxley] does make it hard to get mad at him, even when he is doing something asinine. It’s like trying to stay mad at a puppy. Just doesn’t feel right.”
“The bear’s cute… For the record though, you’re the only teddy bear I need.”
“I’m made of tough stuff too Hux… and I like it rough…”
“All I can think about is worshipping this incredible body of yours.”
“It’s all yours.”
“God I love how big your hands are.”
“I don’t whimper [proceeds to whimper]… only with you.”
“Pick me up. Turn us around. Press me into the wall. And fuck me.”
“Yeah we’ll see how great you think I look when I set your hair on fire.”
“Just because I usually want you to top, doesn’t mean I don’t love your ass.”
“I wanna feel every fucking inch of this monster.”
“Ugh I laid down on your cum and I’m pretty sure we’re glued together now.”
“All mine huh?”
“Huxley. Fuck me. I wanna cum with your cock buried inside me all the way to the base.”
“I’ll trade you goofballs.”
“Cute glasses.”
Honourable Mentions (Non-Canon)
“I’ve had friends before. I’ve never had a friend that I felt as close to as I do to you.”
“You feel good. Except your hair’s trying to go up my nose.”
“Fuck. God, you drive me crazy with just a touch. Just a look, honestly.”
“Now gimme.”
“If you wanna know which one I’d prefer, ask me. Directly.”
“Do you think this is what they meant when they say ‘Light a fire under your ass’?”
“Yes, I’d say my fire likes you very much.”
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unluckycryptid · 2 days ago
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Popcorn Shrimp
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Summary: Chloe didn’t know Red had a shrimp allergy. Neither did Red.
AKA My attempt at Glassheart Crackfic
“Hmm, that’s an interesting taste.”
Chloe looked over at Red with a confused face.
She had just grabbed the two of them some food from the dining hall in the midst of their studying session and brought it back to their shared dorm. Red hadn’t told her what to grab, just telling the blue haired girl to ‘surprise her’ and had gone back to looking over a chemistry question that had been causing Chloe some trouble. The red haired girl was still at it when Chloe had come back with a variety of different foods they had been serving in the dining hall. Red had taken one of the takeout containers—the one filled with popcorn shrimp—and immediately started snacking on it while Chloe was busy laying out the rest of the food between them.
“What do you mean?” asked Chloe.
“Is it supposed to be—I dunno—spicy?” Red shrugged as she grabbed for another popcorn shrimp.
“Huh?”
‘Was Red talking about the marinara sauce?’ Chloe wondered, but it wasn’t laid out anywhere in front of them. Looking around, she spotted the little container still in the bag she had brought all of their food in.
“It’s an itchy sort of spicy, like I can feel it in the back of my throat. Can’t say I’ve ever had food like that before. Is that unique to Auradon?”
Oh no.
In less than a heartbeat, Chloe crossed whatever distance there was between her and Red and smacked the fried shrimp appetizer out of her hand.
“Wha- Hey! Mmmhf!!” Red exclaimed mid-bite when her blue haired roommate turned and stuck her hand in Red’s mouth. Chloe retracted her hand and hurled the shrimp that she had just been eating across the room.
Red felt two hands grab her face as Chloe looked her up and down with an urgency.
“Did you swallow?”
“Excuse me?”
“Red, did you swallow the shrimp? Yes or no?”
“Yea—”
Red couldn’t even get the full word out before she found herself being thrown over the shoulder of one Chloe Charming.
“Chloe! What the actual fuck is going o—owww!”
The blue haired girl had started running and accidentally smacked Red’s head into the door frame on the way out of their dorm.
But Chloe seemed to ignore her, instead opting to scream at other people in the hallway to move out of the way.
Everyone did. It’s not everyday you’d see the usually polite and demure Princess of Cinderellasburg cussing out anyone in her way while full-sprinting down the hallway with the Crown Princess of Wonderland yelling every sort of explicative known to man on her shoulder.
Principal Uma’s office was much closer than the infirmary on the other side of campus, so Chloe opted for there instead. Chloe practically kicked the door down while shouting, “Principal Uma!! We need medical help!”
“Chloe Cordelia Grace Charming, you put me down right now!”
“Girls!” exclaimed Uma who had been enjoying a peaceful night behind her desk up until now.
Chloe basically threw Red down on one of the couches as she rushed to explain, “Shrimp! Red— s-she ate shrimp!”
“What the hell, Chloe!”
“Charming, I may be from the sea, but that does not mean you get to waste my time—”
“She’s allergic! Red’s allergic!” Chloe cried in defense as she pointed to the girl on the couch, “She said the shrimp felt itchy.”
All eyes turned on Red.
Now that she mentioned it, Red did feel like she was having some trouble breathing.
“Stick her.” The Principal grabbed an Epipen from a desk drawer and threw it at Chloe.
“Wha—”
The next thing Red knew, there was a sharp needle stuck in her thigh. Red looked up slowly at Chloe, both of their mouths open in shock.
“I’m so sorry!”
“Oh you little—!”
“No time for that. Ms. Charming, grab Ms. Hearts and follow me. We’re taking the magic carpet to Auradon hospital.”
“Chloe, don’t you dare pick me up again!”
“Sorry Red, Principal Uma’s orders!”
“Nonono—ghhhuuhh!”
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“Oh my sweet darling rose! I’m so so sorry that I never thought of getting you checked for seafood allergies. Are you alright?” Bridget, the Queen of Wonderland, asked as she ran to her daughter’s side.
Red sat under the covers of the hospital bed, clearly not wanting to be there. The doctors were strongly encouraging her to stay and be monitored overnight. Of course, that meant she was going to stay the night at the hospital in this itchy gown.
“Yeah, mom, I’m fine,” Red grumbled before she was pulled into a bone crushing hug by Bridget. It was still so weird to Red that she had such an affectionate mother now.
“Moooommm, you’re embarrassing me.”
In the corner of the hospital room, sat her roommate and Principal Uma. The two stood up at Bridget’s arrival.
“Thank you again, Principal Uma, for bringing my daughter here as urgently as you could.”
“No need to thank me, Queen Bridget, just doing my job,” the Principal said as the two started walking towards the entrance.
Bridget turned towards the blue haired princess, “And, Chloe, thank you for calling and telling me everything.”
“Just let me choke next time.”
All three pairs of eyes rolled at the same time.
“Tell your mother I said hi for me, alright?” Bridget continued, giving Chloe a quick hug.
“Of course, Aunt Bridget,” said Chloe as she stepped away to join Uma at the doorway. She waved at Red.
“Bye, Red, and get back soon. Wouldn’t want this incident to shrimpede your studies.”
“You’ve been working on that one for a while now, haven’t you?”
“Why yes, yes I was.”
“Get out.”
“Alright.”
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spotsandsocks · 2 days ago
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Fuck it Friday 🩷🩷🛌🩷🩷
Tagged by lovely @tizniz and @hippolotamus with creative and fun ideas- go check them out
Single bed fic which could do with a name to be honest cos we’re getting close to the end
His lips had parted but even now he doesn’t know what he was going to say because Chris had appeared from nowhere with his request to join the camp out and then there were more looks exchanged between them and more confusion in his mind and heart and then it was dinner and then they were getting Chris to the camp and joining in for a song around the campfire before they walked back toward the hotel together and Buck had felt Eddie’s fingers brush against his more than once. He’d suggested they stop at the bar on the way past and that had led to a few drinks in armchairs in front of the fire and this time it was their knees and legs that knocked together as they talked about nothing and looked at each other and talked some more.
Last night of their trip…. 🤔
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sokuly419 · 3 days ago
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I don’t typically make posts like this myself, but maybe some others would like to hear it. This is something of a stream of thought so sorry if it seems choppy and whatever.
I’m not going to sugar coat it. This election was absolutely awful. I know we’re all fucking terrified. We’re all grieving. Famous show hosts to politicians on both sides of the aisle are in tears with us.
I bawled before they called it. I cried once Trump broke 100 electoral votes well before Harris. I knew it was over by time I went to bed. My best friend tried to talk me out of it, telling me it wasn’t over until it was. I absolutely bawled when I saw 210. My wife held me while I just sobbed in a way I haven’t in a very long time.
I am terrified. And heartbroken. And pissed.
Now… we have to live. Trust me, I’m having those thoughts too. Many of us are. But the biggest middle finger you can give to them is to stay alive. They want us dead. We know that. Don’t make it easy for them. Don’t make any of this easy for them.
Take your time to cry, scream, lose control for a moment. But don’t kill yourself. You will have a place in fighting back that no one else can take. You don’t have to be on the frontlines. Just simply staying alive is fighting back and if that’s all you can give, we’ll take it.
Listen to your favorite song one more time. And maybe again after that. And again. Rewatch your favorite show or movie. Do it a few times so you don’t forget your favorite scenes or lines. Read your favorite book or fanfic. Escape for a bit. Make your favorite comfort food.
Are you looking forward to a new show? A new season of a show you like? A new movie maybe? Is one of your favorite musicians releasing new music soon? Do you have pets? They won’t understand and they’ll miss you.
I don’t care what you have to do to keep seeing the next day, just do it. I know it’s hard. I really, really do. I’ve been there. I’ve tried more than once. I still have those thoughts. And those thoughts got bad again with the outcome of the election. We’ve already lost so many people because of it, there’s no denying it.
I hope this can reach at least one person who needs it. If this can save even one person from taking their life, I’ll take it.
Right now, I’m looking forward to season 2 of Arcane. I rewatched season 1. A She-Ra rewatch is in my sights too. I’ve been listening to new (to me) music. If you have Spotify, the daylist is a good way to get new music through the day. I have pets and they wouldn’t understand. I can’t do that to them. And it would devastate my wife. And my family. I have yet to reread a couple of my favorite fics.
Take it from someone who lost a best friend to suicide. The grief… it’s not something that can be explained. You will be missed. Your best friend will scream and cry and cuss out every deity there is. They will feel like they failed you in every way. I don’t wish that kind of grief on anyone. If I didn’t have the list of things I’m pushing through for, the experience I went through definitely would make me think long and hard about it.
Now is the time we organize and fight back. And we can’t do it without you. You’re fighting back by living, so live. And keep living. Stay as safe as you possibly can. I love you, stranger reading this. I see you. Let’s hold hands or hug or whatever and just breathe together for a minute. We’re alive. And we have to stay that way for as long as possible.
Don’t forget: the first Pride was a riot.
We got this. We’re going to do it terrified. But we’re gonna do it. We have to. We owe it to those before us.
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tiringwritings · 2 months ago
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so fucking hot and for what
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anabetel35 · 1 year ago
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If you like Kuwei, whatever you do, just don’t think about how he probably grew up isolated from his peers because of his father’s status. How he probably took to reading because no one around him could spare a single second for him. How, when he and his father had to flee the country and were captured by the Fjerdans, he probably realized that what happened to him was a perfect backstory for a main character of some epic story. How, when he had to watch his father try to create a drug that could enslave and kill nearly all Grisha in the world, people just like the two of them, his biggest comfort came from the silly belief that at the end of his story, he too would have everything that he wanted — a family, a lover, a friend, just anyone who would finally care about him. Recognition. Joy. Love.
How, when his father died and he was left alone, a small, delusional, cruel part of him was almost sure that it was necessary for him to then be loved. How, when the Crows came for him, deep down, he fully expected them to be his new family. How, even when everyone was cold to him on the ship, he still tired to convince himself that it was because one of theirs was on the brink of death. How he dumbly tried to tell himself that they won’t actually turn him over to the merchant that wants him because they’re reasonable people. How he spent his days and nights in a cold tomb, pushing down the memories of his now dead father and his grim future, all alone, curled up in a corner.
How he had developed a crush on Jesper, bright, kind, warm Jesper, as if he could do anything else, and then had to watch helplessly as that ray of sunshine ignored him, as he got closer to the boy that had his face. How his skills and efforts were ignored just because what he might know seemed far more important to the people around him. How, not more than two days before the auction where his death would be faked, he got kissed by the man he began to adore and then was disliked for it by the only member of the team that actually tried to befriend him for a while.
How he had to stand tall in front of all the people, all those merchants, the royalty, the warriors, the guards, the farmers, the children, everyone, all the people who came to the Church of barter just to see who he’d be sold to. How he had to trust the six teens who only had qualms about killing him because he was worth a whole lot of money, with his life as different governments called out numbers that could feed the whole world for an entire lifetime. How the last thing that he could’ve seen before he died if the bullet that hit his chest missed his button even by a single hair, was the chaos ‘Brekker and his Crows’ started.
How, when he woke up, he barely had any time to calm down because one of the teens, the Drüskelle, was dead. How he now had to mourn him now, too, along with all that he lost. How, when he was laying down on the ship to pretend he’s dead, he realized that the people he saw as his saviors less than two months ago, and as the thing that he wanted more than life, didn’t care for him at all anymore. That they might even be happier if he died. How, as he neared the sea, he couldn’t help but feel like he’d let his one chance at happiness higher along the canal and that he was now destined for a life of despair.
How, when he arrived to the Little Palace, he wasn’t met with kindness or friendly faces. How he had to hide the fact that the thing he worked on day and night was the cure to a drug that his father had created, a drug that could’ve destroyed Grisha all around the world. How he was their only hope in the war against Fjerda. How he spent his nights awake dreaming of being a part of the family that the Crows clearly were. How he couldn’t seem to fit in anywhere he went.
Most importantly of all, don’t think about the fact that he’d been alone all his life.
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twobrokenwyngs · 2 months ago
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can’t believe one week from today bal and I are gonna be hugging @trillgutterbug in real life and belting oasis at the top of our lungs while she transports us to the remote location which will surely be the site of our inevitable grisly deaths
I can’t fucking waitttttttt 😭😭😭
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werebutch · 5 months ago
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My mom getting a new place is kinda making me anxious I think she thinks I’m gonna move in w her instead of my dad 😭 and I’m not sure why I don’t want to. Cuz she’s way better. But I don’t. And I feel responsible I think and plus my sisters will never favor my mom over my dad… so we’d live apart. but I’m 20 years old I can live whatever I want. But. But but but
#idk I really like our house too. it’s great. it’s exactly my style. I would miss it LMAO#but again my mom is just.. she’s so much more organized and she and my stepdad actually get stuff done#and take care of themselves. living w her would be more like we’re roommates and not how it is w my dad#who needs to be taken care of and doted on like a child. my sisters too but I don’t think they’d survive living without me at my dads 💀#or they’d be really pissed at me. at the least#my dads house is constantly horrible so messy so so so bad no free counterspace anywhere can barely walk thru the house and cat vomit#everywhere. unless I take care of all of it. I can’t have company over unless I know a week in advance so I can make it look like a normal#house. and at my moms it’s never like that. it’s messier than average sure but it’s never disgusting like that#people are always telling me not to do anything and let my family learn to clean up after themselves but if I don’t it will just get worse#and worse. they’ll wait weeks before doing anything. it’s embarrassing. and depressing. if I let it go long enough I am miserable every day#after being homeless or on the verge of homelessness for 10 years my dad can’t even appreciate the fantastic house we have 😭#he has to fuck it all up. it’s not 100% his fault bc my sisters do fuck all but he DID teach them to be this way. the only reason I do#anything is because I snapped out of planning to kill myself and realized that I needed to be there for my sisters. so I started being like#their parent more and more. but they still never learned to unload the dishwasher or take out the trash without screaming about it.#I’m just very overwhelmed and nervous about this move. I also feel horrible as if I’m disappointing my mom if I don’t move in. I don’t want#to disappoint her any more than I already have..#she is soooo excited about giving me a room the basement so I can have my bunnies there..
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jewishbarbies · 8 months ago
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it’s really fucking annoying when goyim come in halfway to a conversation between jews and start bitching about what we should be talking about instead. like, you’re seriously going to come on to a thread of jews talking about the antisemitism in the way people use Israel’s right of return policy to delegitimize Israelis’ indigeneity and all the other countries that do it but don’t get criticized despite their own histories of colonization, just to go “ummm acktually you should be talking about how the right of return is used to colonize palestine”. get out. get the fuck out. this is why jews don’t feel comfortable having conversations about these kinds of gray topics with goyim, because all you’ll do is intentionally misread the room and shout your moot point from the rooftops like you’re a hero and then whine and cry when it’s not taken well, not to mention you won’t even look into the people already participating and find out what they think BEFORE you assume everyone talking is just an evil zionist colonizer nazi. stay the fuck out of jewish conversations and unpack your fucking antisemitism.
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terrahlee-cup · 3 months ago
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Sleep-deprived NLW reactions part two be upon thee @raphaelesbian
“Were you raised in a barn.” Yeah, he probably was. Ah this entire text chain, gremlins.
Raph and Leo don’t drive each other nutso challenge: impossible. Love these two so much oh my gosh. One day they will figure out how communication works probably.
The fact that Karai seems so ‘normal’ is incredibly concerning if the Shredder wants to try and trick them at some point.
Oh gosh the cameras. They’re all used to it being Raph they’re watching out for the way they all relax because he’s there just- augh. Raph not entirely getting why they’d want to keep an eye on Karai because he was the one on the other side before too hoo boy. He wants to just jump in and fix it since he understands Karai’s side of this, but his brothers don’t want to repeatedly confront her like with Raph so they’re much more hesitant to act. Raph’s frustration is completely understandable and so is his brothers’ fear of making the same mistakes again and I am in pain.
Oh fucking hell what’s in the box YUP LOVELY GOOD MHM. Uh- hey children- kiddos your brother’s checked the fuck out over there you should probably check on him? Raph shutting down on them isn’t going to help bud-
Whoop here’s Karai time for everything to get much worse. Raph’s brothers immediately going into protect mode when he’s frozen my heart I can’t- the Shredder is pissed Raph got away isn’t he, holy shit.
Oof, both Raph and Leo are technically right to some extent here. They really can’t just keep Raph in the lair, but waking up to not even a text letting them know he was going to be with Casey would have been freaky. They’re all so traumatized AND THEY’RE BABIES FUCK-
Why does he still have the tekkō-kagi why did no-one take that from him that is nOT GOOD. TAKE THE WEAPON THAT THE KID KEEPS STARING AT AWAY FROM HIM PLEASE.
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barley-st-band · 6 months ago
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hey does anyone know how we’re supposed to survive it all. asking for a friend
#she speaks#oh gang we’re really in it now#i don’t think i’ve ever felt this bad this deeply in my whole life lol#the burnout just keeps accumulating past any point i thought it could reach#and i can’t even pretend at work anymore#i’m so tired and these kids are so infuriating and it builds and builds every time they do something shitty#and i love them and it’s not their fault they’re just kids and they’re tired and it’s almost summer#but god i can’t fucking do it anymore#how exactly am i supposed to survive the next two weeks#the class i’m taking is too confusing and too fast paced#and i didn’t buy the textbook bc it’s 200 fucking dollars#and our apartment is always a mess#and i can’t keep up with friendships and feel like i’m constantly letting them down#and there’s nothing i can do to fix any of it#until the school year is over#bc at this point it takes everything i have just to get up and go to work in the mornings#but then i still have to somehow find energy to do other stuff too. and like actually teach.#i have to grade and do report cards and return materials and clean up my classroom#i need to complete a checklist the size of a novel before i leave for the summer#i need to keep the kids engaged but none of us want to be here#i need to start organizing to make next year easier#i need to fill out paperwork and spreadsheets and update my password and find time to feed myself and grade more papers and#vacuum the floors and scoop litter and clean up clutter and do dishes and wipe down counters#and i haven’t been able to fucking do any of it in months and left so many chores to my poor partner who’s also going through it#bc i have nothing left and i don’t know what to do!! i want to scream every minute of every day bc i’m so beyond overwhelmed the moment#i wake up in the morning but i don’t have time for a meltdown so i just keep going!!#i wish i had better words to explain how bad it’s gotten but the brain fog has gotten so so bad#i can barely think i can’t make decisions my memory and recall have gotten so much worse#i take my anxiety meds so often that they’ve stopped working#and yet i still worry that i’m making it up and being dramatic. anyway sorry about all this lol
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phasewashere · 4 months ago
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rant. mayhaps
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The way so many of Buck’s traumas are connected to the firetrucks he’s constantly around at work. He got crushed by a ladder truck, managed to get himself and Christopher to the top of a truck during the tsunami, crawled under yet another firetruck to save Eddie when he was shot before carrying Eddie into the cabin of that firetruck, was struck by lightning on the top of the ladder. First of all: if his new trauma with whatever happens during the season finale involves the ambulance instead, that’ll be literally every combination of vehicles used by the LAFD since the captain’s truck was what he used to drive himself and Eddie to Charlie’s apartment before the shooting. And yeah, obviously his traumas are going to be connected to firefighting equipment and vehicles, he is a firefighter after all. But the variety of traumas he’s experienced is horrifying when you imagine what he probably goes through trying to recover emotionally from the trauma. He might repeatedly re-traumatize himself because he doesn’t want to be anything but a firefighter, even after learning a little more about how he’s not expendable and shouldn’t consider himself as such. I’ve read so many fics out there that include the trauma of these events being intrinsically connected to his work as a firefighter. Basically, including his reactions to the first time he has to clean the bottom side of the ladder truck after the bombing, or the first time he goes up the ladder after being struck by lighting. And everyone (fandom-wise) was so shocked when he literally rolled under the firetruck to get to Eddie during the shooting. Now, I’m not sure if it’s a case of not everyone is traumatized the way I’m laying out here, the writers refuse to write an arc like that, or we’ll see the trauma drawn out in a different way that’s not connected to the firefighting vehicles (like we typically have in the past), but whatever the reason for the lack of trauma on the job, I know the fic writers have got us all well in hand.
Okay y’all, I was tagging this post and I realized I honest to god forgot the ambulance trauma from Buck and Eddie getting kidnapped by Dom and Mitchell WOW. Genuinely don’t know how I could’ve almost forgotten that because it’s probably one of my favorite sequence of events dramatized by this show. And well, I guess we’ve got the unholy quartet here already, but if there’s additional ambulance trauma for Buck in the season finale, I’m not opposed lol. Happy week leading up to the season finale everybody, let’s all hope we get all the angst with none of the grief.
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mutalune · 5 months ago
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hey siri how do I stop feeling gutwrenchingly anxious in the guilt way for using the treatment methods available to me to not be in constant misery
#starlight personal#it’s very bizarre to have my life going objectively well - work is good! personal life is good! family is good!#and still be very mentally ill and feel like I’m faking it even though I know damn well I ain’t scream-sobbing every couple of days alone in#my apartment for attention because What Attention??? my cat????? Bug is never moved by my tears she cares only for string and wires#like I know that cannabis has been immensely helpful to getting me to fucking sleep on a regular schedule and that’s integral to -#my functioning and I know that having emergency klonopin in the event of a total breakout is helpful#and I KNOW that my PMDD and depression and anxiety are very treatment resistant and ketamine is the only thing that’s provided any -#meaningful relief and logically I know I’m not abusing any of these#I’m getting a promotion at work I still go out to see friends regularly I have hobbies I have a girlfriend (??? Wild right)#like clearly these things are working because i’m better now than i was for years leading up to now#SO LIKE. DON’T STOP USING THE THINGS THAT HELP. LOGICALLY THIS MEANS THESE ARE GOOD FOR ME#I always roll my eyes when ppl go off their meds b/c they’re feeling better like babes that’s what the meds are meant to do#if you stop taking them you stop feeling better - but it’s REALLY HARD to get past the cultural conditioning#the feeling that ‘but I can white knuckle my way through this I can force myself to live without’ like WHY BITCH#WE DON’T HAVE TO LIVE WITHOUT#AND ALSO. WE’RE STILL GENERALLY MISERABLE BRO. EVEN WITH OUR LIFE IN A BETTER PLACE!!!#DO YOU NOT THINK THIS MEANS THAT WE SHOULD USE WHAT WE KNOW WORKS TO BE LESS MISERABLE#basically it’s really hard to not feel like a loser when the only things that help are ‘fun’ drugs like weed and psychedelics#I feel like I’m being a hedonistic reprobate which 1) is actually kinda cool now that I wrote it out#2) @ myself were not a good enough liar-faker that every medical professional we see wouldn’t pick up on that if that was our motivation#time to remind myself that it’s arrogant to think I could trick many trained professionals without actively trying tbh#that generally helps me get out of my self-pitying ‘ohhhhh I’m awful and lazy and bad and abusing substances’ spiral#to be very mentally ill on main it is weirdly reassuring to be like ‘just as my fanon interpretation of obi wan kinda hates himself but is -#practical enough to take care of himself even when it makes him cringe and want to scratch his face off; I too am aware that self-care is -#radical and punk and In Fact Necessary to beat back the dark and live in the light with hope so yes even though I doubt and -#feel squiggly and guilty about it I’m not going to NOT prioritize my health and well-being b/c self-hatred and self-denial benefits no one’#thank you inner obi wan i love projecting my issues onto you mwah mwah mwah smooches for my favorite boy!!!!!#and smooches for me I’m going to be proud of myself gosh darn it even if I have to fake it at first#see I wouldn’t be able to be nice to myself like this if I hadn’t been doing ketamine treatment for a year IT WORKS BRO KEEP IT UP#SCHEDULE THE DAMN APPOINTMENT AND CLEAN YOUR BONG
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heyitsvenus · 7 months ago
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